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ed tumblr let me back in pls im in crisis

#ed #disordered eating #not pro anything #but like i need the inspo #i cry myself to sleep but then i can't stop binging so

shopping for clothes with other ppl is the worst experiences ever bc even when they think they know all the stuff that puts me off articles of clothing, there’s always more and these get progressively more ridiculous and less consistent and its just embarrassing having to explain the reasoning behind why i wouldn't buy a piece of clothing––– yes, i like that colour but not if its in that style of shirt... mhm that sweater is lovely but the collar is one centimetre too close to my neck and its going to make me look like an american football player in gear... those boots are gorgeous but they cut at the exact spot on my ankle that will make me look like a balloon

#body dysmorphia #body negativity #disordered eating #not pro anything #every time i try to explain to my parents why i can't wear a piece of clothing it gets more and more ridiculous #at this point i can only wear my safe clothes

im so fat now and im so sad about it

i managed to get back to living alone and i haven’t eaten a proper meal in 2 days !!! hoping to drop some of the gained fat

my disordered eating is jumping out bc i haven’t been able to control what i eat ever since i came back home 3 weeks ago and now the borders are closed again and i’m scared i’m going to be stuck here for longer and will actually end up being properly fat

#disordered eating #NOT pro anything

i’m trying to eat a little more each day so the change from eating one meal a day to three meals a day once i’m back home with my parents won’t be as dramatic and therefore it won’t make me gain desperate amounts of weight

#i'm gonna have to exercise while i'm there or else i'm literally going to come back weighting 80kg #i'm pretty sure i'm around 55 right now so the whole is to stay there and MAX go up to 58 #i seriously eat ONE meal a day and my mum won't eVER let me do that so lets see how this goes #NOT pro anything #disordered eating

i just realised that going home for a month and a half is really going to change my eating habits that has become literally 1 proper meal a day wow

#can i do that ??? fuck what if i return to amsterdam rlly fat

i barely eat nowadays and i’m still so fat

#NOT pro anything