an independent, somewhat selective single - muse blog for JAX from gooseworx's THE AMAZING DIGITAL CIRCUS ! i am not affiliated with the TADC RPC as a whole. i follow to interact, not to collect / become a number / hoard, &. i hope this sentiment can be returned. this blog is plot - driven, but winging it is okay too ! abstracted by 𝙼𝙰𝚇𝙸𝙽𝙴 —— she / they, 26. created in august of 2025. please note that activity will forever be in a fluctuating state, &. is subject to have changes at any time .ᐟ duplicate, oc, canon, &. crossover friendly ! 21+ &. no personals. hub blogs following are okay if the RP sideblogs are listed .ᐟ
! the following triggering themes will appear... death, depersonalization, untreated mental health— specifically BPD &. PTSD, alcohol, smoking, violence, childhood abuse / mistreatment, phobias, death + loss, toxic behaviors &. relationship. rules can be found beneath the cut.
01. hey ! im maxine, im 26, &. i love birdwatching and watching veterinary based shows ! in addition a few of my hobbies include jewelry making, writing, hiking, &. i LOVE to train household cats + research feline care and psychology. i have seizures that range in severity since early march and i tend to pass out easily due to cardiac complications. this can drastically effect my activity OOC and IC. i also work as a supervisor at a rather busy &. large animal rescue &. shelter, so my replies may be slow due to this as well !
01a. mutuals only selective blah yaddah, i SB if I don’t follow back— feel free to do the same ! tbh sometimes i cant remember if ive already followed someone so if u want to HB that’s ok w/ me ! activity consistency ? idk her. :/ all graphics have been made by me unless otherwise stated
01b. i'm fine with plotted dynamics &. just winging it or seeing where things take us ! while i don't have a verses page up yet, i'm totally all for crossovers ! i'm here for vibes &. to have fun, man. our muses don't have to require a super complex relationship to interact —— i just like interacting with folks ooc &. ic !
02. i’ll more than likely be using a combination of my own ideas and canon material. i luv duplicates ! again, fluctuating activity as always. my lack of reply OOC or IC is NEVER personal by any means. i also struggle to read screenshot replies ): if you think i need to change my format up to make it screen reader accessible please let me know, or if you just need a plain text version of the reply OR my rules ! <3 additionally jax can just about fit in a lot of verses even if my specific verse list is not completed at the moment. it's important to note that my jax at least has BPD, &. this can affect his thoughts, behaviors, &. relationships with others. he will have splits, he will rationalize what he can to himself. i base this off of my own diagnosis &. experience with having BPD.
03. PLEASE no drama 🙏 there’s a difference with personal issues and harmful ppl. if there’s validity behind it i’ll boost but i don’t really do dirty laundry. similarly my DMS are always open to talk ab things + any past grievances or issues as well. however if there's a lot of negativity or vent posts, I will probably have reservations. this is solely due to the kind of space i want on my dash. 💜 vaguing isn't something i enjoy as I personally see it as a bit unnecessary, &. unfortunately this is something I will remove a mutual over. this being said, i have a DNI against lamb/peoni/whichever name they choose now, you may DM me for details. the only active blog currently is i.nkaby / inpr0d.igy
04. i tag triggers as trigger /. off the top of my head I don’t have any that I specifically need tagged. if you have a specific tag you need me to use send thru IMs ! also idrc ab reblog karma go crazy go stupid ahh. I always reblog from source.
05. shipping? YES PLS OML. feel free to throw smn at me ! ofc i also do other types of dynamic —— jax's relationship with himself, his perception of others, &. his overall demeanor can make him rather hard to ship with. not to say that it can't happen ! it would just need some plotting if they have enough chemistry. nsfw may appear, but I will only do so with established writing partners. I can also do fade to black !
also, just a bit of a blog / activity update ! <43
I know I’ve been going at a snails pace for remaking, and tbh, I really don’t think my jaxboy will be active until after episode 9. I’ve been trying to avoid spoiler as best as I can due to the leaks, and to be honest, idk what’s come out with the VA / gooseworx just being an annoyance to me more than anything else I will admit it’s miffed my motivation a bit. I’m not the group that was directly impacted on what happened so it isn’t my place per se to speak on it- but I’m not a fan! and I don’t think we need to be necessarily excusing what happened. they were all adults, they knew what the word and such seemed like, idk! I just find it’s rubbing me the wrong way in which the apology was given and handled, and moreso the infantilization of grown adults- just bc it was 2019, they’re whole adults and should know better! I was never personally a fan of the va or gooseworx per se. not a direct dislike, I just never heard of them or laid them much attention. I just watched tadc bc I liked the plot potential and characters.
I will say, I am not the biggest fan of how Jax’s character has progressed and moreso how his dynamic with the cast changed in ep8. I find it very hard to chew that he was so easily accepted and included to the group just for the sake of togetherness bc they can’t escape. jax has had the mindset of no escape the whole time which does contribute to how he acts and I don’t treat him as a soft character or one capable of that kind of change per se. idk! It gave “aw bring it in!!!” villain dancing post credits vibe? I really do wish the show had a bit more focus on other cast and more world building. episode 8 set it up well for some C&W backstory but I think it would’ve been beneficial to give sight to backstory aside from jax… :/
this is just my opinion of course! your thoughts may be different than mine, that’s ok! I’ll never leave jax, he’s someone I can relate to and moreso my portrayal has been heavily molded based off my own experiences with BPD. but I won’t lie and say I’m not somewhat disappointed with how the plot has shifted and what’s happened with goose and Jax and zoobles VAs (don’t even get me started on kingers VA)
I’ll be kind of lurking between here and @roarknight and sometimes @endurehell ! you can always add me on discord cybwire- I just am touchy with activity due to being so busy! husband and I are trying to have a baby & prep to start a family, and with how much I work and how how little energy I have to be online these days, I can’t promise the fastest of replies!
anyways! thank you for reading if you made it this far. I’m not leaving jax, but it will be a little bit until I remake and am more active again
also, just a bit of a blog / activity update ! <43
I know I’ve been going at a snails pace for remaking, and tbh, I really don’t think my jaxboy will be active until after episode 9. I’ve been trying to avoid spoiler as best as I can due to the leaks, and to be honest, idk what’s come out with the VA / gooseworx just being an annoyance to me more than anything else I will admit it’s miffed my motivation a bit. I’m not the group that was directly impacted on what happened so it isn’t my place per se to speak on it- but I’m not a fan! and I don’t think we need to be necessarily excusing what happened. they were all adults, they knew what the word and such seemed like, idk! I just find it’s rubbing me the wrong way in which the apology was given and handled, and moreso the infantilization of grown adults- just bc it was 2019, they’re whole adults and should know better! I was never personally a fan of the va or gooseworx per se. not a direct dislike, I just never heard of them or laid them much attention. I just watched tadc bc I liked the plot potential and characters.
I will say, I am not the biggest fan of how Jax’s character has progressed and moreso how his dynamic with the cast changed in ep8. I find it very hard to chew that he was so easily accepted and included to the group just for the sake of togetherness bc they can’t escape. jax has had the mindset of no escape the whole time which does contribute to how he acts and I don’t treat him as a soft character or one capable of that kind of change per se. idk! It gave “aw bring it in!!!” villain dancing post credits vibe? I really do wish the show had a bit more focus on other cast and more world building. episode 8 set it up well for some C&W backstory but I think it would’ve been beneficial to give sight to backstory aside from jax… :/
this is just my opinion of course! your thoughts may be different than mine, that’s ok! I’ll never leave jax, he’s someone I can relate to and moreso my portrayal has been heavily molded based off my own experiences with BPD. but I won’t lie and say I’m not somewhat disappointed with how the plot has shifted and what’s happened with goose and Jax and zoobles VAs (don’t even get me started on kingers VA)
I’ll be kind of lurking between here and @roarknight and sometimes @endurehell ! you can always add me on discord cybwire- I just am touchy with activity due to being so busy! husband and I are trying to have a baby & prep to start a family, and with how much I work and how how little energy I have to be online these days, I can’t promise the fastest of replies!
anyways! thank you for reading if you made it this far. I’m not leaving jax, but it will be a little bit until I remake and am more active again
i apologize for my lack of activity lately, between my job, + mental health struggles. i've been in the process of moving out, all with very little time, or funds. (until the end of june) i'm going to drop my p.aypal, for anyone who wants to donate. however, it's not required. as always, reblogs are appreciated, && i hope to be writing with all of you again soon.
update: we are unable to secure a loan, && our car had been unknowingly repossessed in the early hours of the morning. sadly, neither of our jobs will be able to provide us the funds we'd need to reach our goal in the very small time-limit we got. (i've been taking as many hours as i possibly can, however, it's not enough.) in addition to this post, here is my roommate's g.ofundme. please, help us if you're able to. i love you all!
❙ @purgirltory › starter. song: lonely day by SOAD.
❝ if you go, i wanna go with you. ❞ jax's hands grip one of violet's tight, fingers digging into the soft skin underneath. the desperation in his eyes was uncharaceristic of him⸻ as was the confusion in his voice. ❪ no. he can't lose her. not like ❚❚❚❚❚❚. not like ❚❚❚❚❚❚. if she were to disappear, to go to the cellar god forbid, or escape ... he'd be glued to her. there with her. was it codepenency ? maybe. the fact didn't matter to him in the moment. ❫ ❝ violet. please. ❞
❝ you could HELP instead standing there doing nothing like a useless D - %$!#. the sooner we get this adventure done and over with, the sooner i can go back to my room. ❞
❝ sheesh ! language, zoob. this is a family friendly game, remember ? ❞ he shakes his head as he clicks his tongue against his teeth in disappointment. jax had been trailing at the back of the group throughout the adventure without contributing anything substancial to it. if anything⸻ he'd been a nuisance, throwing in false nuggets of information with no other purpose but to be disruptive to the entire cast. ❪ the funny one, remember ? always pushing the boundaries to see how far they can go. ❫
they reached a stopping point to recoup for a moment⸻ stretching out the soreness in their limbs from the long &. trechorous climb to the haunted temple. ❪ seriously, did caine watch indiana jones lately ? jax swears that the adventure had been feeling familiar. ❫ there's a dramatic &. heavy sigh as he tucks his thumbs into his pockets, shaking his head mildly. ❝ i don't see you doing much besides complaining all the time, you know. i'm surprised you even came out of your ditch for this one. did caine sing daisy daisy outside of your door again ? ❞
❝ i don't care what they have to say about us, anyways. ❞ cheeky laughter was peppered between words as yellow teeth peek through his upturned mouth, giving airin a half - hearted shove. ❪ jax never particularly gave much attention to how the other members spoke about him when he wasn't present. in all of the time he's spent trapped in this digital landscape ... others' thoughts of him were never at the forefront of his mind. ❫ ❝ so ! you gonna team up with me for this adventure or what ? they'll never know what's gonna hit them. ❞
damn what is with some parts of rpc being SO anti oc bro 😭 no one gaf about your half baked opinion on ocs when u can’t even match that kinda creativity and energy on a good day not 2 mention forming dynamics that r based on ur own noggin and creation of an oc. anyways personally I luv canon oc ships too! yum yum
to whoever needs to hear this right now: you’re doing fine. you’re doing well. your writing is good enough. you are good enough. please don’t second guess yourself, because you are doing fantastic. yes, i know it’s hard when the writing block hits, and yes, i know how you wish you could be better for everyone, but you are doing your best and your best is more than good enough. look at you, look at what you’ve created. look at what you’re doing. you are creating. that is a beautiful talent. creation. you make things come to life in what you do. you are so unique like that. you’re a writer. a creator. you’re good, sport. you’re more than good enough.
❙ @bungem › starter. song: imposter syndrome by sidney gish.
❝ nobody even knows my name, and no one suspects that I'm not fine. ❞ once again, jax's mask is donned as his arms cross, the quip rolling easily of the tongue ... &. the blatant lie hidden within the beginning of the statement. he wasn't keen on warm &. mushy introductions. never was, never will be. he bends down to elara's level as his eyes narrow. ❝ buuut! you're more than welcome to try to guess it. cmon⸻ i wanna see what ya come up with, bunny rabbit! ❞
