welcome!!

is this myspace ??

[jamieowww]

please come hurt me again

because after you leave and the adrenaline is gone

i only feel all the scars you’ve left me with

[jamieowww]

you’ve fucked me up again

i thought that your touch would satisfy

but of course my obsession only deepens

the memory of you here paralyzes me

and again i’ve become useless without you

but because i know that now is still not the time

i’ll repeat my new mantra until things change

that “good things come to those who wait“

[jamieowww]

there is a thread that binds my life together

to all the people i’ve ever met

to all of my past experiences

to every person i’ve ever loved

to everyone i’ve hurt

to every time i felt pride

and every time i felt regret

all of this thread winds itself around me

pulling me in every possible direction at once

how could i possibly make sense of it all

[jamieowww]

a bird is an artist

it spends its entire life flying

mastering the skilll

the path of its flight is the bird’s expression of itself

each slight variation in pitch or roll

every playful swoop and dive

each time they catch the breeze

a calculated stroke from a master’s brush

a representation of a bird’s personality and soul

what a beautiful thing to watch

[jamieowww]

i saw a baby opossum in the rain today

i wonder where his mama was

[jamieowww]

the way your palm slides against her cheek

and how you tuck your finger under her ear

how the rest wrap around to hold her head

how her eyes relax as she rests her weight against you

and although you never got to hold her

at least the thought of her makes you smile

[jamieowww]

i wanna scream and yell and bang on the walls of my room

i wanna throw all the shit off my desk

i wanna hold my head and scream and cry

i want to feel wracked with grief at all the times i’ve fucked up

i’ll cry so hard i never do anything wrong again

[jamieowww]

you know that feeling when you meet someone for the first time

maybe not actually the first time

but the first time you truly understand a person

and you just want to hold their head

and stare into their eyes

you want them to know you get it

you want to say how you feel all the same ways

you want them to find comfort in you the way you find comfort in them

and in that instant you can only hope they feel the same way

that it’s not some parasocial obsession

that she’s different

you know her

you’ve known her

she’s known you for so long

but before you can even get to her

you just get let down again

if only you had recognized her sooner

[jamieowww]

i want to be vulnerable

i want what i cannot have

she’s intangible to me

i’m sorry for feeling so foolishly

[jamieowww]

i fall in love like an idiot

[jamieowww]