I'll Cave In...

James. 25. s u b m i s s i v e. a lost cause. “Fear, anxiety, arousal, and pain; all are emotions and sensations. They are neither right, nor are they wrong; good nor bad. They are simply passions, a most important part of life. "

[jamesorenda]

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[mistress-milly-deactivated20151]

Well, I’m sure they’d take you here. And I’ll be working here after Evan and I claim so we wouldn’t be apart… I just.. This cant be the last straw for you, it just can’t.

When is your birthday?

[jamesorenda]

How am I supposed to trust a Dominant again, Norrie? The person I trusted more than anyone else in the world fucking abandoned me. He was my best friend before we were anything else and he shit all over it. The best I can do is to just try to make sure that my future in slavery isn't somewhere that would make me miserable.

August 9th.

[jamesorenda]

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[mistress-milly-deactivated20151]

Oh… Oh god. I had no idea. I’m so sorry.

[jamesorenda]

What do you think it'll be like, Norrie? Do you think maybe they'd take me here? I hate the idea of going to a place I don't know, at least I've got a sort of comfort with this facility. 

I just don't know what to do, I've lost so many people I've loved and that I thought loved me, I can't handle opening myself up to that again, especially not if it involves jumping into a claim with someone in such a short time.

[jamesorenda]

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[mistress-milly-deactivated20151]

Sweetie. Please, don’t think on that now. How old are you?

[jamesorenda]

I turn 26 this year.

[jamesorenda]

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[mistress-milly-deactivated20151]

I know you have. Here, I’ll have Evan come get you. I made dinner. Its homemade mac and cheese with bacon and pesto sauce mixed into the cheese. Its super yummy. I also baked biscuits as well.

[jamesorenda]

You know, I always figured that when we left here, we obviously wouldn't see each other as much, but I'm never going to see you when I leave. Norrie, I can't find another Sir. I'm not going to have a claim. I'm scared.

[leifxalcott]

Well, I don’t know ya name and I didn’t want to just call ya blondie. What’s wrong? Unless talking about it makes it worse. Probably since ya want a distraction. Sorry.

[jamesorenda]

That's not a terrible nickname, but you can call me James. Um, I don't think talking about it makes it worse, it hurts just as much when I'm not talking about. My Dominant left me without a word. I turn 26 this year, so my hopes of finding another Dominant that I want to share a claim with unlikely.

[leifxalcott]

Are ya alright, Sir? Ya seem kind of blah.

[jamesorenda]

I'm not a 'Sir'. And I'm definitely not alright either. I'm trying to be, but it's not really working out in my favor.

[mistress-milly-deactivated20151]

I can provide both of those things, sweetie.

[jamesorenda]

Norrie. Hey, um, I'm sorry I haven't been around much. I've just been dealing with...well, you know.

[jamesorenda]

I'm in desperate need of a distraction. And some food.

[charlesnoble-blog]

This is the fourth time for me, but I could never imagine what you’ve been through. I’d offer to try to comfort you, but I’m not the happiest of people, right now.

[jamesorenda]

Maybe being around someone who is going through the same thing would be good. Do you...maybe want to come to my room? Misery loves company, right?

[charlesnoble-blog]

I’m going through the same thing. I’m sorry.

[jamesorenda]

I've gone through it too many times. At least it's taught me that after this, slavery will be easy. Anything is easier than this.

[skyler-reynolds-deactivated2016]

It probably wasn’t anything you did. I don’t think we ever really know what’s going on in the minds of the people we care about.

[jamesorenda]

If it wasn't my fault, then it wouldn't keep happening to me. 

[domme-ella]

What happened?

[jamesorenda]

My...best friend and Sir left me without a word. He was the glue that was holding me together, and now I feel like I'm just a bunch of pieces trying to figure out what the fuck I'm supposed to do. I lost a Dominant before I came here, he passed away, and then I got here and I found Ollie again. Everything was perfect, I don't know what's wrong with me. I was being so good. I just want him back. I'm trying not to cry, he hated when I was upset.

[jamesorenda]

I keep playing it all in my head. I thought I was a good boy, I don't know what I did.

[jamesorenda]

Slavery? Maybe it won't be so bad.

[jamesorenda]

Someone was definitely jacking it with their door wide open. That's nice.

[micky-donoghue]

Back again.

[micky-donoghue]

Had to return home due to family stuff. Didn’t think I’d ever be back, yet, here I am. 

[jamesorenda]

The place could be worse, though, right? It's not the best place to have to come back to, but it's not the blocks.

[micky-donoghue]

Back again.

[micky-donoghue]

 It seems that way, yeah. 

[jamesorenda]

May I ask why?