apocalypse - one
undergroundboxer!kuna x reader [soulmate au]
warnings [mdni] - angst | implied trauma | mean sukuna
wc - 7.3k
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ryomen sukuna knew three things about his soulmate.Â
she drank too much caffeine, she slept curled on her side whenever anxiety crawled beneath her skin and whenever she read for hours on end or colored, the noise in his head quieted enough to let him breathe.Â
it was fucking irritating.Â
the first time she got under his skin, it was in the middle of his first match.Â
heâd nearly put his fist through the guy, rage sitting ugly beneath his ribs as blood pooled in his mouth and sweat dripped down his spine.Â
then suddenly, he was overcome with serenity heâd never experienced before.Â
a calmness that wasnât his own, never his own.Â
something soft slipped beneath his skin then, warm and quiet in a way he wasnât used to. like somebody had pressed cold hands against the back of his neck after years of burning where he stood.Â
heâd won that match.Â
âagain?â toji muttered from across the gym, cigarette balanced lazily between scarred fingers.Â
sukuna rolled his jaw once before slamming another punch into the heavy bag hard enough for the chains overhead to rattle violently.Â
âfuck off.âÂ
toji smirked, tongue peaking out to lick at the scar against his lip.Â
the gym smelled like rust, sweat and the metallic ting of blood that both men were used to. it was a shitty set up buried beneath the city in the lower levels of an abandoned parking structure. it barely looked legal from the outside and the inside wasn't much better.Â
the concrete floors, flickering lights and men all too violent to exist comfortably above ground.Â
and it was the place ryomen sukuna felt alive.Â
sukuna had been fighting since he was fifteen and filled with a rage even he couldnât understand.Â
toji found him bloody outside a convenience store after some older guys tried jumping him for gambling money.Â
it was clear they didnât get the money but sukuna took that fire in his gaze out on them.Â
sukuna still recalled the way toji looked down at him, droplets cascading down his sharp features and dark hair, damp cigarette hanging from his mouth while blood dripped steadily from sukunaâs split brow.Â
âyou fight like an animal,â toji began, taking a drag of his fading cig before tilting his head at the salmon haired boy, âwhat if i told you that you could beat the shit out of guys every day and get paid for it?âÂ
a fucking dream is what that was. he gets to utilize his anger and he could finally get out of his fatherâs house.Â
how could sukuna even say no?Â
somehow, it turned into this.Â
years later, ryomen sukuna had become the name whispered through underground rings across the city. not because he was the biggest or the strongest, but because he was cruel.Â
there was something deeply unsettling about the way sukuna fought.Â
controlled, almost lazy sometimes. like violence came so naturally to him that he didnât even need to think about it.Â
people feared men who fought emotionally.Â
they feared ryomen sukuna more because he never did.Â
most nights, he fought beneath screaming neon lights while crowds chanted his name loud enough to shake the walls.Â
they bet on him like he was a sure thing and fuck, did he get a shitload of money from it.Â
heâd leave each night, beaten and bruised with a duffel of cash hanging off his shoulder.
he was living the dream.
that was until he arrived home, in his apartment downtown, and sat in silence while somebody elseâs emotions bled quietly into his chest.Â
a girl heâd never met yet somehow knew like the back of his hand, all too intimately.Â
he knew she liked coffee because of the bursts of energy heâd feel during mornings where he usually slept in because his fights usually carried into the night.Â
he knew she did yoga often because his muscles werenât as sore as they would get when he was younger and god knows it wasnât his doing. he didnât stretch nearly as much as toji nagged at him to.Â
he also knew that she despised him.Â
that one was obvious.Â
their bond always sharpened after his fights. her irritation sat bright and hot beneath his ribs every time he came home bruised and bloody.Â
sometimes he couldnât differentiate between his own rage and hers.Â
maybe they were more alike than he thought.Â
truthfully, sukuna didnât know how to do things any differently and frankly, he didnât care enough to.Â
he hated this whole soulmates shit. why would the universe ever pair two people together with the utmost certainty that they were perfect for each other?
and what fucking masacre did this girl commit to be bonded with him of all people?Â
violence was the only thing sukuna had ever been good at and he wouldnât change that for anyone, especially some girl who was almost a mere figment of his imagination.Â
he did that sometimes. pretended that he was a non-existent and that he was merely hallucinating her.Â
non-existents made up a very small part of the population and they were essentially humans who didnât have soulmates. like toji was.Â
lucky bastard.Â
sometimes sukuna believed toji was lying because heâd get this distant look on his face some days, kind of like himself when he felt his own soulmate torment him.Â
so maybe he was a late bloomer?Â
either way, he was in a better situation than sukuna was.Â
âyour girlâs pissed again?â toji commented dryly from where he leaned against the boxing ring ropes, head tilted with a knowingness sukuna hated.Â
toji was the one sukuna had to confide in because who else did he have?Â
when he was overwhelmed as a young teenager about his soulmate, toji would be the one he would reluctantly go to. the older man had taken him under his wing, so yes, he did trust him more than anyone.Â
he also knew that toji cared about him in his own fucked up way.Â
sukunaâs knuckles ached tonight, phantom annoyance curling beneath his skin that didnât belong to him. it was her.Â
probably studying somewhere in the city while silently wishing death upon him.Â
the thought almost made him grin.Â
throughout the years, pissing her off became a hobby of some sort, though he knew she didnât find it nearly as amusing as he did.Â
âat least you know sheâs got personality.â toji stated once more as sukuna finally stopped punching and turned to shoot the man a glare.Â
âshut the fuck up.â
toji huffed out a laugh, âgod help you both when you finally meet.â
the thought made sukuna freeze momentarily.Â
it was almost sad.Â
usually, at least from what sukuna knew, people usually couldnât wait to meet their soulmates.Â
then there was sukuna, filled with dread at the mere idea.Â
sukuna hated even talking about the bond.Â
he hated how aware he was of her.Â
because despite everything, the distance and never seeing her to begin with, she felt woven into him already, like a haunting.Â
some nights, when his insomnia clawed violently at his nerves after fights, heâd feel her wrap her arms around herself beneath warm blankets god knows where.Â
and sleep came easier those nights.Â
he couldnât explain it and truthfully, he didnât like to think about it.Â
he hated talking about her because the truth was ugly.Â
that he didnât particularly hate her. which is exactly why he knew meeting her would ruin everything.Â
naturally, his solution was to sabotage everything which is why he started to sleep around with non-existents whenever he got the chance.Â
and he knew what it did to her.Â
good. he hoped it made her despise him enough to never want anything to do with him, whether they meet now or twenty years down the line.Â
sukuna didnât want anything to do with her.Â
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you hated downtown on friday nights.Â
it was always too loud and all too crowded.Â
neon signs bled into rain-slick streets while bass-heavy music spilled from every open doorway along the block.Â
girls stumbled across sidewalks in tiny dresses and tall heels, drunken laughter cutting through the humid summer night air while taxis lined the streets endlessly.Â
the city looked beautiful after dark, but you still wanted to be everywhere but here.Â
âstop looking at people with that judgy look of yours.â shoko muttered beside you, nudging your shoulder lightly as the three of you crossed the street.
âiâm not judging, iâm just looking aroundâŠâ you defended with a huff as you hugged yourself protectively, little kitten heels clicking against the pavement.Â
âyou are judging,â utahime confirmed, âitâs your classic disgusted and glare-ey look.âÂ
âwell excuse me, youâre the ones who brought me to crackhead-ville.â you glared at the two girls as shoko rolled her eeys before hooking her arm through yours anyway.Â
she pulled you towards the entrance of yet another overcrowded building downtown.
apparently, tonightâs party was being held somewhere above an abandoned old bar. or beneath it.Â
either way, something you found entirely too ominous but you were too distracted when shoko was explaining to actually disagree.Â
your soulmate had spent the entire evening restless beneath your skin. not angry but worse.Â
aware.Â
you felt him constantly tonight.Â
a steady pulse of adrenaline humming through your bloodstream that didnât belong to you.Â
your chest had felt tight since leaving the penthouse, some strange tension settling low in your stomach like your body was anticipating something before your mind could catch up.
it was unsettling.Â
you blamed the lack of sleep, or rather, you blamed him. you blamed him for it all.Â
âew, ewâŠâ you muttered as shoko pulled you through the door into what you could only describe as chaos.Â
warmth and noise hit you instantly.Â
bodies crowded wall to wall beneath flashing lights while music shook violently through the floorboards.Â
cigarette smoke lingered in the air despite the open windows somewhere deeper inside the space.Â
you physically recoiled.Â
âoh my god,â utahime muttered beside you, laughing softly at the expression painting your features, âyou look horrified.âÂ
âi am horrified!âÂ
shoko snorted, ârich kids.âÂ
you threw her a glare before the three of you squeezed through the crowd until you reached a quieter section tucked near the back of the room.Â
a curved leather couch sat half-empty beneath dim red lights, thankfully far enough from the speakers that your skull stopped vibrating the second you sat down.Â
you exhaled deeply, chest deflating as you blinked up at your friends who were looking at you with amusement.Â
âdrinks?â utahime questioned as shoko nodded eagerly while you merely hummed, shoulders tense as you gazed around the sea of bodies.Â
utahime disappeared toward the bar while shoko took a seat beside you, the leather beneath you sticky in a way that had you shuddering, sitting at the very edge of the couch.Â
fuck, you hated this and you couldnât explain why.Â
yes, you hated parties in general but you just felt wrong.Â
âyouâre being weird tonight.â shoko observed, eyes narrowed on your tense figure.Â
you frowned faintly, âi knowâŠi feel weird.â
your skin felt like it was buzzing, chest vibrating in a way it usually wasnât.Â
it wasnât necessarily bad, but simply off.Â
you felt your soulmate more than ever tonight, you were almost hyperaware.Â
he felt electric.Â
every emotion coming from him felt sharper somehow, close enough that you could almost mistake them for your own.Â
your pulse kept jumping for no reason.Â
fuck, you hated this.Â
âis it devils dick?â shoko casually asked as your eyes closed momentarily.Â
how would you explain that it was both yes and no.Â
yes, the bond felt different tonight.Â
but no, it wasnât muscle aches or phantom pain you were feeling on his end, though you didn't want to speak too soon.Â
it was a friday after all. friday nights usually meant bruised ribs by saturday morning.Â
âoh my god, guys!â hime stood before you, handing shoko her drink before placing a water bottle in your hand, âeveryoneâs saying gojo and his crew are gonna be here!âÂ
your eyes rolled gently, very much aware of utahimeâs obsession with those random illegitimate fighters.Â
underground fights happened constantly throughout the city.Â
illegal betting rings buried beneath clubs and abandoned buildings, violent enough that respectable people pretended they didnât exist despite everyone secretly knowing otherwise.Â
your father even told you how known politicians and well known figures even placed bets they hid from the public. Â
and lately, there was one name that everyone kept talking about-
âdo you think sukuna would show up?â shoko questioned, eyes wide with excitement, taking a sip of her cherry vodka as you looked between the two girls.Â
ryomen sukuna.Â
youâd heard it constantly from utahime the past few months.Â
uathime, shoko, sora and percy often went on double dates to these underground fights you had zero interest in.Â
you were very much used to fifth wheeling alongside your friends, that wasnât the issue. the issue was rooted in the prospect of spending the night in a filthy underground boxing ring riddled with people and violence alike. yuck.Â
still, amongst all the fighters utahime gushed about, ryomen sukuna seemed to be the most known.Â
the undefeated underground fighter with pink hair and a snake tattoo across his shoulders and collarbones.Â
people were terrified of him just as equally as they were obsessed with him.Â
âpercy says sukuna knocked his opponent unconscious in under thirty seconds last week!â shoko stated, taking another sip as utahime nodded frantically.Â
âheâs insane!â utahime gushed, âlike, gojo is obviously a show off and just cares about the clout he gets but sukuna? heâs terrifyingâŠâ
utahime continued, you were sure. you could see her mouth moving but you didnât-couldnât register the words she'd uttered.Â
the world around you turned hazy, just enough to feel like everything slowed in a way that definitely wasnât normal.Â
your heartbeat stopped, not metaphorically, but physically.Â
a sharp wave of adrenaline crashed violently into your chest hard enough to steal the breath straight from your lungs.Â
you went still, every muscle in your body tightening instinctively.Â
you could see both of the girls leaning towards you, brows furrowed in concern, mouths moving and uttering words you knew were dipped in concern. you couldnât hear any of it.Â
you swallowed hard, eyes darting up and around you, as if a siren was luring you towards the crowd, come to me, come, come.Â
fuck, were you drugged or something?
your heartbeat stuttered painfully beneath your ribs, once, twice then again.Â
you felt like youâd been dropped underwater while everyone else remained above the surface.Â
the bond felt raw and entirely too overwhelming.
it felt like standing at the edge of something life-altering, like your soul had recognized something before your mind could catch up to it.Â
for the first time since youâd first felt your soulmate, he didnât feel far away.Â
you had grown used to the idea of him, something intangible and not truly real.Â
merely a ghost haunting the edges of your nervous system, phantom bruises in the middle of lectures and an adrenaline rush at three in the morning.Â
he was the deep-seated exhaustion that riddled your body but didnât belong to you.Â
but this felt real. close enough to touch.Â
the sensation crawled slowly beneath your skin, winding around your ribs like invisible string being pulled tighter and tighter and tighter until you thought you might choke on it.Â
the realization hit your bloodstream like a drug.Â
he was here, you knew it. you could feel it in your bones.Â
your eyes darted towards the door that had swung open, summer air rushing inside alongside four figures dressed almost entirely in black.Â
the first thing you noticed was height.Â
they all carried themselves with the same dangerous sort of confidence, the kind that came from men who had never truly feared consequences before.Â
one of them had snowy white locks, the tallest of the bunch, bright enough to catch beneath the flashing lights, sunglasses balanced lazily across his nose despite the fact that it was nearly midnight.Â
another stood beside him, quieter with shoulder length black locks with stretched gauges in his ears and sharp eyes that swept across the room once before settling into bored indifference.
the third one was shorter than the rest but still tall, black locks in two spiked buns with a joint resting between plump pink lips, eyes hooded in a way that exposed that joint not being his first of the night.
they were all attractive in a way that felt almost unfair and dangerous.Â
people moved out of their path without being asked.Â
your eyes turned to the one trailing just a step behind them and your breath caught so violently, it hurt.Â
the salmon colored locks gave him away.Â
ryomen sukuna.Â
tattoos curled dark against tan skin disappearing beneath the collar of a black shirt that stretched across broad shoulders.Â
even from where you stood, you could see the dried blood and bruises across his knuckles.Â
he looked nothing like what youâd imagined from shokoâs descriptions.Â
and simultaneously, exactly like it too.Â
something deep inside you snapped taut, your stomach dropping.Â
you could tell he was dazed too, jaw locked and eyes blinking at a slow pace, eyes looking around the sea of bodies.Â
the soulmate bond surged so hard beneath your ribs, you physically recoiled, fingers gripping the edge of the leather couch.Â
oh god. no, no, no.
oh my godâŠ
âoh my god,â utahime whispered beside you, though unlike you, she sounded impressed rather than horrified.Â
shoko looked moments away from passing out entirely.Â
âthatâs him!â she breathed out quietly.Â
you couldnât answer, breath stilling and hands trembling.Â
because sukuna had stopped walking.
fuck, the realization came slowly enough to feel cruel.Â
maroon eyes met your own and the room around you dissolved entirely. the music became muffled noise, lights blurring and the crowd disappeared.
all you could see was him. him. him. him.Â
he was all you could see, feel and you knew all he could see was you.Â
sukuna felt it the second he stepped through the doorway.Â
you.Â
the bond snapped violently alive beneath his skin hard enough that his entire body locked for half a second mid-step.Â
he almost thought someone had drugged him until he remembered he hadnât even drank anything yet.Â
then what was this feeling?Â
his eyes locked on yours and he felt the most alive heâd felt in his life.
something even the ring and the violence couldn't offer.Â
there you were, all too pretty and wide eyed.Â
he barely heard gojo speak beside him anymore, the lanky man rambling on about some idiot from last weekâs fight who apparently called him out on twitter after.Â
sukuna ignored him completely because across the room sat a girl staring at him like sheâd seen a ghost.Â
and in some ways, he was your ghost.Â
he haunted you and lived under your skin in ways he was sure you didnât appreciate in the slightest.Â
his soulmate.Â
years of phantom feelings crashed together all at once so violently, it almost made him sick.Â
because the realization hit him harder than heâd anticipated and yes, he had anticipated this.Â
the moment heâd meet his soulmate.Â
well, he dreaded more than anticipated it.Â
it hit him hard because he realized that he knew this girl.Â
sukuna had never met you, yet, he bet he knew you more than the two girls hovering over you. more than fucking anyone.Â
you were the girl whose stress bled into his bones during finals week, the girl who wrapped her arms around herself at night and somehow lulled him to sleep from miles away.Â
you were real.Â
and you looked soft.Â
that was the first thing he took note of.Â
soft skin, soft wide eyes, soft pink shimmery gloss coating your plush lips he recognized only through phantom warmth heâd felt against his own skin before.Â
his soulmate was a pretty little thing, so pretty it almost made his chest ache. in your tiny skirt and halter top.
far too fucking pretty to belong anywhere near him.Â
âsukuna?âÂ
chosoâs voice cut through the haze faintly and sukuna snapped out of it, gaze finally leaving hers to glance at his friend who tilted his head towards the other side of the room.Â
sukuna resisted the urge to glance at you as he made his way across the room.
fuck, fuck, fuck!Â
this couldnât be happening, this was a fucking nightmare.Â
just as he made it across the room, he felt it.Â
warm fingertips brushing his own skin despite his hands at his sides.Â
his pulse stuttered once.Â
his gaze snapped to yours once more and your eyes widened instantly when you noticed his hand drift to his neck where your own hand was resting.Â
slowly and carefully, sukuna lifted his own hand.Â
his fingers brushed lightly against the side of his jaw, a barely there touch.Â
yet, across the room, your breath hitched sharply as warmth bloomed against your own jawline seconds later.Â
not imagined or coincidence. it was all real, so so real.Â
your stomach twisted violently.Â
oh no. no no no no.Â
shoko was gazing at you, âwhatâs wrong?!âÂ
you couldnât answer, eyes stuck on a pair of crimson that held you hostage.
her eyes narrowed as both her and utahime followed your gaze before catching sukunaâs eyes on you.Â
then they both looked between you both a total of five times before realization hit.Â
âwait,â shoko whispered harshly, hand shooting out to grip your arm, âWAIT.â
your heartbeat pounded so violently, you thought you might faint right then and there beneath the flashing red lights.
what you despised most is that it made sense.Â
of course it was him. a violent and dangerous underground fighter, fuck, that explained everything so perfectly.
if fate was a person, youâd have her by the neck right now.Â
because sukuna was still staring at you, as if he knew you already and perhaps, he did.Â
then horrifyingly, he smirked.Â
and suddenly, you understood exactly why the entire city feared ryomen sukuna.Â
sukuna moved before he could really think about it, jaw clenched but determined.
one second he stood on the other side of the room and the next, his body was already weaving through the crowd toward you like the bond itself had wrapped invisible fingers around his spine and dragged him to you. you. his soulmate.Â
people moved instantly to let him pass.Â
you took note of that immediately.Â
you noticed the way conversations died around him, the way bodies shifted out of his path and nobody dared touch him, even accidentally.Â
it was fear, you realized. people feared him.Â
the recognition made your stomach twist.Â
âoh my god,â shoko whispered harshly beside you, nails digging into your arm, âheâs coming over here!âÂ
âi can see that.â you hissed back faintly, though your voice barely sounded like your own.Â
fuck, you should leave. you should absolutely leave.Â
except, you couldnât move, body drilled to where you sat, frozen in place while ryomen fucking sukuna rossed the room toward you like some predator chasing prey.Â
closer and closer and closer.Â
until suddenly, all his 6â4 glory was towering above you.Â
your breath caught embarrassingly hard.Â
up close, he was worse.Â
taller than youâd imagined and broader too.Â
there were faint bruises scattered along his jawline beneath the dim lights, on the very spot that you woke up feeling sore. fresh cuts healed across his knuckles.Â
and his eyes, god, they looked at you with the same recognition burning through your own chest.Â
sukuna looked down at you for a moment too long.Â
fuck, you were even more ethereal up close.Â
that thought hit him first and annoyingly hardest.Â
his pretty little soulmate sitting curled into the edge of a leather couch looking at him with wide doe eyes, almost expectantly with a mix of fear and restraint.Â
âhey.âÂ
his voice slid down your spine like smoke.Â
low, dangerous and rough in a way even your mind couldnât conjure up.
fuck, was this really happening?
your throat tightened instantly, âhi.â
the word left you horrifyingly softer than youâd intended and sukunaâs lips twitched at the sound.Â
your voice was his favorite sound, instantly.Â
âum,â shoko hummed, eyes wide as she shared a glance with utahime, âweâll give you two a second.â
you almost wanted to yell in protest, but the two girls were already shuffling away, shooting you encouraging looks.Â
as you glanced up at the dangerous man once more, you felt your heart still in a way you hadnât ever felt before.Â
not in fear or apprehension but calm.Â
he made you feel calm, your body stilling and quieting in a way you hadnât expected.Â
regretfully, fuck, you despised it, but when that gentleness overcame you and you looked up at himâŠ
his disheveled pink locks, his handsome rugged features and his dark eyes, all of it was him.Â
and you felt stupid for trying to deny that this man was your soulmate.Â
who else would it be?Â
âiâm sukuna,â he stated lowly, moving to take a seat beside you, leaving an appreciative distance between you, âryomen sukuna.âÂ
your name left you softly with a nod.Â
as you gazed at each other, the same realization overcame you both.Â
even with barely an introduction, you knew each other.Â
while sukuna had only fond memories of what youâd done for him, your mind was riddled with poisonous ones.Â
this was the man who often trained in the middle of the night, filling you with soreness and a rush of adrenaline that left you sleepless most nights.Â
he was the one who fucked other girls knowing what that put you through.Â
your heart clenched.Â
beyond all those things, he was the one who hugged himself to sleep after that one night of utter hell.Â
he was the one who held a hot water bottle to his stomach when your cramps left you nauseated and pained in bed.Â
as much as you wanted to forget those things, to snap yourself out of the sad patheticness that riddled you, how could you?
how could you when those were the only memories that kept your hope that he wasnât a total monster alive?
your eyes travelled along his bloodied knuckles, âyou get those a lot.âÂ
sukunaâs fists instinctively clenched at the attention.
âand you burn yourself with whatever you do your hair with at least twice a week.â
your eyes widened instantly.Â
âand you get punched like every other day!âÂ
sukunaâs mouth twitched and you hated how your eyes drifted towards the movement and your heart stuttered.Â
âbarely.â sukuna stated cooly, a small smirk painting his features.Â
your eyes drifted toward him again before you could stop yourself.Â
and then you remembered.Â
every phantom feeling, every sleepless night and every ache.
all attached to him.Â
the violence, the pain, the girls.Â
your jaw tightened, "youâre not exactly the best person to be connected to, you know.âÂ
sukunaâs expression didnât shift much, still cool, but you felt it.Â
the hollow drop in your stomach that wasnât yours. guilt.Â
real and immediate, it almost made you laugh in disbelief.Â
of course he felt guilty, he had to know he was a fucking nightmare.Â
sukuna leaned back slightly, jaw working once as his gaze flickered away from yours for half a second, âyeah, i bet.âÂ
your brows lifted, âthatâs it?âÂ
his eyes returned to yours, low and indifferent.Â
you scoffed, anger bubbling up so quickly, it nearly startled you, âthatâs all you have to say?âÂ
sukuna let out a breath through his nose, âwhat do you want me to say?â
âoh, i donât know,â you let out a sharp little laugh that held not an ounce of humor, âmaybe sorry would be a good place to start?!âÂ
sukunaâs head tilted, âsorry.âÂ
you stared at him in utter disbelief before a laugh left you once more, this time softer and dripped in something worse than anger, âwowâŠâÂ
sukunaâs eyes borrowed, âwhat?âÂ
âyouâre unbelievable is what!âÂ
âyou asked for sorry.âÂ
ânot like that!â you nsapped, voice rising just enough to have your cheeks flushing, ânot like youâre apologizing for stepping on my shoe!â
his expression hardened slightly and you felt it immediately, the irritation beginning to curl beneath his skin.Â
ugh, you hated how the closeness made both your emotions so heightened.Â
âyou have no idea what you put me through,â you continued, voice trembling despite you rbest efforts, ânone.âÂ
sukunaâs gaze darkened, âdonât do that.â
âdo what?âÂ
âact like i wasnât there too.âÂ
you blinked at him, something hot and ugly twisting in your chest.Â
was he for real?Â
âyou were there?â you repeated quietly, âyou were there?âÂ
his jaw clenched, âdonât-â
âno, please,â you leaned forward slightly, anger sharpening every word, âexplain it to me. because to my knowledge, you were the one making my life miserable while i was the one trying to keep us both sane!â
sukuna looked at you for a long moment, jaw clenching and unclenching.Â
the lights washed over his face in flashes of red, making him look even more unreal than he already did.Â
âyou think i wanted this?â he stated more than asked and your heart clenched.Â
hurt shot through you, your eyes growing glassy against your will because you knew he wasnât referring to the pain heâd put you through.Â
he meant the soulmate thing in general, fate as a whole.Â
he didnât want you.
you bit the inside of your cheek, willing your tears to stay in your eyes before breathing out, âno. but neither did i.âÂ
silence settled between you then, not peaceful but loaded.Â
sukuna could physically feel your hurt and his eyes dropped briefly to your hands where they trembled in your lap.Â
your fingers curled instantly, too proud as you hid the movement.Â
it was too late. heâd seen it.Â
even worse, heâd felt it.
âi didnât know.â he stated lowly and you froze.Â
your eyes flickered up, âwhat?âÂ
his tongue pressed against the inside of his cheek, expression unreadable.Â
âat first,â he clarified, âi didnât know what it did to you.âÂ
your chest tightening, knowing what he was referring to and his words didnât soothe you in the slightest.Â
âand after?âÂ
in fact, it made it all worse.Â
especially as he said nothing.Â
your face fell slightly, all the anger in you cooling into something quieter and melancholic.Â
âafter, you knew.âÂ
his gaze remained on you as his fingers flexed once against his thigh, âyeah, i knew.âÂ
your eyes burned and you hated yourself for it.Â
you hated that it still hurt despite knowing already, you hated that hearing him say it aloud made it real in a way the bond never had.Â
âwhy?â you asked, the one word absolutely humiliating as much as it was devastating.Â
sukuna looked away first and somehow, that hurt too, âbecause it was easier.âÂ
your lips parted faintly, âeasier?âÂ
he lout out a grunt, âif you hated me, you wouldnât look for me.âÂ
the words settled between you like something deadly.Â
for a second, you genuinely couldnât speak.Â
then you did, âthat is the stupidest, shittiest thing iâve ever heard.âÂ
hsi eyes snapped back to yours, scowling, âcareful.âÂ
âoh, fuck you!â you hissed lowly, âyou donât get to do that! you donât get to hurt me on purpose and then act like it was some noble sacrifice.âÂ
his jaw tightened, âit wasnât noble.âÂ
âyeah, no shit.âÂ
âit was necessary.âÂ
you laughed once, incredulous, ânecessary? well, congrats, you got what you wanted, i absolutely fucking despise you.âÂ
sukunaâs jaw clenched, eyes glaring at you, âgood. because you donât know shit about me, this saves us both the hassle.â
âi donât know you?â you shot back, âi know you more than anyone, probably. i know your body hurts more often than they donât. i know you clench your jaw when youâre mad. i know you canât sleep because of your nightmares and unless somebody practcially forces your nervous system to shut down, you could go days without it. i know youâre so angry at the fucking world, it makes you so hateful.â
sukuna went still, too still.Â
you swallowed hard, eyes burning once more, âand i know that for years, i was the one cleaning up the damage you left behind.âÂ
his eyes darkened, âcleaning up?âÂ
âyes,â your voice cracked despite yourself, âme. i was the one hugging myself to sleep because you wouldnât. i was the one stretching every morning because your body always felt like fucking concrete. i was the one coloring like a goddamn toddler at three in the morning because it was the only thing that made your anger stop choking me!âÂ
sukuna said nothing and you hated that even more.Â
you wanted him to argue back, to answer, to fucking care.Â
âdo you know how pathetic that feels?â you whispered, âtaking care of someone who kept hurting me?âÂ
his expression shifted, barely, but you felt it again.Â
the guilt, even deeper this time.Â
sukuna looked at you like he wanted to say something cruel and couldnât quite manage it, settling with, âyou didnât have to do all that.âÂ
your laugh came out watery, tears now trickling down your heated cheeks.Â
fuck, you felt nauseous, you felt so fucking sick.Â
âyeah, i know that now.âÂ
something passed across his face then, a flicker of pain so quick, you almost missed it.Â
but the bond didnât allow you to miss anything. you felt it bloom in your own chest, sharp and unwanted. his.Â
for one terrible second, you almost let it soften you.Â
almost.Â
because there it was again.Â
that tiny, stupid sliver of hope youâd spend years nurturing because it was the only thing that kept you mildly sane.Â
the one that whispered that maybe he wasn't all cruelty. maybe there was something beneath all that violence and pain.Â
maybe the boy who held a hot water bottle to his stomach when your cramps got bad had to exist somewhere inside the man sitting in front of you.Â
you looked at him then, through your blurry vision, really and truly looked.Â
the hard line of his jaw, the coldness in his eyes and the casual arrogance sitting across his shoulders like armor.Â
and that hope crumbled quietly inside your chest.Â
not dramatically or all at once, but piece by piece, like something old finally accepting it had been dead for a long time.Â
utter disappointment filled you then. you should have known better.Â
this shouldn't be surprising.Â
sukuna had spent years telling you exactly who he was, painting you the worst image of himself and you had hoped it was just that.Â
the worst of himself.Â
except the worst was all of him.Â
sukuna was cruel. not because he didnât know better but because he did.Â
because heâd known what hurt you and decided hurting you was easier than wanting you.Â
you swallowed around the ache in your throat, suddenly exhausted in a way a thousand years of sleep couldnât fix.Â
all you wanted was to be home now, cuddled up with ani in your room alone.Â
âright,â you whispered, nodding once to yourself.Â
sukunaâs brows pulled together slightly, âright what?âÂ
you pushed yourself to your feet, smoothing trembling hands over the front of your skirt because you needed something to do. anything that didnât involve looking at him.Â
âthis was enlightening.âÂ
his eyes narrowed, âsit down.âÂ
the command sparked something sharp beneath your ribs, the thorn twisting in your heart.Â
you let out a hollow laugh, âfuck you.âÂ
his jaw flexed, âdonât make a scene.âÂ
your name left him then and you hated the way your stomach fluttered at the melody of it in his voice.Â
fuck, your heart hurt.Â
because he was your soulmate. yours.
because some sick, twisted part of you had expected the universe to redeem itself when you finally found him.Â
you expected the first moment to feel like every story youâd grown up hearing, witnessed amongst your friends.Â
warmth, recognition and relief.Â
instead, you were standing in front of the man who had turned your body into a battlefield and your heart into collateral damage.Â
âi hope i never see you again.âÂ
something flickered across his face then and you didnât stay long enough to decipher it.Â
you turned around, the crowd swallowing you almost immediately as you walked away.Â
music slammed back into your skull, bodies pressing close as you pushed through them with shaking hands and blurred vision.Â
your chest felt too tight, lungs too small for the oxygen your body ached for.Â
behind you, you felt sukuna rise before you saw it. the immediate pull.
his presence growing closer and your heart stuttered stupidly.Â
some miserable, pathetic part of you sparked alive at the thought before you could kill it.Â
maybe he did care.Â
maybe he was going to take back all the words he regretted, that he would stop you and apologize properly this time.Â
he would say what youâve been waiting years to feel.Â
the thought was so humiliating, it almost made you sick.Â
âfuck are you lookinâ at?!âÂ
you heard his voice aimed at the crowd of people that were watching you both, probably since your conversation on the couch.Â
you shoved through the door and stepped into the narrow hallway outside the main room, the music muffling instantly behind you.Â
the air was cooler here, damp with rain and cigarette smoke, blue neon bleeding through the cracked windows at the end of the corridor.
you took in a breath like you hadnât breathed in days, eyes shutting as your heart hammered against your chest, trying to simply process everything that had taken place.Â
âhey.â his voice followed you out and you froze, heart stilling.Â
stupid, traitorous thing.Â
you turned slowly, eyes fluttering open.Â
sukuna stood a few feet away, tall and shadowed beneath the hallway light.Â
away from the party, he seemed even more dangerous. less like a person and more like a warning your body had spent seven years failing to understand.Â
he was an enigma.Â
for one breath, neither of you spoke.Â
your hope stood there too, fragile and shaking, fucking pitiful.Â
waiting.Â
sukunaâs gaze dragged over your face once, catching on the wetness beneath your eyes and his expression tightened faintly.Â
say it, you thought bitterly.Â
say sorry! say you didnât mean it!Â
say something!
his jaw worked once, âno one can know.âÂ
your brows furrowed, the hope dying cleanly.Â
âexcuse me?âÂ
sukuna stepped closer, voice lower now.Â
his mouth opened to clarify when his gaze met your own once more.Â
your wide glassy eyes. your pretty face that was streaked with tears, your plump bitten lips.Â
the little sniffles that left you, making his ribs ache.Â
and suddenly, he froze, the words stuck in his throat.Â
fuck, he had to get it together.Â
âabout this.âÂ
your lips parted faintly, âabout us?â
the word us felt absolutely pathetic in your mouth.Â
all too soft and hopeful. undeserved, even.Â
something in his eyes shifted at the sound of it but it was gone before you could hold onto it.Â
âthere is no us.âÂ
oh. you actually felt that one.Â
not through the bond, nor as some phantom ache borrowed from him.Â
the pain was yours, all yours.Â
you laughed once, quiet and disbelieving as you took a small step back, âwowâŠâ
sukuna followed you, taking one step forward as his jaw clenched, âlisten to me-âÂ
âno,â you shook your head slowly, voice trembling, âno, i think i understand perfectly.âÂ
âoh my god,â you shook your head, âi canât believe i thought-âÂ
you stopped, humiliation burning up your throat.Â
sukuna stared, taking a step closer, his chest now brushing your chin, âthought what?âÂ
his voice was almost desperate and you swallowed, blinking hard, ânothing.âÂ
his face tightened and he felt it anyway, of course he did.Â
the hope and hurt.Â
the fact that some tiny, unbearable part of you had wanted him to come after you because he simply couldnât let you leave.Â
sukuna looked away first as you took a step back. fucking coward.Â
âitâs dangerous.â he stated as you stared at the side of his face.
âdangerous?âÂ
âyes.âÂ
âfor who?âÂ
his gaze cut back to yours, âfor you.âÂ
you almost laugh but he continued before you could.Â
âpeople know me and if they know about you, theyâll use you. you make me weak.âÂ
the words landed colder than you'd expected.Â
sukuna watched you closely, as if waiting for the fear to register and maybe it did.Â
somewhere deep, deep down, but anger got there first.Â
âso thatâs what this is?â you whispered, tears leaving you without you noticing, âdamage control?âÂ
his silence was answer enough and you nodded faintly, tears burning hot once more.Â
âright.âÂ
âyou need to keep your mouth shut about it.âÂ
you flinched before you could stop yourself and sukuna paused, regret flashing through instantly.Â
âdonât talk to me like that.â you stated lowly and his jaw clenched.Â
âiâm trying to keep you safe.âÂ
âoh, how big of you.âÂ
the hallway seemed to shrink around you both.Â
outside, rain tapped gently against the glass.Â
inside, bass thudded like a second heartbeat through the walls.Â
you looked at him then, this man that fate had tied to you with an invisible string and cruelty dressed up as destiny. and for the first time since youâd felt him at sixteen, you stopped wondering what it would be like to find him.Â
because now you knew and god, you wish you didnât.Â
it felt like losing something youâd never even had.Â
âis that all?â you questioned lowly, clearing your throat once.
sukuna stared at you, nose flaring and throat bobbing once, âyeah.âÂ
another piece of you gave out as you nodded, âokay.âÂ
the word was so calm, it made his eyes sharpen.Â
you turned away, walking past him but his hand caught your wirst before you could take full step.Â
skin met skin and the bond went silent, completely and utterly silent.Â
no buzzing or aching or distance.Â
just him, all warm and real. terribly real.Â
your breath hitched at his touch. it was the first time heâd ever touched you.Â
sukuna froze too, fingers wrapped around your wrist like heâd touched fire and couldnât make himself pull away.Â
for one second, just one, all the cruelty fell quiet.Â
and you felt him beneath it, scared and lonely, wanting and waiting.Â
you felt it and you hated him for letting you feel it now.Â
slowly, you looked down at his hand then back up at him, âlet go.âÂ
his grip tightened by a fraction, âthis is the best thing for the both of us.âÂ
your face crumpled before you could stop it.Â
you pulled your wrist free and this time, he let you.Â
âoh, trust me, not having to be stuck with you? i couldnât agree more.â venom laced your words as sukunaâs expression changed, tightened and you felt the hurt then.Â
sharp and immediate and you were glad for it.Â
you turned and walked away then, tears streaming down your cheeks and a sob left you as soon as you were out of his vicinity.Â
for the first time, the bond didn't feel like a thread pulling you closerâŠ
it felt like noose.
â
an | was so late with this but had the worst past few days so SORRY! anyways PLSSS lmk what u think cuz i'm iffy abt the direction of this BUT this is lowk my fav thing i've written omg! this is kinda like a prologue pt2, next chapters will deffo be longer! i cannot wait to write more of these two and sukuna's a dick but bear w him ! also each chapter in the masterlist will be titled a song and i recommend listening to it while reading for the vibes đ«Ą
also lowk need toji BAD i wanna give him some lore so lmk if u want a one-shot of him in this au!
synopsis: Sukuna doesnât fall for people,he wins them, then gets bored. Frat king, reckless, used to easy victories, he notices you because youâre different,too quiet, too soft, too unaware of how pretty you actually are. So he turns it into a game,slipping into your days, earning your trust, getting you comfortable⊠until getting you is easy. And when he finally does, he leaves like he always does.
Only this time,you donât chase. You donât fight. You just⊠disappear,And for the first time, Sukuna realizesâheâs not done with you.Even if youâre done with him.
So will he learn to live with it⊠or do whatever it takes to make it right?
Wc: 5k!
Warnings: Sukuna is CRUEL, sukuna being a typical fratboy,reader insecurity, suggestive ,ANGST, sukuna gets close then leaves, reader catching feelings implied, heartbreak, ghosting behaviour, confrontation scene, soft reader, avoidance, Sukuna being verbally mean. Sukuna has unknown feelings which he realises late.
Ch 1 , Ch 2 ch3
The music was loud enough to feel before it could be heard.
It pulsed through the walls, through the floorboards, through the cheap plastic cups stacked along the kitchen counter. The music bled into everything, turning voices into fragments, laughter disappeared as quickly as they came. The frat house was already too full, bodies packed,heat clinging to skin, alcohol thick in the air.
And somewhere in the middle of it,
Sukuna stood like he belonged to it.
He wasn't lost in it...ever.
Part of it in a way that felt⊠intentional.
His back rested against the kitchen counter, one hand loosely wrapped around a bottle he hadnât bothered to set down, the other braced behind him as people moved around without asking for space. They adjusted instead. Leaned away, curved around him, made room without thinking.
It had always been like that.
Effortless.
There was a girl pressed close to his side, laughing at something heâd said a minute ago or maybe a few. Her hand slid up his arm, fingers tracing over the ink that disappeared beneath the sleeve of his shirt, lingering there like she expected him to react.
He didnât.
Not like he needed to.
He glanced at her, just enough to acknowledge her presence, the corner of his mouth lifting into that familiar, sharp-edged smirk that gave people exactly what they wanted without offering anything real.
âYouâre not even listening to me,â she complained, though there was no real irritation in it.
Youâre not even listening to me,â she complained, though there was no real irritation in it.
âI was,â he said, voice low, unconcerned.
âYou werenât.â
âThen say it again.â
She laughed, like that was charming.
Like that was enough.
It usually was.This was routine to him.
Upstairs, the air was marginally cooler, though not by much. The hallway lights flickered faintly, music muffled just enough to feel distant but never gone. A door slammed somewhere. Someone stumbled into the wall, laughing too hard at nothing.
Sukuna pushed into his room without knocking, not checking if anyone else was inside.
There was. Of course there was.
Another girl. Different face. Same expectation.
She looked up when he entered, already smiling, already shifting toward him like she knew how this would go. Like they all did.
There was no conversation that mattered.
No questions.
Just the familiar rhythm of something that started and ended without leaving anything behind.
For Sukuna, it was less about desire and more about habit.
A way to pass time.
A way to fill space.
A way to keep things exactly as they were, temporary, controlled, forgettable.
By the time he stepped back out into the hallway again, pulling his shirt back on with one hand, he had already moved on.
To him...nothing stayed long enough to matter.
By the time morning came, the house had quieted into something almost unrecognizable.
The aftermath of chaos. Empty cups scattered across surfaces, the faint smell of alcohol soaked into furniture, doors left half-open, bodies passed out in places they wouldnât remember ending up in.
Sukuna stepped over someone asleep on the couch without looking down, grabbing his keys from the counter as he moved toward the door.
Rarely ever hungover, just another day to him
Campus in the late morning felt like a different world entirely.
Sunlight cut cleanly through the space between buildings, students moving in steady streams, conversations softer, more contained.
Sukuna fit into it just as easily.
Like he hadnât been somewhere else entirely just hours before.
He walked through the courtyard with that same loose, unbothered posture, hands tucked into his pockets, gaze moving without really settling. A few people greeted him as he passed. He acknowledged some, ignored others. It didnât make a difference.
Sukuna was bored of people easily.
And thenâ
His eyes caught something ⊠or someone,
You were sitting at the far edge of the courtyard, where the noise softened into something manageable.
His steps didnât stop but his eyes did stop as he looked at you.
You werenât there in a hidden way,
Just⊠in your own space?
There were people around you, but not close enough to intrude. A small pocket of quiet in the middle of everything else. You sat beside Shoko, angled slightly toward her, your attention fixed entirely on whatever she was saying.
You werenât trying to be interesting.
That was the first thing he noticed.
No exaggerated reactions, no careful awareness of who might be watching, no subtle adjustments meant to draw attention. You just stayed in your space.
Your hands were wrapped around a cup, fingers absently tracing the rim. Your posture was smaller than it needed to be, shoulders drawn in slightly, like you were used to taking up less space without thinking about it.
And your faceâ
Sukunaâs gaze lingered there a second longer.
Pretty.
Not in the way that demanded a reaction,or in the way that made people look and know immediately.
But in a way that settled in quietly.
The kind people noticed after a moment,then couldnât quite stop noticing.
You were laughing at something that shoko said, just naturally not in a practiced way.
Sukuna didnât realize he had slowed until someone bumped into his shoulder.
âWatch it,â they muttered, already moving past.
He barely registered it.
Because he was still looking at you.
Not with hunger just yet,something else which was sharper in a way that had him drawn to you,it was new.
âDonât,â Shokoâs voice cut in, suddenly closer than he expected.
He hadnât noticed her approach.
Sukuna shifted his gaze to her, one brow lifting slightly in question.
âI didnât say anything,â he replied.
âYou donât have to.â She said with a humourless serious expression.
Sukuna glanced back at you, still sitting exactly where you had been, still unaware of the way his attention had fixed on you.
A slow, almost lazy smile pulled at his mouth.Interested.
âYeah?â he murmured.
Shoko didnât respond.
Because the look in his eyes had already answered her.
Across the courtyard, you shifted slightly in your seat, adjusting your grip on your cup, completely unaware of the way something had just⊠begun.
And sukuna didnât look away for once.
Then it started , not even intentional, at first.
Just a thought that lingered a second longer than it should have.
Sukuna didnât usually do repetition.
That was one of the few unspoken rules he followed without thinking about it. Faces changed, places blurred, nights overlapped into something indistinct. Nothing held his attention long enough to become routine.
And yet,
Three days after he saw you first time,
He noticed you again.
You were sitting in the same lecture hall as him.
You were already there when he walked in, head slightly tilted down, pen moving steadily across your notebook, in your own space. People were still settling, chairs scraping, conversations overlapping, but none of it seemed to touch you.
You didnât look up when he entered,didnât notice him,till he walked up to your seat and took a seat next to you.
Your hand stilled mid-sentence, your gaze lifting just enough to register him in your periphery before turning fully.
ââŠHi,â you said,quietly.
He leaned back slightly in his seat, one arm draped lazily over the backrest, like this was the most natural decision he could have made.
âYou always this early?â he asked.
You blinked.
âI like being on timeâ
âThatâs boring.â
Your brows pulled together just slightly. âItâs practical.â
He huffed out a short breath that almost resembled a laugh.
âYou actually care about this stuff?â
âI have to pass.â
âPeople pass without caring.â
You looked at him for a second longer this time, like you were trying to figure out if he was being serious.
âThen theyâre luckyâ, is all you said before turning to your notes.
And just like that,
You dismissed him.
Just⊠naturally.
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It shouldâve ended there,as a brief interruption. A passing interaction. Forgettable.
Thatâs always how it was with him.
People entered, overlapped for a while, and then dissolved into the blur of everything else.
But thisâ
This didnât dissolve.
After that day, it was like Sukuna had quietly, deliberately woven himself into the fabric of your routine.
Not in a way that could be pointed out and named.
Just⊠consistently.
Youâd step out of class and find him leaning against the wall across the hallway, phone in hand, looking up just as you walked past like heâd been there longer than necessary.
The next day, heâd fall into step beside you without asking, matching your pace like it was instinct rather than choice.
In the library, the chair across from you stopped being empty.
Then it stopped being surprising.You didnât notice when it shifted.Not exactly.
There wasnât a moment you could trace back to and say this is where it changed.
It happened somewhere between shared silences and small conversations, between him interrupting your focus and you no longer minding it.
Somewhere betweenâ
ââŠyou always write this much?â he asked once, glancing at your notebook, pages filled edge to edge.
âI have small handwriting,â you muttered, not looking up.
âThatâs not small, thatâs obsessive.â
âItâs efficient.â
He leaned closer, just enough to scan a line.
âYou even organize your notes. Colors and everything.â
âIt helps me remember.â
âOr you just like things neat.â
ââŠWhatâs wrong with that?â
âNothing,â he said, straightening slightly. âJust means youâre predictable.â
That made you pause.
Your pen hovered mid-air before you finally looked at him.
âIâm not predictable.â
He smirked, slow and knowing.
âYou sit in the same seat every class.â
âThatâs habit.â
âYou order the same coffee.â
âThatâs preference.â
âYou reread your notes twice before closing your book.â
ââŠThatâs called studying.â
His smirk deepened, like heâd proven something.
You frowned at him, but there was no real irritation behind it.
âWhy are you even paying attention to all that?â
There it was.The question.
Unassuming.
But it landed somewhere deeper than it should have.
Sukuna held your gaze for a second too long.
And just saidâŠâŠânothing better to do.â
You didnât question it.
You should have.
But you didnât
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You found yourself smiling more when he was around, even when you didnât mean to.
Laughing at things you probably wouldnât have found funny before.
Saying things without overthinking them first, words slipping out before you could measure them, filter them, decide if they were worth saying at all.
And he noticed.
Of course he did.
He noticed everything about you in a way no one else ever had.
The way your voice softened when you got comfortable mid-conversation.
The way you looked at him when you were trying to understand something he said, brows slightly drawn together, completely focused.
The way you forgot yourself sometimes,
And just⊠existed.
âSay that again,â he said one afternoon, leaning back in his chair.
You looked up from your notes. âWhat?â
âWhat you just said.â
âI didnât say anything important.â
âYou laughed.â
Your lips pressed together immediately, like you were trying to take it back.
âI always laugh.â
âNot like that.â
You frowned. âLike what?â
He didnât answer right away.
Just watched you.
Then, quieterâ
âLike you forgot to hold it in.â
Something warm crept up your neck before you could stop it.
âThat doesnât mean anything.â
âIt does.â
You shook your head quickly, looking away.
âIt doesnât â
But your smile lingered.
After that, it stopped feeling like effort.
You were just⊠there. In the hallway, in the library, somewhere on campus where he didnât have to look too hard. It became routine without ever being named as one. Your presence slipped into his days quietly, until it no longer felt like something he chose, but something that simply existed.
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There was a part that unsettled him.
Not you.
Not the closeness.
But the way it lingered even when you werenât there.
The way his attention didnât shift as easily as it used to. The way moments with you stayed sharper than everything else, clearer, harder to blur into nothing like he was used to.
It didnât fit into anything he understood.
So he refused to understand it.
Pushed it down. Flattened it into something simpler, something familiar, something he could control.
It didnât matter to Sukuna.
Not when he had a goal in mind.
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The party had already tipped past control by the time Sukuna started paying attention to anything.
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Music thudded through the walls, heavy bass rattling the staircase, bodies packed shoulder to shoulder like the house was built to hold less than half of them. Someone had spilled something sticky near the kitchen, people stepped through it anyway. Laughter rose in bursts, cut through by shouting, by someone calling for another round that no one needed.
Upstairs, the balcony overlooked all of it.
And Sukuna stood there like he owned it.
One arm hooked lazily over the railing, a drink in his hand he hadnât finished, half-listening to Gojo talking absolute nonsense beside him while a couple of girls hovered a little too close.
ââIâm telling you,â Gojo was saying, grinning like he always did, âif you had just listened to meââ
âI didnât,â Sukuna cut in flatly, not even looking at him.
Gojo snorted. âYeah, obviously.â
From the other side, Toji leaned back against the wall, watching the crowd below with the kind of disinterest that only meant he was noticing everything.
âBoring night,â he muttered.
Sukuna almost agreed.Almost.
Then his gaze shifted.
And stopped.
You.
It clicked instantly this time.
Not gradually or subtly.
Immediate.
The dress.
Tight enough to matter.
Soft enough to look like it wasnât meant for a place like this.
Shorter than anything heâd seen you in before,way shorter,and it showed in the way you carried yourself. Not confident, not practiced. You kept adjusting it without thinking, fingers brushing the hem, shoulders pulling in just slightly like you were still figuring out how to exist in it.
Like you hadnât worn it for this.
Like you didnât know what it did.
Sukunaâs smirk came easy.
Slow and certain.
âWell, thatâs new,â Gojo said suddenly, following his line of sight. âDidnât know your type came to parties.â
Sukuna didnât answer.Didnât need to.
Toji huffed quietly. âShe looks like sheâs gonna leave in ten minutes.â
âNot tonight,â Sukuna said, already pushing off the railing.
That was all.
Decision made.
Downstairs, the air hit warmer, heavier, the noise louder the second he stepped back into it. People moved out of his way without thinking, someone called his name, someone grabbed his arm,he shrugged it off without breaking stride.
His focus didnât shift.
You didnât see him until he was already there.
Close enough that the space around you felt⊠different.
You turned,
And your expression changed the second you recognized him.
That softness again with that ease.
Sukuna stopped in front of you, gaze dropping immediately.Slow.
ââŠYouâre full of surprises.â
Your fingers brushed your dress again, instinctively.
âI just-tried something different.â
âYeah,â he said, voice low, amused, âfigured.â
You hesitated under his gaze, but you didnât shrink. Didnât step back.
You stayed exactly where you were.
âShoko make you wear that?â he asked.
Your brows pulled together slightly. âNo.â
âThen what?decided to switch it up?â
ââŠSomething like that.â
He leaned a little closer.
Not enough to trap you.
Just enough.
âLooks better on you than the whole quiet act.â
That caught you off guard.
Your lips parted slightly. âIâm notââ
âYou are,â he cut in, not harsh, just certain. âJust donât notice it.â
Heat crept up your neck.
But you didnât argue.
Didnât deflect.
You just looked at him.
ââŠDo you think itâs too much?â you asked, quieter now, almost like you werenât sure why you were asking him at all.
Sukunaâs eyes flickered,just for a second.Then his smirk deepened.
âNah,â he said, taking the cup from your hand like it was his to take, fingers brushing yours without pause. âThink youâre just not used to people looking.â
Your breath caught.
âPeople arenâtââ
âThey are.â
You didnât finish your sentence or look around to check.You just⊠believed him.
He set your drink aside without asking.
Your hand stayed suspended in the air for a second before dropping.
âRelax,â he added, quieter now, eyes still on you. âYou look like youâre trying not to.â
âIâm not,â you said, but it came out softer than you meant.
He huffed a quiet laugh.
âYeah, you are.â
There was a pause.
Not empty.
Just⊠close.
And then
His hand found your wrist.
His grip was not rough but firm.
âCome on.â
This time, you didnât ask where but you knew because you felt it in the way he said it.In the way he was looking at you.
In the way the space between you had already changed.
Your fingers tightened slightly before you let him pull you forward.
You didn't resist it,just went along with it.
Upstairs, the music dulled into something distant, the noise fading behind you with every step. The hallway stretched quieter, dimly lit, the air cooler,but it didnât settle anything.
If anything, it made everything clearer.You were aware now of where you were going,of what this was.Your steps slowed for half a second not to stop but just enough to take it in.
Sukuna noticed.
He glanced back at you, something sharper in his gaze now,not questioning, not checking but registering.
You didnât pull your hand away or step back.
You met his eyes for a second and they didnât look uncertain which was all he needed.
Inside his room, the door shut behind you with a quiet click.
The sound landed heavier than it should have.
The shift was immediate.
No noise. No distractions.
Just the two of you,and everything that had been building.
You exhaled softly, your hand brushing down the side of your dress again, smoothing it without thinking.
But this time,you didnât look away.
Sukuna stepped closer.Slow and measured.
His hand came up to your waist again, firmer this time, pulling you in until there wasnât space left to hesitate in. The fabric of your dress shifted under his grip, your breath catching as your hands came up to him,not unsure now, just⊠instinctive.
There was no teasing left or any need for it.
His hand moved higher, slower now, like he was taking his time for once,not out of care, but because he could. Because you werenât pulling away. Because you were right there, letting him.
Your grip tightened in his shirt.Your breath unsteady.
And when he leaned in, his lips on yours, melting.
you didnât hesitate.
Everything after that blurred into heat and closeness.The kind that built fast once it started.
Your back meeting the wall for a second, then the bed, the space shifting under you as the dress youâd been so aware of earlier became something in the way more than anything else.
Fabric pulled, pushed aside, slipping out of place under impatient hands.
His skin on yours.
Your breathing broke first.
Then steadied into something else entirely.
Sukuna didnât slow down or stop to think.
Didnât question the way this felt slightly different from everything else because to himâ
it wasnât.
It was exactly what heâd expected.
Exactly what heâd decided.
And he moved through it like he always did, like it would end the same way it always did.
___
The Morning came.
The room didnât feel like the night before.
What had been loud and close and overwhelming was now still, the air cooler, thinner somehow. Light slipped in through the curtains in soft lines, cutting across the bed, across the floor, across you.
For a moment, nothing moved.
Sukuna was already awake.
Not fully out of bed, not rushing, just⊠there. Sitting at the edge, leaning forward slightly, phone in hand, scrolling without really looking.
Like heâd already stepped out of whatever last night had been.
You stirred behind him slowly.
The shift in the sheets, the quiet sound of movement,
He noticed. But he didnât turn immediately.
ââŠYouâre up early,â you said, voice softer than usual, still carrying the weight of sleep.
He hummed, noncommittal.
âYeah.â
You pushed yourself up slightly, the sheets gathering around you, your eyes adjusting to the light, to the room, to him.
âAre you leaving?â you asked after a pause.
Not accusing....Just unsure.
Sukuna glanced back then, brief, almost distracted.
âGot stuff.â
That was it,you nodded like that made sense.
Like you werenât expecting anything more.
The silence stretched for a moment after that.
He stood, pulling his shirt on without much thought, movements easy, familiar, like this was routine.
You watched him quietly, trying to take him in.
Trying to understand something you couldnât quite name yet.
âYou have class today?â you asked, quieter now.
âMaybe.â
A small pause.
Thenâ
ââŠI do.â
He didnât respond to that or ask when and where. Perhaps, that was the first shift
So small it couldâve been ignored.
But it stayed.
By the time he left, it felt like the room had changed again.
Not empty.
Just⊠different.
You stayed a little longer.
Not because you had to.
Because leaving felt like acknowledging something you werenât ready to name yet.
___
On campus, everything moved like it always did.
Classes filled. Conversations overlapped. People passed by without looking twice.
Nothing had changed.
Except what had.
You noticed it first in the lecture hall ,the seat beside yours, empty.
You told yourself it didnât mean anything,he didnât always come early or come at all.
Stillâ
You found yourself glancing at the door.
Once...Then again.
He came in late.Of course he did like always.
But this time,he didnât sit beside you.He took a seat further back.Didnât look your way or acknowledge you.
Your fingers tightened slightly around your pen.
You told yourselfâ
It didnât mean anything.
It kept happening.
In the hallway, youâd catch a glimpse of him,surrounded, laughing, moving through people the way he always did.
Effortless.
But not with you.
In the library, the chair across from you stayed empty.
Days passed like that.
And slowly,
That quiet, unspoken shift turned into something harder to ignore.
Because he wasnât gone, he was just not there with you anymore
And Sukunaâ
Sukuna didnât think about it.
Not really.
Not when he was drinking again, laughter loud, someone pressed close to his side.
Not when the nights blurred back into something easy, familiar, forgettable.
It was back to normal.Exactly how it should be.
And yetâ
There were moments.
Small ones.
A pause in the middle of a conversation when something didnât feel as interesting as it should.
A glance toward a space before realizing why he was looking.
A flicker of recognition that didnât settle into anything he could name.
It didnât make sense or matter.So he ignored it.
Because whatever that was,it wasnât enough to mean anything...just yet.
___
At first, it was easy to explain.
He didnât sit beside you in class-fine. He was never consistent.He didnât come to the library-fine. He never liked it anyway.He didnât walk with you after lectures-fine.
It was all fine.
You told yourself that enough times that it almost sounded true.
But the problem was that it didn't feel the same.
Once, you caught his eye in the hallway.Just for a second.
And something in your chest lifted before you could stop itâ
But he didnât slow.
Didnât stop.
Didnât even acknowledge it.
Like it hadnât happened.
That stayed longer than it should have.
You started leaving the library earlier.
Stopped sitting in the same place sometimes.
Changed your routes between classes without thinking too much about why.
It didnât help. Because it wasn't about the place to begin with.
Shoko noticed but she didn't say much.
Just watched you a little more carefully, her expression tightening every time Sukunaâs name came up around you,even when it wasnât directed at you.
___
And thenâ
there was another party,one you almost didnât go,but staying in felt worse.So you did.
The music hit the second you stepped inside, loud and overwhelming, the same chaos as before,but this time, it didnât feel unfamiliar.
It felt...distant.
You spotted him quickly.You always did.
He was cross the room.Surrounded.
A girl leaned into him, laughing at something he said, her hand resting too comfortably against his chest. Another stood close enough that their shoulders brushed every time he moved.
He didnât push them away or look uncomfortable.
Didnât look like anything had changed.
He looked exactly the same.
Your chest tightened, something sharp and quiet settling in your throat, making it hard to breathe properly.
You stood there longer than you should have.
Watching.
Waiting for something.
A glance,anything at all,but nothing came.
before you could stop yourself,you moved.
The crowd blurred as you pushed through it, your steps faster than you meant them to be, your thoughts louder than the music around you.
He noticed you before you reached him, ofcourse.
His eyes flicked to you briefly.Then stayed.The girl beside him said something.
He didnât respond immediately.
Because now,you were standing in front of him.
Too close.Too exposed.
âWhat are you doing?â you asked.Your voice was quiet.
But it didnât shake.
Not yet.
His brows lifted slightly.Not confused.Just⊠mildly surprised.
âWhat does it look like?â
You swallowed.
âThatâs not what I meant.â
A pause.
The noise around you felt distant now.
Like everything had pulled back just enough to leave the two of you standing there.
âThen what did you mean?â he asked, tone lazy, almost bored.
You hesitated.
For the first time since youâd walked up to him.
âI meanââ you started, then stopped, trying to find the right words. âYouâve been⊠avoiding me.â
The word sat there.Between you.
He exhaled slowly, like the conversation had already tired him.
âIâve been busy.â
âThatâs not true.â
That slipped out before you could stop it.
Something in his expression shifted.Not much but just enough.
You pushed forward anyway.
Because now you couldnât stop.
âYou were there,â you said, quieter now, but more certain. âBefore. You used toââ
You cut yourself off.
Used to what?
He watched you struggle to finish the sentence.
And something about that,
made his mouth curve.
âUsed to what?â he prompted.
Your chest tightened.
âI just thoughtââ
You stopped again.
Because you didnât know how to say it.
And he knew that.
He stepped closer.
Not gently.
Not harshly.
Just enough to take control of the space again.
âYou didnât let it get to your head, did you?â
The words landed softly.
Too softly.
You blinked.
âWhat?â
His expression didnât change.
Still that same, easy, almost amused look.
âThat night,â he said, like it meant nothing. âYouâre not still thinking about that, right?â
Your stomach dropped.
âIâno, I justââ
âGood.â
He cut you off before you could finish.
Because then,
he leaned in slightly.
Just enough that only you could hear it.
âYouâre not all that.â
It wasnât loud.Wasnât harsh.Wasnât even said with anger.
Just,dismissive.
Like he was correcting something small.
Like you had misunderstood your place.
And that-
....that hurt more.
Your expression didnât break immediately.
That was the worst part.
It happened slowly.
The way your eyes lost something first.
Then the way your lips parted, like you were about to say something,and couldnât.
The way the words just⊠stopped.
Sukuna saw it.Saw exactly what heâd done.
And for a second,
something unfamiliar flickered in his chest.
Sharp and Uncomfortable, but he ignored it.
Because this,
this was how it was supposed to go.
You nodded,looking small.
ââŠOkay.â
Your voice was quiet.
Flat.
And then,you stepped back.
Not rushing or running but just leaving.
And this time,he watched you go.
Not because he wanted to...but because he couldnât look away.
This is what he always did, what he always wanted, what was normal to him,
So what was this feeling creeping up in his chest as he watched you leave?
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when avatar aangâs letter accidentally outs firelord zukoâs feelings for his royal advisor. oh my gosh iâve been so obsessed with that^^ picture itâs insane i need him to look at me like that. oh and! flirty!reader kinda
âSend her in, please.â The guard doesnât even get to finish his sentence before Zuko interrupts him. Itâs practically routine now, he doesnât understand why they need to ask him repeatedly, youâre there practically every night!
Not for nefarious reasons, Zuko would never do that. No, it was your duty as his advisor to talk to him and give him advice pertaining to anything he wishes to discuss, be it the weather, your favourite meals for some reason, submarine formations, or just talking, about nothing in particular, your voice always just had a calming effect on him.
âYour Highness.â You greet him as you enter his chambers, a lavish room fit for the Fire Lord indeed. This wasnât the same chambers that previous Fire Lords had resided in, when Zuko took the throne, he had the Princely palace wing that he grew up in converted to his chambers. The place is beautiful regardless, endless sea of different shades of red that come together just perfectly.
Zuko doesnât look up from his paperwork as you also greet and then dismiss the guard. âZuko.â You call out softly after the door closes, leaving you two alone during this beautiful night. There were several lamps lit across the room, illuminating the entire space in a warm glow, but the moonlight tonight is strong too.
Zuko finally glances up at you at the beckoning of his name, the tip of his lips quirking up in the faintest smile. He has disregarded his royal regalia for the day, the crown and heavy robes resting on the other side of the room. Now heâs in simple, comfortable sleepwear, which does nothing to hide his well-built muscular form underneath.
It was no surprise the friendship between you and Zuko. Youâve known eachother since you were children, you werenât particularly friends, you were just his fatherâs advisorâs daughter that he interacted with occasionally. The only reason he picked you to be his advisor very early into his reign was the fact that you were critical of his fatherâs practices since a young age, privately of course, words only Zuko would hear.
It was only after then that a friendship blossomed. You were around him so much that it was inescapable, you were his closest confidant. You knew everything this about him, you were the only person he felt truly open and comfortable around in the Fire Nation, so it also wasnât quite the shock when Zuko realised the ache in his chest when he saw you was not only platonic or professional but romantic too.
He greets you back with a soft whisper of your name, going back to skimming through whatever the document in front of him was. Zuko cherished moments like this. When it is just the two of you alone, when you could too let your guard down with no watchful eyes and just call him âZukoâ.
You were too dressed in casual wear, robes and the pins and medals that are usually decorated on them missing, simple red dress with a hem that kissed the ground and you walked, like you always were during these meetings with him.
âAvatar Aang sent a letter through.â You announced as you walked across his room, one hand holding up your dress so you donât trip on it and the other waving a piece of parchment around. Zuko is situated in the floor, on a cushion with his legs crossed, a small, short table in front of him with ink, documents and a lamp rested on it.
âRead it out for me?â Zuko asks in a low voice, sleep infecting it and making it gravelly, enough to send a chill down your spine. You feel a slight rush of heat to your cheeks, feeling lucky that he wasnât looking at you. Is it really your fault? Has anyone taken a look at this man? Itâs unfair!
The way the light from the lamp was illuminating his side profile, in the way you could see every contor of his face and scar. He grew up, losing his childish features, replaced with sharp contours of his cheeks, nose and jaw. Zuko glances up at you again, wondering why youâve suddenly gone silent, with you looking away before he caught you staring.
âFlameo Hotman. How goes running the Fire Nation?â You begin to narrate dramatically as you sink into the floor, tucking your legs under the table on the opposite side to Zuko so that you sat facing him. You continue reading, the two issues that the Avatar requires help with, something in Republic City and something related to food. You converse with Zuko, talking through the problems, his sassy remarks extracting chuckles and giggles from you occasionally.
âAnd lastly I am curious, did you tellâOh.â
The documents he was examining earlier is now left abandoned as Zuko was solely focused on you, and now your reaction has his eyebrows scrunching. You were smiling till a moment ago, but whatever you read at the end had the joy leave your face andâŠa smirk stretching across your lips.
You glance up at Zuko from behind the piece of parchment, an odd glint in your eyes, maybe evenâŠheat? Your teeth bite into your lower lip as you glance back at the letter and then back at Zuko. âWhat is it? What does it say?â Zuko questions, the furrow between his eyebrows deepening.
A soft huff of amusement leaves between your bitten lips, trying your best to keep your composure. Zuko watches as you fail and burst out into a giggle, your face reddening slightly. You look back at him, the same glint still in your eyes.
âLastly I am curious.â You start and pause dramatically, the look in your eyes darkening a little. Agni, Zuko swears in his head, this is not helping the ache in his chest, the way you were looking at him, the smile stretched across your lips.
âDid you tell your royal advisor of your romantic feelingsâŠfor her?â You read out, voice dipping by an octave.
Oh.
Oh.
Oh, Zuko is fucked.
âAnd asked if she is a bachelor or not? Seize the opportunity before it slips out of your fingers, my friend!â You finish reading, silently folding it before pressing the letter into the table, looking up at Zukoâs expression of being caught off guard.
The silence is very loud as you two just look at eachother, all color drained from his face and pure amusement on yours. Zukoâs eyes bare into yours and you can almost see the way heâs not only registering what you said but also working out on what to say, clearly unable to think of anything to say.
âDo you have other Royal Advisors I am not aware ofâŠor?â You start, smirk still stretched across your lips. Zuko just blinks at you, his hetrochromatic eyes shining, his adamâs apple bopping as he swallows nervously. âHe was simplyâŠjesting.â Is somehow the only thing he can come up with currently, the usual sassiness you see in him completely disappeared.
âSo youâre not in love with me?â
You say, a little too quickly causing Zukoâs eyes to widen, his scar stretching because of his surprise. âUhâŠâ Zuko quirks, but you smile smirk at him sweetly. âIâŠIts notâŠThatâs, itâs. Um.â His hand comes up to scratch at the back of his neck as you look at him expectantly.
You can see him buffering in real time, the machinery in his brain short circuiting as itâs unable to process whatâs happening. You stay smiling at the Fire Lord as he just stares at you, probably praying for the earth to open up and swallow him whole.
You roll your eyes at his stupor, taking it into yourself to make a move, you prep yourself up into your knees, pressing you palms flat onto the mahogany wood as you lean cross the table as Zuko sits as still as a statue. You lean close enough for your nose to hover right over his cheek and partially his scar.
âI am a bachelor, Your Highness. Veeeery lonely.â You whisper as his face reddens even more before you rush forward to press a kiss his cheek, his skin soft beneath your lips. You feel Zuko let out a harsh exhale as you pull away, standing up to your full height, looking down at him a moment before turning to walk away.
âGoodnight, Zukoâ You wave as you leave.
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synopsis : terrified of being in a loveless arranged marriage with a man from a faraway land, you ask cupid gojo to put a love spell on you and prince ryomen on the day of your wedding. but in the lead-up to your marriage, the time spent with your future husband makes it clear that you might not need the god of loveâs help after all. what happens when, on the day, satoru accidentally shoots himself? who will you choose, the man youâre made to love, or the man you were fated to love? (fluff, suggestive.) cw: ooc sukuna
"you must understand, satoru. this relationship is imperative to this nations upkeep, and i'd rather be in love with my spouse than grow old despising him." you plead with the angel, tucked away behind an old, crumbling castle wall as to not be seen conversing with a heavenly being.
after all, it's not very princess-like to be scheming and plotting with a god of love.
it was exactly two weeks away from your wedding to prince ryomen sukuna, a man most powerful and renowned by all who lived in your kingdom. although, while he was said to be a fine gentleman, you just couldn't find it in your royal heart to feel even the slightest ounce of affection for someone you hadn't even met yet, let alone seen.
so, like any sane princess would do, you seek out the only person who would possibly help you in such a predicament. satoru gojo, otherwise known as cupid.
you were doing this in advance so such an idea could stew in the white haired deities mind before coming to his final decision. one that was becoming increasingly difficult to persuade.
"hmm. i could, i mean, i should!... but what's in it for me?" he taps a finger to his ghostly chin. "in your new castle, will you hang banners of my face for all to see? or cut the hedges in elaborate patterns as to replicate my anatomy? or maybe have a sculpture made to depict my rippling, godly muscl-"
"-stop it with these rhymes! i will do whatever you wish, just please, grant me this."
"now you're the one speaking in rhyme." he laughs in your face, his beautiful, heavenly bow jostling around in its case strung along his bare back.
"i'll make a deal with you. i'll pierce your heart, sure," he smirks and holds back another cackle "but you must name your first born after me."
"oh my god, no."
"second?"
"no!"
"thi-"
"satoru!" you huff, and he looks down at you with mock offence. "you said anything! how dare you talk to a divine being such as myself so hastily. i have it within my rights to refuse you now, unpleasant girl."
you let out a dissatisfied groan. all the fairytales of the great cupid gojo being a kind and giving soul were definitely all falsities.
"how about i spread your name? every dinner i hold, every ball i host, your name on my tongue to all the important people of this land. how does that sound? good word will do more for you than a banner or my first born."
"hmmm..." he pretends to ponder, then sticks one finger in the air. "okay! you've got yourself a deal. chuck in a tapestry in your master bedroom and i'm sold!"
"i swear to-"
"now, now! no swearing on my good lords name. i will do as you wish, just cross your fingers when you're about to say your vows, and i'll appear right away to seal the deal. yes?"
"yes."
"perfect." he smiles, jumping off the soft grass to hoist himself suspended in the air, flapping his feathered wings.
"i'll be watching!" he calls as he flys into the clouds above, you let go of a breath and tip your head to the sky, hoping and praying to god that this works out.
~
that afternoon you trudge back to your room in the castle, sour from the many fittings for a wedding dress you'd had to endure all day.
as you're about to swing the door open to your room, who other than ryomen is sitting in the centre of your bed.
"and what do you think you're doing here?"
"can i not see my bride to be? i yearn to make us at least friendly before this wedding." he smiles, jumping to his feet and ushering over to you, taking your hand to press a warm kiss to your knuckles.
now, to say you'd never seen him before would be a lie. you'd seen him in portraits sent to your castle from his as a sort of present, and he wasn't bad looking. but, he definitely looked bad looking now that you see him in the flesh. with black ink covering his enter body in tribal patterns, and his dress wear hardly put on correctly, he seemed more like a commoner than a royal prince. he wasn't bad looking, but he was bad looking. hm.. nothing a few classes in etiquette couldn't fix, you supposed.
"i wish to make no such connection with you. i have a plan in mind that doesn't require any of..." you vaguely gesture to his hand holding yours, still. "this."
he sucks in a breath through gritted teeth and lets go of a breathy chuckle.
"they said you'd be hard to swoon, but i'll have you know, i'm quite the gentleman."
he smirks, his strange facial markings bend and move with his skin as his cheeks scrunch up, markings you'd never seen before. he was from a land where people thought marking meant power, and for a man with so many, you'd guess he had quite a lot.
you couldn't say you weren't a little scared of him. after all, he was said to be quite cruel to those who crossed him, earning him the name the king of the cursed.
great choice, dad.
he was bigger than you'd imagined, stronger, too. nevertheless, you naturally wanted to know more about your future husband.
"although i don't think we should bother with formalities, i would like to get to know you better... on a deeper level."
he seems to enjoy that, because he cracks a grin and falls back into your bed. his manners were appalling, but you wouldn't say he was completely un-endearing.
"so would i, princess." he shoves over, then pats a spot next to him on the mattress.
you look from him to his hand, to the spot. sitting on a bed with a man? that's definitely new..
you shook your head and decided that if you were to be reckless, at least it would be with your future man. you slip into the spot, suddenly very aware of his large he is.
"what do you wanna know?" he yawns, leaning back on his arms.
you giggle at the way he was so careless in front of you, and decide that maybe it's time to get rid of the stuck up princess agenda. you mimic him, and hesitantly lean back on your arms as well, (something he finds absolutely adorable).
"i guess i'd just like to know your story, what life was like where you came from." you ask curiosly, "and what's with the markings." you cheekily add.
"oh? we can't be friendly but you'd like to know my life story? cute."
never mind, you were going back to the whole stuck up princess thing.
"why, your attitude is absolutelyâ"
you're cut off by his finger to your lips, you flush, then quiet down as he starts to answer your questions in full.
he talks for what seems like hours. about his own kingdom, how he grew up, how he got his 'tattoos' (not called markings, apparently.) and you sit and listen, surprisingly. he was an interesting soul with an elaborate story to tell, you were always fond of stories.
he, in turn, lets you talk about your own life. your roles as princess, your favourite maid, your crazy dictator dad.
"he sounds horrible. bet you're glad i'm becoming the new king, huh?"
"i'm not too sure you'll be much better."
"oh shut yourâ ahem âshoosh."
you muffle a laugh at that, at least he was trying to rid his vulgarity.
you find yourself inching closer to the man as the night grows old, each sentence from his mouth pulls your closer to his being like an ever-pulling magnet.
"cats? what are cats?" you annunciate every letter like a child learning how to speak, and he gawks at you like you'd just killed his, well, cat.
"they're like.... like a cow, but way smaller, and skinnier. and they have a flatter face? sort of more like a rat, really. if you were to smash together a cow and a rat and gave it a skinnier body, thenâ"
"âyou've lost me."
he stops with his mouth wide open, then melts into a smile. "i'll have a cat sent here. just for you, my lady. you must have one... we must have one."
flattering, he'd pay all that money just so you could experience an animal. maybe he wasn't shaping up to be so bad.
"i'd like that."
the dark of night creeps in through the tall windows until the candles are doing most of the work keeping you alight. servants aren't passing by the door anymore and chatter from down the hallway dissipates and draws quiet. not you, nor sukuna remember the dinner you were supposed to attend.
youâre now sitting with your shoulders brushing against one another on the bed, your legs tucked under with skirts creasing and folding beneath you. your crown sits resting on the table, abandoned the second you started settling in properly, and your future king noticed immediately.
âyou always ditch it that fast?â he queries.
âmhm, gives me a headache.â
âfunny,â he says. âit looks real heavy.â
âit is.â
he seems to lean into you more, and drops his voice a decibel. "when i'm king, i'll have you need not wear it. or, i'll fashion a crown not so hefty."
"what a gentlemen. at this rate, we'll be chummy enough to get married of our own accord."
ânow, that wouldn't be so bad, would it?â he smiles.
"suppose not." you reply, nudging his shoulder with your own. he laughs, then pushes you back harder, turning your peaceful chat into a shoving brawl, with each of you taking turns play fighting with one another.
"oi! that hurt!" he squirms as you jab a finger into his chest, and retaliates by grabbing your waist and tickling the sensitive nerves.
"excuse you! that is no place to touch a princess." you halfheartedly scold, and this seems to flip a switch.
he stops tickling, and instead moves to straddle you, pushing you up and trapping you against the head of your bed. you huff a breath in surprise as he so boldly leans down to look you straight in the eye.
"i think you forget a prince holds more weight in the royal hierarchy, my lady. i'd watch your mouth, if i were you."
you're stumped for words, staring at this man as he casually cages you to your own bed, in your own room. the look in his eye is serious, and you're slightly on edge at the potential he had at the moment.
he drops the serious act as soon as he sees that sliver of fear in your expression, bursting out in laughter as he pulls away.
"your reactions are just too good, m' sorry, [name]. i'm just joking around."
you pretend to scoff, turning your head away as to hide the heat radiating from your skin, and he taunts you further.
"gonna have to get used to that, m' afraid. seeing you all embarrassed really does it for me." he chuckles.
god, how could someone be so endearing, yet so annoyingly annoying. you couldn't decide weather or not you liked his constant bipolarness or not.
"i can already tell you're a handful and i've only just met you." you throw at him.
he laughs at that, then lets the silence sit and stew for a while. eventually, your conversation starts back up, and he end up talking some more.
about the food where heâs from, how everything is well spiced and eaten with hands, how his mother used to smack his knuckles when he stole from the pot too early. about the first fight he ever won, the first one he lost, and about the scars he didnât bother to mark over with tattoos.
you listen to each and every word, becoming more and more interested with each moment he spoke of home.
not once do you interrupt him, roll your eyes. you donât do the polite nodding thing you were taught, no. you just listen with your chin in your palm and your pretty eyes on him.
âyouâre quite a good little listener, aren't you,â he smiles.
ânot normally. most other people bore me, is all. it's' a good change.â
that earns you a curious look, then another one of his accomplished smiles.
âgood,â he looks from your eyes to your lips. âiâd hate to be like most people.â
hm.
hours pass by, one thing after another. you tell him about sneaking sweets under your mattress as a child, and about the horrible english tutor you made cry a few times. about how you learned to read faster than anyone expected and then hid it because you liked knowing things no one else did in a world where girls were supposed to be illiterate.
that intrigued him. a girl with smarts, that absolutely sucked him in.
now he knew he didn't have to dumb himself down for you like his father had asked him to, in fear of 'scaring the princess off with your need for deeper understanding.' that sounded like a semi-compliment, but nothing from his dad ever was, so he tried his best to stay moderately mid-range.
but now, he was asking you all sorts of weird and wonderful questions. two am hits, and he's just finished listening to you explain why your favourite piece of literature was The Decameron, and not The Romance of the Rose, which you'd justified rather well, he'd admit. maybe you didn't like the same books, but he was definitely fond of your ability to speak your mind and share your own insight, a trait so rare in royal blood of the time.
"i do admire your perspective, although you're wrong all the same."
"uhm. thanks?"
"you're welcome."
when your voice starts to drag out and get all slurred at the ends of your sentences, sukuna has no problem pointing it out.
âyouâre tired.â
âiâm fine.â
he shakes his head. âwhat a little liar.â
you glare at him as he looks as if he's about to stand.
âhey.. stay,â you say, quiet yet firm.
âi wasnât planning on leaving,â he says just as quietly. "just getting comfortable in my new bed." that last part was cocky, and he shifts until his body is flatter against the bed.
"your newâwhat?â" you scoff.
but you're shut up real quick when his hand sprawls over your own, intertwining your fingers together like a woven basket. you sigh, but don't pull away from him. you move to lay next to him, your head hitting the soft pillow with about half a meter between the two of you, connected by your interlocked hands.
"good night, [name]."
"good night, ryomen."
you watch as the flickering of candles dance across his cut face, the lines of his tattoos such a perfect contrast in this lighting.
you couldn't possibly sleep, not with a man in your bed, this was all far too foreign. was it normal to feel this hot?
as you're arguing internally on weather or not to close your eyes, one of sukunas opens. âjeez, stop staring and sleep,â he breathily laughs. âiâll be here for you to oogle tomorrow, y'know. can't exactly disappear.â
you're too flushed to reply, only nodding in response, and squeezing your eyes shut.
now it was his turn to stare.
~
you wake the next morning to find him in the courtyards.
he's got on a new set of strange foreign clothing, his hair's loose, and he's laughing with your guard, toji, like theyâd known each other for years. he spots you and straightens up immediately, his expression lightening up like a mask sliding into place.
âmorning, princess.â
âyouâre still here?â
âthatâs usually how the whole 'staying' thing works.â
you huff, but you donât tell him to go.
he follows you everywhere that day, like a maid would. carrying things when you gesture at them, stepping in when someone annoys you too much about the upcoming wedding prep, and walking at your pace without comment on the way you sort of diddle dally.
not bad, you could get used to this.
by the second day it feels strange when he isnât immediately nearby you.
where is that man...
you think, strutting about the halls of the castle in a mood at the lack of finance by your side.
just as you're about to round the corner into the grass yards, you're jabbed in the side.
"hey!" you yelp, but you're soon soothed by big arms wrapping around your waist.
"guess who." a deep, raspy voice announces.
"don't you think it's a little early in our acquaintance to be touching me so fondly?" you tut, leaning back into him regardless.
"not at all. in fact, we should touch more." he replies, letting go of your waist but grabbing hold of your wrist; pulling you towards the 'secret garden' you'd shown him yesterday on your stroll.
"and where are you taking me?" you giggle while being dragged. he just shakes his head and pulls you faster, faster, until you're sat on a toppled over log resting atop fluffy grass.
your garden was beautiful. behind a crumbling wall and adorning a central water fountain, the flora and fauna thrived uninterrupted here.
with whistling birds overhead and towering wildflowers blooming from every direction, the sanctuary felt perfectly you. wild and beautiful.
"i admire how well you've kept this place, especially all by yourself without anyone else knowing of it's existence." sukuna chuckles, turning on his heels to take in every angle of the wonderland he'd first seen yesterday.
"hm? you're saying you're surprised i'm competent enough to tend to plants?" you tease, he just clicks his tongue and swivels around to grab a fallen trunk off the floor.
out of his pocket comes a small carving knife, you look at him curiously.
he sits on the grass with a thump, and begins carving at the thick, palm sized piece of wood.
"what are you up to?" you query.
"making my princess a gift. carving is very sentimental where i'm from, my love."
you flush at the name. you'd realised recently that he did that to fluster you, and/or shut you up. either way, it felt nice having someone talk so openly to you without fear of being beheaded by your father if they were to say the wrong thing.
a present, huh? well, it's only fitting you make him something too.
you kneel in a grass patch a few meters away from him, one with daisies spotted in the green. you begin picking, twisting, and tying.
"aw, copying my idea?" he throws over his shoulder at you, winking when you catch his gaze.
"flower crowns are hardly reminiscent of carving." you explain.
this seems to shut him up, because for the next half an hour you two spend the time crafting away, slipping closer and closer until you're sat side by side at the foot of the toppled over log.
once youâve strung the last flower into place, you look up at the man besides you to find he's already staring, happily. he holds up what he'd been working on, a heart shaped carving with swirls and indentations etched into the surface. such a breathtaking make for a man you only though was all looks and wit.
"for you, my lady." he holds the heart out, waiting eagerly for you to take it.
you smile, and do just that.
you examine each and every orifice of the thing, it was expertly done.
"this is the prettiest thing i've ever seen... you're very talented, ryomen." you compliment, finding the biggest smile plastered across his princely face.
"not quite as pretty as you, love."
okay, you walked into that one.
setting the heart aside, you take one of the daisy crowns from your lap, push a few locks from his face, then rest it softly against his head.
he looks at your hands as you do, fascinated by your gentleness.
"i must say, this one suits me much better than my real one, y'know." he jokes, watching as you remove your crown and replace it with your own flower one.
"i agree. instead of fashioning me a new crown in our future kingdom, we should spend each morning making a daisy one. hm?" you suggest. it was just a throw away comment, really, it was. but the certainty in sukuna's eyes paired with his enthusiastic nod tells you he's planning on doing just that.
"you're a genius." he triumphantly claps, "a hot genius."
"hey, what did i say about being so forwardâ"
"a hot, sexy, genius!"
~
the next few days follow a similar pattern.
wake up, find sukuna, walk the palace, and bond over anything and everything.
today, five days after meeting, you're speaking of the flowers you'd like at the wedding.
"first i was keen on white roses, but now i think i'd like large daisies... what do you think?" you asked, arm in arm as you both strolled through the front gardens.
"aw, you'd change your mind because of a moment we shared making flower crowns? you sure are cute." he'd tease in his husky voice.
you roll your eyes, nudging him with your elbow, but all he did was pull you in closer by the arm.
"i think that's a wonderful idea. white daisies to commemorate the day we decided to abolish real crowns. quite poetic, i think." he smiles.
"must you always find deeper meaning in everything i say?" you throw back at him, and he lets out a half laugh.
"but of course, i'm nothing if not an over analyser."
"i think the term you're looking for is: paranoiaâ"
"semantics! anyway." he suddenly stops, pulling a small box from his pocket and turning to face you.
"i've chosen your wedding gift, by the way. i wanted to give it to you on the day, but i'd much prefer if to see you in it now and the days leading up." he announces, chucking you a smirk before pulling you in closer by the waist so you're mere inches apart.
you'd since figured out your future king was physical touches biggest advocate, with his hands wondering all over you whenever he wanted you near.
you blush all the same, your eyes dilating as you peer into his redder ones.
you watch as he opens the small, mysterious box, then let out a gasp at the piece he pulls out.
a necklace made from your preferred rare metal, a delicate heart pendant hanging from the centre that glimmered with gems that refract the rays of sun.
he turns it in his palm, letting you get a closer look. "...so?"
"it's stunning..." you breathe, still in awe at the way it casted diamonds of light across his marked skin.
"i'm glad you like it, since you'll be wearing it until the day you die." he jokes, slinging the clasp open and draping the thin chain over the back of your neck.
"a pretty necklace for an even prettier girl."
you feel the newly fastened gift, pinching it in your fingers and twisting it with care. this felt almost like a peace offering, like this single treasure was the beginning of something a little more than just an arranged marriage.
"i love it, ryomen. but whatever will i get you? i haven't anything prepared."
"give yourself to me and we'll call it even." he winks.
there's that heat in your stomach again...
~
that night, there's no guards stomping past your door, nor is there maids whispering in the hallways. you felt at ease in your quarters.
there's the faint crackle and pop of the fireplace or the occasional owl calling from beyond the open balcony as youâre sat at your vanity, fixing up your hair in slow maneuvers, the thin straps of your silken night gown slipping over your shoulders every time you move.
itâs far shorter than what youâd normally wear, much lighter, too. the fabric's soft against your thighs as you stand to finish the last of your self maintenance.
you catch your reflection in the beautiful wooden vanity and pause. the necklace rests against your chest, the heart pendant glimmering faintly in the candle light, it really was gorgeous.
you're startled when thereâs a knock at your door.
you stiffen up for a second, then relax when the knock comes again in a special tune only sukuna had been rapping.
âcome in,â you call.
ryomen steps inside, stopping dead in his tracks when his eyes fan over your body. his stare drags from your face down to the cut of your nightgown, then back up again just as quickly.
âiââ he clears his throat with a choppy laugh. âi didnât realise you were⊠ah... if youâre uncomfortable, i can leave.â
you sigh, âdonât be ridiculous,â you say, setting your hair brush down. âyouâre to be my husband in a matter of days. it hardly matters what iâm wearing.â
his lips twitch upwards into a very small, very cheeky smile.
âhardly matters,â he echoes under his breathe, looking amazed with himself at the vision in front of him.
âare you planning on standing in my doorway all night? it's cold in the hall."
that snaps him out of it, and he shuts the door behind him and walks further into the room, he's a little nervous now, heâs hyper aware of where heâs placing his feet.
"why'd you come, hm?" you question with genuine curiosity, no judgment.
âjs' wanted to see you,â he admits, rubbing the back of his neck bashfully. âguess i couldnât sleep.â
âagain?â you tease.
âagain.â
you watch him as he approaches your bed, sitting down at the edge of it with a small exhale. he looks less princely and more man tonight.
his eyes flick to your chest, and before you can comment, his hand reaches out, fingertips brushing the heart pendant.
âyouâre wearing it,â he says, softer than youâve ever heard him.
â..of course i am.â
âeven to bed?"
âwell, it is important to me.â
you try not to coo at his shy expression. you'd reduced the great ryomen sukuna to a pleased, blushing mess.
âiâm glad,â he says with a cheesy smile.
âlay down,â you offer, nodding to the pillows.
he arches a brow, still grinning like a madman. âbold tonight, aren't we."
âmhm, donât ruin it for yourself.â
he chuckles and stands long enough to shrug off his coat, then the heavier layers of vests and undercoats beneath. you try not to gawk at his newly exposed biceps as he folds the fabrics over a chair, the short sleeves of his undershirt stretching over his thick arms when he moves. he climbs onto the bed, settling on his back with a loud sigh.
âthere,â he says. "m' comfortable.â
hm.. should you capitalise on the opportunity? i mean, heâs been bold all week with the teasing, the arm and hand holding, dragging you into lush gardens and corners of the castle.
maybe itâs your turn.
you climb onto the bed and crawl over to him, the skirt of your gown bunching beneath your knees and riding up your pretty thighs. he watches you the entire time with his red eyes turning dark and curious.
âwhat're you doing,â he asks gently.
âreturning the favour.â
you slide up beside him, pressing your body hot against his side and resting your head just below the crook of his shoulder. your hands spider across his chest until they're resting on his pec.
you'd think he'd gone mute by the way he adorably jitters to a sudden stillness. then, after a minute of adjusting to your heat, he whistles. âwell. this is new.â
âdonât look so disdained,â you whine.
âiâm not! i'm not. iâm.. impressed.â
âby what?"
âby you.â
you roll your eyes, but you donât deprive him of this newfound touch.
his arm comes around your back, fingering the silk of your nightgown slowly, then with more conviction when you donât protest his advances. his fingers thread into your hair, stroking ever so gently along your scalp.
it feels good. you try and fail to suppress a content moan, and he gets choked up at the pretty sound.
âoh wow, did you justââ
âshh.â
he laughs at you quietly and resumes his ministrations.
âcomfortable?â he asks.
âmhm.â
âperfect.â
silence settles, but itâs not awkward or anything. your hand taps and scratches against his bulky chest, you're feeling the steady rise and fall beneath your palm with a solemn smile.
âryomen,â you say.
âhm?"
âif weâre marriedâŠâ
he tilts his head slightly so he can see you better against his shoulder. âwhen.â
âwhen,â you correct. âwe need to agree on something.â
âurgh, that sounds serious. i'm having a good time right now.â he jokes, although he knows, that you know, that he loves talking seriously with you.
âit is.â
"go on, then." he insists.
âwe have to respect one another,â you say. âfully. if one of us wants something, or doesnât want something, we listen. no forcing each other and absolutely no weird hidden resentment.â
he does a once over of your face for a few seconds before nodding.
âalright,â he says. âthatâs fair.â
âand,â you continue, âif this doesnât work. if we donât⊠if we donât end up loving each other.â
the words feel all twiddled up and strange in your mouth, âwe could see other people,â you finish. âquietly, of course. discreetly.. as long as it doesnât embarrass the crown or my father.â
you regret saying that as soon as it comes out, but you know some ground rules need to be set before anything gets too serious. and if your current feelings were reciprocated, you'd say it was getting pretty serious.
his hand stops brushing your hair entirely.
âyouâd be alright with that?â he asks with an unreadable drawl.
âit would be practical. for the both of us.â
âpractical,â he repeats.
you cringe but continue. âi donât want either of us trapped,â you admit. âit's just... iâve had enough of that.â
...
âif thatâs what you wanted,â he says carefully, âiâd entertain it.â
entertain? you're then reminded that he will in fact be king, and you his mere wife. was this all coming from a place of self righteousness? was this inappropriate to be discussing with someone who would soon hold more power than you? you didn't want to dive into that right now, you had to scope his feelings out a little more.
âand you?â you ask cautiously.
âwhat, if you couldnât stand me?â he gives a small huff of laughter. âi suppose iâd have to do the same. quietly, though."
the idea of him with someone else rips your heart clean in two. you hate to picture another girl at his side, laughing at his jokes.. wearing a special necklace he bought her.
god, you really donât like that.
like a moth to a flame you scoot closer to him shyly.
âhmm?â he murmurs.
ânothing.â
he resumes petting your hair and staring off into the roof littered with paintings of intricate star constellations.
âi donât want that,â he says after a minute.
âwant what?"
âother people.â
you look up at him, âyou just agreed to it?"
âi agreed because you asked,â he replies. âdoesnât mean i want it.â
oh, wow. okay.
âi donât either,â you confess quietly.
his thumb brushes along your temple, slow and thoughtful.
âthen we wonât need to if that's what fate wants,â he says, and you nod against him.
fate.
you're pummelled in the face with that stupid word, now flashes of cupid sift thought your mind.
satoru.
goodness, youâd nearly forgotten.
cross your fingers when you say your vows, and heâll appear. heâll pierce your heart, then seal the deal.
this marriage had to work out, you had the god of love on your side.
but you begin to wonder, did you really need a divine intervention? was this connection so shallow that you'd need a god to help you fall in love with a man you were sure you'd already fallen for?
you glance at the necklace resting between you, at the carved wooden heart sitting on your bedside table that you'd admired every night since he'd given it to you.
maybe it already was working...
maybe you didnât need divine interference at all.
you smile to yourself, pressing your cheek more firmly against his chest.
âwhatâs that look for,â he whispers.
ânothing.â
âhm? but youâre smiling so hard.â
âam i not allowed?â
âyou are,â he says, voice softer now. âi guess it just means iâve done something right.â
you tilt your head up enough to meet his eyes.
âyou have,â you admit.
he masks the triumphant smile that almost breaks out with a small smirk.
âcareful, keep talking like that and iâll think youâre falling for me.â
you hold his eyes captive as you answer back. âand what if i already have?â
you got him there, he doesnât have a witty reply.
his hand cups the side of your face instead, thumb brushing lightly over your cheek.
âthen, good,â he mutters quietly.
you close your eyes listening to the badump badump rhythm of his heart beneath your ear, feeling the warmth of him surrounding all of you.
gojoâs arrow will only make this connection stronger, you tell yourself.
it will only enforce whatâs already there.
..right?
you hold him a little tighter.. just in case.
~
it's time.
the bells are ringing and floating through the air over the cliff face your wedding was held, white drapes adoring an arch that looked over the views of your soon to be kingdom.
you thought this day would bring stress, hardships, agony for your future. but instead? you can only feel the sheer and utter excitement and hopefulness for what this day means for you and ryomen, the man you'd come to adore.
just before the big reveal, he'd pulled you aside to admire your beauty in his lonesome. his mouth stayed slack as he took you in for the first time.
"holy... wow." he sighed, grabbing for your hand and spinning you around, gawking over every part of the beautiful white dress adorning your body.
"you look.... oh my good lord." he was utterly in awe. a feeling that multiples ten fold when he spots the necklace around your neck.
"had to make sure i wore my favourite pendant." you smiled.
"you're not real... you're a myth, a goddess created by those who wish to see me pathetically infatuated with someone." he whines, shaking his head as he stares at you up and down.
you thanked him after he'd gotten it out of his system, hugging him softly before being ushered off to start the ceremony.
and now here you stand, under the bow of the arch, hand in hand with your ryomen, feeling everything good in the world pulsating through your veins.
but, as the officiate was about to prompt you to say your vows, you feel a presence appear somewhere above you, high in the sky.
he was here, satoru.
you gulp, and weigh out your options.
sukuna stands there proudly, like he's eagerly ready for his long awaited life with you to finally begin.
you wanted him, his love, his support, his guidance thought this marriage. you might of already had it, so what harm could a little push from a divinity do?
you take a deep breath, smiling sweetly at sukuna, then you do it. you twist your fingers over one another as a signal for gojo to pull the arrow back, and shoot it through your heart. the first person you laid eyes on, sukuna, would be the one you'd fall head over hells for and vice versa.
gojo had been waiting patiently, preparing his bow to be shot, checking everything was in proper order. despite being a menace who was severely disliked among all the gods, he did take his craft seriously.
he spots the signal from his place in the sky, then smiles readily to himself. he had a perfectly clean shot, you were in perfect view, this couldn't go wrong.
well, that's was the plan, at least.
as your pointer crossed your middle, you awaited the sting, standing there with your eyes glued to sukuna who was, in his own head, planning where he would take you for your honey moon.
only, said sting never arrived. the only thing you felt was a hard knock to your chest against the pendant that sat flat against your chest..
was this how it was supposed to go? you weren't feeling any different than before...
the only thing that felt out of the ordinary, was the now very watchful eyes of a deity shooting through you from up above. you nervously grit your teeth, peering up quickly to see what the big idea was, and you lock eyes with him, with satoru, who's iris flash a pretty pink before dilating like he'd seen something utterly enthralling.
and he had, you.
because unlike any other time he'd done this before, gojo satoru, god of love, had messed up...
his aim must've been off, or maybe it was the wind? but the arrow had gone off track completely. instead of piercing your heart, it instead hit the sparkling heart pendant hanging around your neck in such a way that it ricocheted off, diverting its path, and darted straight back towards him. though his heart in place of yours.
you stand still, your eyes blown wide with both rage and an unfathomable sense of... love? oh god... was this adoration? it'd seemed the arrow was working in it's full effect.
sukuna squeezes your hand, softly pulling you from your daze to look back into his eyes, exactly like you were supposed to be doing. he mouths a quick, "you okay?" before you nod and smile falsely.
you gulp, then the officiate gives the go ahead to read out your vows.
ryomen softly recounts his first, you to listen, you really do, but all you can focus on is the blooming feeling of immense need to be closer to the man in the sky, the one no one but you could see right now.
your mind was a hazy field, with gojo standing on one end and sukuna on the other, gojo had a rope tied to your wrist and sukuna a thin chain. both felt equally as wrong in a moment like this, what the hell were you supposed to do?
endure. that's what.
there was nothing you could do to stop this wedding, your father wouldn't allow it and nor would the people who needed a new king and queen.
so you bit the bullet, pushing aside the feelings you'd rather not name to spew out the vows you'd spent nights curating.
~
"what's going on?"
the look on sukuna's face genuinely makes you sick to the stomach. you can tell he's confused, distressed, not knowing why the girl he'd poured so much of himself into was acting like she'd rather be dead than with him.
all you want to do is collapse in his arms and tell him everything, that you still love him, that your feeling haven't changed, only now there was another bucketload of affection waiting to be poured all over gojo, some stupid god you never should of spoken to.
"i'm sorry, ryo. i'm just not feeling too good." you lie trying to break away from the grip he had on your wrist, "i... i need a moment." but sukunaâs fingers tighten when you try to pull away.
âa moment?â he spits. âright now?â
people are still trying to mingle with the two of you. the wind is still dragging white fabric against the grass in beautiful wisps and licks of movement. some important officials are standing by waiting to speak with you, and your father stares from across the way at you expectantly. and youâre staring at your husband like heâs some faraway stranger.
âplease,â you whisper.
that does it.
he lets go, just drops your hand as if your skin was made of molten lava. the look on his face is worse than anger, much worse than if he were shouting, itâs purely blank shock. his mouth parts like heâs about to say something funny or clever but he just.. canât.
you scurry away from all the commotion, running as far into the forest that teetered the cliff side as you could.
you bend over with your hands on your thighs trying to make sense of this atrocious mess, trying your best to breathe without thinking about him. hell, about either of them.
âwell,â a voice floats down softly from above. âthis is⊠not ideal.â
the rate on which you snap your head up is impressive.
heâs descending slowly with no theatrics and no obnoxious grin. his sizeable white wings folding in on themselves as his boots touch moss and feathers scatter across the grass as he touches down.
satoru looks wrecked. the pink hue in his once blue eyes seems to darken as he gawks at you.
âwhat the hell did you do?" you spit out harsher than youâve ever spoken to a god, harsher than youâve ever spoken to anyone, for that matter.
âi didnât mean to,â he explains quickly. âi swear to you. the wind caught it, or maybe the angle was off orââ
âyou missed. you fucking missed and shot yourself! what kind of a god misses?!"
âtechnically.. it ricocheted.â
âoff my necklace?â
âyes.â
âthen why not aim where the jewelry was not?!"
he cringes with absolutely no excuse ready to throw back at you, âi am so, so sorry.â
âsorry?â you staunch toward him. âi'm married, satoru. i just stood in front of my entire kingdom and vowed myself to a man iââ you groan, your hands flying to massage your aching temples, ââi love.â
oof, that stung. he thought.
you start to feel a horrible and magnetic pull towards gojo, your heart feels so full of adoration yet so empty of any real love that it hurts to breathe. you know he feels it too, the idiots basically twitching wanting to reach out and pull you against his body.
âfix it,â you demand. âundo it, this instant!"
you grow angrier when you watch him gulp.
âi canât.â
âwhat.â
âitâs not a simple enchantment,â he pleads with you to understand. âitâs not a ribbon i can just, untie. it can't, i can'tââ he stops himself before he spills any godly lore you're not supposed to know about.
âi don't care, break it!" you snap. âyouâre cupid, for gods sake. you meddle with love, just.. just meddle again!"
he looks at you like youâve just asked him to rip out his own heart.
âthere are only two ways to sever it,â he says quietly.
you cross your arms as if to say, 'go on.'
âeither one of us dies.â he starts.
âthatâs not funny.â
âiâm not joking.â
your head starts to throb.
âand the second, you need another love,â he sighs. âone strong enough to overwrite this one. sort of like... a love confession, a true one. all your feelings laid bare for someone else, and they must feel the same. if the heart chooses something greater than magic, the arrow loses it's hold.â
you laugh pitifully, âso i just⊠fall in love with someone else.?
âno,â he says sharply. âyou're already in love with someone.â
you shake your head. âyes, but, what if he doesn'tââ
âhe loves you,â gojo says, and itâs the most miserable youâve ever seen the giddy god. âthatâs why this hurts the way it does. if he didnât, you wouldnât be fighting this so hard, and my love wouldn't feel like it's being shared with someone else.â he exhales and forces his hands to drop.
âi donât have anyone else,â he says bitterly. âthere is no other love waiting to confess to me. i am the one who shoots the arrows, i donât get shot.â
âclearly you do.â
he almost cracks a smile but decides now's not the time.
âit has to be you,â he says. âyou have to confess to him, and he has to return your feelings, thatâs the only thing that can get rid of this.â
your mind flashes to sukunaâs stunned face when you pulled away/
god.. that confusion, you feel sick.
âand if i canât?â you ask solemnly.
âthen i will live like this,â he says. âin love with a married woman. watching from the sky, i guess."
the earnest tone in his speech almost pulls you into his arms, you want so horribly bad to run off with this god, but he steps away before your otherwise influenced mind can make that decision.
âgo,â he says roughly.
âyouâre telling me to leave?â
âyes.â
âeven thoughââ
âyes,â he snaps, wings flaring up once before flattening out. âeven though every part of me wants to keep you here with me.â
your heart pounds in your ears.
âi didnât mean for this, i meant to give you peace. i meant to give you love. not⊠not this.â
âi do love him,â you sigh.
gojo nods.
âi know.â
âand thisââ you gesture weakly between you ââthis isnât real.â
his eyes soften as that familiar smile ghosts his pink lips.
âitâs real,â he says. âitâs just not chosen.â
you step back, then force your feet to move.
âstay away,â you tell him.
he nods once.
then you turn, and you run.
again.
back through the branches, the torn silk from your dress and scattered petals from your own veil, back toward wedding bells and your groom. and when you break the edge of the trees, you find sukuna standing offside watching over the cliff, away from the guests and the ruckus.
you march straight to him and grab his white sleeve.
âcome with me.â
when he realises its you, it seems like he'd like to smile on instinct but refrains. "sure."
you drag him away, down the edge of the cliff, away from your family, the guards and your fatherâs brutal stare. far, far away until itâs just the wind and ocean below as you stand embarrassed in front of ryomen.
he pulls his arm free once youâre alone.
âtalk,â he sighs.
you look up at him softly. âi need you to listen,â you start. âand i need you not to interrupt me, okay?â
"okay."
...
"i went to see another man."
âwhat- who?â his face goes red and he rubs his neck nervously.
âi said don't interru-" you sigh, "never mind. i met with cupid.â
that gets his attention and his brows draw together.
âbefore the wedding,â you continue quickly. âtwo weeks ago. i sought out his skill, i asked him to shoot me.â
sukuna goes very still.
âl-look.. i didnât want to grow old resenting you,â you say. âi didnât want this to be some stupid duty and politics based marriage. i couldnât stand spending the rest of my life with a loveless bond and separate beds. i thought if i could force my heart to love you, if i could guarantee it, then everything would be so much easier for the both of us.â
"but?"
"but i was so, so wrong." you admit, "i didn't need that cocky gods help. i didn't need him to come and tie our hearts together. i came to find that over our time spent with one another, i love you without any sort of divine intervention."
he contemplates that statement for a good minute, then adds his two cents with a calculating stare. "look, that's sweet and all... but if you got the guy to shoot us, why did you suddenly disappear and seem like loving me was the last thing on your mind? did he not go through?"
you groan softly and drag both of your hands down your face, still careful as to not ruin your makeup any further. "oh, he went through with it all right... but he messed up. his arrow ricocheted off of the pendant you gave me and re-routed to pierce him instead."
your husbands pretty red eyes widen with shock as he runs his fingers over the stubble of his chin. "that's... convenient. and so fucked."
you let go of a huffed laugh, "tell me about it." your face returns to it's longing look as you continue "look, ryo... even after i was hit, i couldn't shake this other feeling in my head. there was my new fondness for gojo up there, sure. but alongside it was the immense love i felt for you."
you take a breather and see his expression isn't one of anger or judgment, but one of care and understanding. this prompts you to spit out what you've been itching to say.
"i love you, ryomen. so much so that not even cupids dumb, divine powers could make me forget the bond we'd formed in such little time... please, won't you forgive me for trying to force something that was destined to be there regardless..."
he doesnât let you get the last word out, he grabs your face so you stop talking. âlook at me,â he says, and you oblige. âso.. you went to a god because you were scared you wouldnât love me.â
you gulp. âyes.â
âthen you fell in love with me anyway.â
ââŠyes.â
âthen the god fell in love with you.â
you wince. âmhm.â
his mouth twitches despite himself. âthatâs insane.â
âiâm aware."
âdid you love him?â he asks, and thatâs the question that really matters right now.
you shake your head immediately. âno.â
âdonât answer fast just because you think itâs what i want to hear, [name].â
âi donât love him,â you repeat. âwhat i feel for him is fake. itâs so intrusive..â
he watches your eyes closely for any kind of deceit.
âyou feel it right now?â he asks.
ââŠyes.â
âand you still came back to me.â
âwell, of course i did,â you say offended. âwhere else would i go?â
he cracks a small grin at that, then he pulls you closer to him by your shoulders.
âsay it again,â he asks.
âsay?...â
âthat you love me.â
you don't even try to hesitate.
âi love you, ryomen.â
his hand moves to your waist firmly, âdo you know when i started loving you?â he asks quietly.
you shake your head.
âthe first night,â he says. âwhen you tried to pretend you werenât interested in my stories but asked a million questions after each time i spoke.â
you go shy and purse your lips in embarrassment.
ân' when you put that stupid flower crown on my head,â he continues. âand acted like it was some obligation instead of just wanting to see me wear it.â
you open your mouth to deny it but he cocks a cocky brow.
you shut it..
âwhen you told me we could see other people,â he adds, voice lowering. âand then got jealous at the idea before i even finished agreeing.â
you glare weakly. âshut up.â
âit was adorable, you being all territorial.â
you cross your arms. âi was not.â
he steps into your space fully now, uncaring of how close you are teetering to the cliffâs edge.
âyou were,â he says simply. âand i adored it.â his thumb hooks under your hot chin, lifting your face.
âi love you,â he returns your notion from earlier. âand it's not because youâre a princess or that i'm being forced to. i love you because youâre clever and stubborn and just... so sweet.â
don't cry, don't cry, don't cry.
âand if some lovesick idiot in the sky thinks he can compete with that,â he adds, glancing upward briefly, âheâs welcome to try.â
despite everything, you laugh and it breaks the tension clean in two.
âitâs not a competition,â you giggle.
âmm, it is to me.â he leans his forehead against yours with a cheeky grin. âdoes he know how you snore?â he asks.
you gasp. âi do not!â
âdoes he know you hide sweets under your mattress still.â
âyou're so annoying.â
âdoes he know the exact face you make when youâre about to argue.â
you squint at him.
âthat one,â he says immediately.
your laugh turns shaky with the tears that sting at the corners of your eyes.
âyouâre mine,â he says with a nice sense of certainty. âand i'm yours. at least, i'd hope you'd think so after choosing me over that sky prick.â
âof course i do,â you whisper.
âyeah? say it properly.â
you frown. âi just did, dummy."
âno,â he says. ânot âi love you.â tell me you choose me.â
you inhale, and that annoying pull towards the sky tugs at your heart again, faint and ever so insistent, but you ignore it.
âi choose you,â you say.
his mouth somehow pulls into an even larger smile, âgood.â
then he kisses you tenderly, pouring every ounce of need and want and pure love into your being. you kiss him back with the same passion, and like a rubber band pulled too tight, the string that was connecting you to someone in the sky was broken. the second tether that didnât belong in your mind loosens and dissolves like mist in bright sunlight.
ââŠitâs gone,â you pull away breathless.
âwhat is?â
âthe feelings i had for... y'know."
the air of complete and utter smugness that brushes his face is laughable. âso, i beat a god,â he says. âembarrassing for him.â
you scoff. âthatâs what you took from that?â
âwhat else am i meant to take from it. you chose me, sky boy lost. sounds pretty cut and dry to me.â
you smack his broad chest but he barely flinches.
âi was going through it, asshole,â you mutter. âi thought i ruined everything.â
âyou kinda did,â he says sternly.
your heart drops, then he grins. âruined his chances.â
urgh, you hate him.
âyouâre insufferable,â you mumble.
âand yet,â
he cups your face with the big pads of his thumbs brushing under your eyes where your makeup is starting to smudge, and he kisses you again.
âyou look wrecked.â he says after pulling off.
âi chased a cherub through a forest in heels.â
âmm, that tracks.â
he pulls the loose pieces of veil off your shoulder and flicks a petal out of your hair.
âyouâre still so unfairly pretty,â he adds casually. âeven when you look tussled.â
âvery romantic.â
âi try.â
he grabs your necklace, rolling the chain between his fingers, "crazy how this little thing helped us out in the end. i'd much rather be naturally attracted to you."
"mhm, best gift i've ever gotten. and i've gotten a lot of gifts."
you both laugh sweetly and intertwine your hands.
"well, cupid aside, we're married now." your husband wriggles his eye brows. "and i, for one, can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you."
"yeah? well, so am i. very excited, in fact." you reply just as just.
and you do,
you spend the rest of your days rejecting the heavy crowns your father likes to polish and parade around. they sit in bejeweled glass cases somewhere in the palace collecting dust. you both make and wear the flower ones in place, just like you'd promised. the lopsided ones you weave badly and shove onto his head while he complains about looking ridiculous, but still, he never takes them off until the petals start falling apart.
you rule side by side, not from separate thrones but from the same side of the long table, knees knocking playfully under the polished wood while advisors pretend not to notice.
you both steal sweets from the kitchen even though you donât have to hide it anymore. you still sneak them under the mattress out of old habit, and he still steals them every time and eats one just to see that annoyed look on your little face.
at night there are no weird separate chambers, god no. sukuna would never stand for that. you're curled into him each and every time as he holds you tenderly.
on anniversaries he pretends to forget, just to see you get all crazy and dramatic about it. then, not even a minute later, he hands you some over the top gift and showers you in affection.
"i could never forget the day i married the girl of my dizziest day dreams."
"you're so corny."
"give me that back."
sometimes you catch yourself thinking about divine love arrows and how close everything came to crashing down in the wrong direction. but he always notices when you get that kind of sad.
âdonât think about that shit, sweetheart,â he says, nudging your chin up.
âiâm not.â
âyou are.â
you sigh and rest your forehead against his shoulder. âiâm just glad i could break it.â
âhm, well. it was always gonna be me,â he smirks.
years pass, and flower crowns wilt and get remade. the forest becomes your special place, the towering cliff where you'd spent the most important hours of your life. people tell stories about the courageous king who could've fought a god, and the queen who outran one.
one evening, when you're both settled, you sit with him on that same cliff. the ocean roars and bellows below as the moon shines in full, your crown made of small white blooms.
âstill choosing me?â he asks, not looking at you, but the sky.
âevery day,â you answer.
he smiles.
âgood, because m' not giving you back.â
A/N: this was supposed to be for v'day but we both just couldn't get our parts out LMAO anywaysss be sure to check out rie's part when her's comes out! collab m.list
back of the net âč àŁȘ Ë soccer player! gojo x pianist! reader
pairing ââ .⥠soccer player/rich! gojo x pianist! reader
summary â who would have ever thought the cocky bastard satoru gojo could ever fall for a girl like you. he's supposed to be into loud and flashy girls that like to party not girls that were, well, you. shy and sweet. but after overhearing you playing on the piano after late practice, soft tunes filling his ears and your pretty face under the soft light, the boy is more whipped than ever and is willing to do anything to make your his.
warnings / tags â lots and lots of fluff, brief angst, smut, gojo is a freak for you, like literally, praising kink, p in v, virgin! reader, soft sex, rough sex, bending-you-over-your-new-piano sex, college au, he's a yearner, and irresponsible with his money, super cute ending, shy! reader. art by _3aem !
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If you were to tell gojo three years ago that he had fallen in love during college, the boy would have laughed in your face.
But it's true, Gojo is in love.
And not with a cheerleader from his games, a sorority he'd hooked up with or a stripper he'd have charmed with his stupid grin.
But with a pianist.
A very gorgeous and talented one who he would sit down next to hours on end, listening to the new song you had learned to play. a beauty he would die for. And most importantly, the girl that he is one minute away from getting down on a knee for.
And it all started with a forgotten notebook.
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"Where the fuck is my notebook." Gojo muttered, searching his backpack twice. Then he looked in his locker, his gym bag, under the bench, even. His eyebrows furrowed until a groan left his lips.
It wasn't like it magically grew a pair of legs, but he still looked behind the vending machine as well. Just to be extra sure.Â
"This cannot be happening.." The last he needed was losing the one journal he actually used and the one that had his homework in it, especially not after a long night of practice that had his limbs feeling like spaghetti noodles. He just wanted to go home and drool into his pillow, sleeping off into another world.
"Looking for something?" Suguru chimed in, watching as his friend pulled out everything from inside his locker. His soccer uniform dropped onto the floor but Gojo was too exhausted to even care.
He shot a scowl towards the pierced boy. "My notebook man.. I lost it."
Gojo tried to recall where he had last used it. But there was no hope with how fried his brain was. He dropped his body dramatically onto the bench with a whine that sounded like it had come from a child.
"I have Monday's assignment in there."
"For what class?" Suguru slipped on his shirt over his body, closing his locker shut before turning to Satoru. "Biochemistry.." Thatâs when the memory hit him straight in the face.
He had left the notebook in his class, on the desk he sat in right next to the window.
Gojo immediately stood up, causing his head to feel dizzy, grabbing his bag to place on his broad shoulder. "Gotta go, see ya." He gave his friend a quick harsh pat on his back, rushing towards the door.
How could he be so dumb to leave it behind?
He has been so focused on his upcoming winter game that he was in a rush to get to practice on time.
Youâre late three times to practice? Youâre out.Â
The walk to his science class was a blur. Dodging small talk from other teammates and the cold weather practically freezing his balls off.
By the time he reached his biochem room, the hallway was eerily quiet as he slipped into the classroom.
There it was, sitting right there on his desk.
He could almost cry tears of joy.
Gojo let out a breath of relief, retrieving back the journal full of doodles and important notes. But most importantly, a poorly drawn portrait of his professor as a disgruntled frog that would definitely get him in trouble if said professor got his hands on it.
He clutched it close to his chest dramatically.
The door clicked quietly behind him. He was about to head towards his car that was parked in front of the field when a sudden sound floated down the hallway, reaching his ears.
It was music.
Well, a piano.
That's what it was.
The notes were as delicate as the raindrops that were hitting the window.
His head tilted to the side, following where the tunes were coming from in between the crack of the door.
Gojo knew he should have just gone home and attempted to get more than four hours of sleep for once, but the sound had him entranced like a siren call.
And that's when he saw you for the first time.
You looked so focused, eyes locked on the keys under your pretty fingers. You havenât noticed him yet, peeking through the crack of the door like a creep.
Gojo held himself closer, steadying his body on the door, trying to get a good look at you. Maybe he could make out your face if he leaned in just a bit closer. But he only managed to fall, causing the door to open wide and for you to freeze.
Your fingers hovered over the piano, eyes blown wide completely startled.
"Oh my gosh- I am so sorry!" he exclaimed, pushing himself off the ground, wincing at the feeling of a now forming bruise on his knee. He was tripping over his words, trying to explain why he was even peeking in the first place, but he fell silent when you approached him.Â
You had to be an angel with the way you were staring up at him. "Are you alright?" your voice was even better. It was so gentle.
'Angels play the piano.. I had no idea' gojo thought.Â
"Uhhhhh, yeah. yeah, I'm alright." He answered quietly, eyes drawn to your lips. "You play really beautifully"
"Oh, thank you."
"Yup!" With that, he rushed out the door, face blushed to the max and heart beating faster than it does when he's out on the field. 'Holy fuck, who was that beauty?' His hand felt light.
Way too light.Â
 He looked down just to see that he had forgotten his notebook, again.Â
Gojo would rather dig a hole and die in it than go back and face you after his sudden departure.Â
Your footsteps clicked on the floor, tilting your head to see gojo standing there, contemplating if he should turn around or not. "Hi again, you forgot this.."Â
You lifted up his journal.Â
"R-right, I forgot about that." He let out a nervous chuckle, reaching behind him doing a little grabby motion with his hand, back still turned towards you.
You were confused by his behavior but didn't question it, gently placing the book in his hand.
"Thank you." The flushed boy squeaked out.Â
You bit back a smile, watching as he tried to discreetly sneak a look at you over his shoulder.Â
"No problem!" you chirped, turning around to walk back into the music room. He let out a breath he didn't even realize he was holding, body now turned to fully face your figure as you walked away.Â
"... Wow." he whispered.Â
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"And then she smiled up at me, like the prettiest smile I have ever seen. I'm not even joking that girl is heaven sent. I regret not running after her because oh my god, Suguru- Suguru are you even listening to me?"Â
"Iâma keep it a buck, fuck no." Suguru grumbled, scrolling on his phone which was far more interesting than the summarization Gojo has been giving him for the past two hours.Â
"You're an ass." Gojo grumbled, flopping on his belly on his bed, messing up his navy blue covers. "Let me see if she has instagram.. wait fuck, I dunno her name."
"Wait, you have a crush on a girl whose name you do not know?" The black haired boy stared away from the screen, looking up at his enamored best friend.Â
"Well like I was saying, she slipped from my fingers last night. I was too shocked from her ethereal face to even process anything"Â
"Then I don't fucking know what to tell ya, just leave me the hell alone."
Gojo hummed. "Whatever." he swung his feet in the air, twirling around his hair as he thought back to you. His friend gave him a look of disgust because never in his 15 years of being friends with Satoru had he ever seen him in love.Â
It freaked him out.Â
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Gojo brought the ice pack to his cheek, mumbling a curse under his breath. The daydreamer was knocked out of his pondering when the soccer ball hit him straight in the cheek bone, smacking him hard enough to bruise.Â
He received a quick scolding from his coach on how he needed to get his head out of his ass and start playing harder now that the final game was closing in.
One second he was imagining you and your sweet smile and the other he was on the ground. He physically couldn't stop thinking back at you and the events of last night. Gojo threw away the bag with the now melted ice in a nearby trash can, slowly making his way to the music room.
'please be there, please be there, please please please!'
And then..
"Thank you god..." he whispered at the sight of you.Â
You were walking so peacefully, flipping the pages full of music in your hands, trying to pick which song to practice tonight. A stupid smile grew on Gojo's face. You had on a simple but cute white blouse and a brown skirt, the typical outfit you'd expect a pianist to wear.
You tucked a loose strand of hair behind your ear, too focused to notice the 6 foot boy practically stalking you in the dark. He did a little inner cheer, beaming with happiness after you finally looked up, making eye contact with him.
"Oh, hello." You greeted him sweetly. "You're the guy who face planted yesterday, right?"
He froze, embarrassed.Â
"Yea.. I'm Satoru." He held the door open for you, watching as you entered before closing the door behind him. He flashed you his dorky but genuine smile but quickly regretted it. 'Why the hell did I do that? What's wrong with me?' Any negative thoughts disappeared the second you giggled, making his brain short-circuit.
"I'm y/n."
He gave himself a pat on the back at achieving your name. "y/n, huh?" He tested it out himself, looking around to prevent himself from ogling you.
"So um, last night, I didn't get to listen to you finish playing that song."
You grabbed the back of your skirt, sitting down on the piano chair, patting the fabric down so it didn't stick up awkwardly.
"The one I was doing before you so rudely interrupted me?" Your focus shifted back onto him, scooting on the piano seat to make room for him.
He was surprised at the offer, but quickly acted on it. The muscular boy happily sat down next to his new crush.
"I can play it again if you'd like. It was love me by Elvis Presley."Â You positioned your fingers on their assigned keys, glancing at Satoru.Â
The simple eye contact drove him crazy. Gojo could feel the back of his neck heating up but shook it off as you began to play.Â
Your fingers glided around the keyboard out of pure memory. It made him hold his breath so he wouldn't miss hearing a second. His eyes weren't set on your hands but on your face, fully focused. It was enough for his heart to run wild. Not like it wasnât already.Â
You ended the song with one final push on the keyboard, looking up at him and the stupid smile that was plastered on his face.Â
"That was good.. really good"Â
"I know." You grinned. He let out a soft chuckle, shaking his head as his tongue darted out to lick his slightly chapped lips.Â
"Do you play?"Â
Gojo hummed. "Nah. Iâd like to, but Iâm too busy with soccer."Â
"You play soccer?" You asked curiously.Â
"Yeah, you couldn't tell from my sweat?"
"I thought you just had a bad sweating problem."
Gojo let out a groan. "that's fuckin' embarrassing." He dragged a hand down his face.Â
a snort escaped you unknowingly, making him turn to look at you again, forcing you to bring your hand up to cover your mouth in embarrassment. "Sorry."Â
"For what?"
He did not care. like at all.Â
"Um.. nothing. So, is listening to me play the piano all you came back for?"Â
The hand that previously rubbed his face now made its way to the back of his neck, nervously rubbing it.
"Sort of, I came back mostly because I wanted to get to know you. I've never seen you before and I just.. I was wondering if you'd like to go out with me sometime." His own words surprised him. That is not at all the reason he showed up.Â
A faint blush attacked your cheeks. "Really?" Your voice softened even more.
"Yeah, really."
You were hesitant, but eventually nodded. "I'd really like that."Â
But he was thankful his mouth spoke involuntarily. âYeah? Great, thatâs great..â Â
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Gojo gently closed the door behind him, letting out a tired sigh. His hands were covering the bottom half of his face, not being able to process the fact that he asked you out, and you said yes.Â
He began walking to his dorm, ready to tell Suguru what happened. His hands were shaky, opening up his phone to stare at the new contact on his list. Yours. He clicked on the edit button, replacing the number with your name.Â
âSuguru!â Gojo yelled after entering his room. âBro bro bro,â he smacked the exposed back of his friend, to which Suguru responded by smacking it away. âI did it, I asked her out and I got her number.âÂ
Suguru grunted. âSo?â
Gojo rolled his eyes. âDude, can you at least pretend to be proud of me? Fuck you so negative for?â
Suguru placed his phone down, shifting to lay against his elbow to face gojo. âJust confused and weirded out that youâre serious about a girl. Youâre always sleeping around so yeah, itâs fucking weird that youâre suddenly Mr. Lover Boy.âÂ
Gojoâs eyebrows furrowed. "Oh, I'm sorry if it's so "strange" for you to acknowledge that I can actually feel love."
He felt hurt at the fact that he was seen as incapable of feeling such strong sentiments towards someone. Yes, it was right that he used to stick his dick in every girl that would give him bedroom eyes in the past just for fun, but he's calmed down. And right now, he even more so now that you have entered his life, and he doesn't expect you to leave anytime soon.
"Your parents won't like it if they find out you're getting distracted."
Gojo's parents have this stupid belief that if a woman were to appear in his schedule, it would mess up his future. Soccer has been his top priority since grade school, having games every other month and practices every day for hours. Even when he tried explaining that he no longer enjoyed the sport, he got shamed.
"You have talent, son." His father would remind him.
But Gojo didn't want to kick around a ball.
He never wanted to.Â
He wanted to push his fingers down the keys of the piano, just like you did. He wanted to learn how to read music and to perform on big stages that didn't consist of roaring crowds cheering when a goal was scored, but a quiet audience that appreciated the art he was creating.
That was a dream that he cherished for years, keeping it a secret from everyone, especially from his un-supportive family. If they found out he would rather play an instrument rather than play a sport? Heâd be a huge disappointment.âÂ
"They don't have to know." Gojo shot back.
"They'll find out eventually. Just don't waste your time with her, we both know how batshit crazy your family is."
"I'm fucking aware and I don't need to hear it from you right now."
Suguru was sitting properly now, scowling up at the now agitated boy. He knew he was being an ass, but he was just looking out for gojo. At least, thatâs what he kept telling himself.
"You clearly do if you're actually considering going out with her."
"I'm not considering, I am going out with her."
It was a back and forth argument that seemed as if it had no end.
"Whatever, you better not come crying to me when they hear about this. You already know what I will say."
I told you so.Â
Gojo was already making his way to his room, shutting the door loudly. He hated getting reminded of his parents. Even in college when he thought he'd finally get away from them, they still continue to haunt him.
He fell over his bed, taking off his shirt and bringing the covers up to cover his torso. He took deep breaths, scrolling on his phone before opening up your contact again.
His fingers began moving.
SatoruÂ
'Hellooo. Me, you, cafe tomorrow?'
He held his breath, awaiting your response.Â
You replied shortly after, which he was thankful for.
You
'Hi! Yes sounds yum! what time?'
Skipping practice shouldn't harm him. He hasnât missed any yet, so itâd be his first strike. If it meant sacrificing it for you, he would do it.
'Does 3 work for you?'
'Mhmmm, I have to be back before 8 tho!'
He chuckled. Did you have a curfew at 20 years old?
'Alright, noted. See you then.'
'Okay goodnight ! <3'
Oh my god.Â
You sent a heart and you said goodnight.
That clearly meant something right? You are interested in him, you sent a heart. He bit his inner cheek to prevent a stupid giggle from slipping out. He hearted your message, exiting the app.
From outside his door, he could hear Suguru turn on the tv, probably to play some video game of his. Gojo sighed, standing up to go join him despite the previous argument. He was still his best buddy at the end of the day.
"Make room." He murmured, pushing the black haired boy's feet off the couch to make space for him to sit on.
Suguru handed him the second controller without a question, splitting the screen into two. They played in silence until the sun fully set and the moon rose.Â
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You patted down your blouse, turning to your side to stare at yourself in the mirror. Is this too little for a first date? Or was it too much? No boy has ever asked you out, not because you were unattractive, far from that actually, but because you always kept to yourself.
Many saw you as boring, shy, timid, unapproachable. But Gojo saw past that.
You did a little spin for yourself, showing off your pretty outfit. This should be good.
Gojo on the other hand was panicking as well.Â
He didn't know if he should just throw on another of his polo shirts or a sweater. He had his clothes spread out on his bed to make it easier for him to choose.
He settled on a brown patterned sweater with his white shirt underneath and his usual black jeans.Â
After receiving the message that you were ready, he rushed out the door, bringing the carâs engine to life.Â
Gojo went over potential lines, like the hopeless romantic he had grown to be.
"Looking as gorgeous as ever." No, way too soon to say that. "Nice rack." No no, definitely not that. Shit, should he have gotten you flowers? Wait, he doesn't know which you prefer. He should first figure that out and then get you some. You looked like a tulip girl, or maybe roses?Â
His nose scrunched up. Did he put on cologne today? Did he stink? what if you thought he smelt bad.Â
What about his hair? Did it look greasy? He took a double shower today, shaved his entire body, just in case.Â
All negative thoughts left his head once he reached your house. You were standing out there waiting for him, looking around cutely with your hair blowing around a bit from the winter wind.
He clenched his jaw close, not wanting it to fall open.
Your eyes landed on his car, face brightening. You gave him a little wave, adjusting the strap of your purse on your shoulder as you made your way down the street to him.
Gojo came back to earth, jumping out of his seat to go over to the passengers side, opening the door. "You're so pretty." he complimented, watching you sit down.
"Thank you!" You happily chirped.
He walked over to his side once again, typing out the location of the cafe on the console, previously where your address was written.
You both began with small talk. How your classes were going, why you even chose the university, all of that.Â
âSo, why soccer?â You asked.Â
âWell, like I said, my parents wanted me to do something impressive, y'know? Iâve been playing since I was like five. Itâs the only thing Iâm good at.â
âI highly doubt that.âÂ
Your words made his cheeks warm up.
âWhy piano?â He forced himself to speak, praying you hadn't noticed the way his hands were gripping the steering wheel.Â
You hummed in thought. âI donât know actually. Iâve always liked music and I thought the piano was cool, so I just stuck to it. I tried out guitar before but piano was easier for me.âÂ
Gojo listened intently, almost as if your words were the most important things to ever exist.Â
âI play for the school from time to time.âÂ
"Is that so? I'll go and support you if you promise to come to my game."
You nodded. "Deal! I'll even wear your jersey."
Fuck. he'd like that. a lot.
"Noted." A breathy chuckle left him.
Your destination wasn't far, but traffic made it seem as if it was. "Think we're here." He looked around, parking the car just as the generated voice set on the map spoke out.
'You have arrived.'
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The date went well, really well.
You even went as far as holding hands as the two of you made your way into the heart of the town center, admiring the Christmas decorations they had set up, laughing at the way they made The Grinch appear.Â
âHold on, stand over there let me take a picture!â He pointed over at the cardboard cutout of the character with a silhouette of a person with a hole cut out where the face should be, allowing people to place their head in.Â
You smiled after posing.Â
The phoneâs camera snapped, taking a couple of pictures.Â
âGorgeous, absolutely gorgeous.â Gojo grinned, showing you the captures he had taken to you once you made your way back to him.Â
âLetâs take one together!â You offered.Â
His heart beat overtook the holiday music playing, beating loud as hell as you got closer to him for the picture. He gulped, shyly wrapping his arm around your shoulder, forcing himself to look at the camera and not you.Â
But eventually the day came to an end, and with your curfew hour approaching, he drove you home.
"Hey so um, I was wondering if we could do this again soon?" He internally cringed at how desperate he sounded.
"Of course. I mean, obviously."
Satoru bit back a smile, knowing it was no use with the way his face was shifting to a soft pink color.
He pulled up to your now familiar house, watching you gather your things, unbuckling your seatbelt.
He quickly scrambled out of his seat, rushing over to your side to open the door. You chuckled at how hard he tried, but you appreciated it.
"Thank you."
You both stood in front of each other, the silence heavy. He leaned in, wanting to close the small distance in between you two, but the sound of your neighbor's dog barking snapped him back into reality.
He cleared his throat, taking a small step back. "So um, I'll see you."
"Yeah, see you." You took a couple of steps before turning back around. âI had a lot of fun today, Satoru.â
You reached up on your toes, pecking his cheek gently. A gasp broke from Gojo before hearing the soft clack of your heels disappear with every step you took up to your front door, turning around one last time to wave goodbye at him.
Gojo's hand slowly made its way to touch the area where you had kissed him.
There's no doubt.
He was in love.
Gojo made his way into his dorm room, locking it behind him.Â
He threw his sweater onto a chair, leaving him in his undershirt, making his way to the couch, plopping down on it. His forearm laid over his forehead thinking back to you and how well your date went.
He smiled softly, clearly satisfied.
Suguru heard the door close, indicating his friend had come home. He went out to greet him but the view of him laying on the couch, eyes closed but smile intact, his face shifted. He knew gojo was in too deep.
And he knew that sooner or later, shit would go down.
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"No no.. that one's an eight note." You pointed at the music sheets in front of you.
"It deadass looks like a sixteenth note." He argued.
"No it doesn't!"
"This is way too complicated.." Gojo groaned, resting his head on his hand all while he averted his gaze from the papers to your pretty face.
He admired you, hand already reaching to fix a strand of hair, thumb lingering on your cheek.
"Satoru focus.." You whined, clearly distressed that your date couldn't understand the difference between two notes.
"Can't. You're too pretty."
His lips grazed yours for just a second, and in that second alone he was able to tell that one kiss wasn't going to be enough.
Your hands placed themselves on his shoulders, previously on the piano seat, returning the sweet short pecks he kept initiating.
His hands went behind your back, bringing your body closer to his.
"Quarter note.. treple clef-" He mumbled against your lips.
"Treble clef." You corrected him.
"Whatever."
After four successful dates, Gojo finally got what, or who, he wanted. You. He finally got you.Â
And he was the happiest bastard on earth.Â
âWant to go to the mall, baby?â He said against your lips, tugging at your lower lip.Â
âMmm, yeah okay!â You chirped before wincing at his biting. âOuch! Toru!âÂ
He grinned, licking at where he bit. âSorry. I just love these pretty lips so much.âÂ
âYeah yeah..â You rolled your eyes, laughing at the sudden tickle attack he declared against your tummy, poking at the sides.Â
âLetâs get going.âÂ
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The shoes were put on display so any shoppers could get a brief glance at it before deciding if it was worth buying or not. You stared at them for a while. They were a pretty pair of Mary Jane's. Low heeled but had some chunk put into the platform part and they had a strap that wrapped around the ankle. The bow in the middle of it was small but it added so much to the design.
You always asked your mom for a pair whenever you went out with her and your sister. She always dismissed it, saying they were too expensive. But here they are, only $40.99. Your gaze turned to look at the big poster they had plastered on the window. a new month's deal. 'Buy one get one 50% off!'
Gojo approached you holding a bag full of pizza bits and a single large cup of lemonade intended for the both of you to share from Weltzels pretzels. He took the sight of you looking at a pair of shoes so intently, almost like you were debating buying them.
"Do you like those?" He asked, offering you the small warm bag of food before he took a sip of the drink in his hand. You happily accepted the treats before shrugging. "Not sure."
He hummed. "You've been staring at them for a while now."
"They just remind me of a pair I used to want when I was a kid. But they were always "too expensive" so my mom never got them for me. But she was always willing to drop a grand on bags she would never even use." You saw at the corner of your eyes Gojo reaching to grab a piece of the pizza from the bag.
He didn't say anything for a while, just staring at the shoes as well as he chewed on his pizza bit. Then, he turned and walked off into the store, leaving you standing confused. Your eyes followed as he talked to an employee, pointing at the pair of shoes displayed on the window. Specifically, the pair you wanted. The clerk nodded before disappearing behind the door that read 'workers only!'
"Um, baby?" You whispered out, following him inside the store to where Gojo was standing, still sipping onto his comically large drink.
"Uh hey what are you doing?" You asked once you reached him. He glanced back at you, reaching to grab another piece from inside the bag. "Checking if they have those shoes in your size."
You mumbled his name awkwardly as you shifted the now empty bag in your hands because that biggie ate them all. He took a bite from the treat before feeding it to you. "Shh, I'm working."
The worker returned with a box in his hand. "Size seven?" Gojo nodded, taking the box in his hands, gesturing for you to sit down on the seats provided by the store. "Hey you don't have to.."
"I know," he interrupted. "I want to."
He got down on one knee, placing the cup he was previously sipping on next to you. His hands moved to open up the shoe box, carefully taking out the pair of black mary janes. "Give me your foot" he patted his knee. "Here."
"I can put them on myself.."
"I want to, love." He said sternly, forcing your foot to rest on his knee. "I'm going to stain your pants-" you mumbled embarrassed. He squeezed your calf before slipping off the shoes you were wearing right now, grabbing the shoe, carefully putting it on your right foot. "Not too loose or tight?"
You shook your head. "No.. they're.. they're perfect." He hummed, his skilled fingers adjusted the strap on your ankle handling you like you were the most valuable thing to him. He looked up at you, his expression softened the second your eyes met. "Just like you." Your eyes widened the second he said that, blush overtaking your face.
You tried saying something but nothing came out. Not like you could with the way your throat was drying up. I mean, your boyfriend of what, a month (?) was offering to buy you these expensive shoes out of nowhere. You reached for the cup of lemonade next to you as he worked on your left foot, only to realize he already finished the drink as well.
Is this the type of greed they talk about in the bible?
"Stand up." he ordered in which you complied. You looked down at the fresh pair on your feet, walking around a bit to test them out.
"You like 'em?" he asked again. You turned to him, walking to be right next to him. "Yeah, I like them. A lot"
He hummed in acknowledgment. "Well, go and look for another pair. They have the bogo discount anyway, so might as well take advantage of it." He stood up, brushing his jeans from the small stain you left behind.
"No.. no that's too much! This is more than enough! Besides, you shouldn't be spending so much on me, you already paid for dinner today-"
"Baby, seriously. I don't care if I drop a grand on you, you can make it up to me by allowing me to kiss you numb. Go get another pair." He looked around the store before his eyes landed on a pair of converse. "Get some converse, your black ones are all beat up."
"I like them that way." You argued as you took off the shiny shoes before replacing them with said beat up converse. "Well I don't. makes you look like a sad homeless lady. I want my girl to have pretty clothes to match her pretty face."
You sighed, feeling your heart warm up.
"I'm not throwing these converse away. They hold too many memories."
His hand reached for yours. "Yeah no, we can burn them ceremonially later." He brought your hand up to his face, kissing your knuckles one by one with his pink tinted lips.
He was so entranced by your face, he failed to notice the pair of eyes staring you both down.Â
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âHey baby!â You cooâed into the phone, hearing your boyfriend's tired grunts from the other side.Â
âMorning my pretty girl.â He yawned, dragging a hand over his face.Â
âItâs four toru, did you just wake up?âÂ
Gojo carefully sat up, watching his bedsheets pool down at his lap, exposing his bare chest. His nipples hardened at the cold air, and he didnât have to be fully awake to know that he was hard.
Rock hard.Â
Your voice wasnât helping out at all.Â
âJust calling to ask if youâd like to come watch me perform later?âÂ
Your question snapped him from his horny ass thoughts. âWhat? Baby, youâre having a show later? Why didnât you tell me this earlier?âÂ
Usually, he knew when you had piano practices and performances.Â
âI just.. didnât know if you wanted to sit down for two hours.âÂ
Gojo sighed, not liking the way you even considered thinking he could be bored from watching you do what you love.Â
âIf it meant watching my girl play, Iâd gladly sit down for more than a couple hours. I can sit for decades.âÂ
âToru..âÂ
âIâll be there. When did you say it was again?â He rubbed at his eyes, feeling his crusties fall down.Â
âToday at seven.âÂ
He froze for a split second, remembering he had practice. It had completely slipped from his mind.
âSeven..â He repeated softly to himself. Practice was at five, and it lasted two hours and a half.Â
He had gotten in trouble from ditching last time so he could take you out. âThree strikes, youâre out.â But it would only be his second. He could handle another scolding from his coach. His voice was already echoing through his mind.Â
The pause rushed to fill it. âItâs okay if you canât. I know Iâm asking last minute, it was just-âÂ
âIâll be there,â he cut in.Â
âAre you sure-âÂ
âPositive. I'm positive sweetheart.â His voice was firmer now.Â
âWait, donât you have practice today?â You faintly remembered him telling you a couple days back how his schedule had changed from practice going from every even day to every odd day.Â
âYeah, but you really think I need it? Iâm as ready as everâÂ
âToru..â
âSeriously baby, Iâll be there for you.â His eyes shifted back down to his raging boner. â..Can you come over before you go over to set up your piano though?âÂ
âOh, yeah, is something wrong?âÂ
â... Just need you.âÂ
Gojo wasnât a virgin, far from that actually. but with the way his body was warming up and heart beating a thousand miles an hour, he could be mistaken as one.
He waited patiently for you to arrive at his dorm.Â
Fuck.Â
Would your panties be pink? Or would they be black.Â
Or better yet, blue?Â
âYo.â Geto knocked at Gojoâs door, despite it already being cracked open. âIâm heading out now to go to practice. You coming?âÂ
âUh, yeah. I just need to do something quick then Iâll make my way over.âÂ
âDonât miss again. The coach will be on your ass like last time.â He chuckled, waving bye at the white haired boy.Â
Gojo bit the inside of his cheek, laying back on his arms, deep in his thoughts as always. You were worth it.Â
Thatâs not a question.
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âOh my god, fuck. Yes baby, fuck!â Gojo closed his eyes, panting like a damn dog on a sunny day.Â
The way your puffy folds were stretched over him only encouraged him to go faster and harder, hitting your cervix at a perfect angle.Â
âPretty fucking pussy, youâre so goddamn pretty, look at you.â
Your performance dress was sitting on the ground while your panties were ripped in the middle, right at your entrance.Â
âToru!â
You whimpered, hiding your face in his pillow. "Don't hide yourself from me, baby. wanna see ya.â
The headboard was hitting against the wall with a thud and Gojo could only pray that the other students staying at the dorms couldnât hear them. Â
He buried himself deeper into your cunt, bottoming out.Â
âYouâre too bigâŠâ you squealed, gripping onto the now wet bedsheets.Â
âI know. And youâre too tight.âÂ
His hand shifted to grope your ass, fondling the plush meat, hips not stopping or slowing.Â
Your breathless pleas were like music to his ears.Â
âMy pretty girlfriend.. mmm arenât you so pretty?â he praised. The veins in his arms were more evident now. One was appearing on his forehead in concentration, trying to figure out the best way to make you cum.Â
You were a virgin after all.Â
Profanities spilled from both your lips, feeling yourself clench harder around him. A ring of pre was forming just at the base of his cock, like a damn tattoo.Â
âBabe! T-think Iâm close!â
He grunted lowly. âDonât cum just yet.â The squelches have now turned sloppier, and louder, and hotter.Â
His white bangs were sticking to his forehead no thanks to the thin layer of sweat that had formed.Â
âNot done with you yet.âÂ
His hands placed themselves both on your hips, thick fingertips rubbing you lovingly before flipping you over without slipping out.Â
He wasted no time smacking at your cunt, watching your wetness fly into the air with each spank.Â
âSatoruâŠ!â You felt lightheaded in the best way possible. Your drool dripped down your chin, watching him thrust in and out. The hair that trailed down his belly button to join his pubes just made you tighten onto his aching cock even more.Â
How could your boyfriend be this beautiful?Â
Gojo hesitated, pulling you closer to his hips, latching a hand lightly to your neck.Â
âIs this okay?âÂ
You nodded feeling him squeeze it.Â
The sounds of your breathy moans, messy cunt along with the smack of his balls that hit your ass with every thrust had you both in a trance.
So much so that you didnât seem to notice the door shutting and the sudden appearance of Geto who was frozen in his place, looking absolutely mortified.Â
âWhat the fuck.âÂ
His voice broke through your needy whines. âSatoru!â This time his voice sounded harsher, angrier.Â
Gojoâs movements came to a halt, keeping his grip on your waist. His body covered you, blocking you from his friends' view. But he knew for a fact that Geto already had in mind who was in the bed with him.Â
You quickly brought the sheets to your chest in an attempt to cover yourself. Â
â... Ever heard of knocking?â Gojo mumbled.Â
âThe door was fucking open. I could see you from the kitchen.â Geto did not advance from his spot on the doorframe. âDonât tell me you actually got with her.â
Gojo hasn't told him about the two of you yet. Or anyone really.Â
You never questioned it, thinking heâd want to take it slow before he introduced you to his friends let alone family. You had just started dating a couple weeks back. But the way his friend said it âdonât tell me you actually got with her.â left a bad taste in your mouth.Â
What did he mean by that?Â
âGeto, seriously get out of the room.âÂ
âYour parents are going to kill you Satoru,â He was more animated now, hands waving in the air angrily. His own thoughts didnât let him process the way Gojo used his last name on him. âArenât you supposed to be at practice right now? What the hell are you doing man-â
âI said get out!â Youâve never heard Gojoâs voice beam like that.Â
Ever. Â
It got across though. Geto slammed the door shut, storming off.Â
Gojo sighed, staring at the wall before averting his gaze down to you, smiling softly. âGuess the moment is over, huh?âÂ
Your fingers twitched on his shoulders, feeling tears prick at the corners of your eyes. âWhyâd he say that?âÂ
His eyebrows furrowed, face shifting to one of concern at your shaky voice.Â
âHey hey, baby, itâs okay shh..âÂ
His softening cock slipped out of you with a small pop, arms circling around you to bring you into a hug.Â
âMy family.. Is an ass. A big fucking ass. Theyâre strict with me, especially my love life. They think they know whatâs best for me but fuck, no they dont. I know whatâs right for me and thatâs you, love. Itâs you.âÂ
His lips grazed at your cheek, pecking lightly.Â
âItâs been you since I laid eyes on you.âÂ
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His words looped over and over in your head as you mentally prepared yourself for your upcoming performance.Â
From behind the curtain, you peeked out to see him sitting in his designated seat, head tilted down at his digital camera, adjusting the settings, waiting for you to come out so he could preserve the moment forever.Â
Your teeth sank into the inside of your cheek, now becoming a new habit of yours, pacing back into the backstage area.Â
If you've practiced the song multiple times, you shouldnât be nervous.Â
Right?
Wrong.Â
Because the problem wasnât the notes or the tempo, it was that youâd chosen this song with him in mind.Â
âWant to watch La La Land?â Satoru mumbled earlier that month, scratching the back of his neck while the other lazily clicked away at the remote control.Â
âSure!â You tossed the blanket over your bodies, snuggling close to his warm bare chest. âHow are you not cold?â You pressed your cheek against him.Â
âHm?â His eyes landed on you after pressing âplayâ. âI am cold. I just want to show off my amazing muscles to my amazing girl.âÂ
âWeirdo.âÂ
Neither of you have watched the film before. but somehow ended up falling in love with it. You with the music, and him with the storyline.Â
âI hope we never end up like them.â His voice was a whisper, silently wrapping his arms tight around you.
âToru-â
âNever, ever leaving you, baby. Fuck soccer and you know what, fuck piano too. Donât leave me.âÂ
You heard your name be called out, indicating you were next.Â
You quickly patted down your skirt with trembling hands, stepping in front of the mirror to make sure your hair, makeup, posture, everything was perfect.
The stage manager gave you a nod and you finally stepped out.Â
His eyes landed on you immediately, smiling lovingly up at you. You could feel your chest tighten as you sat at the piano, fingers already hovering over the keys.Â
From the distance, you could hear the sound of something clicking, his camera.Â
You inhaled before pushing down your fingers, allowing the melody to unfold. Youâd discreetly look over at him, seeing how he stared at you so preciously.Â
By the final note, your hands had stopped shaking.Â
The room erupted in applause, the loudest coming from Satoru. You bowed, eyes never leaving him even when you stepped offstage, rushing towards him.Â
âSatoru!âÂ
He didnât let another word come out of you, automatically cupping your cheeks, pressing his lips against yours.Â
âSuch a cruel girl.â He pecked again. âYou picked that song on purpose didnât ya?â
You giggled. âMaybe.âÂ
His thumb rubbed under your eye gently.Â
âYou did amazing, sweetheart.âÂ
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Satoru has come to notice that the only way you were able to practice piano was using the schoolâs.Â
And with Christmas approaching, he figured itâd only be appropriate if he got you one of your own.Â
His hands covered your eyes, leading you carefully to the living room where your present was.Â
âAlright, 3..2..1.âÂ
His hands fell allowing you to see. you blinked, eyes adjusting to the bright lights on the tree.
Your jaw dropped.Â
In front of you was none other than a console piano. It wasnât like the one in the music room where you practiced in and the only place you knew that had the instrument available for use, but regardless it was beautiful.Â
And completely yours.Â
âYou like it?â He asked, rubbing your back. You nodded excitedly. âOf course I do! Thank you!â Your face was as bright as the Christmas lights, beaming at the new piano that sat in your living room.Â
âI'm glad..â he whispered, letting go of you so you could look at it closer.Â
You squealed, slightly jumping up and down at it. he groaned at the recoil of your ass which was visible under your plaid skirt.Â
âIt's so gorgeous!â your fingers pushed down on the keys.Â
âJust like you.âÂ
âSo cheesyâ You said before bursting into laughter as his hands found your stomach, tickling you. You braced yourself on the piano's surface. That's when you felt it.Â
His very prominent boner that was straining his pants.Â
Gojo noticed that you noticed.Â
A smirk appeared on that stupid face of his. âHow about we check how sturdy this sucker is.â He placed a hand on your gift.Â
Gojoâs hips snapped forward with a ruthless pace, each thrust making you hit against the brand new instrument and begin to rattle with all his strength.
His breath was coming out in short pants, chest pressed up against your back, pinning you harder against the surface of the piano. You whispered out his name like a prayer, every sound you made reached his ears and that only seemed to push him even further.
âSo goddamn beautiful.â He praised.
At some point, words became too difficult for you to say, resulting in you answering with only moans and whimpers. gojoâs fingers were digging into your hips, leaving crescent like marks on them. He kept pounding into you harshly, tip already brushing against a sweet spot inside you.
âRight there!â You begged along with a loud mewl.
Your skirt was bunched up in his hands, almost tearing the fabric apart as he felt himself grow closer.Â
âHere?â he began going deeper, watching you fall apart. The bounce of your ass was not helping, especially with the way it slapped against his thighs. His lower lip was in between his teeth, letting out grunts of his own spill.Â
You were both thankful your parents werenât home. He wouldnât want to ruin the image they had of him this quickly. Of the perfect guy for their daughter already fucking her numb over her christmas present.Â
âThink mâcummin!â You sobbed out, reaching behind you to grab his waist for support. He cooâed softly, hand leaving your skirt to hold your hand in his. âMe too baby, letâs finish together alright? I'm cumming inside you. no way am i able to pull out this tight fuckin pussy.â
You nodded.Â
âPlease fill me up!â Gojo grinned once he heard that. âIf ya say so darling.âÂ
Your legs gave up on you at the feeling of his warm seed filling you to the brim. Your eyes rolled to the back of your head, mouth open with sounds still coming out as your orgasm hit you as well.Â
âGood girl baby.â His arms were wrapped around your waist, pecking your temple lovingly. âStay with me..âÂ
You both stayed in that position, dick still twitching inside you before softening, forcing him to slip out with a loud squelch that made you cringe.Â
âMâguessing you loved your gift?â He reached down for your panties, sliding them back on you but not before watching his semen ooze out of your cunt along with yours. He fought the urge to stick his tongue in you to clean the mess up, but he could tell you were already overstimulated, so he decided to eat you out some other time.Â
And by that I mean in a few hours.Â
âYeah.. thank you.. so much..â You whimpered at the sting on your ass after he slapped it. Gojo quickly zipped his pants back up, pushing his hair back with a pant.Â
âOf course my love. you better play me every song you know on it.âÂ
âWill do..â you smiled weakly up at him.Â
âI'm gonna go get ya water, cmon sit down on the couch sweetheart.âÂ
You did as he said, carefully sitting down. The feeling of his cum sticking to your panties just made you clench your thighs.Â
Why did he have to be so sexy?Â
You stared back at your piano, admiring it. You were already thinking of all the songs you would play from sunrise to sunset.Â
Gojo walked back to the living room holding a glass of water, handing it over.Â
âMy final game is coming up.. So I have lots of practice to do. Hope the piano keeps you occupied while Iâm away.â His arm wrapped over your shoulder, bringing you closer.Â
âMmmm thatâs right.âÂ
âWanna head over to a restaurant, baby?â He never hesitated in asking you, and he urged you to never be afraid in asking him for whatever you desired.Â
âIâd really love that.âÂ
âGood good, letâs get going then.â He stood up, offering his hand to you.Â
âUh, no way am I going out to eat like this.âÂ
His eyebrow twitched in confusion. âLike what?âÂ
You motioned downstairs, lifting your skirt to show off the wet mess.Â
Gojo laughed, smacking your thigh lightly. âNo no, you gotta head out like that.â
âAbsolutely not!âÂ
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The dinner consisted of nothing but him staring at you.
âBabe, eat.â You urged.
âCanât, the view is too nice.âÂ
After eating out, you both settled in heading over to his place.Â
His laugh quieted down as he pulled into the parking lot, seeing two familiar snow colored haired people. He could feel his heart sink and blood boil.Â
âStay here darling.â He ordered you, squeezing your thigh. You mumbled a soft âokâ, attempting to look behind you out the window to see what was going on.
He got out of the vehicle, walking around to where the people he wanted to see the least were standing. His mother was biting her nails anxiously like a mad woman. His father had his arms crossed over his chest, a serious look displayed on his face.Â
Then there was Suguru. looking as guilty as ever.
And it didnât take a genius to figure out what was going on.Â
âIs that the girl?â His mother asked. She had never expected her son to be going out with a girl instead of sticking to his schedule. How dare he? âIs that your little girlfriend?â Her voice rose up.Â
âWhat did we say about relationships?â his father reminded him.Â
But all gojo could think about was the fact that they found out because of the tan boy standing not far away.Â
âAre you fucking kidding me.â He stared at the one person he thought he could trust. His hands shot out to grab Suguru's shirt collar.Â
âYou told them?!â He was practically screaming in his face. But Suguru kept looking unbothered, as if he didnât practically ruin Gojoâs life right now.Â
âSon, calm down.â Gojo's father said sternly.Â
âNo, no how the hell am I supposed to calm down. You all keep getting in the way of my life. My life!â He was at the point of crying tears out of frustration.Â
âShe is just a girl, Satoru.â His mother said. âShe wooâed you with a few tunes so what, itâs not going to bring money into the family, is it? You need to find yourself a good woman. But right now, your focus is on your career. Not a girlfriend, and especially not her.âÂ
âYou are no longer the one to decide what you think is best for me. I love her, mom. I don't care what you think, just know that I am not listening to anything you say.âÂ
That shut his mom up real quick, shooting him a death glare, one that would have 6 year old Gojo in tears by now. But he kept his head high.Â
âSatoru, you have to understand that we want whatâs best for you.âÂ
âNo,â He interrupted, turning to look at his father now. âYou want whatâs best for you.â
He then turned his head towards Suguru, whose eyes were set on his shoes, knowing he completely lost his best friend's trust. It's not like he had a choice either but to tell the truth. His and Gojo's family were close, and he knew that if he were to lie to Gojos parents when they asked him why the coach had informed them that their son was on the verge of being kicked from the team, the families would have even more conflicts.Â
Gojo wanted to tell him to go fuck himself, but instead he walked right past the new stranger.Â
âCan you hear me out for a second.â Geto caught up to him, ignoring the putrid sobs coming from Mrs. Gojo. âSatoru.â he called out.Â
âLook man, did you really expect me to lie when they came to the dorm, worried sick that you missed two practices? What was I supposed to say?âÂ
âTell them I was sick, that an emergency came up, I donât know but you couldâve come up with a shitty excuse.âÂ
âJust for them to find out I didn't tell the truth and have our families fight over me being a liar?!âÂ
Gojo was breathing heavily, eyebrows furrowed and jaw set tight. but his face fell as soon as he remembered you were still in the car.Â
He shook his head. âThey can stay the fuck out of my life. And so can you.âÂ
Geto froze at that. âYou donât mean that.âÂ
âTrust me, I mean every bit.â The air around them felt heavy. âYou chose them over me.â
âGojo, the families-âÂ
âYou're just a damn puppet. Same as I was, but I learned to stop playing the role. Do you think they actually see you as their son? They see you as an accomplishment.â
He rushed down the stairs, approaching his car where you were still in, head hung low nervously as you played with the skin around your fingernails, clearly worried. His parents were standing outside the building, shooting dirty looks towards your way.Â
âI'm driving you home.â Gojo said after entering the car, closing the door shut and clicking his seatbelt on. âMind if I stay with you for a bit, baby?â
His eyes met yours.Â
â⊠Did they want us to break up?â You asked quietly, scared to hear his response.Â
He immediately grabbed your hand in his to reassure you. âYou know I would never ever do that. You're everything to me no matter what they think or say, I'm not letting things end between us. Got it?âÂ
You hesitated, not wanting his parents to hate their only son because he chose you over them. âBut what if theyâre right? What if you can do better?âÂ
You heard.Â
Of course you heard. Not like they were being quiet.Â
His hold tightened. âDon't you start with that.â That's the last thing he said as he drove to yours, address no longer needed on the ups no thanks to the amount of times heâs been over.Â
You worried over what his family would think of him now.Â
Would they hate him because of you?Â
âą
The bed felt surprisingly cold.
Your boyfriend's back was turned towards you and even though his back muscles were on full display, you couldnât ogle without having something eating you up from the inside.Â
âToru.. baby can we talk about earlier?â
âLove, if youâre going to tell me that theyâre right I swear to god-â
âNo,â You sighed, placing a hand on his shoulder, rubbing it down to the small of his back. âI just.. I feel like we shouldnât wait until morning to discuss it.âÂ
Begrudgingly, Satoru turned around, meeting eyes with you. âI will never ever break up with you because my family thinks they know what is best for me. I cut them off on the spot. Theyâve got no say in what I do with my life nor with the woman I love. I told you once and Iâll tell you again. I love you, okay?â
Your heart warmed and you felt your worriness ease. âI love you too.âÂ
âIâve been wanting to get rid of them for a long ass time anyways.â He yawned, throwing an arm around your waist. âJust finally got a good excuse to do so.âÂ
Your lips met in a small but sweet peck.Â
âNow letâs go to sleep.. Big game tomorrow.âÂ
âą
Suguru seems to not have caught on to the fact that his former best friend no longer wanted to be a part of his life anymore.Â
âSatoru, seriously letâs talk.â He begged like a desperate ex.Â
The white haired boy only rolled his eyes in response, walking past him to reach his locker. âI donât need you messing with my head before the game. Told you to stay the fuck away from me and I meant it.âÂ
He quickly tugged off his shirt and replaced it with his white and teal jersey before slamming his locker shut and turning to walk out. Suguruâs hand placed itself on Satoruâs chest only to get pushed off almost immediately.Â
Satoru walked out, hearing the sound of the crowd cheering. He looked around until he spotted you sitting not too far from the front.Â
He smiled stupidly at himself knowing he was right where he wanted to be.Â
âą
You stared at him like he grew three heads.Â
âUhh yeah babe, I think I remember our whole love story. I was there.âÂ
âOkay well yes but Iâm retelling it because.. Because..â Satrou groaned, looking off to the side where two waitresses were standing, nodding at them.Â
Before you could look towards the direction he was staring at, a familiar song started playing.Â
Love me.Â
The same one you played for him all those years ago.Â
âOh, hey-âÂ
âShhh..â He brought a finger up to your lips before standing up. Satoru reached into his pocket pulling out a small black box. âBaby.. light of my life.âÂ
Your eyes watered, already knowing where this was going.Â
He got down on one knee.Â
âWill you make me the happiest man alive and marry me?â
Suguru made a promise to himself when he discovered that you were carrying his child: he would be an amazing father and husband.
And although he was nervous, he was excited too, calling Satoru and Kento to tell them the excellent news immediately.
One day, you arrived home to see the three men sitting on the ground in the spacious room that would become the nursery for your little girl. Scattered pieces of wood, tools, and paper decorated the floor, surrounding the bewildered men.
âWhatâs going on?â You questioned.
âHi sweetheart,â Suguru smiled pleasantly. âWeâre building the crib.â
âAlready?â You laughed a bit. âItâs a little too soon, donât you think?â
âYou know how much I like to be prepared,â Suguru playfully frowned at Satoru. âIt was going well until Satoru spilled his water on the directions.â
âHey,â the white-haired man paused. âItâs Uncle Satoru. Thatâs the only way I wanna be addressed now.â
Kento laughed softly. With the way the other man had been rambling on and on about becoming an uncle over the past few weeks, one would have thought he and Suguru were actually related by blood. But, of course, that didnât matter.
They were family.
You all were.
âYou guys keep working,â Suguru suddenly got off the floor, moving the hammer away from his lap. âIâll be right back.â
Approaching you, your husband took your hand and guided you to your bedroom for a little privacy.
âHow was your day? How are you feeling?â He asked, pressing his hand against your belly.
âIâm great, just a little tired.â
Those words alarmed Suguru. His eyes widened just a bit.
He was overprotective. He couldnât help it.
If he could have it his way, you would have been on strict bed rest as much as possible throughout your entire pregnancy. But he knew it was important for you to move around. Even so, he was worried.
Without another word, Suguru pulled back the sheets of your bed and grabbed a change of clothes from your dresser.
He helped you switch into your comfortable clothing before tucking you in underneath the sheets.
âIâm pregnant, Iâm not sick,â you said teasingly, resting your head against your comfortable pillow.
âBut you are tired,â Suguru leaned down, kissing your cheek.
âIâll get started on dinner, okay?â
âOkay,â you replied with a grin, grabbing the remote off of your nightstand, and getting ready to switch on your favorite show.
âDonât watch any of our shows without me or else Iâm moving out,â Suguru joked as he walked out of the door.
âI wonât!â You shouted, scrolling past the television series that you and Suguru loved to watch while cuddling in bed together, sharing a bunch of snacks.
As Suguru opened the fridge, he was pleased to see that it was packed with groceries â and not random items, but ingredients that could make several meals.
And although he had done extensive research about what pregnant women could and couldnât eat, he still pulled out his phone and googled:
good meals for pregnant women
Just then, he caught a glimpse of his entire search history. It was filled with similar questions, such as whether certain activities were safe for you and what to expect during that week of your pregnancy.
Suguru smiled a bit.
Soon, he would be googling what activities were safe for his little girl, and what milestones to expect at certain ages.
But he was nervous too. What if his little girl didnât like him for some reason? What if something went wrong? What if he wasnât cut out to be a father?
Just then, as those thoughts flooded in, his phone dinged. The screen had gone dark as he stood there, holding it with the fridge wide open, lost in thought, but when he glanced down at the screen, a text message from you appeared:
Hey, I didnât feel like shouting and I know youâre just in the kitchen, but I just wanted to let you know that I appreciate everything youâve done for me. Our little girl is going to be so lucky to have you as a father. I know Iâm lucky to have you as a husband! Love you
Suguru smiled, a faint shade of pink dusting across his cheeks as he blushed.
Of course.
He didnât have to go through any of it alone.
He had you, his soulmate. The love of his life.
Suguru was stirring a pot of boiling rice on the stove when he suddenly heard loud chatter coming from the incomplete nursery room.
âHey,â Suguru peeked into the nursery, frowning in confusion. âWhatâs going on? You guys are being too loud.â
âAs you can see, we built the crib successfully, but-â
âBut I was saying that I should stand in it to make sure itâs sturdy. I want my niece to be safe.â Satoru suddenly interrupted Kento, who sighed in response.
âYouâre too damn big, Satoru.â Grabbing a ripped-up piece of paper â it was the directions, or what was left of them â Kento leaned over, showing the significant words to Satoru. âSee? Right here it says that the weight limit is fifty pounds.â
âWell, that seems dangerously low,â Satoru scratched his head. âHow much does the average baby weigh?â
âDefinitely not fifty pounds.â
Suguru laughed at the banter, and in the distance, he could hear you laughing at it too.
The sound of it warmed his heart.
He couldnât wait to hear your baby laugh someday as well.
synopsis: knight!geto had spent his entire life loving you, the princess he'd been protecting since childhood. after nights spent in his room between the sheets, and days used to satisfy your need for adventure, your love had grown unfathomably strong. yet, as you turn of age, he's forced to stand aside and watch the girl of his dreams be married to another man. CW: angst, princess x knight troupe, slight smut.
suguru had been your knight in shining armour ever since you'd learnt to walk the halls of your soon to be palace. through every season he'd watched you grow into the beautiful young woman you'd come to be, adorned in a delicate golden crown and dressed in gorgeous, silken gowns.
one gown in particular, now strewn across the waxed floor of his knightly quarters.
every evening followed a similar pattern. eat dinner prepared by the chefs, wash up in your quarters, then let your knight who stood by your side during it all, sweep you up to his room across the hall to partake in less than appropriate indulgences.
just like tonight.
"you look so unbelievably stunning, my love." suguru rasps, kissing frantically up and down your neck so tenderly you felt lightheaded.
he was a big man, so very muscular in all the right places. his chest dwarfed your frame as he caged you in against his bed, his hands could wrap fully around your neck if he really tried, and his thighs stay steady and thick as he gently pressed the leaky head of his de-armoured cock into your cunt.
"oh god, suguruâ"
"âshh, just let me take care of you, princess."
and oh god, did he. like every other night he had you split open so nicely, cumming so hard you'd felt the gong of gods cymbal smack down on your head and vibrate through your body in the most euphoric way.
and that was the thing about suguru, he knew not only how to take care of you in bed, but in day-to-day life as well.
as your personal knight, he'd been by your side under orders from your father to protect you since forever. you two were of similar age, so the bond formed almost immediately. a bond that'd grown ten fold since then.
suguru keeps you wedged against his chest after he'd finished ravishing you, he's got one protective arm caging you in against his muscular pec, and the other moving through your hair with a loving care he's never learned to give anyone else.
his chest rises and falls sporadically as he catches his breathe, and you sigh into his neck with that post-sex relief.
he'd always been gentle with you, even when you were small. when trailing behind him through towering stone corridors, he never rushed you. when you tripped over the long fabric of your gowns, he never laughed. he would kneel down and check your hands, smooth your hair back into place with the same kindness he gives you now.
later, when you're older and have learned to keep your posture straight, he still keeps that methodical, caring habit alive in the way he grabs your arm when you stumble or holds your hand when descending the castle stairs.
a perfect gentleman.
he cradles your naked body softly in his palms, the only thought swimming though his mind is how utterly perfect you feel, you look, against him, in his bed, in his arms.
"you did so well for me, honey." he whispers, still stroking through the locks of you hair. you can only blush in response as your earlier actions had taken the ability to speak.
he stretches his lips near your temple but doesn't kiss you just yet. âyou're perfect,â he sighs, his vocal range dropping to a decibel. âevery time, i think there's no way to love you more than i already do. and then, by some miracle, you enthrall me again.â
what a way with words.
but, you let out a little sigh that definitely isn't one of contentment, but of dread.
âwhat is it?â he asks, although he could already guess.
events from earlier today had sat and simmered in between you like a wound that had not stopped pouring blood. your father had decided it was optimal time for you to be married off in your coming of age. a prince from a far away land had expressed his interest in you, and that was that. you were due to be wedded and shipped off with him by next month.
suguru stood beside you clad in brass armour, clutching his sword with an iron fist while listening with hot rage bubbling in his stomach.
you complain to suguru, even now. "he spoke of me as if i were nothing..â you whisper. âlike my life meant less than pennies to him.â
he sighs into your neck and hooks a hand around your thigh to bring it over his hips.
âi wanted to scream,â you add. âi wanted to tell him i belong here.. i belong to you.â you're getting shaky, and it's not only from the sex.
he nudges your cheek with his nose and hugs you tighter, âi know,â he whispers. âi wish i had some weight in that room to of spoken up, my love.â
squeezing the muscle of his forearm, you stare up into his tired eyes with a huff. âi wish we could run. leave this place and all my roles and rules behind. we could settle down in a cottage in the countryside, a place so far away no one would know of my prestige.â
you smile despite yourself. âwe would wake with the sun, maybe farm our own food. live like people are supposed to live, without silver spoons and draping silk.â
his hand cups the back of your head now as he pulls your face closer, the look in his eyes so poignant.
âi would build that place with my own hands,â he says softly. âi'd make sure the roof would never leak. i'd plant you a flower garden so exquisite, you'd never miss the castle courtyard."
you're already smiling like a mad women, but he continues despite it.
"i would wake before you every morning so you'd never have to feel alone. i'd work the most gruelling of jobs to provide for you, my princess."
his voice plunges deeper and you can tell he's feeling the weight of earlier. âi would give up every vow i've ever sworn if it meant i could live out the rest of my days with you as my own. i would walk to the ends of the land and beyond it if that's what it took.â
he leans his forehead against yours. âbut the world doesn't let men like me take princesses and disappear, i'm afraid. men like me get shunned for even dreaming up such an idea.â
your chest feels disgustingly tight with the urge to sob, but you can't just yet, maybe when you leave. âthat's what they are, only dreams.â
"i know too well." he sighs.
~
the next week drags out in silks and different fabrics in every shade of white you could possibly fathom.
you spend the better part of the day in town being shoved and pulled from dressmaker to dressmaker, from one shop to the next by your maid utahime's eager hand, bolts of such fabrics unrolled and lifted against your frame. there's pale ivory, a warm cream, a sheen that felt beautiful but felt a little too bright, lace that scratches your armpits, silk that slides cool across your skin.
not a single dress felt right, not to be married off to some pompous prick halfway across the country, anyway.
after all, this dress acted as the golden casket that'll fairy you far away. away from suguru.
utahime chatters about mesh trains and veils and double stitched hems. some might say she should of been a seamstress herself with the way she was waffling on about the craft. she holds fabrics to your shoulders and tilts her head, asking for opinions she barely waits to hear before she off to the next.
god, she meant well but was making the entire experience ten times as unbearable with her fussing.
the only thing keeping you lucid was suguru, who stood tall besides you the entire fitting.
he stands just behind you in every shop, a shadow at your back. his armor traded for travel leathers as to not draw more attention by village folk.
you notice how his hands are folded tightly behind his back, as his eyes follow each length of silk as it presses to your body.
"you're quite the starer today, suguru." you let a small laugh slip past your lips, contrasting the various thoughts of offing yourself to get out of this from earlier.
he acts as if he's not talking to you, but whispers through gritted teeth, "how can i help it when you're half undressed right in front of me?" you smile.
finally, as the sun dips its toes below the horizon line and the final bundle of expensive silk is wrapped and handed off, your head aches from merchant bartering. utahime heads back toward the castle gates with the fabrics clutched to her chest, already raving about how exquisite the dress will turn out.
you do not follow.
the moment her back is turned, you grab suguruâs wrist and pull him the other way.
he's startled for the moment, then smiles as he lets you drag him past the outer wall where the stone has cracked and ivy has claimed the small gaps in between. there's a narrow breakaway crook hidden by overgrown vine and moss, an entry to a place only the two of you ever use to get away.
you pull him along as you run, laughing and letting go of all the intensity of today.
your ruffled skirts lift up into your hands as you dart through tall grasses, your fancy shoes sinking into earth that smells of wet soil and budding flora. you hear him behind you, his armors gone yet he's still as sturdy and driven as ever, his laughter bellowing out as he chases you without effort.
you almost trip on a root and he catches you from behind, he steadies your shoulders until the both of you skid to a stop against the old stone wall that borders all four sides of the forgotten garden. wildflowers bloom and kiss against your skirts, thick oak branches tower above, and the river cuts through the land.
you're both smiling like fools in love.
he keeps you there pressed up against the wall. with one arm stuck beside your shoulder and the other squeezing your hip. smiling, he tips his head down until your foreheads kiss together.
âhow lovely did you look in all of those gowns,â he mumbles so fondly, âevery dress they put you in... i had to remind myself we were out rather than in my room, all alone.â
you look up at him through thick, fluttery lashes. âoh?â
âgorgeous,â he elaborates with a spark of deep appreciation in his eye. âeach one worse than the last. i don't think i've ever worked so hard to keep my hands where they belong.â
you lean back against the stone and gaze up once more, sunlight breaking through the autumn leaves to catch in his raven locks. âi was imagining marrying you in them instead,â you say simply. âstanding at the altar with you. not some prince of whom i don't know."
this seems to resonate with him, because the look of pure allurement on this mans face sends a shock of affection through your every bone. he smiles tenderly before taking your lips in a quick kiss, and when he pulls away, he rests his forehead back against yours.
âthese are the moments i'll cherish. all the small gestures we share will live eternally in my head, when you're gone.â
you feel a stab of nausea hit your stomach... âi wish you wouldn't say things like that., we're a long ways away from being separated.â
he nods, then cups your cheek. âi'm sorry, you're right. i should live in the moment, huh?â
he ponders that thought more than you think.
he steps back, then plops himself down onto the grass. you watch, confused, as he kneels and begins to gather cute white daisies from the ground, choosing them carefully and brushing dirt from their stems.
you sit on a fallen log nearby and peer down at him, âwhat are you doing, strange man?â you tease.
he doesn't look up, you can tell he's got some cheek in him at the moment. âshoosh,â he says gently. âlet me work.â
you really wanna laugh, but doing so might disrupt his flow. so, instead, you take in the surroundings you may never see again.
this garden's been a place the two of you had escaped to numerous times. weather that be to hide form your dictating father, from the other workers around the castle, or your jester, gojo, and the jokes you found appalling but geto loved to no end.
"what do you call a girl so infatuated with her knight that she sends her maids to do chores that don't exist so she can get dicked down?"
"don't."
"[name]! you call her [name]." gojo snickers regardless.
"i'll have you be-headed!" you snap, he just laughs louder and punches geto's armored shoulder.
"aww, but mr. knight wouldn't stand for that, would you sugu? and everyone knows you do what he says!" he eggs on. suguru quite literally can't help the snicker that erupts from his throat, but he quickly stops and coughs awkwardly into his shoulder when he catches the glare you throw his way. "that was ahem very inappropriate, satoru." but you can see his mouth still twitching.
they were always a menacing duo.
you'd begun to reminisce about the days where your future was uncertain and you could still dream of a life with suguru. you'd sit on this very log and brush through his long black strands, talking his ear off about how he'd be your knight for all of eternity, and that he'd be stuck by your side until the day you keeled over from the flu or something. he'd listen so intently, offer his own two cents.
"i'd fight many epic battles to stay by your side, pretty girl. you're but the only one for me."
"oh yeah? sure you're not just saying that because we're forced to hang out?"
he scoffed, "i've been approached by many women, i'll have you know. none of them get me hard as soon as i see em', not like you can."
you roll your eyes, but smile regardless. "here i was thinking you'd say something chivalrous and poetic."
"is you god like effect on my cock not poetic enough for you, my lady?"
"oh shut your mouth."
"great, so now i can't even appreciate that i serve the finest woman of all the land."
you whip your head to face him, "lands, not land. how dare you limit my range of ethereal beauty to this country alone."
the conversations always ended in the euphoric kind of sex only soulmates could manage to have, the kind so deep and sensual you'd loose all track of time and space, leaving two sweaty bodies and wishes of a full future with one another between bated breath. the grass beneath you would bend and part a soft bed for you to lay down your need.
you'll mourn this loss.
you're hauled from your depressing thoughts when he finishes and stands to offer you his hand. you take it with an intrigued smirk, letting him pull you to your feet. his other hand stays hidden behind his back with what you can only assume is a daisy creation of some sort.
"what in the world are you up to?" you grin.
he lifts his hidden hand and, like you'd thought, reveals a crown of daisies woven carefully together with their stems tucked into each other. he reaches out and places it upon your head with a touch so delicate it makes your chest churn.
it sits a little crooked, but oh so perfectly.
you lift your hands to fix it to your head better, turning away so he falls just out of your veiw. "thank you-â you start, turning back toward him.
then the words stop, immediately.
he's on one knee.
your vision starts to blur at the edges, not from your lacking in iron or dizziness, but from pure and utter disbelief.
his hand guides slowly to his pocket. he pulls out a simple band, a wedding band. it's been worn smooth, the metal dulled by time. it's not ornate, it's certainly not what most would consider fit for a crown.
it's perfect.
âi have carried this for years,â he says. his voice is steady, but his eyes give him away with the sheer look of desperation pooling within them. âit was my mothers. she gave it to me when i first told her of you, she knew how in love with you i was before i did.â he smiles solemnly.
he turns his eyes to stare directly into yours.
âif by some miracle this marriage does not go forth,â he continues. âif the world blips and gives us a chance, even for a breath of time, i want you to know that i'm yours.â
he swallows deeply, then goes on. âi know what i am. i know what i can offer. i've but no titles, no land. only my hands, my loyalty, and a life i promise to spend choosing you each, and every day.â
his fingers tighten around the ring. âi would wake beside you and consider that my life long victory. i would serve you without a sword and protect you without any armor. i would love you sincerely until the day we both die.â
he shakes slightly as his voice falls softer like melting butter. âand if that miracle never comes, if you are taken from this place and sent away, i want to know that somewhere in the world, sometime, there was a moment where you were mine in truth. where i knelt before you not as a knight, but as a man asking for your life alongside his.â
he lifts the ring slightly. âso if fate is cruel, let it be cruel later. let me ask you this now.â
he peers up at you looking hopeful and terrified all at once.
âwill you marry me?â
obviously, you'd said yes. (not long after the water works and disbelieving laughs.)
you'd spent the better part of that afternoon crying softly in his arms on the comfort of the soft grasses, the reality of the situation you were trying so hard to push away was slowly becoming very real, and this proposal from the man you'd soon be leaving made it all that much more set in stone.
sugur cradled you as you cried and kept telling you over and over how everything would be okay, that it would all work out in the end if god was real, like he'd so hoped she was.
you nodded into his chest, letting his reassurance feed the delusions you'd been harboring of a better furure.
~
you both pretended time was something that could be bent if ignored long enough. so, two weeks had trickled by as you filled your remaining time with things you loved.
you filled it with him.
there were multiple nights where you got not one wink of sleep. not because you were restless, but instead because you kept finding reasons to stay awake together doing anything and everything.
his bed became a ritual spot filled with passionate love that drifted so easily into the early hours of the morning. and afterward, you would lie all tired and tangled up talking of anything your mind could come up with, things you might of said in the future pouring out now so you'd feel a little more at ease for not being able to say them later on.
he'd stayed as respectful as ever, never touching you without some kind of permission weather that be a nod or a smile, he'd always been careful. somehow even now, when he wanted you more than anything, he still treated you like the most important soul in this cruel universe.
during the days you spent as much time as you possibly could with your knight.
one afternoon you'd both stolen various foods from the castle kitchens and escaped the grounds on horseback, riding until the castle was just an insignificant, dumb little shape behind the rolling green hills. you laid out a checkered maroon blanket near the rippling river and ate with your fingers, laughing when he tried to keep sauce from dripping onto his tunic.
suguru pretended to huff at you for your appalling table manners, but would then lean over and steal unnecessarily heaping bites from your pastries. you lay on your back after pigging out, fondly watching the shapes and patterns of the clouds swish in the wind above, his much larger hand resting over yours in the grass.
"do they have clouds where you're going?" he asked.
"are you silly? of course they do."
"...yes, but ones like this, with me next to you?"
"... guess not.." you mutter.
"then you should stop staring at me and enjoy this, it may be the last time we watch them together." he laughs, although there's nothing funny about that.
after your time in lala land, the night before the wedding had arrived.
you were in his bed again after what might of been the last time you'd ever have sex, it had been as nice as every other time, yet it felt personally like the both of you were trying to make it last forever with the way you'd spout, again, again, again, into his ear, and he'd almost immediately oblige.
once you're finished, his arms begin running up and down your body like they'd always done after, your mind racks through each and every time he'd done it before and you feel close to tears for what might of been the fiftieth time that week.
in the quiet, he softly rasps, âhey,â his fingers are still methodically moving along your back, âare you awake?"
you tilt your head against his chest, his heartbeat is thumping under your ear, very much still stubbornly alive.
âi am,â you sit up so you can see his pretty face. he looks younger in these moments, almost as if hes the boy who followed you through the halls with a sword far too big for him and a sense of duty he never, ever strayed from.
âcan i tell you something.â
"mhm, anything."
âiâve been thinking about my life,â he says. then he huffs quietly at himself. âwhich sounds dramatic. i know.â
âyouâre allowed,â you say. âitâs kind of the end of the world.â
"isn't that the truth." he mumbles.. âi remember the day they assigned me to you,â he smiles. âi was barely old enough to hold my stance for more than a minute. they told me iâd be guarding royalty and all i could think was that i was going to ruin it.â
you hum softly.
âand i almost did,â he says. âevery time you spoke to me. never knew what to do with myself.â
you laugh, âmm, you used to bow so low i thought youâd fall over.â
âi was terrified of you,â he admits. âyou weren't rude to me. you were so sweet, you smiled at me like i was more than just another person who served your father. and that felt so strange.â
he smiles at you softly as you shift to sit on his lap looking down at him.
âeach day i served you, i felt so fulfilled,â he continues, âi threw the whole idea of being professional aside, you became someone iâd stand in front of out of my own fruition rather than duty.â
you trace the edge of his protrding collarbone. you know this story, he'd said it a million times, but you let him tell it again anyway.
"the day we started... y'know, actually being together, i stayed up all night thanking my lucky stars." you melt at the way his face turns to a blushy, mushy mess. "that was, to this day, the best time of my life, [name]."
you lean down so your nose rubs against his, making him laugh softly as you fall back onto the bed beside him. "i think about that often, too. i was such a nervous wreck. you we're kinda like a big scary protector so it was... weird, confessing."
he turns his head, resting his forehead against yours. âi know, but look at us now.â you kiss his lips gently.
âi used to watch you train,â you say after pulling away. âfrom the window. iâd pretend i was bored, i wasnât." he laughs again, "i knew exactly when youâd look up to see if i was there, it was really cute.â
he laughs quietly. âyou noticed that?â
âi noticed everything about you. i guess i just liked knowing you were paying as much attention to me as i were you.â his thick fingers tighten up into the flesh of your waist.
âgod, i was like, really greedy,â you add. âpissed me off when my father suggested putting you on the front gate instead of next to me all the time, i wanted all of you to myself.â
âyou had me all to yourself, honey.â he says immediately. âyou always will, okay?â
"always... i don't know about that." you sigh, and he goes quiet before trying to make you feel better like he always did.
âitâs going to be okay, iâll be there. the whole time, yeah? you wonât be alone.â
you lift your hand and bring it to your mouth, kissing the ring he'd proposed to you with before you let it fall back against your naked chest. you smile contently, although you feel anything but.
âi know.."
~
it's the morning of the wedding, and god, if everyone wasn't being insufferable.
people are pulling you around before the ceremony like a ragdoll and touching you all over making you look all dolled up. you hated it.
you couldn't take another second, you slip into the hallway for air and find yourself pacing up and down, your white dress slipping against the stone of the floor.
although, you're stopped dead in your tracks when you hear a gasp behind you.
suguru stands there in his full metal armor like heâs forgotten how to breathe.
he stares at you with a slack jaw for a good thirty seconds in complete awe. he reaches towards your body to steady himself rather than you, his hands land on your delicate shoulders.
âyou lookâŠgodâ he laughs breathlessly. âmy lord, i donât even have the words..â
he drops to one knee in front of you without hesitation. the sound of armor against stone rings out, echoing in the deserted hall. he drops his helmet besides him as he takes your hand like a precious treasure sought after by millions, then presses his lips to your knuckles with an infatuating reverence.
âyou are but the most breathtaking woman i've ever laid eyes on,â he sighs.
you watch as he searches your hands for the ring he'd slipped on that day, and you draw out the necklace from beneath your dress, letting the ring fall into view at the end of the chain, "so it's close to my heart."
his smile makes one blossom on your face as well.
âgood,â he huffs. âjust needed to know you had it.â
you start to speak, but he clears his throat to stop whatever sad something he knows is about to come from you.
âyouâll be absolutely perfect up there,â he says. âeven if itâs not with me, sweetheart.â
you want to reply, you really do, but the heat and stingy sensation in your eyes only grows with each thought of saying something to this man.
so, he speaks for you.
â[name], iâm sorry,â he mumbles, staring you dead in the eye as all of his bottled up thoughts spill plainly and dry, right in front of you.
âmy sweet girl, i'll be forever sorry that i wasnât born a prince. that i was born with dirty blood, not worthy of being yours in the eyes of society."
"stop, suguru. don't-"
"i'm sorry that i couldn't stay by your side forever, that i couldn't protect you for endless years to come."
your chest feels like its wrapping around itself and suffocating you from the inside. âi said donât-â you start up again, only to be shut down once more with sugurus strained voice, you'd think he might cry.
âi'm sorry, my princess, for not being able to keep my promise to you... for that i am most sorry of all.â
he looks up at you like this might be the last time.
âiâm sorry i couldnât give you the future you deserved.â he chokes out. "iâm sorry our relationship has to come to an end, but know, i'll never forget you, darling. the time we spent together will be a constant in my mind for centuries to come."
you're about to throw yourself into his arms, but your ears prick on your name that echoes down the hall and you turn your head.
the doors to the wedding hall are opening.
you whip back around to face him, but he's pulled his helmet over his head so the only essence of him you can see is the long flowing ponytail that protrudes from behind him.
"goodbye, my love." he swallows down the crack in his voice.
then, later, as you walk down that long isle with your arm around the princes arm, suguru watches you through the small slit in his helmet.
you look gorgeous, yet all he can do is wish that it could of been him.
the sight is so gutting, it pulls a single tear from his eye. he never cried, never. but now, as he watches the girl of his dreams being given away to another, he can't help but silently sob beneath his armor.
you look over at him once, and you spot that tear.
you look away, knowing that if you were to stare even a moment longer, you too would start the breaking down, mourning the loss of the man you could never have again in front of everyone.
no, there was time for that when you were settled in your new castle a long ways away, couped up silently in your room with only you and your thoughts.
only then could you properly sob, only now, weeks after you'd been married and shipped off, could the ghost of suguru geto finally haunt your solemn narrative.
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synopsis â after reading about a book series that mirrored everything youâd loved about a past favourite, you were thrilled to find it in your college library. the copies were oldâworn enough to still have checkout cardsâbut what caught your attention was the same set of initials, G.S., scrawled across nearly every one. the same G.S. who had filled the margins with sharp, thoughtful annotations. you couldnât stop yourself from thoroughly enjoying the silly little comments written in the margins, leaving your own notes alongside theirs. it wasnât until much later that you realised G.S. wasnât some long-gone bookworm. it was none other than the man you had sworn to hate. gojo satoru.
pairing â nerd! satoru x reader
genre â academic rivals to lovers
word countâ 32k (oops)
warnings â sexual content (unprotected sex), swearing, mentions of not eating, slight angst.
small playlist i listened to while writing
"You all can come and grab the papers nowâdo not ask me for any re-evaluations, the mark presented on the paper is your final markâ"
You barely listen. The professor could be reading a grocery list for all you care. Your focus is already on the stack of midterms in his hands, your heart pounding like a drum against your ribs.
The exam had been brutalâ200 marks, covering classical mechanics and electromagnetism, some of the toughest material in your Physics II course. Past students had called it a horror show, a midterm designed to crush dreams and expose weaknesses. It was weighted heavily in your final grade, which meant every single mark mattered. The room is filled with a tense hum, a mixture of eager whispers and anxious murmurs. Some students hesitate in their seats, mentally preparing themselves before facing their doom. But you? You don't wait. You weave through the aisles, manoeuvring past people, determined to be one of the first to grab your paper.
And, of course, Gojo is right behind you.
"Jeez, you could at least pretend to be patient," he muses, his tone dripping with amusement as he strolls lazily down the steps, hands shoved in the pockets of his hoodie. You roll your eyes. "Not all of us have the luxury of cruising through exams without trying."
"I do try," he says, flashing you a grin. "I try just enough." Before you can shoot back a response, you reach the professorâs desk. Professor Takeda raises an unimpressed brow as he sorts through the papers.
"You two again," he sighs. "Half my life as a professor has been spent watching you bicker."
"Don't be dramatic, sir," Gojo says smoothly, resting an elbow on the desk. "It's only been three years." Takeda shakes his head, muttering something under his breath about headaches before handing you your paper. You grab it without waiting, fingers slightly shaking as you flip it over.
98.
The relief rushes through you instantly, so strong you canât help the triumphant burst of excitement. "Ninety-eight!" you blurt out, beaming as you hug the paper to your chest. Itâs a damn near perfect score, and after all those sleepless nights, all those hours of grinding through problem setsâyou earned this. Gojo, still waiting for his turn, glances at you with an expression you canât quite place. His usual smirk is still there, but thereâs something elseâsomething quieter, almost thoughtful, before he smooths it over with his usual easy confidence.
Takeda hands him his paper. Gojo flips it over, barely reacting as he reads the number at the top.
"Ninety-five." Your grin widens.
"You mean I beat you?" You practically bounce on your heels. "Me? The one you said was âtoo uptightâ and needed to ârelax and accept second placeâ? Me?"
Gojo exhales through his nose, shaking his head, as he folds his paper out of your sight. "Don't get too cocky," he drawls, shoving the paper under his arm. "Itâs just three points."
"Three points above you."
"For now," he corrects smoothly, nudging your shoulder as he moves past you.
Itâs been this way since freshman year. You and Gojo had ended up in the same introductory physics course, and from the very first midterm, it was clear: you were the only two truly competing at the top of the class. But while you poured everything into studyingâlate nights, flashcards, equations scribbled on napkinsâGojo seemed to barely put in the effort. Heâd show up late to lectures, half-asleep in sweatpants, glasses slightly skewed, yet somehow still aced every exam. He never took notes, never stressed, never seemed to break a sweat. It drove you insane. Because no matter how hard you tried, how much effort you put inâhe was always right there with you. Sometimes ahead, sometimes just behind, but never far enough to ignore.
And worst of all? He made it look easy. By now, the entire physics department knew about your rivalry. Professors expected you to fight over test scores. Study groups would take bets on who would score higher. Even during practical lab sessions, it was always a silent battleâwho could get through the calculations faster, who could figure out the trick questions first. You hated him. And now, after years of this, you finally had something over him. A small, almost imperceptible shift in the universe.
You beat Gojo Satoru. As soon as class ends, youâre practically floating out of the lecture hall, midterm still clutched in your hands. The second you step into the cafeteria, your eyes scan the room for your friend, and when you finally spot her at your usual table, you donât even bother with a greeting. âI got a ninety-eight,â you announce, sliding into the seat across from her with an undeniably smug grin. âAnd I beat Gojo.â
Her head snaps up from her laptop. âWaitâ Gojo Gojo?â
You roll your eyes. âAs opposed to what? Some other Gojo in our department?â
âOh my God, you actually did it?â she gasps, setting her drink down as she stares at you in something close to awe. âI thought that man was unstoppable.â
âWell, turns out heâs not.â You lean back in your chair, stretching your arms above your head. âGuess he finally met his match.â Your friend is still blinking at you in disbelief when a voice cuts in from behind you, slow and amused.
âOne good score, and you think youâre the shit.â You freeze. Then, before you can even turn around, Gojo is already there, stepping up behind you like a shadow that refuses to be ignored. You feel the presence of himâtall, lazy, entirely too smugâbefore you even lift your head to meet his gaze. Heâs leaning in just slightly, close enough to loom, his hands shoved into the pockets of his hoodie. That familiar, insufferable smirk is plastered on his face, condescending and infuriatingly amused.
You huff. âCanât a girl enjoy her victory in peace?âÂ
He tilts his head, that same damned smirk never wavering. âVictory?â he echoes, voice dripping with mockery. âYouâre getting ahead of yourself, arenât you? One midterm doesnât erase three years of domination.â You scoff, crossing your arms. âOh, please. Like youâve actually dominated me.â
âOh, you want me to bring out the stats?â Gojo hums, slipping into the seat beside you like he owns the place. He props his elbow on the table, resting his cheek on his palm as he begins, âPhysics I finalâ97 to your 96. Thermodynamics midterm? 95 to your 91. Electromagnetic Fields examââ
You groan. âJesus Christ, you memorized all of them?â
âYou think I donât keep track?â He arches a brow, eyes glinting with amusement. âItâs not my fault I have a consistent history of kicking your ass.â
Your friend snorts into her drink. âHe kinda has a pointââ
You shoot her a glare. Gojo, meanwhile, is clearly having the time of his life. He leans in, that imposing height of his making his presence impossible to ignore, his voice dropping just slightly, almost teasing. âBut sure,â he drawls, chin resting in his hand. âEnjoy your one win, (name). Iâll let you have it.â
You grip your cup so tightly the plastic crinkles. âLet me have it?â
âMmm.â He tilts his head, looking entirely too pleased with himself. âWouldnât want you to cry when I obliterate you on the final.â Your friend nudges you under the table, mouthing heâs so full of shit, but you barely register itâbecause the air between you and Gojo is charged in a way that makes your stomach twist. You wonât admit it out loud, but part of you wondersâ is this how he always talks to you?
So close, so taunting, like he enjoys watching you bristle. You hate how natural it feels, how effortless the rhythm of your bickering has become. But more than anything, you hate the way your heart stutters when he pushes himself out of his chair, hands still stuffed in his pockets, and grins down at you like he already knows how the next round of this fight is going to end.
âYou should really start studying,â he hums, walking backward toward the exit. âYouâll need it.â And with that, heâs gone, leaving you fuming at the table. Your friend watches him go, eyebrows raised. âSo, uh,â she says slowly. âAre we sure you guys arenât flirting?â You glare at her.
âI hate him.â She smirks. âMhm.â You seethe a little, realisingâwith a stab of annoyanceâthat yes, that motherfucker is actually leading right now in terms of grades and rankings. Itâs not even about the marks. Okay, maybe itâs a little about the marks. But youâve always been the smart woman in your course. The one who professors hold up as an example. The one whose name has been printed on merit lists and whose email is always flooded with internship offers and research opportunities. Youâve spent years perfecting your academic standing, earning every achievement through sheer effort and discipline. But for some odd reason, none of it ever seems to matter until youâve compared it with Gojo Satoru. You glare at his name on the leaderboard, one place ahead of yours. A single midterm shouldnât be enough to infuriate you, and yetâ
Your eye twitches. How the hell did you even get here?
Well.
Actually.
You know how. You just try not to think about it because, frankly, itâs one of the most mortifying moments of your entire academic career.
â
It was the very first week of freshman year, and you were, for lack of a better term, an insufferable know-it-all. Not in a bad wayâokay, maybe in a slightly bad way. But it wasnât your fault that you took your education seriously, or that you actually read ahead in your courses, or that you genuinely cared about learning. If anything, you were doing everyone a service by answering questions when no one else raised their hands. So, on that particular day, when your physics professor asked the class a question about vector components, you barely hesitated before speaking up.
âThe perpendicular components of a vector are independent of each other,â youâd answered smoothly, sitting up a little straighter as you prepared to elaborate. âThatâs why we can analyse them separately usingââ
âOhhh, wow,â someone cut in, voice dripping with mock wonder. âLook at that. We got a genius in the house.â The interruption had been so unexpectedâso audaciousâthat it completely derailed your train of thought.
And when you turned around, irritated beyond belief, there he was. White hair, round glasses perched on the bridge of his nose, an undeniably punchable smirk tugging at his lips. You had no idea who he was at the time. Just some tall, obnoxious guy slouched lazily in his seat, all limbs and arrogance, tapping a pen idly against his notebook as he stared at you with barely concealed amusement.
Your brows furrowed. âExcuse me?â
âIâm just saying,â he shrugged, âyou must be so fun at parties.â The class chuckled. Your jaw clenched. âWell, someone has to answer when no one else even tries.â
âRight, because weâre all just too stupid to understand vectors,â he drawled, stretching lazily in his seat.
âI didnât say that,â you shot back.
âDidnât have to,â he grinned, tapping his temple. âI could feel the superiority radiating from you.â You exhaled sharply through your nose, forcing yourself to turn back around before you said something that would get you in trouble on the first week of class.
âOkay, okay,â your professor cut in, looking thoroughly unbothered by the exchange. âLetâs keep the debating to actual physics concepts.â That should have been the end of it. But then you heard a low tsk from behind you.
âI bet she memorized the textbook cover to cover before the semester even started,â the white-haired menace mused under his breath to his friend with the long, black haired locks, who seemed disinterested in what his friend had to say.
You whipped around. âI did notââ
âDonât lie, nerd.â
âExcuse me?!â The class chuckled again. And when you shot a glare toward your professor, expecting some kind of reprimand, he just sighed and muttered, âGod, I already know you two are going to be a pain in my ass.â From that moment on, it had been war.
Your first set of midterms was when you realized he wasnât just talk. You walked into class with a 97 on your physics exam, feeling confidentâonly to glance over and see Gojo slouched in his seat, grinning as he casually flipped his test paper over to show a 99. He made eye contact with you as he tapped his fingers against the big red number. You nearly broke your pen in half.
And so it began.
Every exam, every assignment, every single class discussion became a battleground. You would argue over formulas, nitpick each otherâs solutions, and constantly try to one-up the other. You worked your ass off to close the gap, pouring hours into perfecting your work. And Gojo? Gojo barely looked like he was trying. That was what infuriated you the most. He never seemed stressed, never looked exhausted, never talked about pulling all-nighters. He just showed up, half the time looking like he hadnât even studied, and still somehow stayed ahead. Until now. Until your 98 finally beat his 95. A single win isnât enough. But damn, does it feel good.
â
You step into the lecture hall, already bracing yourself for the inevitable. Sure enough, Gojo Satoru is exactly where you expect him to beâsprawled out in his usual seat, legs stretched obnoxiously far like he has no concept of personal space. His sunglasses rest on top of his head, keeping his messy white hair from falling into his annoyingly pretty eyes, and the second he spots you, that familiar smirk tugs at his lips. Youâre already exhausted.Â
âYouâre early,â you mutter, slipping into your seat and pulling out your laptop.
âAnd youâre predictable,â he shoots back. âWhat, do you set an alarm just to make sure you get here before me?â
âYou wish.â
âNah, you wish.â
You pause, narrowing your eyes. âThat doesnât even make sense.â
He shrugs, propping his chin on his hand. âStill got under your skin, though, didnât it?â
You make a sound of irritation in the back of your throat, ready to tell him exactly where he can shove his smug attitude, but your friend plops into the seat next to you, completely unaware of the storm brewing between you and Gojo. You exhale sharply, forcing yourself to shift gearsâthereâs something more important than your ongoing war with him. Something much, much more important.
âOkay, so, I found this book series last night,â you begin, your fingers twitching excitedly as you pull out your phone. âI was going through one of those book recommendation guidesâyou know, the niche ones that arenât full of the same ten bestsellersâand this one just caught my eye.â Your friend hums in interest, booting up their laptop. âWhatâs it about?â
You practically buzz with excitement. âSo itâs kind of likeâugh, how do I explain itâitâs this really well-written like narrative, mystery, suspense, romance, but with, like, existential themes? And this insane world building? And apparently, no one talks about it because the publisher went under before it got the recognition it deserved, so itâs kind of a hidden gem.â As you speak, Gojo, who had been staring blankly at the front of the room, blinks. That sounds familiar.
âYouâre really selling it,â your friend teases.
âRight?! And apparently, itâs super hard to find, but I checked, and our library actually has a few copies.â You tuck your phone away, already feeling a rush of excitement. âIâm gonna borrow the first book after class.â Gojo leans back in his seat, eyes flickering with something unreadable.
Yeah, he thinks. Iâve definitely read that.
He doesnât say anything, though. Just rests his chin in his palm and listens as you keep gushing. Because now that he thinks about it, he really liked that series too. It had been one of those random books he picked up between classes, half expecting to get bored, but then something about it hooked him. The way it wove together philosophy and adventure, the quiet melancholy lingering in the proseâit was the kind of book that stuck with you. But he never finished it. Midterms had hit, and between exams, research papers, and group projects that made him want to rip his hair out, he just⊠forgot. He never went back to check out the last few books. He had meant to, but by the time he had free time again, his brain had moved on. And now here you are, unknowingly digging it back up.
His fingers drum idly against the desk, and for some reason, he canât shake the thought: Sheâs gonna love it. He steals another glance at you. Youâre still talking, eyes bright with excitement, flipping through your phone as you read off little details from the guide you found. The enthusiasm is contagiousâhe canât remember the last time he saw you this animated about something that wasnât academics. Usually, all your energy goes into perfecting equations, arguing with him over points lost on exams, and trying to one-up him in every possible way. This is⊠different.
And weirdly, he finds himself kind of liking it. Not that heâd ever admit it.
â
So after class finally finishesâthankfully, your professor had been going through a hard topic that he kept droning on and on about, emphasising how likely it was to appear in the final examâit was enough to sate even Gojo, who, for once, shut up and took notes diligently. You head out at lightning speed, managing a small âsee you laterâ to your friend before disappearing into the hallway. Honestly, ever since the new year of college had started, youâd barely had time to indulge in activities you actually enjoyed.
Sure, you squeezed in a few books here and there when you had the chance, but it was difficult finding ones that hit just the right wayâones with the same kind of engaging plot, the same writing style that kept you hooked. Youâd tried, but nothing had stuck with you the way your favorite books used to. It had been frustrating, going through these long periods without anything to read. But this time, you had a feeling it would be different.Â
Turning a corner, you step into the vast college library, its sheer size never failing to impress you. The high, arched ceilings, the rows upon rows of bookshelves, and the dozens of students scattered across large wooden tables, heads buried in textbooksâitâs an environment that should feel welcoming, yet all it does is remind you how much work you still have waiting for you. You shake that thought away.
Right now, youâre here for one thing.
You glance at your phone, rereading the authorâs name one last time before slipping it into your pocket and heading straight for the fiction section. Itâs tucked away in one of the quieter corners of the library, past the heavier academic texts, and while itâs not as large as the science or philosophy sections, it still has an impressive selection. The shelves here are a little dustier, the books a little more wornâproof that they donât get checked out as often as the physics or chemistry textbooks. You trace your fingers lightly along the spines, scanning for the title. When you finally spot it, you feel a flicker of excitement. There it is.
The first book in the series. The cover is simple yet striking, the title embossed in slightly faded silver lettering. You pull it off the shelf carefully, glancing around to see if the rest of the series is there. To your delight, every single book is lined up neatly in order. Some of them look well-loved, the edges softened from use, some even slightly bent, as if theyâd been carried around in bags, read and reread countless times.
You flip the book over and read the blurb. Even though you already know the gist of the story from your research, thereâs something about reading the official summary that makes your excitement spike. Itâs exactly what youâve been looking forâan underrated but brilliant story, the kind that feels like a hidden gem. Unable to resist, you take the book with you and settle down at one of the smaller, tucked-away tables. Youâre a slow reader, someone who likes to absorb every word, letting the imagery settle in your mind before moving on. But the moment you turn to the first page and begin reading, youâre immediately pulled in.
The writing is crisp and immersive, the kind that hooks you effortlessly. Within moments, youâre completely lost in the world of the book, eyes darting across the pages, flipping to the next before you even realize it. The characters are compelling, the descriptions vivid, and the dialogue sharp. You can already tell this is going to be one of those stories that sticksâthe kind that lingers in the back of your mind long after youâve finished. Just as you reach a particularly interesting part, your phone buzzes.
You blink, momentarily disoriented before glancing at the screen. Itâs a reminder you set for yourself. Right. You still need to study. A sigh escapes you. As much as you want to keep reading, you know you canât afford to waste too much time. With some reluctance, you close the book and stand up, making your way toward the borrowing counter. You check it out quickly, securing it in your bag, already planning when youâll carve out time to read it between your study sessions. Itâs something to look forward to, at least. And if you had known just who had been the last person to check it out before you, maybe you wouldnât be so eager.
â
The ringer from your Pomodoro timer goes off, its sharp chime cutting through the quiet of your dorm room. With a sigh, you drop your pencil onto your open notebook, rolling your shoulders back as you stretch in your seat, feeling the slight stiffness from hours of hunching over your desk. Lazily glancing at the glowing numbers on your laptop screen, a small grin tugs at the corners of your lips.
Four hours of focused work.
Good. Youâve finally finished studying for the night, trudging through a mountain of tricky concepts and endless equationsâjust enough to ensure youâll keep up with the next few lectures before the actual final exam looms over you. The weight of the work youâve put in settles in a satisfying way, a quiet reassurance that youâre keeping up. Yawning, you grab your phone, thumbing through a few unopened texts, sending half-hearted replies where needed.
Your mind is already half-tuned out, already drifting toward what you actually want to do now that your responsibilities are out of the way for the night. Pushing yourself up from your chair, you shuffle toward your bed, sinking into the softness of your mattress with a pleased sigh. And then, with an eager flicker of excitement, you reach for the borrowed library book resting on your side table, fingers running over the slightly worn edges of the cover.
Finally.
Opening it to the page you had left off, you settle deeper into the blankets, eyes scanning the words slowly, absorbing every detail. The prose is effortless, pulling you into the world woven between the lines. The atmosphere is rich, each description vivid and carefully placed, the characters full of depth. Thereâs a certain feeling you get when a book is just rightâsomething that clicks into place, the rare kind of story that makes the outside world blur at the edges. You donât rush through it.
You savor every word, taking in the dialogue, the intricate details of the setting, the careful unraveling of the plot. Then, just as you shift slightly, readjusting your grip, a small slip of paper flutters from between the pages. You blink, momentarily pulled from the trance of the story, watching as it lands lightly on your blanket.
Frowning, you reach for it, fingers brushing against the slightly yellowed, aged texture of the paper. Itâs rectangular, not quite as thick as a regular bookmark, with neat printed lines running across it in faded ink.
A borrowing card.
You stare at it for a second, a vague memory surfacing. Back during your university orientation in first year, you remember a librarian offhandedly mentioning that some of the older books in the collection still had checkout cards inside them, relics from a time before everything became digitized. But since youâd only ever borrowed course-related booksâones that were constantly replaced with new editionsâyouâd never actually come across one. Huh.Â
Your fingers trace the faded lines as you sit up slightly, eyes scanning the list of names scrawled across itâ
Except⊠there are no names. Just one. Or rather, just a set of initials, written neatly in blue ink
G.S.
The date beside it is from a while ago, though not too long. But the strange thing is, itâs the only entry on the entire card. You blink, flipping it over, checking the back. Nothing. So⊠no one else has borrowed this book? You hesitate, gripping the card a little tighter. Youâre supposed to write your name down now, right? Thatâs how these things work. Itâs a log of borrowers. But thenâwhy had this person only written their initials?
A weird feeling stirs in your chest. Not unease, exactlyâjust something you canât put a name to. Itâs probably nothing. Maybe this book just wasnât that popular. The only reason you found it was because of some obscure online guide, after all. Maybe no one really checked it out over the years, and the one person who did just didnât feel like writing their full name.
Shaking your head, you push the thought aside, grabbing a pen from your nightstand. Without thinking too much about it, you write your own name neatly beneath G.S., along with todayâs date. Then, you tuck the card back into its place and return to your book, letting yourself sink back into the story. A few more pages in, about a quarter of the way through the book, your eyes catch something that makes your brow furrow.
Are those⊠scribbles?
Your annoyance flares up immediately. Who the hell desecrates a library book? Itâs practically sacrilegious. Your fingers tighten slightly around the spine as you bring the book closer to inspect the crime against literature, fully prepared to be enragedâ
Wait.
Theyâre not just random scribbles. Theyâre annotations.
Your irritation dims slightly, curiosity piqued as you squint to make out the neat, slightly slanted cursive handwriting running along the margins. Some words are underlined, a few sentences circled, and in a crisp blue ink, a note is scrawled beside a particularly tense conversation between two characters:
âI can just tell heâs gonna be the one dead first. Heâs overreacting to everything.â
You blink. Then, despite yourself, a small giggle escapes. Becauseâokayâwhoever wrote this isnât wrong. You literally thought the same thing just a few moments ago. As much as you love a good, well-written novel, youâve read enough books in your life to recognise the telltale signs of an early death flag. And this character? Heâs practically begging to be taken out of the story. Your amusement lingers as you scan the page again, eyes flitting to more scribbles running alongside the printed words.
"God, she sounds so insufferable."
You smirk a little at that, suppressing a chuckle.
"I like this lineâthe quote kinda speaks to me."
Your gaze follows the arrow pointing toward a particularly well-crafted piece of dialogue. Huh. You actually like that line too.
"I take the previous statement backâno way did he say that entire motivational monologue just for him to throw his morals aside..."
A small, surprised laugh escapes you. You love when characters do this kind of thingâspend pages waxing poetic about their grand principles, only to completely toss them out the window at the first sign of trouble. Itâs frustrating, but also wildly entertaining, and you find yourself nodding unconsciously in agreement.
You shift slightly, adjusting your grip on the book as your initial annoyance starts to morph into something elseâsomething you donât want to admit is enjoyment. Because as much as you usually hate unnecessary markings in books, these annotations donât feel disruptive.
They feel⊠engaging. Like youâre reading with someone. Itâs a strange feelingâan unexpected, quiet kind of companionship in the margins of the book. You scan ahead, flipping a few pages forward, wondering if this mystery annotatorâG.S., you assumeâhas left their thoughts scattered throughout the entire book.
Oh. They have. Almost every page has at least something scribbled in the margins. Some annotations are sarcastic, others incredulous. A few are simple observations or predictions about the plot, and some are just random, dramatic reactions that make you snort.
"Oh my GOD, just kiss already!"
You huff out an amused breath, shaking your head.
"He is so painfully oblivious itâs almost impressive."
Honestly, you were thinking the same thing. Before you realize it, youâve started reading out loudânot the annotations, but the actual book. Itâs something you do sometimes when youâre alone, when a scene is particularly well-written or emotional. And now, with G.S.âs thoughts scattered alongside the text, it almost feels like youâre having a conversation with them. Like theyâre some ghostly presence in the book, reacting alongside you in real time.
You catch yourself before you say something back to one of the notes.
Which is insane. Because this is just a random personâs handwriting in a library book. And yetâ
You exhale through your nose, fingers absentmindedly tracing the edge of the page. You kind of⊠want to know who they are. Who is G.S.? Because if their annotations are anything to go by, they have the exact same thoughts as you while reading. The same exasperation, the same eye-roll-worthy observations, the same appreciation for the well-crafted lines. And you canât help but wonderâjust who was sitting with this same book in their hands, reading the same words, thinking the same things? Itâs an odd, fleeting curiosity, but you push it aside for now, shaking your head as you turn the page.
You settle deeper into your blankets, the book resting comfortably in your hands as you turn the page. The words on the paper blur slightly in the dim light of your bedside lamp, but you donât mindâyouâre too immersed now, drawn into both the story and the unexpected presence of G.S. in the margins. The next chapter begins, and you take a slow breath before diving in, eyes flicking between the printed text and the handwritten notes.
"Oh, I just know this is going to go terribly."
You glance at the line itâs referencingâa scene where the protagonist makes a bold, arguably reckless decision. Yeah, G.S. is probably right. A few more pages pass. The tension in the book rises, and youâre so absorbed that you nearly miss the next annotation.
"There it is. The classic âstaring at the moon in emotional turmoilâ scene. Authors love this one."
You snort. Okay, but theyâre right. You tilt your head, momentarily pausing your reading to stare at the note. Itâs a little strange, this dynamic youâve somehow fallen into with a complete stranger. You feel like you know them, or at least, their reading habits. Their humor. The way they react to the exact same things that pull at your attention. It's unsettling in a way thatâs not entirely unpleasant. You flip forward, skimming ahead to see if the notes continueâand they do.
"I KNEW IT. I CALLED IT. HEâS A TRAITOR."
You blink, pausing mid-sentence. Your gaze darts back to the text, where a major plot twist has just been revealed. Your mouth parts slightly, rereading the words to make sure youâre seeing them correctly. Damn. You did not see that coming.
You exhale, a small smirk tugging at your lips. Fine. Point to you, G.S. You keep reading, now almost waiting for the next annotation, like itâs a second voice in your head providing commentary as you go. And when the protagonist makes another questionable decisionâ
"Why are men in fiction like this?"
âyou laugh, shaking your head. It continues like that for pages. Every now and then, G.S. 's notes make you chuckle, or nod in agreement, or roll your eyes because come on, that was an obvious metaphor. And as much as you want to be annoyed by the interruptions, you find yourself⊠enjoying it. Maybe even liking it. At some point, you shift your position, getting more comfortable against your pillows, completely absorbed. The words feel alive, and not just the printed ones, but the ones scribbled in blue ink alongside them. Itâs a conversation you never expected to haveâone separated by time, by anonymity, by the unlikelihood of ever knowing who G.S. is. Your fingers brush over the ink of the annotations, slightly faded but still legible. Thinking back to the date listed on the library card from quite a while ago, you wonder if G.S. has even thought about this book since then. Or if theyâve forgotten about it entirely. You stare at the letters for a moment longer before shaking your head, pushing away the odd sensation curling at the back of your mind.
Itâs just a book. Just some random personâs annotations. It doesnât mean anything.
A reminder notification pops up on your phoneâone youâd set earlier to keep your study schedule in check. You sigh. Right. You should get some sleep soon. Reluctantly, you close the book, running your fingers over the cover one last time before placing it on your nightstand. Youâll finish it laterâbetween classes, between assignments, between all the little gaps in your schedule where you can steal a moment to read. And maybe, youâll keep an eye out. Because now, you kind of want to know if G.S. ever came back for this book.
â
By the time your next Physics lecture rolls around, youâve already finished the first book in the series. It had consumed your nights, pulling you in with its immersive world-building and gripping storylineâbut, if you were being honest, the experience had been made infinitely more enjoyable because of the annotations left behind in the margins. The presence of another reader, someone who had walked the same narrative path as you and left breadcrumbs of their thoughts along the way, had made the book feel less like a solitary escape and more like a shared secret. So, naturally, when you stride into class that morning, youâre already prepared to discuss it at length with your friend.
What you arenât prepared for is Gojo Satoru.
Not that you ever are, really. He has a habit of making his presence known, like some self-appointed force of nature existing solely to get under your skin. And today is no differentâhe walks past you with an easy, sauntering gait, the kind thatâs deliberately slow enough to be obnoxious. Thereâs a telltale smirk tugging at his lips, the glint of mischief in his strikingly bright eyes as he leans in, as if heâs about to say something insufferable just to throw off your morning. You pretend not to see him.
Your willful ignorance must be obvious because you hear him scoff under his breath as he passes by, but you donât give him the satisfaction of looking.
Instead, you beeline toward the row where your friend is already seated, setting your bag down with an eager bounce in your step.
âDude,â you start, flipping open your laptop with a flourish, âremember that book I told you about a few weeks back?â Your friend raises a brow. âThe one from that super niche book guide you were raving about?â
âThe very same one,â you confirm, barely able to contain your excitement. âI finally finished it, and oh my god, it was so good. The plot? Phenomenal. The pacing? Perfect. But you know what actually made it even better?âÂ
You donât notice the way Gojo hesitates just as heâs about to settle into the seat behind you. He freezes, fingers hovering above the keyboard of his laptop as his ears zero in on your conversation.
âYou found another book to obsess over?â Your friend teases, but you shake your head fervently.
âNo, no, listen,â you insist, your voice lowering slightly as you lean in, âsomeone left annotations in it.âÂ
Satoruâs fingers twitch.
âYou mean like, study notes?â
âNo! Like, actual thoughtsâcomments, reactions, opinions. And not just boring analytical stuff, either. They were funny. Snarky. They made fun of the characters at the exact moments I wanted to. It was like reading the book with someone, you know?â
A very distinct, yet invisible, sense of dread creeps into Gojoâs chest.
Oh. Oh, shit. The annotations. He had completely forgotten about those. He had scrawled them in the margins ages agoâmostly on a whim, partly out of boredom, and entirely because he physically could not read a book in silence. If there was one thing Gojo Satoru was incapable of, it was shutting the fuck up, even when he was the only audience for his own commentary. So, naturally, when he had found himself enjoying the book way more than expected, he had started treating it like a private conversation with himself, writing down whatever thoughts came to mind.
He never expected anyone to see them. And now, sitting barely a foot away, heâs listening to youâof all peopleâexcitedly gush about his stupid little scribbles, completely oblivious to the fact that the person you were praising, the one whose humor you found entertaining and whose insights you had agreed with, was him. He schools his expression, keeping his head tilted just enough to appear disinterested. But his ears are wide open.
âWhoever wrote those notes,â you continue, flipping your pen between your fingers, âhad some serious opinions. And honestly? I kind of love them. Like, I think we have the same brain.â
Satoru presses his lips together, biting back a grin.
You? Agreeing with him? That was new.Â
Your friend hums. âSo youâre basically having a book club with some anonymous person who read it before you?â You chuckle. âI mean⊠kinda? Itâs weird, but itâs nice in a way. Like, usually when I read, itâs just me and the book. But with the annotations, itâs like thereâs this extra layer of interaction. I get to see how someone else processed the story, how they reacted to the same moments I did.â
Satoru knows he should stop listening. He should. But he doesnât.
Because something about this whole situationâthe fact that you, of all people, had unknowingly connected with him through a bookâhas him equal parts amused and intrigued. You, who always huffed when he teased you. You, who rolled your eyes at his antics, who made a point to ignore him even though he knew you were hyper-aware of his presence.
You had spent nights poring over words he had written in passing. And you had liked them. God, if you knew, youâd probably strangle him on the spot.
âI actually wanna see if this person has read the rest of the series,â you muse, mostly to yourself. âLike, maybe they annotated other books too.âÂ
Satoru exhales through his nose, staring at his laptop screen but not actually registering anything on it. Well. This was going to be interesting.
â
You make your way to the library once again, the first book of the series clutched in your hands, ready to be returned. It feels weird, parting with it. As if youâre saying goodbye to something that had, for the past week, been a quiet companion during your late-night reading sessions. But not to worry, thereâs still like five more books in the series. Your steps slow slightly as you approach the return counter, fingers absently reaching into your bagâs open pocket for a pen. Without much thought, you flip open the book and scrawl the date of return onto the inside of the back cover, where the borrowing card is located. Your thumb absentmindedly drags across the faded blue ink of the initials scrawled in the row above where youâve signed your name.Â
G.S.
Whoever they were, they had made your reading experience infinitely better with their wry, sarcastic observations and strangely thoughtful insights. It was like reading alongside a particularly sharp-witted friendâone who, frustratingly, was just out of reach. Youâre lost in thought, mulling over the mystery of G.S., when you abruptly walk straight into something firm and unmoving. And warm.
Something that smells like sandalwood and fresh linen and something inexplicably, irritatingly familiar.
You barely have time to stagger back before a voiceâdeep, lazy, and dripping with its usual brand of smugnessâdrawls, âMy, my, pretending to walk around with your nose in a book so people think youâre more studious than you actually are?â
Your stomach sinks. You do not have the patience for this right now.
âFuck off, Satoru,â you mutter, not even looking at him as you try to sidestep. Predictably, he moves right in front of you again, blocking your path with that insufferable ease of his. Hands in the pockets of his impeccably tailored slacks, sleeves of a stupidly expensive cashmere sweater pushed up to reveal the sharp line of his wrists and veiny forearms, and his ever-present glasses glinting under the dim library lightsâhe looks as if he owns the place.
His head tilts, white hair falling slightly over his frames as he glances down at the book in your hands. That smileâall teeth and smugnessâspreads across his face like heâs caught you in something scandalous.
âOh? Reading a book that isnât course-related? Scandalous. What happened, got bored of being a try-hard? Or are you just begging to score lower than me on the final?â He exhales dramatically, shaking his head. âTsk, tsk. Not that Iâd expect you to actually be on my level, but itâs cute that you tryââ
You stop listening after that. Normally, youâd throw something equally sharp-tongued back at him, tell him to go get hit by a bus or something equally creative, but youâre too drained to bother. The exhaustion from back-to-back lectures, plus the fact that you havenât eaten anything substantial today, has dulled the sharp edges of your patience. A dull ache pounds at the base of your skull, and every word out of his mouth makes it throb even harder. Your expression must give away more than you intend because, for a split second, Gojo falters.
Itâs quickâbarely there. But you see it.
A flicker of something almost resembling concern flashes behind his glasses, like heâs actually noticed how drained you look. The moment is gone before you can process it. His usual smug expression slides right back into place, and you donât have the energy to care.
âI need to return this,â you say flatly. âGet out of my way.â
Instead of stepping aside like a normal person, he falls into step beside you, hands still lazily stuffed in his pockets. âOh? So now you acknowledge my presence,â he muses, voice light. âWhat, you didnât miss me in class today? I even waited for you to roll your eyes at me like you do every morning. Felt almost lonely without it.â
âI genuinely do not care,â you reply without looking at him. He presses a hand to his chest as if wounded. âOuch. Someoneâs moody today. Low blood sugar? On your period? Brain finally given up trying to keep up with mine?âÂ
You donât dignify that with a response, instead sliding the book into the return pile with a little more force than necessary. Gojo watches, his gaze flickering between you and the book.
âWhat book were you returning, anyway?â The question is so casual, so offhanded, that you almost donât clock it as strange. Almost. You narrow your eyes at him. âDidnât take you for someone interested in my life.â
His lips curl into something unbearably smug. âOh, Iâm not.â He rocks back on his heels, pushing his glasses further up the bridge of his nose. âI just like knowing what my rival is up to outside of class. You know, studying your weaknesses. Gathering intel. The usual.âÂ
You stare at him. âYou are so full of shit.â
âI really am,â he agrees cheerfully. You exhale through your nose, patience wearing thinner by the second. âShouldnât you be off somewhere being a general public nuisance?â
âThis is me being a general public nuisance.â He grins. âAnd youâre the lucky victim of the day.â
âGod, I hate you.â
âAww, thatâs cute. But you should be honest with yourself,â he says, following you as you make your way toward the exit. âI think youâd miss me if I suddenly disappeared.â
âAbsolutely not.â
âYou so would.â
âI would thrive in your absence.â
Gojo makes an exaggerated show of wiping away an imaginary tear. âHow cruel. And here I was, thinking we had something special.â
You push open the library doors, stepping out into the crisp afternoon air. Finally, freedom. But, of course, Gojo keeps following you.
ââŠWhy are you still here?â you ask, tiredly. He hums. âDunno. Walking this way.â
âYou donât even know where Iâm going.â
âExactly,â he says, grinning. âA mystery. How exciting.â You consider throwing your bag at him. You settle for walking faster. You quicken your pace, hoping Gojo will get bored and wander off. He doesnât. Of course he doesnât. He easily keeps up with you, long legs making it effortless, his stupid grin never fading.
You give him a deadpan look. âYes, Satoru. Thatâs exactly what Iâm doing. Weâre all going to sit in a circle and ritually sharpen our pencils while whispering incantations about final exams.â He gasps dramatically. âI knew it. I bet you have a shrine dedicated to good grades too. And, like, a little altar where you sacrifice people who get higher scores than youââ
âI donât need to sacrifice anyone,â you cut in, dryly. âBecause I get the highest scores.â His grin widens. âNot all of them.â
You bristle, and he knows it. You both know that you and Gojo have been locked in a constant academic battle since the semester started. Itâs maddening how often you end up in the top two spots. Even more maddening that he acts like he doesnât even try. You exhale slowly, trying to focus on literally anything else. âIâm going to get food. Why donât you go fuck off somewhere, like, I donât know, ruin someone elseâs day?âÂ
âYou wound me with such crass language,â he says, clutching his chest like you physically struck him. âIâm just being a good friend.â
âYouâre not my friend.â
âWow.â He sighs dramatically, as if genuinely offended. âAll this time weâve spent together, and you still call us enemies? Iâd like to think of us more as⊠frenemies.â
âI would like to think of us as strangers.â
âAnd yet,â he says, smirking, âyou still talk to me.â
You roll your eyes. âOnly because you wonât shut up.âÂ
âGetting a drink too?â he asks, peering over your shoulder.
âWhy do you care?â
âMaybe I wanna know what fuels my biggest competition,â he says, tone exaggeratedly thoughtful. âWhatâs the secret? Triple shot espresso? Pure willpower? The tears of your academic rivals?â You give him a look. âYouâre projecting. You probably run on the suffering of others.â
âObviously,â he says easily. âBut I like to mix in a little sugar sometimes. Keeps me balanced and shit.â Youâre about to tell him to go bother someone else when the barista glances up. âNext?â You quickly place your order. Just as youâre about to pull out your wallet, Gojoâs voice rings out:
âIâve got it.â
Your head snaps toward him. âWhat.â
âIâm paying.â You stare at him, genuinely baffled. âWhy?â
He grins. âBecause Iâm so generous, obviously.â You narrow your eyes. âNo, really. Whatâs the catch?â
He puts a hand over his heart, feigning offense. âYou think Iâd trick you? Iâm hurt.â
âYes.â
Gojo just laughs and hands his card to the barista before you can argue further. You glare at him. âThis better not be some elaborate scheme to hold this over my head later.â
âOh, it definitely is,â he says cheerfully. âI plan to bring it up all the time.â
âOf course you do.â Your drinkâ tea to be specificâ is ready a moment later. Begrudgingly, you take it, mumbling, âThanks.â Gojo gasps, eyes wide. âDid you just thank me?â You exhale. âNever mind. I take it back.â
âNo, no, itâs too late, you already said it.â He grins. âYou like me.â
âI hate you.â
âYou adore me.â
âI tolerate you at best.â Gojo sips his drink, looking entirely too pleased with himself. âThatâs basically the same thing.â You groan and turn to leave.
Thankfully he doesnât make the move to follow you this time.
â
Your⊠somewhat friendly interaction with SaâNo, Gojoâwas forgotten by the time the next week rolled around. Not deliberately, of course. But between your physics assignments, math problem sets, and an unrelenting pile of lecture notes to review, your brain had simply discarded the memory. College had a way of pushing everything that wasnât directly necessary for survival to the furthest corners of your mind. Currently, you were in the library, hunched over a thick textbook, your fingers curled into your hair as you skimmed the same paragraph for what felt like the tenth time. Nothing was sticking.
You groaned, tilting your head back against the chair and letting your gaze drift to the high ceilings of the study space. It was quiet, save for the occasional rustle of pages and the rhythmic clicking of laptop keys. Your physics notes sat in front of you, covered in a desperate sprawl of formulas and diagrams, but the more you stared, the more meaningless the symbols became. You needed a break. Your eyes flickered toward the fiction section.
It wouldnât hurt to get another book.
A moment later, you were standing in front of the shelves, fingers tracing the spines as you searched for the second book in the series. It didnât take long to findâit was positioned neatly with the rest of the series, the cover slightly fading due to how long it had probably been there. As you turned to leave, your thumb brushed against the inside cover, where the borrowing card was located.
And there, scrawled in the same faded blue ink as before, were the initials:
G.S.
You paused. Your mystery commentator had been here before you. Again. You traced the letters absentmindedly, your mind flickering back to the first book. Their annotations had been witty, sometimes mocking, but always sharp. You had enjoyed themâmore than you expected.
You flipped to the borrowing card. G.S. had checked out this book multiple times. At least three dates next to their initials. A strange feeling settled in your chest. Who were they? You shook your head, pushing the thought aside as you made your way to the borrowing counter. It doesnât matter. Itâs just some random person. Still, as you returned to your study space, setting the book beside your untouched notes, your fingers itched to open it.
You triedâreally triedâto focus on physics. For maybe ten minutes. Then, with a sigh, you slid your textbook aside and cracked open the novel. This one picked up right where the last had left offâthe protagonist, an ambitious scholar, now forced into an uneasy alliance with a rogue historian, both of them hunting for a long-lost manuscript said to contain the secrets of the universe. Their journey took them through ancient libraries, shadowy alleyways, and grand halls of academia filled with intrigue and suspense that you thoroughly enjoyed.Â
It wasnât long before you noticed the annotations.
"What an idiot. Why would you trust someone who literally betrayed you three chapters ago?" You huffed a quiet laugh. It was scrawled in the margins of a tense conversation between the protagonist and the historian, who had indeed been suspiciously untrustworthy.
Another note, a few pages later: "This argument is painfully dumb. If they just communicated, we wouldnât need three more chapters of tension." You found yourself smiling. Whoever this was, they were blunt, maybe a bit cynical, but entertaining.
Then, another annotation caught your attentionâthis one different. It was scribbled beside a passage where the protagonist was deciphering an ancient mathematical equation, trying to understand the patterns behind the manuscriptâs code. The handwriting was just as casual, but the contentâ
"This is basically just Fourier analysis but dressed up in fancy old-world academia. If the author actually wanted to be accurate, theyâd at least mention waveforms. But nooo, we get poetic nonsense instead."
You blinked. That was⊠oddly specific. And not the kind of thing your average literature enthusiast would comment on. For a fleeting second, you wonderedâ
Does G.S. study physics?
The thought was strange, lingering in the back of your mind even as you continued reading. Minutes turned into hours. Slowly, students trickled out of the library. The rustling of papers faded, the soft murmur of whispered conversations disappearing into the silence of the near-empty study space. You didnât notice.
Not until the overhead lights dimmed slightly, signaling that the library was closing soon. With a sigh, you shut the book, stretching your stiff limbs. Physics could wait a little longer.
â
A few days later, you found yourself in yet another grueling lecture. The classroom was buzzing with low chatter as students filtered in, some sleep-deprived, some over-caffeinated, and most looking like theyâd rather be anywhere else. You were somewhere in the middleâtired but functional, flipping through your notes with half-hearted interest as you tried to prepare yourself for another two-hour session of mathematical physics. You adjusted your laptop screen, took a sip of your tea, and just as you settled in, you felt a presence.
A familiar, irritating presence.Â
âMorning, rival,â Gojo Satoru said cheerfully, dropping into the seat next to you with all the grace of an avalanche. You didnât even look up. âGo away.â
He tsked. âIs that any way to greet your favorite classmate?â
âYouâre not my favorite classmate.â He grinned, propping his chin on one hand.
âDonât lie. Youâd miss me if I wasnât here to make class interesting.â
You ignored him, resolutely staring at your notes. The professor arrived a moment later, quickly settling into the dayâs topicâwave equations and their applications. The discussion meandered through standard examples, Fourier transforms, and the different methods used to break down complex waveforms.
You barely registered the name of the theoryâjust a fleeting recognition of something familiarâbefore you were back to jotting down notes. At first, you were focused, diligently taking notes and absorbing the information. For the first thirty minutes, you managed to avoid paying him any attention. You scribbled down notes, underlined important formulas, and even managed to listen without feeling the urge to slam your head into the desk.
But thenâof courseâGojo had to open his mouth.
âSo, hypothetically,â he mused, voice carrying just enough to be heard by the surrounding students, âif we were to apply this to a broader model, say⊠nonlinear oscillations, wouldnât that meanââ
You immediately frowned. He was already trying to sound smarter than he was.
âThatâs not how that works,â you cut in before the professor could even acknowledge him. Gojo turned to you, looking far too entertained. âYeah, it is.â
âNo, it isnât.â You shifted in your seat, twisting to face him fully. âYou canât just apply Fourier analysis wherever you want and expect the results to be useful. Nonlinear oscillations donât break down the same way because of the introduction of chaotic behaviorââ
âOh, come on,â Gojo scoffed, waving a hand. âItâs not that deep. Sure, chaotic elements make things messier, but that doesnât mean the framework is useless.â
You let out a sharp breath. âIt means the entire assumption of the analysis changes. You canât approximate a nonlinear system with linear components and expect the results to hold upââ
âYou can if you use a perturbative approach,â he countered smoothly.
You almost growled. âA perturbative approach only works when the nonlinear term is small relative to the linear system. If the nonlinearities dominate, your entire model collapses.â
âNot always,â Gojo shot back, shifting in his seat with that insufferable smirk. âIt depends on how well you construct the higher-order termsââ
You threw your hands up. âAt that point, you might as well scrap Fourier analysis entirely and just use a different decomposition method!â A few students had stopped taking notes. Some were watching out of curiosity; others, out of sheer amusement.
Gojo, completely unbothered, shrugged. âBut that wasnât the question, was it? The point is that Fourier methods can still be useful, even if the system isnât perfectly linearââ
You gritted your teeth. âUseful doesnât mean accurate, dumbass.â Gojo gasped dramatically. âDid you just call me a dumbass? Right here? In front of our professor?â
âMaybe I wouldnât have to if you stopped saying objectively incorrect thingsââ
âOh, please,â he drawled, leaning back in his seat. âYouâre just mad because Iâm right.â
Your jaw clenched. âYouâre not right.â
âI am right.â
âNo, youâreââ
A loud cough. You both froze. Slowly, you turned toward the front of the room, where the professor was staring at you both, unamused.
"Would you two care to bring your literary debate outside of my physics class?" You swallowed. Gojo scratched the back of his neck, looking entirely unbothered.
"...No, sir."
"Good," the professor said flatly. "Then kindly stop interrupting the lesson." You resisted the urge to sink into your chair. Gojo, of course, had the audacity to look amused. As the lecture resumed, you shot him a glare.
"This is your fault."Â
He winked. You swore you were going to strangle him one day. As soon as class ended, you were out of your seat, shoving your laptop into your bag with slightly more force than necessary. Behind you, Gojo was taking his sweet time, stretching like he hadnât just spent the past two hours actively making your life worse. âMan,â he sighed dramatically. âThat was a great discussion, donât you think? Nothing like a little intellectual sparring to keep the brain sharpââ
You spun around so fast he almost bumped into you. âDiscussion?â you repeated incredulously. âThat wasnât a discussion, that was you talking out of your ass like usual.â
Gojo placed a hand over his heart, feigning offense. âWow. You wound me. You know, I feel like I say that phrase a lot. Would you prefer it if I said thee painfully wrench mine own heart with such careless wordsââ
You rolled your eyes and stormed out of the lecture hall, weaving through the crowd of students. Of course he followed, long strides easily keeping pace with yours. âIâm just saying,â he continued, completely ignoring your clear irritation, âitâs kind of funny how you always shoot me down but never actually prove me wrongââ
Your jaw clenched. âI do prove you wrong. Every time.âÂ
He smirked. âDo you, though?â
âYes!â You turned on your heel, walking backward so you could glare at him properly. âJust because you talk like you know everything doesnât mean you actually doââ
Gojoâs smirk widened. âSo you do think I sound smart.â Your eye twitched.
âThatâs not what I said.â
âSounds like thatâs what you said.â
âGo kill yourself.â
âOnly if you join me, sweets.â
âDonât call me that!â
âWhy, you donât like being called sweets?ââ
You groaned, turning back around and quickening your pace. You werenât going to stand here and let him twist your words into whatever self-indulgent nonsense was brewing in his head. Gojo, naturally, kept up with ease. âYou know, itâs weird how you always get so mad at me. Maybe you should work on that anger problem of yours.â
âOh, I have an anger problem?â You spun around again, narrowing your eyes. âYouâre literally the most aggravating person Iâve ever met.â
âReally?â He tilted his head in mock thought. âI dunno, you seem to get pretty riled up over nothingââ
âYou are nothing.â
Gojo laughed, the sound bright and infuriatingly genuine. âDamn, that was actually kinda good. You been practicing comebacks in the mirror?â
âLeave me alone, for the love of god, before I strangle you, bastardââ
âOooh, kinkyâ.â
Before you could actually commit violence, someone stepped between you. âAlright, enough,â a smooth, tired voice interrupted. You looked up to see Suguru Geto, Gojoâs ever-patient best friend, standing between you with the exasperation of a man who had dealt with this before.
âSatoru,â he said, dragging a hand down his face, âleave her alone.âÂ
Gojo pouted. âBut we were bonding.â
âWe were not bonding,â you snapped. Suguru gave you a knowing look. âAnd you,â he sighed, âstop encouraging him.â
You scoffed. âEncouraging him? Iââ
A hand suddenly clamped down on your shoulder. You glanced up to see your own friend standing beside you, looking just as exasperated as Suguru. âCome on,â she muttered, tugging you away. âWeâre going to lunch before you actually try to kill him.â You didnât resist, only because the temptation was strong. But as you turned to leave, you caught a glimpse of Gojo flashing that stupid, insufferable grin at you.
You stuck your tongue out at him. Gojo only winked again in response. Why did he keep winking at you? It made you wanna puke. You definitely needed lunch. Maybe something very, very spicy.
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You're sitting in your dorm again, cross-legged on your bed, laptop open in front of you, but your mind is elsewhere. The textbooks and notes are pushed to the side of your desk, proof that at some point you had every intention of being productive tonight. A third empty cup of tea is perched precariously on your nightstand, and the finished second and third books of the series stacked besides your laptop.Â
It had been a slow burn, working your way through them between lectures and study sessions, but now, the empty feeling of finishing a book you enjoyed is settling in. Worse yet, it's late at night, which means you can't borrow the fourth book until tomorrow. The thought alone makes you sigh as you shut your laptop and flop back against the pillows.
You flipped open the third book, fingers brushing over the slightly worn borrowing card tucked inside. The neat, slanted initials âG.S.â were there again, written in blue ink. And just like before, the pages had been marked with the same sharp, and sometimes frustratingly perceptive annotations that had made you laugh, scoff, and evenâon some particularly well-argued pointsâbegrudgingly nod along. Your mind drifts, replaying some of your favorite annotations from the books.
There was the one where G.S. had written, "Oh, he's totally gonna betray them," followed by a later note that read, "I CALLED IT. WHEREâS MY PRIZE?" That one had made you laugh out loud in the middle of the library, earning a few disapproving stares. Another one of your other favorites from the third book had been an annotation scrawled in the margins of a pivotal scene:
âThe irony of this moment is almost painful. She sees herself as the heroine, but the real tragedy is that sheâs just another character in someone elseâs story.â
You had reread that line about five times before closing the book and staring at the ceiling, feeling somewhat existential. Another annotation had been pure sarcasm:
âYes, because when faced with adversity, the best solution is always to run directly into danger. Genius.â That one had also made you laugh out loud in one of the study halls located in some part of your university, earning a weird look from the girl across the hall. But the annotation that had really stuck with youâreally made you pauseâwas in the third book, written in response to a section that delved into the intricacies of time and choice:
âIf you think about it, this entire dilemma can be broken down into a fundamental question of physics. If time is just another dimension, then isnât every choice we make just another coordinate on an already-existing map? So is it really âfree willâ if weâre just tracing a path thatâs already there?â
That one had thrown you for a loop. It was the kind of thought that lingered, weaving its way into quiet moments when you least expected it. And, you hated to admit, it made you thinkâwhoever this person was, they were kind of brilliant.You sighed, snapping the book shut. You needed to get the fourth one. Now. But a quick glance at your phone reminded you that it was almost midnight, and the library had closed hours ago. You groaned, letting your head submerge deeper into the pillows. You grabbed your phone, scrolling mindlessly, until your eyes flicked to the messages her friend had sent earlierârecommendations for movies sheâd been meaning to watch. You scrolled absentmindedly, not really expecting to find anything interesting, until your thumb hovered over one title:
Whisper of the Heart.
Something about the name tugged at your memory. Wasnât this the one with the girl who loved books and a mysterious boy who shared them? On a whim, you pressed play. The soft hum of the opening scene filled the quiet of her dorm, and soon, you were drawn in. The gentle storytelling, the warmth of the animation, the way the main character, Shizuku, slowly became obsessed with the name written in all the books she borrowedâ
Oh. Oh, shit.
Your face grew hot as you sat up straighter, eyes darting to the books stacked beside you. You weren't doing that. Right?
âŠWere you? Because if you really thought about itâif you really thought about itâwerenât you kind of doing the same thing? You buried your face in your hands. This is so embarrassing. And yet, as you peeked between her fingers at the screen, you couldnât help but draw the comparison between Seiji Amasawa and your mysterious, faceless G.S. Seiji had been intriguing, a presence felt long before he actually appeared. Just a name scribbled in books, a person she hadnât met yet but somehow felt connected to. And wasnât that exactly what G.S. was?
You groaned, flopping back onto your bed, kicking your feet against the mattress. âI need to stop,â you mumbled into your pillow, but your shoulders shook with barely contained laughter. It was stupid. This whole thing was stupid. You didnât even know this person. For all you knew, G.S. could be some forty-year-old professor or a girl who just happened to find the same series as you on the niche book guide you were on. And yet, there was this tiny, ridiculous, completely unserious part of you that wanted to believeâ
What if it was some guy? A guy with sharp wit, someone who thought deeply about things most people glossed over, someone who liked this series enough to leave behind thoughts for others to find. A guy whoâ No. Nope. Nope. You were not about to mentally script herself into some shoujo romance anime over marginalia.
But the damage was done. Because now, your brain had latched onto the idea, spinning daydreams faster than you could stop them. Some dramatic, cinematic first meeting. Some passing moment where youâd reach for a book, and a handâslender fingers, ink-stained maybeâwould brush against yours, and youâd look up andâ
You shot up again, shaking your head violently. God, this is pathetic. But even as you scolded herself, you couldnât wipe the stupid little smile off your face. You were allowed to have a little fun, right? Just a tiny bit of harmless romanticising? You collapsed back into the pillows, eyes drifting back to the ceiling as the movie played on. And as Shizukuâs voice echoed through the room, musing about stories, destiny, and the people we stumble upon by chance, you thoughtâjust for a secondâMaybe, maybe, you kind of liked this. The idea of it all. The way life sometimes felt like a story waiting to unfold. Maybe itâs silly, maybe itâs unrealisticâbut right now, in the quiet of your dorm, with the soft glow of your laptop screen and the remnants of Whisper of the Heart playing in the background, you donât really care.
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Satoru Gojo had always been considered a prodigy. A genius. Someone born with an innate brilliance that set him apart from others. It had been that way since he was a childâwhere other kids had to struggle and study, he breezed through school without breaking a sweat. It wasnât just academics, either. He was quick-witted, sharp, and effortlessly charming in a way that made people gravitate toward him. But when you grow up with everyone expecting greatness from you, it becomes suffocating.Â
So he learned to play the fool.
It started as a maskâbeing overly cheery, always teasing, never taking things too seriously. It was easier that way. No one could see the weight of expectations if he always had a grin on his face. And at some point, the mask became second nature. Satoru Gojo, the carefree, insufferable genius. The only person he could ever drop it around was Suguru. His best friend, the one person who could keep up with him, who understood what it meant to carry something too heavy to put into words. Then, freshman year of university, he saw you.
He had noticed you beforeâhow could he not? You were diligent, meticulous in a way that fascinated him. You always sat at the front of the class, always had color-coded notes, always took everything so seriously. And maybe that was what caught his attention first. You were everything he wasnât. Where he coasted through life, you worked hard for it. And for the first time in a long time, he didnât quite know how to communicate with someone. So he did what he always did. He teased.
âThe perpendicular components of a vector are independent of each other,â youâd answered smoothly, sitting up a little straighter as you prepared to elaborate. âThatâs why we can analyse them separately usingââ
âOhhh, wow,â he cut in, voice dripping with mock wonder. âLook at that. We got a genius in the house.â He had meant it playfully. A joke. But the way your expression hardened, the way your eyes flickered with irritation, made something click in his brain. You didnât like him. And yet, he couldnât stop teasing you. Even when he knew it annoyed you, even when he knew you hated him. Maybe it was because you challenged him. Maybe it was because, for once, someone didnât look at him like he was untouchable. Or maybe it was because he liked you.
Not just because you were prettyâthough you were, infuriatingly soâbut because you were determined. Because you cared about things deeply. Because you fascinated him in a way nothing else did. He found himself watching you more often than he cared to admit. The way you bit your lip when you were concentrating, the way your eyes lit up when you finally understood something, the way you tucked a strand of hair behind your ear when you were nervous when results came out. It was all so... endearing.
And maybe thatâs why he finds himself watching you sometimesâwhen youâre scribbling furiously in your notebook, when youâre biting the end of your pen in deep thought, when youâre rolling your eyes at something he says but still, still responding. He watches, because for the first time, someone makes him want to understand more than just equations and theories. And if the only way to keep your attention was by being your rival, then so be it.
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The next morning, you had a practical class, a hands-on session designed to reinforce the theory youâd been learning. Since it was held in a laboratory, students were sorted into small groups to share lab tables. Unfortunatelyâor fortunately, depending on how you looked at itâyou werenât grouped with Satoru, but by some cruel twist of fate, his group was at the same table as yours. The setup was simple: four students per group, two groups per table.
A long, clean expanse of black lab benches stretched across the room, each one covered with neatly arranged equipment: a set of metal ramps, photogates, a timer, and a set of small carts. Todayâs experiment was a classic: measuring acceleration using a motion sensor. Each group was supposed to release a cart down a ramp and use the photogates to measure velocity changes over time. Simple, right? Satoru, of course, had already started causing trouble before the experiment even began.
âYou know, itâs kinda unfair that I wasnât put in your group,â he mused, leaning against the lab bench with a smirk. âWouldâve been fun watching you pretend to know more than me.â You didnât even look up as you adjusted the height of the ramp, focusing on making sure it was aligned properly. âOh please, Gojo, you wouldâve just copied all my calculations and then taken credit for my hard work.â
âI wouldnât do that,â he said, feigning offense. âIâd let you take, like, fifty percent of the credit.â Your lab partner snorted beside you, shaking their head as they double-checked the photogate placement. Satoru, undeterred, watched as you bent over to place the cart at the starting position. His group was still setting up, which meant he had time to bother you before he actually had to do any work.
âI bet my groupâs results will be more accurate than yours,â he declared. You rolled your eyes, finally sparing him a glance. âYou do know accuracy depends on precision and minimising errors, right? Which meansââ you motioned to his group, where one of them was currently struggling with the timer, ââyour chances of that happening are slim to none.âÂ
Before he could retort, your professor called for everyoneâs attention, signalling the start of the experiment. Both of you fell into your respective tasks, measuring, calculating, and recording values with practiced ease. You got so caught up in fine-tuning your results that Satoru didnât get the chance to throw more taunts your way. That was until, while waiting for your next trial to begin, you turned to your friend beside you, excitement bubbling over.
âOh my god, I finally watched Whisper of the Heart last night,â you gushed, voice dropping into that high-pitched, dreamy tone reserved for things you were completely obsessed with. Your friend gasped, clutching your arm. âStop. You did not.â
âI did.â
âDID YOU CRY?â
âOBVIOUSLY.âÂ
Satoru, who had been focused on adjusting his groupâs ramp, stilled slightly. He knew that movie. More than that, he could predict exactly why you were talking about it. Casually, he glanced over, pretending to check his photogate readings while shamelessly eavesdropping. Your friend squeezed your arm excitedly. âI told you it was perfect. The vibes, the music, the slow-burn romance. Tell me you loved Seiji.â
âOh, I loved Seiji,â you sighed, eyes sparkling. âLike, the way he was so ambitious but still so soft? And the way he believed in her? And the fact that he left little signs for her without even realizing how much theyâd mean?â You could feel yourself getting lost in the emotions of it, and your friend was right there with you, nodding along enthusiastically. âIt was so romantic,â she said dreamily. âThe idea of someone quietly believing in you and pushing you forward. Itâs justââ
âSO good,â you finished for her, and the two of you squealed quietly before catching yourselves and trying to focus again. Then, almost absentmindedly, you added, âHonestly, I feel like Iâm in Whisper of the Heart right now.â Your friend perked up. âHow so?â
You nudged her lightly. âBecause of G.S.â
Satoru, who had been handling the cart for his next trial, fumbled slightly. Your friendâs eyes widened knowingly. âNo way. You mean your G.S.?âÂ
You groaned. âDonât call him that. But yeah. The whole leaving-annotations-in-the-books thing? And how I keep borrowing them? Itâs totally giving Seiji and Shizuku. Like yeah I kinda sound corny right nowââ
âNot really honestly, I get itââ
âExactly! See? I knew I wasnât crazy. Imagine G.S is like Seijiâ scratch that, imagine heâs better, like some sweet, studious, hot book nerdââ
Satoru swallowed, suddenly feeling warm despite the sterile chill of the lab. You thought he was like Seiji? More than that, you thought G.S could perhaps even be better than Seiji? That wasâthat was something.
âAnd next week,â you continued, stretching your arms over your head, âafter I finish studying, Iâm going to borrow the next book.â
Satoru barely heard the rest of the conversation after that. His brain had latched onto one horrifying realisationâ
The last four books werenât annotated. Oh, shit. He hadnât really expected you to grow this attached to his stupid thoughts scribbled on the edges of the frayed pages, hadnât expected you to burn through the series so fast. He completely forgot that he didnât bother annotating the last few books because he had gotten so busy with work. But you had just sat there, eyes sparkling, gushing about his notes like they were some grand romantic mystery. You liked them. You liked his words. Not just the books themselves but the tiny, scribbled thoughts he had left behind. Satoruâs stomach did a weird little flip. It seemed to be doing that a lot every time his nosy ass overheard you talking about his writing.
You really liked his writing. The writing youâd been gushing for about two weeks now. You really found it special. You liked it so much that the thought of continuing the series without it made his chest ache. Because what if you borrowed the next one and found nothing? What if you flipped through the pages, searching for his voice, only to be disappointed? No. No way. That wasnât happening. Initially he had done it as a way to, yâknow, simply yap, maybe desecrate the pages of a book from a library with his oh so superior commentary. But now? He was going to do this for you. Because the way you had talked about Whisper of the Heartâthe way your face had gone soft and dreamy, the way your voice had gotten all excitedâhe wanted that. He wanted to hear you talk about how much you enjoyed the little quips that made their way into his head every time he read something. He wanted to be the reason you spoke like that again. Maybe it was pathetic, but he wantedâ really wanted to once again be the reason why your cheeks slightly went pink when your friend called him yours. Even if they were his initials, they were his, and it insinuated he belonged to you, right?
The second class ended, Satoru bolted. There was no time to waste. He had four books to annotate, and he didnât care if it took him all night. If you wanted G.S., then G.S. was going to be there.
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Satoru burst into his dorm, heart pounding as he dumped his bag onto the floor. His fingers fumbled with the zipper as he yanked it open, pulling out the four books you were inevitably going to borrow next. He stacked them on his desk, staring at them like they were some kind of urgent missionâbecause they were. You liked his notes. You liked his notes. That thought alone sent a weird, warm feeling blooming in his chest. He flopped into his chair, running a hand through his hair as he exhaled sharply. This wasnât just about keeping up the act anymore. It wasnât about maintaining the mystery of G.S. or feeding into some casual curiosity you had. No, this was about you. About the way your eyes lit up when you talked about the books. The way you had called himâunknowingly, of courseâyour own Seiji. The way you were so excited to continue the series, fully expecting to find more of his little thoughts nestled between the pages. He wasnât going to let you down.
Satoru grabbed the first book off the stack and flipped it open, his pen poised over the margins. He scribbled his initials in the borrowing card in the same blue ink that he always usedâ he always thought the blueness of the ink was much better than any other pen colour out there. Before he started reading, he did this in all the library cards, and made sure that the date corresponded to the previous datesâ so you wouldnât think it was suspicious that the last remaining books were all borrowed on the same day. He then started readingânot just skimming, but really reading, more carefully than he ever had before. Thankfully he did remember the plot of the first three books, so catching up with what was going on wasnât too hard. Every sentence was weighed, every line considered. What would make you pause? What would make you smile?
When he hit a particularly poetic passage, he underlined it and wrote in the margin: Bet whoever is reading thisâ I just know this made your heart do that stupid fluttery thing.
He smirked to himself. If only you knew.Â
A few pages later, he found a scene with the protagonist staring out a train window, deep in thought. The description was vivid, full of melancholic longing. He tapped the pen against his lips before jotting down: Ever feel like this? Just existing, watching life happen? He could already imagine you reading it, tilting your head slightly, considering his words. Would you reply in your head? Would you wonder what kind of person wrote something like that? The thought of it sent a thrill through him, and he leaned in closer, more invested than ever. Hours passed, but he barely noticed. The desk lamp cast a warm glow over the pages as he worked, annotating with a mix of teasing, sincerity, and the occasional cryptic remark just to mess with you. In the fifth book of the series, there was a passage about finding comfort in routineâabout how little, familiar things could feel like home. He thought back to all the times during your early morning classes, how youâd bring a steaming thermos filled with a tea of some kind, something to sip on while you reviewed the lecture slides before the professor started the lecture. The half cold tea in that same thermos, heâd seen you nursing it outside the exam hall before a midterm while your eyes furiously scanned your meticulous, colour coded notes. Satoru probably guessed that it was a habit of yoursâ to have a warm comforting drink while you readâ lecture notes, physics textbooks, or fiction.
He hesitated for a second before writing: Hope anyone who ever reads this is reading this with a warm drink. Tea, in my opinion, is the best kind of beverage to drink while reading a book series like this.Â
Would you pause when you read that? Would you glance around, suddenly hyper-aware that maybe G.S knew you? That someone had been paying attention? Or maybe youâd think heâs just like you? The thought sent a rush of satisfaction through him. By the time he reached the second last book, his hand was cramping, but he didnât care. He stretched briefly before diving back in. This one had more banter between the characters, something he knew you loved. He played into it, adding sarcastic commentary in the margins. When the heroine had a particularly dramatic internal monologue, he scribbled: Relax, youâre not in a soap opera.
And a few pages later: Actually, never mind, maybe you are.
He could already hear your reaction. The annoyed little huff, the way youâd roll your eyes but secretly love it. You always did have a tendency to refute things first, only to realise you enjoyed them later. Heâd sometimes see it in the way when youâd roll your eyes or let out a disapproving noise at Satoru plainly criticising one of the professors under his breath during a lectureâ but Satoruâs eyes were sharp, he never missed the smallest twitch of your lips as soon as youâd finished your melodramatics. The last book was the longest, and by then, the city outside his window had gone quiet. His dorm was dim except for the glow of his lamp, and his body was buzzing with a mix of exhaustion and excitement. He was too far in now, too absorbed in the thought of you reading all of this soon. This book had a recurring theme about missed chancesâabout words left unsaid and moments that could have changed everything if only someone had spoken up. It hit a little too close to home, but he didnât let himself dwell on that. Instead, he carefully underlined a sentence: Sometimes, we donât realise what we mean to someone until itâs too late.
Beneath it, he wrote: I hope this never applies to y̶o̶u̶ whoever is reading this.
And thenâ and then he wrote another little thing, but it felt a bit too intimate, a bit too revealing so he neatly crossed it out. His pen hovered over the page for a moment. That was the most honest thing he had written all night. Satoru exhaled, rubbing his eyes before sitting back, staring at the stack of books now filled with his thoughts. He had done it. You wouldnât get a single blank page. Youâd find him in every single one.
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Satoru strolled across campus with a tote bag slung over his shoulder, weighed down by four thick novels. The booksânow thoroughly marked up, pages lined with his messy scrawlâfelt heavier than they should have, but maybe that was just him. Heâd spent the entire night annotating them, barely stopping to eat, sleep, or think about anything that wasnât you reading his words. Now, all he had to do was return them before you got to the library. He wasnât about to let you see him checking them in like some lovesick idiot. He carefully managed to place them back on the shelf after scanning them as âunborrowedâ. He was a few steps from the library doors when someone rounded the corner, and before he could reactâ
Bam. The collision wasnât hard, just enough to jostle him off balance, and he barely had time to reach out and steady you before you could stumble back. âDamn, could at least pretend to watch where youâre going,â he drawled, glancing down at you with a smirk. âOr do you just like running into me?â
You scoffed, adjusting your bag over your shoulder. âYeah, I totally planned that. Just desperate to bump into you of all people.â
âOh, come on,â he teased, stepping aside so you could walk past him. âIf you wanted an excuse to see me, you couldâve just said so.â You rolled your eyes, clearly unimpressed. âPlease. Iâm actually on my way to the library, unlike some people who just loiter around.â
His grip on his tote bag tightened for half a second, but he kept his expression easy, unreadable. âLibrary, huh?â
âYeah,â you said, brushing a stray strand of hair behind your ear. âI finished this book from a series Iâm actually enjoying, so I figured Iâd borrow the next one today.â You didnât even know why you told him that, but you figured it was an improvement from the usual bickering you two always had going on. He hummed, nodding slowly. âOh, okay. WellâŠâ He took a step back, flashing a lazy grin. âHave fun with that.â You narrowed your eyes at him. âWhy do you sound weird?â
âI always sound weird.â
âYeah, but more than usual.âÂ
Satoru shrugged. âDunno what youâre talking about.â You stared at him suspiciously for another second before shaking your head. âWhatever.â And with that, you pushed past him, making your way toward the library doors. Satoru watched you go, fighting the smug grin threatening to take over his face. He could already picture itâthe way youâd flip through the pages, expecting plain text, only to find the familiar, scrawled handwriting in the margins. He wondered if youâd smile. If youâd talk about it again the way you had in class. He shook his head to himself, finally turning away. Yeah. He was so in trouble.
With your drink beside you and your phone silenced, you flipped the fourth book open, eager to dive in. You didnât even bother to check the borrowing card this time, neither had you written your own name in it yet, heart beating a little faster as you childishly hoped that the familiar cursive scrawls were still present in the weathered pages. You had barely made it past the first few pages when your eyes caught something in the margins next to one of the more romantic lines.
Bet whoever is reading thisâ I just know this made your heart do that stupid fluttery thing. You blinked. Your stomach did an odd little flip, completely unprovoked. Honestly speaking, your heart did that little flip more in regards to the familiar blue handwriting rather than the line on the page. You knew exactly whose handwriting that was.Â
G.S. had struck again. A slow smile pulled at your lips as you traced the ink with your fingertip. You had gotten so used to these notes, the little jokes, the occasional deep thoughts, that it almost felt like a conversation now. Like you werenât reading alone, but with someone who understood exactly what youâd linger on, what youâd pause to appreciate. And yet⊠something about this one felt slightly different. You glanced at the ink again. It looked a little⊠darker? Not as faded as some of the earlier notes in the series.
You frowned slightly but shook the thought away. Maybe it was just your imagination. You kept reading. A few pages later, the protagonist stared out of a train window, lost in thought. The description was melancholic, vivid, and all too relatable.
Ever feel like this? Just existing, watching life happen? You exhaled sharply through your nose. Yeah, you thought. All the damn time. You tapped your fingers against the table, feeling that same strange connection as before. Whoever G.S. was, they had a way of making their presence knownânot just through the words they chose to underline, but in the little thoughts they left behind, the questions they posed, the moments they chose to comment on. It was like they could hear your thoughts before you even formed them, like they knew exactly where your mind would linger on the page.
Your luck today had been astoundingly awful. The first sign was your hairâa complete disaster from the moment you woke up. Brushing it down did nothing. Water made it worse. Mousse? A grave mistake. You finally resorted to tying it up, accepting defeat. Then came the sharp pain on your forehead, a telltale sign of a forming pimple, because of course your skin had decided to betray you too. But the true betrayal came from your kettle, which, after years of faithful service, had chosen this morning to stop working. No tea. No caffeine. No hope. And now? Now, as if the universe hadnât already tested you enough, you were seated next to Gojo Satoru, his chair pushed obnoxiously close, his long legs stretching out under the desk like he owned the place. His expression was insufferably smug, like he had personally orchestrated all of this just to get under your skin.
Have you ever mentioned that you shared more than one class with Gojo? Sure, you were both in the same physics course, but once again, your luck with picking extra subjects was nothing short of terrible. Thatâs how you ended up in psychologyâa field that couldnât be further from the world of physics you were so deeply immersed in. You had figured it would be a nice change, to explore a different kind of science.Â
Unfortunately, a certain white haired freak seemed to share the same thought process.Â
You exhaled sharply, crossing your arms. âWeâre not choosing your dumb topic.â Gojo gasped dramatically, placing a hand over his chest. âExcuse you, my brilliant topic.â
âYou want to write about the psychology of humor.â
âExactly! Itâs fascinating.â He grinned. âWhat makes something funny? Why do people laugh? Why am I so naturally hilarious?â You pinched the bridge of your nose. âWeâre in a psychology class, Gojo, not a stand-up workshop.â
âAnd yet, humor is deeply psychological.â He leaned forward, eyes twinkling with mischief. âMaybe if you had a better sense of humor, youâd agree with me.â You scowled. âI have a perfectly fine sense of humor.â
âSure you do,â he teased, âin the same way a brick has mobility.â Your jaw clenched. âIâm not doing a research paper on why people laugh.â
âAnd Iâm not doing one on cognitive dissonance,â he shot back, drumming his fingers against the desk. âItâs been done to death.â
âItâs interesting,â you argued. âIt actually ties into real-world behavior.â
âSo does humor.â You stared him down. He stared right back, his lips curving just slightly, like he was having the time of his life getting you riled up.
A muscle in your jaw twitched. âRock, paper, scissors?â
Gojo snorted. âWhat are we, five?â You held out a fist. He sighed, then did the same.
Rock, paper, scissors, shoot. Your scissors to his rock. Your eye twitched. His grin was downright gleeful. âLooks like weâre writing about humor.â
âYou are insufferable.â
âIâm a visionary,â he corrected, stretching his arms behind his head. âYouâll thank me when we get a great grade.â You grumbled something under your breath, flipping open your notebook to at least try and plan the assignment. You werenât about to let him ruin your GPA over jokes. But Gojo wasnât looking at the notebook. He wasnât even thinking about the project anymore. His gaze lingered on the way a few wisps of hair had escaped your ponytail, framing your face. He wasnât used to seeing your hair tied backâit made your features more striking, somehow. It made him notice the little things, like the way your brow creased when you were annoyed, or the way your lips pursed slightly when you were trying really hard not to snap at him. And it was funny. All morning, youâd been looking at him like he was a headache, while he⊠well. Heâd be lying if he said he wasnât kind of enjoying himself. He propped his chin in his palm, watching you jot something down in your notebook.
âYou know,â he mused, âfor someone whoâs so against my topic, you sure do make me laugh a lot.â You shot him a suspicious look. âWhat is that supposed to mean?â
Gojo smirked. âJust an observation.â You scoffed. âAn annoyance is not the same thing as amusement.â
âTell that to your cognitive dissonance.â You rolled your eyes, but before you could fire back, something distracted you. A shift in the air, a fleeting scentâsomething clean and warm, like cedar and the lingering spice of cologne. You blinked. You didnât know why you noticed it now, of all times, but the way he smelled was⊠oddly pleasant. You shook it off, focusing on your notes again. Only, now you were very aware of other things, tooâlike the fact that his hand, resting casually on the desk, was a lot bigger than yours. His fingers were long, his knuckles prominent, and his nails were annoyingly well-groomed for someone who clearly put zero effort into most things. You clenched your jaw, forcing yourself to refocus. Itâs just Gojo, you told yourself. Heâs just being annoying. As usual. Iâm probably ovulating or something. Gojo, meanwhile, had caught the way your eyes flickered over to him, how you quickly looked away after.
He tilted his head. âSomething on your mind?â
âYeah,â you muttered, deadpan. âHow fast I can finish this project so I donât have to deal with you.â Gojo chuckled, and despite yourself, you felt the sound of itâlow and amused, like he found you far too entertaining. âOh, sweets,â Gojo drawled, his voice lilting with amusement, âno way in hell am I gonna let you finish this project fast enough to escape me. Câmon, in our three beautiful years of rivalry, youâve never once tried to get to know meââ
âLetâs just start the project,â you cut him off, already pulling out your stationery and notebook, flipping to a fresh page with more force than necessary. You barely resisted the urge to groan at the topic glaring back at you. Humour. Ugh.
Gojo, of course, noticed immediately. He didnât even have to tryâhe just always noticed things. The way your lips pressed into a thin line, how your fingers fidgeted with the cap of your pen, how your shoulders tensed slightly, like you were already resigning yourself to suffering through an assignment you hated. His smirk fadedâjust a little. And then, before he could think about it too hard, he sighed.
âYou know what?â he said, nudging his notebook aside. âScrew it. Letâs do your topic.â
You blinked, pen hovering mid-air. âWhat?â
âYou heard me,â he said, waving a hand. âCognitive dissonance, weird little psychology experiments, all that jazz. Itâs fine.â
Your eyes narrowed. âThis feels like a trick.â
âWow, you think that low of me?,â he said, clutching his chest in mock betrayal. âI am capable of compromise, you know.â
You gave him a flat look. âSince when?â
Gojo rolled his eyes but didnât argue. Instead, he leaned forward, elbows propped on the desk, watching you with a lazy kind of curiosity.
âSeriously, though. If you hate my topic that much, letâs just do yours. No big deal.â
You stared at him, suspicious. Gojo Satoru? Giving up? It felt wrong.
âWait,â you said suddenly, narrowing your eyes further. âWhatâs the catch?â
âThereâs no catch,â he insisted, but the way he said it, all breezy and casual, made you even more suspicious.
â⊠You want me to owe you a favor, donât you?â
He gasped, scandalised. âSweets, I would never manipulate you like that.â
You scoffed. âYou absolutely would.â
âOkay, yeah, I would,â he admitted easily, grinning. âBut this isnât that.â
You hesitated, drumming your fingers against the notebook. Then, you exhaled, shaking your head. âNo. Weâll do humor.â
Now he was the one taken aback. âHuh?â
âI donât want to hear you complain about how boring cognitive dissonance is for the next two weeks,â you said, scribbling down a rough outline. âAnd youâre actually interested in humor, so weâll get it done faster.â
Gojo just stared at you, like he couldnât quite believe what he was hearing.
âHold on. Youâre giving in?â
âDonât make it weird.â
âOh, Iâm definitely making it weird.â His grin was slow, teasing, like he had just won something. âThis is, like, a historic moment. I should get it framed.â
âGojo.â
âI mean, imagine if people knewââ
âGojo.â
ââthat you actually care about my interests? That youâgaspâwant to make me happy?â You kicked him under the desk.
âOw!â He laughed, rubbing his shin. âThat was uncalled for.â
âYou deserved it.â
âBut really,â he said, still grinning, âthis is kinda nice.â
You quirked a brow. âWhat is?â
He shrugged, tilting his head. âUsually, weâre arguing for ourselves. This is the first time weâve argued over, like, whatâs better for the other person.â Your lips parted slightly. You hadnât thought about it like that. For a moment, neither of you spoke. Then, absurdly, a little laugh slipped out of you. Just a small one, but it was enough to make Gojoâs eyes flicker with amusement. And before you knew it, he was laughing, too. It wasnât even that funny, but somehow, the realisation of how ridiculous this entire thing had beenâbickering for fifteen minutes over who should get their way only to insist on the oppositeâhad you both quietly shaking with laughter in the middle of the library.
âOkay, okay,â you finally said, breathless. âLetâs get this outline done before we completely fail this class.â
âIâd never fail,â Gojo said, flipping open his notebook. âIâm naturally brilliant.â
âYou would if I werenât here keeping you on track.â
He grinned. âSee? You like being my partner.â You rolled your eyes, but as you both started drafting the project together, something about thisâabout working with him, actually workingâfelt⊠nice. And even though he was still Gojo, still distracting, still annoying, still insufferably smug, for once, he didnât feel like an opponent. He just felt like Satoru. Not Gojo, but Satoru. Of course, the moment things got too productive, he ruined it.
âYâknow,â he mused, leaning back in his chair, âI am gonna make sure our humor project includes at least one joke at your expense.â
You deadpanned. âThen Iâm making sure our references include an article on the psychological effects of annoying classmates.â
Gojo gasped. âI would love to read that.â
You smacked his arm with your notebook. And, as usual, he just laughed. You two managed to get a lot of the work doneâ not just a solid outline of your project, but the finer details too. Gojo suddenly shoved his chair back, standing up so abruptly that you startled. âI need to do something,â he announced, brushing imaginary dust off his clothes. You frowned, confused. âWhat? Where are you going?â
âJust wait here,â he said, already turning on his heel. Your brows furrowed. âWaitâwhat? Gojoââ
âJust wait!â he called over his shoulder before disappearing down the hallway. You stared at the empty space where he had been, utterly bewildered. What the hell was that about? For a moment, you debated packing up your stuff and leaving just to be petty, but curiosity got the better of you. Huffing, you tapped your pen against your notebook, drumming your fingers impatiently. Three minutes passed. Then five. Thenâ
Gojo reappeared, striding back toward your table with an obnoxiously triumphant grin. In one hand, he held two drinks, in the other, a small paper bag. He set them down in front of you like he was presenting some kind of grand prize.
You stared. â... What is this?â
âSnacks,â he said, like it was obvious. âI see that,â you said, eyeing the drinks. One was clearly milk teaâyours, probablyâbut the other was some sugary monstrosity topped with whipped cream, which was obviously his. âBut why?â
âWell, weâve been working,â he said easily, plopping back into his seat. âFigured we deserved a break.â You blinked, then looked down at the tea again. It smelled⊠exactly how you usually ordered it.
Suspicion prickled at you. âDid youâdid you get this on purpose?âÂ
Gojo took a sip of his own drink, unbothered. âYeah?âÂ
Your eyes narrowed. âHow do you even know what I drink?â
Gojo shrugged. âDunno. Guess I just noticed that one time when I ended up paying for it.â
You paused. The thought of Gojo Satoru noticing anything about youâremembering how you liked your tea, going out of his way to get it without even askingâmade your brain short-circuit for a second. You werenât sure what to do with that information, so you just focused on unrolling the top of the pastry bag, peering inside. There were two croissantsâone chocolate, one plain.
â⊠Okay, but the pastries?â
âI didnât know what you liked, so I got both.â You squinted at him. âThat doesnât make any sense.â He smirked. âSure it does. If you like chocolate, I got it right. If you donât, more for me.â You stared at him, then at the pastries, then back at him.
âUnbelievable,â you muttered, shaking your head.
âUnbelievably thoughtful?â he supplied.
âUnbelievably annoying.â
Gojo grinned. âThat too.â Rolling your eyes, you took the chocolate croissant anyway, breaking off a piece. The tea was still warm when you took a sip, and you hated that it was perfectâhated that Gojo Satoru of all people had somehow memorized exactly how you liked it. He propped his elbow on the table, chin resting in his hand as he watched you. âYâknow, for someone whoâs been roasting me for the last five minutes, you seem to be enjoying that a lot.â
You shot him a look. âDonât push it.â He only laughed, reaching for his own pastry. âNo promises.â
â
Over the next week, you and Gojo fell into an oddly stable rhythm. It wasnât immediateânothing with Gojo ever wasâbut slowly, the sharp edges of your interactions dulled. The bickering still happened, but it felt different, less like clashing swords and more like an inside joke neither of you wanted to drop. Your study sessions were always in the same corner of the library, where Gojo insisted on pushing the limits of how far back he could tilt his chair before it inevitably crashed to the floor.
(âGojo, if you fall and crack your head open, Iâm not calling an ambulance.â
âNah, you totally would.â
âI wouldnât.â
âYes, you would, sweets. You like me too much to let me die like that.â)
Youâd grumble and go back to your notes, but a traitorous part of you was starting to find his antics almost⊠endearing. Your actual progress on the project was steady. It surprised youâGojo mightâve been infuriating, but when he actually focused, he was sharp. He had a way of cutting through useless information, pinpointing the most interesting angle on a subject, making connections you hadnât considered. Begrudgingly, you kind of understood why he was always neck to neck with you in grades.
(âSo, humor as a psychological coping mechanism?â
âMhm.â
âAnd you want to include self-deprecating humor as a subsection?â
âWell, yeah,â he said, twirling a pen between his fingers. âItâs like, prime material.â
âYou literally never make fun of yourself.â
âI make fun of myself all the time.â
You scoffed. âOh, really?â
He smirked. âYeah. I mean, look at meâsix-foot-three, gorgeous, built like a godâmy life is so hard, yâknow?â
You stared at him. âThat was not self-deprecating.â
âNo?â He shrugged, leaning in slightly, his voice dropping just enough to make your stomach do something weird. âMaybe I just want you to compliment me.â
You threw a balled-up piece of paper at his head.)Â
There were⊠moments. Small, fleeting things you didnât know what to do with. Like the time your pen rolled off the table and he picked it up, spinning it between his fingers before handing it back to you, and you noticedâreally noticedâhow big his hands were. Or how, sometimes, when he was reading something on your laptop, heâd lean in too close, and youâd catch the faint scent of his cologneâfresh, clean, but with something warm underneath. You ignored these things. Obviously.Â
But then came the gym. You were only there because you needed to de-stress. The project had been long, your classes demanding, and you just wanted to move your body and clear your head. You werenât expecting to see him there. At first, you didnât even realize it was Gojo. You were just filling your water bottle, minding your business, when your gaze flickered to the squat rack and landed on a very tall, very shirtless figure. And then your brain short-circuited. Because it was Gojo.
And Gojo wasâ
Built.
Like, really built. You had known he was tall. You had known he was in shape. But knowing and seeing were two different things. His usual oversized hoodies and button-ups had hidden the fact that his entire torso was carved like a damn statue. Broad shoulders, lean muscle, a defined chest, abs for days andâ
Your gaze dropped lower.
âHappy trail. Something inside you malfunctioned. Because, okay, fine, sureâobjectively speaking, Gojo Satoru was attractive. You had always known that. But this? This was different. This was some kind of cruel joke. This was the universe personally handing you a vision of a half-naked Gojo and saying, Hey, enjoy struggling with this one! You were staring. Oh, god, you were staring. You needed to leave. You were about to spin on your heel and get the hell out of there, but that was when he noticed you. His gaze locked onto yours in the mirror, and something slow and amused curled across his lips.
âYo,â he called, turning around fully now, like he knew exactly what he was doing. You were so close to pretending you hadnât heard him, but there were only so many places to run. You forced yourself to walk over, as if this was normal, as if your brain hadnât just imploded from seeing Gojo Satoru shirtless. âYou work out?â he asked, wiping sweat off his forehead with a towel, and you hated that even that was distracting.
âYes, Gojo, I work out,â you said flatly, crossing your arms. He grinned. âHuh. Never wouldâve guessed.â You narrowed your eyes. âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â He just shrugged, all easy confidence and knowing smirks. âYou donât exactly look like the gym type, sweets.â
âBecause I donât look like I can deadlift a hundred kilos?â you shot back.Â
He tilted his head. âCan you?â
â⊠No.âÂ
He laughed, tossing the towel over his shoulder. âThen I rest my case.â You scowled. âYouâre annoying.â
âAnd youâre staring,â he quipped, and your breath caught in your throat. Your face heated. âIâI am not.â His smirk deepened. âSure you arenât.â
You clenched your jaw, trying to school your expression into something neutral. You refused to let him know he was right. But as you turned on your heel and all but stomped to another part of the gym, you could still feel his gaze on you. And the worst part? You didnât hate it.Â
The next day, you almost considered canceling your study session. Not because you were avoiding Gojo. Obviously. You were just busy. Lots of work. Essays. Big academic responsibilities. But you werenât a coward. (And okay, fine, maybe a tiny part of you was curious to see if things would be normal again. Not that things were weird, butâwell. Whatever.) When you arrived at the library, Gojo was already there, feet kicked up on the chair across from him, lazily flipping through his notes.
âLook who decided to show up,â he said without looking up. You dropped your bag onto the table with a little more force than necessary. âShut up.â He smirked. âFeisty today, huh?â You ignored him, pulling out your laptop. âDid you actually get any work done?â
He held up a single, crumpled page.Â
You groaned. âGojo.â
âHey, hey,â he said, leaning forward, âin my defense, I was busy yesterday.â You knew exactly what he was referencing. You refused to react. Instead, you snatched the page from his hands. âWeâre never finishing this at this rate.âÂ
Gojo leaned on his hand, watching you with a lazy smile. âMaybe I just like dragging this out so I can keep seeing you.â
Your fingers twitched around your pen.
He was messing with you. Obviously. That was what he did. But it was getting harder and harder to pretend you didnât notice the way his gaze lingered sometimes. Or the way your stomach dipped when he said things like that. You cleared your throat, forcing yourself to focus. âWeâre getting this done today, whether you like it or not.â
âBossy,â he murmured, still watching you. You gave him a look. And then you got to work. And as much as you hated to admit it, your study sessions with Gojo had started to feel⊠comfortable. It was weird. In some ways, nothing had changedâyou still bickered, still teased, still rolled your eyes at each other every five minutes. But there was something different underneath it now, something you couldnât quite name. And you werenât sure you wanted to. Not yet.
â
The lecture hall was packed, the dull hum of students settling in filling the air as you pulled out your notes. Todayâs topic was something about fluid dynamicsânot that you were paying too much attention. Mostly because you were tired. And, maybe, because there was a certain someone sitting behind you. You donât know when or why it had startedâ maybe it was the fact that youâd, well, always been deprived of male attention (since you were hyper focused on academics instead. Those men wonât bring you scholarships, but your GPA will!), or the fact that you had seen him multiple times in the past weeks without feeling the urge to rip his head off, or maybe you actually were ovulating, you hadnât checked your cycle on your period tracking app yet but it was likelyâ
You had been doing your best to ignore it, to ignore him, but Gojo had a way of making his presence known. Even when he wasnât doing anything, you were now even more hyper aware of himâthe occasional shift of his chair, the absentminded tapping of his pen against the desk, the quiet sighs of boredom that you knew were dramatic. And then, just as you were finally starting to concentrate, you felt it. A presence leaning in behind you, the faintest brush of breath against your ear.
âSweets,â Gojo whispered, his voice low, teasing.
Your whole body went rigid. âWhat,â you hissed, barely moving your lips, keeping your eyes trained on the professor at the front of the room.
âThereâs a fatal flaw in this lecture,â he murmured, his voice laced with amusement. You refused to turn around. âGojo, I swearââ
âI mean, really,â he continued, like you hadnât spoken, âhow can they expect us to focus on physics when youâre sitting right in front of me?â Your grip on your pen tightened. Your face was definitely heating up. Slowly, finally, you turned your head just enough to glare at him. âAre you seriously flirting with me in the middle of a lecture on fluid dynamics?â
Gojo grinned, chin resting on his palm, looking utterly unrepentant. âIâm not flirting. Iâm just⊠yâknow⊠testing like behaviourism, or whatever.â
You inhaled sharply, willing yourself not to react. Noticing your silence, his smirk grew.
âOr,â he whispered, tilting his head, âis the idea of me flirting with you not so bad?â Your brain short-circuited for half a second. Then you turned back around, focusing very hard on your notes, pretending you hadnât heard him, pretending your heart wasnât doing something very annoying in your chest. Behind you, Gojo chuckled softly, and you could feel his smirk.
You hated him. You hated him. Nah, you didnât. You just⊠now mildly disliked him.
â
By the time the physics final rolled around, your life had been reduced to a frantic cycle of cramming formulas, flipping through notes, and barely surviving on caffeine. The psychology project with Gojo had taken up way more time than you expectedânot just because of the work itself, but because of him. His constant presence, his insufferable teasing, the way he somehow made long study sessions more bearable with his antics. It was irritatingly easy to fall into a rhythm with him, and by the time youâd turned in your joint paper, you were too mentally exhausted to even think about anything else. Which was probably why you forgot about book five. When you finally let yourself have a break, that you found it tucked away in your bag.
Hope anyone who ever reads this is reading this with a warm drink. Tea, in my opinion, is the best kind of beverage to drink while reading a book series like this.
Your breath caught in your throat.
Okay. That was⊠oddly specific.
A chillânot unpleasant, but strangeâcrept up your spine. It wasnât just the words themselves, but the fact that G.S. knew this about you. It was as if theyâd noticed your habit of your love of tea. But it was probably a coincidence. I mean, tea is enjoyed by millions of people in the world, right? You exhaled slowly, shaking the feeling off as you flipped a few more pages. The wittiness of the quips grew, and you eagerly read through each one with heightened interest. In about forty five minutes, you had managed to finish the fifth book with ease. Since you had some free time to spare, you started on the second last book.
The first note you came across was pure sarcasm, scrawled beside a particularly dramatic inner monologue from the protagonist.
Relax, youâre not in a soap opera.
And a few pages later: Actually, never mind, maybe you are.
You huffed a quiet laugh, rolling your eyes. The teasing was familiar, familiar enough to imbue a sense of relaxation in you. The annotations drew you in, the ink curling across the margins like whispered thoughts meant just for you. It was easy to imagine G.S. sitting beside you, their presence warm and familiar, flipping through the pages with quiet amusement. Someone who knew exactly which passages would make you pause, who understood the way certain lines lingered in your mind long after youâd read them.
Your fingers traced over the words they had left behind, and for a moment, you let yourself daydream. You imagined meeting themâG.S., whoever they were. The two of you sitting in some hidden corner of a library, books stacked high around you, the world outside fading away. Maybe their voice was soft, thoughtful, the kind that made you want to lean in a little closer. Maybe they smiled when you argued about a particular passage, when you pointed out something theyâd written in the margins.
Maybe they would look at you like you were something worth understanding.
The thought sent a strange warmth curling through your chest. It was silly, this little fantasy, but you let yourself indulge in it anyway. And that was when your brain betrayed you.
For a brief, horrifying moment, the faceless idea of G.S. wasnât faceless anymore. The image of Gojo flashed into your mind, unbidden and unwanted. But it wasnât just him reading beside you, wasnât just him scrawling out these notes with his long, annoyingly pretty fingers.
It was him kissing you.
Gojoâs lips brushing against yours, lazy and confident, like it was the most natural thing in the world. His hand sliding up your spine, the heat of him pressing against you, that teasing voice of his murmuring something you wouldnât quite catchâ
Your entire body froze.
No.
No, no, no.
You tried to shake it off, tried to focus on the book in front of you, but the words blurred together, unreadable. Your mind was stuck, caught on the vividness of the thought that had just invaded it.
Gojo.
Not just Gojo sitting across from you, running his mouth like he always did. Not just Gojo tossing a wadded-up paper at your head or poking at the end of your pen when you were trying to write. Noâyour brain had conjured up something else entirely. Gojo leaning in too close, his breath warm against your lips. The weight of his hand pressing into the small of your back, fingertips splayed across your lower back, your waist, your sides. The slow, unhurried way he would kiss youâbecause of course heâd be like that, because he was always so damn self-assured. Because he never did anything halfway.
And worseâworseâyou could almost hear him. That stupid teasing voice, low and amused, murmuring something between kisses, something only meant for you. Your fingers twitched, and you slammed the book shut.
No. Nope. Not happening.
Your pulse was erratic, your skin burning like youâd been caught doing something you shouldnât. You blinked rapidly, as if that alone could erase the thought from existence, but the sensation lingered, the imagined heat of him refusing to dissipate. It was just stress. Thatâs all it was. You were exhausted, overworked, and had spent way too much time in Gojoâs orbit lately. Of course your brain was short-circuiting. You exhaled sharply, forcing yourself to reopen the book. Back to reality. Back to G.S.Â
Back to anything that wasnât Gojo Satoru and the absurd, fleeting idea of what kissing him might feel like.
â
Gojoâs deep voice cut through your thoughts, pulling you back into the present as he tapped the end of his pen against the open physics textbook in front of you both.
âAnd thenâare you even listening to me?â You blinked, realizing youâd been zoning out. âYeahâyeah,â you mumbled, scrambling for something relevant to say. âProfessor Takeda can be an ass sometimes, even if heâs awesome at teaching.â Gojo grinned, apparently satisfied with your response, and continued yapping as he absentmindedly worked through some small equations on the paper in front of you both. His handwriting was quick and fluid, annoyingly neat for someone who acted like he never took anything seriously.
You didnât quite know how it had happened, but after the two of you had finally submitted the psychology project, something between you shifted. It wasnât spoken aloud, wasnât even acknowledged outright, but it was thereâan unspoken understanding. You still bickered, still argued over trivial things, but there was something else now too. A companionship. A quiet, reluctant camaraderie that neither of you had actively sought out but somehow settled into with surprising ease. And now, you were in the library with him, ironically revising for the upcoming physics final, less than a week away. You werenât sure when he had become your unofficial study partner, but here he was, scribbling down formulas as he complained about Takedaâs obsession with fluid dynamics.
âYouâre still struggling with Bernoulliâs principle?â you teased, shifting your chair slightly to get a better look at his notes.Â
âStruggling is a strong word,â he said, twirling his pen between his fingers. âI prefer âstrategically choosing to ignore it until I absolutely have to care.ââ
You scoffed, but before you could argue, your eyes landed on the book beside your bagâthe sixth book in the series youâd been slowly working through, the second-to-last one before the finale. You had completely forgotten about it. You were pretty sure you had hit the maximum borrowing period, and at this rate, you were lucky the library hadnât sent you an overdue notice.
âI need to go return this,â you muttered, grabbing the book and standing up.
Gojo glanced at it, tilting his head slightly. âThat again?â
You blinked at him. âWhat?â
âThat series,â he clarified, nodding towards the book in your hand. âYouâve been reading it forever. Whatâs the deal?â You hesitated for a moment, not really sure why you felt the sudden urge to explain, but then the words slipped out before you could stop them.
âI⊠I donât know. Itâs comforting, I guess,â you admitted. âItâs one of those series that just sticks with you, you know? And itâs not just the storyâitâs the annotations.â
Gojo raised an eyebrow. âAnnotations?â
You shifted your weight from one foot to the other. âYeah. Someone else read these books before me, and they wrote all these little notes in the margins. Some of them are funny, some are insightful, some are just straight-up teasingâbut they make the whole experience feel⊠shared, I guess.â For once, Gojo didnât say anything. He just listened, head tilted, watching you with an expression you couldnât quite decipher.
You coughed, suddenly feeling self-conscious. âAnyway, I should go return this.â You turned before he could say anything else and made your way to the libraryâs return sectionâonly to find the drop-off shelves completely blocked off with construction tape. A small sign informed students that book returns had to be made manually at the front desk. With a sigh, you made your way to the librarianâs desk. She smiled at you as you set the book down.
âReturning this?â she asked, flipping open the cover to check the borrowing card.
âYeah,â you said, nodding. She hummed, scanning the barcode. âYou know, someone else borrowed this whole series a while back.â
No way.
No way, no way, no way.
Is this how you were going to finally find out who the faceless stranger you had grown attached to was? Your heart skipped a beat. You forced yourself to keep your voice casual.Â
âOh? Can you recall who?âÂ
She paused, tapping her chin as if trying to recall. âGive me a moment dear. Heâs a maleâŠabout the same age as you, actually. Well I think he might be the same age as you. Hmm, he was tall, quite tall, had this head of brilliant white hair, and glasses. His eyes were startlingly blue too. I canât remember his name but you twoâd get along, he seemed very interested in these series too!â She chuckled, taking the book from you to store it under one of the accompanying shelves.
Your blood ran cold.
She continued, oblivious to your internal panic. âHad this little keychain on his bag too. It tinkled a lot when he came in to borrow the books.â Your mind flashed back to the small jingling sound of Gojoâs keychainâ a digimon one. The one that always made a tiny noise whenever he slung his bag over his shoulder. Oh my god.
Your grip tightened on the desk. âRight. Thanks.â
Somehow, miraculously, you managed to return the book without your hands shaking. But the moment you turned away, the weight of the realization slammed into you like a tidal wave. Your breath hitched, your vision tunneled slightly, and for a second, you werenât sure if your legs would carry you back to the table.
Gojo.
Gojo was G.S.
The knowledge settled in your bones with a dizzying clarity, making the library around you feel unreal, like you were wading through a dream you couldnât wake up from. The notes, the teasing comments, the underlined passagesâit had all been him. The same Gojo Satoru who drove you insane with his arrogance, who somehow wormed his way into your study sessions, who made physics revision bearable with his endless chatter. And he had never said a word about it. By the time you reached the table, your emotions were tangled beyond recognitionâembarrassment, frustration, something dangerously close to hurt. You dropped into your seat, a little too forcefully, the noise drawing his attention.
Gojo barely glanced up from his notes. âYou okay? You look like you just saw a ghost.â
You swallowed, pulse thrumming against your ribs. Your fingers curled into fists against your lap. You felt like you were standing on the edge of something sharp, something that could cut you open if you werenât careful.
âItâs you,â you said, your voice barely above a whisper.
He finally met your gaze, his pen stilling against the page. For a secondâjust a secondâthere was nothing but blankness in his expression, as if he truly didnât understand what you meant. But then, recognition flickered in those bright, unreadable eyes. And slowly, like he had been waiting for this exact moment, he grinned.
âTook you long enough.â
A sharp breath escaped you, like the wind had been knocked from your lungs. Something twisted in your chest. He knew. He had known. You exhaled shakily, trying to hold onto your composure, but your voice wavered when you spoke again. âYouââ You swallowed hard. âYou knew it was me reading those books, and you justââ
He didnât deny it. Didnât even try. You hated the way he was looking at you, like this was funny, like this was just some game he had been playing all along. Like he had been waiting for you to connect the dots, to put the pieces together while he sat back and watched. Something inside you cracked.
âYou were just messing with me.â The words came out quiet, but there was something raw beneath them, something unsteady. âThatâs what this was, right? Just another one of your games?â
For the first time, his smirk faltered.
âThatâs notââ
But you didnât let him finish.
You stood up too fast, your chair scraping loudly against the floor. A few heads turned, students shooting you mildly annoyed glances, but you couldnât bring yourself to care. You felt like the library was closing in around you, like you needed to get out before you drowned under the weight of it all.
âForget it,â you muttered, voice tight. You grabbed your bag, barely able to look at him. âIâll see you in class.â And before he could stop youâbefore he could say something that might make you stayâyou turned on your heel and walked out of the library. Your pulse roared in your ears, your face burned with humiliation, and your heartâGod, your heart was a tangled, aching mess you werenât ready to unravel yet.
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You didnât talk to Gojo for three days. Not once. Not in class, not in the library, not even in passing. If he was in a group conversation, you found an excuse to leave. If he tried to sit next to you, you conveniently needed to be somewhere else. And if you caught even a glimpse of him from across campus, you turned in the opposite direction before he could call your name. It wasnât out of pettiness. At least, you didnât think so.
You were hurt.
The weight of it had settled deep in your chest, a slow, heavy ache that didnât fade no matter how much you tried to distract yourself. You felt stupid, looking back at all those late nights spent tracing the loops of G.S.âs handwriting, at the way you had let yourself get caught up in the fantasy of someoneâsomeone you thought understood you. Someone who had felt just as deeply about those books as you had. And the whole time, it had been him.
Had he just been laughing at you? Watching you get wrapped up in his words, in him, while he sat back and waited for you to figure it out? Had it all just been some kind of joke? You didnât know what answer would hurt more. Gojo, however, wasnât making your avoidance easy.
He noticed, of course. The first day, he seemed ashamed. You saw it in the way he frowned when you brushed past him after class, in the way his gaze lingered when you sat on the opposite end of the library instead of your usual table.
The second day, he got annoyed.
âAre you serious right now?â he had muttered when you blatantly ignored him outside the lecture hall, your fingers tightening around your books as you sped up. By the third day, his frustration had given way to something elseâsomething quieter, something bordering on concern.
He caught your wrist as you passed him in the hallway that morning, his grip loose enough for you to pull away if you wanted.
âHey,â he murmured, his voice uncharacteristically soft. âAre weâ?â He hesitated. âDid Iâ?â
You looked at him then, really looked at him, and for the first time in years, you saw itâuncertainty.
Gojo Satoru was scared. But you werenât ready to talk. Not yet. So you shook him off and kept walking.
He let you go. For the rest of the day, you tried to pretend like it didnât feel like a mistake. That night, unable to sleep, you reached for the last book in the seriesâthe one you had borrowed before you found out. You had been meaning to return it. The thought of flipping through those pages again felt wrong after everything that had happened. But something about the weight of it in your hands made you pause. Before you could talk yourself out of it, you curled up in bed and opened to the first page.
And read.
At first, it was mechanical. You skimmed. Skipped paragraphs. Let your eyes pass over the words without really taking them in. But thenâsomewhere along the wayâyou found yourself slowing down. The story was familiar, but it felt different now. The annotations were there, just like before. The same small, thoughtful notes in the margins. The same underlined passages, the same occasional sarcastic remark scribbled beside overly dramatic monologues.
And it still felt intimate.
Your chest ached. Gojoâs handwriting had always been a little messy, but now, you could hear his voice in it. The playful quips, the teasing corrections, the occasional rambling thoughts that trailed off mid-sentence. He hadnât just read these books. He had shared them. With you. But it wasnât until you reached the end of the book that you froze.
A note, scrawled beneath a passage about missed chances. About how sometimes, you donât realise what someone means to you until itâs too late.
To whoever is reading this, I⊠really hope that this never applies to you.Â
And then, right underneath it, you spot a small sentence. Your eyes narrow as you lean in, catching the faint blue ink beneath the initials G.S., nearly lost beneath the hurried strike-through. Itâs messy, almost like he had written it in a rush, then panicked and scratched it out before anyone could see. The ink is slightly smudged, the letters not quite as crisp as they should be. But you can still read it.
Your breath catches. The frustration twisting in your chest falters, cracking under the weight of what youâre seeing. This wasnât just about G.S. This wasnât just about some stupid rivalry, some elaborate, long-running inside joke only he was in on. He had liked you.
All along.
The truth of it presses against your ribs, turning your anger into something elseâsomething hot and unbearable and aching. Because of course Gojo Satoru wouldnât have just let you take that book without noticing. Of course he wouldnât have just been some faceless mystery behind the initials. He had been right there, all this time. Watching. Waiting. Never saying a damn thing. You press your lips together, gripping the book tighter, torn between wanting to shove it in his stupidly smug face and the overwhelming realization that thisâthis whole thingâhad never been a game to him.
Not really. Your fingers tighten around the edge of the page, heart pounding. You should be mad. You are mad.
But now? Now you donât know what to do with the way your chest is clenching, your stomach twisting, the words replaying in your head over and over again. He really, really liked you. And he had been too much of an idiot to say it.
It wasnât just a game. It never had been. Your fingers curled around the edge of the page, heart hammering against your ribs. And in that moment, without a second thoughtâ
You didnât hesitate.
You barely registered slipping on your shoes, grabbing your jacket, heading across campus toward the dormitories. Your pulse roared in your ears as you climbed the stairs, the weight of the book heavy in your bag. You remembered the way heâd joked about it onceâhow it was almost too easy to find his dorm because the boysâ rooms were stacked directly above the girlsâ.
("Itâs like fate, babe," heâd drawled, slinging an arm over your shoulders. "Youâre literally sleeping right below me."
"Donât say it like that," youâd deadpanned, shoving him off.
Heâd only grinned, stuffing his hands into his pockets. "What? Itâs true. If you ever get lonely, just know Iâm right thereâ" he pointed up dramatically "âin room sixty-nine."
Youâd groaned at that. "Of course itâs sixty-nine."
"Oh, absolutely." His smirk had been positively insufferable. "The universe practically insisted on it.â)
And now, here you were. Standing in front of his stupid door, his stupid room number glaring at you, mocking you, reminding you of how easily he had wormed his way into your life. You knocked. There was a pause. Thenâfootsteps. The door cracked open, and Gojo blinked down at you, disheveled, his glasses slightly askew. He was in a hoodie and sweatpants, and for once, he looked genuinely caught off guard.
âWhat the hell are you doing here?â he whispered sharply. âWhat if the dean catches you? Itâs past curfew.â
You ignored him. âExplain.â
Gojo stared at you. Then, with a sigh, he opened the door wider and let you in. His dorm was surprisingly neat, save for a few open textbooks on his desk. He ran a hand through his hair, exhaling before leaning against the edge of his bed.
âYou want an explanation?â Gojo muttered, rubbing his temple as if trying to collect his thoughts. His voice was uncharacteristically hoarse, lacking its usual teasing lilt. He exhaled sharply, running a hand through his hair before meeting your gaze.
âFine.â
And thenâsomething shifted in his expression. That raw, unguarded look returned, cracking through the facade of the cocky, untouchable Gojo Satoru.
âI liked you this entire time.â
Your breath caught. His words were quiet, but they landed like a stone in your chest, sending ripples through every assumption you had made about the past few months. Noâlonger than that. Yes, you had gathered from that scribbled annotation that he had liked you, but hearing it was different from reading it. The weight of what he was saying pressed down on you, curling around your ribs, making it hard to breathe. He swallowed, his Adamâs apple bobbing. His gaze flickered away for a second, like he was considering taking it back, like he was still terrified of saying it out loud. But then, with a short breath, he pressed forward.
âIââ He licked his lips, shaking his head slightly. âWhen I overheard you talking about the books, about G.S., I thought⊠I donât know. At first, it was funny.â He let out a weak laugh, but there was no humor in it. âYou, of all people, getting caught up in my annotations.â
A pang of hurt flared in your chest at that, but Gojoâs face twisted almost immediately, like he regretted saying it that way.
âI donât mean it like that,â he murmured. âI just meanââ He sighed, dragging a hand down his face. âYou always had this way of looking at me, like you had me all figured out. Like you already knew what kind of person I was. And I guess⊠part of me thought it was funny that I got to be something different in your head for once.â
Your fingers curled at your sides. You werenât sure how to respond to that, but Gojo wasnât done. His fingers flexed at his sides, like he wasnât sure what to do with his hands. His eyes darted back to you, searching, waiting for you to interrupt, to tell him he was ridiculous. When you didnât, he exhaled sharply through his nose, like he was bracing himself.
âBut it wasnât just the books,â he admitted, voice quieter now. âIt wasnât just some joke to me.â His lips pressed together for a moment before he continued. âBecause the truth is, Iââ He hesitated, then finally met your eyes again, his own brimming with something raw and unguarded. âIâve liked you since freshman year.â
The air between you shifted. Your fingers curled at your sides as his confession settled in. You wanted to say somethingâanythingâbut all you could do was stare at him, pulse pounding in your ears.
He let out a breathy chuckle, rubbing the back of his neck. âYeah. Long time, huh?â His voice was softer now, tinged with something almost self-conscious. âIt sounds stupid when I say it out loud. But I did. I do.â
Your mouth felt dry. âSince freshman year?â
His lips twitched, like he wasnât sure if he should smile. âYeah.â
Your mind reeled. Freshman year. That meant before the rivalry, before the teasing had turned sharp, before you had convinced yourself that he was just some cocky, insufferable show-off who loved to push your buttons. Before you had started believing he only saw you as an opponent to one-up. Gojo sighed, dropping his head back slightly, staring at the ceiling for a moment before looking back at you. âYou remember that first day of class?â
You blinked. âWhere we had to introduce each other to the class?â
He nodded. âYou were wearing that stupid oversized sweater that practically swallowed you, and you kept tugging at the sleeves like you wanted to disappear. I justâ at first I thought you were just so cuteâ His lips quirked slightly at the memory. âAnd then you opened your mouth when we argued for the first time in classâ remember? When you answered that question on vector components and I poked fun at you or something, and when you responded back to me, you had this⊠fire in you. You wouldnât let me get a single word in edgewise, like you had something to prove.â
His expression softened, something unbearably fond flickering in his gaze. âAnd I just remember thinkingâshit.â
Your breath hitched.
âI wasnât supposed to like you,â he murmured, like it was a confession he had never meant to say out loud. âBut I did. And when we started arguing all the time, when it turned into this whole thing between us, I thoughtâfine. If I couldnât have you the way I wanted, then Iâd settle for getting under your skin.â He huffed a quiet laugh, shaking his head. âAnd trust me, I tried to stop thinking about it. About you. But I couldnât. And then you started borrowing those books, and it was likeââ He exhaled sharply, like he didnât even know how to put it into words. You swallowed hard, heart hammering.Â
All this time.
Every argument, every smug grin, every lingering glance across the roomâhe had liked you this entire time.
âBut then you kept reading them.â His voice had softened, like he was talking to himself now as much as to you. âYou kept flipping through those pages, talking about how much you liked G.Sâ and god, who am I to deny you when you speak like that? When you speak like that about my thoughts, my feelings, spilled onto the pages of those stupid books? And suddenly, I was waiting for you to borrow the next book. Waiting to see which parts youâd pause on, which annotations youâd react to. Waiting to hear what youâd say about G.S. So Iââ
He exhaled slowly, his fingers tightening around the fabric of his hoodie.
ââ I borrowed the remaining four books or so. I annotated every last one of them, annotated them so maybe, maybe Iâd get to hear that gorgeous voice of yours talking about it in class again. Iâd get to see that giddy smile when youâd refer to me as your Seiji Amasawa again. As your G.S. And honestly, it was worth the entirety of the long night I spent, just so Iâd see you fucking smile throughout the day and snap less at me because G.S. wrote something that made you think he was similar to youâ because in reality, with the way you viewed meâ entirely my fault by the wayâ it would never be possible.â He took a deep breath after saying that.
âAnd I realisedââ He paused, just for a second, like he needed to steady himself. âI liked it. I liked you. Not that I didnât already like you, butâ but I was falling. Like really deep.â
Something inside you twisted painfully. Your lips parted, but you couldnât force out a response. You had spent the past three days agonizing over the idea that he had been toying with you, that this had all been some elaborate joke, but thisâthis was different. This was Gojo Satoru, stripped of his usual bravado, laying his feelings bare in a way that felt like it might physically hurt him.
âThen why didnât you tell me?â you asked, your voice barely above a whisper.
Gojo let out a sharp, humorless laugh. He looked away, shaking his head as he rubbed the back of his neck. âBecause Iâm an idiot?â he said dryly. Then, quieter, âBecause Iâm Gojo Satoru, and I figured youâd never take me seriously?â
Your chest tightened at that.
Before you could process that, he spoke again.
âI know I was arrogant. I know I still am arrogant,â he muttered, his lips curling bitterly. âI push too hard. Iâm too much. I act like I know everything, and maybe I do most of the time, butââ He swallowed thickly. âThose annotations⊠they were the only time you ever saw me.â His voice had dropped lower now, almost vulnerable, and something about it made your pulse stutter.
âNot the dumbass you argue with in class. Not the rich kid with the perfect grades. Not the guy who has to prove heâs the smartest person in the room.â He let out a slow breath. âJust⊠me.âÂ
The silence between you stretched, thick and charged.
Gojoâs hands clenched at his sides, his knuckles going white. He looked like he was bracing for impact, like he had just thrown every last piece of himself at your feet and was waiting to see if youâd step on them. Your fingers trembled slightly as you reached for him.
Thenâ
You stepped forward. Gojo stilled the moment your fingers brushed against his hoodie, his breath catching in his throat. He stood up, towering over you, an unfamiliar glint in his cerulean eyes. You hesitated, your fingertips barely grazing the fabric before curling into it, fisting it lightly like you needed something solid to hold onto. His whole body went tense under your touch, his usual easy confidence absent now, replaced with something far more uncertainâfar more vulnerable.
âYou really are an idiot,â you whispered, your voice barely more than a breath against the space between you. His lips twitched, like he wanted to smirk, wanted to tease, wanted to be Gojoâbut he didnât. Instead, he just let out a shaky breath. âYeah?â
You swallowed hard, your fingers tightening against his hoodie. âYeah.âÂ
The word hung in the air between you, weighty and full of something neither of you had the strength to name. And thenâbefore you could second-guess yourself, before doubt could creep inâyou surged up onto your toes and kissed him. Gojo made a startled sound against your lips, his whole body going rigid for half a second, like he couldnât quite believe what was happening. But thenâslowly, desperatelyâhe melted into it. His hands found your face, cupping it with a tenderness that made your heart twist. His palms were warm, his grip firm, like he was terrified youâd slip away, like he needed you to know this wasnât a joke to him. That it had never been. He kissed you like a man making up for lost timeâdeep, searching, like he had been waiting for this moment far longer than even you had realized. When he tilted his head, his lips pressing more firmly against yours, you felt itâall of it.
Every unspoken word. Every missed chance. Every moment that had teetered on the edge of this but never quite fallen. His fingers slid into your hair, his thumb brushing softly against your cheek, like he was memorising the way you felt beneath him. Your heart was a wild, unsteady thing in your chest, thundering against your ribs as you pressed yourself closer, your hands sliding up from his hoodie to clutch at his shoulders. Gojo let out a quiet, almost desperate sigh against your lips, like he had been holding back for so long that finally getting to kiss you was unraveling him.
And maybe it was.
Because as much as you had spent the past few days convincing yourself that this had all been a game to him, thisâthe way he was holding you, the way his fingers trembled just slightly against your skinâtold a different story. Gojo Satoru didnât play games with things that mattered. And youâsomehow, impossiblyâmattered. When you pulled back, slightly breathless, Gojo just stared at you, like he couldnât quite believe you were real.
Then, slowly, he grinned. âSo,â he murmured, his thumb tracing your cheek. âDoes this mean Iâm forgiven?â
You rolled your eyes, but you didnât step away. âDonât push it.â Gojo laughed, bright and real, before pulling you back into his arms.
âGod, do you know how beautiful you fuckinâ are? It drives me insane,â he mutters, his voice low and rough, sending a shiver down your spine. His breath is warm against your lips before he swoops down, capturing your mouth with his own again, his large hands grounding themselves against your waist as if heâs afraid you might slip away.
You giggle against his lips, trying to push him off, but he refuses to budge. âS-Satoruâwait!â Your protest is muffled, barely audible between the kisses he keeps stealing, his lips soft but insistent against yours.Â
He lets out a quiet, needy sound, almost a whimper, his grip tightening on your hips. âShut up,â he murmurs breathlessly, squeezing lightly at your waist as if that alone will silence you. âBeen waiting to kiss this pretty mouth for sooo fuckinâ long⊠Let me get my fill, yeah?â You barely have time to respond before his tongue swipes across the seam of your lips, coaxing them open. The second you allow him in, he kisses you deeplyâdesperatelyâhis tongue sliding against yours, tasting, claiming. The soft little noises you make against him seem to spur him on, his fingers pressing firmly into your sides as he tugs you even closer. His legs bump against the edge of the bed, steadying you between his parted thighs, and the world around you fades, leaving only the two of you tangled up in each other.
A surprised squeak leaves your lips when his thumbs slip just beneath your shirt, brushing against your bare skin. His hands are cold, the contrast against your warmth sending a jolt of electricity through you. He laughsâa quiet, smug chuckleâand then the bastard has the audacity to bite your bottom lip in amusement. âShh,â he teases, lips brushing against yours. âDonât wanna get caught sneakinâ into my dorm after hours, do you?â
Before you can even process a response, his hands move to the backs of your thighs, gripping firmly as he lifts you off the ground with ease. A gasp leaves your lips, legs instinctively wrapping around his waist as he manoeuvres you to the bed. He turns smoothly, lowering you down onto the mattress before climbing over you, his movements slow, deliberate, eager. And this time, you donât hesitate. Your hands fist the front of his hoodie, yanking him down in a clumsy rush to kiss him again, your breath mingling with his as your noses bump. His glasses shift slightly from the movement, and with an annoyed huff, he pulls them off, setting them aside carefully before his gaze returns to youâhungry. His mouth is back on yours in an instant, moving with a mixture of urgency and something softer, something deeper. His lips trail from yours to your jaw, to the delicate skin of your neck, to the dip of your collarboneâhis hands following the path his lips leave behind, fingers toying with the fabric of your open jacket. He pushes it off your shoulders tentatively, almost testing, waiting for you to stop him.
You donât.
A pleased hum vibrates against your throat as his confidence grows, his hands sliding over your arms, your waist, memorizing the shape of you beneath him. Your arms wrap around his neck, tugging him impossibly closer, like you could mold yourself against him if you just tried hard enough. The kiss is more than just the heat of the moment. Itâs more than just the weeksâmonthsâof built-up tension. Itâs the culmination of years of frustration, of stolen glances, of biting words laced with something deeper neither of you had wanted to acknowledge until now.
And maybe, maybe, itâs also the weight of finally realisingâfully understandingâthat the only person who had ever been able to keep up with you, to challenge you, to drive you absolutely insane, yet make you feel like this⊠was him. Satoru groans against your skin, nipping at your neck as his hands slip beneath your shirt, his fingers splaying across your waist. But even in the heat of the moment, heâs calculated. His lips map out a path of possessive little marks just below your collarboneâplaces that can be covered easily. Even now, heâs thinking things through. Your breath hitches when his fingertips skim the skin of your hips again, this time firmer, testing. Your cheeks burn, and the words slip out before you can stop them.
âYou canâyou can take it off.âÂ
Satoru goes very, very still. You swear you can feel the exact moment he processes what youâve just said, the exact moment he realizes that you mean it. His hands tighten slightly against you, his breath coming out a little shakier than before. And for once, for onceâhe doesnât have some cocky remark ready to go. Because this? This is real. And for the first time, Gojo Satoru doesnât want to ruin it with a joke. He gently tugs your shirt up and over your head, eyes eyeing the new expanse of skin that has just been made available to him.
âMy gorgeous girlâŠâ
He whispers out, before heâs back to lavishing your skin with attention, paying close attention to your breasts, lips lovingly, reverently moving across your skin with gentleness you hadnât thought possible by him. You donât know what possesses you, but something suddenly clicks and shyly, you unclasp your bra, leaving your entire upper half bare, making Satoruâs breath hitch. And then, in a moment that takes you completely by surprise, he does something that makes your heart both melt and swellâif that was even possible.
Because instead of his usual teasing, instead of his cocky grin or some flirtatious remark that would make you roll your eyes, Satoru simply looks at you. Really looks at you. His intense blue eyes donât dart downward like you half-expected, donât darken with some unchecked hunger. Instead, they stay locked onto yours, unwavering, all traces of playfulness and impulsive need fading away. What replaces them is something quieterâsomething gentler. A tenderness that makes your breath catch, your chest tighten.Â
Satoru, who always had a joke ready. Satoru, who always teased and never took anything too seriously. Satoru, who could have had anyone but had spent years bothering you insteadâstaring at you now like you were something fragile, something precious, something he wasnât sure he deserved to touch. His throat bobs as he swallows, and then, carefully, softly, he speaks.
âAre you sure you wanna⊠do this?â His voice is quieter now, laced with something that sounds an awful lot like uncertainty. Like heâs terrified of ruining whatever this is. âIâm notâpressuring you or anything, am I?â His fingers twitch slightly at his sides before he hesitantly lifts a hand, reaching out toward youânot to pull you in, not to take what youâve offered, but to tuck a few strands of your hair away from your face. His touch is featherlight, barely there, but it sends warmth spreading across your skin.
âI justââ He exhales, gaze flickering between your eyes, searching, as if trying to read your thoughts. âI donât want you to feel like you have to. If me kissing you made you think you needed to⊠yâknow, do anything moreâthen Iâm sorry.â The words leave his lips like a confession, like the idea of you feeling obligated to be with him hurts him. And thatâthat simple factâmakes something inside you ache. Because Gojo Satoru, for all his arrogance, for all his relentless teasing and larger-than-life presence, was standing before you now with uncertainty in his eyes. Not because he didnât want thisâGod, did he want thisâbut because he needed to be sure that you did too. For a moment, you just stare at him, your heart pounding so hard you can feel it in your fingertips.
Because this isnât how you thought this moment would go. Not with himânot with Gojo Satoru. You had braced yourself for teasing, for him to say something infuriatingly smug, to grin like he had won some long-fought battle. But instead, he was looking at you with quiet hesitation, with care. With something that felt like love. Your throat tightens.
âSatoru.â His nameâ his first name, not Gojoâ leaves your lips in a breath, barely above a whisper. His handsâso sure and confident only moments agoâremain frozen where they rest against your sides, like heâs afraid that if he moves, youâll change your mind.
âI want this,â you say, and you make sure there is no room for doubt in your voice. Your fingers curl around the fabric of his hoodie, grounding yourself in the feel of him. âIâm not saying it just because you kissed me, or because I think I have to. I want this.â His lips part slightly, but no words come out. His grip on you tightens just a fraction, like heâs trying to make sure youâre real.
You take a breath, steadying yourself, because you need him to understandâreally understand.Â
âIâve wanted this for longer than I want to admit,â you confess, a nervous laugh bubbling up in your throat. Your fingers flex where they rest against his chest, feeling the steady thud-thud-thud of his heart beneath your palm. Heâs warm, impossibly so, like heâs radiating heat just for you. âAnd it scares me, Satoru. You scare me.â His brows furrow, the corners of his mouth dipping slightly downward. âScare you?â
You nod. âBecause you make me feel things I donât know how to deal with. You drive me crazy. You make me want to strangle you half the time, and the other half Iââ Your voice catches, and you swallow thickly before continuing. âI want to be near you. I want you to look at me the way youâre looking at me right now.â His hands slowly slide up your sides, not rushing, not pushingâjust holding. His thumbs brush against your ribs, barely ghosting under the underside of your chest, but even that light touch sends a shiver up your spine.
âYou have to know this isnât just some impulsive decision for me,â you tell him, voice softer now, filled with something you canât quite name. âI donât do things just because theyâre convenient, or easy, or expected. I do them because I choose to.â You reach up, cupping his face between your hands, feeling the warmth of his skin beneath your palms. His breath stutters when you stroke your thumb over his cheekbone, and for the first time since youâve known him, he looks completely lost. âIâm choosing you,â you whisper, staring straight into those brilliant blue eyes. âNot because you kissed me. Not because of some annotations in a book. But because I want you, Satoru. I want this.â
A shaky exhale leaves his lips, and for a second, you swear he stops breathing altogether. His grip on you tightens just enough for you to feel it, his fingers pressing into your waist like heâs holding himself back. Then, slowly, so slowly, he leans in, forehead resting against yours. His breath is warm against your lips when he speaks.
âYou canât take that back now, yâknow,â he murmurs, his voice low and almost reverent.
âI wouldnât dream of it.â
In a flurry of kissing and movement, his hands roamed over your breasts, fingers pressing and kneading with a slow, deliberate touch that sent shivers down your spine. Every brush of his palm left a burning trail in its wake, making you arch into him, craving moreâneeding more. His lips never left yours for long, only breaking away to breathe, to murmur your name against your mouth like a prayer, before diving back in, desperate to claim every inch of you. Your own hands found their way under his hoodie, fingertips exploring the firm ridges and planes of muscle beneath. He was all taut sinew and warmth, his body solid beneath your touch, the faintest tremble betraying just how much he wanted this too. Heat pooled in your lower belly, a slow and delicious ache, as you pressed your palms flat against his stomach, feeling the way his muscles flexed under your touch.
And then you felt itâthe thin trail of hair below his navel, soft against your fingers, leading downward. Your breath hitched at the realisation, a flush creeping up your face as your hands lingered there, tracing along his happy trail. The sensation made him shudder, his breath stuttering for just a moment before he let out a low, breathy chuckle. âYouâre teasing,â he murmured against your lips, his voice rougher now, his grip tightening slightly where he held you.
You shook your head, though your fingers betrayed you, still trailing feather-light touches just above the waistband of his sweats. âJust exploring,â you whispered, emboldened by the way he reacted to your touch, the way his muscles tensed as if he was barely holding himself back. His entire body felt heavier now, weighted with desire as he sucked in a slow breath. His fingers twitched against your sides, like he was restraining himself, before he finally gave in.
With one fluid motion, he pulled his hoodie over his head and tossed it aside, leaving his torso bare. The sight of him knocked the air from your lungs. He was beautifulâlean but strong, his chest rising and falling with uneven breaths, skin warm and golden in the dim light. The definition of his abs trailed down to his happy trail, disappearing beneath the waistband of his sweats. There was something intoxicating about seeing him like this, vulnerable yet utterly self-assured, the usual cocky glint in his eyes replaced with something softer, something just for you. You traced your fingers lightly over his stomach, watching the way his muscles tensed beneath your touch. His breath came a little heavier, his hands gripping your waist like he was holding onto the last thread of his restraint.
"You're staring," he teased, though his voice was lower now, rough around the edges.
"Maybe," you admitted, dragging your fingertips just a little lower, reveling in the way his breath hitched. His lips curled into a smirk, but there was a heat in his gaze now, something dark and wanting. âCareful,â he murmured, voice barely above a whisper. âI might start thinking you like what you see.â
Your pulse thrummed wildly, heat licking at your skin as you met his eyes.
âI do.â
He gave you a full-blown grin, the kind that made his eyes crinkle at the corners, his canines glinting in the dim light of his dorm room. It was a look you had seen a hundred times beforeâmischievous, teasing, effortlessly confidentâbut now, there was something else underneath it. Something softer. Something real. His hands, warm and slightly rough, hesitated at the waistband of your sweats, fingers grazing the fabric as if waiting for permission. His touch sent a shiver down your spine, anticipation coiling tight in your stomach. But despite the heat in his gaze, despite the way his breath was uneven and his chest rose and fell just a little too fast, he didnât move forward. Not yet.
âAre you sure?â His voice was lower now, quieter, cutting through the thick silence that had settled between you. His usual bravado was nowhere to be seenâno teasing remark, no cocky smirk. Just Satoru, looking at you like you were something delicate, something he wasnât sure he was allowed to have. Like he was terrified of doing something wrong, of ruining this moment before it could fully begin. You could feel his hesitation in the way his fingers flexed against your waist, could hear it in the way his voice wavered just slightly, as if he was bracing himself for you to change your mind.
It made your heart ache. You reached up, cupping his face gently, your thumb brushing over his cheek. His skin was warm under your touch, and he leaned into it instinctively, like he couldnât help himself. His breath hitched, just slightly, and you saw the way his lips parted, the way his lashes fluttered when your fingers traced along his jaw.
âSatoru,â you murmured, voice steady despite the way your heart was hammering against your ribs. His eyes flickered to yoursâdeep, cerulean, searching.
âIâm sure,â you whispered. âI want this. I want you.â For a moment, he didnât move, like he was letting the words settle, like he needed to make sure he heard you right. And thenâ
He exhaled, something tight and heavy leaving his chest, and his hands finally gripped your waist properly, fingers digging in just a little, grounding himself in the reality of the moment.
âGod,â he muttered, his forehead pressing against yours, his voice almost shaky. âYou have no idea how much I fucking love hearing you say that.â
He gently coaxed you out of your sweatpants, hand finding itself atop your underwear, breath hitching at the dampness that was present. Seems like this fueled his ego a little bit too much, because the next thing you knew, the Satoru you knew was back.
âDang youâre wet as fuck.â
You gave him a pointed look and he faltered, the smirk on his lips morphing into a grin as he ushered out apologies. Your hands clutched the sheets when his fingers began to gently touch you, your bottom lip caught between your teeth as you eyed his hand with need. You couldnât stay mad with him for long the way his fingers tugged the flimsy material down and began to work his hand between your legs. He grinned, experimentally probing around, ocean eyes half lidded.
âThis is where youâre weak, right?â He murmured sensually, fingers finding your sensitive nub, eyes flickering up to watch your reactions, his pretty pink lips parted open in pleasure as he watched you come apart under him. He was precise with his fingers, circling you, teasing, pinching and rubbing, before thrusting in all the right spots, reaching places your own hand was unable to take you. Before long you had to let out muffled whimpers into his big palm that he had slapped gently across your lips; it covered almost the entirety of the lower half of your faceâ you were a bit loud.Â
Unable to take it anymore, you finally reached your breaking point, squirming underneath him as you came all over his fingers. Your chest was heaving, rising and falling in rapid succession, your breath coming in short, uneven pants as the aftershocks of pleasure rippled through you. Every nerve in your body felt like it had been set alight, over sensitised and trembling in the lingering warmth of his touch. Your skin was flushed, heat radiating from every inch of you, and the room felt impossibly small, like it was holding the weight of everything that had just passed between you.Â
Hungry for more, you made quick work of his sweats, sliding them and his boxers down (pokemon boxers but you were too needy to make fun of him for it). Satoru loomed above you, shakily guiding himself to your entrance, pale lashes fluttering as he looked down at you. He was hardâ had been hard the moment you two had started kissing, pressing up against you in a needy manner.
âSuâSure you can take it? Donât need a break?â He breathed out, referring to the fact that you had practically jumped at the opportunity to take things further right after having an earth shattering orgasm thanks to his lanky fingers.
âSo fucking sureâ please, Satoru.â You flutter your eyelashes up at him, and he swears he almost comes from the sight. He nods, leaning down to kiss your lips gently, all the while he ushers himself inside you slowly.Â
Now you knew he had meant you not being able to take it because you might have been tired after your first orgasm, but now it felt more like he was warning you, because he was long, pressing inside of you deliciously. Once he had buried himself to the hilt, he halted in his tracks, giving you time to adjust. His face was screwed in pleasure, likely trying not to give in the urge to move. After a few minutes, when you deemed the feeling of him inside you as highly pleasurable and not the slight uncomfortableness that you initially felt while being split open in two, you murmured out a small âIâm ready,â and that was all it took for Satoru to start moving.
He kept up a slow, steady yet deep pace, his muscular form looming over yours, and for a moment, all you could do was look at him. The dim light of his dorm cast shadows along the sharp lines of his body, emphasizing the taut muscles in his arms, the sculpted contours of his chest, and the way his abdomen flexed with each controlled movement. His skin was flushed, a faint sheen of sweat glistening over his toned physique, catching the light in a way that made your breath hitch. His broad shoulders framed his lean build perfectly, his biceps taut as he braced himself above you, his fingers curling into the sheets as though restraining himself from losing control entirely.
And then there was his face. Messy white hair fell into his eyes, strands sticking to his damp forehead, and his lipsâGod, his lipsâwere parted, slightly swollen from kissing you breathless. His sharp jaw clenched subtly, his throat bobbing with a swallow, and when his gaze flickered down to meet yours, you felt like all the air had been sucked from the room.
His usual cocky grin was nowhere to be found. Instead, his expression was intenseâraw, focused entirely on you, like nothing else in the world mattered. His impossibly blue eyes, darkened with something deep and consuming, dragged over your face, your body, drinking you in like you were something precious, something his. âSatoruââ you breathed, voice barely more than a whisper, but it was enough to make him groan, his grip on your waist tightening as he dipped down, pressing his forehead against yours.
âFuck,â he muttered, voice rough, strained. âYou have no idea how good you look right now. How good you feel right now.â He moved his hands from your waist, his fingers trailing over your skin as he shifted, bracing his forearms on either side of your head. The new position brought him even closer, his body pressing against yours, heat radiating between you as he continued to move within you. His breath was heavy, mingling with yours, and for a moment, it was all-consumingâthe feeling of him, the weight of him, the slow, deep rhythm that sent shivers down your spine. When you had imagined being with Satoru like this, youâd thought it would be⊠different. You had expected teasing, cockiness, maybe even some ridiculous commentary, because that was just who he was. You thought heâd smirk down at you with that usual self-assured gleam in his eyes, crack some joke between kisses, whisper something infuriating just to make you blush. You had even braced yourself for the possibility of him being downright kinky, because he was Gojo Satoru, and he loved pushing limits.
But this? This was something else entirely.
This wasnât just cocky flirtation or the result of years of pent-up rivalry and tensionâthis was intimate. It was raw, real, and so incredibly him, stripped of bravado and playfulness, leaving behind only the man in front of you. The one who had been waiting, wanting. The one who had loved you quietly, even when you didnât know. His movements were deliberate, his touch reverent, his normally mischievous eyes dark with something softerâsomething deeper. When he leaned down, his lips ghosting over your cheek before pressing to the corner of your mouth, it wasnât just a kissâit was a silent confession. A plea. A promise. His fingers threaded through your hair, brushing over your temple, before trailing down to cup your jaw with aching gentleness. âYou okay?â he murmured, voice hushed, almost breathless. You swallowed, overwhelmed by the warmth in his voice, the concern laced into every syllable, and you nodded, reaching up to lace your fingers through the soft strands of his hair. âYeah,â you whispered. âI just⊠I didnât expect this.â
A small, knowing smile tugged at the corner of his lips. He tilted his head slightly, pressing another lingering kiss just beneath your jaw, his breath warm against your skin. âDidnât expect what?â
âFor it to feel like this,â you admitted, voice barely above a whisper. âFor you to be like this.â
Satoru stilled for half a second before exhaling softly, lowering himself further so his chest was flush against yours. His nose brushed against yours, lips hovering just out of reach, and when he spoke, his voice was almost fragile. âI donât think you realise how long Iâve wanted you,â he murmured. âIt was never just some passing thing, yâknow? It was always you.â Your chest tightened, your fingers gripping his hair just a little harder as his words settled deep within you. The air between you felt electric, charged, as if the weight of every unspoken feeling had finally caught up with you both. He kissed you againâslow, deep, purposefulâand you melted into him, your hands roaming over his bare back, nails lightly dragging along his spine. He let out a shaky breath, his forehead pressing against yours as he moved, his body fitting against yours so perfectly that it made your heart ache. There was no rush, no urgencyâonly the quiet, lingering touches, the shared breaths, the whispered words against flushed skin. It wasnât just about desire or need anymore. It was about something much more.
And before long, you were coming again, whispered cries of his name leaving your mouth as you tightened around himâ and if he had indulged in the feeling a second longer, he would have finished inside. He splattered on your stomach, hissing at the feeling, pale eyes fluttering shut. After a few seconds of basking in the afterglow, he quickly went into his bathroom, grabbing a warm washcloth to wipe your stomach down. Your breath came in quick, unsteady gasps, each inhale failing to steady the trembling in your limbs. A slow burn lingered beneath your skin, every nerve alight with the remnants of his touch. The air felt thick, pressing in around you, charged with everything that had just transpired. Heat clung to you, pooling in the spaces where his hands had been, leaving you adrift in the aftermath.
Your fingers curled into the sheets beneath you, gripping them like an anchor, like you needed something to steady yourself against the dizzying sensation still coursing through your veins. A shuddering breath escaped your lips, and you swore you could still feel the phantom imprint of his hands on your skin, the way they had mapped out every inch of you with a reverence that made your chest ache. Satoru was watching you.
You could feel his gazeâheavy, intense, something unreadable flickering behind those endless blue eyes. His hands hadnât left your body entirely, his fingertips still resting against your hips, warm and grounding. There was something in his expression that made your breath catchâa mixture of awe and something softer, something tender. Like he couldnât quite believe what had just happened, like he was committing every second of this moment to memory. He swallowed, his own breathing uneven, before he leaned down, pressing a kiss to your shoulderâslow, lingering, like he just needed to feel you. His lips brushed over your skin again, trailing up toward your jaw, soft and unhurried, as if he had all the time in the world.
â
ââThe room was bathed in the dim glow of his bedside lamp, casting long shadows across tangled sheets and discarded clothes. Your body still hummed from the aftermath, warmth pooling in your limbs as you lay half-draped over Satoru, your cheek pressed against his bare chest. His heartbeat was steady beneath your ear, grounding you in a way you hadnât expected. For a while, neither of you spoke. His fingers idly traced shapes along your spine, the touch featherlight and absentminded, while his other hand rested lazily on your hip, holding you close. You could still feel the heat radiating from his skin, the aftershocks of everything you had just done settling between you in the form of comfortable silence.
It was intimate, more than anything. More than the way he had touched you, more than the way he had moved inside youâthis moment, the stillness, the way he exhaled softly like he was content, was what made your chest tighten.
Then, of course, he ruined it.
âSo,â he drawled, breaking the peaceful quiet. âWould it be weird if I rated that experience a solid twelve out of ten?â You groaned, weakly smacking his chest, but he only laughed, the vibrations rumbling beneath your palm. âOh my God, Satoruââ
âI mean, I am the strongest,â he continued, completely undeterred, stretching one arm lazily above his head. âSo it makes sense that Iâd be great in every department.â
âYou have got to be kidding me.âÂ
He grinned, tilting his head to peer down at you. His hair was a mess, white strands sticking out in different directions, and his lips were still kiss-bitten, smugness radiating off of him in waves. âOh, donât worry, sweets, Iâd never joke about my performance in bedââ
You smacked him again, this time harder, and he let out a dramatic oof, clutching his chest like youâd wounded him.
âYou were being so sweet just a second ago,â you muttered, pouting as you nestled closer against him. âWhy do you have to ruin it?â Satoru chuckled, his arms wrapping securely around you as he pulled the blanket over both of you. âCâmon, you wouldnât want me any other way.â
You sighed, exasperated, but deep down, you knew he was right. He shifted slightly, rolling onto his side so he could face you properly, one long leg tangling with yours. His hand came up to brush a stray strand of hair from your face, his touch softer than you expected after all his teasing.
ââŠWas it really okay?â he asked, voice quieter this time. Almost hesitant. Your heart ached at the sincerity laced in his words, the way he was still Satoru, even after everything. Still checking in. Still making sure. You smiled, cupping his face in your hands as you pressed a chaste kiss to his lips. âIt was perfect.â
A slow, almost shy smile spread across his face, and for a moment, the cockiness was gone, replaced by something softer. Something real.
Then, of courseâ
âPerfect, huh? So you are saying Iâm the best youâve ever hadââ
âGOJO SATORU, I SWEAR TOââ
His laughter rang out through the dorm, loud and unfiltered, and despite yourself, you couldnât help but laugh too, the warmth of it curling around your heart. The warmth of his body, the steady rhythm of his breathing, the lazy way his fingers traced along your spineâit was all lulling you into the kind of peace you hadnât felt in a long time. The teasing had settled into something softer, something quieter, and as sleep tugged at the edges of your consciousness, you thought that maybe, just maybe, you could stay like this forever. Satoru shifted beneath you, his hand sliding from your hip to your waist, pulling you just a little closer. His lips brushed your temple, his breath warm as he murmured, âHey.â
You hummed in response, not quite opening your eyes. His fingers tapped against your skin, hesitant. âBe my girlfriend.â
That woke you up. Your eyes fluttered open, your head lifting slightly to look at him. âHuh?â
He huffed out a soft laugh, like he couldnât believe he had actually said it. The Satoru everyone else knew was loud, arrogant, untouchable. But right now, he was just a boy with messy white hair and sleep-heavy eyes, holding you close like he was afraid you might slip away.
âI mean,â he continued, clearing his throat, âweâre already doing all this. And I like you. A lot. SoâŠâ He exhaled sharply, his thumb brushing over your waist. âBe my girlfriend.â Your heart clenched at the quiet sincerity in his voice, at the way he was looking at you like you were the only thing that mattered. It wasnât a joke. It wasnât just another one of his playful remarks. This was real. A slow smile spread across your lips. âWow. That was kind of romantic.â
He groaned, tipping his head back against the pillow. âDonât make this harder than it needs to be, sweets.â You giggled, shifting to prop yourself up on one elbow, fingers threading through his hair. âYou really like me?â
He turned his head back toward you, his eyesâthose striking, endless bluesâsoft in the dim light. âYeah,â he said simply. âI really do.â Your chest felt too full, your heart racing faster than it should have been after everything youâd already done tonight. But it wasnât nerves or fearâit was excitement, warmth, the dizzying rush of knowing Satoru Gojo, of all people, wanted you in a way that wasnât fleeting.
âOkay,â you whispered, leaning down to press a kiss to the corner of his mouth. âIâll be your girlfriend.â He grinned instantly, arms wrapping around you as he rolled you onto your back, settling half on top of you with a triumphant look. âTook you long enough to say yes,â he teased, but the relief in his voice gave him away.
You laughed, shaking your head. âI hate you.â
âLiar,â he murmured, kissing you again, slow and deep, like he was trying to seal the moment in time. And maybe he was. Maybe you both were.
â
Getting into a relationship with Gojo Satoru was like being swept into a whirlwindâone that was loud, chaotic, and entirely consuming. Everyone around you had the same reaction when they found out: About time.Â
Shoko had rolled her eyes, exhaling smoke from her cigarette as she smirked. âHonestly, I thought you guys were already dating. Youâre both just that disgusting.â Nanami had simply given Gojo a long, knowing look before shaking his head, muttering something under his breath about finally. Even Getoâbefore everythingâhad grinned, clapping Satoru on the back and saying, âI was starting to think youâd never get your head out of your ass.â
Satoru, naturally, took it all in stride, tossing an arm around your shoulders and grinning like heâd won the lottery. âWhat can I say? She couldnât resist me forever.âÂ
Your life since then had been⊠a lot. In the best way possible. Because being with Satoru meant being at the center of his world, whether you liked it or not. And he was obsessed with you. Absolutely obsessed. It was the way he always had to be touching youâhis hand warm on the small of your back, his fingers playing with yours, his arm slung around your shoulders. It was how he looked at you, like you were the most fascinating thing in existence, eyes always following you, filled with nothing but admiration. It was the teasingââI get it, babe. Iâm super hot, but please let me study for five seconds without you getting distracted by me.â
It was the sweetnessâbringing you your favorite snacks when you were stressed, pressing kisses to your temple when he thought you werenât looking. Intertwining his large hand with yours and placing it in his coat pocket And, well, it was also the other thingsâ
âSatoru, we have a lecture in twenty minutesââ
âPlenty of time, sweetheart. What, you donât want to study with me?â
âThis isnât studying. Youâve been making out with me for the past ten minutes. And you really do need to stop. What if someone catches you in my dorm?â
âCâmon, I canât resist youââ
âSure you can, âToru.â
âBut you love me.â
You did. God, you did. And he loved you. He never let you forget it. Youâd studied together for your physics final, working hard side by side. Even though Satoru acted like everything came easy to him, he did work for it. And so did you. You spent countless nights pouring over equations, bouncing theories off each other, fighting over who got to use the good highlighters.
And when results day cameâ
âOh my God,â you whispered, staring at your score.
100%. Your hands trembled slightly as you clutched the paper, the weight of all those late-night study sessions, the stress, the endless debates with Satoru over formulas and theoriesâeverything culminating in this moment. Pure, unfiltered pride swelled in your chest. Before you could fully process it, a loud whoop filled the air.
âYES! I knew it!â
Suddenly, you were lifted off your feet, spinning in a dizzying circle as Satoruâs wild laughter bubbled over. His strong arms wrapped around you, keeping you pressed to him as he twirled you around the hallway like an overexcited kid.Â
âMy babyâs the smartest person in the world!â he crowed, not caring about the amused stares from your classmates. âGeniuses bow to you! The world kneels before you! Einstein weeps in his graveââ
You were laughing breathlessly by the time he finally set you down, his hands still firm on your waist as he grinned down at you. Your heart swelled at his excitement. âYou did well too, right?â
âPfft, of course.â He flipped his own paper up dramatically, flashing his score.
99%.
âI mean,â he sighed, shaking his head with mock sorrow, âyou totally obliterated me, absolutely wrecked my pride, but itâs fine. Matter of fact, I think it was the fact I didnât revise Bernoulliâs principle enough that resulted in me getting only 99%-â
In another world where he wasnât your boyfriend, you would've smirked and gloated about beating him, and he wouldâve snapped back with something equally smug. But instead, all you felt was prideâpure, unrestrained pride for him. You threw your arms around his neck, pulling him into a tight hug. âIâm so proud of you.â Satoru melted into you, his arms encircling your waist as he hummed into your shoulder. âMmm, say it again. I like hearing that.â You chuckled, pulling back slightlyâjust enough to see the sheepish grin creeping onto his face.
âActuallyâŠâ he started, rubbing the back of his neck, his eyes glinting with something suspicious. You frowned. âWhat?â He exhaled dramatically. âYouâre probably gonna kill me when you hear this.â Your eyes narrowed. âSatoru.â
âOkay, okayââ He raised his hands in surrender, before leaning in like he was telling you a juicy secret. âTechnically, I got a 99 on the midterm.â You blinked. ââŠWhat?â He grinned. That smug, trouble-making, up-to-no-good grin. âBuuuut you looked so beautiful when you were all happy about your score, so I lied and said I got 95 last minute.â
Your mouth dropped open. âYouâWHAT?!âÂ
Gojo Satoruâthe cockiest, most competitive man you knew, the one who never let anyone forget how brilliant he wasâhad lied about an exam score for you? He burst out laughing at your expression, reaching out to ruffle your hair. âDonât go feeling all bad about it, sweets. This final weighed more than the midterm, so technicallyââ he booped your nose, ââyouâre better than me.â
You were still reeling, warmth spreading through you as you realised he had lied to see you happy. âYou changed your answer for meââ
âYeah, yeah.â He waved off your shock, smirking. âIâm the best boyfriend in the world. You can say it out loud, babe.â You rolled your eyes, exasperated, before tugging him down into a kiss.
He instantly responded, his grip on your waist tightening, his lips warm and eager against yours. The teasing faded for just a second, replaced by something softerâsomething real. When you finally pulled back, he looked way too smug.
ââŠStill smarter than you, though,â you teased, just to knock him down a peg. Satoru gasped, clutching his chest dramatically. âOh, you absolutely crushed my heart and then ate itââ
Before you could react, he suddenly straightened, towering over you with a wicked glint in his eye. His large hands slid around your waist, ushering you closer until your bodies were flush against each other. His voice dropped, suddenly deep and velvety, amusement laced with something more sensual. âGuess youâll just have to make it up to me in bed, huh?â
You groaned, immediately shoving at his chest. âYouâre the worst.â
âYour worst.â He waggled his eyebrows, entirely unashamed. You shoved his face away, laughing as he grinned, easily catching one of your wrists in his hand. Instead of saying anything else, he simply lifted your hand to his lips and pressed a lingering kiss to your wrist, his lips warm against your skin.
â
Later that night, you were curled up in his dorm, forcing him to watch Whisper of the Heart. He had grumbled and groaned, saying heâd already watched it way back in high school and that he "totally got the whole love and dreams thing," but you still made him sit through it. He spent the first twenty minutes sulking, arms wrapped around you from behind, chin resting on your shoulder like a spoiled cat.
âIâm way better than Seiji,â he huffed after a particularly sweet scene. âLike, a million times better.â You snorted. âJealous of an anime boy, Satoru?â
âIâm just saying,â he drawled, tightening his arms around you. âIf I was in this movie, she wouldnât even look at him.â
âUh-huh.â You leaned back against his chest, enjoying the warmth. âSure, babe.â His fingers absentmindedly toyed with the hem of your sleeve, and for a while, you both watched in silence, the glow of the laptop screen painting soft shadows over the room. Halfway through the movie, you reached into your bag to grab your laptop, but something tumbled out and hit the floor with a soft thud. You blinked at the familiar cover of the last book.
âOh crap,â you muttered, picking it up. âI forgot to return this.âÂ
Satoru turned his head, eyes narrowing. âWaitâŠâ He plucked the book from your grasp, flipping through the pages with an expression that immediately made you suspicious. âYou didnât return this yet?â You nodded, smiling sheepishly. âGuess I kinda forgot.â His fingers slowed as he reached the back cover, eyes landing on the borrowing log where the name âG.S.â had been scrawled in blue ink.
For a moment, he just stared. His thumb ran over the initials like he was absorbing the weight of them, of what they had meant to you before you knew the truth. His usual teasing expression softened, something almost nostalgic flickering in his eyes. Then, in a slow, deliberate motion, he grabbed a pen from his desk, twirled it between his fingers, and, without saying a word, carefully crossed out âG.S.â
You watched as he replaced it with something elseâhis full name, written neatly, in the same familiar shade of blue ink in the column beneath the crossed out G.S. He paused, then handed you the pen. Understanding settled between you like an unspoken promise. Without hesitation, you leaned down, pressing the tip to the page to the column under his name, adding your own in smooth, looping letters.
The same date. The same ink. Together.
Satoru stared at it for a long moment, his usual cocky grin nowhere in sight. Then, slowly, a smile spread across his lips, something softer, something fonder. He looked at you with that unreadable, almost reverent gazeâthe one that always made your breath catch. And then, with absolutely no warning, he grinned and yanked you straight into his lap.
âSooo,â he murmured, lips brushing your ear as his arms locked around you. âHow does it feel to know youâve been fantasising about me this whole time?â You groaned, swatting at his arm. âSatoruââ
He just laughed, effortlessly dodging your weak attempts at smacking him. âNah, nah, donât try to deny it! I knew you had a crush on me.â
âI did notââ
âG.S.,â he sing-songed, his breath warm against your skin as he nuzzled into your shoulder. âYou thought I was some mysterious, tortured genius. Bet you used to daydream about me in class, dâyou think I showed up as some mysterious faceless guy in your wet dreams?ââ You grabbed a pillow and shoved it into his face. His muffled laughter rang through the room, and when he pulled the pillow away, he was still grinning. He kissed your shoulder, lingering there for a beat longer than necessary.
And this time, you let him gloat.
a/n: summary of this entire fic basically (art creds to su2kuna on đ)
sorry if there are error/grammar mistakes or slight plot issues uni is lowkey gnawing at the folds of my brain and a girl gets sick of reading 32k words over and over again.. but i hope you all enjoyed reading this because i really enjoyed writing it :) huhuhuhu much love