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I've had this blog for six years now. I think it's time for a new one. I don't enjoy sharing my thoughts with the same people anymore, only a few.

Why do I still miss you?

akilliz

i can’t imagine life without constantly learning & practicing new math concepts it’s such a grounding process

I don't like it if you miss me. Why would I long for you?

Phoenix

Somehow it feels like we've drifted a bit.

I fucking hate this.

People criticize you when they're guilty of the same shit.

I wish everything would just go away. I'm back to square one again.

I don't care about you. I miss you so much. I love you? Do you love me too? I know you do. You always hurt me. I'm always hurting me too. When does it end? When does it stop? Do you know? Can you tell me? Can you help me?

I know it's bad but I want to do it anyway.

The thing is drugs are always there for you right?

I think I always had a soft spot for those who died from overdoses.

Don't even fucking bother with me. What did I expect? That somehow my presence made a slight difference? I just can't compete. It's like the same tiring things over and over. And the thing is I don't even know what I'm feeling half the time anyway. There's so much uncertainty and I keep making myself sad. My doctor said I should start seeing someone again. I'm tired. I am so fucking done with this emptiness and sleepiness that doesn't even exist when I'm exhausted. Nothing makes it better. No matter how many pills I take one day it won't make a damn difference. It's still going to hurt and be the same for me.

I rely too much on them. But they help. I really want more.

It's the having expectations part that fucks you over.

I don't want this.

That which has to be faced, and is somehow profoundly familiar to the unconscious - though unknown, surprisingly and even frightening to the conscious personality - makes itself known; and what formerly was meaningful may become strangely emptied of value.

Joseph Campbell

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