Vitality shows in not only the ability to persist,

Jamison Oliver, but just Oliver. 25. Photographer for Rolling Stone, but always looking for something. Observant eye, nervous heart.

[jamison-oliver-blog]

[billy-mcclain]

Yeah…I know. I’m sure it ain’t nothing either. We had a real good New Years, and we really care about each other. And he’s not afraid of me bein’ sick. I’ve been doin’ so much better since we got together. 

We should have our own Valentines’ Day party. 

[jamison-oliver-blog]

Yeah he sounds like a good guy.

[He smiles.]

And I am really glad for you.

[Oliver heaves a sigh and lifts his shoulders. He knows he's been a downer so much lately but he feels like he can't help it.]

I don't much feel up to a party, Billy.

[billy-mcclain]

Right! [Billy grins from ear to ear, but his expression softens a bit.] I dunno. We haven’t seen too much of each other lately. I’ve been livin’ at my apartment instead of his and stuff. 

[jamison-oliver-blog]

Oh.

[Oliver frowns and claps him on the shoulder gently.]

I'm sorry Billy, I am sure it's nothing, people get busy, like gets in the way of the important things sometimes but I am sure it will correct itself.

And it's not the same but if you're ever lonely my couch is always open, you know that.

[billy-mcclain]

But tomorrow promises cheap chocolate!

[jamison-oliver-blog]

You're right, glass half-full, right?!

[He smiles.]

You always cheer me up, man. You aren't going out with your big man friend?

[jamison-oliver-blog]

Today is cruel.

[jaxharding]

  [Jax considers it for a moment before he shrugs again, Adam’s apple bobbing in his throat as he swallows hard.]

I don’t know. 

[jamison-oliver-blog]

[Oliver stares a him a moment before glancing down at his shoes.]

Okay.

[He says softly nodding a little bit, blinking a few times.]

Yeah, uh... alright... well you know... I'm around and you know I uh, don't sleep.

[He lets out a strained laugh.]

So if you ever wanna... talk or get pizza or whatever, just normal uh... stuff... yeah. I'll see you, I guess.

[billy-mcclain]

  Ya ain’t pathetic. I promise. And somewhere out there is someone lookin’ for a guy just like you. I know it. You’re gonna find each other and live happy ever after. Honest to God.

[jamison-oliver-blog]

Thanks Billy.

[He nods.]

I just think I'm better off alone for awhile at least.

[jaxharding]

  [Jackson just shrugs as Oliver apologises, averting his eyes to the wall across from him as Oliver grabs his things.]

We’re all sorry for somethin’. Apologies don’t really matter any more. 

[jamison-oliver-blog]

To me they do.

[He shrugs his shoulder a little bit.]

Why can't we move past this? Will we ever?

Do you want to?

[billy-mcclain]

You will be. It’s just gonna take ya some time. Maybe this was the first step. It ain’t worth pinin’ over someone like that. I did the same thing. S’how I got here. And ya…ya get better. And ya get over it. I promise. 

[jamison-oliver-blog]

[Oliver sighs, rubbing his face.]

I just feel really pathetic, you know? I just think back to when we were together and we were so happy and I... put my life on pause when he left and I just thought he'd come back and explain everything and we'd unpause but...

I guess I don't have a choice, do I?

[billy-mcclain]

  Oh, Oliver….You don’t mean nothing, you hear me? You mean a whole lot to a whole lotta people, includin’ me. Forget him. He doesn’t deserve you. No one gets to tell you how to feel, and you don’t got nothin’ to be sorry about. I hope you let ‘em have it. 

[jamison-oliver-blog]

[Oliver wraps his arms around Billy and shakes his head a little.]

Why can't I just be over it? I want to be over it but I just... can't. I feel like... like I know I'd literally go running back if he asked and how fucked up is that?

[billy-mcclain]

  Yes, I can. I’m your friend, and I’m doing what’s good for ya. So there. [His face sobers a bit, brow knitting in concern.] What happened? You ain’t dumb.

[jamison-oliver-blog]

I was over at Jackson's and things got out of hand and he pretty much told me that we were just together for all of five minutes and to get over it and made it seem like it meant nothing, like I meant nothing and it hurt and I yelled and I just -- want things to go back to normal.

I was so stupid.

[billy-mcclain]

  No more drinks for you, okay? 

[jamison-oliver-blog]

You can't tell me what to do.

[He nods defiantly.]

I am a grown ass man. A grown ass man who is so stupid and yells and people and Billy, I am so dumb.

[he shakes his head a little.]

So just, let me be dumb.

[kimberlyxsparksxrp-deactivated2]

  Oh, yes, I’m not the biggest fan of cold weather. I’m almost always cold. But I think spring is my favorite season. I mean I know it rains a lot, but there is something so refreshing about watching the snow melt, you know what I mean? 

Oh Sugar is a white tabby, with a really fluffy tail she likes to use to knock over just about everything. It’s really frustrating sometimes. 

[She laughed and shook her head.]

Oh gosh thanks.

[She blushes now looking down at her feet.]

I don’t know if I’m doing all that well, but I’m trying at least. 

[jamison-oliver-blog]

Yeah, spring is nice, makes me feel less like a dementor is trying to kill me which is pretty nice. 

Aw, she sounds uh, well... I was gunna say sweet but that seems cheesy.

[He blushes and laughs, shaking his head a little.]

I think you get what I mean. Where are you from?

Like uh, originally?

[billy-mcclain]

  I think you’re a lil’ bit drunk, Oliver

[jamison-oliver-blog]

So whaaaat?

[kimberlyxsparksxrp-deactivated2]

  Oh, well you can always use more friends. But I wouldn’t dear think of replacing Billy. That would be just wrong. 

[She giggled sweetly shaking her head.]

Yeah, I know what you mean. I’m kind of a quiet person aside from the whole theater thing. But usually I try to go out to the movies, but since it’s been so cold lately I’ve had to stay in with my cat. Sugar. 

Yeah, I guess, I mean I watched old movies with my nana and always liked singing. My siblings all though it was a stupid little dream, well except Lucy, my oldest sister. She would learn how to play Moon River on the piano and we’d have duets together. 

[jamison-oliver-blog]

[He laughs.]

It would be just wrong, but yeah...

It has been freezing. I'm getting pretty over it, but by the time it's hot I am going to be bitching about that too. Can't win. And aw, sugar. What kind of cat?

Hey, that's sweet.

[He smiles a little, shrugging.]

Well you're doing pretty well for yourself and good on you for, you know, not giving up!

[jamison-oliver-blog]

[jamison-oliver-blog]

I'm not drunk, you're fucking drunk.