a little less sixteen candles

“WHAT IS THE POINT OF BEING ALIVE IF YOU DON'T AT LEAST TRY TO DO SOMETHING REMARKABLE?” Jake Martin. 21 years old, junior at U of M, Kappa Alpha Order president, economic science major. “DO YOU EVER WONDER WHETHER PEOPLE WOULD LIKE YOU MORE OR LESS IF THEY COULD SEE INSIDE YOU? BUT I ALWAYS WONDER ABOUT THAT. IF PEOPLE COULD SEE ME THE WAY I SEE MYSELF—IF THEY COULD LIVE IN MY MEMORIES—WOULD ANYONE, ANYONE, LOVE ME?”

[d-lenis-deactivated20161224]

 “The second I looked at her, the whole universe changed.”

[brboliver-blog]

What restaurant is this? I need to avoid it.

[jakefqu-blog]

I actually forget, I have the menu around here with highlighter all over it.

[cheyxturner]

Some girls just don’t think they can be parents, so they panic. It would bother me too, actually it does, but I say you got the better deal, in the long run. You have a wonderful son, who will know what a great dad you are. Okay, so he might grow up wanting to know his Mom, but he’ll also resent her. It is the eyes and the fact that he can’t talk…only joking.

[jakefqu-blog]

But she had him for like three or four months since he was born, didn't she get attached or anything? I just- I don't know, it blows my mind. I just don't want him to blame me, or think that it was because of him. That would wreck me. You better be joking, or I'll just never speak again and see how you like it.

[anakensingtonarchive]

I don’t have it, Jake. So I’m expecting a lot of birthday parties in the future fighter or not. So it can continue scaring both of us because neither of us will have to live with it. You should because not only do I want to see it I’m sure the world wants to see it.

[jakefqu-blog]

You don't- oh thank god. Of course, you'll get tons of obnoxious balloons and everything, every single year. Well, would you wanna come over and see it in person? I think the little guy might miss you.

[brboliver-blog]

I think maybe the gods were mad at you that day.

[jakefqu-blog]

I'm not sure what I did to deserve those noodles, but it was a hellish experience. Never went back to that place.

[cheyxturner]

Hey, just remember; it takes two to tango. So this isn’t all your fault. And you aren’t being a burden. I adore that little boy probably more than I adore you.

[jakefqu-blog]

I realize that, and I wish she didn't just...leave him here. Advance notice, not abandoning me with a kid....it still bothers me that she could just give up her kid so easily. Wow, thanks a lot, it's the eyes isn't it? Those big puppy dog eyes he gives you.

[anakensingtonarchive]

What am I facing though? I don’t think I’m facing anything I’ve just been afraid. I mean Jake, I-I went and got tested for Huntington’s this week.I think four minutes was good you let him figure it out but he’s still good. You should have it would have been great.

[jakefqu-blog]

You are facing and standing up to a lot. You've lost a parent, you're struggling with this disease that honestly, scares the shit out of me. You are a fighter, whether you see it or not. Maybe if he gets stuck again, I'll grab my phone then.

[princeofparadise]

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[jakefqu-blog]

Here we are , isn’t it familiar ? Haven’t had someone to talk to in such a long time . And it’s strange , all we have in common, And your company was just the thing I needed tonight .

[cheyxturner]

Jake, I’m a theatre major. There isn’t much to it. Well, yeah… But I’m serious. You deserve to have some time to focus on you. And if I can help covering daycare for a day here or there I want to.

[jakefqu-blog]

I'll try to keep that in mind without feeling like a huge burden, keyword being try. I got myself into this, I'll get myself out.

[aussietonkin]

longer than they should.

[im-so-west-coastxx]

[anakensingtonarchive]

I like that you think I’m fearless. So the real question is how long did you make him be stuck? Just to see how funny it was. Did you at least take a video because I’m picturing it in my head and already laughing.

[jakefqu-blog]

Fearless doesn't mean not being afraid, it means that you face them instead of cowering or running from them. Not a lot of people can say that. I think it was like four minutes, I didn't want to make him hate me. No, shit, I should've taken a video. That would've gone viral.

[brboliver-blog]

But thai noodles are always from the gods.

[jakefqu-blog]

I disagree, I've had some seriously funky noodles.

[cheyxturner]

Well that’s fantastic Jake! I’m so proud of you, you know that? Though if you ever need free babysitter for days or classes you have tests. I’d be happy to lend a hand in that department. With working mainly Friday and Saturdays downtown, I make a killing, so I could help out until your work picks up. It’s no problem, helping you is the least I can do after all you have done for me.

[jakefqu-blog]

I know you're here, but you have your own education to get, and you were smart enough to not be a teen mom; I can't dump that on you. 

[anakensingtonarchive]

I mean-yeah, yeah it is scary. Well, it certainly seems that. Did he? Oh my God it sounds adorable, I miss my boys.  Was it only funny because you could see him getting frustrated because he couldn’t roll back over?

[jakefqu-blog]

You're pretty fearless though, Ana. It'll be alright. Yeah he did, and yeah it was kinda funny  because once he got on his back, he was stuck and you saw this look of 'oh shit' on his little face. I laughed harder than I should've.

[anakensingtonarchive]

Perspective is a scary thing, Jake. You’re already plotting ways to embarrass him when he’s older. It’s official you’re a Dad. I’m sure he looks adorable though, I couldn’t imagine him not.

[jakefqu-blog]

Life is scary, Ana, can't help it. I am, best perks of this job. He looked pretty cute, sitting on top of a pumpkin while my aunt had to hold him behind. He rolled over today, then got stuck..it was kinda funny.

[anakensingtonarchive]

I don’t think it would be. I’ve noticed that at least for me it’s for the worse. Maybe other people see other things. Well getting out was probably fun for him, it’s good to take him out and see everything. I don’t want to be a Debbie Downer but he won’t remember any of the things you do with him until he’s two or three. Well I’m glad you enjoyed it.

[jakefqu-blog]

People see you differently than you see yourself. It's all about perspective. Thanks for that. Well, I have pictures of him in the little fuzzy thing with the ears so when he's my age I can show any potential girlfriends and embarrass him. So that's a win in my book