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masterlist
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On Call | One of Two
Pairing: Lando Norris x Personal Assistant!Reader
Description: You're Lando Norris's personal assistant, which means your job description includes three things: fixing his disasters, answering his calls at ungodly hours, and definitely not thinking about kissing your boss. The first two you're great at. The third one? That's becoming a problem.
Genre: lando being a little shit, he does not hide that he wants ur kitty, angst, fingering during meetings, fucking in hotel rooms, why are we fighting every 2 minutes
WC: 24k
IMPORTANT NOTE: hi friends, you might be wondering bella why is this not being posted on @landologged, i have been shadowbanned indefinetly (tumblr pls go fuck urself), all of my fics are going to STAY on there, but the new ones/updates will be posted on here, until i am unbanned (if, that even happens)
Your phone rings at 3 AM, which can only mean one thing. Lando Norris calling, which means this is going to be so much worse than any text could ever convey. You stare at the ceiling of your Monaco apartment, counting to ten in three different languages before you answer. It's a technique you've perfected over the past several years of working for Lando, which requires a special kind of patience-building exercise that keeps you from committing what would definitely be classified as justifiable homicide.
Not that you'd get away with it. You probably would, actually, but that's beside the point.
"Lando," you answer, voice flat as the fucking pavement. "Unless you're currently on fire or have been kidnapped, this can wait until morning."
"Wow, so you'd just let me burn?" His voice comes through warm and sleep-rough and far too chipper for 3 in the fucking morning. There's an echo to it, the telltale acoustics of an airport terminal, and you curse under your breath. He's supposed to be on a flight right now. He's supposed to be thirty thousand feet in the air, unconscious, not bothering you.
"That's cold," he adds, and you can hear the grin in his voice, "noted for future reference."
You close your eyes. "Where are you?"
"So , uhm, I'm in Bahrain—"
"You're supposed to be in Monaco."
"—yeah, about that," he continues as if you haven't spoken at all, and you can hear the grin in his voice. The bastard thinks this is funny. He thinks this is hilarious. "I might've gotten on the wrong plane."
You sit up. God, you hate your life. You hate your job. You hate that you're awake right now. Most of all, you hate that you aren't even surprised. "You might have what?"
"Okay, I definitely got on the wrong plane," he amends, and there's a rustling sound like he's shifting his phone to his other ear. "But in my defense, the vodka Red Bulls at the airport were really strong, and Oscar dared me to see if I could get through security in under thirty seconds, and then there was this really fit flight attendant who asked if I needed help finding my gate, so ya'know, being the gentleman I am—"
You cut him off before he can finish that sentence. "Lando."
"—and I said yes obviously, because I'm not rude, and she was smiling at me with that smile, you know the one the ladies use—"
"Lando."
"—where it's like, super flirty but also professional? And she had these eyes that were doing this thing—"
"Lando."
He stops. You can practically hear him smirking through the phone, can picture the exact expression on his face, the one that makes you want to strangle him with your bare hands. "Yes?" He says it so innocently, so fucking sweetly, like he hasn't just woken you up at 3 AM to tell you he's on the wrong continent. "That's my name, by the way. Love it when you say it like that. Especially when you're all angry and you do that thing where your voice gets all—"
"What," you interrupt, jaw clenched, "do you need."
"See? That. That right there." He's definitely smirking now. You want to throw your phone into the Mediterranean Sea. You want to throw him into the Mediterranean Sea. "Makes me feel things."
You don't dignify that with a response.
"Anyway," he continues, undeterred as always, "I need you to book me a flight back and maybe fix things with my sponsor who I was supposed to meet with—"
There's a pause. You hear him ask someone in the background, "Mate, what time is it? Cheers."
Then, back to you, far too casually, "Yeah, so about four hours ago."
"Stay where you are," you cut him off, already climbing out of bed. Your feet hit the cold floor, and you're already mentally running through which contacts you'll need to grovel to at this hour. "I'll handle it."
"Ooh, so commanding." His voice drops lower, teasing in that way that makes you want to reach through the phone and— "Do you talk to all your clients like this, or am I special?"
"You're something."
"I'll take it." You can hear the smile in his voice, warm and infuriating and so fucking pleased with himself. "Knew you loved me."
"That's not what I said."
"Didn't have to," he replies, like it's obvious, like you've just confirmed something he's always known. "I can read between the lines. It's one of my many talents, actually, along with being really good at driving and also being really good at—"
"I'm hanging up now."
"Wait wait wait," he says quickly, and there's something slightly different in his voice now, less performative. "Will you actually fix it? With the sponsor? I know I fucked up."
You pause at your bedroom door. This is the thing about Lando that makes it impossible to actually hate him, just when you think he's completely oblivious, completely wrapped up in his own chaos, he does this, acknowledges the mess, trusts you to fix it. Doesn't apologize—he never apologizes—but asks anyway.
"I'll handle it," you repeat, softer this time. You shouldn't be softer. "Just stay at the airport, Lando. And please, for the love of god, do not get on any more planes."
"Yes, ma'am." He's back to teasing, just like that, the moment already gone. "Love it when you boss me around, by the way. Should I call you boss? Or do you prefer something else? I'm pretty flexible."
"Goodbye, Lando."
"Wait," But you're already pulling the phone away from your ear when you hear him say, "You're incredible, you know that?"
You pause and your thumb hovers over the end call button.
"I'm serious," he adds, but his voice hasn't gone soft. He sounds exactly the same—amused, chaotic, like he's grinning on the other end. Like he's always grinning. "You're the best thing that's ever happened to me, and I'm including my first win in that statement. Don't let it go to your head, though."
You exhale through your nose.
"Without me, you'd probably still be in Bahrain," you say finally. "Go drink some water. I'll text you the flight details."
"Aw, you care about my hydration levels." He sounds delighted. "That's basically a love language, ya' know."
You hang up and your apartment is quiet except for the distant sound of waves and your own heartbeat, which is doing something annoying in your chest. You pad into your kitchen with its view of the Mediterranean that you never get to enjoy because you're always putting out fires that Lando starts.
Metaphorical fires, mostly. Though there was that one incident in Singapore that the team agreed to never speak of again. Your laptop boots up as you make coffee, strong, black. The blue light illuminates your face as you pull up his schedule, his flight options, draft what will be a very apologetic email to the sponsor he's just stood up.
You've written variations of this email so many times you could probably do it in your sleep. Maybe you are doing it in your sleep. Is this a nightmare? It would make sense if this was a nightmare.
This is your life now. Has been your life for years, actually, and you still haven't figured out how you ended up here—awake at 3 AM, fixing problems for a man who gets on the wrong plane because a flight attendant smiled at him.
At least the pay is good.
Lando's apartment looks like someone gave a golden retriever a Black Amex and thirty minutes in an interior design showroom. You let yourself in with the key he gave you three months ago. The fifth time he'd locked himself out, he'd just shrugged and said "might as well" and handed you a spare.
The hallway opens into the main living space, there’s framed F1 car prints lining the walls in that papaya orange that's burned into your retinas at this point, there's a gym bag spilling protein powder across the hallway floor. His helmet collection sits in a backlit display case like he's running a museum dedicated just to himself. There's a DJ setup gathering dust by the windows, you've seen him use it exactly twice, both times drunk off his ass at 2 AM, and both times his neighbors complained.
"Lando?" You call out, toeing off your shoes by the door. "Meeting's in two hours. We need to go over your schedule."
There's a crash from deeper in the apartment, followed by a string of curses. "Fuck—shit—"
"Are you dying?"
"Kitchen! And don't come in, I'm basically naked!"
You head straight for the kitchen. When Lando Norris tells you not to do something, it's usually because he's already done that exact thing and it's gone horribly wrong.
The kitchen is all white cabinets and black marble countertops, which are pristine nine out of ten times because Lando doesn't cook. Can't cook, more accurately. He once tried to make toast and somehow set off the fire alarm. Yes, he texted you for help. No, you don't want to talk about it.
A single trainer sits in the sink for some reason, and you don't ask.
When you round the corner into the kitchen, you stop dead. He's at the island, fresh out of the shower. Water drips from his hair onto his bare shoulders, trailing down his chest, then his stomach, catching the morning light filtering through the windows. The towel around his hips is slung so low you can see the sharp V of his hipbones—that line of muscle that disappears beneath white cotton.
He's holding a yogurt container in one hand, spoon in the other, staring at both like he's forgotten how they work together.
"Ha! Told you not to come in," he says, grinning like he just won pole position, "but you did anyway, so this is on you."
You're staring. You know you're staring. His hair's dripping water onto the counter. There's a droplet sliding down his collarbone, another one trailing down his abs, and your brain has just completely fucking blue-screened.
"Put a shirt on."
"That's not an answer about the yogurt."
"Lando."
"What? I just got out of the shower, it's my apartment." He takes a step closer and you can smell his body wash. "You're the one who walked in on me. Why, is this distracting or something? Am I being unprofessional?"
Yes. Extremely fucking yes. Your brain has completely shorted out and you're having thoughts that would get you fired, probably sued, definitely escorted out of the building by security.
"The sponsor meeting is in two hours and we need to prep." You force yourself to look at his face. Just his face. Nowhere else. His face is safe, except his mouth is doing that thing where he bites his bottom lip and that's not safe at all.
"I'm listening. Go ahead, prep me." He leans back against the counter and crosses his arms over his chest. His biceps flex and you watch the muscle move under his skin and forget how to breathe.
"Can you put on clothes first?"
"Can't, actually. All my clothes are in the bedroom, and if I walk away now you'll just follow me there, won't you? And then we'll really be in trouble." His grin widens and you can see the exact moment the idea takes root in his head. "Unless that's what you want? I'm not opposed to it, for the record. Bedroom's got a better view anyway."
Your face goes hot. The back of your neck prickles with heat and you know he can see it, the flush creeping up from your collar. He looks fucking delighted with himself.
"You're doing this on purpose."
"Doing what, exactly? Standing in my own kitchen in my own apartment after taking a shower? I mean, that's not a crime last time I checked." He picks up the yogurt container, squinting at the label. "Pretty sure it's fine, honestly. Smell test?"
He holds it out. You don't move.
"I'm not smelling your expired yogurt, Lando."
"See, this is the problem with our working relationship, there’s no trust whatsoever." He digs the spoon in and takes a bite, keeping his eyes locked on yours the whole time. Then proceeds to maintain eye contact while he swallows. "Tastes fine to me. Bit tangy, yeah, but could be the expiration date, could be the flavor. Who's to say, really."
"You're going to give yourself food poisoning and then I'm going to have to explain to Zak why you can't make it to testing."
"Probably, but you'll take care of me though, won't you?" He sets the yogurt down and takes another step closer. Your feet stay planted to the floor. "I mean, that's literally your job, isn't it? Taking care of me."
"My job is managing your schedule, not nursing you through a bout of salmonella because you can't be bothered to check expiration dates."
"That's the same thing, basically." Another step and he's suddenly close enough now that you can feel the heat coming off his skin, see the little scar above his eyebrow from that karting crash when he was twelve that he always brings up. Smell that fucking body wash. "You're really good at taking care of me, you know that? Like, really fucking good."
"You've mentioned it before."
"Yeah, but I don't think you get it, like, properly understand what I mean." His voice drops lower and you watch his throat move when he swallows. "Like, really good. Better than anyone else I've ever worked with, honestly. Sometimes I do stupid shit just to see what you'll do, how you'll fix it. It's become kind of a thing for me."
"That's actually psychotic."
"Nah, that's half the fun of having you around." He tilts his head and his hair drips water onto your shoe. "You're blushing, by the way."
"I'm not blushing."
"You absolutely are, it's very cute actually. Goes all the way down your neck and," His eyes track down, following the flush of heat spreading across your skin, they linger at your collarbone and you feel on fire, everywhere. "Makes me wonder how far down it actually goes."
Jesus fucking christ. "Lando."
"That's my name, yeah. You know, you say it a lot when you're flustered, I've noticed. It's sort of hot, actually, the way your voice gets all tight and annoyed, like you're trying really hard not to tell me to fuck off."
"I am trying really hard not to tell you to fuck off."
"See? Exactly like that, perfect example." Water drips from his hair onto your shoulder. "Want to know a secret?"
"Not particularly, no."
"I think about you a lot." His voice shifts, goes softer. "Like, more than is probably normal for a boss-employee situation, if I'm being honest. Definitely more than my PR team would be comfortable with if they knew."
Your heart's slamming against your ribs so hard it hurts. "You're jetlagged from the flight."
"I'm not jetlagged."
"You're delirious from expired yogurt, clearly."
"I'm completely lucid, I promise you." He reaches out and catches the hem of your shirt between his fingers. Doesn't pull you closer, just holds the fabric. His thumb brushes against your hip through the cotton. "You're avoiding the question."
"You didn't ask a question."
You've spent two years trying to resist this. This pull. This gravity. Lando Norris is a black hole and you've been orbiting him, getting closer and closer, knowing eventually you'll cross the event horizon and there will be no coming back.
"Do you think about me?" The vulnerability in his voice makes your chest ache. "When you're not working, when you're doing normal people shit, do you ever just think, 'Wonder what that dickhead Lando is doing right now?'"
"Jesus, Lando." You take a breath, trying to find some semblance of professionalism. "This is so unprofessional. You know that, right?"
"Maybe." He tips his head back slightly, looking up at you through his lashes, and there's something mischievous in his expression, a little pout, a lot of trouble. Like he knows exactly what he's doing and doesn't give a single shit about it. And, you hate to admit that you do think about him. Constantly. When you're at the grocery store and his favorite energy drink is on sale. When you're watching Netflix at 11 PM and some comedian makes a joke he'd absolutely lose his shit over. When you're lying in bed at 3 AM and your phone lights up and before you even look you know it's him.
But you're not giving him that, not a chance. His tongue flicks across his bottom lip, wetting it, and your eyes track the movement before you can stop yourself.
"See?" His grin turns absolutely wicked. "You can't even resist me right now."
"Oh my god." You roll your eyes so hard it hurts and step back, pulling your shirt free from his fingers. "Clean up your yogurt. I'm getting you a shirt."
"Wait, no—"
"Lando."
"But I like being shirtless around you," he whines, actually whines like a child. "You're so fun to tease when I'm shirtless."
"Shirt. Now. Where are they?"
He sighs dramatically, slumping against the counter. "Second drawer. The tall one. But for the record, this is cruel and unusual punishment and I'm going to file a complaint with HR."
"You don't have an HR department."
"Then I'll make one just to file a complaint." He's grinning again as you head toward his bedroom. "Make sure you grab the tight one! The black one! You know which one I mean!"
You absolutely know which one he means and you're absolutely not grabbing that one. His bedroom is somehow even more ridiculous than the rest of the apartment. The bed's massive, unmade, sheets tangled like he's been fighting them. There's a sim racing rig in the corner, and trophies line the floating shelves on the wall. A Quadrant hoodie draped over his gaming chair.
You find the dresser and pull open the second drawer. It's full of McLaren team shirts and regular t-shirts. You deliberately avoid the tight black one you know he's talking about and grab a loose grey one instead. When you walk back into the kitchen, he's still leaning against the counter, yogurt untouched, grinning at you.
"That's not the shirt I asked for."
"Clean. Up. Your. Yogurt."
"So bossy." But he's already moving, grabbing paper towels, wiping up the mess. You toss the shirt at his head and it hits him square in the face.
"Ow. Violent."
"Put it on."
"What if I don't want to?" He's holding the shirt but not putting it on, just watching you with that infuriating smirk.
"Then I'm leaving and you can explain to Zak why you missed another sponsor meeting."
"Fine, fine." He pulls the shirt on and yeah, even the loose one looks good on him. His hair's now sticking up from where the fabric messed it up. "Happy now?"
"Ecstatic. Do you want coffee?"
"You're really gonna make me coffee after I've been such a terrible boss?" He's following you to the coffee maker like a puppy.
"I'm going to make myself coffee and you can have some if you shut up for five minutes."
"I don't think I can shut up for five minutes. That's asking a lot." He watches you work, and you can feel his eyes on you. "You know how I like it though, right?"
"Two sugars, oat milk, unfortunately yes, I've memorized your terrible taste in coffee."
"It's not terrible, it's refined."
"It' tastes like ass."
"But you make it anyway." His voice has gone softer and you don't look at him. "Because you're sooooo good at taking care of me."
"Because I'm paid to take care of you."
"Yeah, yeah, same thing."
You hand him his mug and make your own. He takes a sip and makes a satisfied sound that you absolutely do not think about.
"So." You pull out your tablet, pull up your notes, try to look professional despite the fact that ten minutes ago he was basically naked and asking if you thought about him. "The meeting, let's go through the main talking points."
"Are you still thinking about it?"
"About the meeting, yeah obviously—"
"About kissing me."
Your face goes hot again. "Lando, I swear to god—"
"You've got all three tells going right now." He's grinning at you over his mug. "It's actually impressive. Didn't know you could do all three at once."
"Can we please focus?"
"I am focused. Very focused. Laser focused, actually." He sets his mug down. "Okay, tell you what. Let's make a bet."
"Absolutely not."
"If I'm perfect at this meeting and I mean perfect, no jokes, just straight on full professional Lando mode, you'll have to answer one question for me, and honestly."
You narrow your eyes. "What question?"
"That's the fun part. I'm not telling you until I win."
"You won't win. You're actually incapable of being professional for more than ten minutes."
"Bet." He holds out his hand, eyes gleaming with challenge. "Come on, unless you're scared."
You take his hand. His palm's warm, rough with calluses from the steering wheel. He holds on just a second too long, thumb brushing over your knuckles.
"You're gonna regret this."
"Maybe." His grin is absolutely feral. "But that's half the fun, isn't it?"
The sponsor meeting is in a conference room at the McLaren Technology Centre, and you arrive fifteen minutes early because Lando's never early to anything, which means you need to be early enough for both of you. Except for the fact that when you walk through the door, he's already there.
Sitting at the table. In a button-down shirt. Looking through the presentation materials like he actually cares about the quarterly projections.
"You're early," you say, and trying your best to not sound surprised.
"Yeah, well." He glances up and grins, but it's not his usual grin. "Got a bet to win, don't I?"
The sponsors arrive, there's two executives from Monster, all business suits and firm handshakes. Lando stands, smiles, does the whole being offensively charming thing. But it's different, he's actually fucking trying. You can't believe your goddamn eyes.
You sit in the corner with your tablet, taking notes, watching him work and it's fucking unsettling. He answers their questions perfectly. He's articulate, focused on them, doesn't make a single inappropriate joke. Doesn't even bother to check his phone. You've genuinely never seen this version of him before. You've seen him hungover at sponsor brunches, making jokes about his own driving. You've seen him show up twenty minutes late with his shirt on backwards. You've seen him accidentally insult a CEO's tie and then somehow charm his way out of it.
But this? This is someone who actually gives a shit. Someone who's prepared. Someone who knows exactly what he's doing and how to do it. It's terrifying because if he can be this professional, this focused, this put-together, then every other time he's been a disaster, he's been choosing to be a disaster. Which means his chaos is intentional. Which means when he shows up at your apartment at midnight because he locked himself out, when he calls you at 3 AM from the wrong country, when he stands in his kitchen in a towel asking if you think about him.
Jesus, when did it get so hot in here? You take a deep breath, grabbing your notepad and begin to fan the paper in front of your face. It certainly does not help. When you come back to the conference room, Lando's leaning back in his chair with his feet up on the table, grinning at you. The real grin, the "I totally won this bet" grin, and you feel a sinking in the pit of your stomach.
"So," he says. "I win."
You take a deep breath, realizing you have to talk your way out of this. Lando Norris always wins, always gets what he wants, and you just handed him ammunition like the fucking idiot you are.
This is how it happens—not with you quitting, not with some dramatic resignation, but with you trapped in a conference room while he cashes in a bet you never should have made. You're going to lose your job. You're going to lose everything. You can already see it, the HR meeting, the severance package, the LinkedIn post about "pursuing new opportunities" that everyone will know means you fucked your boss and it ended badly.
"You didn't even last the full hour, there's still—"
"Nope. Meeting's over. come on, I mean I was perfect." He stands up, stretching his arms over his head. His shirt rides up and you can see a strip of his stomach, the waistband of his boxers. "Which means you owe me an answer to one question. Honestly."
You open your mouth to protest, but he stops you. "Those were the terms." He's walking toward you now, and there's something predatory about it, like you're a corner he's about to take at full speed. "You shook on it."
"What's the question."
He stops right in front of you. Your throat tightens and you can see the individual lashes framing his eyes, dark against the tan of his skin. His goatee is slightly uneven, like he trimmed it himself this morning without really looking.
Your heart stops. Restarts. Stops again. "No."
"Liar." He takes a step closer. The movement is slow, deliberate, and you can feel the heat coming off his body. Your back hits the glass wall and it's cold, so cold compared to the warmth radiating from him. "Try again."
"Lando—"
"You promised to answer honestly." Another step and he's close enough now that you can smell his cologne properly—cedar and bergamot, but underneath there's something else. Something warm and slightly spicy. Amber, maybe, nonetheless, it makes your head swim, your chest ache. Water? You need water, holy water. "That was the deal."
"The deal was one question."
"And you didn't answer it." His hand comes up, bracing against the glass next to your head. Not touching you, but close enough that you can see the calluses on his palm, the white lines of old scars across his knuckles. "Do you want to kiss me? Yes or no."
Your mouth is dry. There's something throbbing low in your stomach, a pulse that matches your heartbeat. "This is so unprofessional."
"Uh-uh, not the right answer." His other hand comes up, caging you in. You can see the flutter of his pulse in his throat, the way his chest rises and falls. He's breathing faster than normal. "Come on. You're always so honest with me. So direct, let's not start lying now."
"I'm not."
"You are." He leans in and his nose brushes against your temple. You can feel his breath against your skin, warm and mint-fresh. "You're thinking about it right now. I can tell."
You realize you've stopped breathing. You inhale sharply and it's a mistake because all you can smell is him, that cologne, his own scent, it's consuming. Your head swirls, and you feel like at any moment now you might pass out. Bastard, what a fucking little shit.
"Lando, we can't."
"Why not?" His voice is low, almost a whisper, and you feel it vibrate through your chest. "Give me one good reason."
"You're my boss."
"Terrible reason. Next."
"This is the MTC, anyone could see us."
"Door's closed. Glass is tinted from the outside." His lips brush against your temple and you can feel your knees go weak. "Next."
"I—" Your voice cracks. There's heat everywhere he's close to you, like standing too near a fire. Your skin feels too tight and there's something pulsing between your legs and you press your thighs together. "This is a bad idea, very, very, bad idea."
"Probably." His hand moves from the glass to your jaw, thumb brushing over your cheekbone. His skin is rough and warm and you can feel the drag of his calluses. "But you still haven't answered my question."
You can see the green in his eyes, flecks of blue catching the fluorescent light. His pupils are dilated, dark and wide. His lips are slightly parted and you can see the white of his teeth, the pink of his tongue when he wets his bottom lip.
"Yes." The word comes out broken, barely a whisper, and it feels like signing your own death warrant. You've just ended your career. You've just destroyed every carefully maintained professional boundary. You've just proven that you're exactly what people will call you when this inevitably falls apart—a personal assistant who couldn't keep her hands to herself, who thought she was special, who believed Lando Norris when he looked at her like she mattered.
"Yes what?" He's smiling now, that wicked grin that makes your stomach flip.
"Yes, I want to kiss you." Your hands are shaking. Everything is shaking. "Happy now?"
"Getting there." His thumb moves to your bottom lip, dragging across it slowly. You can feel every ridge of his fingerprint. "How long?"
"That wasn't the question."
A knock at the door shatters the moment like glass, and you both freeze. His thumb is still on your lip. His other hand is still pressed against the small of your back. You can feel your heartbeat in your throat, your wrists, between your legs.
You can feel your heartbeat in your throat, your wrists, between your legs. Reality crashes back in like ice water. You're going to be sick. You're actually going to be sick.
"Lando?" It's Jon, his trainer. Another knock. "You in there? Got that debrief in five."
Lando closes his eyes and drops his forehead to yours. You feel him exhale, warm breath skating across your mouth.
"Yeah," he calls out, voice rough. "Be right there."
"Alright, mate. I'll head down, meet you there."
Footsteps retreat down the hallway and the silence that follows is deafening. Lando doesn't move. His thumb drags across your lip one more time, slower, and something low in your belly clenches so hard you have to bite back a sound. You're going to let him do this. You're going to let him ruin you in this conference room and you won't even fight it.
This is who you are now. This is what you've become. The personal assistant who spreads her legs when her boss decides he wants her. The woman who throws away everything she's worked for because Lando Norris smells good and knows exactly where to put his hands.
"We should," you start, but even you can hear how weak it sounds. How unconvincing.
"Yeah." But he still doesn't move. His eyes are so dark, pupils blown completely wide, and you can see yourself reflected in them, small and desperate and already lost. "We should."
Neither of you move. The moment stretches. You're waiting for him to step back, to release you, to let you salvage some microscopic shred of dignity. His gaze drops to your mouth and stays there. You watch his throat work when he swallows, the muscle in his jaw ticks. His fingers flex against your back, pressing in hard like he's restraining himself.
"Lando."
"I know." Finally, fucking finally, he steps back. Cold air rushes in where his body was and you almost whimper at the loss. "Debrief, yeah, it's fine, professional. We're professional." He runs a hand through his hair and it sticks up at odd angles. His shirt is wrinkled where your fists were twisted in the fabric. There's color high on his cheekbones, his neck.
You definitely look worse.
"You've got—" He reaches out and his thumb brushes your cheekbone. "Your makeup's smudged."
His touch is gentle but your skin feels like it's burning. You step sideways along the glass wall, putting distance between you, and your legs are shaking so badly you're amazed you're still standing.
"I'll fix it in the bathroom."`
"Yeah. Good. That's—yeah." He's staring at you like he's forgotten how to form sentences. "A good idea."
You smooth down your skirt with trembling hands. Your underwear is definitely ruined, you can feel how wet you are, slick and uncomfortable and god, you need to get out of this room before you do something stupid like beg him to finish what he started.
"I'll see you at the debrief," you manage.
"Yeah."
You make it to the door on shaking legs. Your hand is on the handle when he speaks again. "Hey."
You don't turn around. You can't turn around because if you look at him right now, you'll do something irreversible.
"This isn't over," he says quietly. "Just so you know."
Your fingers tighten on the door handle. "Lando."
"It's not." His voice is closer now. You feel him behind you, not touching but close enough that heat radiates between you. "I'm not going to push, but I'm not going to pretend that didn't just happen either."
You open the door and walk out without looking back, even though every nerve in your body is screaming at you to stay. The bathroom mirror shows exactly how fucked you are. Your makeup is smudged under one eye. Your lips are swollen like you've been biting them—you have been biting them. There are marks on your jaw, faint red patches where his stubble scraped against your skin. Your hair is messed up on one side. You look like you've been thoroughly compromised in a conference room.
You wet a paper towel and try to fix the damage, but your hands won't stop shaking. The cold water helps and you press wet palms to your cheeks, your neck, trying to calm the heat still racing through your body.
"Fuck," you whisper to no one.
Your reflection, however, doesn't provide any answers.
The debrief room is smaller than the conference room, it houses a table that seats maybe eight people, and when you walk in, Jon's already there, scrolling through his tablet. Zak's on a call in the corner. A few engineers you recognize but can't name, and Lando, sitting in the middle, looking completely normal, completely unphased.
He glances up when you enter and his face gives nothing away, like twenty minutes ago he didn't have you pinned against glass, asking you questions that made your brain melt.
"Hey," he says, easy and casual. "Saved you a seat." He taps the seat next to him and you want to barf. Instead, you sit your ass down and pull out your tablet. Your hands have stopped shaking. Your heartbeat has returned to normal. You've got this. You're totally, completely, fine.
Jon starts the debrief, pulling up performance data on the screen at the front of the room. Lando leans back in his chair, arms crossed, nodding along to whatever Jon's saying. He asks a question about the downforce. Proceeds to make a joke about Oscar's setup from the previous season and everyone laughs. He's completely normal, and a part of you is starting to think maybe you imagined the whole thing in the conference room when his hand lands on your thigh.
Not high up. Just above your knee, right over your skirt. Completely innocent if anyone looked. Except, his thumb has started moving in small circles. They're slow and deliberate, and the fabric of your skirt is thin enough that you can feel the heat of his palm, the exact pressure of each finger.
Your pen immediately stops moving, and while Jon is still talking, Lando continues to nod, asking more questions, all while his thumb keeps drawing circles.
Then his hand slides up, it's just an inch. Then another. Still over your skirt, still looks completely innocent, but it's higher now. Mid-thigh and the circles get wider, his thumb dragging across the fabric, and you can feel the heat spreading up through your body. You try to focus on Jon's words. Something about corner entry, but Lando's pinky finger stretches out, brushing against the inside of your thigh, and your breath stops completely.
His hand slides higher again and you reach down under the table and grab his wrist. Hard, and dig your nails into the flesh as a warning. He doesn't stop. Doesn't even look at you, just keeps nodding along to Jon's analysis, and his hand—his hand keeps fucking moving up, dragging yours with it now, until his fingers are high enough on your thigh that the edge of his pinky brushes against the hem of your skirt where it's ridden up.
"Thoughts on that setup change, Lando?" Jon asks.
"Yeah, makes sense. Should help with the understeer ." His voice is completely steady. His fingers flex against your thigh. "We can test it in the sim tomorrow, see how it feels." His thumb finds bare skin just above where your skirt has shifted, and the touch is like electricity straight up your spine.
You dig your nails harder into his wrist. He just turns his hand in your grip, twisting until his palm is up, and then his fingers thread through yours. Now you're holding hands on your thigh like this is something sweet, something innocent, except his thumb is stroking your bare skin in slow, deliberate circles and you know the fucker wants to go further.
Jon pulls up another slide. Lando shifts in his seat, angling toward you slightly like he's trying to see your tablet better. His knee presses against yours under the table. His fingers are on bare skin, halfway up your thigh, and if anyone looked under this table they'd see exactly what this is.
"What do you think about the tire strategy?" Zak's voice cuts through the haze in your brain.
You force yourself to look at your tablet. Force words to form. "The—uh—the medium-to-hard strategy should work for—"
Lando's thumb presses into the soft skin of your inner thigh and your voice cuts off.
"For the two-stop," you finish, and it comes out breathless.
Zak nods, and Jon begins talking about quali sims. Lando answers something about tire warm-up and his hand shifts higher, taking yours with it, and his pinky finger brushes against the edge of your panties. Your whole body goes rigid and as the fucker continues to talk, his pinky finger traces along the elastic edge of your panties. Then, just then, he hooks his finger under the elastic and pulls it aside.
Just barely. Just enough so that the cool air hits the wetness there, and oh god, you're so wet you can feel it, and his finger is right there, right at the edge, not touching where you need him but so fucking close. You're going to fucking kill him, actually kill him after this meeting.
"That sound good to you?" Jon's looking at you.
You have no fucking idea what he's asking about. "Yes. Sounds—sounds good."
Lando's finger slides through the wetness and you have to turn it into a cough, your hand flying to your mouth.
"You alright?" Zak asks.
"Fine. Sorry. Just," Lando's finger finds your clit and presses, and you actually make a sound, have to disguise it as clearing your throat. "Dry throat."
His finger starts moving in circles. "Someone get her some water," Zak says, and one of the engineers slides a bottle across the table.
You reach for it with your free hand, the one that's not trapped under the table tangled with Lando's while his other hand is between your legs. Your hand is shaking so badly water sloshes out when you try to drink. Lando's finger slides lower, dipping just barely inside you, and your thighs clench around his hand. He pulls back immediately and his thumb goes back to those slow circles on your inner thigh, over your underwear now, completely innocent again.
The message is crystal clear now: Stay still and behave, or I'll stop.
You force your legs to relax. Force yourself to breathe normally and his finger slides back, immediately pushing your underwear aside again, and this time when he touches your clit you manage to stay quiet, stay still, even though everything in your body is screaming.
Jon pulls up sector times. Lando adds commentary about his racing line through turn seven. His finger keeps moving in slow, devastating circles, and you're trying so hard to stay still, to stay quiet, but you're so wet you can hear it, and you're terrified everyone else can hear it too.
"I think we're good for now," Jon finally says. "Same time tomorrow for the sim session?"
"Sounds good." Lando's finger presses harder and you bite your lip so hard you taste blood. "Looking forward to it."
People start standing up, gathering their tablets and personal belongings. Lando's hand disappears from between your legs so fast you almost whimper at the loss, but he's already standing, stretching casually like nothing happened.
Like he didn't just have his fingers on you in a room full of people. Like you're not sitting there soaked and shaking and desperate.
"Right, I'm starving," he announces. "Gonna grab lunch. You coming?" He's looking at you, and his eyes are dark and amused and absolutely wicked. "You look like you could use a break."
You can't speak. Your voice is gone, dissolved somewhere between his finger on your clit and the desperate need still pulsing between your legs.
"I'll take that as a yes." He grabs his phone off the table, slides it into his pocket. "Come on then."
You stand on shaking legs. Your skirt is wrinkled, riding up higher than it should be. You smooth it down with trembling hands and pray no one notices. Jon claps Lando on the shoulder as you both head for the door. "Good session today. See you tomorrow, yeah?"
"Yep, bright and early." Lando's voice is easy, normal. He holds the door open for you and you have to walk past him, close enough to smell his cologne again, and your head swirls.
The hallway is empty, when Lando begins to speak. "You're very quiet," he says, falling into step beside you.
"Still thinking about the meeting?" His voice drops lower. "Or thinking about something else?"
"Fuck you."
"That's more like it." He sounds delighted. "There she is."
You jab the elevator button harder than necessary. The doors slide open immediately and you step inside, pressing yourself against the far wall. He follows, hands in his pockets, looking completely at ease. The doors close. you're finally alone, and you almost expect him to move. To touch you, to try and finish what he started.
He doesn't, instead he just stands there, leaning against the opposite wall, watching you with that infuriating smirk.
"You know what I realized?" he says conversationally.
You don't answer, so he continues. "You never actually answered my question. From before." The elevator descends. "About how long you've wanted to kiss me."
"I'm not doing this right now."
"Not doing what? Having a conversation?" He tilts his head. "I'm just curious. Was it really Barcelona? Or was it before that?"
The elevator reaches the ground floor. The doors open onto the lobby and you practically run out, but he's right behind you, matching your pace easily.
"I'll give you a ride home," he says and it's not a question.
"I have my car."
"Your car's in the shop, remember? That's why you got a ride in with Sarah this morning." He's already walking toward the parking garage. "Come on."
Fuck. He's right. You completely forgot.
"I can get an Uber."
"Don't be ridiculous." He glances back over his shoulder. "Unless you're scared to be alone in a car with me?"
You're not scared, you're fucking terrified. But not for the reasons he's implying. So, you do the totally sane thing, and follow him into the parking garage. When you get to his Lamborghini Urus, he opens the passenger door for you and the leather seat is cold against the back of your thighs where your skirt has ridden up.
Where his hand was ten minutes ago. He slides into the driver's seat and the engine roars to life, all that power barely contained. The sound vibrates through your chest, through your bones.
"Seatbelt," he says, glancing over. You fumble with it while he pulls out of the parking garage and the silence is suffocating. You can hear every breath, every small shift of fabric. The gear shift is right there, his hand wrapped around it, and you're staring at his fingers, remembering exactly how they felt. He reaches forward and turns on the music. The volume is just loud enough that conversation would be difficult, and you're grateful for it because you have no idea what you'd even say.
His hand rests on the gear shift. So close to your thigh, yet, he doesn't budge. Doesn't make a single move to touch you.
The city passes by in a blur. Streetlights and pedestrians and other cars, but all you can focus on is him. The way his jaw clenches slightly when he shifts gears. The way his fingers drum against the leather. The way he's so completely calm while you're falling apart in the passenger seat. Your underwear is still wet. You can feel it every time you shift in your seat, a constant reminder of what he did to you, what he didn't finish.
He pulls up in front of your building and puts the car in park but doesn't turn off the engine. It idles, a low purr that you can feel everywhere. He turns the volume down slowly, and the silence that follows is deafening.
You reach for the door handle.
"Hey."
You stop, not looking at him.
"Look at me."
You do. You shouldn't, but you do. His eyes are dark, pupils blown wide, and there's something predatory in the way he's looking at you, like he's starving.
"You did really well in there," he says, voice low. "Staying quiet. Staying still." His tongue flicks across his bottom lip and your eyes track the movement. "It was very impressive."
Heat floods through you, pooling between your already-soaked thighs.
"Lando."
"When you get home," He leans slightly toward you. "When you're alone in your apartment, and you're thinking about what happened in that meeting."
"I won't."
"You will be." He's certain, so fucking sure of himself, it's insufferable. "And when you are, when you're touching yourself because you're so desperate you can't help it," His eyes drop to your thighs, then back to your face. "I want you to think about what would've happened if Jon hadn't knocked. If I'd had more time with you."
Your breath catches.
"Think about where my fingers would've gone. What I would've done to you in that conference room where anyone could've caught us." He reaches out and his thumb brushes across your bottom lip, the same way it did earlier, and your whole body responds. "Think about how quiet you would've had to stay while I made you come."
You're going to die. You're actually going to die right here in his passenger seat.
"Go inside," he says softly, pulling his hand back. "I'll see you tomorrow."
"You're—you can't just."
"Can't what?" That infuriating smirk is back. "Drive you home? I actually think I deserve a thank you."
You want to hit him. Want to kiss him. Want to pull him into your apartment and finish what he started. Instead, you get out of the car on shaking legs. He waits until you're at the door of your building before he drives off, engine growling as he disappears down the street.
You make it inside. Into the elevator. Into your apartment. You close the door and lean back against it, breathing hard. You head straight to your bedroom, already knowing exactly what you're about to do.
Hating that he knew it too, hating even more that he's right.
The rest of the week passes in agonizing normalcy. Lando shows up to the sim session on time, professional, focused. He discusses setup changes with the engineers like an actual adult. He doesn't call you at 3 AM. Doesn't text you anything inappropriate. Doesn't even look at you for longer than strictly necessary.
The night before you leave for Japan, you're in your apartment packing. Business casual for the events, comfortable clothes for the paddock, the McLaren team jacket that's mandatory for all personnel. You fold everything, checking items off your list.
Your phone sits on the bed, silent. Lando and Oscar are flying out on the McLaren private jet early tomorrow morning, 5 AM departure from Farnborough. You're on the commercial flight, business class, leaving three hours later from Heathrow. It's always been like this. The drivers get the PJ, the key personnel fly commercial but comfortable. You've made peace with it. It's not like you expected to be on the plane with them.
Except now you can't stop thinking about it. Lando in those grey joggers he always wears on flights. Lando stretched out across the leather seats, probably playing strip pocker with Oscar or watching old race footage. Lando twelve hours ahead of you, already in Tokyo while you're stuck in business class somewhere over Russia.
You zip your suitcase closed harder than necessary. This is stupid. You've done this a hundred times. Flown separately, met them at the hotel, had everything coordinated and ready by the time they arrived. It's your job. It's fine.
Heathrow at 8 AM is its own circle of hell. Security lines, overpriced coffee, flight delays announced in monotone over the intercom. You make it to your gate with twenty minutes to spare and find a seat near the window. Lando posted an Instagram story three hours ago, you saw it while brushing your teeth this morning, him and Oscar on the jet, Oscar sleeping with his mouth open. The caption said something about being ready for Japan.
You pull out your tablet and go through Lando's schedule one more time. Thursday: arrival, settle in, team dinner. Friday: media day, practice sessions, sponsor meet-and-greet. Saturday: quali, another sponsor event. Sunday: race.
You pull out your laptop. Open Lando's schedule again, stare at it without seeing it. Somewhere over the North Sea, you close the laptop. Somewhere over Poland, you lean your head against the window and watch clouds drift past.
This is unattainable. Whatever happened in that conference room, whatever almost happened before Jon knocked—it was a moment. A lapse in judgment. Lando Norris doesn't date his assistant. Doesn't have relationships with employees. He has models and influencers and people who exist in his world, not people who coordinate his calendar and fix his disasters.
Somewhere over Russia, you recline your seat and close your eyes. You don't think about Lando stretched out on the private jet. You don't think about his hand on your thigh in that meeting. You don't think about how his fingers felt or how his voice sounded when he told you to think about him. You don't think about any of it.
You're lying, but at least there's no one here to call you on it.
Japan is humid and overwhelming and beautiful. You arrive at the hotel Thursday afternoon, jet-lagged and exhausted. Lando and Oscar got in hours ago, you saw them in the lobby when you were checking in, surrounded by team personnel and looking refreshed in that way people who fly private always do.
The team dinner that night is at some expensive restaurant in Shibuya. You sit at the far end of the table, taking notes on your phone about schedule changes for tomorrow. Lando's four seats down, laughing at something Oscar said, drinking water because he's being responsible before a race weekend.
He doesn't look at you once, and when Friday rolls around, you're busy from 6 AM. Coordinating with the press officers, making sure Lando hits all his media obligations, adjusting timing when an interview runs long. You see him in passing and catch up to him.
"You've got Sky Sports in ten," you tell him between sessions.
"Yep, cheers." He doesn't break stride, already walking toward the media pen with his PR officer.
You stand there in the paddock, tablet in hand, and watch him go. This is your job. This is what you do during race weekends. You're not an engineer, not a trainer, not someone who's essential to the actual racing. You coordinate. You schedule. You make sure he's where he needs to be, when he needs to be there. The rest of the time, you're just there.
You're updating his schedule for next week. This is fine. This is normal. This is every race weekend. Except you keep catching yourself watching the timing screens. Watching his sector times. Watching the little dot that represents his car going round and round the circuit. FP1 goes smoothly. FP2 has a small lock-up in turn one but nothing serious. You see him briefly when he comes back to the garage, he's talking to his engineer, analyzing data, completely in the zone.
Friday night you have dinner alone in your hotel room. Room service, ESPN playing race coverage on the TV, your laptop open with his schedule for tomorrow. Saturday is qualifying and the energy in the paddock is different. Higher stakes with more tension. You do your job, make sure he's at the pre-quali briefing, coordinate with media for post-quali interviews, confirm timing for the sponsor appearance later.
You watch qualifying from the garage. He puts it P4. Good, but not great. He's frustrated when he comes back, you can see it in the set of his jaw, the way he pulls off his helmet.
"P4's solid," his engineer says.
"Should've been P2." Lando's already reviewing the data, pointing at the screen. "Lost time in sector two, if I'd just—"
On Sunday, the paddock is chaos, there's camera crews everywhere, fans pressed against the barriers, the energy electric and overwhelming. You've been awake since 5 AM coordinating last-minute changes, confirming grid walk timing, making sure everything runs smoothly. You see Lando in the garage during the pre-race prep. He's in his race suit, going through his routine with Jon. Stretching, visualization, the same ritual he does before every race.
The race starts and you watch from the garage, headset on so you can hear the team radio. Lando gets a good start, gains a position into turn one. P3.
"Good job, Lando, P3, keep it clean," his engineer says over the radio.
You watch the monitors. Watch his lap times. Watch the gap to the car ahead.
"DRS enabled," the engineer says. "Let's get him this lap."
You hold your breath. He's through turn one clean, right behind Leclerc. Turn two he's on the inside, they're side by side through the corner and then the radio crackles.
"Fuck—I'm okay, I'm okay—fuck—"
Your heart stops. The screen shows it in slow motion. Lando and Leclerc side by side, Lando on the inside, not enough space, the Ferrari comes across and Lando's got nowhere to go. He clips the Ferrari's rear tire and suddenly he's spinning, out of control, and then the sickening crunch of carbon fiber hitting the barrier. Hard.
The car bounces off the wall and slides back onto the track, rear end destroyed, front wing gone, debris everywhere. Red flag. The screen shows the wreckage and your stomach drops.
"Are you okay?" his engineer asks urgently. "Lando, are you okay?"
Static.
Then, "Yeah. Fuuuuuuck. Yeah, I'm fine. Car's fucked."
The relief hits you so hard your knees almost give out. He's fine. He's talking. He's fine. The medical car is already there. You watch on the monitor as Lando climbs out, waving to show he's okay. But the way he rips off his helmet, the way he stalks away from the car tells a different story.
"He's going to medical, can you ask if he still wants to do the interviews?" Zak calls out to you, and you nod. It's standard procedure for crashes that hard.
You're moving toward the medical center. The paddock is chaos, there's people rushing past, radios crackling, camera crews trying to get footage. You push through it all, heart still pounding, the image of that crash replaying in your head. The medical center is quiet compared to outside. Lando's sitting on an examination table, still in his race suit, unzipped to the waist. There's a medical officer checking his shoulder, asking him questions about pain levels and range of motion.
"I'm fine," Lando says, and his voice is sharp. "It's fine, I'm fine."
You hover in the doorway. His hair is a mess from the helmet, sweat-damp and sticking up. There's a red mark on his cheekbone from where the helmet pressed during impact.
"They want to know if you're up for interviews," you say, keeping your voice professional. Steady. "Zak is asking, and there's the post-race media obligation but I can push it if you need."
"If I need?" He laughs, but there's no humor in it. "If I need time because I just binned it into a wall?"
"That's not what I said."
"I'm fine. I'll do the fucking interviews." He shrugs off the medical officer's hand. "I'm cleared, yeah?"
"You should really—" the medical officer starts.
"I'm cleared." It's not a question.
The officer sighs. "You're cleared. But you need to take care of that shoulder."
Lando's already sliding off the table, pulling his race suit back up, zipping it roughly. His hands are shaking. You can see it even though he's trying to hide it.
"Lando."
"What?" He rounds on you and his eyes are too bright, too intense. He's angry. You freeze and the words die in your throat because you don't actually know what you were going to say. That you're worried? That he doesn't have to do this? That seeing him crash made your heart stop?
"Nothing, I just—"
"Good." He's already moving past you, yanking the door open. "Let's go." He storms out into the paddock and you're left standing there in the too-bright medical room, watching him disappear into the chaos. You follow at a distance. Watch him walk through the paddock with his shoulders tight, his jaw set. People try to stop him, but he keeps moving, heading straight for the media pen.
Sky Sports is first. You stand just out of frame, watching him put on the professional face. The interviewer asks the standard questions, what happened, are you okay, thoughts on the incident. "Yeah, just racing," Lando says, and his voice is perfectly controlled. Perfectly fine. "Leclerc and I both going for the position, unfortunately we came together. That's racing sometimes. Just gutted for the team, they've worked so hard and we've thrown away good points today."
He says all the right things. Smiles at the right moments. Thanks the team, thanks the fans, talks about bouncing back next week. When he finally finishes the last interview, he walks straight past you without a word. Doesn't even look at you, just heads toward the McLaren garage, and you know he's going to debrief with the engineers, review the data, analyze what went wrong.
You stand there in the media pen, holding your tablet, and realize that the distance he's been keeping all week—the politeness, the normalcy, the acting like nothing happened, wasn't him moving on.
It was him holding on by a thread and that thread just snapped.
You give him two hours. Two hours to debrief with the team, to shower, to decompress. Two hours before you show up at his hotel room with the schedule changes for next week that absolutely cannot wait until tomorrow because there are flights to coordinate and sponsor obligations to reschedule.
Upon entering the hotel, you head to the front desk.
"Good evening, I need access to Lando Norris's suite," you tell the receptionist. "I'm his assistant." She checks her computer, verifies your credentials in the system. As his PA, you're listed as authorized personnel, can access his room for deliveries, coordination, emergencies. It's standard practice and makes the logistics easier during race weekends.
She hands you a key card. "Fortieth floor. Suite 4012."
The elevator ride up feels endless. Your tablet is clutched against your chest, the schedule changes pulled up on the screen. This is fine. This is professional. You coordinate with him in hotel rooms all the time during race weekends, it's easier than trying to find quiet spaces in the paddock. The fortieth floor hallway is quiet, the plush carpet muffles your footsteps and you find Suite 4012 at the very end.
You knock, and no answer. So, you knock again, and again. "Lando? I need to go over the schedule changes."
Still nothing. Here goes nothing. You swipe the key card and the lock clicks open, you push the door open and step inside. The suite is massive, there's a living area with large windows that overlook Tokyo, a separate bedroom through an open doorway, a bathroom, and a McLaren team jacket thrown over the back of the couch, his shoes kicked off by the door.
"Lando?" you call out. "I texted you, I need to—"
That's when you hear the sound from the bedroom. Low and rough and—oh god. Your brain catches up to what you're hearing a second too late. The kind of breathing that's unmistakable. The kind of sound that makes heat flood through your entire body. He's jerking off, oh my fucking god.
Another sound, a groan, muffled like he's trying to stay quiet, and your mouth goes dry.
You should leave. You need to leave right now. "Fuck—" His voice carries through the open bedroom door, rough and desperate, and something low in your belly clenches so hard you have to grab the back of the couch.
Leave. Leave now. But you can hear him so clearly. Can hear the rhythm of his breathing, getting faster. Can hear the slick sound of his cock, and your feet are suddenly planted, unwilling to move.
Jesus Christ. Your face is on fire. Your whole body is on fire. You're frozen in his living room listening to your boss getting himself off and you need to leave, you need to fucking leave.
"Fuck," he groans again, and then your name. Your name, breathless and desperate on his tongue and so fucking clear there's no mistaking it. He's saying your name, repeating it like it's the only thing getting him through this. "Please," His voice breaks on the word. "Fuck, please."
You're going to die. You're going to die right here in his hotel suite listening to him fall apart while thinking about you. The sounds get more desperate. His breathing harsher, you can hear the rustle of sheets, the creak of the bed, and your imagination is filling in all the details, his hand wrapped around his cock, his head thrown back, his abs flexing with each movement.
"God—fuck—" Another groan, louder this time, and you realize he's close. God, he's about to fucking come and he's saying your name. You hear him gasp your name one more time, broken and raw, and then a string of curses as he comes.
The silence that follows is deafening. You stand there trying to steady yourself as your heart pounds so hard you can hear it in your ears. Your underwear is soaked, your whole body is shaking. You turn toward the door, moving too fast, and your hip catches the edge of the side table. The decorative vase on top wobbles, you reach for it but your hands are shaking too badly, and it tips over the edge. The crash is deafening in the quiet suite. Glass shattering against the floor, water spreading across the floor, flowers scattering everywhere.
"Fuck," you breathe.
Complete silence from the bedroom. Then—"Who's there?" Accompanied by footsteps, rapidly increasing. You freeze, staring at the broken vase, at the mess spreading across the floor. There's nowhere to go. The door is ten feet away but he's already on the way. Then, in a matter of seconds, Lando appears in the bedroom doorway. He's in grey joggers, no shirt, hair an absolute mess. His face is flushed, his chest still rising and falling rapidly. His eyes are wide, startled and then he sees you.
You watch the realization hit him. Watch his expression shift from confusion to shock to something that might be horror. "How long—" His voice is rough, wrecked. "How long have you been here?"
You can't speak. Can't move, you can only stand there surrounded by broken glass and spilled water while your face burns and your heart tries to break out of your chest. His eyes drop to the mess on the floor, then back to your face. You watch him put it together, the broken vase, your expression, the way you can't look at him. "Oh fuck." He runs both hands through his hair. "Fuck. You—how much did you hear?"
"I'm sorry." Your voice comes out strangled. "I knocked, you didn't answer, I needed to—the schedule changes, I just—I'm sorry, I'll go."
"Don't." He crosses the room in three strides, making sure to avoid the glass splattered across the floor. "Don't move, you'll, there's glass everywhere."
He's right in front of you now and you can smell him, sweat and something else, and you know what that something else is and you're going to die. "How much did you hear?" He asks again, and his voice is quiet now, serious.
"Nothing, it's fine, I just got here."
"Oh my god." He starts laughing and it's that Lando laugh, the one that makes his whole face light up even though this is absolutely not funny. "Oh my god, you totally heard it. Look at your face, you're so red right now."
"I'm not."
"You are, you're like, properly red. That's amazing." He's still laughing, running a hand through his hair. "This is the worst thing that's ever happened to me, by the way. Worse than the crash, significantly worse than the crash."
Despite everything, you feel a laugh bubble up in your chest. "It's fine, I'll just, I'll help you clean this up and we can forget it ever happened."
"Yeah?" He's grinning now, and there's something dangerous in it. Something that makes your stomach flip. "Just forget about it?"
"Completely."
"Right, because you're so good at forgetting things." He moves toward the bedroom to grab something to clean with. "Very convincing." You crouch down and start picking up the larger pieces of glass, trying to focus on anything other than what just happened. The flowers are scattered everywhere, water soaking into the expensive carpet.
He comes back with a towel and crouches down across from you. That's when you see the dark spot on the grey fabric of his joggers. A wet patch near the hem, and your brain immediately supplies exactly what that is, and heat floods through your entire body. He follows your gaze. Looks down. Looks back up at you with that fucking grin.
"See something interesting?"
Your face is on fire. "No."
"No?" He shifts slightly and the fabric pulls tighter. "You sure about that?"
"I'm just cleaning up the glass."
"While staring at my crotch, yeah, very subtle." He's laughing again as he picks up a piece of glass. "You're terrible at this."
"At cleaning?"
"At pretending." He wraps the glass in the towel. "At acting like you're not affected."
"I'm not affected."
"Yeah? Then why are you shaking?"
You look down. Your hands are trembling. "I'm not—"
"You are." He reaches across the mess and catches your wrist, stilling your hand. His fingers are warm and sure and you can feel your pulse hammering against his touch. "You're shaking. Your face is red, and you can't stop looking at me."
"That's not true."
"And you heard me say your name." His thumb presses against your pulse point. "Didn't you?"
The air feels too thick. Too hot, and suddenly you can't breathe properly. "Lando."
"Tell me you didn't hear that and I'll drop it right now." His eyes are locked on yours. "Tell me you don't know exactly what I was thinking about." You can't, can't lie, can't say it because you did hear it, and you do know, and your entire body is screaming at you to close the distance between you.
"That's what I thought." He lets go of your wrist and sits back on his heels. "So no, I don't think we're going to forget about this.
"We have to."
"Why?" He tilts his head, watching you. "Give me one good reason why we have to pretend this didn't happen."
"Because you're—" You stop yourself.
"I'm what? Your boss?" He laughs. "Yeah, we've established that's not stopping anything in the conference room. Try again."
You can't think of anything. Your brain has completely shut down, and he stands up, glass crunching under his trainers, and that's when you see it properly. The grey joggers are doing absolutely nothing to hide how hard he is. The outline is obscene, obvious, and he catches you looking.
"Yeah." His voice is rough. "That's what you do to me. That's what you've been doing to me for months."
"So here's what's going to happen." He takes a step toward you, and there's something predatory in the movement. "I'm going to be very clear with you because apparently subtle isn't working."
Another step and suddenly you're backed up against the wall. "I want to fuck you. Right now. Here." His eyes are locked on yours, dark and intense and completely serious. "Not date you, not take you to dinner, not have some long conversation about feelings and what this means."
He braces a hand against the wall next to your head. "I want you right fucking now. Tonight, and then we'll go back to normal tomorrow and pretend this never happened if that's what you want." His other hand comes up, fingers brushing against your jaw. "You can take it or leave it. But I need an answer right now because I'm losing my mind here."
Your heart is slamming against your ribs. Your whole body is screaming yes, take it, stop thinking.
"Lando."
"Yes or no." His thumb brushes across your bottom lip. "That's all I need. One word, just tell me one word."
"Yes."
The word barely leaves your mouth before he's on you. His lips crash against yours, hard and desperate, and there's absolutely nothing gentle about it. One hand tangles in your hair, the other grabs your hip and pulls you flush against him. You can feel how hard he is, pressed against your stomach, and the sound he makes when you gasp is absolutely obscene.
"Fuck—" He breaks the kiss just long enough to breathe. His mouth is back on yours, tongue sliding past your lips, and your hands find his bare shoulders, nails digging in. He tastes like mint and desperation and something that's just him, then, he presses you harder against the wall, his hips grinding into yours, and you can feel his cock through the thin fabric of his joggers. The heat of him, the hard length of his cock, and when he rolls his hips again you actually moan into his mouth.
"That's it," he breathes against your lips. "Wanna hear you."
His hand slides from your hip to your thigh, pushing your skirt up. His palm is rough and hot against your bare skin, fingers digging in hard enough to bruise. He hooks your leg over his hip and grinds against you properly now, right where you need him, and the friction is perfect and not nearly enough.
"You're so fucking—" He breaks off with a groan, burying his face in your neck. His teeth scrape against your pulse point and you arch into him. "So fucking perfect."
His hand slides higher, fingers brushing against the edge of your underwear, and you actually whimper.
"These need to come off," he mutters against your skin. "Everything needs to come off. Right fucking now." He pulls back just enough to look at you and his eyes are absolutely feral. His hair is a mess from your hands, his lips red and swollen, his chest heaving.
"Bedroom," he says. "Now. Unless you want me to fuck you against this wall where anyone could hear."
Your brain has completely short-circuited. You can only nod, and his grin is wicked. "Good." He grabs your hand and pulls you toward the bedroom. The bedroom is dark except for the city lights, Tokyo glitters forty floors below, completely oblivious. The bed is unmade, sheets tangled, and you can see exactly where he was lying when you walked in. He spins you around and his mouth is on yours again, walking you backwards toward the bed. His hands are everywhere, your waist, your hips, sliding up your ribs to cup your jaw. When the back of your knees hit the mattress, he pushes you down.
You land on the sheets and they smell like him, and your brain supplies the image of what he was doing here twenty minutes ago and heat floods through you. He's standing over you, chest heaving, and his eyes drag down your body slowly. Your skirt is rucked up around your thighs. Your shirt is wrinkled from his hands. You're a mess and he's looking at you like you're something he wants to destroy.
"Take off your shirt," he says. Your hands are shaking but you reach for the buttons. He watches every single one come undone, and when you shrug it off his jaw clenches. "Skirt too." You shimmy it down your hips and kick it off, and now you're in just your bra and underwear and his eyes are so dark they're almost black.
"Fuck." He runs a hand over his mouth. "You're so," he stops himself, shakes his head. "Lie back."
You do and the sheets are cool against your overheated skin. He hooks his fingers in his joggers and pulls them down, and oh god. He's not wearing anything underneath. His cock springs free, hard and flushed and already leaking, and you can't stop staring.
You let out a soft whimper, and Lando knows he’s gotten you right where he wants you. His cock aches, he’s so hard for you.
"See something you like?" There's that cocky grin, but his voice is strained. He climbs onto the bed, settles between your legs, and the weight of him is perfect. His hands bracket your head and he leans down, nose brushing against yours.
"Last chance," he murmurs. "Say no and we stop."
"Hell no." He kisses you again, slower this time, deeper. His hips roll against yours and you can feel him, hot and hard against your soaked underwear, the friction makes you gasp into his mouth. His hand slides down your side, over your ribs, your waist, your hip. His fingers hook in the elastic of your panties.
"These are ruined," he says against your mouth. "Absolutely soaked. Were you this wet when you were listening to me?" Your face burns but you can't deny it.
"Thought so." He drags your underwear down slowly, tossing them somewhere off the bed. His hand comes back up, palm sliding up the inside of your thigh, and when his fingers finally touch you, you both groan. "Fuck, you're so wet." He circles your clit once, twice, and your hips buck up. "This all for me?"
"Lando," you moan out.
"Answer the question." His fingers slide lower, teasing. "Is this from listening to me? Or from thinking about what I was saying?"
"Both," you gasp.
"Good answer." He pushes one finger inside you and your back arches off the bed. "So tight baby. Fuck, you're going to feel so good on my cock." He adds a second finger, curling them just right, and his thumb finds your clit. The combination makes you see stars.
"That's it," he breathes, watching your face. "Want to see you come before I fuck you. Want to watch you fall apart." His fingers move faster, harder, and you're already so worked up from earlier that you're embarrassingly close.
"Come on," he murmurs, leaning down to bite at your neck. "Let me hear you. No one's going to interrupt us this time." That does it and you come hard around his fingers, gasping his name, and he works you through it until you're shaking. You're seeing stars, and he continues to rub on your clit.
"Fuck, that was beautiful." He pulls his fingers out and you watch him bring them to his mouth, licking them clean. "Taste even better than I imagined." He reaches over to the nightstand, fumbling for a condom. His hands are shaking as he rolls it on.
"You ready?" His voice is rough, barely controlled.
You nod and he lines himself up and pushes in slowly, and the stretch is intense, perfect, everything. Your nails dig into his shoulders and he groans, dropping his forehead to yours. "Fuck—so tight," he's barely halfway in. "You okay?"
"Yes—don't stop, fuck, fuck," you moan. He pushes in further, inch by inch, until he's fully seated inside you. You both freeze, breathing hard.
"Need a second," he grits out. "Or this is going to be over waaay too fast." You can feel him shaking, the tension in every muscle as he holds himself still. You open your mouth to speak, but Lando stops you, "Give me a second—" He laughs, breathless. "This is embarrassing. I'm not usually, fuck, you just feel so good."
You roll your hips experimentally and he actually gasps. "Don't—if you do that I'm going to actualy cum."
You do it again, and he takes a deep breath before smiling. "Fuck it." He starts moving, pulling almost all the way out before slamming back in, and the pace is brutal and perfect and exactly what you need.
He drives into you harder and you actually cry out. "That's it. Want everyone in this hotel to hear you." His hand grabs your thigh, hiking your leg higher over his hip so he can go deeper. "Want them to know exactly what I'm doing to you." Each thrust hits something inside you that makes your vision blur. Your nails drag down his back, definitely leaving marks, and he groans.
"Mark me up," he breathes against your neck. "Want to see it tomorrow. Want to remember this." His mouth finds yours again, messy and desperate. All teeth and tongue and gasping breaths between kisses. His hand slides between your bodies, fingers finding your clit, and the dual sensation makes you clench around him.
"Oh fuck—" His rhythm stutters. "Do that again." You clench deliberately and he actually growls, hips snapping harder. "You're going to make me come if you keep doing that." His thumb circles your clit faster. "But you're coming first. Want to feel you come on my cock."
The praise combined with his fingers on your clit and the relentless pace of his hips pushes you right to the edge. "Come for me," he demands. "Want to feel it. Come on, baby."
You shatter, clenching around him so hard he chokes on a moan. Your whole body goes rigid, pleasure crashing through you in waves, and you can hear yourself crying out his name but you can't stop. "Fuck—fuck," He slams into you twice more, rhythm gone completely, and then he's coming too, face buried in your neck, saying your name over and over like a prayer.
He collapses on top of you, both of you breathing hard, sweat-slicked and shaking. You can feel his heart pounding against your chest, matching your own racing pulse. After a moment he lifts his head, looking down at you. His hair is completely destroyed, his face flushed, lips swollen from kissing. He looks absolutely wrecked.
"That was—" He stops, laughs breathlessly. "Yeah. That was nuts."
"Yeah," you agree, because you can't form actual words yet.
He pulls out carefully and you both wince. He ties off the condom and tosses it, then collapses back onto the bed next to you, one arm thrown over his eyes. "Give me like, ten minutes," he says. "And then we're doing that again."
"Ten minutes?"
You laugh despite yourself, and he rolls toward you, hand finding your hip. "Stay," he says, and there's something vulnerable in it. "Tonight. Please, stay."
You should say no. Should get dressed, have that conversation about the schedule, go back to your own hotel room and pretend this was just a one-time thing. But his hand is warm on your hip and Tokyo is glittering outside the windows and you're not ready for this to be over yet.
The following morning, you wake up to sunlight streaming through windows and the immediate, horrifying realization that you're naked in Lando Norris's bed. Your body aches. That's the first thing you notice, a deep, satisfying soreness in your thighs, your hips, between your legs. The second thing you notice is the evidence scattered across your skin like a crime scene. Bruises on your hips, dark purple fingerprints that you can count. Marks on your thighs. Your neck.
There are scratches down your own arms from where you clawed at yourself, at him, at the sheets. You don't remember doing that but the evidence doesn't lie. The third thing you notice is Lando, still asleep beside you. Face-down in the pillow, one arm stretched across where you were lying moments ago. His back is a mess of red lines from your nails, and there's a bite mark on his shoulder that looks almost violent in the morning light.
7:43 AM
Shit. His flight to the next race is at noon. You have meetings scheduled, his entire day planned down to the minute. You slip out of bed as quietly as possible, gathering your clothes from where they're scattered across the floor. Your shirt is wrinkled beyond repair. Your underwear is, well it's somewhere. After looking for about three minutes, you find your skirt under the bed.
"Where are you going?"
His voice is rough with sleep, and it does something to you. Makes heat pool low in your belly even though you're sore, even though you should not be thinking about this right now. You turn and he's propped up on one elbow, watching you with heavy-lidded eyes. His hair is sticking up in every direction.
"I have to, Lando, we have an entire schedule to go over. Your flight's at noon."
"So we have time." He pats the bed next to him. "Come back."
"Lando."
"Five more minutes," he murmurs, and suddenly you're against him, his body solid and warm against your back. His arm drapes over your waist, hand splaying across your stomach possessively.
You know this is a bad idea, horrible, idea. But goddamn it, you just can't bring yourself to say no to him. So, you drop your clothes and climb back into bed. He immediately pulls you against him, warm and solid, and presses a kiss to your shoulder.
This feels different than last night. Last night was frantic, desperate, angry almost. This feels completely dangerous in a different way. "We can't," you begin.
"We already did," he points out, and you can hear the smile in his voice. "Multiple times, if I remember correctly."
Your face burns. You do remember. You remember all of it, every touch, every word, every time he made you come until you couldn't think straight. "That's not what I meant."
"Then what did you mean?" His hand slides down, fingers tracing the marks he left on your hip. "Because it seems pretty clear what happened here."
You should move, you need to move, get dressed, re-establish the professional boundary that you obliterated last night. But his hand is moving lower, thumb brushing the crease where your thigh meets your hip, and your body is already responding. Traitor.
"We said one night," you manage, but your voice is weak.
"Did we?" His lips brush against your shoulder, exactly where he bit you last night. The mark is still there. "I don't remember saying that."
"You said," What did he say? You can't remember. Can't think when his hand is moving like that, when you can feel him hardening against your ass.
"I said a lot of things last night," he murmurs against your skin. "You want me to repeat them? Because I remember you really liked it when I said—"
"Don't," you interrupt, squeezing your eyes shut. You don't need him to repeat it. You remember. God, you remember the filthy things he said, the way his voice got rough and demanding. His hand slides between your thighs and you're already wet. Already ready for him even though you're sore, even though this is a terrible idea.
"You're thinking too much," he says, and there's that insufferable knowing tone. Like he can read your mind, like he knows exactly what you're spiraling about. Maybe he does. Maybe you're that obvious. His fingers find your clit and you gasp, hips jerking involuntarily. He makes a satisfied sound, like he's proven something.
"See? Your body knows what it wants even if your brain won't shut up about it." You want to argue but he's circling your clit now, slow and deliberate, and all the arguments die in your throat.
"We have—" you try, "—there's the schedule—"
"Tell me my schedule then," he says, and you can hear the challenge in it, the fuckning amusement. This is a game to him. This is always a game.
"Checkout is at eleven," His finger slides lower, teasing. "Car to the airport at eleven-thirty." He slides two fingers inside you and your words dissolve into a moan. You're so wet, so ready, and it should be embarrassing how easily your body opens for him.
"Keep going," he encourages, and his free hand comes up to cup your breast, thumb circling your nipple. "What else?" You're not going to be able to do this. Can't focus when he's touching you like this, when pleasure is already building low in your belly.
"You have—fuck—you have a call with sponsors at two."
"Uh-huh." He curls his fingers and finds that spot inside you that makes you see stars. "What time are we landing?"
"I can't," you gasp, grinding back against his hand. You need more, need him to move faster, but he's taking his time. Torturing you.
"You can," he says firmly. "You're good at this, remember? You know my schedule better than I do." His fingers pump slowly, deliberately, never quite enough to get you there. His thumb finds your clit again, pressing in rhythm with his fingers, and you're going to die. You're going to die right here in his hotel bed because Lando Norris won't stop touching you.
"Media obligations, Thursday morning," you're grinding against his hand now, chasing the orgasm that's just out of reach. "Prep for, oh god, oh my fuuuucking god."
"Keep going," he murmurs against your neck. You can feel him smiling.
"Practice Friday, quali Saturday," Your voice is barely recognizable, high and desperate. "Lando."
"Good girl," he praises, and those two words combined with his fingers curling inside you push you right to the edge. "What else?" You can't think. Can't remember. Can't do anything but feel, his fingers inside you, his thumb on your clit, his body solid and hot behind you, his voice in your ear telling you how good you are, how well you take it.
Your phone buzzes again. Multiple times. Insistent and reality tries to crash back in but Lando doesn't stop, doesn't slow down.
"That's," you gasp, "that's probably Zak."
"Probably," he agrees, and his fingers move faster. "But you're not done yet."
"I need to, fuck, I need to answer."
"After," he says firmly, and adds a third finger. The stretch is perfect and terrible and you're so close, grinding back against his hand shamelessly now. You should be embarrassed by the wet sounds, by how desperate you are, but you can't bring yourself to care.
"Come for me," he says, voice dropping into that commanding tone that makes everything in you tighten. "Come on my fingers and then you can go be responsible." His thumb presses hard against your clit and that's it, you're coming, clenching around his fingers, gasping his name into the pillow while he works you through it. He doesn't stop until you're shaking, pushing his hand away because it's too much.
When you can breathe again, when your heart stops trying to break out of your chest, you become aware of several things at once: Your phone is still buzzing, Lando's still hard against your ass. You just let him finger you while quizzing you about his schedule. You are so unbearably fucked.
"Better?" he asks, and you can hear the smug satisfaction in his voice.
Your phone is still buzzing and you grab it with shaking hands. There's three texts from Zak. Two from the PR team. One from logistics asking about Lando's luggage. Fuck, fuck, you're going to get fucking fired.
"Shit. I need to—I have to go." You're scrambling for your clothes again.
"Hey." He's out of bed, standing in front of you completely naked and completely unselfconscious about it. About the scratches down his chest, the bite mark on his shoulder, the fact that he's still obviously hard. Before you can move, before you can think, his hand catches your wrist. "Look at me."
You do, even though you know you shouldn't. Even though looking at him makes everything more complicated. He's gorgeous, his hair is sticking up where you pulled it. There's a hickey on his collarbone that you definitely put there. And he's looking at you like you're the entire world. And for just a second—one brief, stupid second—you let yourself think that maybe this means something.
Then his expression shifts. "You're spiraling," he says, and the warmth from moments ago is gone.
"I'm not."
"You are." His hand tightens on your wrist. Not painful, but firm enough that you can't pull away even if you wanted to. "You're doing that thing where you overthink until you talk yourself out of what you actually want.
"You don't know what I want."
"Don't I?" He's smiling now, and it's not nice. "You want me to tell you this means something. You want me to make this easy for you so you don't have to feel guilty about fucking your boss." He leans closer, still holding your wrist. "But I'm not going to do that."
Your stomach drops. "Then what are we doing?"
"Having fun," he says easily, like it's obvious. Like you're stupid for asking. "Isn't that enough?" It should be. You should say yes, should take what he's offering and not ask for more. But something twists in your chest, sharp and ugly.
"Let go of me."
"No." His thumb finds your pulse point, presses in. "Not until you stop lying to yourself."
"I'm not."
"You are. You're already thinking about how this was a mistake, how you need to put distance between us, how you're going to be professional again starting now." His eyes are too knowing, too green, too blue. "But you won't. Because you're going to show up at my room tonight anyway."
"You're being an asshole, Norris."
"Yeah," he agrees, finally releasing your wrist. "But you knew that already." He steps back, runs a hand through his hair, and for a split second something flickers across his face, something that looks almost uncertain. But it's gone before you can identify it, replaced by that insufferable smirk.
"Go do your job," he says, already turning away. "I'll see you at eleven."
You're in the lobby at 10:58, tablet in hand, going over the Singapore schedule one more time even though you've already memorized it. The SUV is idling outside, a black Mercedes, luggage already loaded. Driver awaiting the cataclysmic clusterfuck he doesn't even know he's going to be a part of.
At 11:00 exactly, the elevator doors open and Lando steps out, sunglasses on even though it's overcast outside. There's headphones around his neck and when he sees you, he doesn't break stride, just continues to walk past you toward the exit.
"Morning," you say, falling into step beside him. "Car's out front. I confirmed with the airport that—"
"Yep."
That's it. Just "yep." He doesn't look at you. Doesn't slow down. His jaw is set in that particular way that means he's decided something, and you know from experience that whatever he's decided, it won't be good for you.
Outside, the humid Tokyo air hits you both. The driver opens the door and Lando slides into the back seat without a word, without a glance, and you stand there for half a second too long.
The driver looks at you expectantly and you get in the other side. The door closes. The driver pulls away from the hotel, and Tokyo streams past the windows—grey sky, crowded streets, people living their lives. Normal lives. Lives where their boss doesn't fuck them and then ice them out twelve hours later.
You open your tablet, the screen glowing blue in the dim interior of the car. "So, Singapore. You've got the sponsor appearance Thursday night, and I wanted to confirm timing because—"
"I read the email."
His voice is flat. Bored, almost. Like you're a telemarketer who's caught him at a bad time.
"Right," you say carefully, "but I wanted to go over the specifics in person because the venue changed last minute."
"It's fine." He's scrolling through his phone now. Instagram, from the looks of it. Double-tapping photos. Liking photos of women in bikinis almost to anger you more.
The silence in the car is deafening, with both of you just breathing wordlessly. The air between you doesn't simmer, it's gone cold, crystallized into something sharp.
"Lando," you try one more time.
"What." Still not looking up.
It's unfair that it always has to be you that reaches out first, but this isn't your first fight with him, and it surely won't be your last. You're stubborn, but he's worse than you are. He'll let it fester, let you both suffer, until you break and try to fix it. Always you, never him.
Which is why, after two years, you're still at a stalemate about Barcelona. About the first time he'd looked at you like you were something other than staff. It's the one argument you've never conceded on, and you never will. Remembering that day does something to your chest that you were desperately trying to avoid, but that's an issue for another time.
It's the reason he pestered you about how long you wanted to kiss him. It's the reason you refused to give him the proper answer.
"Can you at least look at me while I'm talking to you?" You ask, and you hate how small your voice sounds.
He does look at you then. Finally. Turns his head, lowers his sunglasses just enough that you can see his eyes over the rim.
They're empty.
"I'm looking," he says. "What do you need?"
What do you need. Like you're a stranger asking for directions.
"I need to go over your schedule," you manage.
"So go over it."
"The Thursday appearance, do you want to do the full hour or should I tell them forty-five minutes?"
"Whatever you think is best." He pushes his sunglasses back up. Returns to his phone. "That's literally your job, isn't it? Deciding things for me."
The words land like a slap and you close your tablet. Turn to look out the window instead. Watch Tokyo blur into highway, highway blur into airport approach, and try very hard not to think about how his hands felt on you last night, how he'd looked at you this morning like you were the only person in the world.
That was twelve hours ago, this is now. Lando puts his headphones on and the rest of the ride is silent.
At the airport, he's out of the car before it fully stops. Long legs carrying him toward the private terminal like he's got somewhere important to be, someone important to see.
Not you, clearly.
You handle check-in with the McLaren rep, confirm the luggage, go through the motions of your job. By the time you make it through security, Lando's already in the lounge. He's in the far corner with his laptop open. Oscar's there too, and they're talking about something that doesn't involve you. Lando's gesturing with his hands the way he does when he's explaining a corner, and Oscar's nodding, engaged.
You approach slowly and when Oscar sees you first, he brightens. "Hey! Ready for Singapore?"
Lando doesn't look up from his screen.
"Lando," Oscar says, glancing between you both with growing confusion, "she's here."
"I can see that," Lando replies, still typing.
The air shifts. Oscar's smile falters, and he suddenly looks very interested in his phone. You stand there for a beat. Two. Waiting for, what? Acknowledgment? An apology? Some sign that the man who had you pinned against his bed yesterday still exists somewhere under this cold, indifferent exterior?
"Can you grab me a coffee?" Lando asks his laptop screen. "Black with two sugars."
The request hits you wrong. He's never asked you to get him coffee. Not once in all of the years you worked for him. He always gets his own, or he offers to get you one, or you go together while discussing the schedule.
Oscar's looking at you now with something that might be pity, and that somehow makes it worse.
"Sure," you say.
You walk to the coffee station on legs that feel disconnected from your body. Make his coffee exactly how he actually likes it, two sugars, oat milk, not black like he just said because he's testing whether you'll follow orders or whether you still think you know him.
You bring it back. Set it on the table beside his laptop, careful not to let your hand shake.
He glances at it. Then at you. Then back to it. "I said black."
"You always take oat milk," you reply quietly.
"Not today." He pushes the cup away, just slightly. Just enough to infuriate you. "But thanks anyway."
Oscar has fully retreated into his phone now, shoulders hunched like he wishes he could disappear. You stand there for one more second. Feeling battered and overwhelmed. You feel your throat close, and you swallow the ache away. Your eyes blur momentarily, and it feels unacceptable.
So you pick up the coffee. Walk back to the station. Pour it out, watching the pale liquid swirl down the drain. Make a new one. Black. Two sugars like he said, like he's never drunk it in his life.
When you bring it back, Lando takes it without looking at you.
"Thanks," he says to his screen.
You walk away. Find a seat on the other side of the lounge, as far from him as the space allows. Pull out your tablet and stare at the Singapore schedule until the words stop meaning anything at all.
You're in Singapore at 9 PM, sitting alone at a hawker center that's too loud and too bright and exactly what you need right now. It's the kind of place Lando would never come to. There's no reservations, no private rooms, just plastic stools and flickering fluorescent lights and the smell of chili crab and char kway teow thick in the humid air. You're surrounded by families and tourists and locals who don't know who Lando Norris is and wouldn't care if they did.
It's perfect. You order satay from a stall run by an elderly woman who doesn't speak English, pointing at the menu until she nods and shuffles away. Your phone sits face-down on the table.
It's perfect.
You order satay from a stall run by an elderly woman who doesn't speak English, pointing at the menu until she nods and shuffles away. Your phone sits face-down on the table. You've turned off notifications. For the next hour, Lando Norris can handle his own life.
The satay arrives, chicken and beef skewers with peanut sauce and cucumber. You eat slowly, deliberately, tasting things for the first time in what feels like days. The sauce is sweet and spicy. The meat is charred just right. It's good. Simple and good. You can't remember the last time you ate something without checking your phone, without one eye on the schedule, without being ready to jump up if Lando needed something.
A family sits down at the table next to you, parents, two kids, a grandmother. They're arguing about something in Mandarin, laughing, the kind of easiness that comes from people who know each other completely. The father reaches over and steals food from his wife's plate. She swats his hand and their kids giggle.
You look away and your phone starts ringing. The sound cuts through the noise of the hawker center, his ringtone, the one you set specifically for him so you'd always know when it was him calling. Some obnoxious song he'd picked out himself, thought it was hilarious.
You let it ring. Watch the screen light up with his name, his contact photo, him on the podium in Austria last year, champagne bottle raised, that stupid beautiful grin on his face. Figure it out yourself, asshole.
It rings out. Goes to voicemail. Ten seconds later, it starts again.
You decline the call. Take another bite of satay, even though you can't taste it anymore. Immediately, it starts ringing again.
Fourth call. You decline it. Fifth call. Sixth. Seventh, until the tenth call. Your jaw is clenched so tight it hurts. Your hand is wrapped around your beer glass hard enough that your knuckles are white. He's not going to stop.
You know him well enough to know that. Lando Norris doesn't take no for an answer, doesn't accept being ignored. He'll call a hundred times if he has to. He'll call until your phone dies or you answer, whichever comes first.
You snatch the phone off the table and answer it.
"What." Your voice comes out sharp, venomous.
"Oh, so you are alive," Lando says, and he sounds almost cheerful. "Been trying to reach you."
"I know. I can see my phone."
"Then why didn't you answer?"
You close your eyes. Take a breath that does nothing to calm you down. "What do you need, Lando."
"Where are you?"
"Out."
"Yeah, I got that part. Out where?"
"Why does it matter?"
"It doesn't," he says easily, and you can hear him moving around, the sound of a hotel room, a door closing. "Just curious. You're usually answering by now."
"Maybe I'm busy."
"Doing what?"
Your grip tightens on the phone. "Is there a reason you called me ten times?"
"Ten? Was it ten?" He sounds amused. Like this is funny. Like your phone vibrating itself off a table in the middle of a restaurant is entertainment. "Didn't count."
"Lando."
"I was just thinking," he interrupts, and his voice shifts into something casual, conversational, like you're just some friends catching up. "You know that thing tomorrow morning? What time was that again?"
Your whole body goes rigid. "Are you serious right now."
"What? I'm asking about my schedule."
"The sponsor breakfast that's been on your calendar for two weeks?" Your voice is rising. The family next to you has stopped eating. "That thing?"
"See, you do know what I'm talking about." You can hear the smile in his voice. "So what's the problem?"
"The problem is you're calling me ten times to ask me something you already know."
"I wanted to hear you say it." He says it so casually, so matter-of-fact. "Wanted to see if you'd answer."
"And what was the name of that guy again? The one from Tag Heuer?"
"Lando."
"Starts with an M, right? Michael? Martin?"
"It's Marcus and you know it's Marcus."
"Right, Marcus. See? This is helpful. You're so good at this." His voice drops lower, intimate. "Always know exactly what I need."
"Stop."
"What's he there to talk about again? Contract renewal?"
"Read. The. Fucking. Briefing." You're gripping the phone so hard your hand is shaking.
"But you're already on the phone," he says reasonably, like he's being perfectly logical. "Might as well just tell me. That's what you do, right? Tell me things. Keep me organized. Make sure I don't fuck up."
"I'm hanging up now."
"No, you're not." And he sounds so certain, so fucking sure of himself. "You're going to tell me about Marcus and the breakfast and whatever else I need to know, because that's your job. Because that's what you do. Because—"
"Because what?" You cut him off, your voice shaking now with rage. "Because you fucked me? Because you think that means you own me?"
Silence.
Then, "I never said that."
"You didn't have to." Your voice cracks. "You ignored me all day. All fucking day, Lando. Didn't speak to me in the car, didn't look at me at the airport, made me get you coffee like I'm—like I'm nothing."
"You're not nothing." His voice has changed now, gone sharp and defensive. "Don't put words in my mouth."
"And now you're calling me ten times because what? You want to make sure I'm still here? Make sure I still answer when you call?"
"I called because you weren't answering," he says, and there's an edge to it now. "Because you always answer. Because that's what we, because that's how this works."
"How what works? Me being available 24/7? Me dropping everything when you need something?"
"That's literally your job."
"Fuck my job! And fuck you for calling me ten times to ask me shit you already know just to prove that you still can!"
"Are you done?" he asks finally, and his voice is cold now.
"Is there anything else you actually need?" You ask. "Anything work-related?"
"No."
"Then yes. I'm done."
"Good. I'll see you tomorrow at seven-thirty."
He hangs up first and you resist the urge to light your phone on fire.
You wake up at 5:47 AM to your alarm, which means you got maybe four hours of sleep, maybe less if you count the hour you spent staring at the ceiling thinking about how Lando hung up on you, or wait—you hung up on him, didn't you? You did. You definitely did (you didn't). And then you ordered another beer and sat there until the hawker center started closing down around you, and the grandmother from the table next to you had given you this look that said oh, honey in a language you don't speak but somehow understood perfectly.
You shower. The water pressure in Singapore hotels is always too strong or too weak, never just right, and this one is too strong, pelting against your skin. You stand there longer than you should, letting it run cold, because you read somewhere once that cold showers are good for anxiety or depression or something, though you can't remember which and you're not sure it matters because you're pretty sure you have both at this point.
Your suitcase is still mostly packed because you've been doing this for years and you've gotten very efficient at living out of luggage. Black pants—the ones that don't wrinkle, because you learned that lesson the hard way in Bahrain when you showed up to a meeting looking like you'd slept in your clothes, which you had. White blouse—the silk one, not the cotton one, because the sponsors notice these things even if Lando doesn't. Blazer. The McLaren team jacket is folded on the chair, and you stare at it for a long moment before deciding you don't want to wear it today, don't want the papaya orange plastered across your back like a brand.
You're his assistant, not his property.
Except you let him fuck you in a hotel room in Japan, so maybe the line there is blurrier than you'd like to admit, but that's an issue for another time. For a time when you haven't slept and your hands aren't shaking while you try to apply mascara in a bathroom mirror that's slightly too high for you to see properly without standing on your toes.
It's 6:58 AM when you leave your room.
The elevator ride down feels longer than it should, and you're alone in it, watching the numbers descend—12, 11, 10—and thinking about how you used to feel nervous before seeing Lando but in a good way, in an excited way, like maybe today would be the day he'd look at you like you were something other than his assistant. And then he did look at you like that, in a conference room with glass walls where anyone could see, and then in a hotel room in Japan, and now you're back to being nervous but in a bad way, in a what the fuck happens now way.
Your car is already outside. Different driver than yesterday, thankfully, because you're not sure you could handle the same driver who witnessed yesterday's silent treatment. This one is older, and he smiles at you when you get in and asks if you'd like the air conditioning higher or lower, and you say lower even though you're not actually sure what temperature you want, you just know you need to say something.
You check your phone. 7:11 AM. Lando is meeting you at 7:30, which means you're going to be early, which means you're going to be sitting in the restaurant waiting for him like some kind of desperate whore.
Your phone buzzes with three texts from Lando, telling you he's running a bit late. Lando Norris is never on time to anything that isn't racing, and you're the one who's always early, always prepared, always waiting.
The restaurant is in a hotel different from yours, the Fullerton, which is the kind of place that has doormen in white gloves and floors that echo when you walk across them. The breakfast is in a private room on the second floor, and you're the first one there, which you knew you would be, standing in a room that's set for twenty people with tables arranged in a U-shape and place cards that you helped coordinate two weeks ago.
Your card is at the corner. Lando's is at the head of the table, obviously, because he's Lando Norris and he's always at the head of the table.
You sit down. Pull out your tablet. The briefing document is already open, you've read it four times but you read it again anyway because you need something to do with your hands, something to look at that isn't the door, that isn't waiting for him to walk through it.
7:38 AM. The sponsors start arriving. Marcus from Tag Heuer, who you've met three times before and who always shakes your hand too firmly like he's trying to prove something. Two executives from Singapore Airlines whose names you know but always mix up, one is David and one is Daniel, and you make a mental note for the fourteenth time to come up with a mnemonic device for them. A woman from DBS Bank who you've never met but who looks exactly like every other corporate executive you've ever met, black suit, pearl earrings, the kind of smile that doesn't reach her eyes.
They're all making small talk, getting coffee from the station at the back, and you're nodding and smiling and saying yes, Lando will be here shortly, yes, very excited for the weekend, yes, the car is looking strong this year.
Fifteen minutes later, Lando walks in, and the first thing you notice is that he looks tired. Not tired in the way that normal people look tired, Lando Norris doesn't get dark circles under his eyes or pillow creases on his face. But there's something in the set of his shoulders, the way he's moving just slightly slower than usual, that tells you he didn't sleep well either.
Good. You hope he didn't sleep at all.
He's wearing the papaya team polo, the one that makes his eyes look impossibly green, and his hair is styled in that way that's supposed to look effortless but you know takes him at least fifteen minutes. He sees you immediately and for a fraction of a second, something crosses his face.
Then it's gone, and he's smiling, and he's Lando Norris again, and he's shaking hands with Marcus and making some joke that you can't hear from where you're sitting but that makes everyone laugh.
The breakfast starts, and you're taking notes on your tablet even though you don't really need to, even though you've done this exact breakfast seventeen times in different cities with different sponsors who all ask the same questions. How's the car feeling? What are your goals for the season? Can you tell us about your preparation routine?
You write down notes that you'll never read again.
Lando is in the middle of a story about Oscar, something about a prank involving someone's helmet, and everyone is laughing, and you can see the exact moment when his eyes start to drift toward you and then catch himself and look away.
It happens three more times during breakfast. Him starting to look at you, stopping himself, redirecting his attention to whoever's speaking or to his plate or to literally anywhere else.
The breakfast ends at 9:15 AM. People start standing, exchanging business cards, making promises to follow up. Lando is still shaking hands, still smiling, and you start gathering your things because that's what you do, you gather your things and you follow him to the next thing and the next thing and the next thing after that.
You're almost to the door when you hear him say your name. You turn and he's standing by his chair, hands in his pockets, and everyone else has filtered out into the hallway. It's just the two of you in this room with its white tablecloths and half-eaten fruit plates and the ghost of conversations that don't matter.
"Can we talk?" he asks.
And you have a choice. You could say yes. You could stay. You could let him explain or apologize or do whatever it is he's planning to do. Or, you could simply leave.
"I have to coordinate your transport to the track," you say. "You have media at eleven."
"I know what I have." His voice is quiet. "I'm asking if we can talk."
"About what?"
"About—" He stops. Runs a hand through his hair, messing up the styling he definitely spent fifteen minutes on. "About last night. About everything. I don't know, fuck—just talk."
This is the part where you're supposed to be the bigger person, supposed to hear him out, supposed to help him process his feelings or whatever it is that assistants-turned-something-else are supposed to do. But, you're tired, and quite frankly, irrigated with his phone call from last night, the past week.
And the only thing running through your head is that Lando Norris can go fuck himself.
"You've got thirty minutes before our car leaves," you say. "Don't be late."
You walk out before he can respond. In the hallway, your hands are shaking because no one tells Lando Norris no.
But you just did and somehow you make it to the elevator, make it down to the lobby, make it into the car that's waiting to take you both to the track—except Lando takes a different car, which the logistics coordinator apologizes for, says there was a mix-up with timing, and you know there wasn't a mix-up at all.
Lando Norris doesn't want to be in a car with you. Fine, so fucking be it.
The thing about working with Lando after Singapore is that it's exactly what you said you wanted. It's professional. There are boundaries now that are so clearly defined you could draw them on a map and submit them to the fucking FIA for track limits.
He starts to shows up on time, early, even, which is so unlike him that the first time it happens in Azerbaijan you actually check your watch twice to make sure you haven't gotten the schedule wrong. He reads every briefing you send him, responds to emails within ten minutes with perfect punctuation and "Thanks, appreciate it" sign-offs that make you want to throw your phone into the Caspian Sea. He says please and thank you to your face, confirms schedules without complaint, attends every meeting and every appearance and every obligation without a single emergency phone call at 3 AM or text thread about how he's lost his passport again.
It's perfect and it's absolutely killing you.
Because Lando Norris being professional and competent and respectful is somehow infinitely worse than Lando Norris being a disaster. At least when he was a disaster, he needed you. At least when he called you from the wrong country, when he missed flights, when he showed up to sponsor meetings with his shirt on backwards and that stupid grin that said I know I fucked up and you'll fix it anyway—at least then you mattered to him.
At least then you were something other than the person who books his hotels and coordinates his calendar and exists nowhere in his mind.
Now you're just another one of the staff. Azerbaijan comes and goes. He qualifies P3, finishes P4, solid points for the team. Does every single media obligation without you having to remind him once. Thanks the sponsors in his post-race interview, remembers all their names, makes that self-deprecating joke about the Safety Car that has everyone laughing. The Instagram content team gets usable footage of him and Oscar doing some challenge in the garage. He's perfect. Everyone loves Lando Norris.
You stand there with your tablet and watch him be perfect and your chest feels like someone's hollowed it out with a spoon.
Austin is somehow worse. Not because anything happens, that's the problem. Nothing fucking happens. Lando qualifies P2, finishes P3 after a brilliant drive where he overtakes Russel on the outside of Turn 1 and the entire garage loses their minds. You're standing there watching the screens, watching him celebrate, watching him spray champagne on the podium with that massive grin, and Jon claps you on the shoulder and says "Great weekend, yeah?" and you say "Yeah, great" even though you feel nothing at all.
Lando does his media rounds. You coordinate them all flawlessly because that's what you do, that's what you've always done. He thanks you once, in passing, on his way out of the paddock. Says "Cheers for everything today" like you're a volunteer marshal, like you're someone he's being polite to because that's what good people do.
That night you sit in your hotel room and eat room service that tastes like shit and watch some Netflix show you've already forgotten by the time you turn it off. Your phone sits next to you on the bed, silent. The episode ends. Another one starts. Your phone stays silent, and when you close your eyes, you dream of nothing at all.
Mexico. Brazil. Monaco.
The races blur together like watercolors left out in rain. Lando is perfect at all of them. Perfect driver, perfect ambassador, perfect professional who waves at fans and signs autographs and does Instagram stories with Oscar where they're both laughing and being the perfect team. He never once acts like anything is wrong, because maybe nothing is wrong. Maybe you were just a blip, a moment of extremely poor judgment that he's moved past completely.
Maybe fucking his assistant was something he did and forgot about, the same way he tried going vegan for a week last year or got really into padel tennis for three months. Just another phase. Just another thing Lando Norris tried and decided wasn't worth continuing.
In Brazil you have to ride in the same car to the track because logistics fucked up, only one car available, driver shortage, something about the local contractor. The coordinator apologizes profusely. You say it's fine. Lando says nothing at all.
So you sit in the back seat together in silence. He's on his phone, scrolling through something with his thumb, and you're on your tablet pretending to review the media schedule. The driver tries to make conversation about the weather, about the race, about literally anything, and gives up after both of you give one-word answers that kill the attempt dead.
Lando's knee is eleven centimeters from yours. You measured with your eyes, which is insane, which means you're absolutely fucking losing your mind. You can smell his cologne—the same one as always, the one that was on your skin for three days after Tokyo, the one you can still smell sometimes when you're falling asleep even though that's impossible.
He doesn't look at you once during the entire twenty-three-minute drive. You count that too. The minutes. Because apparently you're a person who counts things now, who measures distances and time and all the space between you and Lando Norris that keeps expanding like the universe, infinite and cold and just all to fucking far away.
Las Vegas is when you realize you can't do this anymore.
Not the job—you can do the job. You've been doing the job perfectly for years, and you could probably do it for two more, or ten more, or however long it takes for Lando Norris to retire or get bored of racing or spontaneously combust from holding in whatever it is he's holding in.
But you can't do this. This thing where you exist in the same space and pretend you don't. This thing where he's polite and professional and you're polite and professional and underneath it all you're both screaming. At least you are. You're not sure about him anymore.
You're not sure he thinks about Tokyo at all. Maybe he doesn't. Maybe it really was just that easy for him to flip the switch, to go from having his hand over your mouth while he fucked you to saying "Thanks, appreciate it" in response to your calendar updates.
Maybe you're the only one who's drowning here.
The race is at night, which makes everything feel more surreal, more like you're living in some alternate dimension where Las Vegas has an actual Formula 1 circuit running through it. Lando qualifies P1, races well, finishes first after a late-race battle with Piastri that has everyone on the edge of their seats.
You watch from the garage. Feel nothing. He does his interviews, thanks the team, heads back to the motorhome to debrief. You coordinate his transport back to the hotel, confirm his Monday morning flight, send him the updated schedule for Qatar.
He responds: Got it, thanks.
That's it. Two words and a punctuation mark. You stare at the message for five full minutes, and that's when you decide, Qatar. You're going to make something happen in Qatar, because if you have to spend one more race weekend in this professional purgatory, you're going to lose your fucking mind.
It's been thirty-seven days since Singapore.
Thirty-seven days since he asked if you could talk and you walked away from him. Thirty-seven days of Lando Norris being exactly what you told him to be, professional, respectful, boundaried. Never calls after hours. Never texts about anything that isn't work. Treats you like a colleague, like staff, like someone whose opinion matters only in the context of his schedule and his obligations and nothing else.
You should be happy. You won. You set the pace, you told him no, you hung up on him, you walked out of that breakfast, and he listened. He learned. He gave you exactly what you asked for.
So why does it feel like you're suffocating?
Why do you lie awake at night in hotel rooms that all look identical and think about the way he looked at you in Tokyo? Why do you check your phone forty times a day even though you know he won't call? Why did you save that Appreciate it text like some kind of pathetic digital shrine to whatever this was?
Qatar arrives and you're done with this. Done with him, done with yourself, done with the performance you're both putting on. Done with being professional. Done with boundaries. Done with doing the right thing when the right thing feels like dying slowly.
You book your hotel room on the same floor as Lando's.
It costs an extra €900 that you pay out of pocket, which is insane because you're supposed to be saving money, supposed to be preparing for whatever comes after you finally submit that resignation letter you've rewritten forty-seven times. But you pay it anyway. Request room 4007 specifically because you know—you've always known, you coordinate his bookings—that Lando is in 4012.
Five doors down. Close enough.
The hotel bar on Thursday night is full of people from the paddock. You can spot them easily, their team polos, the branded jackets, the mechanics and engineers clustering in corners talking about setup changes and when their next vacation is. It's the kind of place Formula 1 always stays, all identical rooms and bars that serve €35 cocktails to people on expense accounts.
You order a gin and tonic you don't want and sit at the bar, scanning the room for something. A distraction. A catalyst. A way to make something happen because you can't stand another day of nothing.
That's when you see him.
He's tall with dark hair that's slightly too long. Wearing a Racing Bulls polo, so he's an engineer, probably, or data analyst, someone who works in the circus but isn't the show. Late twenties. Attractive in a conventional way that Lando isn't, none of the madness, none of the sharp edges, none of that gravitational pull that makes Lando the center of every room.
He's perfect, and he catches you looking. Smiles and you smile back. His name is James. Works in aerodynamics for Racing Bulls. British but lives in Milan now. In Qatar for the weekend. Thinks this bar is overpriced but at least the drinks are strong.
You laugh at his jokes even when they're not funny. Let him buy you a second drink. A third. Touch his arm when he makes some comment about your hair. You're performing—you know you're performing. The years with Lando Norris have made you exceptional at performing, at being charming, at making people feel like they matter.
"Want to get out of here?" James asks around 11 PM, hand on your lower back.
"Yeah," you say. "Let's go."
James walks you to the elevator. You press 4. His hand stays on your lower back, warm through your shirt, and it should feel good but it just feels wrong, like a placeholder for someone else's touch.
The elevator rises. 1, 2, 3, 4.
The doors open and there's Lando fucking Norris standing right in the hallway.
Grey joggers. Black t-shirt. Hair a mess like he's been pulling at it. He has a phone in one hand. He looks up when the doors open.
Sees you. Then sees James. Sees James's hand on your back.
His face does something complicated and then something much darker. His jaw clenches. His eyes, which haven't really looked at you in thirty-seven days, are suddenly locked on yours with an intensity that makes your breath catch.
"Oh," you say, voice deliberately light. "Hey, Lando."
"Hey," he says.
James on the other hand, doesn't care. "Which room?" he asks, breath warm against your ear.
"4007," you say.
Still looking at Lando. Still watching him. Watching his hands curl into fists at his sides. Watching his knuckles go white. Watching thirty-seven days of professional boundaries suddenly evaporate.
That's right, Norris. Two can play at this game.
"Have a good night," you say.
You walk past him. Feel his eyes on you like a physical weight. Feel him watching as you pull out your room key, as James says something you don't hear, as you laugh even though nothing's funny.
You open the door to 4007. James follows you inside, and the lights of Doha filter through the window, and James is already close behind you, hands finding your waist.
"Nice room," he says, which is a lie because it's aggressively mediocre, but you don't call him on it.
"Yeah," you say. He kisses you and it's fine. His mouth tastes like beer and spearmint gum, and his hands are moving up your sides, and you kiss him back because that's what you came here to do, isn't it? That's the whole point of this. You let him walk you backwards toward the bed, let him pull your shirt up slightly, let his hands find skin.
Your brain is somewhere else entirely. Counting seconds. Waiting for this to be over. You hope Lando is physically ill, you hope he's thinking about you getting fucked by another man as he's only a few doors down.
James is saying something against your neck—something about how he's wanted to talk to you all night, how he noticed you at the bar immediately—and you make a noise that sounds like agreement. His hand finds the button of your jeans.
That's when the banging starts. Not knocking.
Banging.
Fist against door, hard enough that it echoes through the room, hard enough that James jerks back and says "What the fuck?" Three hits. Four. Five. The sound is aggressive, violent almost, and your heart is suddenly racing for reasons that have nothing to do with James.
"Ignore it," James says, leaning back in, but the banging continues.
Six. Seven. Eight.
"Jesus Christ," James mutters, pulling away completely now. "Should you—"
"Yeah," you say, already moving toward the door, and your hands are shaking when you reach for the handle.
You know who it is. Of course you know who it is.
You open the door. Lando is standing there, and he looks—fuck, he looks fucking furious. His chest is heaving and his jaw is clenched so tight you can see the muscle jumping, and his eyes are wild. Darker than you've ever seen them. There's nothing professional about him right now, nothing controlled. He looks like he's about to either punch something or break something, and you're not sure which.
"Get out," he says, but he's not looking at you. He's looking past you at James, who's appeared behind you, confused and irritated.
"Excuse me?" James says.
"Get. Your shit. And get the fuck out." Lando's voice is low, dangerous, each word clipped and precise. "Now."
"Who the fuck do you think—" James starts, but Lando takes a step forward into the doorway, and there's something about the way he moves, the energy coming off him, that makes James stop talking.
"I'm not asking again," Lando says.
James looks at you, clearly expecting you to say something, to tell this psycho to leave, but you don't. You just stand there between them, heart pounding, because this is what you wanted, isn't it? This is exactly what you wanted.
"This is insane," James mutters, but he's already moving, grabbing his phone from where he set it on the desk. "Fucking McLaren people are all crazy."
He pushes past both of you into the hallway, and Lando doesn't move, doesn't step aside, makes James squeeze past him. The second James is gone, Lando steps inside your room and slams the door shut behind him.
The sound echoes. And suddenly you're both just standing there, staring at each other, and the air in the room feels electric, dangerous, like something's about to combust.
"What the fuck was that?" you say, finding your voice.
"What the fuck was that?" Lando repeats, his voice rising. "Are you serious right now? You bring some random fucking guy to your room."
"So what if I did?" You step closer to him, anger flooding through you. "What the fuck do you care? You've ignored me for over a month!"
"Because you basically told me to fuck off!" His hands are in his hair, pulling at it. "You're the one that walked away, you made it very fucking clear you wanted nothing to do with me, like you—" He stops himself, chest heaving.
"Like you didn't what?"
"Like you didn't fucking need me, okay?" The words explode out of him. "Then I have to act like I don't think about it every single day, like I don't want to," He stops again, jaw clenching. "And then I see you with him, with his hands on you."
"You don't get to be jealous," you say, but your voice is shaking now. "You don't get to ice me out for thirty-seven days and then show up here acting like—"
"Thirty-seven?" He laughs, bitter and sharp. "You've been counting?"
"Fuck you."
And in the midst of it all, you kiss him. Or he kisses you. You're not sure who moves first, but suddenly his mouth is on yours and his hands are in your hair and you're grabbing his shirt, pulling him closer, needing to feel something other than the past thirty-seven days of nothing. It's not gentle. It's desperate and angry and messy, all teeth and tongue, his hands rough as they yank at your clothes.
He walks you backwards until your legs hit the bed and you fall onto it, and he's on top of you immediately, pressing you down into the mattress with his full weight. You can feel his heart pounding against your chest, or maybe that's your heart, or maybe it's both of you about to explode from the pressure of everything you haven't said.
"Fuck," he breathes against your mouth, and his hands are shaking as they pull at your jeans. "Fuck, I've been going insane."
"Shut up," you gasp, yanking his shirt over his head, needing to touch him, needing to confirm he's real and here and not the ghost you've been living with for over a month. "Just shut the fuck up."
Your jeans are stuck on one ankle and he doesn't bother getting them all the way off, just pulls them down far enough and hooks your leg over his hip. His joggers are shoved down hastily, and then he's against you, hard and desperate, and you're so wet it's embarrassing but you don't care.
"Tell me you thought about me," he demands, one hand fisting in your hair, the other between your legs. "Tell me I wasn't the only one losing my fucking mind."
"Every day," you choke out as his fingers push inside you roughly, no patience, no buildup. "Every single day, Lando, I couldn't."
"Good." He sounds wrecked, fingers working you open, hooking into your cunt until you're squirming under him. "Good, because I haven't been able to think about anything else, haven't been able to focus, couldn't even look at you without wanting to fuck you."
His thumb finds your clit and the combination makes you gasp, hips bucking up into his hand. You're already so wet, so ready, and he knows it. Can feel it.
He lines his cock against your entrance and pushes inside you in one hard thrust that makes you both gasp. There's no finesse to it, no technique. Just need. Just two people who've been starving finally getting fed.
God, he's so fucking big. You've been thinking about his cock fucking you since Tokyo.
"Fuck," he chokes out, forehead pressed to yours, and he's not moving yet, just breathing hard, like he needs a second to process that this is real. "Fuck, you feel so good."
"Move," you demand, nails digging into his shoulders. "Lando, fucking move."
He does. Hard and fast and completely graceless, hips snapping against yours with a desperation that borders on violent. This isn't romantic. This isn't making love. This is two people destroying each other because it's the only way they know how to communicate anymore.
"I couldn't do it," he gasps against your throat, and his rhythm is erratic, uncontrolled. "Couldn't keep pretending you didn't exist, couldn't watch you with someone else, couldn't fucking breathe without you."
"I know," you sob, because you do know, you've been drowning in the same thing. "I know, I know."
His hand slides between your bodies, finding your clit with his thumb, and the combination of him inside you and his fingers on you makes your back arch off the bed. You're close already, wound too tight from thirty-seven days of nothing, and he can feel it.
"That's it," he breathes, and there's something broken in his voice. "Come on, let me feel it it baby."
"Lando—" Your voice cracks on his name.
“I fucking love you,” he hisses against the side of your throat, thrusting into you with reckless abandon.
Your heart stops.
"Don't," you gasp, but you don't know if you're telling him not to say it or not to stop saying it.
"I do." He's fucking into you harder now, faster, like he can make you believe him through sheer force. "I love you and I hate that I do, hate that you have this much power over me, I fucking hate it."
"I love you too," the words tear out of you, and you didn't mean to say them, weren't planning to, but they're true and you can't hold them back anymore. "God, Lando, I love you."
He makes a sound that's half groan, half something else, something that might be relief or might be agony. His thumb presses harder against your clit and you shatter, clenching around him as you come, gasping his name into his mouth as he kisses you through it.
"Fuck, yes," he growls against your lips. "Love feeling you come on my cock, love you, fuck."
His rhythm stutters, hips jerking erratically, and then he's coming too, spilling inside you with your name on his lips and his hand in your hair and his weight pressing you into the mattress like he's trying to merge your bodies into one.
For a few seconds, neither of you move. Just lie there tangled together, breathing hard, hearts racing against each other. His face is buried in your neck and you can feel his breath hot against your skin, can feel the flutter of his eyelashes when he blinks.
This is honest. This is the most honest either of you has been in thirty-seven days, maybe longer. No performance, no professionalism, just truth wrapped in sweat and desperation and words you can't take back.
He lifts his head slowly, and when he looks at you his eyes are soft, vulnerable, like he's just handed you something fragile and he's waiting to see if you'll crush it.
Your chest aches. Your whole body aches. You reach up and touch his face, and he leans into it, and for one perfect moment you think maybe this is it, maybe this is where everything gets fixed.
Then his expression changes and the moment shutters closed like a door slamming, and he's pulling away before you can stop him. He gets up from the bed, shoving his clothes on with jerky, agitated movements.
He takes another look at you—really looks at you this time—like he's reasserting to himself that you're fine. That you're alive, that you're breathing, that you're real. Then he shoves his hands in his pockets and takes a step forward.
"You're fired," he says.
Off the Record | Oneshot
Pairing: Lando Norris × Journalist!Reader
Genre: enemies to lovers, rivals to lovers, slow burn, mutual pining, workplace romance (sort of), banter-heavy, he falls first, horny as usual, he falls first and harder, angst w happy ending, communication issues
Description: Lando Norris is the cocky McLaren driver who seems to take personal offense to every single question you send his way.
What starts as professional animosity and press conference sparring matches turns into something neither of you expected and the uncomfortable realization that the person who annoys you most is also the one you can't stop thinking about. Between pointed questions, cheeky non-answers, and the entire paddock watching you flirt openly, you and Lando have to figure out if there's a difference between hating someone and being desperately, maddeningly attracted to them.
Notes: press conference flirting that makes literally everyone else fucking uncomfortable, mclarens pr team is stressed, he definitely reads all her articles, Lando being a cocky bastard until he's not, they are fuckin nonstop
WC: 22k
You raise your hand, and Lando's grin is immediate—sharp, knowing, and all to fucking smug.
"Oh good," he says into the microphone, leaning back in his chair with that infuriating ease. "My favorite person. Go on then, let's hear it."
"Lando," you say, keeping your voice professional even as heat creeps up your neck, damn bastard, "your long-run pace yesterday showed significant degradation after lap fifteen. Do you think McLaren's tire management issues from last season are still a concern?"
"Mmm, good question." He taps his fingers on the table, and you know—you know—he's about to be difficult. "Counter question: do you think maybe you're reading too much into one practice session? Or is being overly critical just your brand now?"
The room titters with electricity and your jaw tightens. "I'm asking about the data, Mr. Norris."
"Aaaaand I'm saying maybe you should wait for more data before writing another—what was it you called us last year?" He tilts his head, eyes bright with mischief. "'Consistently inconsistent'? Really rolls off the tongue, that."
"You went from P4 to P9 in the championship."
"And you went from sports journalism to tabloid writing, but I'm not holding it against you." His smile is absolutely wicked. "Much."
There's a beat of silence. Oscar, whose sitting next to Lando, is studying the table like it holds the secrets to winning the championship. Charles is hiding a smile behind his hand and Max looks vaguely entertained, which is more emotion than he's shown all press conference.
You smile back, all teeth. "So, I'll have to assume that's a no comment on the tire degradation, then?"
"That's a 'come back to me after quali and we'll see who's degrading,'" Lando says, and there's absolutely a double meaning there that makes heat flash across your skin.
The moderator clears his throat. "Let's move on, shall we? Next question—"
But you're already putting your hand down, already writing in your notebook with perhaps more force than necessary, and you can feel Lando still looking at you. You don't look up. You won't give the fucker that satisfaction. Your phone buzzes in your lap. A text from your colleague James, who's sitting three seats down.
You don't dignify that with any sort of response.
The press conference continues, there's an abundance of questions about strategy, about the new regulations, about whether Red Bull's dominance is finally breakable. You don't ask another question. You just take notes, totally professional and detached, absolutely not thinking about the way Lando had said "come back to me" like it was an invitation to something other than a follow-up interview.
God, dear god, you fucking hate him.
When the moderator finally calls time, the drivers file out through the back. It's a standard procedure in which they usually hang around in the media pen for individual interviews, but the formal press conference is over. You're packing up your things when James appears at your elbow.
"You two are ridiculous," he says.
"I'm doing my job," you say coolly. "He's the one who can't answer a straightforward question without being an absolute dick about it."
"A straightforward question," James repeats. "Right. That's what that was."
"It was about tire deg—"
"It was foreplay," James interrupts. "That entire exchange was foreplay, and frankly, I'm uncomfortable that I had to witness it."
"Oh, fuck off," you mutter, but your face is hot.
"You know what the problem is?" James continues, because apparently, he's not done torturing you. "You're both as bad as each other. He winds you up, you write scathing articles, he reads them and gets more obsessed, repeat until someone snaps."
"I'm not writing scathing articles," you protest. "I'm writing accurate articles. There's a difference there, Mr. Smartass."
"Sure," James says. "Keep telling yourself that. I'm going to the media pen, you comin'?"
"In a minute," you say, because you need a moment to compose yourself, to remember that you're a professional journalist and not a character in some enemies-to-lovers romance novel.
The media center is emptying out, people heading to the paddock or the media pen or—for the smart ones—the air-conditioned sanctuary of the press room. You're about to follow when someone clears their throat behind you. You turn, and—because the universe apparently hates you—it's Lando.
He's still in his team polo, hands shoved in his pockets, and he's got that insufferable smirk on his face. "Leaving without saying goodbye? Rude."
"We're not friends," you say flatly. "I don't need to say goodbye."
"Ouch." He presses a hand to his chest in mock hurt. "And here I thought we had something special."
"We have a professional relationship," you correct. "Barely."
"Right, yeah, very professional." He steps closer, and you refuse to back up, refuse to give him the satisfaction. "That's why you asked me about tire deg in front of everyone instead of just coming to find me after."
"That's literally my job," you say. "To ask questions. In press conferences. Where questions are meant to be asked."
"You could've been nicer about it," he points out.
"I could've," you agree. "But where's the fun in that?"
His grin widens. "So you admit you're doing it for fun."
"I admit nothing." You cross your arms. "Was there something you wanted, or are you just here to be annoying?"
"Can't it be both?" He's definitely standing too close now, close enough that you can see the flecks of green in his blue eyes, close enough that you have to tilt your head back slightly to maintain eye contact. "I wanted to see if you're coming to the media pen."
"Obviously."
"Good," he says. "Because I've got some brilliant quotes prepared. Real insightful stuff, thought you might want first crack at them."
"I'll get them in the media pen," you say. "Same as everyone else."
"But you're not like everyone else," he says, and his voice has dropped lower, more serious. "Your questions are better, plus, you actually know what you're talking about."
You blink, caught off guard by the genuine compliment buried in there. "I—thank you?"
"Don't sound so surprised," he says, and the smirk is back. "I can be nice. Sometimes. When I feel like it."
"So far I haven't seen any evidence of that."
"That's because you bring out my competitive side," he says. "Can't help it. You come at me with these tough questions and I just—I have to come back at you, you know?"
"That sounds like a you problem, buddy," you inform him.
"Yeah," he agrees, still smiling. "It really is." He rocks back on his heels. "So. Media pen. I'll see you there?"
"Unless you plan on hiding from all the journalists."
"Just the boring ones," he says. "You though, you I'll make time for."
Before you can formulate a response to that—before you can figure out if he's flirting or just being his usual insufferable self—he's walking away, throwing a casual wave over his shoulder.
"See ya, looking forward to your article!" he calls back. "Try not to be too mean!"
You stand there for a moment, slightly dazed, definitely confused, and absolutely not thinking about the way he'd said you I'll make time for like it meant something.
Fuck. Fuck, and fuck.
The media pen is, as always, absolute chaos.
You've been doing this job for three years now, and you still haven't gotten used to the crush of journalists all vying for a few minutes of driver attention. There's an art to it is knowing when to push forward, when to hang back, when to shout your question over everyone else's.
You're good at it, you have absolutely no other choice but to be good at it.
You spot Lando at the McLaren backdrop, currently talking to Sky Sports. He's extremely animated, gesturing with his hands, and even from here you can tell he's giving them the full charm offensive. When the interview ends, there's a brief scrum as everyone tries to get to him at once.
You hang back. Let the others go first. You've learned that sometimes patience gets you better answers than full on aggression. Besides, you're still running the press conference through your head, still trying to figure out what the fuck just happened back there in the media center. Lando Norris doesn't seek you out. He doesn't compliment your questions. He definitely doesn't look at you like—
"You waiting for someone?"
You startle, and when you turn, it's Oscar, looking considerably more relaxed now that he's escaped the press conference.
"Just waiting for the crowd to thin out," you say. "How're you feeling about the car?"
Oscar's face does something complicated. "It's—yeah, it's good. Better than last year. Still some work to do on race pace but—" He pauses, then grins. "You're recording this, right? Should I be more media-trained?"
Despite yourself, you laugh. "I'm not recording. Just asking."
"Oh." He looks almost disappointed. "In that case, the car's fucking brilliant and if Lando doesn't shut up about tire deg I'm going to lose it."
"Noted," you say, grinning. "Off the record."
"Cheers." He glances over at where Lando's now talking to another journalist. "He's been weird all day, by the way."
"Weird how?"
"Dunno." Oscar shrugs. "Keeps checking his phone. Keeps asking what time the press conference is. Normally he tries to skip them."
"Maybe he's just keen to get the weekend started," you suggest, even as something uncomfortable twists in your stomach.
"Maybe." Oscar doesn't sound convinced. "Or maybe he wanted to see someone specific." He gives you a meaningful look.
"I don't know what you're implying," you say coolly.
"Suuuure, you don't." Oscar's grin is downright evil. "Good luck with your interview. Try not to kill each other, please."
He wanders off before you can respond, leaving you standing there wondering what the fuck that was about.
The crowd around Lando has finally thinned. It's now or never.
You approach, notebook in hand, phone ready to record. Professional. You're a professional lady.
Lando sees you coming and—
His whole face transforms. That's the only word for it. The polite, media-trained smile he'd been giving everyone else melts into something genuine, something bright and delighted, and it does absolutely nothing to your heart rate, shut up.
"There she is," he says, and he sounds genuinely pleased, like he's been waiting. "Thought you'd chickened out."
"I don't chicken out," you say. "I was waiting for you to finish charming everyone else first."
"Mhm," he says, and his eyes do a quick sweep over you, assessing, appreciative. "I like that about you. Very..." He gestures vaguely. "Strategic."
"It's called being good at my job."
"That too." He's still looking at you with that same intense focus from earlier, like you're the only person in the entire paddock. Then he leans against the McLaren backdrop, all casual confidence, and tilts his head. "So. What do you want to know? And before you ask—yes, I'll actually answer this time. Scout's honor."
He holds up three fingers in what is definitely not the scout salute.
"Were you ever a scout?"
"Absolutely not," he says cheerfully. "I was a nightmare child. Got kicked out of everything."
Despite yourself, you smile. "I believe that."
"See? We're bonding already." His grin is wicked. "This is nice. We should do this more often."
"Answer questions honestly in press conferences?"
"No, this." He waves between the two of you. "Just us. No cameras—well, except yours, but that's different."
"How is it different?"
"Because I trust you," he says, and just like that, the playfulness drops away, replaced by something sincere. "You'll write what I actually say. Not twist it, you won't take it out of context, even when you're being critical, you're still fair."
You're not prepared for the sincerity and it absolutely catches you completely off guard.
"Oh," you manage. "Well, thank you."
"You're welcome." His smile is softer now, less sharp. "So. Interview me properly. I promise I'll behave."
He definitely does not behave.
What he does is answer your questions thoughtfully and thoroughly—giving you actual insight into McLaren's testing program, their tire strategy, the improvements they've made. It's good stuff, the kind of quotes that will make for a strong article.
But he also keeps, it's not quite flirting. It's more like he keeps finding ways to make everything slightly suggestive, slightly personal, all while maintaining this veneer of complete innocence.
When you ask about tire temperature management, he says, "It's all about building it up slowly, you know? Can't rush into it or you'll peak too early." His eyes never leave yours. "Gotta have patience. Let it develop naturally."
When you ask about race pace, he says, "Consistency is key. It's a marathon, not a sprint." He grins. "Got to have stamina."
And every single time, he looks at you with those beautiful eyes and that little smile that says he knows exactly what he's doing.
By the time you're twenty minutes in, you've got more than enough material for your article, but you're also flustered and warm and absolutely not thinking about stamina.
"Okay," you say, stopping the recording. "I think I've got everything I need."
"Shame," he says, and he pushes off the backdrop to step closer. "I was enjoying that."
"You were being difficult."
"Was I?" He's in your space now, not inappropriately close, but close enough that you have to tilt your head back to maintain eye contact. "I thought I was being charming."
"Debatable."
"Ouch." He presses a hand to his chest in mock hurt. "You're mean to me."
"You can handle it."
"Can I though?" He's looking at you with intensity in his expression now, something that makes your breath catch. "You keep wounding me with these harsh words. I'm fragile, ya' know."
"You're about as fragile as a brick wall."
"See? There you go again." But he's smiling, properly smiling, and it's different from the media smile. "I like it though. The honesty. Most people are too scared to be honest with me."
"I'm not most people."
"No," he says quietly. "You're really not."
The air between you shifts, goes heavy and charged. He steps closer—close enough now that you can smell his cologne and it makes your head swim slightly.
"You know what else I like?" he asks, and his voice has dropped lower, intimate.
"I'm sure you're about to tell me."
"I like," he continues, reaching up to brush his thumb along your jawline so casually it steals your breath, "that you pretend you're not affected by me." His eyes track the movement, lingering on your mouth. "But you are. Aren't you, little dove?"
Your pulse is hammering. "You're very sure of yourself."
"I am," he agrees, shameless. "Because your cheeks are pink and you haven't stepped back. And—" his smile turns absolutely wicked, "—you keep looking at my mouth."
"I'm not—"
"You are," he says, and he leans in closer, his breath warm against your ear. "It's okay. I've been staring at yours for the past twenty minutes. Fair's fair."
Your brain short-circuits. "Lando—"
"Tell me something," he murmurs, still too close, still making it impossible to think. "Are you going to give me your number or what?"
"I don't—"
"Because I really, really want it." His hand is still on your jaw, thumb stroking your cheek in a way that's completely deliberate. "I want to text you. Call you. I want—" He pauses, and when he speaks again his voice is rough. "I want a lot of things, actually. But let's start with your number."
You should say no. You should maintain professional boundaries. You should—
"Earn it," you manage, and your voice comes out breathier than intended.
His eyes light up with pure delight. "Earn it? How?"
"Qualify top five tomorrow."
"Top five?" He pulls back just enough to look at you properly, and his grin is absolutely sinful. "Baby, I'll get pole position just to show off for you."
The casual endearment makes heat flash through you. "That's, you can't just—"
"I can," he says, completely confident. "And I will, and then tomorrow night, after I've proved myself—" His thumb traces your bottom lip, feather-light. "—you're going to give me your number. And then I'm going to call you, and we're going to have a very interesting conversation about all the other things I've been thinking about."
"What things?" The question comes out before you can stop it.
His smile is devastating. "Wouldn't you like to know?" He steps back, hands in his pockets, and the sudden loss of his proximity is almost disorienting. "Guess you'll have to wait until tomorrow to find out. That's if I qualify well enough, of course."
"Lando!" Sophie shouts again, sounding furious now.
"Coming!" he calls back, but his eyes never leave yours. "Watch me tomorrow," he says. "I'm going to be brilliant. Just for you, sweetheart."
And then he's walking away, throwing one last look over his shoulder that's absolutely filthy, and you're left standing there breathless and flushed and completely undone.
Your phone buzzes. You pull it out with shaking hands and see that it's your editor.
You stare at your phone, then at the recording app that captured twenty-five minutes of the most unprofessional interview of your career. At your notes that are half-illegible because you'd been too busy trying not to combust to write properly.
What you don't say to Sarah that you've also apparently agreed to give Lando Norris your phone number if he qualifies well tomorrow. What you don't say is that he touched your face in the middle of the paddock like it was the most natural thing in the world. What you don't say is that you can still feel the ghost of his thumb on your bottom lip and you're absolutely, completely fucked, and just on the brink of horny.
You make it back to the media center somehow. You sit down at your laptop. You stare at the screen.
You can still hear his voice in your ear, I want a lot of things, actually.
Your face is burning. Your hands are shaking and tomorrow, Lando Norris is going to qualify for you.
Fuck.
You hit publish at 5:47 PM, thirteen minutes before deadline, and immediately close your laptop before you can obsess over every word choice.
The article is fine. It's good, even. Professional, balanced, insightful. Exactly what your editor wanted.
Of course, what it doesn't mention is the way Lando had looked at you when he said "we won't really know where we are until Sunday." What it doesn't mention is that his hand had been on your face less than an hour before you wrote it. What it definitely doesn't mention is that you've read the paragraph about him being "characteristically evasive" approximately seven times because you keep getting distracted by the memory of his voice saying baby, I'll get pole position just to show off for you.
Your phone buzzes and it's an unknown number, your heart immediately stops.
But when you open it, it's just a text from the FIA media center about tomorrow's schedule. Qualifying at 3 PM local time, followed by the usual media availability.
Right. Qualifying.
Where Lando Norris is apparently going to apparently "be brilliant" for you. You drop your head into your hands and try very hard not to think about the fact that you've somehow ended up in a situation where a Formula 1 driver is treating qualifying like a personal audition for your phone number.
This is professional. You're a professional. You write serious motorsport journalism for a respected publication.
You do not give your number to drivers who touch your face and call you baby and look at you like they want to—
Your phone buzzes again.
You stare at the message for a long moment.
How did you get him to actually answer questions?
By letting him flirt with you shamelessly for twenty-five minutes, apparently. By not stepping back when he got too close. By agreeing to give him your number if he qualifies well like some kind of slut. You set your phone down and stare at the ceiling of your hotel room, tomorrow is going to be an actual utter fucking disaster.
Saturday morning arrives with all the subtlety of a brick going directly through a window.
You're up at 7 AM despite getting maybe three hours of sleep, and you spend far too long staring at your suitcase trying to decide what to wear. You settle on black jeans and a white button-up, and then, at the last minute, you grab the gold necklace your nan gave you before she died. For luck, you tell yourself.
Not for him. Never for him. (Liar.)
The paddock is already buzzing when you arrive at 10 AM. FP3 doesn't start until 11:30, but the energy is different on Saturdays. Sharper, everyone's more focused. Qualifying is where the weekend really begins.
You head straight for the media center, determined to get some work done before everything kicks off. But the second you walk in, James looks up from his laptop and grins.
"Morning, sunshine," he says cheerfully. "Sleep well?"
"Fuck off."
"Ooh, touchy." He's still grinning like an absolute devil. "Wouldn't have anything to do with a certain McLaren driver, would it?"
"I don't know what you're talking about."
"Right, right. Of course not." He turns his laptop toward you. "So you definitely didn't spend like half an hour having what can only be described as very, very, intense eye contact with Lando Norris in the media pen."
"I was conducting an interview."
"Is that what we're calling it?" James snorts. "Because from where I was standing, it looked more like—"
"James, I swear to god—"
"Alright, alright." He holds up his hands in surrender. "I'm just saying, if you're going to be professional about this, maybe don't look at him like you want to—"
"Finish that sentence and I'm pouring coffee all over your laptop."
James wisely shuts up, but his grin doesn't fade. You grab your own laptop and settle into a chair as far away from him as possible, determined to actually get some work done.
Except you can't focus.
You keep thinking about yesterday. About the way Lando had looked at you. The way he'd touched your face so casually, like he had every right to. The way he'd said I want a lot of things, actually in that voice that made your stomach flip.
Baby, I'll get pole position just to show off for you.
You close your laptop with more force than necessary.
"That bad, huh?" James calls over.
"Shut up."
FP3 starts at 11:30, and you watch from the media center, taking notes with half your attention while the other half is focused on the papaya car circling the track.
Lando goes fastest. By three-tenths. The McLaren looks planted, aggressive, alive.
"He's on one today," James mutters. "Look at that lap. Fuckin' hell."
You don't respond. You're too busy watching Lando's onboard, watching the way he attacks every corner. When the session ends, you catch a glimpse of him on the monitor as he climbs out of the car. He pulls off his helmet, hair damp with sweat, and says something to his engineer that makes them both laugh.
And then he looks up, scanning the paddock. Your heart begins to hammer in your chest.
"He's looking for you," James says, far too gleefully.
"He is not."
"He absolutely is. Oh my god, this is the best thing that's ever happened to me. I'm going to dine out on this story for years."
Qualifying starts at 3 PM.
You're in the media center, laptop open, pretending to work while actually watching the timing screens with laser focus. Around you, journalists are chattering, placing bets on who'll take pole, but you're silent.
Q1 begins. Lando goes out immediately, setting the fastest time on his first flying lap.
1:29.8.
Comfortable, like the little fucker isn't even trying yet.
"Showoff," you mutter under your breath.
James, sitting two seats down, definitely hears you and grins.
Q2 is more of the same. Lando goes fastest again, and this time the gap to P2 is almost half a second.
"Okay, that's actually impressive," someone behind you says.
You don't turn around. You're too busy watching Lando's onboard as he comes into the pits, watching the way his engineer says "Brilliant lap, Lando, P1, half a second clear" and Lando just responds with "Yeah? Let's go faster then."
Your stomach flips.
Q3. The final shootout for pole position.
The first runs are close. Verstappen goes fastest with a 1:29.3. Charles splits the Red Bulls with a 1:29.4. And then Lando crosses the fucking line.
1:29.179.
Provisional pole.
"Holy shit," James breathes.
You can't speak. Your throat has gone absolutely tight. There's still time for final runs. Verstappen goes again, improves, but only to a 1:29.2. Still slower than Lando.
And then Lando goes out for his final lap.
You watch the timing screens. Purple first sector, purple second sector, purple third sector. The media center has gone quiet. Everyone's watching as he crosses the line.
1:28.987.
Pole position. By two-tenths.
The room explodes into noise. Everyone's shouting, scrambling for laptops to write their reports, but you're frozen in your seat, staring at the screen.
Lando Norris just took pole position in Bahrain. For you.
The media center is chaos for the next hour. Everyone's writing their qualifying reports, editing on deadline, and you're trying to focus on your own piece but your hands won't stop shaking. He did it. He actually did it. Top five, you'd said. The motherfucker got pole.
From The Racing Line - "Norris Takes Pole in Bahrain Qualifying Masterclass" By [Your Name], Motorsport Correspondent Lando Norris delivered a stunning performance in Bahrain qualifying, taking pole position with a lap that was two-tenths clear of the field and showcased exactly why McLaren believe this could finally be their year. The 1:28.987 was clinical, precise, and utterly dominant—the kind of lap that leaves no room for argument. This wasn't a pole position won by margins or luck. This was a statement. [...]
You send it to your editor and close your laptop before you can overthink it.
"That was fast," James comments. "Usually you agonize over every word."
"I have somewhere to be."
"Oh?" James's grin is evil. "Somewhere papaya-colored, perhaps?"
"Fuck off, James."
You pack up your things and head toward the media pen, where drivers will be doing post-qualifying interviews. Your heart is hammering. Your palms are sweating, this is ridiculous. You're a professional journalist about to conduct a professional interview with a driver who just qualified on pole.
The fact that said driver told you he'd get pole position just to impress you is irrelevant. The fact that you promised him your number is irrelevant.
"Get it together," you mutter to yourself.
The media pen is packed. Lando's already there, at the McLaren backdrop, talking to Sky Sports. He's still in his race suit, hair messy, face flushed from the helmet. He looks really fucking good.
You hang back, waiting your turn, trying to look professional and composed. Trying not to think about the fact that in a few minutes, you're going to have to give him your phone number in front of approximately forty other journalists.
The Sky interview wraps up. A few other outlets get their questions in. And then—
"Next?" The media coordinator calls.
You step forward before you can talk yourself out of it. Lando sees you immediately, and his entire face lights up.
"Hi," he says, and there's a smile playing at his lips. "Back for more?"
"Congratulations on pole," you say, keeping your voice professional even though your heart is trying to escape your chest. "That was an impressive lap."
"Thank you," he says, and for once he sounds genuine, not deflecting. "Felt good out there today."
You pull up your recording app. "Can you talk me through it? That final lap in Q3?"
And he does. For the next ten minutes, he gives you proper answers—thoughtful, detailed insight into the car setup, the tire warm-up, the specific corners where he found time. It's good material, exactly what you need for your article.
But the whole time, there's something in his eyes. A knowing look. A promise that this isn't over.
"The car felt planted," he's saying. "Especially through turn 11. We made some changes to the rear wing that really paid off—"
He's being perfectly professional. Completely appropriate, except for the way he's looking at you.
"And what about tomorrow?" you ask. "Race pace has been a concern. Do you think you can convert this into a win?"
"I think we've got a real shot," he says. "The long runs yesterday weren't as bad as they looked. We were doing some testing. I'm confident." He pauses. "When I'm motivated, I tend to perform well."
"Motivated by what?"
"Winning," he says smoothly. "Obviously."
The interview wraps up, and you stop the recording. "Thanks for your time."
"Always a pleasure," he says, and there's a weight to those words that makes your stomach flip. "I'll see you around."
"Yeah," you manage. "See you."
You walk away before you can do something stupid, heading back toward the media center with your notes and your recording and absolutely no chill whatsoever.
You spend the next two hours working. Transcribing quotes, writing analysis, responding to your editor's follow-up questions about tomorrow's race strategy. The media center gradually empties out as people head to dinner or back to their hotels.
You're one of the last ones left, nursing a terrible coffee from the machine and staring at your laptop screen, when someone clears their throat behind you.
You turn and Lando is standing there, changed out of his race suit into black jeans and a McLaren polo. His hair is damp from a shower, and he's got his hands in his pockets, looking almost nervous?
"Hi," he says, and his grin is absolutely wicked.
Your heart stops. "Hi."
"Still working?" He pushes off the doorframe and walks toward you with. "It's eight PM on a Saturday. That's just sad."
"Some of us have deadlines."
"Mmm." He's at your table now, and he spins your laptop around to look at your screen. "Writing about me, I see."
"I'm writing about qualifying," you correct, spinning it back. "You just happen to be relevant."
"Relevant," he repeats, grinning. "I got pole position. I think I'm more than relevant."
"You want a medal?"
"No," he says, and he leans down, bracing his hands on the table on either side of your laptop, bringing his face level with yours. "I want your number. I earned it, remember?"
Your breath catches. He's too close. Way too close and he knows it.
"There are people around—"
"There's like three people in here and none of them are paying attention," he says, glancing around lazily before looking back at you. "So. Your number. Pay up."
"You're very sure of yourself."
"I just qualified on pole," he says, grin widening. "I'm allowed to be sure of myself. Now give me your number before I do something really obvious like get down on my knees and beg for it."
Your face flames. "You wouldn't."
"Wouldn't I?" He tilts his head, eyes bright with mischief. "I'm very motivated. And I've got no shame. So unless you want to cause a scene—"
"Fine," you mutter, grabbing your phone. "What's your number?"
He rattles it off immediately, like he's been waiting for this moment all day. You type it in with shaking hands and send him a text, just a simple "here."
His phone buzzes in his pocket. He pulls it out, looks at the screen, and his smile turns absolutely sinful.
"Perfect," he says. "Now come with me."
"What? Where?"
"Somewhere private." He straightens up. "So we can have that conversation I mentioned."
"Lando—"
"Unless you want to have it here?" He glances meaningfully at the few remaining journalists. "I'm fine with an audience if you are."
You snap your laptop shut and stand up. "Lead the way."
His grin is triumphant. He doesn't say anything as you follow him through the paddock, past the team motorhomes. It's quieter now, most people having left for the evening. The floodlights cast everything in harsh white light.
He leads you to the McLaren motorhome, up the stairs to the second floor, and into a small private room at the end of the hall.
"Close the door," he says, and there's nothing uncertain about it. It's a command.
You close it and the second the door clicks shut, he's on you.
Not literally—not yet—but the energy shifts. He's leaning against the table, arms crossed, looking at you with an intensity that makes your breath catch.
"So," he says. "I qualified on pole."
"I'm aware."
"Top five, you said. I got pole." His eyes are locked on yours. "Which means I massively over-delivered. That should count for something extra, don't you think?"
"That wasn't part of the deal."
"No?" He pushes off the table and walks toward you, slow and deliberate, like a predator stalking prey. "Shame. Because I was really hoping to negotiate better terms."
Your back hits the door. "What terms?"
"Well," he says, and he's right in front of you now, close enough that you can smell his cologne. "I was thinking your number was a good start. But I want more than that."
"More?"
"Mmm." His hand comes up to brace against the door beside your head. "I want to know if you watched. Every lap. Every sector. Did you?"
"I was working—"
"That's not what I asked." His voice has dropped lower, more intimate. "Did you watch me?"
"Yes," you whisper.
"Good girl." The praise makes heat flash through you, and his smile says he knows exactly what effect those two words had. "I could feel it, you know. Knowing you were watching, it made me want to show off even more than usual."
"You always show off."
"Not like that," he says. "That was special. That was for you." His fingers trace along your jawline, tilting your head up. "Do you know how hard it was to focus? Knowing I had to be perfect? Knowing you were judging every corner, every braking point?"
"I wasn't—"
"You were," he insists. "You're always judging me. Always watching with those sharp eyes, looking for mistakes. It's incredibly hot, by the way."
Your breath has gone shallow. "Lando—"
"I've been thinking about this all day," he continues, his thumb brushing across your bottom lip. "About getting you alone. About collecting what you owe me."
"I gave you my number—"
"That's not all you owe me," he says, and his smile is absolutely filthy. "Kiss me," he says simply. "I want you to kiss me."
Your heart stops. "What?"
"You heard me." His eyes are locked on yours, confident and sure. "I earned it. Top five was the deal, I got pole. So kiss me."
"That's not—that wasn't—"
"No?" He leans in closer, his lips barely an inch from yours. "Then tell me to stop. Tell me you don't want this. Tell me you didn't think about this all day too."
You can't. You can't say any of that because it would be a lie.
"That's what I thought," he murmurs, and there's satisfaction in his voice. "So kiss me. Or I'll kiss you. Your choice."
"You're very—"
"Confident?" he supplies. "Sure of myself? Yeah, I know. It's because I'm right. I can see it in your eyes, doll. You've been thinking about this just as much as I have."
"You don't know that."
"Don't I?" His hand slides into your hair. "You're blushing. Your breathing's gone fast, and you still haven't told me to stop. So either kiss me, or stop pretending you don't want to."
"Fuck you," you breathe.
"Later," he says with a grin. "First, kiss me."
So you do, you grab his face and pull him down to you, and the kiss is immediately desperate, hungry, nothing soft about it. He makes a satisfied sound against your mouth, his hand tightening in your hair, his other hand gripping your waist and pulling you flush against him.
"There we go," he mutters against your lips. "Knew you wanted this—"
You cut him off by kissing him harder, and he groans, pressing you back against the door. His tongue slides against yours and your hands find their way into his hair, tugging, and he makes this sound that goes straight through you.
"Fuck," he breathes. "Fuck, you're—you're good at this—"
"Shut up," you manage.
"Make me," he challenges, and there's that wicked grin again.
You kiss him like you're trying to shut him up permanently, and he responds with enthusiasm, his hands sliding up your sides, thumbs brushing the undersides of your ribs. You arch into him and he groans again, breaking the kiss to move his mouth to your jaw, your neck.
"Been thinking about this," he mutters against your throat. "All fucking day. Wanted to do this in the media pen but there were too many cameras—"
His teeth graze your pulse point and you gasp, your grip tightening in his hair.
"That's it," he says, satisfaction clear in his voice. "Let me hear you—"
"Lando—"
"Love it when you say my name like that," he says, sucking a mark into your neck that you'll definitely have to cover tomorrow. "Say it again."
"We shouldn't—"
"But we are," he points out, and he pulls back just enough to look at you. His lips are swollen, his hair is a mess from your hands, and his eyes are dark with heat. "And you're not stopping me. So either tell me to stop, or—"
You pull him back down and kiss him again, and he laughs against your mouth before kissing you back just as desperately. His hands are everywhere—your waist, your hips, sliding up your back—and you're dimly aware that this is getting out of hand but you can't bring yourself to care.
He walks you backwards until your legs hit the sofa, and then he's sitting down and pulling you into his lap, and oh—this is so much worse. You can feel everything like this, and when you shift your weight his hands grip your hips, holding you still.
"Careful," he says, voice rough. "Unless you want this to go further than making out."
"Would that be so bad?"
His eyes darken. "Don't tempt me. I've got very little self-control where you're concerned."
"Could've fooled me."
"Oh, baby," he says, and that word again makes heat flash through you. "If I didn't have self-control, I'd have done this yesterday. Would've pulled you into that room in the motorhome and—" He cuts himself off. "But I'm trying to be good. Trying to take this slow."
"Doesn't feel slow."
"It's not," he admits with a grin. "But it's slower than what I want to do." His hands slide up your back under your shirt, and you shiver. "What I've been thinking about doing."
"What have you been thinking about?"
"So many things," he says. "Very detailed, very dirty things that I probably shouldn't say out loud unless you want me to completely lose it."
"Like what?"
His smile is absolutely sinful. "You really want to know?"
"Yes."
"I've been thinking," he says slowly, his hands still moving on your back, "about how you'd look in my bed. In my Monaco apartment. I've been thinking about taking my time with you. Making you say my name over and over until you forget everything you've ever written about me—"
A door slams somewhere in the motorhome, and you both freeze. Then there's voices. Voices that are definitely coming closer.
"Fuck," Lando mutters. "Shit, that's—that's probably Zak—"
You scramble off his lap, trying to fix your hair, your shirt. Lando stands up, running a hand through his hair, looking frustratingly composed except for his swollen lips.
"Back stairs," he says, pointing to a door you hadn't noticed. "Go."
"What about—"
"I'll handle it," he says. "Just go. Quick."
You head for the door, but he catches your wrist, pulling you back for one more quick, hard kiss.
"Dinner tomorrow," he says against your lips. "After the race. Say yes."
"Yes," you breathe.
"Good." He releases you with a satisfied smile. "Now go. Before I decide I don't care who finds us."
You slip through the back door and down the stairs, heart racing, lips tingling, completely wrecked. About half an hour later your phone buzzes before you even make it back to your hotel.
You're so incredibly fucked.
Race day is a blur.
You barely sleep. Every time you close your eyes, you feel Lando's hands on your waist, his mouth on your neck, the way he'd said baby like it was the most natural thing in the world.
Your phone buzzes at 6 AM.
You throw your phone across the bed, and two hours later, you find yourself back on the paddock where the energy is more than just electrifying.
You're in the media center by 10 AM, laptop open, trying to work on your pre-race analysis. But you can't focus, you keep thinking about tonight. About dinner, about what will come after dinner.
About the way Lando had looked at you yesterday and said I've been thinking about you in my lap.
"You're very distracted today," James observes from across the table.
"I'm working."
"You've been staring at the same sentence for ten minutes," he points out. "And you're blushing. Again. You're always blushing now. It's very telling."
"Fuck off, James."
"Just saying," he mutters, going back to his laptop. "You've been weird since qualifying."
You ignore him and try to focus on your work. Pre-race analysis. Driver interviews. Tire strategy predictions. Professional things that have nothing to do with the fact that Lando Norris's mouth was on your neck less than twenty-four hours ago.
The race starts at 3 PM. Lando gets a perfect start, leading into turn one. He controls the entire race—managing the tires beautifully, defending when he needs to, pulling away when he can. It's a masterclass in racecraft.
He crosses the line in P1, and the McLaren garage erupts.
You're watching from the media center, and you can't help the smile that spreads across your face. He did it. He actually did it.
Lucky bastard.
You spend two hours getting ready.
The green dress is simple, it's fitted, falling just above your knees, with a neckline that's professional but not too prudish. You pair it with heels and the gold necklace from your nan. Your hair is down, loose waves that took longer than you'd like to admit.
You look at yourself in the mirror. You look good, definitely nervous, but good.
Your phone buzzes at 7:55.
You grab your bag and head downstairs, heart hammering.
Lando is leaning against the wall near the entrance, scrolling through his phone. He's wearing black jeans and a white button-up with the sleeves rolled to his elbows, and he looks unfairly good.
He glances up as you approach, and his eyes do a slow sweep from your heels to your face. His expression shifts into something hungry.
"Fuck," he mutters, pushing off the wall. "Look at you."
"Hi," you manage.
"Hi." He closes the distance between you, and his hand immediately finds your waist, pulling you close enough that you can smell him. "You're trying to kill me, aren't you?"
"What?"
"This dress." His eyes drag over you again, slower this time, deliberate. "You look—fuck, I mean, I don't even have the words. You look incredible."
Your face heats. "Thank you."
"I mean it." His thumb strokes along your hip, and his voice drops lower. "I've been thinking about this all day. About seeing you, about getting you alone." His eyes linger on the neckline of your dress. "But I didn't expect you to look this good. You're making this very difficult for me."
"Making what difficult?"
"Behaving," he says, and his grin is absolutely wicked. "Taking you to dinner like a gentleman when all I want to do is—" He stops himself, jaw tightening. "Come on. Before I do something stupid like kiss you in your hotel lobby."
He takes your hand and leads you outside to a waiting car, it's a sleek black Mercedes with tinted windows. He opens the door for you, and you slide in, hyperaware of the way his eyes track the movement of your legs.
He gets in after you, and the second the door closes, the air shifts. It's just the two of you now, in the dim interior of the car, and he's looking at you with that same intensity from yesterday.
The restaurant is tucked away on a quiet street, the kind of place you'd never find unless you knew it was there. Inside, Lando keeps his hand on the small of your back as you're led to a private booth in the corner—secluded, half-hidden by a partition. The lighting is low, candles flickering on the table.
You slide into the booth, and Lando slides in next to you. Not across from you. Next to you, close enough that his thigh presses against yours.
"This okay?" he asks, voice low.
"It's—yes."
"Good," he says. "Because I'm not sitting across from you. Not when you're wearing that."
The waiter appears, takes drink orders, disappears. And then it's just the two of you in this little bubble of dim lighting and soft music and tension so thick you could cut it with a knife.
"So," Lando says, and his hand finds your thigh under the table immediately. "Tell me something."
"Like what?"
"Anything." His fingers trace lazy patterns on your skin. "What made you want to be a journalist?"
"You're really asking me about my career right now?"
"I'm curious," he says. "About you. About what makes you tick." His thumb strokes higher. "Humor me."
You try to focus on the question and not on his hand. "My grandad. He used to, he loved motorsport. We'd watch races together when I was little. And he'd point out all the things the commentators missed. It was brilliant."
"Was?" His voice is softer now.
"He died when I was sixteen," you say. "Cancer. But he's—he's why I do this. Why I care about getting it right, about t asking questions drivers don't get annoyed with."
His hand stills on your thigh. "I'm sorry."
"It's okay. It was a long time ago." You glance at him. "He would've liked you, I think. Would've appreciated your racing today."
"Yeah?" He looks pleased by that. "Tell me more. About the race. What did you think? And I don't want any of that polished journalist answer. I want your actual thoughts."
"You want my actual thoughts?"
"Always," he says, and there's something sincere in his expression. "I told you. Your opinion matters. So tell me."
So you do. You talk about his tire management, about the way he defended into turn one on lap thirty-seven, about the brilliant strategy call to extend his first stint. And he listens to all of it.
"See, that's what I like about you," he says after you've thoroughly analyzed his race. "You actually know what you're talking about. Most people just say 'good job' and move on."
The waiter returns with drinks. You ordered wine and Lando ordered water because he's driving. The waiter rattles off specials, takes your orders, disappears again.
And Lando's hand stays on your thigh.
"You're very distracting," you manage.
"Am I?" His fingers slide higher, just slightly. "Sorry."
"No you're not."
"No, I'm not," he agrees, grinning. "I've been good for—" he glances at his watch, "—twenty whole minutes. That's pretty impressive restraint, I'd say."
"Twenty minutes?"
"Mmm." His hand slides higher still, and your breath catches. "Do you know how hard it is to sit here and talk about tire deg when you're wearing this dress? When I've been thinking about taking it off you all day?"
"Lando—"
"Tell me to stop," he says, and his voice has dropped lower. "If you want me to stop, tell me."
You don't tell him to stop.
His smile turns wicked. "That's what I thought."
Dinner arrives. You barely taste it. You're too focused on the way Lando's fingers are drawing patterns on your inner thigh, maddeningly close to where you actually want them but never quite getting there.
"You're not eating," he observes.
"Neither are you."
"I'm distracted," he says. "Can't seem to focus on anything except how good you look right now." His hand slides higher. "And how much better you're going to look later."
"Later?"
Your face is burning. "You're terrible."
"I'm honest," he correct as his thumb brushes against the edge of your panties. "Want me to tell you what else I'm thinking about?"
You can't speak. You can barely breathe, the room is hot, the air, Lando, everything about this place is too fucking hot.
"I'm thinking," he continues, voice low and rough, "about how you'd taste. About making you come on my tongue. About the sounds you'd make when I—"
"We're in a restaurant—"
"I know," he says, and he sounds pleased with himself. "But you're not stopping me. You're sitting there, getting wetter by the second, letting me touch you where anyone could see if they looked close enough."
"Fuck—"
"You like it," he says confidently. "You like that I'm making you fall apart in public. That I'm barely even touching you and you're already—"
He presses harder, and you gasp, your hand gripping his wrist.
"That's it," he murmurs. "Hold onto me. Let me make you feel good."
"We can't—we can't do this here—"
"Can't we?" His fingers slide under the lace now, finding your cunt wet and ready, and he makes a satisfied sound. "Fuck, you're soaked. Is this all for me, baby?"
You can't answer. Can't do anything but try to keep quiet as his fingers stroke against you with devastating precision.
"Answer me," he says, and there's a command in his voice that makes you shiver. "Is this for me?"
"Yes," you breathe. "Yes, fuck—"
"Good girl," he says, and those two words combined with his fingers circling your clit make you see stars. "So good for me. Being so quiet when you want to scream."
"Lando—please—"
"Please what?" he asks, and he's grinning now, enjoying this far too much. "Please stop? Please don't make you come in this restaurant where anyone could hear?"
"Please—I need—"
"I know what you need," he says, and his fingers slide lower, teasing your entrance. "But you're not getting it here. Not yet. This is just—" He pushes one finger inside you, and you have to bite your lip to keep from moaning. "—a preview."
He fucks you with one finger, slow and deliberate, his thumb still working your clit, and you're trying so hard to keep your expression neutral, to not let anyone know what's happening under the table.
"You're doing so well," he murmurs. "Being so good for me. Taking what I give you." He adds a second finger, and your grip on his wrist tightens. "That's it. Let me feel you. Let me—fuck, you're close already, aren't you?"
"Yes—"
"Do you want to come?" he asks. "Right here? With all these people around?"
"I—I can't—"
"Yes you can," he says firmly. "You can be quiet. You can come on my fingers without making a sound. Can't you?"
His fingers curl inside you, hitting that spot that makes your vision blur, and you're so close, so desperately close—
"Lando—"
"Come for me," he says, voice low and commanding. "Now."
And you do. You come so fucking hard on his fingers, biting your lip so hard you taste blood, your hand gripping his wrist like a lifeline. He works you through it, fingers moving steadily until you're shaking, until you're pushing his hand away because it's too much.
"Good girl," he murmurs, and he brings his fingers to his mouth, sucking them clean while maintaining eye contact. "Fuck, you taste so good, baby."
You're still trying to remember how to breathe.
"We should—" You can't finish the sentence. Can't think.
"We should leave," he finishes for you. "Before I decide to fuck you right here in this booth."
He signals for the check, pays while you're still trying to compose yourself, and then he's pulling you out of the booth, his hand firm on your lower back.
The car ride back to his hotel is silent except for your racing heart and his hand on your thigh, possessive and sure.
He's staying at the hotel. Penthouse suite, of course. The elevator ride up is torture. You can see your reflection in the mirrored walls—flushed, disheveled, eyes dark. Lando stands behind you, his hand on your hip, and he's watching you in the mirror with that same hungry expression.
"You look wrecked," he says, pleased.
"It's your fault."
"I know," he says. "And I'm not even close to done with you yet."
The elevator dings and he leads you down the hall to his suite, unlocks the door, and the second you're both inside, the second the door closes behind you—
He's on you, his mouth crashes into yours, desperate and hungry, and you kiss him back just as frantically. His hands are everywhere—your waist, your hips, sliding up your back to find the zipper of your dress.
"Fuck," he mutters against your mouth. "Been wanting to do this—"
He pulls the zipper down slowly, deliberately, and the dress falls to the floor, pooling around your heels. You're left standing in just your underwear and heels, and Lando steps back to look at you.
"Christ," he breathes. "Look at you."
You reach for his shirt, fumbling with the buttons, and he helps you, shrugging it off and tossing it aside. And then his hands are on you again, pulling you close, skin against skin.
"Bed," you manage. "Lando—bed—"
"So demanding," he says, but he's already walking you backwards toward the bedroom. "I like it. Like it when you tell me what you want."
The back of your knees hit the bed, and you fall backwards, Lando following you down. His mouth finds your neck, your collarbone, your chest, kissing and biting and sucking marks into your skin.
"These need to come off," he mutters, fingers hooking into your underwear. "Now."
You lift your hips, and he pulls them down, tossing them aside. And then he's settling between your thighs, looking up at you with dark eyes and a wicked grin.
"I told you," he says, "I've been thinking about tasting you."
And then his mouth is on you, and you're gone. His tongue is devastating, completely relentless, alternating between broad strokes and focused attention on your clit. You're still sensitive from earlier, and it's almost too much, but he holds your hips down with firm hands when you try to squirm away.
"Stay still," he commands. "Let me—fuck, you taste so good—"
He eats you out like he's starving, like this is the only thing he wants to be doing, and you're already embarrassingly close again. Your hands find his hair, tugging, and he groans against you, the vibration making you gasp.
"Lando—I'm—I'm close—"
"Already?" He pulls back just enough to speak, his breath hot against your sensitive skin. "I've barely started."
"Please—"
"Since you asked so nicely," he says, and he adds two fingers alongside his tongue, curling them perfectly, and you're coming again, harder this time, his name a broken sound on your lips.
He doesn't stop. Doesn't give you time to recover. He just keeps fucking going, wringing every last bit of pleasure from you until you're shaking, until you're pulling at his hair, until you're begging him to stop, to give you a single second to recover.
"One more," he says. "Give me one more."
"I can't—"
"Yes you can," he says firmly. "You can take it. Be good for me."
And somehow, impossibly, he pulls another orgasm from you, smaller but no less intense, and you're crying now, overwhelmed and oversensitive and completely wrecked. Finally, finally, he pulls back, pressing kisses to your inner thighs, your hips, your stomach.
"You're so fucking perfect," he mutters. "So good for me. Taking everything I give you."
You can't speak. Can barely move and he kisses his way up your body until he's hovering over you, and you can taste yourself on his lips when he kisses you.
"Still with me?" he asks softly.
"Barely," you manage.
He grins. "Good. Because we're not done yet."
He kisses you again, slow and deep, letting you taste yourself on his tongue. His body presses you into the mattress, solid and warm, and you can feel exactly how affected he is by all of this.
"Lando—" you breathe against his mouth.
"Mmm?" He's trailing kisses along your jaw now, your neck, finding that spot below your ear that makes you shiver.
"You're—you're still wearing pants."
He laughs against your throat. "Am I? Hadn't noticed."
"Liar."
"Maybe," he agrees, and he bites down gently on your shoulder. "But I was busy. Had some other priorities."
"Uh-huh, like what?"
"Like making you come three times," he says, pulling back to look at you. His eyes are dark, pupils blown wide. "Like hearing you say my name like that. Like—" He pauses, thumb stroking your cheek. "Like making sure you know exactly how good I can make you feel."
"I think you've made your point."
"Have I?" His grin is wicked. "Because I've got a whole list of other things I want to do to you. We're nowhere near done."
"Then maybe you should—" You reach for his belt, fingers fumbling with the buckle. "Even the playing field."
"So impatient," he teases, but he's already helping you, shoving his jeans and boxers down and kicking them off. "There. Happy now?"
You are. Very happy. Because Lando Norris is kneeling between your thighs, completely naked, looking at you like you're the only thing in the world that matters, and he's just so, fucking big.
"Stop staring," he says, but he sounds pleased.
"I'm not staring."
"You absolutely are," he says. "And I'd be offended except you're looking at me like you want to eat me alive, so I'll allow it."
"You'll allow it?"
"Mmm." He leans down, caging you in with his arms. "I'm very generous like that."
You reach up and thread your fingers through his hair, pulling him down for a kiss. It's slower this time, less frantic, but no less intense. His tongue slides against yours, and his hips roll against you, and the friction makes you both groan.
"Fuck," he mutters. "Need to—do you have—"
"Pill," you manage. "I'm on the pill."
His eyes darken impossibly further. "Yeah?"
"Yeah."
"And you're—you're okay with—"
"Lando," you interrupt. "Stop overthinking and fuck me already."
His grin is absolutely feral. "Yes ma'am."
He reaches between you, lining himself up, and then he's pushing in slowly, giving you time to adjust. And fuck, it feels like he's going to split you into two.
"Breathe," he says softly, and his hand finds yours, lacing your fingers together. "Breathe, baby. You're doing so good. Taking me so well."
"You're—fuck—you're big—"
"I know," he says, and there's no false modesty there, just confidence. "But you can take it. I know you can. Be good for me."
He pushes in further, and you're so full, stretched around him in a way that's almost too much but also exactly right. When he's finally seated fully inside you, he drops his forehead to yours, both of you breathing hard.
"Okay?" he asks.
"Yeah," you manage. "Move. Please move."
"Since you asked so nicely," he says, and he pulls out slowly before snapping his hips forward, making you cry out. "Fuck, you feel good. So tight. So perfect, baby."
He sets a rhythm—deep, hard thrusts that hit something inside you that makes stars explode behind your eyelids. Your nails dig into his shoulders, and he groans, the sound rough and wrecked.
"That's it," he mutters. "Mark me up. Want everyone to know—fuck—want everyone to see—"
His mouth finds your neck, sucking marks into your skin, and you're dimly aware that you'll have to cover these tomorrow, but you can't bring yourself to care. Not when he's fucking into you like this, not when his hand slides between your bodies to find your clit—
"Lando—I can't—I already came three times—"
"You can," he says firmly, fingers circling your clit with devastating precision. "You can give me one more. I want to feel you come on my cock. Want to feel you fall apart for me."
"Please—"
"Please what?" He angles his hips differently, hitting that spot inside you that makes you see white. "Please make you come? Please fuck you harder? Use your words, baby."
"Both," you gasp. "Both—fuck—Lando—"
"Good girl," he says, and he does exactly what you asked for. Fucks you harder, fingers working your clit relentlessly, and you're so close, so desperately close—
"Come for me," he commands. "Now. Let me feel it."
And you do. You come so hard your vision goes black, clenching around him, his name a scream on your lips. He fucks you through it, pace never faltering, and then his rhythm stutters.
"Where—" he gasps. "Where do you want—"
"Inside," you manage. "Want you to—please—"
"Fuck—" His hips snap forward one final time, and you feel him pulse inside you, warmth flooding you as he comes with your name on his lips.
He collapses on top of you, both of you breathing hard, sweaty and wrecked and completely satisfied. After a moment, he carefully pulls out, and you make a small sound at the loss.
"Stay there," he says, pressing a kiss to your forehead. "I'll be right back."
He disappears into the bathroom, and you hear water running. He returns with a warm cloth, and he cleans you up gently, carefully, pressing kisses to your thighs, your hips, your stomach.
"You okay?" he asks softly.
"More than okay," you manage. "That was—"
"Incredible?" he supplies with a grin. "Mind-blowing? Life-changing?"
"You're so full of yourself."
"Can you blame me?" He tosses the cloth aside and climbs back into bed, pulling you against him. "I just made you come four times. I think I've earned the right to be a little smug."
You want to argue, but you're too exhausted, too satisfied, too content in his arms. His fingers trace lazy patterns on your back, and you're just starting to drift off when he speaks again.
"Hey," he says softly.
"Mmm?"
"I meant what I said yesterday," he says. "This isn't—I'm not just fucking around. With you, I mean. This isn't just—" He pauses, like he's choosing his words carefully. "I like you. A lot. And I want, I want to see where this goes. If you do."
You pull back enough to look at him. "Yeah?"
"Yeah," he says, and there's something vulnerable in his expression. "I know it's complicated. With your job and my job and the whole—everything. But I want to try. If you want to."
"I want to," you say softly. "I want to try."
His smile is brilliant. "Yeah?"
"Yeah."
"Good," he says, and he kisses you, slow and sweet. "Because I'm not letting you go now. You're stuck with me."
"Is that a threat?"
"It's a promise," he says. "Now go to sleep. You need rest."
"Why?" you ask, even as your eyes are already closing. "What are you planning?"
"Round two," he says cheerfully. "In about an hour. Maybe less, y'know, I've got excellent recovery time."
"You're insatiable."
"Only with you," he says, and his hand slides down to grip your ass possessively. "Only ever with you."
You fall asleep like that, wrapped in his arms, his hand on your hip, his breath warm against your hair. And when you wake up two hours later to his mouth on your neck and his hand between your thighs, you think maybe this complicated thing between you isn't so complicated after all.
Maybe it's exactly what it needs to be.
You wake up properly at 6 AM, sunlight streaming through the windows. You're sore in the best way, marks littering your neck and thighs, and Lando is wrapped around you like a koala, his face buried in your neck.
"Morning," he mumbles against your skin.
"Morning."
"Sleep well?"
"When you let me sleep, yes."
He grins against your throat. "Not my fault you're so—" He bites down gently. "—irresistible."
"We had sex four times."
"Five," he corrects. "You were half-asleep for the last one but you definitely came."
Your face burns. "Oh my god."
"What?" He props himself up on one elbow, looking down at you with that infuriating grin. "I'm just stating facts. You're very responsive when you're sleepy. It's adorable."
"I hate you."
"No you don't," he says confidently. "You like me. You said so last night. Multiple times, and very loudly, may I add."
"I'm leaving."
"No you're not," he says, and he rolls on top of you, pinning you to the mattress. "You're staying right here. With me. All day."
"I have work—"
"No you don't," he says. "It's Monday. There's no race until next weekend. You can take a day off."
"Lando—"
"Please?" He gives you those eyes, the ones that are entirely unfair. "Stay. We'll order room service. We'll watch films. We'll—" His hand slides between your thighs. "—do other things."
"You're insatiable," you say again, but you're already arching into his touch.
"With you?" he says, fingers finding you wet and ready. "Always."
You don't leave until Tuesday afternoon.
By then, you've had sex more times than you can count, ordered room service three times, and thoroughly discussed the complications of dating each other while maintaining professional boundaries.
"So we're doing this," you say, standing in his doorway fully dressed for the first time in nearly forty-eight hours.
"We're doing this," he confirms. He's wearing only joggers, hair a mess, looking far too good for someone who's barely slept. "You're my girlfriend. I'm your—what am I? Your racing driver boyfriend?"
"That sounds terrible."
"It does," he agrees. "But it's accurate. You're dating a racing driver. How does it feel?"
"Complicated," you admit.
"Yeah," he says, and he pulls you close for one more kiss. "But worth it."
"We'll see," you say, but you're smiling.
"I'll text you," he says. "All the time. You're going to get sick of me."
"I'm already sick of you."
"Liar," he says, and he kisses you again. "Go. Before I decide to keep you here for another day."
You leave before he can make good on that threat, and you're in the elevator heading down when your phone buzzes.
You're smiling like an idiot as you step out into the Bahrain heat, and you think maybe, just maybe, this might be the best thing you've ever done.
The week between Bahrain and Saudi Arabia passes in a blur of phone calls and stolen moments. Lando calls you every night.. sometimes twice.
The first call comes Monday night, after you've finally made it back to London, exhausted and sore and still feeling the ghost of his hands on your skin.
Your phone rings at 11 PM.
"Hi," he says when you answer, and you can hear the smile in his voice.
"Hi."
"What are you doing?"
"Lying in bed," you say. "Trying to recover from the weekend."
"Mmm." His voice drops lower. "Sore?"
Your face heats. "Yes."
"Good," he says, sounding entirely too pleased with himself. "That was the goal. Want me to tell you all the ways I'm going to make you sore next time?"
"Lando—"
"What? I'm just planning ahead. Being thorough." You can hear him shifting, like he's getting comfortable. "Very thorough. You wanna hear about it?"
"You're insatiable."
"You keep saying that," he says. "And you keep answering my calls. So clearly you don't mind."
He's right. You don't mind.
You talk for two hours. About everything and nothing. He tells you about his training session, about the debrief with the team, about how Oscar keeps giving him knowing looks and it's driving him mental. You tell him about your editor demanding three more articles by Friday, about James's endless teasing, about how you can't stop thinking about Bahrain.
"Yeah?" he asks, voice going soft. "What are you thinking about?"
"You know what I'm thinking about."
"Tell me anyway."
So you do. You tell him about his mouth on you, his hands, the way he'd made you come so many times you'd lost count. And he listens, his breathing getting heavier, and by the time you're done, you're both worked up and frustrated and he's groaning into the phone.
"You're killing me," he mutters. "I'm hard just listening to you talk."
"Good."
"It's not good," he says. "It's torture, and I can't do anything about it because you're in London and I'm in Monaco and, fuck, I wish you were here."
"Me too."
"Next weekend," he says. "Saudi Arabia. You're coming, right?"
"I'm covering it, yes."
"Good," he says. "Because I've been thinking about getting you in my hotel room again. About making you scream my name so loud the entire floor hears—"
"Lando—"
"What? I'm just being honest." He pauses. "Are you touching yourself?"
"What? No—"
"You should be," he says. "I am."
Your breath catches. "You're—"
"Mmm." You can hear the smile in his voice. "Been hard since you started talking. So I'm taking care of it. Thinking about you. About how good you felt around me. How wet you were. How perfect—"
"Fuck," you breathe.
"Touch yourself," he says, voice rough. "Please. I want—I want to hear you."
So you do. You slide your hand between your thighs, and you're already wet, already worked up from just his voice, and you tell him, tell him what you're doing, and he groans.
"That's it," he says. "Good girl. Just like that. Wish it was my hand. Wish I was there with you. Would make you come on my fingers. Then on my tongue. Then on my cock—"
You come with his voice in your ear, his name on your lips, and you hear him follow a moment later, breathing hard and wrecked.
"Fuck," he mutters after a long moment. "That was—"
"Yeah."
"We're doing that again," he says decisively. "Like, every night until I see you."
"Every night?"
"Every night," he confirms. "I'm greedy. Sue me."
You fall asleep with your phone still on, his voice the last thing you hear.
He calls you Tuesday at lunch.
"Hi, I'm bored," he announces. "Entertain me."
"I'm working."
"So? Take a break and talk to me."
"About what?"
"Anything." You hear shuffling, like he's settling in somewhere. "Tell me about your day. What are you writing about?"
"You, actually."
"Oh?" He sounds delighted. "Am I your favorite subject?"
"You're certainly my most demanding subject."
"I prefer 'thorough,'" he says. "Or 'attentive.' Maybe 'exceptionally talented'—"
"You're ridiculous."
"Yeah, yeah," he counters. "What are you writing? Is it nice? Are you saying good things about me?"
"I'm analyzing your race pace," you say. "Very objectively."
"Objectively," he repeats. "So you're not mentioning how incredibly handsome I looked on the podium? How the champagne really brought out my eyes?"
"That's not really relevant to motorsport analysis."
"It should be," he says. "Aesthetics matter, you know. I'm a complete package. Speed and good looks."
"You're impossible."
"And yet you're dating me," he points out. "So what does that say about you?"
"That I have terrible judgment."
He laughs, bright and genuine, and something warm unfurls in your chest. You talk for forty-five minutes. About nothing important. About everything and when you finally hang up because your editor is calling, you're smiling so hard your face hurts.
Friday afternoon, you're packing for Saudi Arabia when he calls.
"What are you bringing?" he asks immediately.
"Clothes?"
"What kind of clothes? Specifically."
"Why?"
"Because I need to mentally prepare," he says. "If you show up in something hot, I'm going to lose my mind and I have to drive on Saturday."
"I'm bringing work clothes."
"Define 'work clothes.'"
"Professional clothes," you say. "Shirts. Trousers. The usual business casual stuff."
"What about for after work?" he presses. "What are you wearing when I take you to dinner on Sunday night?"
"You're taking me to dinner Sunday?"
"Obviously," he says. "I'm taking you to dinner, then I'm taking you back to my hotel, and then I'm taking you apart. So I need to know what I'm working with here."
Your face heats. "I hate you."
"You love me," he says cheerfully. "You will, eventually. I'm growing on you."
"Like a fungus."
"Exactly like a fungus," he agrees. "A very charming, very attractive fungus who's going to make you come approximately six times on Sunday night."
"Six?"
"At least," he says. "I'm setting goals. Aiming high. Speaking of aiming high, I'm getting pole again this weekend."
"Confident."
"Motivated," he corrects. "Big difference and right now, I'm motivated because I know you'll be watching. Know you'll be there in the garage, wearing your little work clothes, looking all professional while thinking about what I'm going to do to you later—"
"Lando—"
"What? I'm just stating facts. You will be thinking about it. About me. About this." His voice drops lower. "About how I'm going to get you in my hotel room and take my time with you. Make you beg for it."
"I don't beg."
"You will," he says confidently. "You did in Bahrain. Multiple times. Very prettily, too."
"I'm hanging up now."
"No you're not," he says. "You like this too much. Like me too much. Admit it."
"I'm not admitting anything."
"Fine," he says. "But you will. Eventually. I'm very persuasive."
"You're very annoying."
"Same thing," he says. "See you tomorrow, baby. Can't wait."
He hangs up before you can respond, and you're left standing in your bedroom, smiling like an idiot at your phone. You're so fucked.
Saturday morning in Jeddah is already hot by the time you arrive at the circuit. The paddock is buzzing with energy, everyone preparing for qualifying later today. You're walking past the McLaren garage, press pass around your neck, laptop bag over your shoulder, trying to look professional and not like someone who spent half the night on the phone with their driver boyfriend.
"Oi!"
You glance over, and Lando is leaning against the garage entrance, arms crossed, grinning at you like an idiot. He's in his race suit, the top half unzipped and tied around his waist, fireproofs clinging to him in a way that should be illegal. He catches your eye and his grin widens. He waves—a stupid, goofy little wave that makes him look about twelve years old—and mouths hi.
You roll your eyes but you're smiling, giving him a small wave back.
He blows you a kiss.
"Norris!" someone shouts from inside the garage. "Stop flirting and get in here!"
He laughs, throwing you one more look—heated, promising—before disappearing back inside.
About twenty minutes later, your phone buzzes.
You save the hotel information in your phone and head to the media center, trying very hard not to think about room 2401.
Qualifying goes well. Lando puts it P3, just behind the two Ferraris. He's happy with it in the media pen, all smiles and confidence, and when you interview him, he's perfectly professional.
Except for the way his eyes linger on you just a bit too long. Except for the way he says "some people" when talking about his motivation, and you know he means you.
"Good quali," you say when you stop recording.
"Thanks," he says, grinning. "Told you I'd be brilliant."
"P3 is good, not brilliant."
"Harsh," he says, but he's still smiling. "Guess I'll have to be brilliant tomorrow then. Win the race and really impress you."
"I'm already impressed."
Something soft crosses his face. "Yeah?"
"Yeah."
"Good," he says quietly. Then louder, because people are around, "Right, well. See you tomorrow then. For more hard-hitting journalism."
"Can't wait."
He walks away, but not before his hand brushes yours. Brief. Barely there, but, it's enough to make your heart skip.
Sunday. Race day.
You're in the media center, watching the formation lap on the monitors. Lando's in P3, sandwiched between the two Ferraris. It's going to be a fight for the podium at minimum.
Lights out and Lando gets a decent start, holds P3 through turn one. The first stint is clean, he's managing the tires well, keeping pressure on the Ferraris ahead.
Lap 18, he pits. It's slightly earlier than optimal, but strategy-wise it makes sense. They're going aggressive, trying to undercut.
He comes out in traffic.
You watch as he tries to overtake a backmarker into turn four—a fast, tricky corner with a wall on the exit. The backmarker doesn't see him. Moves over. Lando has nowhere to go.
He hits the wall. Hard. The McLaren spins, takes another hit on the opposite side, and comes to rest in the middle of the track, front wing destroyed, rear suspension clearly broken.
The red flag comes out immediately.
"Fuck," James mutters beside you. "That looked bad."
Your heart is in your throat. "Is he okay?"
"Radio says he's fine. Car's fucked though."
You watch as Lando climbs out of the car, clearly frustrated. He pulls off his helmet, runs a hand through his hair, and you can see the anger in every line of his body even from the long-distance camera shot.
"That was his fault," someone behind you says. "Too aggressive. Clearly, the backmarker was on the racing line."
"He should've backed out," another voice agrees. "Impatient move."
You pull up the replay. Watch it again and again, and fuck, fuck because they're right.
The backmarker was on the racing line. It was Lando's responsibility to pass safely. He'd gone for a gap that was always going to close. He'd been too aggressive, too impatient, and it had cost him.
It had cost McLaren and your phone is buzzing with texts from Sarah, your editor, demanding 800 words on the crash within the next thirty minutes.
You hit send at 4:47 PM and your stomach feels like lead.
You try calling Lando and it goes straight to voicemail. You try again an hour later. Voicemail. Again at 7 PM. Voicemail.
You try to text, but there's no response, and your chest feels tight. He had to have seen the article and is deliberately not responding.
"Fuck," you mutter, grabbing your bag.
James looks up. "Where are you going?"
"I have to—I need to go."
You're out the door before he can ask anything else.
The Hilton Corniche is a twenty-minute drive from the circuit. You probably shouldn't be doing this—showing up at his hotel uninvited—but he won't answer your calls and you need to see him, need to explain.
You head for the elevators, pull out your phone to check his message from yesterday. Room 2401.
Twenty-fourth floor and the elevator ride up feels like it takes a year.
You find his room and knock. Once. Twice, and nothing.
"Lando," you call. "I know you're in there. Your location says you're here. Please open the door."
Silence.
"Lando, please. Let me explain—"
The door swings open and he's standing there in joggers and a McLaren t-shirt, hair damp like he's just showered. His face is carefully blank.
"Explain what?" he says, and his voice is cold. "How you wrote that I'm reckless? That I'm immature? That I cost the team points with my 'unforced errors'?"
"I was doing my job—"
"Your job," he repeats, and he laughs, but there's no humor in it. "Right. Your job. Writing about how I fucked up. About how I'm not ready to be a championship contender."
"That's not—I didn't say that—"
"You wrote that I need to show better judgment," he says, and he's still in the doorway, not letting you in. "That speed alone isn't enough. That I got it wrong. Did I get that right? Is that an accurate summary of your very professional, very objective article?"
"Lando—"
"You know what the worst part is?" he continues, and there's hurt in his voice now, underneath the anger. "I trusted you. I thought—fuck, I thought you were different. That you saw me as more than just a story. But you're just like everyone else, aren't you? Ready to tear me down the second I make a mistake."
"That's not fair—"
"Isn't it?" He crosses his arms. "You couldn't have written something neutral? Something less, less brutal?"
"I wrote the truth," you say, and your voice is shaking. "The crash was your fault, Lando. You went for a gap that wasn't there. You were too aggressive. That's not opinion, it's a damn fact."
"So what, I'm just supposed to, what, not push? Not try? Settle for safe?"
"You're supposed to use your brain!" you snap. "You're supposed to know when a move is worth the risk. That wasn't. You threw away points for nothing."
"For nothing," he repeats flatly. "Right. Thanks for the input."
"I'm a journalist, Lando. This is my job. I can't write fluff pieces just because we're—because of what we are."
"What are we?" he asks, and his eyes are hard. "Because right now it feels like I'm just another driver you interview. Another story, another one of your critical think-pieces."
"That's not true—"
"Then why did you write it?" he demands. "Why couldn't you have just, just written something softer?"
"Because that's not who I am!" You're frustrated now, angry. "You knew what I did when you started this. You knew I was a journalist. You knew I ask hard questions and write critical analysis. That's why you said you liked me because I was honest. Because I didn't blow smoke up your ass."
"There's a difference between honesty and cruelty."
"I wasn't cruel," you say. "I was accurate and if you can't handle that, if you can't separate my job from our relationship, then maybe this was a mistake."
Something flashes across his face, and before it can settle, it disappears all together. "Maybe it was," he says quietly.
"So that's it?" you say. "One article and you're done? You're going to throw this away because I did my job?"
"You made me look like an idiot," he says. "In front of everyone. My team, my fans, the entire fucking paddock. You wrote that I'm not ready. That I'm reckless. That I'm—" He stops, jaw clenching. "Do you have any idea how that feels? To have someone you care about tear you apart publicly?"
"I didn't tear you apart—"
"Yes, you did," he says. "You did. And you can stand here and tell me it was objective, that it was your job, that it was the truth. But it still fucking hurts."
"Lando—"
"I think you should go," he says, and his voice has gone flat. "I need, I need some space. To think."
"So you're just going to shut me out? Not even let me—"
"I'm asking you to leave," he says firmly. "Please."
You stare at him for a long moment. At the hurt in his eyes, the tension in his shoulders, the way he won't quite meet your gaze.
"Fine," you say. "Fine. If that's what you want."
"It is."
You turn to leave, but you can't help yourself. You look back.
"For what it's worth," you say quietly, "I'm sorry you crashed. I'm sorry you're hurt. But I'm not sorry I wrote the truth. That's my job and if you can't respect that, if you can't understand that I have to maintain my integrity as a journalist, then maybe you're right. Maybe this was a mistake."
You walk away before he can respond, before you can see his reaction.
The elevator ride down feels even longer than the ride up.
Your phone buzzes as you're crossing the lobby.
You stare at the message, vision blurring with tears you refuse to shed, and then, with a deep shaky breath, you delete his number.
The flight back to London is torture.
You stare at your phone for the entire six hours, willing it to buzz. Willing him to text you. Call you. Something. But there's nothing, absolutely nothing.
By the time you land at Heathrow on Monday morning, you've checked your phone approximately four hundred times. You've drafted seventeen different messages and deleted all of them. You've called his number twice before remembering you deleted it, had to look it up on the media list, stared at it for ten minutes, and done nothing.
He doesn't want to hear from you, has made it very clear.
Monday afternoon, you're back in your flat, staring at your laptop screen, trying to write your post-race analysis for the rest of the grid. Your editor wants 1200 words by 5 PM.
You've written six. Your phone rings and it's an unknown number.
You answer immediately. "Hello?"
"Hi, this is Sophie? From McLaren?" Lando's PR officer. Your stomach instantly drops. "I'm just calling to update you on media availability going forward."
"Okay," you say slowly.
"Lando has requested that his one-on-one interviews be directed to other journalists from The Grid," she says, and her voice is professional but not unkind. "He's happy to answer your questions in press conferences, but he'd prefer if James handles the individual interviews."
Your throat feels tight. "I see."
"I'm sorry," Sophie says, and she does sound genuinely apologetic. "I know you two had a good rapport. But he was quite insistent."
"It's fine," you lie. "Thank you for letting me know."
You hang up and stare at the wall.
He's cutting you off. Completely. Not just personally—professionally too.
"Fuck," you whisper.
Australia is two weeks later.
You fly out on Wednesday, arrive Thursday morning, and the first thing you see when you walk into the paddock is Lando. He's talking to Oscar outside the McLaren garage, laughing at something his teammate said. He looks good. Rested. Happy.
Like nothing happened. Like you didn't happen.
Your chest aches and for split second, he glances up, and your eyes meet. Something flashes across his face—too quick to identify—before he looks away, turning his attention back to Oscar like you don't exist.
Like you're no one. You force yourself to keep walking, head high, pretending it doesn't feel like someone's reached into your chest and squeezed.
Thursday's press conference is torture. You're in the third row, notebook out, recording app ready. Lando is on the panel with Oscar, Charles, George, and Alex. He's charming and funny, cracking jokes that make everyone laugh, answering questions with that easy confidence you remember.
He doesn't look at you once. Not once.
Even when you raise your hand and ask a question about McLaren's tire strategy, he lets Oscar answer it. Just sits there, examining his fingernails, like you're not even worth acknowledging.
James, sitting next to you, mutters, "He's being a dick."
"It's fine," you whisper back.
"It's not fine," James says. "He's acting like a child."
After the press conference, you head to the media pen. You have to be there but you know what's going to happen.
Lando comes to the media pen. He does his rounds. Sky Sports. ESPN. BBC, and then James.
You watch from fifteen feet away as Lando laughs at something James says, as he gives thoughtful answers to questions you should be asking. As he's perfectly pleasant and professional with your colleague while pretending you don't exist.
James looks uncomfortable. Lando doesn't care.
When the interview ends, James walks over to you. "That was awful."
"Did you get good quotes?"
"That's not the point—"
"That's exactly the point," you interrupt. "We're here to do a job. You got the quotes. That's what matters."
"You're allowed to be upset about this," James says quietly.
"I'm not upset," you lie. "I'm fine. It's fine. Everything's fine."
James gives you a look that says he doesn't believe you for a second, but he doesn't push.
You last three more races like this.
Japan. Lando qualifies P4, finishes P3. Refuses to speak to you.
China. Lando has a mechanical DNF on lap forty. You write an article about McLaren's reliability issues—factual, not critical of Lando at all. He still won't look at you.
Miami. Lando gets pole position. Leads the first twenty laps. Gets undercut by Ferrari and finishes P3. In the media pen, he jokes with James about the strategy call, and you stand there feeling like a fucking ghost.
By the time Monaco rolls around in late May, you're exhausted.
Exhausted from pretending you're fine. Exhausted from watching him laugh with James while ignoring you. Exhausted from writing professional, objective articles about him while your heart feels like it's being ripped apart every time you see him.
James corners you Wednesday evening at the hotel bar.
"Okay," he says, sliding into the seat across from you. "We need to talk about this."
"There's nothing to talk about."
"There clearly is," James says. "You've been miserable for weeks. Ever since Jeddah and I know Lando's been freezing you out over that article, but—" He pauses. "This seems like more than just professional frustration."
You don't say anything. Can't say anything.
"Look, I don't know what happened between you two," James continues carefully. "And you don't have to tell me. But whatever it is, you can't let him run you out of this job. You're too good at what you do."
"I'm not letting him run me out."
"Aren't you?" James challenges gently. "Because from where I'm sitting, it looks like you're barely holding it together."
You stare into your wine glass. "I can't do this anymore."
"What do you mean?"
"This, and I mean all of this." You gesture vaguely. "I can't keep showing up at races, watching him pretend I don't exist. I can't keep writing about him, analyzing his performances, being professional while he's—" Your voice cracks. "I just can't."
James is quiet for a moment. "What are you saying?"
You take a deep breath. "I'm quitting."
"What?" James looks genuinely shocked. "No. You can't, c'mon, this is your dream job. You've worked so hard to get here."
"I know."
"Then why would you—" He stops, studying your face. "Whatever happened between you two, it must have been serious."
"It was," you whisper. "It is. And I can't, I can't keep doing this, James. Seeing him every weekend. Being in the same paddock. Watching him laugh and be happy while I," You stop yourself. "I need to leave. Before it destroys me completely."
"Where will you go?"
"I don't know yet," you admit. "Maybe features writing. Maybe culture journalism. Something that doesn't involve motorsport."
"You love motorsport," James says softly. "It's all you've ever wanted to write about."
"I know," you say, and your eyes are burning. "But I love," You stop. Can't say it. "I can't stay, not like this."
James reaches across the table and squeezes your hand. "I'm really sorry. Whatever happened. You didn't deserve this."
"Thanks," you manage.
"When are you going to tell Sarah?"
"After Monaco," you say. "I'll finish the weekend. Write my articles and then I'll hand in my notice."
Monaco race day is Sunday.
Lando wins from pole. It's a controlled, dominant performance—no mistakes, no drama, just pure racing excellence. He leads every lap, manages the tires perfectly, and crosses the line to win the most prestigious race on the calendar.
The celebration is massive. Champagne on the podium. The team going wild. Lando standing on the top step, trophy in hand, looking happier than you've ever seen him.
You write your article from the media center, tears blurring your vision.
Your last article about Lando Norris, you hit send and close your laptop.
Then you open your email and start typing.
To: Sarah Adams Subject: Resignation - 4 Weeks Notice Dear Sarah, Please accept this email as formal notice of my resignation from The Grid, effective four weeks from today. This has been an incredibly difficult decision. Working for The Grid has been a dream come true, and I'm grateful for every opportunity you've given me. However, due to personal circumstances, I need to step away from motorsport journalism. I've accepted a position at The Guardian covering arts and culture. I will of course fulfill all my obligations over the next four weeks and ensure a smooth transition for my replacement. Thank you for everything. Best regards, [Your Name]
You read it three times. Then you hit send before you can talk yourself out of it, and your phone rings immediately. Sarah.
"What the hell is this?" she demands the second you answer.
"My resignation."
"I can see that. Why?"
"Personal reasons," you say carefully.
"Personal reasons," Sarah repeats. "You're giving up motorsport for personal reasons?"
"Yes."
"Does this have something to do with Norris?" Sarah asks bluntly. "With him freezing you out?"
"Partially," you admit.
"So you're letting a driver's tantrum force you out of your dream job?"
"It's not—" You stop. Take a breath. "Sarah, I can't do this anymore. I can't show up at races and pretend I'm fine when I'm not. I can't keep being professional when—" Your voice cracks. "I just can't."
Sarah is quiet for a long moment. "Did something happen between you two? Beyond the article?"
You don't answer.
"Right," Sarah says slowly. "That's what I thought. Look, I'm not going to pry. But I am going to say this, you're one of the best journalists I've ever worked with. Young, yes. But brilliant and if Lando Norris is too immature to handle fair criticism from a journalist he's involved with, then that's his damned problem, not yours."
"I know that," you whisper. "But it doesn't change how I feel."
"No," Sarah agrees. "I suppose it doesn't." She sighs. "Okay. Four weeks. But if you change your mind—"
"I won't."
"If you do," Sarah continues, "the door is always open. Always."
"Thank you."
You hang up and stare at your laptop screen, and it's done.
In four weeks, you'll be gone. No more paddock, there will be no more races, and no more Lando.
You should feel relieved, instead, you just feel hollow.
The next four weeks pass in a blur.
Canada. Barcelona. Austria. Silverstone. You write your articles. You do your job. You watch Lando from a distance—P2 in Canada, P4 in Barcelona, a DNF in Austria due to mechanical failure, P3 at his home race in Silverstone.
He never speaks to you. Hell, he barely even looks at you. Acts like you're invisible and you let him.
Because in three days, you'll be done. You'll hand in your paddock pass, pack up your laptop, and walk away from the sport you've loved your entire life.
Because of him, your last race is Silverstone. Sunday. The British Grand Prix.
Lando finishes P3 behind the two Mercedes, and the crowd goes wild. It's a good result. A podium at home.
Monday morning, you hand in your paddock pass at the FIA media center.
"Leaving us?" the coordinator asks.
"New job," you say with a smile that doesn't reach your eyes. "Time for a change."
"Well, good luck," she says. "You'll be missed."
You walk out of the paddock, and you don't look back, you don't let yourself look at the McLaren garage as you pass.
You don't let yourself think about the fact that you're walking away from everything you've ever wanted.
You just keep walking, with one foot in front of the other.
Until you're in your car. Until you're driving away from Silverstone. Until you're on the M1 heading back to London.
And only then do you let yourself cry.
Lando's POV
The first time Lando realizes something is wrong is Tuesday after Silverstone. He's in the McLaren factory for a debrief, going through data from the race, when Zak mentions something about finding a replacement for one of their regular media contacts.
"Replacement for who?" Lando asks, only half paying attention.
"The Grid," Zak says. "Apparently their F1 correspondent left. Moved to arts and culture or something. Shame, really. She was good."
Lando's head snaps up. "What?"
"The journalist. The young one, she's the one that used to do our interviews." Zak frowns. "You know, the one who wrote that piece about your Jeddah crash. What was her name—"
"She left?" Lando interrupts, his heart suddenly pounding.
"Yeah. Last week, I think. James is taking over her assignments." Zak shrugs. "Why? Did you know her?"
Lando can't breathe. "No. I—no. Just surprised, that's all."
He pulls out his phone the second the meeting ends, scrolling to her contact. It's still there. He never deleted it, even though he told himself a thousand times he should.
He stares at it for a long moment. At your name. At the last message thread from months ago, back when things were good. Back when you'd text him goodnight and he'd call her at midnight just to hear your voice.
His thumb hovers over the call button. He hasn't spoken to you since Jeddah. Hasn't even looked at you properly since then. Just froze you out completely, did his interviews with James, pretended you didn't exist.
Because it was easier than facing what you'd written. Easier than admitting how much it had hurt, and now you're gone, and he doesn't know what to do with that information.
He calls you Wednesday night. It rings four times before going to voicemail. Your voice, god, your sweet voice, asks him to leave a message.
He hangs up and tries again an hour later. Voicemail again, he doesn't leave a message this time either.
Thursday afternoon, he tries a third time. This time it only rings twice before going to voicemail, and it dawns on him that you're declining his calls.
He stares at his phone for a long moment, then types out a message. Then another, and another.
He calls again. It goes straight to voicemail this time. You've blocked him.
"Fuck," he mutters, running a hand through his hair.
Saturday night, Lando is in his apartment, wine glass in hand, scrolling through The Guardian's website.
Your byline is easy to find. You're writing about art exhibitions now. Theater reviews. Cultural criticism.
Nothing about motorsport. Nothing about racing.
You've completely walked away from it, and it's his fucking fault. He clicks on your author page and reads every article you've published since leaving The Grid. They're brilliant, they're smart and insightful and exactly the kind of writing that made him fall for you in the first place.
But they're not about racing, you loved racing. It was your dream. Your grandad had gotten you into it, how racing was everything you'd ever wanted to write about. And, yet, you'd given it up.
Because of him, with a deep breath he opens a new email.
To: [your email at The Guardian] Subject: I'm sorry
He stares at the blank message for ten minutes. What does he even say? How does he apologize for months of cruelty? How does he make you understand that he was hurt and angry and stupid, and he took it all out on you?
How does he tell you that he's sorry without it sounding hollow?
He closes the email without writing anything. Words aren't enough, he knows nothing he can say will fix what he did.
Wednesday afternoon, he's at the McLaren factory when he gets an idea. He pulls up The Guardian's website again, finds the contact page, and writes an email.
To: [general Guardian arts desk email] Subject: Interview Request Hello, My name is Lando Norris, and I'm a Formula 1 driver for McLaren Racing. I'm going to be in London next week for some commercial commitments, and I wondered if The Guardian would be interested in an interview for your sports section. I know this is unusual given that I'm not typically your coverage area, but I have a particular journalist in mind who I think would be perfect for the piece. [Your name]. I understand she's moved to arts and culture, but I'd specifically like to work with her if possible. Please let me know if this would be of interest. Best regards, Lando Norris
He reads it three times, then hits send before he can talk himself out of it. It's manipulative. He knows that.
But it's also the only way he can think of to see you again, to have a chance to apologize. To try—however futile it might be—to fix what he broke.
His phone buzzes an hour later and it's an email from The Guardian.
Subject: RE: Interview Request Mr. Norris, Thank you for your interest in The Guardian. We'd certainly be interested in an interview. However, I should let you know that [your name] specifically requested not to be assigned any motorsport-related pieces. I can offer you one of our sports journalists instead—
Lando closes the email without finishing it. You don't want to see him. You've made that explicitly clear. You've changed your number. Blocked him. Moved to a different section of journalism entirely. Asked not to cover motorsport.
You've done everything possible to get away from him and he needs to respect that.
Even if it's killing him.
Your POV
Three months later, you're in Monaco for work. The Guardian is doing a feature on Monaco's contemporary art scene, the surprising underbelly of culture in a city known primarily for wealth and excess. Your editor thought you'd be perfect for it.
You'd tried to say no.
"It's Monaco," you'd told Jessica over the phone. "I can't, there are reasons I can't go to Monaco."
She insisted, and because you wanted to keep your job, you very reluctantly gave in.
Tuesday arrives, and you fly into Nice, take the short train to Monaco, and check into your hotel in Fontvieille.
The city is exactly as you remember it from the one time you'd been here for the Grand Prix, opulent, excessive, beautiful in that way that only money can buy. You spend Tuesday and Wednesday doing interviews. Gallery owners, artists, curators. Everyone has thoughts on Monaco's emerging art scene, on how the city is trying to position itself as more than just a playground for the ultra-wealthy.
Wednesday night, your friend Tina, your flatmate from London who's coincidentally in Nice for work, takes the train over to have dinner with you.
"This place is insane," Emma says as you walk through the harbor, past yachts that cost more than most people make in a lifetime. "How do people live here?"
"Very expensively," you say.
Dinner is at a small restaurant in Le Marché de la Condamine—intimate, tucked away, the kind of place locals go rather than tourists. You're halfway through your meal when you excuse yourself to use the restroom. The bathroom is down a narrow hallway at the back of the restaurant. You're walking back toward your table when someone grabs your hand and pulls you sideways into a small alcove near the kitchen entrance.
Your heart stops, because it's him. Lando and he's wearing a black t-shirt and jeans, hair longer than you remember, and he looks terrible.
"What—" you start, but he's already talking.
"Please," he says, and his voice is rough. "Please, just—just give me five minutes. That's all I'm asking. Five minutes."
"Let go of me," you say, trying to pull your hand away.
He doesn't. His grip tightens, desperate. "Please. I know you don't want to see me. I know you blocked my number and changed yours and I know, I know you hate me. But please just give me five minutes to explain."
"There's nothing to explain."
"There's everything to explain," he interrupts. "Please. Five minutes. And if you still want nothing to do with me after that, I'll leave. I'll never contact you again. I promise. Just—please."
You should say no. Should pull your hand away and walk back to your table and pretend this didn't happen. But there's something in his eyes. Something desperate and broken and so unlike the confident driver you remember.
"Five minutes," you say. "That's it."
Relief floods his face. "Okay. Okay, yes. Thank you."
"I know," he says. "I know I am. But I need you to know—I need you to understand that I was hurt. And angry, and stupid, and I took it all out on you when you were just doing your job."
"You're right," you say. "I was doing my job, and you punished me for it until I had to quit."
To read the remainder of this fic, please go to AO3. Link is here. Tumblr has a restriction of 1,000 blocks and I wanted to complete this in one go. Start in chapter 2, as chapter one is just there for new readers, thank you so much for reading.
girl where did you go?? i’ve never been so starved for one of your lando fics 😭🙏🏻
girl i am here!!! i just haven’t really had time or inspo… although… atm i do have time AND inspo… hmu with what yall want hehe
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i’m back for one reason: lando for british vogue, specifically this image.
“what’s your writing process” i put a pathetic guy in a blender and blend blend blend
girl where did you go?? i’ve never been so starved for one of your lando fics 😭🙏🏻
girl i am here!!! i just haven’t really had time or inspo… although… atm i do have time AND inspo… hmu with what yall want hehe
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“dts daughter” or “f1 movie son” what about daughters who started watching motorsports because they wanted to be their father’s number 1 boy
“I asked ChatGPT .” “I asked grok” well I asked the gentlemen to take a short view back to the past
something blue - ln4
pairing: lando norris x fem!reader summary: in which you and your ex boyfriend see each other at a wedding months later OR lando misses the fuck out of you. warnings: angst angst angst, language, smut, duh smut, p in v, f!receiving oral, dirty talk, kinda sad, yearning??, NOT PROOFREAD (will fix any typos over time) word count: 5k+ author's note: hi angels!!! I hope y'all enjoy. xoxo. bad grip - op81 will be out next (on August 1)!!
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“You’re in my seat.”
You don’t bother to look up right away. Instead, you take another sip from your glass, unbothered. You already know who it is…because you’d recognize that voice anywhere. Cool, low, and effortless.
When you finally lift your head up, he’s standing across the table. A single hand shoved into his pocket, the other holding a half-empty glass. His jacket’s long gone. Probably draped over some chair a few hours ago, and the sleeves of his shirt are rolled just enough to show the veins in his forearms.
His tie is half undone and crooked. Which tells you that he stopped pretending to be formal about five drinks ago. He walks around the table, standing at the empty chair beside you.
Lando.
You blink. “Didn’t realize seating was assigned by ego.”
He lets out an amused sound. Not fully a laugh. And his eyes drag over you a second too long. Slow and obvious. But there’s some calculation behind it. Like he’s daring you to flinch.
“If we were, you’d have to be outside,” he says, stepping forward. His shoe now nudging the leg of your chair.
You give him a tight smile. “And you’d be in the valet lot, bothering someone else’s date probably.”
He falls into the chair beside you. Resting his arm along the back of it like he’s claiming space. Not just the seat, but you. He smells like something expensive. Musky, citrus, and the memory of someone who’s never been told no.
You don’t bother to look at him. Instead, you glance around the table. Littered in polished silverware, large centerpieces, and down at the very end….a pair of mutual friends who definitely knew what they were doing when they made the seating chart.
You make a mental note to return the favor. Maybe at their wedding. Or baby shower.
“Didn’t think you’d show.” You say, fidgeting with the napkin.
Lando leans back in the chair, posture relaxed. Careless. Like nothing bothered him.
“Thought the same about you,” he says, voice low. “Figured you’d come up with some excuse. Avoid me even longer.”
You arch a brow.
You finally run to look at him.
“I was promised free champagne and music,” you mutter. “Didn’t realize you were part of the package deal.”
He watches your mouth when you speak. He always did. And it used to be flattering. Now it just feels like some bad habit neither of you can break.
He shrugs. “Sounds like a bonus to me.”
“You were always overconfident.”
“And you always had a way with making things difficult.”
You turn your full body toward him now, elbow resting on the back of your chair. Eyes narrowed. “Is that what this is? Difficult for you?”
He looks at you. Like really looks. His tongue presses agains the inside of his cheek, like he’s holding something back. Like he’s already said too much to you.
“Not particularly.”
You laugh. “Right. That’s why you sat next to me.”
He gestures to the table. “It’s my seat.”
“It’s the seat you decided you wanted as soon as I sat in it.”
He grins. “Y’make everything sound like foreplay.”
“Only because you’re used to losing.”
And that earns a small laugh from him. And then he shifts closer, forearms on the table, close enough that you can feel the heat of his body.
“Still got that mouth, yeah?” He says, quietly. “Never learned when to stop.”
Your eyes narrow.
He leans in closer. Just enough to make your breath hitch.
“I’d say it’s nice to see you,” he mutters, “but I’ve gotten really good at lying.”
You tilt your chin up. “That’s always been your strongest skill.”
The clatter of food being brought out snaps the tension just enough for you to tear your gaze away.
He stays close.
Watching.
Plates clatter around you. The smell of food floats through the air, and conversations pick up at the table.
You pick up your fork. He doesn’t move.
“Seriously,” You look ahead at your plate. “Go sit somewhere else.”
“Didn’t know you were so territorial.”
“Didn’t know you were desperate for attention.”
It makes him smile.
“M’not the one picking fights at a wedding.”
“M’not” you say, cutting into your food now. Not even hungry. “You’re just the one who showed up four months too late to a conversation.”
He hums. “Conversation, hm? Is that what we’re calling it now?”
You don’t answer. Mostly because you’re chewing. Mostly because of the way he’s looking at you. Like he’s still inside of whatever memory he just thought of. And it’s making it very…very hard to swallow.
You finally glance at him. “You’re not allowed to look at me like that.”
He leans in, smirking. “Like what?”
“Like you remember.”
And he holds your gaze. And for probably the first time, he doesn’t shoot back some one liner. He just looks.
So you do what you always do when he gets too close to the truth.
Weaponize your mouth.
“You’ve always had a shit memory,” Your voice is soft. “Selective.”
His jaw ticks.
You cut another bite off your plate.
And his knee brushes against yours. Stays there.
“I remember enough,” he speaks. “Like how your cheeks get more pink when you lie. Or how you always change the subject whenever you’re scared.”
You scoff. “M’not scared of you.”
“No,” He hums. “You’re just scared of what you’ll say if you aren’t careful with your words around me.”
You reach for your drink. And he watches your hand.
“Still an asshole,” you say.
He grins. “Still into it.”
You face forward again, refusing to leet him see the way your thighs press together. The way your pulse spikes.
But he knows.
-
He doesn’t ask. He never did when it came to you. Not really, at least.
He just appears. Hand out, gaze unreadable. Waiting.
And you consider ignoring him. Because you should.
But your pride is bigger than your bitterness, so you slip your hand into his without a word.
The palm of his hand is warm. Familiar.
And you hate that your hand still fits in his like it does.
The music shifts. Slow.
His hand slips along your waist like its never forgotten. Possessive. Confident. Not polite in the slightest.
And you hate that your skin still burns beneath the pads of his fingers like it used to. Like it always did.
And you focus on the space over his shoulder. The warm lights. The movement of other couples. Anything that isn’t the way his thumb starts to slowly drag small circles across the skin of your back. Anything that isn’t his mouth.
“You’re quiet,” He mutters. Low and close.
You hum. “Trying to enjoy the song.”
“Funny. I don’t remember you ever being someone to pretend.”
You glance at him, “I don’t remember you always being this desperate for my attention.”
His mouth twitches. No teeth. “Always mistook interest for desperation.”
“No,” You shake your head. “I just learned the difference.”
He doesn’t answer right away. Just lets it sit for a moment. And then his grip is tightening around you. Not much. Almost like a reflex.
“Still cruel,” he mutters. “Sharp.”
“You always liked that about me.”
His eyes drag to your mouth. “Unfortunately.”
The music is the kind of slow that feels like a heat creeping under your skin. You move too well together. You hate that he still fits. That nothing in your body except for your brain seems to recognize that you’re supposed to be over this. Over him.
“I really thought you wouldn’t come,” He says. Voice casual.
You lift your chin toward him. “Didn’t think you’d notice.”
He looks at you. Like really looks at you. “I always notice you.”
And you hate the way it lands. Hate the way it makes your heart spike. Your stomach clench.
So you roll your eyes. “You’re exhausting.”
“And yet…” He leans in just enough that your noses are practically brushing. “You’re still here.”
You don’t respond.
Instead, you shift closer. Enough to make your chest graze his. Your thigh brush his.
Two can play at this game.
And his breath catches. You feel it. Hear it.
But he maintains the same cool and collected face you always used to fall for.
“M’not falling for it.” He says.
“For what?”
“This act of yours. The one where you pretend you don’t still want me.”
You smirk. “If I wanted you, you’d already know.”
And then he’s grinning. Slow. Dark.
“That’s the thing,” He mutters. “I think I do.”
And your stomach twists. Sharp. Hot.
You roll your eyes. Try to take a step back. But his grip on you doesn’t loosen.
“Let go.”
“I will,” he says. Voice low and dangerous. “When you stop pretending.”
If anything, his grip gets firmer.
And you’re about to say something, but he cuts you off with movement.
Fast. Smooth.
Dips you without warning.
And the world tilts as you go with it, back arching in his hold, hands catching you with practiced ease.
The lights blur around you, but all you can really see is him. Framed above you.
“Still a brat,” He mutters.
And you smirk.
He drags you back up. Slow. Until your chest to chest. And then his lips are ghosting your jaw, your ear.
“I miss this,” he breathes. “Miss you. Mouthy. Mean.”
You try to laugh, but all that comes out is a breathy sigh. “You miss the idea of me.”
“I miss you,” his voice is firm. “Not the fucking idea.”
Your fists tighten around his neck.
“Is that supposed to fix this?”
His fingers flex against your waist. Like it was hurting him to have you this close and not actually have you.
“No,” his voice is quiet. “But I never stopped thinking it.”
So you pull back enough to look at him. To look at the freckles on his nose, the lines under his eyes from lack of sleep. And he still looks at you like he wants you.
So you smile. Aching.
“Thinking about me was never your problem.”
And you don’t wait for a reply. Just step out of his arms.
Try not to look back as you walk away. Reaching the doors to the balcony and push them open.
Cool air instantly greeting your skin.
You press your hands into the railing, pulse thrumming.
And you’re barely there for a minute before you hear the door slam harder than it should’ve. Footsteps.
You don’t bother turning.
“You’ve got some fuckin’ nerve coming out here,” you say, arms braced on the railing, staring out into the dark like it might keep you from falling apart.
Lando’s voice snaps back instantly. “I have nerve?”
You spin to face him, anger bubbling in your chest.
“Don’t act surprised. You always come chasing after me whenever it’s convenient for you."
His jaw tightens. “I came because you walked away in the middle of something.”
“No,” you bite. Eyes stinging. “You left in the middle of something. Months ago. When I was still holding everything together while you were in fucking Brazil or Australia or wherever the fuck you needed to be that week.”
He flinches, but you don’t stop. Can’t.
“You think this..this moment..means anything? That you can just show up, say you miss me, and everything you put me through will magically fade the fuck away?”
“And you think it was easy for me?” He grunts. “Y’think I didn’t feel it? Every timeI woke up in some hotel bed in another city with no one beside me? Every time I opened my phone and didn’t see your name because you stopped trying?”
“I stopped because I had to!” You shout. “I couldn’t keep waiting for scraps of you. I have a life too, Lan. A career.”
His hands fly into his hair. “I never asked you to give everything up!”
“You didn’t have to!” You yell back. “You just made me feel like I was the selfish one when I didn’t!”
Lando’s breathing hard now. Hands clenched into fists at his sides.
“Y’think I didn’t want to choose you?” He spits, eyes burning. “You think I didn’t want to fucking stop everything? The races. Media. All of it. Just to stay in one place with you?”
You flinch. But he isn’t done.
“I was trying to be enough for the sport and you.” His voice cracks. “But every time I blinked, it was like you were pulling further away. Like I wasn’t trying hard enough.”
“You were never there.”
The words land like a slap. Honest.
“I gave you everything I had to give.”
You laugh. Tired. Cold. “No, Lan. You gave me leftovers. Gave me what was left of you after everyone else took.”
“I was trying to make it work.”
“And I was trying to hold it together while you vanished into every fuckin country on the map.”
He’s in front of you now.
But you keep going. Shaky. “I had to start pretending I didn’t miss you just to function. Had to smile and tell people that we were fine and so in love when the reality was I hadn’t even heard from you in five days some times.”
Lando flinches. “And you think I didn’t notice? That it didn’t kill me too?”
“You didn’t even act like it did.”
“I didn’t know how to fix it!” He explodes. “I couldn’t be everywhere at once. And I knew…I knew if I made you choose, I’d lose you!”
“Well, you lost me anyways.”
And that’s what finally breaks him.
Has him reaching out to grab you.
And before you can so much as blink, his mouth is on yours.
Hot. Unforgiving. Fucking stupid.
But you don’t push him away. You kiss him back like its some punishment.
And his hands slide to your hips. Your fingers twist against his collar, dragging him down harder into your own mouth.
And when you break apart, your breath is ragged.
His forehead rests against his. You’re still angry.
“This doesn’t mean anything,” you whisper. Trying to convince yourself that you’re over it. That this is just a lapse in judgment.
“Don’t lie.”
And his eyes stay on you. Dazed. And you go to speak but nothing comes out.
So you turn. Fast. Like if you don’t turn away, you’ll let him do it again. Say the wrong thing.
But you barely make it a step past him before he says it.
“Wait,” he breathes. Hand around your wrist. Loose. “Please…just wait.”
You stiffen.
“I shouldn’t have kissed you,” he says. “Not like that…Not… uh, here.” He scratches the back of his neck.
You look over your shoulder. His tie’s half undone. Lips swollen and slightly wet. Hair a mess. And for once, he kinda looks wrecked.
“I have a room upstairs,” He admits. “I’m not trying to pull you back into anything,” His voice soft. “I just…I need to talk to you. Somewhere quiet. Without this….noise.” He gestures to the crowd of guests, the music, the laughter.
You hesitate.
You want to walk inside, finish your drink, and pretend. Pretend he’s someone you used to know. Pretend he’s someone you didn’t kiss.
But he’s still looking at you like he means it. Like you mean everything. Like he’ll drop down to his knees and beg you if thats what it will take.
“Five minutes,” he says. “That’s all I’m asking for…five minutes…please?”
You hold his gaze for a few moments. Let it stretch. Contemplate. And then you finally nod.
“Fine,” you whisper. “But you better mean it this time.”
He exhales with relief. Like he can finally breathe properly again.
“I do.”
And then you’re walking down the hallway. Past the ballroom. Past the noise. Until it’s just the two of you again.
The elevator ride is short. Land steps out first. Not hurried or anything…just quiet. Like he’s scared if he’s too sudden you’ll run off.
The hallway is empty. And you follow him a step behind. Arms crossed over your chest. You feel flushed. Almost too aware, too alert, of everything. The kiss still at the forefront of your mind.
When he stops outside the door, his hands fumble with the keycard. Just slightly. Just enough to show how uneasy he is also feeling.
He doesn’t say anything either. He just pushes the hotel door open, steps inside and waits for you. Hoping you won’t change your mind and run off.
You walk in. The room is softly lit, just the bedside lamp and the light from the bathroom steaming out. Bottle of something on the dresser. And the bed’s made, but not really. Evidence of him lounging on it was clear.
He stands a few feet away. Looking at you like he doesn’t know what to do. Where to begin. How to start.
“So?” Your voice is a little too harsh. Out of protectiveness. “You’ve got five minutes.”
And he flinches. Breathes loudly.
“I didn’t come to the wedding to fuck with you.”
You blink. Caught a little off guard.
“I knew you’d bet there though,” He says. Honest. “Knew it would hurt. But I couldn’t stay away.”
You look at him now. His face is flushed. Lips slightly parted like he’s been holding this in all night. Like the cocky face he put on all night has completely vanished.
“All these past few months,” he continues, “I kept thinking it will get easier. The distance. The silence. I thought if I worked harder, did more training, more media, all of it….I thought…I thought if I buried myself in that I’d stop thinking about you every single time I opened my phone.”
Your stomach twists.
“But it never fuckin’ stopped.” He says, voice lower. “Didn’t matter where I was. Spain, Canada, China…you were always in my head. Always.”
Your throat tightens. And you feel the goosebumps form on your skin.
He steps closer. Carefully. A single step. Slow.
“And I hated it.” His eyes flick to you. “Hated that I couldn’t even be mad at you…well I was mad. Fucking livid, all the fucking time. But not reasonably…because you had every right to leave.”
You exhale a deep breathe. Pressing your lips together. Trying to keep yourself composed.
“I wasn’t trying to punish you, Lan.” Your voice is soft. “I just couldn’t keep putting myself second.”
“I know,” he says almost immediately. “I know that now. But I didn’t back then. I thought I did everything I could. Giving you time that I didn’t even have to give.”
You shake your head. “Making time didn’t mean you were present.”
“And I get that now.”
He’s closer. Not touching, but close enough that you have to tip your head back just a bit to hold his gaze.
“Y’think I didn’t want to choose you?” His voice breaks a little. “That I didn’t spend nights wondering and pleading what it would be like if I could just stop everything? Just be with you.”
You don’t answer.
“And the truth is…I thought if I even asked to you wait longer, you’d hate me for it.”
“I didn’t hate you.” Your voice is quiet. Soft.
His gaze drops to your mouth. “I know.”
Silence.
Your skin is buzzing. Heart thrumming against your chest.
“I just…I missed you.” He mutters. “And I…I don’t know how to say it without sounding like a completely selfish prick.”
“You don’t sound selfish, Lan.”
Your eyes are stinging.
“You’re the only person who has ever made me want more than all of this.” He admits. “And I fucked everything up.”
You try to swallow the lump that’s sitting in your throat. “Yeah,” you mutter.
And the words sting to say. Sting to hear.
But he nods. Doesn’t argue.
“I just thought…if I kept going…kept chasing everything, that I could fix it later,” he shrugs. “Like you’d just be there..when I finally figured it all out.”
You breathe. Exhausted. Sad. “You always said timing was everything.”
And his lips twitch. “Yeah, turns out I’m shit at that too.”
You don’t answer. Just look at the slope of his shoulders. The tiny wrinkle in his collar. And the way his hands keep opening and closing like he doesn’t know what to do with them.
“I still think about you. Every night.”
You shut your eyes for a moment. Trying to stop the tears from forming in your eyes.
“Still reach for you in bed like a fuckin’ idiot.”
He leans in closer.
“And I know…I know that I don’t get to ask this, but…” his voice lowers. “Can I please kiss you again?”
Your breath hitches. Eyes sliding back and forth between his. And he looks wrecked. Devastated.
And this time…you kiss him first. Not because it fixes everything. Not because everything is magically better now.
But because it feels right.
It’s fast. Like you’re mad at yourself for even giving in. Like you don’t even want him to feel satisfaction of knowing just how much you need it too.
He groans into your mouth, hands cradling your jaw, holding you there.
And he’s no longer hesitating. No longer asking.
And you let him.
Let him press you against the wall of the room like he’s fucking starving, like he’s been imagining this for months (he has).
“Still know how to shut you up,” He mumbles against your lips, nipping your bottom lip.
Your hands fist into the collar of his shirt. “Y’still talk too much.”
And he’s already sliding one hand up beneath the hem of your dress. Greedy.
Gasping when his thumb brushes against you right where you need him. Teasingly.
“Still get like this, yeah?” He laughs. Darkly. “Worked up. Just from fighting.”
You glare, but it means nothing. Because you’re already moaning and gasping into his neck as he presses again.
“You’re not special,” you bite.
But he laughs. Confident. “No?”
He drops to his knees in front of you like he’s done it thousands of times. He has. Like its muscle memory. It is.
“Yeah well tell that to your cunt,” he mutters, pushing your dress all the way up and licking a slow strip over the damp fabric.
Your body shakes. Your hand flies to his hair, weaving it in between your fingers as you grasp it tightly. And he’s fucking grinning when he feels you tremble.
“You used to beg,” He remembers. “Used to say my name over and over like it was the only word you knew.”
You squeeze your eyes shut. “And you used to listen.”
He pulls your panties down with his teeth. “Still do, baby.”
And then he’s tasting you like a staved man. Slow. Messy. But thorough.
And you moan loud when he curls his tongue just right. Groaning into you like he’s the one who’s fucked.
“You feel the fuckin same.” He grunts, looking up at you. “Fuckin fuck. You feel exactly the same.”
You grab his collar. Desperate. Pull him up towards you.
And his mouth is crashing into yours again. Then somehow you’re both stumbling toward the bed. Half-laughing, half-mad, half-clothed.
He’s fumbling with the zipper of your dress, cursing under his breath when the zipper gets caught. And you’re tugging at the buttons of of his shirt, only making it halfway through before your fingers give up. And you just shove the fabric open instead, buttons popping.
“Christ,” Lando mutters, lips dragging along your throat, hands freeing the zipper. “Still so fuckin’ impatient.”
“Y’love it,” you breathe. “Always did.”
And his eyes darken.
“I did,” he agrees. Voice low. “Still do.”
You kiss him again. Hard, open mouthed. Because there’s just no point in pretending anymore. Not with the way he fits against you, not with the way your skin is buzzing from his touch.
And he kisses you back like he’s missed this more than anything in the entire fucking world. Like the memory of your mouth could never be enough for him.
He pushes you back onto the mattress, his mouth dragging down your stomach like its a map he’s memorized.
“You’re shaking,” He grins against your skin. “Missed me this much?”
You nod, biting your lip.
“Say it.”
Your voice breaks. “I missed…God I fuckin’ missed you.”
He groans, head falling against your thigh. “God, we never should’ve broken up.”
And then he’s burying his face between your legs like a starved man. Licking you like he needs to memorize every inch, sound, and twitch of yours. Moaning against you, mouth slick and open.
His tongue works over you slowly at first, deep. Dragging. And then he’s moving faster, meaner, teasing your clit and then backing off. Again and again.
Your hands fist into his curls, “Lan, please…”
He groans, rutting his hips into the mattress like he’s the one being teased. Then, pushing two fingers into you. Curling them just right.
And your hips buck off the mattress with a loud moan.
“God…fuck..Lan, please don’t stop.”
He doesn’t.
He eats you through your orgasm like he needs you more than air. Popping off when you lay limply, before slipping up to hover over you. Lips shiny, eyes glazed.
And then he’s groaning hotly into your mouth when your legs wrap around his waist, grinding against him for some friction.
“Fuck,” He groans, voice raw. Dragging his hips against you. “You always knew how to drive me fucking insane.”
You arch up into him. “Then stop wasting my time.”
His hand wraps around your thigh, pulling it higher up his waist as he pushes into you. Slow. Like he’s savoring the feeling.
Your lips part in a soft gasp and his forehead drops against yours.
“Fuck…” He groans. “I’ve thought about this almost every night.”
He pulls his hips back and thrusts again. Harder.
“Every time I shut my eyes…this. You.”
You moan, loudly. Nails digging into his skin.
He fucks you deep. Fucking filthy. One hand wrapped around your throat as he leans over you.
“This what you’ve been thinking about, hm?” He grunts. “Late at night, fingers buried deep in that perfect cunt…pretending it was me, yeah?”
Your face flushes as you nod.
And he’s losing his rhythm, groaning.
“Been jerking off to the thought go you like this,” he confesses. “Fucking my fist and wishing it was you.”
He presses his fingers into your clit, and you jolt with a loud cry.
“Fuck…you’re gonna make me,”
“Then do it,” he snaps.
And you do.
You come shaking as he fucks you through it, still muttering absolute filth against your ear. Still chasing his own.
And when he finally comes, it’s with a loud groan of your name. Cock buried deep as he spills into you.
He collapses on top of you for a moment, breathing hard.
You don’t know how long the two of you lay there like that.
But you feel Lando shift slowly. Like he’s scared if he moves too fast it will break whatever spell you’re both under.
“You okay?” He whispers, voice hoarse. His lips grazing your shoulder.
You nod.
“I meant what I said,” he mutters. “About missing you.”
You let your eyes close. It would be so so easy to pretend that nothing mattered. To stay here and forget all the pain of the weeks you both spent apart.
But it did matter.
He rolls off of you, just to the side. Skin still touching. And when you finally face each other, his curls are damp, cheeks flushed, and eyes so so soft.
“You okay?” You ask.
His throat works itself before he nods. But he doesn’t take his eyes off of you.
“I don’t know what this means,” you confess. “I still don’t.”
And he looks at you like he’s reading your fucking soul. “Me neither.”
He drags his fingertips lazily along your skin. Trailing your shoulder, to your collarbones, before slipping them up to tuck a strand of hair behind your ear. “But I know it’s not nothing.”
You don’t speak. Your throat and chest tight with emotion.
Eventually, your fingers start tracing light shapes along his ribs. Thoughtless.
“You used to do that all the time,” He mutters.
You pause. “Do what?”
“That thing with your fingers. The little shapes. Lines. Especially when you couldn’t sleep.”
You feel your heart in your fucking throat. But you keep tracing.
“I never stopped thinking about you,” he says quietly. “Even when I tried to…it would..it would just have me thinking about you all over again.”
You swallow. “You didn’t have to try.”
“But didn’t I?” His voice is rough, hoarse. “You wouldn’t take to me. I didn’t even know what I was allowed to say to you anymore. If I was even allowed to say anything.”
“You could’ve,” you whisper. “I just….I didn’t want to be the one holding us together by myself anymore.”
“I know,” He says. “And I hate myself for making you feel that way.”
You blink hard, trying to stop the tears from falling.
Lando reaches for your hand, linking your fingers together. Bringing it to his lips, pressing soft kisses to each of your fingers, then your knuckles. One inside of your wrist.
Slow. One by one.
“I think I was scared,” He admits. “That if I actually gave you all of me, and you still left…” He trails off. His jaw clenching and eyes shutting at the thought.
Your heart thrums. “I was never asking for all of you, Lan.”
“Maybe not with words,” he says. “But you deserved it anyways.”
He drops your hand, to bring it to your cheek. Thumb catching the single tear that manages to slip free at the corner of your eye.
“I miss us,” he smiles sadly. “Not just the sex. Or this. Just I miss your stupid coffee orders that changed every week. And your laugh when you were too tired. Or the way you used to fall asleep on my chest.”
You bring your face closer to his, breathing him in.
“And I miss your terrible excuses for missing calls,” You joke. “And oddly enough, how you always left your fucking socks everywhere.”
He smiles. A real one.
And then he’s leaning in. Kisses you again.
Soft.
Slow.
Sweet.
“Can we…try again?” He asks quietly. “Not tonight..not like this of course. But maybe…”
You squeeze his hand, a soft smile on your lips. His smile mirroring yours.
“One step at a time.”
And for now…it’s enough.
Framboisine
What begins as a pit stop becomes something far less temporary as Lando finds himself tangled in the quiet rhythms of rural life, complicated histories, and the unexpected pull of a woman who has no patience for charm and even less for goodbyes.
Genre: Smut, Contemporary Romance, Small-Town Fic, Slice of Life Found Family, Soft Angst, Post-Grief Healing, Gentle Comedy, Fluff
NSFW warning: 18+ Explicit sexual content, Oral (f. receiving), Unprotected sex, Praise kink (if you squint), Mild angst, Grief mentions, Single parent dynamics
Inspired by Turning Page by Sleeping At Last
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The heat had finally broken, but the walls still sweated. She stood barefoot in the doorway, one hand on the chipped frame, watching the horizon shimmer above the lavender fields. The old inn creaked around her, the kind of creak that meant the stone was settling or maybe protesting. She hadn’t decided which. Behind her, the sound of a cheap cartoon echoed faintly from the kitchen. Her daughter was lying on the cool tile floor, chin in hands, humming to herself between mouthfuls of cereal that absolutely did not belong to dinner. It was nearly six. Too late for new guests, too early for the good kind of silence.
Then the car came. She heard it before she saw it, wrong rhythm, high and irregular, like something imported trying to survive on rural backroads. She stepped off the stoop, squinting down the gravel drive as a sleek, unfamiliar shape cut through the late dust and heat haze. Silver. Low to the ground. Out of place. The car coughed once, then died. She waited. Arms crossed. The driver’s door opened slow. Out stepped a man in a white t-shirt, creased in the wrong places like he’d slept in it. He was maybe mid-twenties, unshaven. Sunglasses still on. He looked around like he was trying to pretend he hadn’t just stalled halfway up a hill. Then he caught sight of her.
“Excusez-moi,” he called out. “Je suis en panne-“ She said nothing. Just raised one brow. He tried again, slower, more hopeful. “Euh panne de voiture? Vous avez une chambre, peut-être?” Still nothing. He hesitated, switched gears. “Eh, misschien, Nederlands? Spreekt u?” “Nope,” she said flatly, in clipped English. “Try again.” He blinked, like she’d smacked him in the face with a towel. “Oh,” he said, straightening. “You’re British?” “Partly.” He scratched the back of his neck. “Right. Well. My car’s dead.” “Dead how?” “Bit of smoke. Some noise I’m choosing to pretend didn’t happen.” She narrowed her eyes. “Sounds terminal.” “It might be sulking. Or French.”
That earned the faintest twitch of her mouth.
He stepped forward. “Is this a hotel?” “Inn.” “Not to sound like Joseph, but do you have a room?”
She looked him over. Sunglasses, trainers too clean, a backpack that didn’t belong to someone who stayed in places like this. There was something about him that didn’t sit right. Not dangerous. Just wrong kind of tired. Like someone used to being looked at who didn’t want to be.
She paused. Then nodded toward the side entrance. “One. Upstairs. Cash only.” He looked relieved. “I’ve got cash.” “Then you’ve got a room, as long as there isn’t a pregnant woman with you, about to pop in my inn.” He hesitated at the steps. “Do you want my name or?” “I don’t care.”
He blinked at that. Then smiled. Not a performance, just surprise. Inside, her daughter peeked out from behind the doorway, clutching a stuffed bear and eyeing him like he might be another delivery. The man smiled, slow and natural. “Hey, little one.”
Margaux didn’t answer. Just tilted her head.
He adjusted his bag. “I’m Lando, by the way.” She didn’t blink. “Good for you.” Then turned, barefoot on the cool stone, and led him inside.
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The inside of Maison du Pin was ever so slightly cooler. Stone floors. Whitewashed walls. A tired ceiling fan that turned like it had a grudge. He ducked under the archway, shoulder brushing the wood, and followed her past the little sitting area where a bookcase slouched under its own weight and the couch had the look of something that had been re-stuffed more than once. She moved quickly, without ceremony, one hand catching a light switch, the other already halfway up the stairs. He hesitated, still blinking at the space, the way it smelled of lemon soap and old varnish.
"Coming or what?" she called, not looking back.
He followed. Upstairs was narrower. Low ceilings, creaky steps, a small window at the end of the hall with its shutter propped open by a paperback copy of Rebecca. She pushed open the third door on the left. “It’s not fancy.” The room had a bed, a window, a fan that might’ve once worked, and a single chair too close to the radiator. The bedsheets were clean, if a little sun faded. The walls were uneven plaster. A bee buzzed lazily against the glass.
Lando stepped in, nodded slowly. “Looks like it doesn’t know what century it’s in.” She leaned on the doorframe. “Neither do I. You want it or not?” He turned toward her. “I didn’t mean it like that.” She didn’t reply. Just crossed the room and snapped the window open. The bee escaped. The air shifted. “There’s no aircon,” she said, pointing. “Fans got two moods: moody and possessed. Don’t touch the radiator, it hisses when it’s bored. And if you break the bedframe, I don’t want to know how.” Lando blinked. “That was oddly specific.” She gave him a look. “This is a working inn, not a Netflix romcom.” He grinned despite himself. “Right. No touching haunted radiators, no bedframe acrobatics.” “You get one towel. You can ask nicely for more.” “I always ask nicely.” “Mm.” He took a slow lap of the room, ran his fingers along the edge of the desk. “You clean all this yourself?” “No,” she said flatly. “The mice pitch in.”
He turned. She was still standing in the doorway; one hip cocked like she was already halfway back downstairs.
She nodded once, unbothered. “Right. You’ll need a key. And your passport.” He raised an eyebrow. “You serious?” “Welcome to France.”
He laughed softly, the kind that said he wasn’t sure if she was joking. From the hallway, a tiny voice broke the tension.
“Maman?” She glanced over her shoulder. “Yeah?” Margaux appeared around the corner, one hand dragging a soft toy across the floor, curls wild, socks mismatched. She eyed Lando like he was some particularly shiny wildlife. He smiled. “Hi again.” The girl held up her bear in silent reply. “Don’t stare,” her mother said gently, brushing a hand over her daughter’s head as she passed. “Come on. Time for your bath.”
The little girl stuck close to her leg, but kept glancing back at him, clearly filing him under interesting things to ask about later. Lando watched them go, then turned back to the room. It was still hot, still slightly musty, still humming with the kind of stillness you only got in old buildings and empty hearts. He let his bag drop by the bed, then opened the window wider. Somewhere in the garden, cicadas screamed like they had something to prove.
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He gave it ten minutes. Maybe fifteen. Sat on the edge of the bed. Checked his phone. No bars. Held it up. Turned in place like a lost dog. Still nothing. He headed back downstairs. The front door stuck when he pulled it, like it had swollen with pride. Outside, the sun had started to dip, casting long gold streaks across the gravel. The swing in the side garden creaked once in the breeze. No traffic. No movement. Just cicadas and the distant clink of someone setting out glassware next door. He walked a little way up the road. Then down. Then back again. No bars. Not even a flicker. Behind him, the screen door swung open with a protesting groan.
“You looking for something?” she asked. He turned. She had a tea towel over one shoulder and a screwdriver in her hand. “Signal,” he said, holding up his phone like it was self-explanatory. She made a face somewhere between pity and amusement. “Ah. That.” She pointed with the screwdriver. “There’s a café bench two streets down under a fig tree. Sometimes if the wind’s right you get a bar. One. For a minute.” He stared at her. “You’re joking.” “Nope.” He blinked. “Is that legal?” “In this village?” she said. “Legal’s just a suggestion.”
He almost smiled at that. Almost. She didn’t wait. Just turned back inside like she hadn’t derailed his entire digital reality with a screwdriver and a shrug. He stood there for another few seconds, watching the road like it might suddenly sprout a 5G tower just for him. It didn’t.
Inside, he could hear Margaux laugh. Not loud. Just enough. It cut through the quiet like something fragile and warm. He let out a breath. Looked up at the inn again, tired shutters, old vines, walls the colour of toast. Maybe one night wouldn’t kill him. Maybe two.
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By noon, the village had started its slow, predictable hum. A pair of cyclists took the bend outside the inn too wide. Someone’s goat had gotten loose again and was chewing on the post box. The air smelled like thyme and dish soap. Inside Maison du Pin, the inn was doing what it did best: pretending to be quiet while everyone pretended not to listen. Willem stood behind the bar like he had been born there, arms folded, leaning comfortably against the wood, polishing a glass with the kind of patience only retirement could buy.
“Your tap’s loose again,” he said, in his thick Belgian accent, without looking up. “I know.” “And your barrel’s nearly empty.” “Also know.” He set the glass down, satisfied. “You never let me complain properly.” She wiped her hands on a tea towel and gave him a look. He chuckled, deep and fond. “Lieveke, if you were mine, I would have married you off by now. Or locked you in the cellar for your own good.” “Lucky for both of us,” she said, “I’m not yours.”
He raised his eyebrows but didn’t push. They had this rhythm. Her and Willem. Like an old, bickering clock. At the end of the bar, Margaux was colouring furiously with a box of half-snapped crayons, her legs swinging off the stool. A glass of orange juice sat untouched beside her, already sweating in the heat. From the kitchen came the faint clang of metal and the sizzle of something that was either a very aggressive omelette or Bas showing off again. She didn’t need to go check. Bas always cooked like someone was watching.
“He’s a good boy,” Willem said eventually. She shrugged. “So’s the postman. Doesn’t mean I want to marry him.” Willem snorted into his tea. “You’re a menace.” “I’m tired.”
The door creaked open before he could answer. Lando stepped inside like someone testing the temperature of the air. Fresh t-shirt. No sunglasses this time. His hair was still damp, like he’d dunked his head under the tap. She nodded toward the bar. “You want coffee, or do you just enjoy standing in doorways looking confused?”
“I enjoy options,” he said, stepping in. “Is one of them breakfast?” “You missed it.” He raised his eyebrows. “By how much?” “Four hours and an attitude.” “Right,” he said. “Lunch, then.” She turned, called toward the kitchen, “Bas, feed the lost boy!”
A muffled clang. A low reply. Something vaguely enthusiastic. Lando glanced toward the child at the bar, who was now drawing with one crayon in each hand and narrating something under her breath about dragons and laundry.
“Is she always that focused?” he asked. “Only when she’s ignoring everything important.” He smiled faintly. “Wonder where she gets it from.” She glanced at him, expression unreadable. “You want to see the village later?” He looked surprised. “Sure. If you’ve got time.” “I don’t. But come anyway.” She stepped out from behind the bar, wiping her hands again. “Finish your food. You’ve got ten minutes.” Lando watched her go, then turned to Willem, who was watching him like a man who already knew all his secrets. Willem held up the glass he’d just cleaned. “Good luck, boy.” Lando blinked. “Thanks?” “She’s more work than the whole village combined.” Lando smirked, glancing toward the open door. “Noticed.” Then Bas appeared, apron stained, blonde hair a mess, eyes narrowing just slightly when he saw where Lando was standing. He said nothing. Just set a plate down with more force than necessary and disappeared back into the kitchen. Lando stared at the food. Then at the door she’d gone through. Ten minutes.
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They took the back way, through the orchard where the trees leaned like gossiping aunts and the ground was all dust and apricot pits. She didn’t walk slowly. He just kept pace. She pointed with her chin as they passed the first stone wall. “That’s the café. If you sit on the right bench under the fig tree, you might get signal.” He glanced at the table, two old men were already there, phones held high like offerings to a stingy god. She added, “Don’t lean too far back or the bench tips.” “Let me guess,” he said. “You learned that the fun way?” “No,” she said. “Bastien did. I laughed.”
She pushed open the café door. Inside, the air was cooler, thick with espresso and that faint, nostalgic scent of old croissants and printer paper.
“Order something,” she said. “They won’t give you the Wi-Fi code unless you pay first.” He pulled out his wallet, already amused. “And what do I get if I charm them?” “You won’t. They hate Parisians and footballers.” “I’m neither.” “They’ll assume.”
He smirked, but didn’t argue. She sat by the window while he ordered. Watched him try to pronounce noisette. Didn’t help. He returned with two tiny cups and a scrap of paper with the Wi-Fi code scribbled in green pen. “Victory,” he said. He opened his phone, connected, and stared at the notifications for a long time without touching any of them. She didn’t comment. Outside, the men under the fig tree were arguing softly in Occitan. A moped buzzed past like a drunken bee. After a few minutes, he locked the phone again. “Right,” he said. “Where to next?” She stood. “The river. Then the mechanic. You should at least pretend you want your car fixed.”
The river was low. Summer always did that. The kids had dammed it up with stones again, building miniature worlds between the reeds. A few barefoot teenagers were lying on the bank with their headphones in, sun-drunk and indifferent. She pointed toward the footbridge. “We used to jump off that as kids.” He glanced at it. “Looks painful.” “It was. That’s why we did it.” She crouched briefly to pick up a stone Margaux would want, flat and speckled, good for a pocket. Then straightened. “Come on.” They passed the épicerie. The post office. The old man with the newspaper stands who saluted without looking up. She returned it without thinking. The village moved around them like clockwork, like the whole place was one big, dusty machine she was part of.
He, meanwhile, stuck out like a misplaced brushstroke. At the mechanic’s, a squat, oil-streaked building with an open yard, she called out in French. A teenager in a vest and too-short shorts waved from under a bonnet, shouted something back.
“He’ll look at your car tomorrow,” she translated. Lando nodded. “Should I be worried?” “No more than usual.” “Reassuring.”
They started back, uphill this time. Slower.
“You don’t really want it fixed, do you?” she asked suddenly. He didn’t look at her. “Wouldn’t be the worst thing, staying here a little.” He added, “It’s quiet.” She didn’t smile. But she didn’t argue either.
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The sun had shifted by the time they made it back. The inn looked different in late light, gold on the shutters, the vines glowing a little. The world hadn’t moved much, but the edges had softened. She unlocked the side door with one hand and dropped the stone she’d picked up into the blue bowl by the stairs. It joined a dozen others. Her daughter’s collection. All named, probably. All sacred. Lando hesitated by the doorway. “So, I suppose I should call that guy?”
“You’re not going to.” He looked at her. “Excuse me?” She dropped her bag on the bench. “You’re not going to call. Because you don’t actually want to leave.” He raised an eyebrow. “That’s a pretty big assumption.” She turned, arms crossed. “Is it wrong?” He opened his mouth. Then didn’t answer. She gave a humourless smile. “That’s what I thought, everyone here, didn’t originally plan to stay here forever. Willem was on his gap year, and now look at him, 40 years later and he’s still here.” “I’m just tired,” he said, softer now. “It’s been a long few months.” “Mm.” She didn’t press. Just nodded toward the back. “Come on. We’ve got leftover frittata if you’re brave.”
The garden was mostly shade now. A single wooden table sat crooked under the cherry tree. The swing moved once, lazily, like it had been told a joke. She brought out two plates. He didn’t offer to help. She didn’t ask. They sat in silence for a while, the kind that didn’t demand filling. Just two people eating slightly soggy frittata, listening to the hum of the air. She took a sip of something cold and homemade. Lemon. Mint. Regret.
He stabbed a piece of onion and said, “You really don’t ask questions, do you?” “You look like you don’t answer them.” “Touché.” She finished her bite before adding, “I don’t care about your family drama, job or women troubles or whatever story you’re trying to outrun.” “Harsh,” he said. But he was smiling now.
From the far end of the garden came a thud, then a shout. Margaux came barrelling around the hedge with a plastic sword and one sock on.
“Maman!” she cried. “The swing’s broken again!” She didn’t look up. “Is it broken or dramatic?” “It squeaks!” “Then don’t swing so hard.” “I wasn’t!” Lando was already standing. “I’ll look at it.” She glanced up. “You know swings?” “I know a lot of things,” he said, stretching lazily. “Like physics. And leverage.” Margaux eyed him sceptically. “Are you a knight?” He blinked. “I- I don’t think so?” She handed him the sword anyway. “You can help, if you don’t ruin it more.” He took it like it might explode. “Noted.” She watched him walk across the grass, sword in one hand, the kid in the other, already explaining swing angles with the kind of patience only people trying not to think too hard tend to have. Margaux laughed. He joined in. She didn’t smile, she watched. Too long.
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She was already at the sink, rinsing a small plastic lunchbox that had once been white but now looked like it had survived a war. On the counter beside it, an apple, a triangle of cheese, and a folded napkin with a poorly drawn frog. Margaux’s idea of a joke. The front door creaked open. She didn’t need to look.
“You’re early,” she called, still drying the box.
Willem’s voice drifted in, gravelly and smug. “And you’re welcome.” He came in with his usual rhythm: two steps, a dramatic sigh, a muttered comment about arthritis that never quite seemed to slow him down. Behind him, Bas was quieter, more precise, carrying a crate of fresh eggs under one arm and looking very pointedly not toward the back stairs.
“Morning,” Bas said, barely. She nodded. “Coffee’s fresh. Just don’t touch the lemon cake.” Willem grunted, already reaching for the pot. “That for your little Framboisine?” She glanced up. “Obviously.” Margaux padded in moments later, wearing a dress backwards and one shoe. Her curls were wild, her mood even more so. “Your dress is inside out,” her mother said without turning. “No, it’s custom,” Margaux replied solemnly. Willem laughed, scooping her up with surprising ease for someone who claimed to have a bad back. “My little Framboisine! You’re going to rule the school.” “Framboisine,” Lando repeated from the doorway, rubbing sleep from his face. “What does that mean? Like… jam?”
The whole room turned to look at him.
He blinked. “Just asking.” “It’s a word Willem made up,” she said, adjusting Margaux’s collar. “Technically means nothing.” “Means everything,” Willem corrected. Lando raised an eyebrow. “Sounds like a perfume.” Bas cleared his throat but didn’t speak. Margaux was now arranging a small army of sugar packets into a battlefield across the bar. She grabbed her keys. “We’re walking. I’ll be back in ten. Try not to burn anything.” Willem saluted with his mug. “We’ll keep the walls standing.” “Bas, check the back freezer, yeah? It’s humming again.”
He nodded, already disappearing into the kitchen. Outside, the morning was crisp, the air laced with rosemary and woodsmoke. Margaux skipped two steps ahead, humming something off-key. Lando followed them halfway down the drive.
“Do you walk her every day?” he asked. “When I can,” she said. “It’s not far.” He hesitated. “Can I come?” She gave him a sideways glance. “You planning on enrolling too?” He grinned. “Just curious.” “You’re nosy.” “Same thing.”
Margaux had already run ahead to collect a rock she’d named yesterday. She looked at Lando again, barefoot in trainers, eyes still soft with sleep, not asking the right kind of questions.
“Fine,” she said. “But don’t complain if someone throws a baguette at you.”
They walked on, past shuttered windows and crooked doors, her daughter darting in and out of shadow like a fish in clear water. At the school gates, Margaux turned just once to wave, already tangled in conversation with a friend. Then it was quiet again. Just the gravel underfoot and the lazy hum of a town not in a rush. The épicerie sat like it had grown there, wedged between the café and the church, shutters flaking, lavender in old jam jars on the sill. She opened the door with the same touch she used to quiet her daughter at night. Inside, it smelled of thyme, newspaper ink, and twenty years of salted butter.
Jacky popped her head up from behind the counter like a startled badger. “Ma petite veuve!” she cried, arms flung wide. Lando, mid-step behind her, froze. “Sorry your what?” “Little innkeeper,” she muttered. “It’s a long story. Just smile.” Jacky swept around the counter in a blur of floral fabric, clutching her by both arms and kissing each cheek with the force of a small riot. “You never visit anymore,” Jacky scolded. “I thought you’d eloped with a plumber.” “I don’t have time to elope.” “Well, that’s depressing,” said a new voice, higher, sharper, amused. Chloé strode in from the back room, hair buzzed on one side, eyeliner theatrical. Behind her trailed Romain, in a crochet tank top and sandals, carrying an open bag of lentils and looking deeply unimpressed by the concept of gravity. Chloé blinked at Lando. “Oh, he’s pretty.” Romain tilted his head. “He’s famous.” “I knew I recognized the jawline,” Chloé said, snapping her fingers. “Racer?” “Relax,” Romain said, waving a lentil at him. “We’re anarchists.” The innkeeper was already moving toward the back shelves, ignoring them. “I need juice boxes and batteries.” “Romantic,” Jacky called after her. Chloé leaned across the counter toward Lando. “She raised that kid alone, you know. Moved back five years ago. Took over the inn. Her parents gone, the baby’s dad too, some freak accident, boat crash or something. Didn’t even speak for the first month.”
Lando’s stomach twisted.
“She never talks about it,” Romain added, like it was fascinating. “Doesn’t mean we don’t.” “She’s good,” Jacky said firmly, tapping the counter. “Solid. Doesn’t ask for help. Too proud, probably. But the girl’s got backbone.” “She used to cry behind the wine crates,” Chloé offered helpfully. “Chloé,” Jacky snapped. “I’m saying it nicely.”
Lando said nothing. Just glanced toward the far aisle, where she was crouched, choosing the least dented juice box with surgical precision.
“Look at her,” Romain murmured. “Like nothing touches her.” Lando nodded. “Yeah,” he said quietly. “I see that.” She returned with an armful and a frown. “You’re all talking about me, aren’t you?” Jacky fluttered a hand. “Just saying you should visit more. And eat more. And maybe date someone not terrible.” She sighed and dropped the groceries on the counter. “Add bread. And whatever Margaux got here on Wednesday.” Chloé slid a jar of olives toward her. “Your kid’s a genius. She re-alphabetized the spice rack.” “She’s five.” “Exactly.”
While they packed the bag, Lando moved toward the till.
“Don’t,” she said. “I’m just-” “You’re a guest.” He looked at Jacky. Jacky looked at her. Then took his card anyway. “I’m ignoring her,” Jacky said brightly. “You’ll die first,” she warned, with a straight face. Jacky smiled. “Maybe. But not today.” As they left, Chloé called out, “Don’t let him fix your swing, by the way! He’s too pretty. He’ll break it.” Lando looked back once. Jacky gave him a nod he didn’t understand but felt anyway. They walked in silence. The bag in her hand was heavy. The words in his throat, heavier.
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That night, the bar was finally quiet. Bas wiped down the counters with slow, steady movements, the familiar rhythm grounding the end of the day. She moved between bottles and glasses, locking up, her thoughts elsewhere. Outside, the air had cooled, sharp and clean, carrying the faint scent of lavender from the garden. Lando caught her just as she stepped out the door, the last lock clicking shut behind them.
“You still here?” she asked, half-smiling, trying to hide the tiredness beneath. He shrugged, hands in his pockets. “Couldn’t sleep.” She studied him in the low light, the lines of his face softer without the day’s sun or the buzz of the inn around them. “So,” she said, voice light, “I just found out you’re an F1 driver.” He blinked, surprised. “You didn’t know?” “Of course I did,” she said, shaking her head. “You just never mentioned it. Didn’t seem relevant, sometimes, it’s easier to keep things to yourself. The stuff you don’t want people to see.” Her fingers twitched with something unspoken, the weight of years she’d carried alone, of losses too sharp to name, I lost people,” she said, voice low. “Not in a way you talk about. Not aloud. Just in the silence that follows.”
He looked at her then, really looked, and something slipped out, a truth he hadn’t meant to say. “I get that.”
She glanced up, surprised by the honesty. No judgement. No trying to fix it. They stood close, the cool night wrapping around them like a whispered secret. He reached out almost without thinking, brushing a stray leaf from her braid, his fingers lingering a moment longer than necessary. She didn’t pull away. Her eyes flickered down to his lips, soft, tempting, and then back to his eyes, caught between wanting and holding back. Their breaths mingled, shallow and uneven, the space between them charged, electric and fragile, balanced on the edge of something neither dared to cross. His eyes searched hers, silent questions tangled in the dark. She tilted her head, lips parted slightly, heart quickening. Then, from just down the path, a small voice called out, clear and bright. “Maman?” The spell broke. He stepped back, but the air between them still hummed with all the words left unsaid.
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The kitchen was already hot. The fan above the stove turned like it regretted being alive. A pan sizzled too loudly. Coffee steamed in a chipped white mug by the sink, untouched. She was slicing tomatoes. Bas was too quiet. He moved like he always did, clean, efficient, sleeves rolled, apron already stained. But there was something about the way he stacked the bread this morning. Like it had personally offended him.
“Did you check the fridge door?” she asked, without looking. “It clicks now,” he said. “Good.”
Silence. Then, as if it had just occurred to him, “You and the Englishman were talking late.” She wiped juice off her hands with a tea towel. “I run an inn. Talking happens.” “He’s still here.” “He’s waiting on his car.” Bas turned, slow. “Fancy cars don’t wait well in this village. Not with the mechanic we’ve got.” She met his eyes for a beat too long. Bas shrugged, casual like a knife. “You should tell him to see Henri today. Parts take forever.” From the hallway: footsteps, light and loose. Lando, hair still damp, a different T-shirt, holding two empty mugs. “Coffee?” he offered. Bas turned back to the stove. She took one mug. “Kitchen’s full.” “I can go.” “No,” she said. “You should go see the mechanic.” Lando raised an eyebrow. “Didn’t know there was a rush.” “There is,” she said flatly. “Here.” She handed him a slip of paper with a number on it. Henri’s. “Tell him I sent you. He’ll know the car.” Lando looked between the two of them. “Everything alright?” “Perfect,” Bas muttered.
She didn’t answer. Lando nodded slowly. “Right. I’ll call him.” He turned to go but paused at the door. “Tomatoes smell good,” he said, almost as an afterthought. Bas didn’t look up. “They’re not for you.” Lando blinked, then smiled. “Noted.”
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The sound of Henri’s van backfiring up the hill was impossible to miss. She wiped her hands on a cloth and stepped outside just as Lando met the mechanic at the gravel edge of the drive, where the silver car sat sun-baked and miserable. Henri climbed down with a groan, jean shorts and a sweat-stained cap, followed by one tall, serious boy, maybe eighteen, clearly the one who actually fixed things, the one they’d seen on Lando’s tour; and Romain, holding a glass bottle of fizzy lemonade and absolutely no tools. Lando looked from one to the other. “I’m guessing he’s not the assistant?” he asked, nodding toward Romain.
“Assistant in vibes,” Romain said cheerfully, adjusting his crochet top. “But I supervise aggressively.” Henri clapped Lando on the back, already peering under the hood. “She tells me you broke this beauty somewhere between bravado and a bad decision.” “She’s not wrong.” Romain leaned against the car like he’d posed for a perfume ad. “The village is very interested in this, by the way.” Lando looked up. “In what?” “Your car. Your arrival. Your face.” “I thought they didn’t care about famous people.” “They don’t. That’s why they love talking about them.”
The older boy, Henri’s eldest son, was already under the hood, muttering in rapid French. She stayed back by the doorway, arms crossed. Lando looked over his shoulder, caught her eye. He came toward her, brushing his hands on his shorts. “Hey,” he said, quieter now. “That guy in the kitchen, Bas. You two alright?” She raised one eyebrow. “You asking personally or for the guestbook?” “I’m asking because he looked like he wanted to put my head in the fryer.” She tilted her head slightly, weighing the honesty in his voice. “We’re fine,” she said. “He just has a long memory.” Lando nodded slowly. “Right.” She studied him. “You’re not in a rush, are you?” He looked back at the mechanic, the car, the two sons now half-arguing in French over whether something was cracked or just French by nature. “Not really,” he admitted. “Honestly, if they said it’d take two weeks, I’d probably thank them.” She smirked. “Dangerous thing to say in this town.” “I’m full of dangerous things lately.” From across the garden, Romain shouted, “We’re going to the florist in ten!” Henri groaned. “Don’t yell in front of the vehicle, Romain. It’s fragile.” “It’s English,” Romain corrected. She turned to Lando. “You want to stay for the postmortem?” “I feel like it’s already being live-streamed.”
He followed her back inside just as Margaux came barrelling down the stairs, sunhat backwards and one shoe on, holding a flower drawing like it was an international treaty.
“Maman,” she announced. “I need violets.” Romain spun dramatically. “Then you shall have them! I’m going to meet Chloé and Jacky. Margs can come.” She hesitated. “You sure?” Romain pressed a hand to his heart. “I would die for the Framboisine.” Margaux beamed. “Yay!” Romain grabbed Margaux’s hand. “To the florist, small queen!”
Then they were off, skipping toward the road, leaving behind the car, the argument, the inn. Lando exhaled. She did too, but quieter.
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The door had barely shut behind Romain and Margaux before the house fell quiet again. Too quiet. She stood in the hallway a moment longer than she meant to, watching the swing of the empty coat hook where Margaux’s sunhat usually hung. It was silly. She knew that. But still. Lando didn’t say anything. Just hovered nearby, hands in his pockets, eyes softer than usual.
“She’ll be fine,” she said finally. “I wasn’t worried.” “You were.” He smiled, faint and lopsided. “Maybe a little.” They drifted back outside. The sun was slanting low, burning everything gold. The mechanic was still under the hood, muttering and swearing. The serious son nodded once and disappeared inside for a cold drink. Romain’s echo had long faded down the road. “I keep thinking about that grocery shop,” Lando said after a moment. “Oh?” “They all know everything. Or think they do.”
She didn’t answer. Just kept her arms folded.
“It’s not a bad thing,” he added quickly. “It’s just intense.” She looked at him then. Really looked. “You’re not used to people seeing you, are you?” He thought about it. “They see the wrong parts.” “They always do.” Henri banged something metal against something louder. “C’est de la merde de luxe, ça!” “Translation?” Lando asked. She smiled. “Luxury bullshit.” “Fits.”
A silence stretched out between them. Not tense. Just there. Honest.
He glanced toward the road. “What happened to her dad?” She didn’t flinch. “Fishing accident. Small boat. Bad storm. No signal. By the time they found them.” She trailed off. He nodded, not pushing. “And your parents?” he asked gently. She shrugged. “Same storm. Same boat, I didn’t go because I was pregnant, I couldn’t be on the boat without throwing up.” He looked at her. “Jesus.” “Yeah.” Lando ran a hand through his hair. “I don’t know what to say.” “You don’t have to say anything.”
Another pause.
“She was born two months later,” she added quietly. “That’s why the name stuck. Framboisine. My mum used to call me that. I hated it. But Margaux, she makes it work.” He swallowed. “That’s a lot.” “Mm.”
The sun touched the tree line. The mechanic packed up with curses and promises to return. Lando stood beside her like he wasn’t sure if he was meant to move or stay.
“I didn’t come here for any of this,” he said. She met his eyes. “Good. Then maybe you’ll stay for the right reasons.”
That hung in the air between them. Close. Too close. Then Bas pushed open the bar door behind them. “Need help cleaning up?” She stepped back. “Yeah.” Lando exhaled. “I’ll be upstairs.”
She nodded, already walking. He paused at the door, glanced back once. The garden was quiet. The house even quieter. He didn't know what he wanted. But he was starting to know where it was.
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Lando was still supposed to be a guest. That was the rule. Unspoken, but sharp-edged. Guests paid. Guests passed through. Guests didn’t fix things or fold tea towels or make children laugh like they’d been there all along. And yet. By midweek, he was wearing one of Bas’s spare aprons, slightly too small, while retying the back of a chair cushion for the third time. He hadn’t asked permission. He just started. Margaux trailed after him like it was her job. She sat cross-legged on the counter while he stacked glasses. Gave him running commentary while he restocked the ice. Played sous-chef while he chopped strawberries, mostly just to steal them.
“Are you working here now?” she asked with full-mouthed curiosity. He grinned. “Depends. Do I get paid in juice boxes?” “Yes,” she declared. “And also, one of my rocks.” “Then it’s a deal.”
She watched from the kitchen doorway, arms crossed, towel slung over one shoulder. It was unnerving how easily it had happened. One day he was a stranded guest. The next he was teasing Margaux into brushing her hair without protest or rewiring the dodgy switch in the hallway with a screwdriver he borrowed from Willem.
She liked it. Not just the help. Not just the extra hands when the bar got too full or Bas got moody. She liked him there. The way he made her daughter laugh from the stomach. And that scared the hell out of her. Because she'd spent five years turning this house into a fortress of competence. Because she knew how easily kids attached.
Willem eyed Lando like a stray dog who kept coming back to the porch. Not hostile. Just cautious. Bas wasn’t so subtle. He stopped speaking to Lando altogether, except for clipped one-word exchanges that came sharp as a snapped string. He spent more time than necessary in the cellar. And when he passed Lando in the hallway, he did it with the silence of a man actively choosing not to shove someone.
Jacky, of course, was the opposite. “He carries things,” she said while dropping off a crate of soda. “With his arms, and not his ego. That’s rare.” Chloé chimed in later with, “I don’t trust his hair. But he’s polite.” And Romain, “I’ve seen the way he looks at you when you’re not looking. Like a sad puppy with a credit card.”
She rolled her eyes at all of them. But Margaux, Margaux called him “Sir Lando” now, like he was in a storybook. And when he lifted her onto the garden wall so she could watch the bats at dusk, she laughed so hard she hiccupped. That night, after closing, she found the rock Margaux gave him sitting on the windowsill by his room. Carefully placed. Like it meant something. She didn’t touch it. But she didn’t stop looking either.
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The first time he tried, it was mid-morning. She was hauling empty bottles out to the recycling bins behind the kitchen. He followed her out, grabbed one of the crates before she could. “Can I ask you something?” She didn’t look up. “If it’s about the coffee machine, the answer’s probably ‘swear louder.’” “It’s not.”
That made her pause. Then the door banged open behind them.
Willem, wiping his hands on a cloth, stuck his head out. “Do we have any more of that dark rum, or has Bas hidden it again?” She groaned. “Bottom shelf. Far left.”
Willem disappeared again.
She turned back. “What was your question?” He hesitated. “Nothing.”
The second time, it was in the garden. He was fixing the lantern. She was moving chairs. “Tonight,” he said, half-breathless. “You busy?” She raised an eyebrow. “Always.” “No, I mean, not work. I was thinking dinner. Maybe. If you wanted.”
Bas slammed the bar door open at exactly that moment, muttering something in Dutch about inventory and missing aprons. Lando sighed. “Never mind.”
She said nothing. But her mouth twitched like she almost smiled.
Third time was technically the worst.
She was in the kitchen. Margaux had just fallen off the garden bench and cut her toe on a pebble. There was blood. There were tears. There was the kind of chaos only a child can generate in under eight seconds. By the time Lando found them, she was crouched with a wet cloth and soothing voice, and Margaux was hiccupping in dramatic pain.
He hovered in the doorway, helpless. “Do you need anything?” he asked. “Not unless you’re secretly a surgeon,” she said, not looking up. He retreated.
Fourth time. Evening. Light fading. Tables set. The projector screen already hanging from the side of the shed. She was behind the bar, arranging wine bottles. He didn’t delay this time. Just said, “Do you want to go out with me?”
She paused. Looked at him. Really looked. Then, “I can’t.” He blinked. “Oh.” “No, I mean, I can’t tonight. It’s movie and karaoke. I run it. I’ve got wine to pour, kids to keep from falling into the firepit, and at least one guy who always throws up after singing Céline Dion.” Lando relaxed. Just slightly. “So not a no.” She smirked. “Just bad timing.” “Seems like I’m cursed.” “I told you this village was a nightmare.” He tapped the bar. “Then I guess I’ll come. Sit in the back. Heckle you during karaoke.” “You heckle me,” she said, “you’re next on the mic.” He grinned. “Deal.”
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The garden transformed just before sunset. Willem strung up the lights like he’d been rehearsing for a wedding. Bas moved chairs with grim efficiency. Chloé painted faces on the kids who asked, then on a few who didn’t. Jacky brought champagne. Romain brought cake. Uninvited, but no one said no. The screen, an old white sheet, tugged tight against the side of the shed, flapped in the breeze until Lando pinned the corners with bricks. By the time the projector warmed up, there were thirty people settled on mismatched chairs, beanbags, and picnic blankets. Dogs barked in the distance. Someone had brought a saxophone, just in case. She moved through it all like a conductor. Directing, calming, pouring, smiling when necessary. But never still. Never quiet. Lando watched from a low wooden stool with a plastic cup of Jacky’s punch and a slight buzz in his chest that had nothing to do with the alcohol.
She never sat down. But she laughed, real and open, when Margaux spilled popcorn on the headteachers feet. She high-fived Chloé after catching a stray wine cork mid-air. She mouthed the words to the movie from behind the bar like someone who knew every scene by heart.
When the credits rolled, the real chaos began. Someone dragged a speaker inside. Jacky shouted something about Céline Dion. Willem groaned. Bas disappeared. Lando stayed.
He stood at the edge of the room, near the wine rack, half-shadowed, watching. The karaoke list was a mess of scribbled names and inside jokes. Half the village seemed to have chosen “their” song. Margaux was already dancing barefoot on a chair.
Then someone shouted, “Madame la patronne!” The room erupted in cheers. Someone pushed a microphone into her hand.
She raised it, horrified. “No.” “Yes!” Jacky barked. “It’s tradition!” Margaux jumped down, grabbed her hand. “We practiced!” “Oh god,” she muttered.
Lando leaned against the wall, smiling now. The music started. Off-key. Too loud. One of those French pop songs from the 90s that sounded like fizzy water and heartbreak. She sang badly. So badly. Flat on every chorus. Late on every verse. But Margaux belted along like she was headlining Glastonbury, and somewhere between the second verse and the bridge, they were dancing. Just the two of them, mother and daughter, spinning in a swirl of terrible notes and wild joy.
It was awful. It was perfect.
Later, when the room thinned out, when Jacky had fallen asleep sitting up and someone was mopping up what might’ve been cider, he found her stacking chairs with one hand, wine glass in the other.
“You survived,” he said. “Barely.” “You were-” “Don’t.” He held up both hands. “Okay.” They stood there for a beat. Then he asked, quieter now, “Tomorrow night?” She didn’t hesitate this time. “Yeah.” A second passed. “Just don’t pick karaoke.” He grinned. “Deal.”
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Chloé had arrived , armed with a velvet scrunchie, three mismatched eyeshadow palettes, and the absolute conviction that she was born for this moment. “I’ve seen ‘Amélie’ twelve times,” she declared. “I know what whimsy looks like.”
Romain trailed in behind her with a bowl of something green and ominous. “Spirulina face mask. Organic. No preservatives. Smells like regret.” “You’re not putting that on my face,” she said. “It’s for me, obviously,” he replied, already smoothing it across his cheekbones with two fingers and a spoon. “I want to look radiant when your child inevitably braids my hair.” Chloé shoved her down into a chair and started attacking her braid with a brush like it had personally offended her. “This isn’t just a date. This is post-parenthood redemption.” “I don’t need redemption.” “You wore the same hoodie for three days last week.” She opened her mouth to argue but Romain held up a finger. “To be fair, it was a good hoodie.” Margaux skidded into the room wearing fairy wings and socks that did not belong to her. “Can I have a sword?” “No,” her mother said. “Too late,” said Romain, pulling one out from behind a cushion.
Somehow, between the chaos and the laughter, she ended up in a dress she hadn’t worn in years, her lips slightly glossed, her nerves trying not to show.
“You look like you belong in a romantic comedy,” Chloé said proudly. “I don’t know what that means.” “It means perfect.” Romain, lying sideways on the sofa with Margaux climbing over his back, gave a thumbs-up. “Go seduce the race car capitalist. We believe in you.” She tried not to smile. “You’re both insane.” “And babysitting for free,” Chloé added. “Don’t forget.”
Downstairs, the inn was quieter. Bas was restocking the wine shelf, half-crouched with a crate against his knee. He looked up as she stepped off the last stair. And then, paused. “You look,” he started, then trailed off. A small, crooked smile tugged at his mouth. “Nice. It suits you. I mean, the Englishman. He’s lucky.” There was no bitterness in it, just something soft and true.
She gave a half-laugh, brushing a hand down her skirt like it could shake the moment off. “Don’t start being sweet now, Bas. It’s confusing.” He shrugged. “Maybe I like confusing you.” For a beat, she didn’t know what to say. She took one last breath, tucked a curl behind her ear, and stepped out into the night. Lando was waiting just outside the door, leaning against the fence, like he’d only just remembered how to stand still. When he saw her, whatever words he’d been holding vanished. His mouth opened, then closed again, helpless. She raised an eyebrow. “You’re staring.” “I, yeah,” he said, blinking. “I am.” The corners of her mouth curled, despite herself. “We’re not staying in town.” He nodded quickly, still caught somewhere between surprise and something heavier. “Okay.” “The next village’s quieter,” she added, reaching for the keys. “Less likely to be interrogated over dessert.”
He followed her out to the gravel drive, where her father’s old Peugeot sat hunched like an aging cat, sour yellow, dented in one door, and always smelling faintly of varnish and memory.
“You’re kidding,” Lando said. She tossed him a look. “This car has climbed the Alps.” “Recently?”
She didn’t answer. Just got in. It rattled over the roads like it remembered them better than she did, every turn filled with the soft squeal of age. The radio refused to tune properly, spitting out fragments of chanson and static. Lando didn’t complain once. Dinner was at a tiny bistro a village over, the kind of place that didn’t bother with menus or music, just wrote the day’s offerings in chalk and let the chef decide who was worth impressing.
“Don’t make that face,” she told him as they sat down. “I’m not making a face.” “You’re definitely making a face.”
Lando looked around, at the rusted lanterns hanging like forgotten fruit, the cracked tiles underfoot, the old man behind the bar aggressively ignoring them. “I’ve just never eaten anywhere with this much personality.” She smirked. “You’re lucky you’re pretty.” He leaned in. “You think I’m pretty?” “I think you’re going to cry when the wine arrives.”
He did. Almost. It was cold, red, and unapologetically sour. She drank hers without blinking. The food was rough and honest, lentils with sausage, a hunk of bread that could double as a doorstop, and something involving mushrooms that might have been soup, or might have been a dare. They ate all of it. Or most of it. Lando gave up on the soup halfway through and fed it covertly to a cat under the table. She pretended not to notice.
“You always like this?” he asked, somewhere between the second basket of bread and a piece of walnut tart that flaked apart when you looked at it too hard. “Like what?” “Sharp. Funny. Impossible to read.” She tilted her head. “You always this forward?” “No,” he admitted. “But I like it when you look at me like that.” “Like what?” “Like you already know how this ends.”
She didn’t answer. Just stood, tossed a few coins on the table, and said, “Come on. I want to show you something.” They walked without touching. The streetlights were dim, flickering like they couldn’t quite commit. He watched her as she led them off the main road, down a side path edged with wild thyme and silence. There was an old bridge there, no longer used. Just stone and shadow and the sound of water below. She leaned against the railing, arms folded and looked out like it meant something. Like it always had. He joined her, close but not too close.
“I used to come here when I couldn’t sleep,” she said. “Still do, sometimes.” He nodded, gently. “Margaux too?” “She thinks it’s haunted.” A pause. “It probably is.” He laughed quietly. “You’re hard to figure out.” “That’s the point.”
They stood like that for a long moment. Then she looked at him, really looked, and something in her softened. Her guard shifted. Just enough. He leaned in, but not all the way. She didn’t meet him. Not yet. Their breaths tangled, shallow and hesitant. A pause stretched between them, just long enough to feel heavy. His hand brushed hers, just their pinkies touching.
“Can I kiss you?” he asked, voice low, like if he said it louder it might ruin the moment.
She nodded. Once. Then again, more vigorously. They both hesitated anyway. And then, barely, a kiss. A soft press. Tentative. Unsure. Not even long enough to count, but it bloomed in the quiet between them like something delicate and unspeakably rare. When they pulled apart, neither of them opened their eyes. Her forehead found his. Their pinkies still hooked. Neither moved. Like they could stay in that breathless, suspended space just a little longer.
“You’re extremely red,” he murmured. “Shut up.” “Like actually vermilion.” She groaned. “Go to hell.”
He smiled. Wide. Pleased with himself. She leaned in and kissed him again. Quick. Impatient. Right on the mouth. He blinked.
“Stop talking,” she said. His grin only grew. “Make me.”
She shoved his shoulder. He caught her wrist. Neither of them let go.
“This scares me,” she whispered. He didn’t move. “Yeah.” “I have a kid. A business. A whole life. I don’t have space for guesswork.” He exhaled slowly. “I know. And I won’t pretend I’ve got it figured out. I travel a lot. My life’s a mess most of the time. But I really like you.”
She looked up.
“And I like Margaux, too,” he added. “She’s a great kid. Batshit crazy, like you, but brilliant.” That did something strange to her chest, like grief and hope had decided to share a drink and settle in together.
She didn’t cry. She didn’t smile either. But she touched his hand. And didn’t let go.
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He drove them back along narrow, winding roads framed by dark cypress and whispers of lavender. She let him, fingers loosely resting near the gearshift, close enough to touch but not quite daring to. The silence between them wasn’t empty. It was electric, humming beneath the quiet, charged with all the words neither wanted to say aloud.
The engine thrummed low, steady, like a heartbeat. When the inn appeared ahead, bathed in soft golden light from the porch, she hesitated, caught between the safe and the unknown.
Then, “Fuck it,” she whispered to herself.
Before he could ask, she reached out, fingers tangling in the soft curls at his neck, pulling him down. The kiss was different now, heated, urgent. Their breaths came in short huffs, warm and tangled, slipping between mouths in desperate rhythm. Hands fumbled and grabbed at clothing as they spilled out of the car, bodies pulling impossibly close, like magnets that refused to let go. They stumbled inside, still wrapped around each other, every step an excuse to lean in, to touch, to feel. A sudden quiet pulled her back just long enough to check on Margaux. Through the cracked bedroom door, she saw the small figure curled under soft blankets in a unicorn onesie. Chloe was beside her, wings spread like a fragile guardian angel, and Romain was slumped on the beanbag, his face a mess of “fairy-turned-pirate” makeup, utterly asleep.
She smiled softly, heart pinching.
The moment passed and they melted back together.
“Your room, or mine?” she whispered, voice thick with breath and promise.
“Either, if, you are sure?” His hand slid to the small of her back, pulling her closer still, as she nodded energetically.
Her hands found his hair, fingers threading through curls, then trailing down to the front of his shirt. Soft sounds escaped her lips, half moans, half laughter. They broke apart just enough to giggle when he discovered a ticklish kiss on a sensitive spot at her neck. Smiling, laughing into the kiss, they backed onto the bed. He slipped her dress off slowly, eyes dark and full of wonder for a few seconds before he covered every inch of her face with gentle, teasing kisses, grinning all the while. He traced slow, feather-light kisses down her jaw, his smile mischievous but eyes burning with something deeper.
“You’re too beautiful,” he murmured, voice low and teasing. “Makes me want to forget everything else.”
She laughed softly, breath hitching. “Oh, really? Maybe I should take advantage of that.” He grinned, fingers slipping under the hem of her underwear, thumbs brushing the skin beneath. “That’s exactly what I was hoping you’d say.”
There was a pause, electric, full of promise, before he eased her back, lips finding the sensitive curve of her neck again, softer this time, coaxing. She tangled her fingers in his hair, tugging gently, voice playful but breathless: “Well, then, show me how much you mean it.” She swallowed, heart racing, but her mouth still found the words. “You know, for someone who’s supposed to be a professional race car driver, you’re surprisingly clumsy with buttons.”
Nervous, but not enough to stop teasing, she raised an eyebrow. “So, uh, you’re sure about this? Because last time I checked, I wasn’t exactly the ‘date-of-the-year’ type.” He bent down, breath warm against her skin, fingers brushing a strand of hair from her face. “Are you kidding? You’re the only one I want to be here with.” Her breath hitched, a mix of nerves and something fiercer stirring inside. “I haven’t done this in ages. Like, real dates. And this? Not what I expected.” He kissed the corner of her mouth, voice husky. “Neither did I. But maybe that’s what makes it perfect.” She bit her lip, eyes flicking up to meet his. “Perfectly terrifying, you mean.” His hands slid down, tracing the lines of her ribs, and she felt the electricity of his touch teasing and certain all at once. “Terrifying, maybe. But I promise I’m good at taking care of terrifying things.” She let out a shaky breath, a laugh breaking through. “Well, Mr. Caretaker, start showing me then.” His grin was wicked, hands moving with purpose as he leaned in again, every kiss and touch laced with a hunger tempered by something gentle like he was learning every curve, every shiver, every word she didn’t say. He paused, eyes locking with hers, a teasing smile playing at the corner of his mouth. “So, where exactly do you want me to start? Because I’m good at multitasking.” She rolled her eyes, cheeks flushed. “Wow, confident. I like it. But let’s not get too ambitious, Romeo.” His fingers trailed down her side, light and deliberate. “Ambition’s kind of my thing. But I can take it slow. Very slow.” She swallowed hard, heart pounding louder than any engine. “Slow’s good. Slow’s safe. For now.” He dipped his head, breath warm against her skin, and she couldn’t help but shiver. His mouth found the delicate curve just below her hipbone, lips teasing, then pressing with more intent.
“Okay, multitasking starts now,” he whispered, voice thick with promise. She tangled her fingers in his hair, tugging gently, breath hitching between quiet laughter and soft gasps. She bit her lip, trying to sound unimpressed but failing spectacularly. “Smooth talker. I’m warning you.” He pulled back just long enough to grin up at her, eyes dark and serious. “Only for you.” Then he went back, slower this time, like he was memorizing every reaction, every shiver, every whispered word she didn’t dare say out loud. And she let herself fall into it, nervous, teasing, and utterly alive under his touch. His tongue traced slow, deliberate circles, each movement sending sparks through her nerves. She arched beneath him, fingers tightening in his hair as a breathy gasp escaped her lips.
"Fuck!" The word came out ragged, half-laugh, half-moan, as his mouth pressed harder, hotter, like he was savouring the taste of her. His hands gripped her thighs, holding her steady, but there was no rush, just the slow, maddening drag of his tongue, the way he paused just to feel her tremble. "Still terrifying?" he murmured against her skin, the vibration of his voice making her hips jerk.
She let out a shaky exhale, nails scraping lightly against his scalp. "More," she breathed, barely a whisper, and he obeyed, his tongue dipping deeper, coaxing out a broken sound as her back arched off the sheets.
His fingers dug into the soft flesh of her thighs, possessive and grounding, while his mouth worked her with relentless precision. His tongue curled in a way that made her thighs clench around his shoulders. A whimper caught in her throat as he dragged his teeth lightly, just once before soothing the sting with the flat of his tongue.
"God," She arched, her heel digging into the small of his back, urging him deeper. Lando chuckled, the sound vibrating against her, and she could feel his smirk.
"Told you I multitask," he murmured, before one hand slipped between them, thumb pressing in slow circles just above where his mouth had been.
Her breath hitched as his fingers and tongue worked in perfect, devastating rhythm, slow, then relentless, then slow again, dragging her toward the edge with agonizing precision. Every nerve burned, every gasp came sharper, until her hips jerked against his mouth, her fingers twisting in the sheets.
"Lando" His name tore from her throat as the tension snapped, pleasure cresting in slow, shuddering waves.
He didn’t let up, drawing it out until she was trembling, until her thighs clamped around him in helpless oversensitivity. Only then did he pull back, pressing a final, lingering kiss to her inner thigh before crawling up her body. He hovered over her, forearms bracketing her head, sweat-damp curls falling across his forehead as he studied her face. His thumb brushed her lower lip, rough and deliberate.
"Still with me?" he murmured, voice roughened.
She nipped at his thumb, breath uneven. "Depends. You planning to talk all night or?" Lando exhaled a laugh, shifting his hips just enough to tease, the heat of him pressing where she ached. "Just checking," he said, dragging his nose along her jaw. "Wanted to hear you say it."
Her nails scored down his back. "Now," she demanded.
His laugh was dark and hungry as he caught her wrist, pinning it above her head.
"Demanding," he murmured, but there was no protest in it, only heat. His hips rolled forward in one slow, deliberate stroke, filling her with a groan that tore from his throat. She arched beneath him, breath catching as he pressed deeper, his free hand gripping her hip hard enough to bruise.
She dug her heel into his back, urging him on. "Shut up and move." Lando obeyed, dragging out almost completely before thrusting back in with a sharp snap of his hips. His thrusts turned punishing, the slick slap of skin filling the room as he drove into her with raw, unfiltered need. She met him stroke for stroke, her back arching off the mattress, nails raking down his shoulders as pleasure coiled tight in her gut.
"Look at me," he growled, fingers tightening on her hip. Her eyes flew open, locking onto his, dark, hungry, ruined, just as his thumb found that perfect spot between them, circling hard.
The pressure snapped, her cry tearing through the air as she shattered around him, muscles clenching so tight he groaned through gritted teeth. His breath was ragged against her neck as he slowed to a torturous pace, hips rolling in deep, deliberate circles that made her toes curl.
"Think you can handle one more?" he murmured, teeth grazing her earlobe.
Her laugh came out breathless, half-moan, half-protest. "Mmf you," a sharp gasp cut her off as his thumb pressed down again, ruthless and perfect, "are insufferable." Lando grinned, all teeth and wicked intent, before snapping his hips forward hard enough to steal her next words. "That a yes?" Her nails bit into his shoulders as she arched, voice fraying at the edges, so she nodded instead.
"Say it," he said, fingers tightening in her hair as his hips stuttered against hers. "Gotta hear you say it."
Her breath hitched, lips parting around the words he wanted, needed. "I'm close," she gasped, arching as his thumb circled that sweet, torturous spot again. "So close." "Good." His praise was rough, possessive, mouth crashing against hers in a messy kiss. “Do it, come now."
The command, the way his voice broke on the words, unravelled her completely. A sharp cry tore from her throat as pleasure ripped through her, waves of it, relentless, stealing the air from her lungs. His own release following after. The room was quiet, except for their breathing. Not soft. Not yet. It still came in waves, uneven and catching in the throat like it didn’t quite know how to settle. And then he grinned.
She barely caught the flash of it before he shifted, kissed her cheek once, then again, and again, all over her face in quick, silly bursts. Her forehead. Her nose. Her jaw. A smattering of affection that felt like he couldn’t stop if he tried. She let out a laugh, sudden and breathless, covering her face with one hand. “What are you doing?” He kept going. “Showing off,” he said against her temple. “Victory lap.” “God, you’re unbearable,” But she was laughing too hard to make it convincing. He kissed the corner of her mouth. “You love it.” She huffed, wrapping her arms around him, letting herself be pulled back into his chest, both of them breathless now for a whole different reason. They lay tangled, smiling into each other’s skin, hearts racing but slowing with each second. Then, like a tide creeping in, the quiet returned. The curtain shifted with the breeze. The distant bark of a dog. The faint creak of the house settling.
And just like that, her thoughts began to catch up. She shifted, sitting up a little too fast, the sheet slipping from her chest as she turned away, legs over the side of the bed. The cool air against her skin felt like a jolt. Lando lifted his head. “Hey,” “I just need a second,” she said, voice tight. Not angry. Just threadbare. He sat up too, tugging his boxers back on. He crossed the room and crouched in front of her, hands resting gently on her knees. “You’re not a mistake,” he said quietly. “This, whatever this is, it doesn’t scare me.” “It scares me,” she whispered. He nodded once. Didn’t flinch. “Because of her?” She nodded, throat tight. “Then let it scare you,” he said. “Just don’t shut it down before it starts." She looked at him. Really looked. He looked open. Steady. Not perfect. Not certain. But here. “I don’t know how to do this,” she admitted. “We figure it out.” “And if you leave?” “I will,” he said honestly. “Eventually. That’s my job. But I don’t want to leave this, not you.” Her heart ached at that, split down the middle between hope and something sharper. “You say that now, you barely know me.” “I’ll say it tomorrow too,” he said. “Promise?” He gave her a small, crooked smile. “Ask me tomorrow.”
She smiled. It wasn’t big. It wasn’t easy. But it was real. She reached for his hand. “Stay,” she said. And he did.
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The light came in soft and golden through the thin curtain, like it knew not to rush them. She stirred first, one arm across Lando’s chest, her leg tangled with his under the sheets. He was warm, calm. Still mostly asleep. And it was tempting, dangerously tempting, to stay that way. To let the world wait. But the world didn’t wait. She slipped out of bed quietly, pulled on the shirt he’d worn last night, her underwear from the chair, and padded over to the window. The village outside was already beginning to stir. Lando shifted behind her.
“Hey,” he said, voice thick with sleep.
She turned. “Hi.” A beat passed. Then she crossed to the bed, sat beside him, and said softly, “We need to keep this quiet.” He propped himself up on one elbow. “Right. For how long?” “Just until I talk to Margaux. And Bas.” “Bas?” His face shifted, confused. “You don’t owe him that.” “I don’t,” she agreed. “But I’ll give it to him anyway.” Lando nodded slowly, watching her carefully. “Okay. I’ll follow your lead.” She squeezed his hand, then stood. “Let’s get downstairs before anyone notices.”
They almost made it. The hallway was clear. The stairs creaked once, but quietly. She glanced back at Lando with the ghost of a grin, and when she turned forward again, Bas stood at the bottom step, towel slung over one shoulder, crate of glasses in hand. He clocked her first. Then Lando. Then her shirt, Lando’s shirt.
His jaw twitched. Nobody moved. Lando took one more cautious step, catching the tension too late. Bas didn’t speak. Just muttered something in Flemish, something creative and very much not church-appropriate, and walked off, fast, through the kitchen and into the storeroom. She closed her eyes briefly. Then handed Lando the crate. “Can you find Margaux? Keep her distracted?”
He nodded, already setting off. She followed Bas.
The storeroom smelled like lemon oil, aging potatoes, and quiet resentment. Bas was stacking bottles with too much purpose.
“Knock, knock,” she said, not bothering to. “I heard you coming,” he muttered. “You always do.” He didn’t look up. “You sneak around like someone who’s never owned a squeaky floorboard in her life.” “I wasn’t sneaking.” Bas dropped a bottle into the crate with a little too much force. “No?” “I was delaying.” He turned to face her finally. “That’s worse.” She folded her arms. “I didn’t mean for it to be a secret.” “No, Capitaine,” he said, with a dry smile that didn’t reach his eyes. “You just meant to keep the ship sailing while I clung to the side.” She winced at the old nickname. “Don’t call me that.” He shrugged. “Hard habit to break. You always were the bossy one.” “You never minded that before.” “Yeah,” he said. “Well. I minded it the morning after you left my bed and never looked back.”
The words hit sharper than she expected, even now. She didn’t flinch. “That night was a mistake.” “You didn’t say that then.” “I didn’t want to hurt you.” He looked at her, tired. “You just wanted someone who wouldn’t ask questions.” Silence stretched. Then she stepped forward. “You know me, Bas. You’ve always known me. Since we were kids throwing rocks at the school bell. Since you dared me to kiss Luc Delacroix and I broke his nose instead.” “God,” Bas said, a laugh catching in his throat. “Luc cried so much, his snot got on my shirt.” She smiled, briefly. “You let me wear that shirt for a week.”
“I was in love with you.” He didn’t say it with any drama. Just a flat, sad truth that hung in the air like humidity. “I know,” she whispered. “And I waited,” he said. “Like an idiot. I thought if I stayed, maybe you'd look at me the way you used to look at her dad.” She reached out and placed a hand on his arm. “You were never an idiot. You just wanted something I didn’t have to give.” Bas looked at her hand. Then her face. “Is he serious?” “I don’t know yet. But he’s kind to her.” “That counts.” “It’s everything.”
He gave her a long, quiet look. Then nodded, slow. “You gonna make me work tonight?” “Absolutely.” “Even karaoke?” “You’ll sing if I say so.” “Still the Capitaine, then.” She smiled, but it didn’t quite reach her eyes. “Only because you let me be.”
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Margaux was holding a wrench. This alone should have been cause for concern “Are you sure this goes there?” she asked, standing on the swing’s wooden seat with one foot and pointing like a dictator at the bolt Lando was tightening.
“Nope,” he said. “But if it breaks, I’ll blame you and flee the country.” Margaux giggled. “You’d never get away. I’d tell Jacky.” He gasped in mock betrayal. “You wouldn’t.” She grinned. “She knows everything. She’s probably watching right now.” “Do you think she spies with binoculars?” “She uses birds,” Margaux said, deadly serious. “Little ones.” Lando laughed. “Noted. No escaping village surveillance.” They were halfway through rebuilding the swing, old rope, new bolts, wood that had been sanded unevenly by someone who clearly had more confidence than tools. Lando was sweating through his shirt, kneeling in the grass, holding a power drill that clearly did not belong to him. Margaux, meanwhile, had appointed herself site supervisor, snack overseer, and honorary Empress of the swing.
“Can I try it now?” she asked. “Give me two more bolts and a miracle.” She sat cross-legged in the grass beside him. “You’re funny.” He grinned. “You always like bossing people around?” “I learned it from my mum,” she said, with absolutely no shame. Lando paused, glancing toward the inn. “She’s good at that.” “She’s good at everything.” His smile softened. “Yeah. She is.” Margaux lay back in the grass, arms stretched wide like she was making a snow angel in summer dust. “She used to push me on the swing after dinner. But it broke. So, we just kind of stopped.” Lando didn’t answer. Just picked up the last bolt and quietly locked it in.
Inside, she watched them through the kitchen window. The way Margaux gestured, all drama and limbs. The way Lando crouched beside her, nodding solemnly, pretending to follow every mad idea she pitched. He didn’t talk down to her. He didn’t perform. He just was. And her daughter was laughing. That sound, light, high, unguarded, it pulled something tight in her chest and unwound it, slow. Maybe she didn’t know what this was yet. But she knew what it wasn’t.
It wasn’t chaos. Or damage. Or a quick fix. It was better. And that was terrifying. She stepped away from the window. Her hands were still damp from scrubbing breakfast plates. But her heart was louder than the tap and the clock and the whisper of her own second-guessing.
It was time to ask the question that mattered most.
Margaux was still flushed from playing, hair full of bits of grass, shirt damp with whatever had been in Romain’s garden spray bottle. They were upstairs now, the window cracked open to the lavender breeze, the stars just beginning to prick the sky. She was tucking the sheet up under her daughter’s chin when Margaux blinked up and asked, “Can Lando come to story time tomorrow?”
Her hands stilled. “I’m not sure,” she said gently. “He might be busy.” Margaux shrugged. “He tells stories funny. Not like a teacher. Like he forgets the ending and just makes one up.” She smiled at that. “That sounds about right.” She sat beside her on the edge of the bed, smoothing the blanket. “Sweetheart,” she said softly, “can I ask you something? And I want you to be honest. Like when I asked if you brushed your teeth and you said technically no.” Margaux’s eyes sparkled. “Okay.” “It’s always been just us. You and me. For a long time.” Margaux nodded. “Because we’re a team.” “Exactly,” she said, her voice thickening slightly. “But if someday, there was someone else. Not instead of you. Just with us. Would that be okay?” Margaux blinked. “Like another teammate?” “Yes. Maybe. Someone who made us laugh. Who was kind. Who cared about you as much as I do.” Margaux pursed her lips thoughtfully. Then: “Is he like Lando?” She stilled. “Maybe.” “Then it’s okay.” Her heart twisted. “But if he’s like Luc Delacroix,” Margaux added gravely, “then absolutely not.” She let out a laugh, quick and cracked. “You remember Luc?” “He told me broccoli was dessert. He can’t be trusted.” They both laughed, and her eyes stung. Margaux reached for her hand. “You can be happy, Maman. I don’t mind.”
That broke something open, soft and unbearable. She kissed her daughter’s forehead, whispered something into her curls she couldn’t even hear herself. Then Margaux yawned. “Can I swing tomorrow?”
“Only if it doesn’t rain.” “Lando said it’s strong now. He said we could fly.” “He’s good at making people believe that.”
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Later, she found him in the garden, sitting on the swing he’d just rebuilt, head tilted back toward the stars. When he heard her footsteps, he turned, smiling, warm, expectant. She didn’t say anything. Just sat beside him, letting their shoulders brush.
Moments later, Margaux burst through the door in pyjamas and boots, arms flung out like wings.
“You’re meant to be asleep, Framboisine!” “You said we could fly! I want to try.” Lando laughed, standing. “Alright then. Strap in.”
He lifted her gently onto the swing. And the two of them, him on one side, her on the other, began to push. Slow, rhythmic, steady. Margaux squealed as her feet kicked higher and higher.
The stars above twinkled. The garden swayed in quiet motion. And for the first time in a long, long while, it didn’t feel like letting go. It felt like moving forward. Together.
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The inn was alive by midday. Weeks had passed since the date, and Lando had integrated himself further and further into the village life. Chloé had brought a speaker, and a playlist called happy-sad but mostly wine, which was already blasting through the garden. Jacky swept through the kitchen like she owned the place, dropping off a tray of almond croissants with strict instructions not to warm them, unless you want the almonds to go sad, and no one wants sad almonds. Willem brought wine. Six bottles. Two chilled. “I figured we’d need two for each ghost,” he said, and no one corrected him.
Henri showed up in his mechanic overalls, grease still on his arms, dragging his two sons behind him, one helpful, Romain purely here to eat, dressed entirely in black, sunglasses included. “I’m here for emotional solidarity,” he announced, then immediately burst into tears after one of the kids handed him a flower.
Lando stayed close, hands busy all day. Carrying chairs, pouring drinks, letting Margaux boss him around with a flower crown and a plastic sword. He was supposed to be training. Two weeks left before the next race. But today, this day, he stayed. No hesitation. Bas was there too, quieter than usual. He helped without asking. Set up the sound system. Cut bread in silence. Watched her from the edges like he always did, present but not reaching. The music built as the sun sank lower. Not sad songs. Not hymns. But the sort of music you could dance to barefoot, with a wine glass in one hand and your grief folded like a napkin in your pocket. She moved through the garden like someone being held up by everyone. Laughed at Romain’s melodrama. Hugged Jacky too tight. Let Willem kiss her cheek. And every time she passed Lando, she touched his arm. Just briefly. Like a tether. Later, when the plates were nearly cleared and people were starting to steal cushions for the grass, he caught her just behind the bar, stealing a swig of something stronger from a coffee cup.
“Hey,” he said, sidling up beside her. “Hey yourself.”
They stood like that for a moment, the music drifting through the open windows. He glanced at her. “Do you like dancing?” She arched an eyebrow. “No.” He mock-winced. “Oh. Okay.” She smirked. “Ask me anyway.” His grin returned. “Will you dance with me?” She didn’t hesitate. “Yes.” They stepped out into the garden, where Jacky was already dragging Henri into a swaying sort of half-waltz. Lando didn’t lead. Not really. He just let their hands find each other, let the rhythm carry them. She didn’t move much, just enough to match him. Enough to stay close. She looked up once. His smile was soft, not quite steady.
“You’re bad at this,” she whispered. “So are you.” “Good thing we’re pretty.” He laughed. “Exactly.”
Around them, the village spun on, buzzing with old jokes, remembered names, shared wine and long-held love. But between them, under the strings of lights and the weight of memory, it was quiet.
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By the time the sun had dipped fully behind the trees, the garden was glowing. Not just from the string lights or the candles tucked into empty jam jars, but from the warmth of people who had made this day what it was, what it always was. A celebration. A tether. A refusal to forget. Margaux, sugar-hyped and pink-cheeked, was falling asleep under a table with a blanket wrapped around her like a burrito. Chloé had drawn a heart on her forehead in pink pen, and no one had stopped her.
One by one, the goodbyes began. Jacky was first, of course. She pressed two kisses to each of their cheeks, then pulled her into a hug that was longer than necessary, tighter than expected. When she finally let go, her voice was thick. “Your mother would’ve been proud. You’re still her girl. Just with more wine and worse posture.” She laughed through her nose. “I’ll work on that.” Chloé kissed the top of Margaux’s head and whispered something in her ear. Margaux nodded solemnly. It was probably a secret. Or a threat. Romain tried to go next but burst into tears halfway through his goodbye speech. “You are the village’s backbone,” he sobbed. “The soul! The very croissant crust of this place!” “No more pastries for him,” someone muttered. Henri and his eldest shook her hand, formal, warm. “Strong girl,” he said in that soft way of his, like a mechanic who knew how fragile engines really were. Then came Willem. He didn’t say anything at first. Just looked at her for a long time, eyes full of something ancient and gentle. Then he kissed the top of her head.
“You did good, Lieveke.”
That was all. She nodded, throat tight. Bas was behind him, hands in his pockets, gaze low. He lingered a second longer than he had to, then looked up at her, not quite smiling, but close.
“Same time next year,” he said, pecking her temple. She nodded. “Same time.” He glanced once at Margaux, still curled up under the blanket, then gave Lando a look. Not threatening. Not warm. Just measured. Then he turned and walked out, no fuss, no backward glance. And then it was just them.
She and Lando stood there in the quiet, the garden littered with empty glasses and folded napkins. Margaux asleep in the corner. The stars coming out without asking. Lando exhaled, hands in his pockets.
“This village,” he said. “They don’t just love you. They carry you.” She looked at him, eyes rimmed pink, smile flickering. “Sometimes I think they are me.” “I’ve never seen anything like it.” “It’s not always good.” “I know,” he said. “I want you even when it’s shit.” She blinked. “But this,” He gestured to the night around them, the candles still flickering, the music now faded into the hum of cicadas. “This isn’t shit. This is love in its truest form. A whole village remembering for you. Celebrating for you. And I,” He stopped, like the words had gotten too big. “I’m just lucky I got to see it.”
She looked away, but her hand found his. Held on. For a long time, they said nothing. Then she whispered, “She’s waiting.” He nodded. “Then let’s go.”
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The churchyard was quiet in the way only old places can be. The gate creaked on its hinges as they pushed it open. Gravel crunched under their shoes. The stones glowed pale in the moonlight, rows of names and dates, all softened by time and lichen. Margaux walked ahead, her blanket still draped around her shoulders like a cape. She knew the way. She always did. She stopped at the same three stones, side by side beneath the rowan tree. Bent down. Touched the middle one with both hands. Then started talking. “Hi,” she said brightly. “Today was busy. Everyone came. Bas made your favourite cake, Romain cried again. Maman didn’t sing this time, but she danced a bit. Also, the swing’s fixed now. Lando helped. He’s not bad. Bit weird. But funny.”
Her voice drifted on the breeze, steady, almost cheerful. She sat cross-legged between the graves, humming as she pulled a handful of pebbles from her pocket and started sorting them by colour. Her mother stayed standing a little back. Still. Tense. Lando moved beside her. Didn’t speak. It was only when Margaux started humming something soft and off-key that she said, “That one on the right. That’s him.”
Lando nodded.
“He was meant to propose. That fishing trip. My dad was there too. I think he wanted to ask for permission properly then. He was old-fashioned like that. Romantic in a weird, boyish way.” Lando didn’t interrupt. “I was supposed to go with them,” she added, voice quieter now. “But I didn’t. I was too sick. Morning sickness. All-day sickness, really. I stayed in bed, and he kissed my forehead and left.”
Her arms crossed over her chest, pressing into her ribs. "They never came back. The storm-” her voice cracked. She inhaled through her nose, sharp and fast. “No one found them for days. And even then, pieces. Just pieces.”
Lando stepped closer. Close enough to offer something but not take anything away. She looked at the graves, then up at the sky. Her voice cracked on the edges, almost breaking before the words even made it out.
“It was hard, Lando. It was so hard. I used to walk around all day thinking,” she paused, breath trembling, “I was even jealous of euthanised dogs, why can they be put out of their misery?”
The silence that followed wasn’t awkward, it was sacred. Weighty. Lando didn’t flinch. But his face shifted, like the words had lodged somewhere deep, somewhere that would ache later.
He stepped closer, not touching her yet, but there with her. “I didn’t know,” he said quietly. “I mean, I knew it must’ve been hell. But not like that.”
She didn’t respond. Her arms were still wrapped tight around herself, like she was holding something in, something vast and ancient and screaming.
“I don’t even know what to say,” he added. “Except, fuck. I wish I’d known you then.” “Why?” “Because no one should ever feel that alone,” he said. “And if I couldn’t fix it, I could’ve sat beside you while it stayed broken.” Her eyes met his then, wet, tired, guarded. He held her gaze, steady. Then, softer now: “What do you want from me?”
She blinked. The honesty of it undid her a little. Not pity. Not a fix. Just the willingness to be asked. She turned fully toward him. “Anything you’re willing to give me.”
Silence stretched long between them. But it didn’t feel empty. She watched Margaux press pebbles into the dirt like tiny gifts. Then let herself smile, barely. Just enough. “You know,” she said, her voice returning to something lighter, “for a guy who’s paid to drive fast, you walk really slowly.” He smirked. “I like the view.” She rolled her eyes. “Jesus.” They didn’t move. Just stood there. But somehow, it still counted. He looked at her. Really looked. “You’re tough.” She nodded. “I can take care of myself.” “I know you can. You have. You still do. You always will.” Then his hand found hers, fingers warm in the cool air. “I’ve just joined in, too,” he added softly. “Now we’ll share. And take care of each other.”
She squeezed his hand. Then turned her face toward the gravestones. And cried. Not loudly. Not broken. Just real. And this time, she didn’t cry alone.
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The day he left was warm. Too warm for the end of August, the kind of heat that made people slower, quieter. Everything shimmered just slightly, like the village was holding its breath. His car was parked outside the inn, packed but not cluttered, he travelled light. Always had to be ready to go. Margaux was crouched on the front step in her socks, poking at the gravel like it might spell something out for her if she looked long enough. She didn’t say much. But she kept inching closer to him every time he moved, like if she stayed near enough, he might not leave. She stood by the door, arms crossed, mouth tight.
“You don’t have to look like I'm going to war,” Lando said gently, slipping his sunglasses onto his head. “It’s just Zandvoort.” She didn’t smile. “You say that like it doesn’t matter.” He moved closer. Not touching her, but near, “It matters. That’s why I’m coming back.” “People say that all the time.” “I’m not people.” She gave him a long, wary look. "I know.” He let the silence stretch. Then added, “You can still watch me screw up from here. That’s not nothing.” Her smile finally cracked through, thin, but there. “Be safe,” she said. He nodded. “Promise.” Then he crouched down to Margaux’s level. “You gonna keep your mum in line while I’m gone?” Margaux nodded solemnly. “She makes weird noises when she’s cleaning. I’ll record them.” “Perfect.”
She wrapped her arms around his neck without warning. Tight. Quick. Then let go and darted back inside like nothing had happened. He stood, eyes on the door she disappeared through. The rest of the village had gathered out front. Jacky with a basket of snacks for the road. Romain already misty-eyed. Chloé holding a homemade sign that read, Zandvoort = Hot Dutch Sand + Fast Pretty Men. Henri shook Lando’s hand like a father. Willem clapped his shoulder like a soldier. Bas just gave him a quiet nod. When Lando looked back at her, she was still on the step. Still watching. He opened the car door, then paused.
“You know where to find me,” he said. She nodded. “Go win something.” He grinned. “No pressure, then.”
Then he got in, started the engine, and drove. Everyone waved. She didn’t. Not because she didn’t want to. Because she wasn’t ready.
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The inn was full again but not like it had been two weeks ago. This time, the noise came from the screen. Friday morning. Free Practice One. She stood behind the bar, dish towel in hand, screen pulled up on her old iPad propped against the register. Margaux had made a paper cutout of Lando’s helmet and taped it to the corner.
He went fastest. Top of the table. Her heart surged before she could stop it. It wasn’t pride, exactly, it was relief. Like watching someone she loved balance on a wire and land without a wobble.
“Alright then,” she muttered, mostly to herself. “That’s one.”
Free Practice Two was wetter. Rain slicked the track. The spray off the rear tyres turned the screen into abstract art. She had a cloth napkin clenched in one fist, half-folded. Forgot about it halfway through. Lando finished fourth. Oscar was second. Coming into the pit lane, the camera cut just in time to catch his front wing brush against Lewis Hamilton’s rear tyre. She stopped breathing. The screen didn’t show panic. The commentators didn’t either. No damage. No drama. Still, her fingers were locked around her tea mug like it might break loose and sprint.
“You alright?” asked one of the regulars at the bar. She blinked. “Fine.” Saturday morning. FP3. She was in the kitchen, watching from a corner near the coffee machine. Then the screen went black for a second, red flag.
Logan Sargeant has gone off at Turn 10. When the cameras returned, the car was in flames. She gasped, dropping a spoon into the sink with a clang. The whole inn seemed to go still for a second. But the voice in her ear was calm. He was okay. He was out. Still, her hands trembled.
She stared at the screen like it had personally betrayed her.
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Qualifying arrived with sun. The air in the inn had shifted. Tighter. Lighter. She let herself sit down for once, flanked by Chloé on her left and Romain on her right, both buzzing like caffeine and mischief. Bas hovered near the edge of the room. Pretending not to care. Watching everything. Margaux was in Jacky’s kitchen, elbow-deep in cookie dough, apron covered in flour.
Q1—easy. Q2—fine. Q3—flawless. The lap was smooth, poised, sharp at the edges. Controlled fury. Lando went purple in every sector and crossed the line ahead of Verstappen. Pole position. The inn erupted. Chloé screamed. Romain jumped up and knocked over an entire tray of glasses. Someone behind the bar whistled like it was a wedding. Even Bas, quiet, watchful Bas, grinned.
She didn’t cheer. She just exhaled. One deep, long breath she hadn’t realised she was holding all day.
They decided before the cookies were even cooled. Romain suggested it. Chloé seconded it. Jacky made it law. The race will be at the inn, they declared. Everyone’s coming.
Willem brought out the good wine. Someone found the extension cable from the mairie. Jacky promised to make her “emotional support tarte.” Everyone had a job. She didn’t argue. But that night, when the kitchen was half-clean and the house had gone mostly quiet, she lingered at the counter with Jacky beside her, wiping glasses by hand like it mattered.
“I’m scared,” she said. Jacky didn’t look up. “Of what, ma fille?” “That Margaux will get attached. That I’ll let her. And then,” Jacky placed the towel down slowly. “Are you really scared for Framboisine? Or is that just the excuse that feels safer?”
She didn’t answer. Jacky waited. “I’m scared to touch happiness,” she admitted. “Only to have it ripped away again. I’m scared that he might not understand, it’s always Margaux first. She is the pinnacle of my every action, my every word, my entire being. And yeah, I can learn to love him, but she comes first.” Jacky nodded like she’d expected nothing less. “And why does that scare you?” She hesitated. “Because what if he doesn’t understand that? What if he puts me first?” Jacky smiled, soft and sharp. “Is that not allowed?” She looked down at the bar. “I don’t know.” “If he loves you,” Jacky said, “then he will put you first. But if your entire being is her, then surely that translates. Everything he does will also be for her. Because of you. Love doesn’t divide; it expands. And I do not think you need to worry. That man, he adores her.”
They both turned, as if on cue, toward the window. Outside, Margaux stood in the garden, orange ribbons in her hair and face paint sloppily smeared on her cheeks. Chloé’s handiwork, no doubt. She was holding a tiny Dutch flag and staring at the screen like it was sacred.
Afternoon arrived. The garden was full. She didn’t sit. Just stood near the bar, arms folded. Watching. The race was chaos. Safety cars. Strategy calls. Overtakes that made people scream. And in the end, Lando won. Not just won. Owned it. Pole to flag.
The garden erupted like the sky had cracked open. Romain nearly passed out. Bas high-fived a child. Willem declared Lando “one of us now,” and no one disagreed. She didn’t cheer. Just smiled. Quiet. Proud. When no one was looking, she slipped out to the bench by the cafe, where the Wi-Fi was stronger.
She pulled out her phone. Typed: Well done, Lan. It was beautiful x Sent it. And went back.
The music had started, soft and swingy. Someone had dragged the old speaker out and wired it to the inns power supply. Kids ran barefoot, chasing leftover confetti. Jacky danced with Romain. Chloé spun in place like no one was watching. She found Margaux near the table of pastries, still sugared up, still bright-eyed.
“Dance with me?” she asked. Margaux grabbed her hand like she’d been waiting all day. So, they danced. Not well. Not gracefully. But together. And that was more than enough.
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The car pulled up just before ten. Same engine. Same dust kicked up off the gravel. But something about it still made her breath catch in her throat like it was the first time. He stepped out wearing sunglasses, trainers that still had flecks of Dutch sand on them, and the kind of casual confidence that made you forget how many cameras followed him daily. The village erupted before he could knock. Jacky pushed a croissant into his hand and declared him a national treasure. Henri gave him a thump on the back and said he should consider switching careers to cheese-making, because “only a man that calm under pressure can work with rennet.” Willem saluted with a glass of something definitely not juice. But Lando barely saw any of it.
He saw her. She was standing in the doorway, wiping her hands on a towel, trying not to smile too much. Or maybe too early. Margaux beat her to it. She ran, socks slipping on the gravel, arms flung wide. He caught her with ease and spun her once. “You won,” she yelled.
“Not without my lucky charm,” he replied.
She giggled, then scrambled down, grabbing his hand. “You have to come. Everyone has to know. Chloé said she’d paint a whole mural of you!” “Oh god.” Margaux tugged him toward the road. “Come on, hurry!” Lando glanced at her once, briefly. She nodded. So, he let Margaux drag him away. That left her on the step. And Bas. He was by the gate, arms folded. Not glaring. Not scowling. Just watching. “Don’t,” she said before Bas could speak. He raised an eyebrow. “Didn’t say anything.” “You were going to.” “I wasn’t." She gave him a look. Bas shrugged. “Fine. I was going to say, he looks like a man about to propose in the middle of a bakery.”
She rolled her eyes and turned inside.
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They were upstairs fifteen minutes later. The room hadn’t changed. Same sheets. Same dusty window. Same space between the bed and the wardrobe where she sometimes dropped laundry and forgot about it for two days. But now he was in it. And she couldn’t stop moving. Picking things up. Straightening. Folding. He stood by the door, watching.
“I don’t need croissants,” he said softly. “I didn’t offer you any.” “Then why won’t you look at me?”
She froze. She wasn’t sure how to answer.
He stepped closer. “I didn’t know how much I missed you until I saw you again. And then,” She turned to him. “It’s not you.” “Okay.” “It’s me.” “Still okay.” She exhaled, tight and sharp. “I watched every session. Every lap. I didn’t breathe during Q3. And when you crossed the line, I wanted to scream.” “You didn’t?” “I made a cup of tea.” He tilted his head. “That sounds very British, not very French.” She finally smiled. Briefly. “I was scared, Lando. Really scared. I was proud, too. So proud. And that made it worse. Because it was so much. And I didn’t know where to put it.”
There was a pause. Then, gently, “Put it here.” He reached for her hand. Not demanding. Just offering. “Come to me when you’re afraid,” he said, voice low and careful. “Let me be the one to steady the ground when it starts to shake. Let me hold that weight too.”
She looked at him for a long moment.
Then whispered, “You weren’t here.” He nodded. “Ask me to be. And I will.” “You’re busy.” “I don’t care if I’m racing. If I’m halfway through a lap. If you need me, call. And I will be here.” She swallowed, her throat thick. Then, softly, “Bit dramatic.” He grinned. “I have a flair for it.” “Maybe you missed your calling.” “Opera?” “Soap opera.” “Bold. But fair.” She laughed, finally. He stepped forward fully then, arms slipping around her waist. “I really did miss you.” “I made tea,” she said again, like it meant more now. “I’ll drink it,” he promised. “Even if it’s terrible.” “It is.” “Perfect.”
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Wednesday night came slow and golden, the air still clinging to the last of summer. Margaux was wriggly in bed, a tangle of knees and elbows and too many questions. Lando sat beside her, letting her braid his fingers into her stuffed rabbit’s ears. “Will you be gone for a long time?” she asked.
“Less than a week,” he said gently. “Next race is in Italy. I’ll be back before you miss me too much.” “I don’t miss people,” she lied. He smiled. “That’s okay. I’ll miss you enough for both of us.” She squinted at him. “Bring me something Italian.” “Like pizza?” “No. Like earrings.” Her mother choked on a laugh. “You don’t have your ears pierced.” Margaux shrugged. “Future planning.” They both kissed her goodnight. She clung a little longer to Lando’s neck before letting go, eyes already heavy.
“I’ll come say hi when I get back,” he whispered, brushing a strand of hair off her forehead. “Okay,” she murmured. “But you better knock.”
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Later, the house was still. The kitchen light was off. The garden dark. The window cracked open to let in the sound of crickets and the faint smell of earth cooling down. They lay in her bed, legs tangled under a light sheet, the silence between them thick, but not heavy.
“You know,” she said into the hush, “you’ve already been here longer than any man I’ve ever slept with.” He wiggled his eyebrows. “Bold of you to assume you’ve seen the peak of my staying power.” She laughed, quiet, tired. “Gross.” “Flattering.” She shifted to face him. “You’re really going tomorrow?” “Unless I fake an engine failure.” “Tempting.” “I’m good at making exits dramatic.” She reached out, traced a line across his chest with the tip of her finger. “And entrances.” He caught her hand, kissed her knuckles. “You’re softer now.” “Don’t tell anyone.” “Especially not Willem. He’ll cry.”
They laughed into each other’s skin. Then the quiet settled again. He kissed her shoulder, slow and unhurried. Her collarbone. The hollow of her throat. She didn’t tense. Didn’t joke. She just let him in. There was no rush. No burn of urgency. Just a kind of mutual exhale, like they both knew what they were doing this time. What it meant.
His hands moved with certainty. Hers didn’t flinch. They kissed like people who had already chosen each other, who had made peace with the fear and decided to touch anyway. No promises were made. But none were needed.
Lando's fingers trailed across her skin, tracing the contours of her collarbone. Her shoulder rose in a gentle arc, offering him access, and he took it, claiming her with a soft, plodding kiss. Their lips touched like autumn leaves rustling against each other, the soft hiss of their breaths mingling as they savoured the moment. The air was thick with anticipation, but there was no rush. No frantic heartbeat. Only the gentle acceptance that this was their time, and they were finally ready to surrender.
Her hands drifted up, tracing the ridges of his abdomen, her fingertips dancing across his skin like raindrops on a hot pavement. He didn't flinch, didn't tense up. He just let her in, allowed her to claim him as her own. Lando's fingers found her waist, his thumbs tracing the soft curves of her hips. She didn't squeeze his hand, didn't lean into him. She just let him guide her, let his touch become the axis around which she revolved.
Their bodies met in a slow dance, skin against skin. Lando's hands explored every inch of her body, as if he were mapping out new territory. She arched into his touch, moaning softly as he traced patterns on her stomach and hips. He kissed his way down her torso, stopping to nip at her chest before trailing his tongue down to her navel. She gasped, her fingers tangling in his hair. His rough hands slid down her thighs, parting her legs as if he'd always know where to go. She gripped the sheets, her knees falling apart as he teased her entrance with gentle fingers. She trembled beneath him, lost in the sensation of being claimed.
They moved together, their rhythm in perfect sync. Lando nudged against her wet entrance, and with a groan, he thrust inside. She gasped, her back arching as he filled her completely. He moved slowly at first, savouring the feeling of being inside. She met his thrusts, their hips slapping together in a primal rhythm. Their skin slick with sweat, they moved together in a dance that was both familiar and new. Wrapping her legs around his waist, she drew him deeper inside her.
He hummed against her neck, his hair tickling her sensitive skin. She arched her back, her nails digging into his shoulders as she rode him harder. He groaned in approval, his hands finding her ass, squeezing and massaging as he thrust into her. Their breathing grew ragged, their gasps and moans filling the room. It wasn't fast or rough, but it was intense.
Every touch, every look, every whispered word held a world of meaning. They were lost in each other, consumed by the heat of the moment. Finally, they finished together, their bodies shuddering as they reached their peak. Lando spilled into her, and she cried out his name as her walls clenched around him. They collapsed onto the bed, breathing hard, their sweat-slicked skin sticking together. They lay there afterward, wrapped around each other, limbs tangled and warm, skin cooling beneath the sheets. The room was quiet again, but not empty. Her head rested against his chest, rising and falling with each of his breaths. For a while, neither of them said anything.
Then. “You’re squashing my leg,” she mumbled, voice muffled. “You’re squashing my chest.” “You don’t need your chest for driving.” “I literally do.” She snorted softly, shifting just enough to poke him in the ribs. “You make the worst pillow.” “Funny. I just set a lap record. Felt very supportive at the time.” “Oh, so now you’re a mattress and a show-off.” He grinned into her hair. “Multitalented.”
They lay in the haze of post-everything comfort, their bodies still humming with leftover heat and something more dangerous: peace. Eventually, she whispered, “Do you think it’ll always feel like this?” Lando tilted his head. “Good?” She nodded. “And scary.” He was quiet for a beat. Then, “Probably. But you’re allowed to be scared, you know.” She exhaled through her nose, half-laugh, half-sigh. “Tell that to my spine every time you touch me.” He chuckled. “Should I leave it a note next time?” “No, just carve it into the inn’s headboard. With a pocketknife.” He rolled onto his side, propping himself up on one elbow so he could look at her properly. “You’re ridiculous.” She shrugged, smiling a little. “And yet, here you are.” “Here I am.”
He brushed a damp strand of hair off her cheek, then leaned in, not for another kiss, not this time. Just to rest his forehead against hers. “I really don’t want to leave.” “I know, I don’t like you leaving either.” “But I will come back.” “I know,” she repeated, more quietly now. He kissed her gently, once on the cheek, once near the corner of her mouth, and then one last time, right in the middle of her forehead. His lips lingered. “Sleep,” he murmured, and she grinned.
He was halfway to the door before he turned around. “Come.” Her eyes shot open, “What?” He stepped closer, “I mean, I know you can’t come to Italy, its too late notice. Come to Azerbaijan. It’s in two weeks. Willem and Bas can look after the inn, Jacky and Chloé can babysit Margaux for the weekend. Come.” Her smile was bittersweet. “I can’t.” “Why not?” “It’s Margaux’s birthday.” His smile reappeared. “Okay, so come to Singapore. Its three weeks away. Plenty of time to prepare. Please.” “Okay." “Okay?” “Okay, I’ll come.” She said, grinning. Her brain hadn’t thought it through, but she wouldn’t let it. The smile on Lando’s face was worth any consequence.
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She had three lists. One for the inn. One for Margaux. One titled Things I Will Definitely Forget and Panic About in the car. It was still pinned to the fridge, half-smeared with marmalade.
Lando had left the night before, already en route to Singapore, something about a brand sponsorship. She could still smell his cologne faintly on her suitcase handle. That shouldn’t have been comforting. But it was. Now it was up to her.
She zipped up her case for the fourth time, grabbed her notepad, and marched downstairs into the organised chaos of the inn. “Willem!” she shouted, already halfway into the kitchen. Willem popped up from behind the bar like an ageing meerkat. “If this is about the wine order-” “It’s about everything,” she said. “You have the calendar?” “I’m sixty, not senile.” “That’s not what I heard,” Bas muttered from the back fridge. She spun around. “Bas. Do you have the supplier codes?” “I’ve memorised them.” “You say that like you don’t make them up every time.” Bas smirked. “Still works.” She stared at them both. These men. These chaotic, loving, half-feral village uncles who had held this place together more times than she could count. “You’ll call me if something happens?” Willem gave her a look. “You’re not going to the moon. You’re going to Singapore. With a man who makes driving look like ballet.” “Yes, and ballet is dangerous,” she replied. Bas crossed his arms. “Go. We’ve got this.”
As she wrestled Margaux’s backpack over one shoulder and checked her coat pocket for the fifth time, she turned back to Bas and Willem. Willem took the inn keys from her like they weighed more than they did.
“Don’t burn the place down,” she said, deadpan. “Pretty sure my favourite driving man would like our Inn intact when we get back.” Bas smirked. “Which one’s your favourite again?” She rolled her eyes. “The one currently halfway to Singapore and pretending he didn’t forget his sunglasses.”
They both laughed. And as she stepped out into the crisp morning air, Margaux skipping ahead of her, she realised she hadn’t needed to say his name for them to know exactly who she meant. She still checked the door locks. Twice.
Jacky’s house was already full of glitter and noise when she and Margaux arrived. Chloé was trying to learn how to make lanterns out of tissue paper. Romain was dancing with a colander on his head. It felt like leaving Margaux in a well-organised circus.
“You packed snacks?” she asked. “Two lunch boxes,” Jacky confirmed. “Emergency numbers?” Jacky pointed to a laminated sheet on the fridge. “Margaux’s bedtime?” “I’ll fight her into pyjamas with my own two hands,” Jacky said solemnly. She crouched down in front of Margaux, who was already tugging off her shoes and reaching for the glitter glue. “You good, Framboisine?” Margaux nodded seriously. “Tell Lando I said hi.” “You’ll see him next week.” “I know. Just in case he forgets.” She hugged her tight, then stood and immediately double-checked her overnight bag. Jacky placed a hand on her arm. “Go.” “But-” “Go,” Jacky said again. “Bring me back a photo of that boy in bad lighting. With a tan line.”
She laughed, against her better judgment. Hugged Jacky too. Then walked out the door. Her chest was tight. Her legs moved anyway. She was going. Singapore was calling. And Lando was already waiting.
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The city hit her like a wave, hot, dense, humming with electricity. Singapore was nothing like the village. There were no gravel paths or hanging flower baskets. There were glass towers, neon lights, and heat that clung to your spine. It smelled like sugar and spice and melted rubber. The hotel was too clean. The bed too square. She stared at the bathroom sink for five minutes, trying to figure out how it worked. By the time Lando knocked on her door Wednesday night, she’d changed outfits three times, cursed the humidity twice, and had no idea if her hair was supposed to look this big.
He wore a simple shirt. Linen. Open at the collar. No fanfare. “Wow,” he said, eyes flicking over her. “You look-” “Sticky,” she cut in. He grinned. “Yeah. That.” The restaurant was on a rooftop, quiet and tucked away, not a flashbulb in sight. There was a candle on the table and too many forks. Lando made a face at the menu, then ordered two things at random and shrugged. “You’re not nervous?” she asked. He sipped his drink. “I’ve survived Monaco dinner service with three Michelin chefs and a vegan on fire. This is nothing.” She stared at him. “That feels like it needs more context.”
He just smiled. They talked about nothing, mostly Margaux’s glitter obsession, Jacky’s tarte rulebook, whether or not frogs had knees. But somewhere beneath the joking, there was a softness. An unspoken we’re doing this. When they returned to the hotel, she stood outside her door for a second too long. Lando leaned on the wall beside her.
“You know you don’t have to impress anyone tomorrow,” he said. “I’m not trying to.” “You are.” She didn’t deny it. “I already like you,” he added. “You’re very confident.” “I like you nervous too.” She rolled her eyes. “Go to bed.” “Yes, Framboisette.” He winked and disappeared down the hall.
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Thursday morning came loud. Her hotel room buzzed with nerves as she pulled on a sundress, twisted her hair up, and hesitated twice before putting on her sunglasses. Too much? Not enough? The paddock was chaos. People. Cameras. Equipment being wheeled past her with military precision. Heat shimmering off the asphalt. Lando met her at the entrance. He was in his team gear now, walking fast, phone in hand, smiling like he wasn’t about to be dissected by every journalist on site.
“You alright?” he asked. “I’m good.” “Liar, but you look gorgeous.” He reached out, briefly, gently, and took her hand. Just for a second. But it was enough.
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Media Day was a masterclass in misdirection. Lando walked in with a grin, answered questions about tire degradation and race strategy like a seasoned diplomat, and completely deflected any attempts to dig into his personal life.
When a Sky Sports reporter asked, “Are there any special guests with you this weekend?” he shrugged and said, “Just my trainer and a very dramatic jetlag.” She was watching from the hospitality area, arms folded, sunglasses on indoors. The smirk on her lips was subtle but deeply satisfied. “Dramatic jetlag,” she muttered under her breath. “You should hear yourself at 3 a.m.”
She hadn’t expected to be handed a lanyard that said GUEST: FULL ACCESS, but Lando had slipped it into her hand that morning with a wink.
“VIP treatment,” he’d said. “Even comes with unlimited fizzy water and watching grown men scream into headsets.”
FP1 was hot. The air shimmered. The walls felt closer than usual. She watched from the McLaren pit wall, tucked beside an engineer who handed her a headset that wasn’t even connected. Lando went second quickest. Charles Leclerc topped the timesheets.
Not bad. Not perfect. Her fingers tapped nervously on her knee the whole time. FP2 was chaos. She flinched when Lando’s rear end kicked out of Turn 8, brushing the wall. He caught it, just. Slid, corrected, kept going. By the time the session ended, he was top of the board. She didn’t speak for a while.
“Is he always like this?” she asked the engineer beside her. “Only when he’s having fun.” She rolled her eyes. “He has a very strange definition of fun.” Saturday morning, FP3. She was in the back of the garage now, sunglasses perched in her hair, holding a cup of too-hot coffee she wasn’t drinking.
Lando was flying. No brushes. No drama. Just clean, confident speed. When the session ended, he was top again. She didn’t cheer. But her hand found her chest and stayed there, steadying the thing inside it. He came back to the garage, helmet off, sweat-slick curls everywhere. He looked for her first. Always.
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She stood just outside the McLaren garage, watching mechanics dismantle a floor like it had personally offended them, when someone stopped beside her. Quiet. Tall. Polite smile.
“Hi,” the guy said, accent sharp but soft. “Oscar.” She blinked. “Oh. You’re the-” “Yeah. That one.” She laughed. “You’re so calm. Is that an Australian thing or just you?” Oscar tilted his head. “Might just be the trauma.” Before she could respond, Lando jogged over, still in race boots, holding a banana and looking mildly sweaty.
“Oh no,” Oscar said. “He’s in snack mode. Run.” “You’re just jealous,” Lando replied, half-breathless. “My potassium levels are elite.” “He talks a lot,” Oscar said to her, deadpan. She smiled. “Tell me about it.” Lando looked between them, eyes narrowing. “This feels like an ambush.” Oscar nodded. “Correct.” Then, from behind them: “Are you plotting, or just bullying Lando?” Max Verstappen appeared like a heatwave, cocky grin, hands in his pockets, very much wearing his media-mandated shirt correctly. “I think it’s both,” she said. Max grinned. “Smart girl.” Lando groaned. “Why do all my rivals flirt with my-?” She raised an eyebrow. “With my guest?” Max winked, purely to annoy Lando. “If you’re not claiming the noun, I might.” She chuckled. “Bas back home will be thrilled you’re making moves. He was rooting for you at Zandvoort.” Max lit up. “Bas? I like him already.” Oscar deadpanned, “Does Bas want a grid penalty?” Max snorted. And just like that, they stood there, her, Lando, Oscar, Max, joking like it was normal. Like this glittering world had always been part of hers.
Until a camera clicked. Then another. Someone behind the barrier angled their lens, zoomed in. She stepped back, just slightly. Lando caught it. Didn’t make a show. Just leaned in and murmured, “They’d panic if you so much as sneeze beside a Red Bull.” “Do I look sneezy?” “You look like a problem.” “Thanks.” “I like problems.” She gave him a look. “Don’t make me shove you into the pit lane.” “I dare you. They’d definitely take your photo then.”
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Qualifying didn’t start well. Lando looked frustrated in the garage. Her own nerves buzzed like static. Q1 was tight. Q2, worse. And in Q3, the first two laps were scruffy, hesitant, like the car was dancing one beat off rhythm.
Oscar was purple in sector one. Max was fast everywhere. She stood off to the side, chewing a straw from her drink cup like it was personal. Then, on his final flying lap, something shifted.
He crossed the line and lit up the timing screen, P1. Ahead of Max by a tenth. The radio crackled in his helmet: “You’ve done it, mate.” He whooped. Loud and happy. The car rolled back into parc fermé. She didn’t run to him. But when he walked past the barrier, still in his helmet, he slowed. Leaned in. Kissed the side of her head. No words. Just that.
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Race day. The city steamed in the heat. Tyres squealed. Hearts inched up throats. She watched every lap like a prayer she hadn’t written but desperately hoped would land. He had a near miss on lap 16, brushing the barrier so close it left her breathless. Lap 28, he dove into the pit lane late, almost too late. Still, he held it. Every restart. Every threat. He didn’t just win, he owned it. Over twenty seconds clear at the chequered flag. Max second. Oscar third.
In parc fermé, Max pulled off his gloves and grinned. “I thought you were going to lap me, mate.” Lando shrugged. “That was the plan.” Oscar raised an eyebrow. “You didn’t even look like you were sweating.” Lando winked. “Secret weapon.”
Later, on the podium, champagne flew. Lando didn’t even flinch when Max sprayed his face with it. She watched from the garage. Smiling. Not wildly. Not like the others. Just steady. Whole.
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In the post-race interview, a reporter asked: “You’ve been on incredible form lately. Three poles. Two wins. What’s changed?” Lando scratched the back of his neck and smiled. “Well,” he said, “my team’s amazing. Car’s feeling good. I’ve started eating better. Superfoods and all that.” “Oh?” the reporter laughed. “Kale? Spinach?” “Nah,” he said, eyes sparkling. “Two raspberries a day. That’s all I need to win.”
She choked on her drink. Framboisine. Framboisette. She didn’t need him to say it. He already had.
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They celebrated with the team. Champagne. Dancing. Someone played an ABBA remix too loud. By the time they reached the hotel, it was well past midnight. They were both too drunk to think, too happy to care.
They didn’t make it past the edge of the bed. They just kissed. And laughed. And kissed again. And when sleep finally pulled them under, it did so with their fingers still laced together.
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It was one of those dusky afternoons where the air inside the inn smelled like warm wood and simmering garlic. Outside, Margaux was chasing a cat that definitely didn’t want to be caught. Inside, Lando was leaning against the counter like he belonged there, which was dangerous. Because he didn’t. Not really.
“You’re doing the face,” she said, wiping her hands on a towel. “What face?” “The one you do when you’re about to ask me for something.” “I don’t have a face.” “You absolutely have a face.” He paused. “I might have a face.” She arched an eyebrow. “Out with it.” Lando crossed his arms. “Abu Dhabi.” “No.” “You didn’t let me finish.” “I don’t need to.” He tried to look casual. “It’s the last race of the year. Big one. Kind of a thing.” She started stacking clean plates. “Congratulations.” “You should come.” She laughed, short and flat. “You’re adorable.” “I’m serious.” “That’s the problem.” Lando pushed off the counter, moving closer. “Look, it’s not Monaco. It’s not yacht parties. No flashbulbs in your face. It’s all inside the paddock. It’s got childcare. Snacks. Shade.” “Not convincing.” He leaned in. “Max is bringing Penelope.” She froze. “The five-year-old?" "The one who called Helmut Marko a dusty broom with a driving licence? Yeah.” Her lips twitched. “That was iconic.” “She and Margaux would get on.” “That’s not the point.” “Also, Hulkenberg’s kids will be there. They’ve got a whole crafts setup. Oscar’s planning to bring colouring books to the driver briefing.” She rolled her eyes. “Lando-” “You’d have your own suite. Full privacy. I’ll sneak you in the side gate if I have to.” “You make it sound romantic.” “It is romantic.” “Jetlag and tantrums are romantic?” “They are when you’re around,” he said, grinning now. She laughed despite herself. “You are unbelievable.” “And yet, here I am. Still asking.” She turned back to the sink. “I have a business to run. A child to wrangle. A life that doesn’t pack into a carry-on.” Lando moved behind her, wrapped his arms around her waist, let his chin rest on her shoulder. “I know all that,” he said quietly. “And I love all that. But maybe just this once, let the village take care of it. Let someone else carry the list.”
She sighed. Margaux stormed in with two mismatched shoes, a backpack, and a fistful of toast. “Do planes have Netflix?” she demanded. Lando didn’t miss a beat. “Only if you promise not to chase Oscar.” Margaux blinked. “No deal.” He turned to her mother. “You’re outvoted.”
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Two days later, she handed over the keys to the inn. Willem took them like a holy relic. “I expect a full report on Abu Dhabi snack options.” “I’m more concerned about the bar tabs,” she said. Bas smirked. “Don’t worry. Willem’s cutting himself off after his third glass.” “Of the week,” Willem added helpfully.
She hugged them both, tightly. Bas more than necessary. Willem like a daughter. Then she turned to Margaux, who had packed her sunglasses, and an entire tea set.
“You ready?” Margaux gave her a look. “I was born ready.” Lando, leaning in the doorway, smiled like he was already halfway on the plane. “Let’s go,” he said.
And just like that, they did.
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The paddock was too clean. That was her first thought as they stepped in Thursday morning, everything shined. Floors polished to mirror brightness. Every logo crisp. Every team member walking like they knew they were being watched. Margaux, on the other hand, looked like a walking sticker book, hair in plaits, orange cap too big for her head, and a McLaren lanyard around her neck like it was a royal sash. By the time they’d made it ten metres, Penelope had already found them.
“You’re the toast girl,” she announced, eyes wide. Margaux blinked. “Yes?” “Come on, we’re making slime behind the Red Bull motorhome.” Margaux turned to her mother. “I have to go now.” “You haven’t even-” “Slime.” And that was that.
She spent the next two hours walking laps of the paddock with an iced coffee that kept melting, trying to keep her daughter in sight while dodging TV crews, photographers, and someone who definitely just mistook her for an Alpine strategist. When she finally found Margaux again, she was sitting cross-legged beside Oscar Piastri, explaining the plot of Frozen 2 in worrying detail. Oscar looked up with the expression of a man facing his greatest challenge yet.
“She’s very thorough,” he said. “She’s auditioning you for the role of Uncle,” she replied, sipping her coffee. “I gathered.” Margaux looked between them, then back at Oscar. “You’re in.” Oscar blinked. “Was there a vote?” “No.”
He accepted it with a quiet sigh, pulling out a snack pouch from his pocket and handing it to her like it was part of the job description. During FP1, Oscar wasn’t driving, rookie Hirakawa had taken the seat. Oscar sat beside them in the hospitality suite, watching telemetry like it owed him money. Margaux curled into his side, legs swinging. Lando finished second, just behind Charles Leclerc.
“Not bad,” she said quietly. Oscar didn’t look up. “He’ll pretend it doesn’t bother him. It absolutely does.” She smiled. “You’re funnier than I expected.” “I save it for special occasions. Like being hijacked by small humans.”
FP2, both cars were back out. She watched Lando top the table. FP3, Oscar returned the favour, first place. Lando a breath behind. They didn’t speak much about it. But she noticed the way Lando grinned when he saw Oscar’s time. Not threatened. Just thrilled for his team. It was strange, this world. Loud. Sharp-edged. Hyper-controlled. But it was also soft in places. And her daughter had never looked more at home.
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Saturday. Qualifying. She stood behind the screens, nerves balled so tight in her chest they might’ve had their own pulse. Lando went fastest in Q3. Oscar followed. A McLaren front-row lockout. The garage went wild. Mechanics whooped. Someone behind her cried.
Lando pulled into parc fermé like it was instinct. And when he climbed out, helmet still on, he scanned the crowd, found her, and didn’t even hesitate. Just reached for her, curled a hand around the back of her neck, and kissed the side of her head like it was something he did every day. She didn’t breathe for five full seconds.
Sunday. Race day. The air hummed with heat and nerves.
Lap 1 was chaos. Max lunged into Turn 1 and clipped Oscar’s front wing. It wasn’t malicious. But it was reckless. Oscar’s voice crackled over the radio, dry as bone, “Move of a world champion, that one.” She nearly choked on her water. Oscar dropped to P20. But he clawed his way back, smooth, strategic, inching past car after car until he crossed the line in tenth. Max found him post-race, helmet off, head down. They spoke quietly. Then fist bumped.
Done. Squashed. No drama. Meanwhile, Lando was flying. Not just leading. Commanding. Lap after lap. Gap growing. When he crossed the line, twenty seconds ahead, McLaren exploded.
Screams. Airhorns. People jumping into each other’s arms. The drivers’ championship was theirs. Not just the race. Everything.
Oscar had joined them for the team photo. Champagne sprayed like firecrackers. And when they cut to Lando’s interview, he was already grinning, hair soaked, champagne in his ear.
“You looked completely at ease out there today,” the interviewer said. “Was it the car? The strategy? Or something else?” Lando wiped his face with his sleeve, still breathless. “Honestly? I just felt settled. Like I knew where I was going.” “That a new mindset?” He glanced off-camera, just for a second. His grin softened. “Not new. Just real. Finally.” She stilled. The crowd was still cheering, the lights flashing, people shouting his name. But she just stood there.
Hands loose at her sides, pulse racing.
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That night, the paddock was a rave. Lights. Music. Champagne on tap. Penelope had invited Margaux for a sleepover, complete with four types of popcorn and a movie tent. She hesitated. But Jacky’s voice echoed in her head: Let her go. Let her live a little.
So, she did. And with her daughter safe, she let herself breathe.
She and Lando partied with the grid. With mechanics. With rivals. Everyone.
Drunk. Joyful. Messy. He kissed her like the world had ended and this was the afterlife. And at some point, voice low in her ear, he said, “Next time the grid needs a break we’ll all come to your village. Hide out. Drink wine. Let Willem lecture everyone about cheese.” She laughed into his neck. “Pretty sure Max would end up running the bar.” He smiled against her skin. “Then It's definitely happening.” She kissed him again, grinning now, her fingers curled into the collar of his shirt. For a moment, just one beat, they weren’t at the centre of the racing world. They were already there. Back home.
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The inn had never looked so alive. It shimmered with frost on the windows and firelight from inside, garlands strung across the beams, tables covered in wine, bread, laughter. Every time the front door opened, someone new stepped through, and every time, the whole room seemed to shift to make space. It was winter break. But it felt more like Christmas and midsummer had collided and decided to throw a party.
At the centre of it all was Lando. He stood behind the bar, because of course he did, pouring glasses of cider like he hadn’t just won the constructors world championship three weeks ago. He was laughing with Charles and George, dodging Yuki’s elbow as he tried to balance three tiny plates of food and a dangerously overloaded fondue stick. Franco was already on his second round of wine; cheeks pink and animated. Ollie Bearman had brought a snowball inside, claiming it was a "guest of honour." Esteban and Pierre were locked in a debate about who looked better in flannel. Neither did, and she told them so. Margaux darted between people like a spark in human form, wearing a paper crown and dragging Penelope along by the hand. They’d already covered one wall in sticky stars and half-finished lanterns. Max, watching them from a corner near the fire, had the softest look she’d ever seen on his face. Even Daniel Ricciardo had arrived, too loud, too charming, already asking for shots and hugging people like he owned the place.
“I brought tequila,” he declared. “And several questionable life choices.” Jacky, from behind the buffet, shouted, “Leave the choices at the door. The tequila can stay.” The room roared. It should’ve felt surreal, these men, these names, these lives, folded into her tiny village like it was just another pit stop. But somehow, it didn’t.
It felt right. Because Lando didn’t stand out like a visitor. He moved through the space like he’d grown up here. He held her hand when no one was watching. Shared a joke with Willem. Whispered something to Bas that made him shake his head and smile. It had only been four months since they’d officially started this. Since he’d kissed her in the quiet of her room, in the space where grief had once lived. But he fit. So completely, so easily, it made her wonder how they’d ever not been this.
And the inn, her inn, glowed from the inside out. Like it knew.
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It didn’t take long for the drivers to start collecting villagers like souvenirs. Willem had claimed Carlos Sainz within ten minutes, dragging him into a debate about whether real wine should ever be served chilled. Carlos looked both alarmed and enchanted. Kimi Antonelli, quieter than most, had somehow ended up sitting cross-legged on the floor with Jacky’s cat in his lap and three of the village kids building a tower of marshmallows on his shoulders. Lewis Hamilton helped Henri carry firewood out back, both deep in conversation about meditation and French bread. When they returned, Lewis had his sleeves rolled and flour on his hands. Henri looked like he’d just discovered religion.
Pierre Gasly flirted shamelessly with Chloé until Romain tossed a tinsel scarf around his neck and said, “She’s taken, you Christmas elf.” Pierre bowed dramatically and offered to help serve drinks instead. Chloé and Romain started making TikTok’s, singing wildly off-key. Lando wandered past in the background mid-laugh, arm slung lazily around her shoulders, and almost didn’t even notice the camera. She did. For a moment, she almost told Chloé to cut it. But then she didn’t. Let it post. Let it live. It wasn’t hiding anymore; it was just life.
Oscar, with Margaux attached to one hand and a mug of cider in the other, was cornered by Madame Lefevre, the elderly postwomen, who declared she’d once been proposed to by a Belgian race car driver in 1962. “Told him no, of course,” she said. “He was allergic to cheese.” Charles ended up playing piano, poorly, while Alex Albon and Yuki sang along with alarming confidence. Even Max joined in for one off-key chorus, Penelope on his shoulders and shaking a tambourine like her life depended on it. Esteban discovered the village had a homemade chili sauce competition and immediately entered. George Russel was last seen walking into the garden with a tray of drinks and three grandmothers hanging off his arm. Similarly, Daniel had made it his mission to charm every single person over the age of seventy. Within half an hour, he was seated at the centre of the dominoes table with four elderly women, each of whom referred to him exclusively as mon petit soleil. One had braided a sprig of rosemary into his hair. Another was feeding him slices of quince from a napkin. He didn’t question any of it.
“This is the most powerful coven I’ve ever joined,” he told Lando, very seriously. “If I disappear tonight, it’s because I’ve been adopted.” “Fair,” Lando said. “You always said you wanted a French retirement.” Daniel gestured dramatically with his wine. “I shall open a vineyard. Play boules. Write a memoir.” “You can’t speak French.” “I don’t need to. They feel me.” From across the room, his new fan club raised their glasses in unison. He winked.
It wasn’t just chaos. It was community. And she watched it all from behind the bar, heart full to the point of ache, knowing this wasn’t just a party.
It was a moment. And it was hers.
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The kitchen was somehow even warmer than the main room, steam rising from pots, wine bottles cluttering the counters, and flour on every surface like it had snowed joy. Jacky stood at the stove, stirring something that smelled vaguely of cloves and rebellion. She slipped in quietly, half-hoping for a quiet breather, half-hoping Jacky would read her mind and pour her something strong. Without turning, Jacky said, “He fits.” She smiled. “I didn’t say anything.” “Didn’t have to.” Jacky tapped her temple. “I’ve got a radar.” She stepped beside her, leaned against the old wooden counter. “You were right.” Jacky made a satisfied noise. “Say it again. Louder.” “You were right,” she groaned. “There it is.”
They laughed. And then, Jacky reached over and pulled her into a one-armed hug, apron and all. Flour transferred onto her jumper. She didn’t care.
“I’m glad you let yourself have this,” Jacky murmured. “You’ve been giving to everyone else for so long, it’s about damn time someone gave something back.”
She swallowed the lump in her throat.
“Thank you,” she whispered. “You don’t owe me anything.” “Still.” Jacky nodded once. “Alright then. But next time, bring more chocolate to the village party.”
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Later, outside, she stood by the garden gate, the cold air a welcome contrast to the heat inside. Lanterns bobbed overhead. Margaux was on tiptoes, arms outstretched, helping Lando tie one above the archway. He held her steady, laughing quietly, eyes only on her. Beside her, Bas sipped from a mug, quiet as ever. “You look like you’ve got something to say,” she murmured. “I usually do,” he replied. She turned to him. He didn’t look away from the scene in front of them. “He’s good. Especially with Framboisine.” She nodded. “You did good. He’s good. I’m happy for you.” He paused, then added, softer, “I held on for a long time, thinking maybe you’d come back to what we were. But it wasn’t real. Just two people keeping warm in the dark. He’s your light now.”
Something shifted in her chest.
Bas glanced sideways at her, smile tugging at his mouth. “I’m happy for you. I mean it.” She bumped his arm gently. “I know.” They stood there in silence a moment longer, lanterns glowing gold above them. Then Bas added, “Still think he over-salted the potatoes at dinner, though.” “Get out.”
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Near the fire pit, Chloé and Romain swayed lazily to music only they seemed to hear. Fairy lights tangled around their shoulders, wine in one hand, each other in the other. Romain dipped her too far. Chloé screamed with laughter. Someone clapped. Someone else tried to join and tripped over a log. It was messy. Loud. Full of love. She watched them with a full heart. Willem found her just before midnight, when the music softened and the stars took over the ceiling. He pressed a kiss to her temple, the scent of wine and firewood lingering on his jumper.
“You did it,” he said. She smiled, eyes glassy. “I knew you’d make it work. I’m proud of you, girl.”
She leaned into him. Just for a second. That was all she needed.
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The party trickled out like candlelight, flickering down to embers, one laugh at a time. Empty glasses lined the tables. Someone had fallen asleep under a pile of scarves. The fire pit had shrunk to a soft orange glow, snapping every so often like it still had something to say. Margaux had made her rounds like royalty, hugged Oscar tight, fist-bumped Max, told Daniel she was “still thinking about the rosemary ladies.” She yawned through it all but refused to be carried. When she was finally tucked into bed, crown slightly crooked, cheeks flushed, she wriggled under the blanket and declared, “Next time we do this, I’m driving. Lando can sit in the back.”
She snorted. “Sure. I’ll let him know.” Margaux was already half-asleep. “Tell him I want music.”
She and Lando sat on the old stone bench just outside the inn, coats over their shoulders, legs pressed together. The cold was settling in, biting gently at their cheeks, but neither of them moved. Behind them, the inn still glowed, gold light in every window, laughter echoing faintly from the kitchen. The stars had come out sharp, white, endless. Lando shifted slightly, reaching across the space between them. His fingers found hers. Threaded. Held.
“I love you, you know.” No hesitation. No big lead-in. Just that.
She didn’t flinch. Didn’t look away. Just leaned into him, rested her head against his shoulder. “I know,” she said. Then, softer, “I love you too.”
He let out a breath. Not relief. Not surprise. Just something he’d been holding since the moment she let him in. They kissed, slow and certain. When they pulled apart, their hands stayed joined. Behind them, the inn glowed quietly. Alive with music, memory, and everything they’d built together. Home.
coming back to literally just say this:
Tesco cake; lando norris
summary: your birthday party is a disaster, luckily lando comes and saves the night
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pairing: lando x afab reader (F/M)
tw: smut +18, semi public (again im just sorry at this point lmao)
word count: around 10k
feedback is appreciated!! <3
completed another lap around the sun yesterdaya and wrote this for all those birthday girls who haven't felt special on their day, may a lando come with a crappy cake and lot of laughs.
((( also ! this is not an invitation to jump in a stranger's cars and spend the night with boys you barely know lmao! if you wanna do that, take safety precautions pls! )))
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oh but you got a sports car, and we can uh uh in it
Max’s house was packed and smelled like too many bad things at once: cheap perfume, spilled alcohol, weed and sweat from too many bodies crammed into not enough space. The bass from the speaker system was way too loud for a residential building and it rattled the walls, making the picture frames buzz slightly and your chest vibrate with every beat.
It was your birthday.
Apparently.
You knew this because someone had put a glittery pink sash over your shoulders that read “Birthday Girl” in a loopy font, and because you’d gotten a “SURPRISE!” screamed at you when you walked in earlier tonight.
That was pretty much it.
Pietra, your best friend from uni, had organized the whole thing. She’d said you needed to do something fun this year. “No way you gonna rot at home on your birthday”
She was thrilled, dressed in glitter and already two drinks in when you arrived. You didn’t even have time to take your shoes off before you were handed a plastic cup of something neon and bitter.
She was your best friend, yes, but little did she know this was the opposite of fun for you.
Now, hours later, you stood somewhere between the living room and the kitchen, nursing your third drink, which was mostly melted ice at this point, while your cheeks ached from trying to keep a smile on your face, to look like you’re having the time of your life.
Thing was: it was your party, but no one really noticed you.
Not in the this is your night! way people were supposed to. You’d recognized maybe three faces other than Pietra and Max (her boyfriend whose house this actually was).
Everyone else? Strangers. Friends of friends. People with perfect dresses and curated laughs who barely looked at you unless you were standing in their way of the fridge or the bathroom.
There was no cake. No gifts. No moment of people singing off-key while you blew out the candles and made a wish. Just shots poured in the kitchen and someone dry-humping to a remix of Doja Cat in the hallway.
And you were trying.
You were trying so hard to have fun, to match the mood, to not be the person sitting in the corner scrolling Instagram and pretending they weren’t completely out of place at their own birthday.
Trying. That was the word of the night.
Trying not to look out of place.
Trying not to resent how much fun everyone else was having when you just wanted to go home, put on pajamas, and blow out a single candle on a brownie while watching something dumb on Netflix.
And still… a small part of you didn’t want to leave. Not yet. You didn’t want to be the buzzkill birthday girl. You wanted to get it. You wanted to have the kind of fun Pietra always had. You wanted to look back and say, yeah, that night was wild.
You wanted to be the main character for once.
So you laughed when people laughed. You accepted drinks you didn’t want. You danced a little when Pietra tugged your wrist and spun you around like it was prom and not a house full of drunk strangers.
You even let someone you vaguely remembered from uni light a joint in front of you and pass it over. You took a drag like you weren’t completely awkward about it, held it too long, coughed until your eyes watered, and then pretended it was fine.
Eventually, you ended up perched on a kitchen counter, legs swinging slightly, trying to sip your warm drink and not look like you were counting the minutes. You could still hear the music pounding from the other room, some remix of a song that had been everywhere on TikTok.
Just five minutes of quiet, you told yourself. Five minutes to pull yourself together, reapply the smile, and dive back into the party like you belonged there.
“Didn’t expect to find the birthday girl hiding back here.”
You looked up, startled. Lando Norris stood in the doorway, backlit by the flickering lights of the living room. He looked almost cinematic in that moment: black jeans, worn but expensive-looking, a plain grey t-shirt that clung to him in all the right places, and curls falling messily over his forehead. His hoodie was slung carelessly over one shoulder, and he was twirling a bottle cap between his fingers like it had offended him.
Lando Norris. Max’s best mate. F1 star. British celebrity. A small crush you refused to admit out loud.
You straightened up. “Not hiding,” you said, a little too quickly. “Just… taking a break.”
He smirked, stepping fully into the room and letting the door swing shut behind him.
“Uh-huh,” he said, crossing to the fridge. “Funny, ‘cause this is the second time I’ve seen you disappear in the last hour.”
He noticed?
You rolled your eyes but smiled faintly. “You’ve been keeping tabs on me?”
He opened the fridge, crouched slightly to look inside, and shrugged. “Not really. Just hard to miss the girl in a pink sash who looks like she’d rather be anywhere else.”
You didn’t answer immediately. He wasn’t wrong.
Lando grabbed a can of something, cracked it open, and leaned back against the counter opposite you. He didn’t say anything else at first, just watched you over the rim of his drink, eyes scanning your expression like he was trying to read past the surface.
“You’re not really having fun,” he said finally. Not a question. A statement.
You gave him a flat look and forced a chuckle. “I didn’t realize my party came with a therapist.”
He grinned. “I charge extra for birthdays.”
You sighed, fingers running along the rim of your cup. “I just… I don’t know. I don’t know most of the people here. And there’s no cake, by the way, if you were wondering. Feels like the party is for everyone else but me, just a lot of tequila and people making out in corners.”
Lando tilted his head, still watching you. “So why stay?”
The question was so simple yet so complicated to answer.
You hesitated. “Because everyone else is having fun. Because Pietra planned it. Because I’m supposed to be that girl tonight. The fun birthday girl.”
He shifted slightly, that easy confidence never faltering, but his eyes had softened a little. “Maybe you don’t have to be anything.”
You blinked. It sounded easy when he said it, but it felt like a revelation.
Lando took another sip of his drink and stepped closer, shrinking the distance between you two. You noticed the subtle scent of his cologne, clean and understated, with something a little sharp beneath it, like cedar or salt.
Actually, you didn’t even know, you knew nothing about men fragrances after all. But he smelled good and it was invading your surroundings with every movement he made.
His words still echoed too loudly in your mind.
Maybe you don’t have to be anything.
And you wanted that to be true. God, how you wanted it. But reality was heavier than that.
“It’s not nice to leave your own party,” you said after a beat, voice softer now, maybe even a little apologetic. “Especially when someone threw it for you.”
Lando gave a short, quiet laugh, like he wasn’t mocking you, just amused by how earnestly you said it. He took another sip from his drink and leaned against the counter beside you, shoulder brushing yours briefly before he shifted again, just enough to give you space but still stay close.
“Yeah, I mean… sure,” he said slowly, like he was working it out in real time. “But is it nice that no one’s really even looked at you since the party started? I mean, you’re wearing a Birthday Girl sash and I had to find you in the kitchen because no one else noticed you’d left.”
You opened your mouth, ready to object, but nothing came out. Because he wasn’t wrong. Not even a little.
“And Pietra,” he added with a slight smirk, “much as I’m sure she loves you, is probably upstairs shagging Max right now. So let’s not act like she’d actually notice or care if you ducked out early.”
You scoffed. “Wow. Harsh.”
He grinned and shrugged like he couldn’t be blamed for saying what you were already thinking.
“I’m just saying,” he added, his tone was softer now, less teasing. “Don’t bend yourself backwards to stay in a room that doesn’t make space for you. Even if someone decorated it with cheap balloons and blasted Pitbull remixes.”
You looked at him and the corners of your lips slightly tugged upward, slow and almost involuntary.
A smile. The first real one of the night.
You hadn’t expected it. Hadn’t expected him to say something like that. Something that didn’t feel like a throwaway line or a cliché.
He caught your expression immediately, and a lopsided grin curved across his lips.
“There it is,” he said, victorious. “A smile. I knew it was in there somewhere.”
You shook your head, the smile still lingering despite your best efforts to downplay it. But you could feel it, how the mood between you had shifted again. Lighter now. You didn’t know what it was exactly, only that you didn’t want to ruin it by getting too self-aware.
So you did what you always did when things started to feel too close. You changed the subject.
“And what about you?” you asked, stepping back just enough to lean against the edge of the counter, your arms loosely crossing over your chest. “What are you doing at my birthday party? Don’t you have some F1 trendy event to attend?”
Lando smirked, taking a sip from his drink before responding. “Max invited me.”
You raised an eyebrow. “Max invited you… to my party?”
“I wasn’t gonna come at first,” he added, quieter now. “Long week. Jet lag. The usual. But I’m glad I did.”
There it was again, that tone. Soft, a little amused, but sincere. Like he wasn’t trying to flatter you, just telling you what he saw. And you hated how it made your chest flutter in response.
Lando took another step closer. Not invading your space, just folding into it like he’d always belonged there. He leaned his hip against the counter beside you, close enough that your arms were almost brushing.
“Why?” you asked, voice soft, barely louder than the low thud of bass from the other room. “Having fun?”
He tilted his head, like he was weighing whether or not to give you the full answer. Then, with a slow smile, he said, “Yeah, I mean I found the birthday girl hiding in the kitchen and she turned out to be a lot more interesting than the party itself.”
You gave a soft laugh and rolled your eyes. “Shut up.”
The tension between you shifted again. Not awkward, not flirty. Something in between. Like you’d both stumbled into a version of the night neither of you had been expecting.
Lando looked down at your drink-less hand, still resting by your side. Without a word, he brushed his fingers lightly against yours. Not a grab, not a move. Just a gentle touch, enough to tease and initiate a small physical contact.
You didn’t pull away. You couldn’t, really. Not with the way he was looking at you now.
“Let’s get out of here,” he said, voice low and casual, like he was simply suggesting a change of playlist, not a small act of rebellion.
You chucked. “What?”
He gestured vaguely over his shoulder toward the living room, where the music had picked up again. “This party sucks. And you hate it.”
“I don’t hate it.”
“You’re hiding in the kitchen.”
You gave him a pointed look, though your mouth was twitching with the start of a reluctant smile. “That doesn’t mean I hate it.”
“Come on.” His tone was coaxing now, almost boyish in its charm. “Let’s leave and go literally everywhere else.”
You laughed under your breath. “Together? That wouldn’t look suspicious at all.”
He grinned. “I don’t care.”
That gave you pause. The way he said it. Like the idea of caring what people thought had never once stopped him from doing what he felt like doing. And yet, he didn’t feel dangerous or wild.
You held his gaze for a beat longer, your mind racing.
“Where are we even going?” you asked, your voice barely above the bass vibrating through the floor.
Lando's grin mellowed into something playful, still him, but threaded with intention. “A birthday girl deserves cake, doesn’t she?”
You blinked at him, probably blushing.
“There’s no cake here,” he added, as if that fact alone was an injustice that demanded rectifying. “It’s actually criminal. A party with no cake? I think we can do better than that.”
“You want to go find a cake?” The words came out half-disbelieving, half-intrigued. Like you were trying not to get swept up the craziness of his offer.
You should’ve said no. Should’ve kept your feet firmly planted, shrugged it off with some breezy excuse. Go back into the party and try to let the music drown out whatever strange electricity had crept in between you and this boy with curly hair and a grin that could pull tides.
But the thought of slipping out into the night with him, of escaping this mess of music and expectation and putting on a face that didn’t feel like yours, it felt like breathing after holding it in for hours.
“Come on,” he said. “Get your jacket.”
You looked at him for a heartbeat, your breath caught somewhere in your chest. Then you broke eye contact with a small shake of your head, more in disbelief at yourself than at him, and turned toward the chair where you’d tossed your jacket earlier. Your fingers trembling just slightly as you grabbed it.
Thirty seconds later you were following him out of Max’s place.
You walked side by side, close but not quite touching, his hand brushing yours once, casually, like it was nothing.
“So,” you said, trying to break the silence and the tension curling in your chest while waiting for the elevator “Is this your thing? Rescue sad girls from their own birthdays?”
Lando turned to you with that signature grin, the one that had probably melted a thousand hearts, and tilted his head. “Only the really cute and really tragic ones.”
You rolled your eyes but bit your lip to hide your smile. “Wow. So you’re pitying me”
“Mh, no not at all.” He shrugged, leaning against the wall with an ease that came so naturally to him. “You just looked like you weren’t having the night you deserved.”
Lando was charming, yes. But he was also nice. Kind in a quiet, consistent way that felt dangerous. Because it made it hard to guard yourself. Hard to keep the walls up when he wasn’t trying to break them down.
He was also making you feel seen. For the first time. And that made you analyze everything.
You fought back a grin.
Don’t overthink this. It’s just cake. It’s just a walk. Just a boy you barely know, or maybe never really did.
What were you even doing? Literally everything could go wrong.
But you decided, right then, not to let your thoughts ruin the moment. It was your birthday, damn it. He was right. You deserved to laugh. You deserved to feel something good.
So you let yourself smile as you followed him through the nearly empty lot, your heels clicking against the pavement, until you spotted the sleek black Lamborghini parked beneath a streetlamp.
Of course. Of course he drove a Lamborghini.
Lando unlocked it with a casual tap of his key fob, the lights blinking once.
He walked over to the passenger side, the soft click of the unlocking doors breaking the quiet of the night. Without saying a word, he opened it for you with a mock-serious flourish, then extended an arm, palm up like he was guiding you into a royal carriage.
“Miss,” he said, tone grave but lips twitching, clearly amused with himself.
You laughed, caught somewhere between impressed and amused. “Wow. Thank you!”
You were still smiling to yourself when he closed the door and rounded the front of the car, slipping into the driver’s seat with the same cool ease he carried everywhere. He caught the look on your face as he started the engine and raised an eyebrow.
“What?” he asked, grinning as the dashboard lit up.
“Nothing,” you said too quickly, brushing a loose strand of hair behind your ear.
God, he was charming. Too thoughtful. Too casually nice for his own good. And definitely for yours. The way he moved, the way he paid attention to you in little ways like holding the door, that subtle touch to your back. It felt all so natural. But it was doing things to your brain. Making your thoughts feel louder than the low hum of the engine.
He pulled out his phone and opened Google Maps, fingers tapping against the screen as he scrolled.
“Alright,” he muttered, half to himself, eyes scanning the map. “There has to be a Tesco or Sainsbury’s open somewhere. Come on.”
You leaned over slightly, peering at his screen before his thumb paused over a pin on the map. “There we go. Twenty-four-hour Tesco, eight minutes away.”
Lando pulled onto the main road, one hand casually resting on the wheel, the other still holding his phone in his lap.
You glanced sideways at him, trying not to stare. He looked calm. Confident. Absolutely stunning. The kind of person who made it feel like anything could happen and it might actually turn out okay.
“I still can’t believe we’re doing this,” you said quietly.
The eight-minute ride felt like two seconds, too quick to fully sink in, until suddenly he was pulling into a dimly lit Tesco parking lot.
“Here we are,” he announced like it was the grandest destination in the world, his grin widening as he cut the engine.
You caught your reflection in the windshield for a moment: hair slightly tousled, cheeks flushed, eyes bright in a way they hadn’t been all night.
Two hours into your birthday, and finally, maybe, you were starting to have some fun.
Inside the store, the harsh fluorescent lights were a stark contrast to darkness of the night, but the familiar aisles and quiet hum of refrigeration units were oddly comforting.
You followed Lando down the baking aisle, your footsteps echoing softly with his.
He stopped in front of the fridge and started scanning the options. “Alright, what kind of cake does the birthday girl want? Something classic? Chocolate?”
You glanced at the neatly arranged cakes, their frosted perfection almost surreal in the stark lighting. “I don’t know... chocolate sounds good,” you said finally, shrugging like it was the safest choice.
Lando nodded approvingly, a slow grin spreading across his face. “Chocolate it is. Can’t go wrong with it”
He reached out and picked up a modest chocolate cake, the kind that promised comfort more than extravagance, and held it up like a prize. You caught the soft gleam of satisfaction in his eyes, as if this little mission had become more important than either of you expected.
“Now,” he added, turning to the next aisle with that same confident ease, “we need candles. Can’t have a birthday without candles.”
He handed you a small pack with a careful tenderness, his fingers brushing yours just enough to make your pulse hitch.
Lando carried the cake and candles to the self-checkout with a kind of casual confidence that somehow made even a 2 a.m. Tesco run feel cinematic. You trailed behind him, arms crossed loosely over your chest, watching as he scanned the items with one hand, the other tucked easily into the pocket of his hoodie.
Once you stepped back out into the night, the cool air kissed your cheeks, and the world felt quieter somehow, like the city itself had turned the volume down.
“Mind holding onto that while I drive?” Lando handed you the Tesco bag and unlocked the car with a click.
You nodded, accepting the Tesco bag from him as he opened the passenger side door for you again. A quiet “thank you” passed your lips, but the smile tugging at them gave more away than you meant to. There was something disarmingly endearing about Lando’s late-night chivalry—like it wasn’t just instinct for him, but intentional. It made your chest flutter in a way that felt far too dangerous at 2 a.m.
As he rounded the car and slid back into the driver’s seat, you held the bag in your lap, the candles rattling softly against the plastic container of cake. You glanced over at him, curious and a little breathless from how this strange, impulsive detour had somehow become the best part of your birthday.
“So,” you said, side-eyeing him as he shifted the car into gear. “Are we heading back to Max’s or…?”
He shook his head, lips quirking into a small smile. “Nope. Got somewhere better in mind.”
You gave him a sideways look, eyes narrowing slightly with playful suspicion. “Where are we going, Norris?”
He glanced at you briefly before turning his eyes back to the road, the city lights reflecting on the window and in the curve of his grin. “You’ll see. Just trust me.”
You did. More than you probably should have.
The next ten minutes passed in the blink of an eye. London looked somewhat different this late and you sat in comfortable silence, the only sounds the occasional click of the indicator and the quiet thrum of the engine.
Every so often, your gaze drifted to him, to the way his fingers moved on the steering wheel, relaxed and sure. It was ridiculous how effortless he looked, how being near him pulled at something you weren’t sure you were ready to name yet.
Finally, he pulled into a narrow side street and eased into a small parking area tucked between a few low buildings.
The second you stepped out of the car, you understood.
The view opened up in front of you like something out of a movie.
You were high up on South Bank, overlooking the Thames. Tower Bridge was lit up in the distance, glowing like a crown across the water. The London Eye turned slowly, faintly glowing behind the trees, and the spire of Big Ben stood tall and golden in the skyline. The city stretched out like a blanket of stars, each light shimmering in its own rhythm.
You blinked, breath catching in your throat. “Wow…”
Lando stepped up beside you, hands in his hoodie pockets. “Yeah.”
“Are you trying to impress me, Norris?”
“Is it working?”
You rolled your eyes, chuckling before drifting you eyes to the view again.
“I did a photoshoot here once, couple years ago,” he said, voice quieter now, almost thoughtful. “Middle of the day. Full crew, chaos everywhere. But I remember looking out and thinking… this place deserved silence. Stillness.”
You glanced back at the view. “It’s beautiful.”
His gaze softened, and for a moment, you both just stood there in the hush between city sounds, the only thing moving the occasional breeze that played with the hem of your jacket and the ends of your hair.
Then Lando exhaled, breaking the spell with a small grin. “Alright. Let’s get that cake now”
You laughed, the sound light and genuine, as if it had been sitting at the base of your throat all night, just waiting for the right moment to escape.
“Yey! Cake time,” you rejoiced, spinning on your heel and making your way back to the car.
Lando followed at a leisurely pace, hands still tucked in his hoodie pockets, a small smile playing on his lips as he watched you.
You reached back into the car, careful not to jostle the bag too much, and pulled out the chocolate cake with the kind of reverence it deserved. It wasn’t fancy a little smushed from the ride, but it suddenly felt like the most important cake you’d ever held as you gently placed it on the hood of car.
Lando helped you peeling back the lid with slow, careful fingers, like it was something breakable. Or maybe it was just that the moment felt that fragile.
From his pocket, he pulled out the pack of pastel-colored candles you’d grabbed from Tesco, opening it and tapping a few into his hand.
“Okay so,” he said with a crooked smirk, tilting his head as he examined the cake’s surface. “We’ve got space for, what… five candles?”
You laughed softly, already shaking your head.
“That’s how old you’re turning, right?” he teased with a playful tone.
“Oh my God,” you gasped, trying to hide your grin. “You’re actually so rude.”
You rolled your eyes, but your smile wouldn’t go away.
You couldn’t remember the last time you’d felt like this, like something was blooming in the center of your chest and you didn’t want to stop it. It was ridiculous, really, how a supermarket cake and five mismatched candles could feel so important. So personal.
Lando stepped in closer, the warmth of his body brushing your side as he leaned over to help you press the tiny candles into the soft frosting. Your arms moved together in this quiet rhythm, his fingers brushing yours here and there as you worked, and neither of you rushed. The silence between you had settled into something comfortable, like you were both reluctant to break it.
Once the last candles were in, Lando reached into his hoodie pocket and pulled out a black lighter. His brows pulled together as he lit each one, shielding the little flames from the night breeze with his hand, his thumb instinctively curling inward as if protecting something precious.
“There,” he said softly once the final flame flickered to life, standing upright again.
You stared down at the cake, then up at him. “I can’t believe you actually did this.”
His expression softened, mouth curling into something gentler. “Why not?”
You shrugged, hugging your arms around yourself against the breeze. “I don’t know. We barely know each other and… this? It’s… really nice.”
He didn’t answer right away. Just looked at you with that same unreadable expression.
Then, in a voice barely louder than the wind, he said, “Happy birthday, sweetheart.”
Your breath hitched.
And before you could say anything else, he did it. He started to sing. Just a few notes at first, tentative, like he wasn’t sure whether to commit.
“Happy birthday to you…”
“Oh no,” You let out a stunned laugh, instantly covering your face with your hands.
He grinned, eyes crinkling as he kept going, singing the whole song just a little off-beat for comedic effect.
“Alright, alright,” he said, holding up his hands in surrender. “Now, time to make a wish.”
You rolled your eyes with a grin, but when you turned your gaze down toward the flickering flames, something shifted inside you.
The warmth of the engine beneath your fingertips, the city glittering in the background like spilled stardust, the boy beside you who somehow felt both brand new and strangely familiar, all of it felt like a moment suspended in time.
What would you even wish for?
You didn’t really want anything extravagant.
But you closed your eyes anyway.
And in the quiet between your heartbeats, you wished. Not aloud, not even fully formed but something close to “more of this”. More moments where you could feel good with being reckless, where you could breathe deeply and laugh until your stomach hurt. Moments where things felt easy. Real. Light.
Moments where you could feel seen.
You opened your eyes again, meeting Lando’s blue ones briefly before leaning forward and blowing out the candles with one long breath. The tiny flames snuffed out one by one, tendrils of smoke curling upward into the night air.
He clapped his hands with mock enthusiasm, grinning like a kid who’d just watched fireworks. “Atta girl, nailed it.”
Lando then reached for the plastic cake knife tucked in the side of the container and carefully made the first slice, eyebrows furrowed in exaggerated concentration. “Alright,” he said, biting his bottom lip as he focused like he was performing surgery. “Two big slices!”
You giggled, folding your arms and watching him, your body still buzzing faintly from the moment you’d just shared: from the laughter, the quiet wish, the way his eyes had lingered on yours like they saw something most people missed.
When he finally lifted a generous slice with the flimsy plastic knife, it promptly fell sideways onto the container lid with a soft splat.
“Well,” he said, wiping his hands on his jeans with a grin, “we, uh… may not have plates.”
You laughed again, real, loud and delighted, and then accepted a chunk of the cake he passed to you with his bare hands. “It’s okay, we’re embracing chaos, at this point.”
He tapped his slice against yours like it was a champagne toast. “Cheers.”
And for a few minutes, you sat there like that, side by side, sharing lopsided bites of chocolate cake in the warm glow of the London skyline, Tower Bridge lit in the distance, the sound of the Thames moving just beyond the railings.
There was no small talk, no need to fill the space. Just the occasional shared look, the bump of shoulders, the quiet between you stretching wide and comfortable.
Eventually, you set the last bit of your cake down beside the container and wiped your fingers with a napkin he passed you, still smiling faintly.
“Thank you,” you said softly, turning toward him now, the weight of the moment finally catching up with you. “Really, Lando. No one’s ever done anything like this for me before.”
He blinked, surprised by the shift in your tone. His expression softened instantly, and he tilted his head a little, his voice just as gentle. “Told you. You deserved a good one.”
Your heart thudded, not in that dizzy, anxious way it sometimes did when your thoughts ran ahead of you, but in a steady, weighted rhythm. Like it knew exactly where you were, and exactly who you were with. “Yeah, you’re right...”
You looked down at the cake, half eaten and crooked on the plastic lid, and something in you clicked into place.
Fuck it.
You set it down gently on the hood of the car, not breaking eye contact as you did.
And then you took a step closer.
Lando’s brows lifted slightly, his lips parting like he wanted to say something, but he didn’t. He didn’t ruin the moment. He just stood there, still and waiting, watching you with those wide, curious eyes like you were the most fascinating thing he’d seen all night.
You reached up, fingers brushing lightly against the collar of his hoodie, steadying yourself more than anything. He leaned in just a fraction, barely perceptible, but you felt it.
And then, with one breath, you closed the space.
Your lips met his in a soft, slow kiss that silenced everything else. No sounds of traffic in the distance, no hum of the city lights, no intrusive thoughts clawing their way in. Just the warmth of his mouth and the way his hands, tentative at first, came to rest gently at your hips, grounding you in the moment.
He tasted like chocolate and something unmistakably him, and he kissed you back with such quiet intention, like he’d been waiting to do it all night but didn’t want to rush you.
It wasn’t hurried. It wasn’t the kind of kiss you gave when you didn’t know what it meant.
It was soft. Anchored. Real.
When you finally pulled away, it was only by an inch, your forehead lingering close enough to brush his.
Lando let out the smallest laugh under his breath, like he wasn’t entirely sure that just happened. His eyes flicked to your mouth and then back to your eyes, a flush rising in his cheeks.
“Wasn’t planning on kissing you, I’m sorry,” you admitted, voice soft, almost shy.
His eyes softened. He shook his head almost immediately, the corners of his lips tugging up, not in amusement, but in something gentler. Close to relief.
“Don’t be,” he murmured. “Honestly… I was.”
You blinked, caught off guard, and he gave you a sheepish little smile, his hands gently sliding from your hips to your waist, steadying you. Or maybe steadying himself.
“I was gonna wait, though,” he continued, gaze flickering between your eyes and your mouth. Again.
“Didn’t wanna be that guy, you know? Creeping in on your birthday like some cliché. Thought I’d at least get your number first and maybe go out on a date before I tried anything…”
You laughed again, brighter this time, the sound echoing off the quiet city around you. Something about the way he looked at you: like he was still amazed you were here, that this was happening, it made your heart skip and your skin warm, even in the cool night air.
And before you could say anything else, Lando’s hands found your face, cupping it so gently it made you forget how to breathe for a moment.
He kissed you again.
Not tentative this time. Not questioning or soft. This one was firmer, anchored in certainty, in heat, in the low burn of chemistry that had been slowly curling around you all night. It wasn’t rushed, it was intentional.
His thumbs brushed over your cheeks as his mouth met yours, and you didn’t hesitate. You leaned in, fingers curling into the fabric of his hoodie near his chest, needing something to hold on to because everything else suddenly felt weightless.
Your back pressed gently against the hood of the car as he stepped in closer, his body warm against yours, grounding you with every inch.
You could taste laughter still on his lips, feel the way his breathing shifted when you deepened the kiss just a little, how one of his hands slid from your cheek to the back of your neck, fingers threading into your hair with a quiet exhale that made your knees go soft.
“Lando…” you whispered against his mouth, the syllables shaky and too honest. “You said I deserved a good night.”
He pulled back just enough to see you, just enough to let his eyes search yours. His thumb brushed along your cheekbone.
“I did,”
“I want to have a good night,” you said, barely more than a breath.
His gaze flickered, the meaning not lost on him.
He knew what you were alluding. So he stilled for half a heartbeat, and you could see it: the way he recalibrated, checked himself. Lando might have looked relaxed, but you saw the exact moment he stepped into the moment fully, no longer dancing on the edge of it.
“Are you sure?” he asked, quiet and calm, though you heard the question buried beneath it. “It’s not what this is about…”
Your fingers tightened in his hoodie.
“I know, I know…”
And then everything changed, because you added: “ve never been more sure about anything.”
His hand slid into the back of your hair, warm and careful, as if he were trying not to jostle the moment too hard, like you were glass he wasn’t ready to shatter. But the kiss that followed, that wasn’t careful. That was full and greedy and slow in the way that meant he was trying to take his time, trying not to devour, even as his mouth tilted into yours with heat that didn’t lie.
He let his fingers skim down to your waist, both hands now cradling your hips, and as he stepped you gently backward, the curve of his lips ghosted over yours again.
Your back hit the car and you felt the way his palms splayed wide along the back of your naked and smooth thighs, guiding. His fingers hooked just enough under your knees to give the suggestion. You shifted, letting him lift you with a small grunt of effort onto the hood of his car, knees parting instinctively.
He stepped forward to stand between them with an ease that could have melt down any girl’s heart.
That angle changed everything.
Suddenly his chest was right there, level with yours, and his hands didn’t hesitate, finding your hips again, thumbs stroking along bare skin where your dress had ridden up.
You tilted your head, watching him as his eyes swept down your body slowly, deliberately, like he was giving himself permission to look.
“I want you to know… I didn’t bring you here with any intention.” His voice was rougher now, quieter.
You didn’t even blink.
Your hand slid up to cup the side of his jaw, thumb brushing just beneath his cheekbone, guiding his gaze back to yours so he could see the truth as clearly as you felt it.
“I know,” you whispered. “Lando. I kissed you first, remember?”
Some invisible wall cracked open and he stepped all the way through, no longer trying to calculate or control the moment.
It was different now.
There was no tension in his body, only heat and longing and a kind of sweetness that unspooled with every stroke of his tongue against yours, every soft inhale between kisses that sounded like he was trying to memorize how you tasted.
He pressed a kiss to the center of your neck, just beneath your ear, then again lower, and lower still, trailing a map on your skin as you tipped your head back to give him more room.
And oh, he groaned when you did. A sound of approval that buzzed against your skin as his tongue flicked out to taste the salt of you where your pulse fluttered hard.
His hands were moving too now.
But even then, even with his mouth on your neck and his hands beneath your dress, there was no rush in him. No crude hunger. Just a kind of aching patience, like he wanted everything but wanted to take his time earning it.
And god, he was so good at kissing. Not just skilled, but present with every press of his lips.
“I’d love to touch you,” he whispered, voice rough like gravel scraped thin with emotion. “I want to. So bad. But… I would be totally okay if you didn’t want this to happen here like… out in the open”
He trailed off, clearly giving you the out, even as his thumb brushed your lower lip but never pushing.
You laughed softly, breathless, a little dazed from his mouth, and kissed him again. Quick and teasing this time, pulling back before he could deepen it. “You’re sweet,” you murmured, voice low with heat, brushing your nose against his.
“There’s a whole car behind us, you know,” you whispered. “We don’t have to do this on the hood.”
For a second, Lando just looked at you, blinking once, then breaking into a grin so bright and filthy that it made your chest clench.
“Yeah, you’re right” he said, chuckling a little bit keeping his tone serious “But that still applies, y’know.”
You kissed him again, to reassure him and give him a fingere answer. And he seemed to get it immediately because one of his hands slipped around to the small of your back, the other trailed up, knuckles brushing the underside of your thigh where your dress had bunched.
He squeezed, pulling you flush against him on the hood, and your body responded automatically, grinding against the pressure of his hips with a soft, needy whimper in your throat.
“Back seat,?” he murmured against your skin.
You giggled, light and breathless, and slid your arms around his neck, letting him help you down. “Back seat.”
He caught you effortlessly, hands strong and sure under your thighs as he lowered you off the car hood, your bodies never quite separating. Even when your feet touched the ground, you were still in his arms, still held, his mouth dragging over your temple, your cheek, the corner of your jaw.
He laughed again and then slipped an arm around your waist, guiding you both to the rear door of the car. He opened it with one hand, never letting go of you with the other, and then gestured gallantly with a tilt of his head.
“After you,” he said, grinning.
He followed, door closing behind him with a soft thunk, and as soon as the latch caught, something between you changed again. He leaned in without a word, hand catching the back of your neck, pulling you to him.
The kiss this time was messier, hungrier, full of urgency he hadn’t let himself indulge on the hood. His hands found your waist, tugging you closer as he shifted in the narrow space, and your legs opened to make room, thighs parting around him.
You wanted all of him. Right here in the darkened space of the backseat, where the world narrowed down to breath and skin and that dizzying, perfect electricity that only existed between two people who knew this wasn’t just about sex.
For once.
You could feel him smiling when you arched into him, a cocky, breath-warmed curve of his lips against your cheek.
“God, you’re unreal,” Lando murmured, voice reverent, like the words had broken out before he could stop them.
And the way he said it, cool and teasing but laced with awe, like you were the sexiest thing he’d ever touched, it made your skin shiver.
His hands weren’t rushing, weren’t fumbling. They knew what they wanted. He pushed your dress higher, thumbs hooking the fabric and sliding it up your thighs until it bunched around your waist, then his palm found the curve between your legs.
A deep inhale. Then a low, smug exhale when he felt it.
“Shit,” he whispered, eyes flicking up to yours like he needed to see your face as he traced over the damp cotton of your panties. “Already this wet for me?” His fingers pressed gently, dragging slow lazy circles, his knuckles grazing the edge of the damp spot spreading wider with every pass. “Haven’t even touched you yet.”
The space was tight, his knees bumping between yours, your back shifting against the seat as he leaned in, crowding you completely.
And then, his fingers finally slipped past the waistband, sliding under, and your breath caught hard as he groaned again, deep and low, the sound like it had been torn from his chest.
His thumb pressed to your clit and stayed there, firm and steady, while two fingers slid through the slick heat of you slow and patient, like he wanted to feel every inch.
“Jesus, baby,” he said, “So fucking wet I’m sliding right in.” And he did, curling just enough to make your hips jolt.
His fingers sank deeper with that perfect curl and the gasp that left your mouth was broken, high and helpless, with your head falling back against the seat as your hips instinctively rocked into his hand. You didn’t even mean to do it. But your body just moved, greedy and aching, chasing every pulse of pressure his fingers gave you.
You were soaked all of a sudden. You could hear it every time his fingers pumped in, the slick wet sound filthy and perfect in the closed, humid air of the car. And Lando… he was eating it up, enjoying every second with eyes fixed on your face with the kind of focus that made your chest squeeze tight.
It was absurd. All of it.
Not even an hour ago, you’d been sitting in the corner of your own birthday party, surrounded by people who smiled too wide and asked all the wrong questions, feeling invisible at your own celebration.
And now?
Now your head was thrown back in the steamed-up cocoon of Lando’s car, your thighs spread wide around his narrow hips, your panties pulled to the side as his long, perfect fingers worked inside you like they’d been crafted by a god with nothing better to do than design the exact way you liked to be touched.
So now you were moaning, writhing, clenching around him every time he curled those fingers just right, while the goddamn remnants of the Tesco birthday cake were probably still stuck in your teeth.
And it felt like a dream. A delirious, aching, impossible dream.
A boy with cake crumbs on his shirt and the fastest hands in F1 was making you feel more chosen in fifteen minutes than most people had in years.
And then, it happened so fast. Or maybe not fast enough.
He shifted just slightly, adjusting the angle of his wrist with that effortless finesse, and suddenly his fingers slammed against something deep inside you that made you suddenly feel devastatingly good.
And the noise that tore from your throat wasn’t a moan. It was a sob, a broken, grateful cry that punched out of you like it had been waiting your whole life to escape. Your entire body jerked in response, thighs clamping around his hand even as your hips rolled down to meet the next thrust, desperate and uncontrollable.
“There,” Lando breathed, eyes wide and wild with something bordering awe. “Right there, huh?”
And then he kept going.
He didn’t stop. Didn’t slow. His fingers hit that same spot over and over, unrelenting, like he’d found the part of you that made you sing and had no intention of letting it go. The heel of his palm crushed against your clit with each motion, every thrust coiling tighter, higher, harder inside you until you were shaking, babbling nonsense against his jaw as he kissed you again.
You couldn't think. Couldn’t see.
“Fuck, Lando…”
The pressure detonated. You came around his fingers with a wet, clenching pulse that didn’t seem to end, your body bucking against him as his name tore out of your mouth in strangled, gasping whimpers.
And you should have been spent. Should’ve melted right there in the heat of it, let him cradle you until the buzz faded.
But you didn’t want to stop.
Your hands moved on instinct, fingers scrambling for his belt, tugging open the buckle with clumsy desperation. You pulled at his jeans, dragging the zipper down even as you crashed your mouth to his again, kissing him like you needed air from his lungs. Lando let out a breathless laugh and pulled back just enough to yank his hoodie over his head, tossing it behind him somewhere in the front seats.
“Hey—hey, wait,” he said, voice low but steady, one hand catching yours just as it slipped inside the waistband of his boxers. He held you there, not stopping you, but grounding you. His fingers were still sticky with your arousal, warm against your skin. “Are you sure?”
His eyes searched yours in the dim light, the sincerity in them so naked it made your throat tighten. “We don’t have to do this just ‘cause it’s been a shit birthday or… I don’t know.”
The question wasn’t just words. It was in his touch, in the way he held you like you were breakable, precious. And you’d never felt less fragile than you did in that moment.
You leaned in, your lips brushing his in a slow touch, so tender it made his breath hitch.
“I said I want this,” you whispered, “ And not because it’s my birthday. Or because I was sad and you bought me a cake.”
“I want this,” you repeated, punctuating each word with a kiss: cheek, jaw, the corner of his mouth. “I promise you.”
Then you pulled back just far enough to look at him. His cheeks were flushed, curls damp from the heat between you, his lips parted and kiss-swollen, and his cock straining against his boxers under your palm. But his eyes… his eyes were soft. Waiting. Giving you space.
A slow smile curved your lips as you leaned in and whispered, hot and sweet against his skin:
“Now shut up, and get a condom.”
Lando’s laugh was breathless, shaky, and so fucking turned on. “Yes, ma’am,”
He moved fast, fumbling with the glovebox with one hand while the other never left your body, fingers sliding along your thigh, tracing lazy shapes in your skin like he couldn’t not touch you. He found the little silver packet, tore it open with his teeth like he’d done it a hundred times before he rolled it down his length smoothly.
You couldn’t stop staring. He was flushed down to his chest, muscles shifting under that perfect, lean body as he settled back between your legs. His cock was already leaking before he even touched you, it stood proud and heavy in his hand, and the sight alone made your thighs fall open wider in welcome.
Before you could even catch your breath, his hands were suddenly on you: one strong arm sweeping under your thighs, the other gripping your waist, and with a breathless yelp you were lifted effortlessly off the seat. You squealed, half-laughing, half-shocked, hands scrambling f on his shoulders on instinct as he shifted you into his lap like it was nothing.
“Lando!” you gasped between laughs, still breathless from arousal and now from surprise, your thighs bracketing his hips.
He grinned up at you, that infuriatingly confident smile laced with just the right amount of sweetness, like he lived to make you laugh like that.
“C’mere” he murmured “If we’re really gonna do this, I want the birthday girl to fucking ride me in the backseat.”
He was watching you like he wanted to burn every second of this into memory. His hands slid down, slow and patient, fingers curling under the edges of your ruined panties, still damp and clinging to your thighs.
You lifted your hips and let him ease them down your legs, the fabric dragging sticky and slow over your slick skin. He let the panties fall to the floor, his eyes never leaving yours as he smoothed his hands up your thighs, pushing your dress higher, exposing you completely.
You felt open, bare, seen in a way that should’ve made you feel vulnerable, but it didn’t. Not this time. Not with him.
You could feel him there, hot and hard, pressed against the soaked heat of your cunt. It made your stomach flip, made your heart race, made you need him.
“Ready?” he murmured against your lips.
You nodded, barely able to breathe.
He gripped himself in one hand, the other steady on your hip, and guided you down slowly, the tip of his cock parting your folds with maddening, delicious pressure.
“Oh fuck,” you hissed, your hands flying to his shoulders for balance as you sank onto him, inch by inch.
It was a lot. He was thick, long, stretching you open in a way that made your thighs tremble instantly. You paused halfway down, your walls fluttering around him, trying to adjust, and he didn’t push. He held still, hands rubbing soothing circles into your hips while his lips started pressing tender kisses to your shoulder, your collarbone, your jaw.
“You’re doing so good, baby,” he whispered, that nickname giving you shivers “So fucking good. Take your time. You feel incredible.”
You whimpered, eyes shut, muscles tight with the effort of taking him. But slowly, breath by breath, you began to lower yourself again, feeling every thick, pulsing inch as he slid deeper inside.
“Jesus Christ,” he groaned. “You’re so tight. Can feel you squeezing me.”
You bottomed out with a gasp, your body fully seated in his lap, his cock buried deep inside you.
“Fuck,” you whispered, breath shuddering. “You’re… big.”
Lando’s laugh was low and wrecked “Yeah?” he said, hands smoothing up your sides, thumbs brushing just under your breasts.
You nodded, unable to form words.
“Take a second, then” he murmured, kissing your chest and trailing up to your shoulder again.
You did, staying still as your muscles slowly adjusted, the stretch turning from burn to pleasure. You could feel your heartbeat in your cunt, every throb dragging against the thick press of him inside you. And when you finally rocked your hip, just a little, you both groaned in unison.
His hands slid back to your waist, fingers splaying, guiding your movements as you began to ride him in slow, tentative rolls.
“That’s it,” he whispered. “Just like that, baby. You’re doing so fucking good”
The praise went straight to your core, as potent as the stretch of him inside you. You rocked against him again, a little harder this time, your thighs clenching around his waist. He moaned, his head dropping back for a second before snapping up again, eyes locked on the way you moved.
You needed more. More than slow and soft.
So you shifted your balance, planting your feet on either side of his hips and leaning back until your spine arched and your palms found leverage on his thighs.
And fuck, the new angle…
Your head fell back with a sharp moan, your hips beginning to move in deliberate, grinding circles now, your ass slapping softly against his thighs as you started to ride him with intent. Each thrust dragged him over that sweet, devastating spot inside you, and he felt it. How clenched and tight you were, how you were squeezing him.
“God, look at you…” he mumbled between his teeth “Riding me like it’s what you were made for.”
And then his hands were on your breasts.
He leaned forward, strong arms wrapping around your torso to pull you closer, mouth trailing hot, open kisses down your chest. His lips closed around one nipple, sucking gently before teasing it with his tongue, his hand kneading the other breast as if he couldn’t decide which one he loved more. The sensation made your hips stutter, made your breath break in your throat.
“Fuck, Lando—”
“Yeah” he growled. “Take what you need, baby.”
You reached up blindly, one hand bracing against the car’s ceiling to steady yourself, careful not to bump your head as your pace built.
But even with him inside you, even with his mouth on your breasts and his hands guiding your hips like they were the most sacred thing he’d ever touched, it wasn’t close enough. You needed more. Needed him. Surrounding you, holding you, breathing you in like you were the only air in the car.
So you shifted again, chest heaving as you leaned forward, arms wrapping around his neck, pulling him in until there was nothing between you but sweat-slick skin and the frantic rhythm of your bodies moving together. He went willingly, groaning into your mouth as your lips found his again. This time it was all tongue and teeth.
You moved like that: close, tight, grinding down onto him with deeper, rolling thrusts that had his head falling forward against your shoulder. Every sound you made now was right in his ear. You felt him shudder every time you gasped his name, felt the tremor that ran through his thighs when you moaned, “Lando, fuck… feels so good…” like it was the only truth left in the world.
And then his hand slid between your bodies again.
You felt it, slipping down your belly, finding that swollen bundle of nerves just where you needed it most. His thumb pressed in slow, steady circles against your clit, perfectly in sync with the rhythm of your hips, and your whole body jerked, a shudder ripping through you as your forehead dropped to the crook of his neck.
“Oh god” you whimpered, arms tightening around his shoulders and ails digging into his back. “Fuck, don’t stop—”
“Wasn’t planning to,” he groaned while his teeth were gently scraping along your jaw. “Gonna keep you right here, sweetheart, takin’ my cock so well.”
Every filthy word made your hips move even harder, your walls clench around him. He was everywhere: inside you, around you, with you. His voice in your ear, his hand on your clit, his cock filling you so deep it made your legs tremble.
“You close?” he was now kissing along your collarbone softly. “Can feel you fucking gripping me …”
You nodded, not even trying to hold your moans anymore.
“Good girl,” he breathed while his fingers were circling your clit even faster now. “That’s it, then. Come on, birthday girl. ”
Your orgasm tore through you like a wave breaking clean and wild against rock. Violent and consuming. You cried out arching your back and locking your arms tightly around his shoulders as your cunt clamped down on him with need.
Your hips didn’t stop tho, or maybe couldn’t stop.
You still moved.
Even as the waves of pleasure tore through you, your body kept rolling, grinding, giving, chasing every last bit of stimulation because you wanted him to feel it too. You wanted to pull him over the edge with you, keep him deep and tight and overwhelmed until he had no choice but to let go.
And he did.
“Shit,” Lando choked, his voice ragged and shaking as he bucked up into you one final time, deep and desperate, fingers digging into your hips like they were the only thing tethering him to reality. His whole body locked beneath you, breath punched out of his lungs as he came, hard, cock twitching inside you as he spilled into the condom with a groan that vibrated against your collarbone.
You clung to him, chest to chest, body slick and trembling and full, your cunt still fluttering in the aftershocks of your own climax, milking every pulse of his release. He moaned again, quieter this time, buried against your skin, the sound soft and wrecked, like he was being undone even as he started to come down.
This time, you didn’t move. Neither of you did. Your bodies were pressed together, molded in sweat-slick intimacy, your heart hammering against his as your fingers slid through the curls at the back of his neck.
It was a long moment before either of you could speak.
“Jesus Christ,” you whispered finally “That was…”
“Incredible,” he finished, pulling back just enough to look at you. His pupils were still blown wide, hair clinging to his damp forehead, lips swollen and kiss-bitten. “You’re incredible.”
You laughed softly, a helpless, breathless sound that shook through you. You blinked down at him, your legs still draped around his waist, your dress hiked up, your panties missing somewhere on the car floor.
“You’re still inside me,”
He smirked, cheeky even while panting, his hands smoothing up your back. “I know,” he said, voice warm “Don’t wanna move. And If you gave me like ten minutes, I’d go again.”
You burst into laughter, collapsing onto his chest, burying your face in his neck. “I don’t think I can.”
The haze softened into something golden, sweet. He held you close, one hand stroking slow circles on your bare thigh while the other stayed curled at your lower back, like he was afraid to let go. You nuzzled closer, kissed the skin just under his jaw, and let your eyes flutter shut for a second.
It was four in the morning.
You could see the faintest pale light beginning to spill over the horizon, brushing the fogged windows with a ghost of dawn. The air in the car had cooled just enough to make your skin goosebump where you weren’t pressed to him. And you were wrecked. Spent. Sticky and sore in all the best ways.
And still… you’d never felt more alive.
You hadn’t expected anything. Hadn’t wanted anything, not really. Not a surprise party let alone a hookup.
And yet, here you were: two orgasms deep, wrapped around Lando Norris in the backseat of his Lamborghini, your dress hiked to your hips, your panties forgotten, your legs sore from straddling him.
It was absurd.
And perfect.
Eventually, Lando sighed, tilting his head to kiss your temple as he gently shifted beneath you. The movement was slow, careful, and when he finally slipped out of you, the sensation made you shiver. He hissed under his breath, half-sensitive, and reached down to peel off the condom. He tied it off, searching the car blindly until he found one of his sweatshirts and used it to gently clean you up between your thighs. You winced as he wiped over your oversensitive cunt, but he was gentle, murmuring soft apologies as he worked.
“We made a fucking mess.”
You giggled, wriggling at the ticklish sensation, and he leaned in to kiss your cheek again.
“I’ll take you home, now” he said softly. “Make you some tea, yeah? Then maybe…” He ran a thumb down your spine, slow and suggestive. “If you're up for it, we see what round two looks like in an actual bed.”
I’VE MISSED YOU ━ L.N
in which you’re unable to stay away from lando like you’d intended after his win in monaco
warnings; unprotected sex, reader needs to stand up but whatever, public sex lowkey, oral m receiving, plenty of praise, degradation like once, hair pulling, choking, thigh riding, rough smut i guess i think that’s it ! lando could be toxic he could be genuine we don’t know ! unedited rn xox
you swore you’d stay away.
you were beyond settling, unable to pretend to be satisfied with what lando could offer these days.
it wasn’t your fault you weren’t good at keeping your word.
“where are you going?” lando’s voice chimed innocently from where he was sprawled on his bed, watching as you stumbled around the room.
the sheets draped over his lower half did little to offer modesty, tanned and toned abdomen on display decorated in red lines left by your nails only moments ago.
you ignored his words as you shrugged your underwear up your wobbly legs ━ eyes scanning the room in search of all your clothing, lando not having been precise in discarding them across the floor.
“we are well pass this,” the brit practically scoffed, jokingly speaking; not understanding why you’d been so quick to scurry off. soft touches and you cuddled up to his chest was what he was used too.
“this was a mistake.” you huffed, not offering him a glance. sounding annoyed, because you were. with yourself.
he’d laughed. laughed. you envied how unbothered he could be, rolling your eyes as you found your skirt, shimmying it up your legs as lando stood and tugged his boxers on.
“ouch,” he mused; hand resting over his heart as if your words had stung.
he didn’t believe them, so they wouldn’t effect him.
“i told you this isn’t happening again,” you offered an explanation, not that he asked for one; lips pursed and you could cringe at how unconvincing you sounded.
he assumed that had been a lie when you said that all those weeks ago. and then presumed he was correct considering you ended up back here in his sheets tonight.
“yet here you are,” lando chuckled; and your self annoyance was beginning to spread with his inability to realise you were trying to be serious.
“it’s not happening again.” you finally looked at him, and lando would be worried with how stern you looked if he actually believed you.
but he didn’t. maybe because you were the one who seeked him out tonight, or maybe because he didn’t want to believe you. regardless; such conversation was one he’d like to avoid.
you huffed when you couldn’t find your shirt, lando watching in slight amusement ━ not complaining of the sight, red and purple marks scattering your skin thanks to himself.
“have i lost my touch?” lando joked; well aware that wasn’t the case. not when you’d just cum around his fingers and cock three times.
you took a short breath, standing straight and stopping in your movements to face him.
“i’m no longer fine with just being a fuck of convenience,” you told him honestly, shoulders shrugging and only then did you capture his face falter momentarily.
eyebrows pinching together, lips tugging into a small frown which left as quick as it came.
“that’s what you think this is?” his question was somewhat accusing, but he sounded so laid back it wouldn’t make sense for it to be as such.
he ducked down and swiped your shirt off the floor; but he refrained from offering it to you.
you didn’t want to answer his question, despite it being an obvious answer. not needing it rubbed in that your wants didn’t align. but when you went to grab the material from his hand, he was quick to draw it back; eyebrows raising in question. silently telling you to answer him.
“how else would you describe it?” you challenged; head tilting aside as you refrained from rolling your eyes.
he faltered once more; this wasn’t what he signed up for. he avoided this last time, when you had ‘ended’ this arrangement that had been ongoing for months now.
“fun.” lando shrugged, and when you let out a dry laugh he wanted to wince, groaning as he shook his head. “you know what i mean,” he attempted to follow up.
he didn’t know what to call it, but he knew convenience wasn’t the right word. you were much more than just convenient.
“i know what to expect from you lando,” you hummed; successful in grabbing your shirt from his hand this time; pulling it over your head. “i’m not gonna ask for more. but this isn’t enough for me anymore,” you shrugged.
your explanation was fair, he couldn’t complain. couldn’t throw it back in your face, tell you he already warned you he didn’t want anything serious. make it your problem. or tell you that you were wrong, your expectations were wrong.
because they weren’t wrong.
this was his problem, because you made sense. you were doing what was right by you. so why did it make him feel like shit? he should be grateful you weren’t putting him in an awkward spot he’d been in too many times, forced to let others down.
“thanks for the fun night,” you’d smiled; and he had to refrain from scoffing in disbelief. it being his turn to struggle in mustering a smile.
you knew that wouldn’t be the last time you saw him, but you had hoped it’d be the last time you were so close to the driver. the last time you melted in his touch and came undone from a mere few whispers and lingering touches.
you’d hoped that’d be the case, and it seemed more and more likely as the months went past.
he knew you were in monaco, he always knew which races you were attending; despite you never telling him. it was almost a game, how you would somehow end up at his hotel or bed room despite no plans to do so.
he’d barely crossed your mind, it wasn’t like it was hard to avoid a driver. hot property, even more so here in monaco. there were stars and chaos every where you turned in the paddock, security crowded around anyone with some sort of status; it was impossible to stumble across the mclaren driver.
ignoring his presence was a lot harder however when he was stood on the top step of the podium, as if the posters of his face and name everywhere wasn’t enough.
suddenly his face was plastered everywhere at once, and only his. name dropping from everyone’s lips.
you’d like to think there was no bad blood; but he was hard to resist and you almost hated him for it. suddenly he was everywhere ━ yet not in reach.
a good thing.
so, you were optimistic. if getting near him was hard before, it’d be ten times harder now. man of the moment; you felt as if you would be in the clear.
so how the fuck did you manage to be only five people back in the line for the exclusive monaco club, VIP passes still hung around your necks, when lando arrived.
ushered through the front doors, no need to pay or wait like every other eager party go hoping their name had made it to the list, cash at the ready to pay their way in.
he shouldn’t have spotted you, not with the hectic lights and people cheering him on and attempting to grab his attention.
but he did, of course he did.
“hey, hey. they’re with me,” lando stopped in his tracks; ushering you and your friend out of line towards him ━ your face hardening as he smirked cockily towards you.
you wanted to stay where you were. tell him you would wait and get in yourself. pride too strong to spare yourself 10 minutes and a couple hundred dollars.
your best friend however was not passing up an opportunity to get in for free, nor cause a scene as people quickly made way for you. so you couldn’t put up much of a fight as you stepped out of line and followed the driver and a few others inside.
it almost felt shameful, as if you were just some pretty girl he’d picked out to entertain himself with. but you only viewed it that way because you feared that had been true in the past.
“would you believe me if i said this is almost the highlight of the day?” lando spoke to you with a wide grin, head ducked down towards you to ensure you heard him over the music growing in volume as you entered the venue.
you’d scoffed, rolled your eyes even; it appeared opting to be cold was the easiest option. friendliness never lasted with you two; being friendly became flirty. flirting lead to touching and suddenly you’d be trapped beneath the nearest surface and his hot body.
“no.” your answer was short, ‘forgetting’ to mumble the obvious, a congratulations. you’d feel bad if he wasn’t getting it from every angle however.
his grin only widened however, bemused at your words. you weren’t surprised, you doubted anything would wipe the smile of his face right now.
a breath of relief escaped you when someone grabbed at his arm and tugged him along, turning his attention elsewhere as you turned to your friend.
drinks were a need.
in hindsight opting to stay in the secluded area provided for the mclaren driver was probably a bad idea; but it was so crowded you stood by your earlier thoughts.
he’d be out of reach. everyone in here was striving for his attention, it wouldn’t be hard to avoid it.
the free drinks and friendly faces proved as enough of a distraction; music and alcohol flowing through your veins, so much so you’d join in on the cheers every-time someone toasted to the driver, or his name popped up on a board with bottles of champagne arriving.
an arm wrapping around your waist should’ve been alarming, but shamefully you recognised the bracelets and touch immediately; body naturally welcoming such action instead of pulling away.
“you haven’t congratulated me.” his voice was low and in your ear, accent thick and you had to take a sharp breath. it was stupid, ridiculous the way such an action could have your mind growing hazy.
“haven’t i?” you posed the question innocently, bringing your drink to your lips as if it would offer you refuge from the temptation behind you.
you’d lost your friend ages ago, and suddenly you couldn’t recognise many people around you. or maybe you didn’t make an effort to, because the company you quietly craved was the man behind you.
“nope,” he popped the ‘p,’ lips lingering next to your ear momentarily before he pulled away to also bring his drink to his lips, you taking the moment to turn around and face him. “not very nice you know?”
you’d rolled your eyes again, a small laugh escaping you. wanting to point out the fact that everyone was dropping to their knees to ring his praise. he didn’t need it from you.
did it make your heart skip a beat that he wanted it though? of course it did, despite your brain screaming that it shouldn’t. it was too easy to cling onto anything this man did.
“well done,” you spoke, voice laced with sarcasm despite their being truth to your words. “i’m so, so, so proud of you.”
he’d chuckled, face lighting up in amusement once more; a vast contrast to every other conversation he’d had tonight. the very reason he’d sought you out.
he thought it spoke for something, the fact his mind had been consumed with so many thoughts of you despite the win he’d just accomplished.
“thank you.” he grinned, and it was as if on queue he was being tugged away once more; and suddenly, you could breath again.
you took the time to grab some much needed air, a balcony not too far. it was a bit of a blur, the next hour or so.
ending up back on the dance floor, familiar faces all around, drinks continuously flowing ━ reuniting with your friend who’s lipstick was now smudged and hair slightly tangled, your hands quick to fix it up with small giggles.
you were loosening up, so much so when lando next appeared with two drinks in hand and daring eyes you couldn’t help but accept.
you were dying by your own hand, you should politely decline and slip back into the crowd. but he was always so hard to ignore, especially in a black button up and messy curls.
you’d cheers, both raising your glasses to your lips; somehow both still relatively sober in comparison to those around you.
lando had been doing too much talking to get much alcohol in him, also pacing himself ━ in no way would he be crashing out early.
you knew your limits, you too didn’t want the night to end prematurely.
“you’re not mad at me are you?” lando’s question had to be shouted for you to hear, your eyes narrowing at such as you shook your head.
you were somewhat surprised at his efforts, his ability to seek you out in the crowd that was here for him. all for what? to ask you that question?
“why would i be mad at you?” you deflected. because you knew he had a point.
you weren’t mad at him, obviously. he hadn’t done anything; you’d been the one to… get attached. but you were quite clearly being distant and cold; and you didn’t feel like explaining why.
he shrugged his shoulders, face scrunching up as if he was thinking momentarily, giving you time to admire how pretty he looked. how his large hand wrapped around the glass, the way his arms looked with his sleeves rolled up.
“you’re avoiding me.” he quirked a brow, and you were rolling your eyes once more, like a broken record. the grin on his face showed he didn’t care to sound desperate; that he was well aware why you were acting in such way.
he remembered the last conversation between the pair of you. how you swore off the two of you. much to his dismay.
“i’m not,” you huffed. “i’m keeping friendly distance,” you corrected playfully, eyebrows raising as he nodded unconvincingly ━ lips parting in fake shock.
it was pathetic, you already could feel it. your self restraint slipping away. suddenly posing yourself the question, would it be that bad if you entertained yourself with the idea of him just one more time?
“right,” lando practically sung, a laugh following suit as he downed the rest of his drink. “there’s no fun in that.”
you’d just shrugged at his words, no answer for him because you agreed. this wasn’t fun, it was hard. it would be so much easier to let yourself take the usual reckless route.
so you chose easy, and when someone appeared to place a drink in lando’s hand and capture a few minutes of his attention, you allowed the driver to throw his arm over your shoulders; tugging you closer to his side. he didn’t want you slipping away into the crowd again.
you let yourself stay in his grasp, mindlessly swaying to the music and awaiting for him to finish talking.
you should’ve taken that time to realise this was what you were meant to avoid, to duck out from his hold and busy yourself once more.
but instead you found yourself leaning into his side; admiring the way his fingertips danced on your collarbone ━ oblivious to prying eyes and jealous gazes from those who were hoping to be in your place.
his cologne was intoxicating, his touch was familiar and inviting; and the way he was keeping you close and still paying you attention while everyone tried to get their two cents in with the driver had your stomach flipping.
you hadn’t realised their was a gap in the constant conversation and on flow of people, not till lando’s lips were back next to your ear, a delicate kiss being placed to your neck.
“i’ve missed you,” he’d whispered; your head tilting aside invitingly ━ such contrast to your initial and intended behaviour. but the moment his lips met your skin, all rational plans were out the door.
“good.” you replied, knowing to not grow excited by such confession. not needing to say the words back because he already knew you missed him. you were always missing him.
another kiss was pressed to your skin, and another.
“i mean it.” lando mumbled; your eyes fluttering shut briefly at the feeling of his lips still peppering your skin, the heat spreading to your face.
you were glad you’d made your mind up, having come to the conclusion that one more night with him couldn’t be that bad. thought process definitely influenced by your sexual desires rather than rationality. but it meant you weren’t dwelling on his words and picking them apart, instead focused of the way his hand was now resting on the side of your leg.
“is there a bathroom near?” your question was all lando needed to hear, the pair of you not so subtle as you weaved through the crowd.
his lips were on yours the moment you were in the bathroom, your back being pushed against the door to shut it ━ his fingers finding the lock and the moment he heard it click his hands were on you.
it was messy, and rushed; adrenaline pumping between the pair of you much like the muffled music seeping through the door.
your hands were pawing at each other, his at your waist, then your hips, then your legs; touching what he could of you over the silk dress,
your hands were in his hair, then running down his chest; attempting to pull him closer despite his body pressed against yours.
his hands moved to grab yours, before lifting them up and over your head; pinning them to the door as his lips moved to your jaw, then to your neck.
“lando,” you breathed in need; eyes shutting as you attempted to push forward off the door, wanting to touch him in anyway. you were no match for his strength however.
he tsked quietly, kissing at your skin with such intent it had you whimpering.
“what do you want?” his question was almost a taunt, knee pushing between your thighs because he knew exactly what to do to have you squirming.
you felt helpless, needy and desperate. but not one bit regretful or ashamed you found yourself here again.
“you, anything,” you breathed; hips rutting against his leg slightly; the action not unnoticed as a cocky smirk grew on his lips.
your eyes poured into his, watching as he bathed the sight of you in ━ flustered and worked up already.
“yeah?” he hummed, releasing your hands now so he could cup your cheek; making it hard for you to nod but you attempted to regardless.
“want you to fuck me,” you elaborated; taking the chance to touch him, hand going straight to the buldge in his jeans which had him hissing.
you two would often take your time. lando liked to have you spread open for him, a few orgasms deep thanks to his fingers or tongue first before fucking you. take his time in kissing every inch of your body, exploring your mouth; kissing you and touching you all he could.
but both of you had a sense of urgency tonight. keen to feel him inside you, aware their was plenty of people awaiting the driver; that the night had barely begun in the grand scheme of things.
the fact you’d avoided him for so long, like promised but god it’d been too long. he would struggle to draw this out the way he wanted to.
“barely touched you baby,” he pointed out with a smirk; as if he was not feeling the same need you were.
you would’ve paid more attention to the way your stomach flipped at the casual drop of the nickname, but his actions captured your attention before you could dwell.
it was a relief as he moved you to the sink counter, pressing on your back to bend you over the surface; your hands finding a grip on the counter as your eyes settled on him in the mirror. a position you’d only be in for him.
spreading your legs was easy as you watched him, flipping the skirt of your dress up and merely pushing your panties aside; fingers swiping through your wetness, entering you once then twice.
“gotta make sure this isn’t a mistake hm?” lando’s question was a taunt, quoting you, hands leaving your figure as he unzipped his pants and freed his cock, leaving you to whimper and watch in the mirror.
he didn’t make the move to touch you, prolonging your torture; hips swaying slightly as you dwelled on his words.
his eyes were pouring into yours through the mirror, your cheeks heated. his reminder that you had once claimed you didn’t want this anymore had you speechless, not suddenly rational.
“what changed your mind?” his hands moved to squeeze your ass, cock pressing against your entrance; leaving you with nothing but anticipation and emptiness. “cause i won? good enough for you now?”
you would’ve rolled your eyes if you weren’t in such a compromising position, his wicked grin enough to show his words were simply throw away comments, not an insight into his actual assumptions.
“lando please,” you whined; hips attempting to push back onto him but his hands on your ass held you in place; chest rising at the sight of you so needy for him. a sight he’d never get sick of.
“your words not mine baby,” he reminded you; tongue flicking over his bottom lip as he took in the sight of you momentarily, your pants and inability to keep still due to your need for him always something he loved to be witness too.
he was usually gentle with you at first, would warm you up; start off slow and build up to the pace that would have tears streaming down your pretty face. but he was eager tonight, adrenaline still pumping through his veins, and by the way you were looking at him in the mirror told him you felt the same.
“gotta fuck some sense into you yeah?” his question was matched with his hand tangling in your hair, grasping a few strands before tugging you up harshly; your back meeting his chest and a gasp escaping you, a whimper following. “yeah?” he repeated when you failed to answer.
you tried to nod quickly, hips pushing back once more to little success with the position he had you in.
his lips were next to your ear now, and the chuckle he let out had your thighs attempting to squeeze together.
“please,” you whimpered; desperation growing pathetically quickly. it was almost pathetic, how he could shorten your vocabulary to pleas and curses in such little time.
lando would like to say he could do this all night, but that would be a lie. he groaned audibly at your whimper; chest now pushed forward towards the mirror beautifully, still with a perfect view of your face as well.
he gave you no warning as he slid inside of you, your jaw going slack as he bottomed out; letting go of your hair and pushing your back down once more.
your hands flied to the counter again, moaning at the stretch as he groaned at the way your walls hugged him tightly.
he didn’t give you the usual time to adjust, moving immediately and thrusting deeply inside of you, hands using your hips to meet his movements.
“swear you’re fucking made for me,” lando groaned as his head fell back, pounding into your tight cunt repetitively, your moans escaping each time as your face contorted in pleasure.
it was too good, you weren’t sure how you could ever actually give this up.
you attempted to keep your moans hushed, although with the volume of the music you weren’t at much risk of being heard; which was lucky. because you were struggling to keep quiet; failing actually.
your eyes rolled back when lando didn’t fail to hit that spot inside of you repetitively, hands still gripping your hips tightly.
his grunts and groans were addictive, so much so you wanted to open your eyes and bask in the sight of him; but the pleasure was too much to do so.
lando however wouldn’t settle for such, hand tangling in your hair once more, tugging once and pulling your head up slightly; clear intentions to his actions.
“eyes on me pretty girl,” he breathed regardless, and you did as he said; being met with his ones through the mirror; lazy smile gracing his features as you whimpered and gripped the counter tightly.
you’d never expect to get off so quickly from pure penetration, but you were. suppose it was made easier with the sight of him and his hands gracing your skin; plus his filthy mouth.
“so good,” you whined out; not that you needed to vocalise such thing, it was already clear; but he loved your praise as much as you loved his.
he’d hummed in agreement, squeezing your ass in appreciation as his groans began to grow in frequency.
he was close, but in no way would he ever cum before you. his hand sneaking around your waist and dipping in between your thighs, finding your clit with ease.
suddenly you were seeing stars as his fingers circled your clit expertly, like he knew you like the back of his hand.
“cum for me baby, go on,” his words of encouragement were all you needed to hear as he continued to thrust in and out of you; releasing on his cock practically immediately at his demand.
your walls squeezed him perfectly, his name so pretty coming from your lips ━ his own high hitting him as he came inside of you with a groan.
it was oddly satisfying, a quick release; a new experience for the pair of you; both panting and coming down as he slid out of you.
he was gentle, a contrast to before, as he turned you round and sat you on the counter.
your breaths were heavy as you watched him, his hands reaching up your thighs and tugging your underwear down your legs before shoving them in his pocket, only then pulling your dress down for you.
“pervert,” you mocked with a teasing smile, his own one growing as he rolled his eyes ━ hands moving to rest on your thighs.
“collecting trophies today,” he shrugged; a laugh escaping you as your face screwed up ━ his humour never lost on you as you pushed against his chest.
“i should slap you for that,” you taunted, failing to pretend to be disgusted as you grinned at him ━ cheeks still flushed and chest still rising and falling as you caught your breath, a small chuckle escaping him.
there was a few moments of silence as lando adjusted himself, zipping his jeans back up and straightening out his shirt; your own hands moving to flatten your own hair.
“you gonna stick around?” lando’s question fell upon you with his intent gaze, eyes showing genuine interest.
your own eyebrows quirked in interest, unexpectedly. you’d assumed this was it for the night. he got his fix.
“maybe,” you shrugged; not in a teasing way, but genuine. you weren’t going to overstay your welcome. you were sure the casual party goers would be falling off the next couple hours, the ones who just wanted to get a glimpse of the driver.
you were assuming you fell into that category, not his inner circle.
“you should,” he hummed; and you couldn’t help the scoff that escaped you and the driver almost frowned.
“you need to celebrate,” you hummed; patting his chest lightly with a small laugh.
his eye roll was one of sass, like you should’ve expected. what you didn’t expect was for him to insist on you keeping him company.
“yeah, i plan on.” he spoke like it was obvious, thumb rubbing your inner thigh mindlessly.
you didn’t respond, looking over your shoulder into the mirror; wiping the slight smudges of your mascara, which thankfully didn’t cause any issues.
next was the corner of your lips, ensuring no lip gloss was where it shouldn’t be; lando watching you as you did so.
“didn’t you tell me when i next win a race i could do whatever i want with you?” lando was gaining your attention again, finger under your chin and directing your gaze back to him by turning your head; still stood between your legs.
you giggled, eyebrows raising; not needing much reminder of the words you definitely muttered. or maybe messaged; maybe both.
“that was because i wasn’t in miami,” you hummed, head tilting aside. “you don’t invite me to races, remember?” you sassed.
you watched as his face faltered, before his eyes narrowed into a playful glare; one you returned with a teasing smile; as if to say you weren’t being serious.
you two moved pass your comment, you made sure of it; although it would linger on lando’s mind.
“come on, you have people waiting i’m sure,” you hummed; patting his chest and ushering him back so you could hop off the counter, onto wobbly legs.
you rejoined the crowd as discreetly as possible, despite your lack of underwear and sticky thighs; however you were in no way to be ashamed, not with some of the activities going on around you.
people cheered when lando came into view, the man enveloped immediately.
“don’t you dare go anywhere!” lando managed to yell out to you before he was dragged off again; leaving you to laugh and only hum.
it was only your friend who met you with suspicious eyes, you found it comical she was the first person you came across; sheepishly smiling.
“oh you’re so full of shit!” your friend yelled, your cheeks heating as you shook your head; even pouting as you realised you had no defence.
or shame or regret. yet, at least.
“stop,” you whined as you hit her lightly, huffing as you grabbed her drink off her ━ downing it quickly as she laughed.
“no judgement; i knew you wouldn’t stay away,” she mused ━ and your eyes were rolling once more that night, shaking your head as if you had no idea what she was talking about. as if you too shared the same thought process, as much as you’d deny it.
you moved the focus of the pair of you on quickly, returning to dancing and socialising ━ people coming and going as the hours ticked by into the early morning, crowd thinning but not by much.
lando’s words were ringing in your head; don’t go anywhere. but when it was almost four you were thinking of leaving, doubting lando would be making your company once more this night.
why you wanted to keep him company? you wish you knew. if you could figure out why you were unable to avoid the man your life would be a lot easier. but maybe tonight was different, maybe it was a comfort.
a comfort to know he would spend a memorable night of his life, with you. a night he’d never forget; you’d be right there. it would be nice to know you weren’t the only one clinging onto the idea of the pair of you; that he too would reminisce and think what it.
your doubt continued to grow though, alongside the temptation of your comfortable bed.
you were stupid to doubt him however.
you spotted him easily, considering the crowd that seemed to follow him everywhere tonight.
you watched as his eyes darted around the room, almost urgently, searching out something or someone.
searching out you.
when his eyes met yours you watched as he grinned widely, shoulders relaxing as he suddenly moved with intent; weaving past the people surrounding him towards you.
you watched in amusement, almost shock; surprised he’d meant it. confused if you thought too hard.
“you’re still here,” he was still grinning ear to ear, hand finding your waist almost immediately when he was in reach.
you mumbled something playfully about how it wasn’t by choice, earning a laugh.
“we’re moving up to a booth,” his statement was an invitation; and suddenly plans of going back home were long forgotten.
all it took was a nod before his hand took yours, fingers intertwined and he was leading the way to a booth, that was decorated in more bottles of champagne and a ‘congrats lando’ sign; lucky party goers and friends filling the seats, you shuffling in next to the driver.
lando’s hand didn’t leave you. whether it was on your thigh, your hand, your waist; your shoulder; he was always touching you as the conversations flowed.
you failed to notice the way he tugged you closer to his side when you laughed a little too hard for his liking at one of his friends jokes. or the way his eyes were lingering on you every moment he had a break in conversation.
you knew what it looked like however, the pair of you. you knew your friend would laugh at the sight, ask you what the fuck you were doing. but as the crowd continued to fall off and disperse, and you gained more of lando’s attentions; you had little room to care.
the booth had emptied out, for how long who knows; you hadn’t caught on to the way lando had not so subtly hinted to the last couple of guys lingering to leave.
“have i told you how good you look tonight?” lando’s question was accompanied by his hand returning to your thigh, resting higher than it had earlier on ━ head tilting towards you.
you’d giggled, leaning back into your seat and shifting to face him, side pressed against the back of the booth as opposed to your back now.
“no,” you told him; eyes flickering over his face, the moles you’d counted too many times whenever you woke up first after a night together; his features always so much harder to ignore up close.
“look beautiful,” he hummed, and though he sounded incredibly sincere you couldn’t help but laugh.
“what? you do, you are,” lando huffed; not amused with your laughter ━ although the sound of your laugh had his lips naturally curving upwards despite his dismay, hand squeezing your thigh gently.
your cheeks heated despite you shaking your head, hands moving up in innocence.
“i didn’t say anything,” you defended; not elaborating on what appeared to be doubt. not at your own expense. more so just his intentions.
you didn’t want to hear his compliments that had your heart fluttering. or notice they way he was looking at you which such admiration.
you couldn’t afford to let your mind pick at and analyse every word and action with a hope that maybe he too felt the same as you.
lando hummed aimlessly at your defence, hand dangerously high now on your thigh ━ but it felt right, like it belonged there. regardless, the feeling of it creeping upwards had your sense suddenly on high alert.
“i’ve missed you,” lando’s words left his lips before he could stop them, but he didn’t show any regret or panic ━ eyes pouring into yours.
it’s the second time he’d said such thing tonight, and you still didn’t want to hear it. even in your tipsy state, it sent alarm through your nerves. don’t believe him, don’t get your hopes up.
your eyes were quick to leave his, hand reaching for your champagne glass in front of you; humming to try dismiss his words, missing the way his eyes squinted as he watched on.
“you don’t believe me,” he chuckled lowly as you sipped your drink, frame tensing as you prolonged shifting towards him again.
you weren’t given much choice though, his hand ━ the one not planted on your thigh, grasping your chin between his thumb and finger, bringing your attention back to him as you placed your drink back down.
his eyebrows raised expectantly, silently telling you to speak. to confirm his suspicions. his thumb absentmindedly wiping a drop of champagne from the corner of your mouth as he waited.
“you don’t know what you’re saying.” you spoke softly, masking the weight of your words with a soft smile; watching as his face flickered in thought.
“you don’t know that.” he was quick, unlike you, tone one of certainty you almost envied; his grasp still set on your chin as if he was scared you’d try escape his gaze once more. a reasonable fear.
“yeah okay.” you admitted defeat, in no way wanting to discuss this right now. not while you were so close to him, so keen to get under him once more. you couldn’t think straight about him when he was invading your senses.
he didn’t believe you suddenly believed him, but he wouldn’t push further; not when you were still in grasp and glowing in amusement.
the driver went to speak again; but for once you got on the front foot. there wasn’t much distance between the pair of you, so kissing him before he could get any words out was easy.
and maybe lando should’ve held his ground, stayed true on his intentions to reassure you. but naturally he found himself kissing back.
the light grasp on your chin turned to a firm hold of the side of your head, beckoning you closer as your hand planted on his chest.
you pulled away momentarily, barely; just so your lips left his; feeling his breath fan your face. you felt as if you’d overstepped, knowing he had reservations about pda in public. people spoke, and you weren’t his.
his fingers ran through your hair delicately, as if he knew what thoughts were going through your head; and he didn’t hesitate to guide you back towards him; lips meeting once more.
it was more heated this time; nowhere near as messy as the one in the bathroom though.
he needed you closer, shifting his grip to your hips to pivot you up and onto his lap, your body sliding perfectly between his and the table behind you, straddling his lap with no complaints.
it was out of character, knowing someone could walk up into the secluded section and see the pair of you, but if he didn’t care, neither did you.
your dress rode up your legs from your new position, not enough to expose you thankfully; but considering your underwear still sat in the drivers pocket, the rough fabric of his pants against your clit had you whimpering against his lips.
the sound went straight to his cock, which was already straining against his pants; he’d been fighting a semi since you slipped into the booth next to him. but the way you were slowly and not so subtlety grinding your hips against him made it a lot harder to ignore.
it also had an idea forming in the wicked mind of his.
you were left to catch your breath as he pulled away this time, hands lifting you momentarily and easily handling you to straddle just one of his thighs now, your cheeks heating as you immediately caught on. it wasn’t the first time you’d been in this position with him. except last time it was in the privacy of his apartment while he was on a work call.
“anything i want right?” he breathed out, intense was his stare as his hands spread across your sides, smoothing your dress down despite wanting to rip it off of you.
it was like a trance when he got like this, eyes darker ━ the way his jaw was clenched, his gaze alone having you feel the need to squirm and stutter.
your head looked over your shoulder, just once, needing the confirmation you were as alone as you could be; music still pumping, voices still heard from the dance floor down below. but you were alone up here.
that’s all you needed to know.
“yeah,” you confirmed, hands grasping at his shirt where they were previously planted on his chest ━ left to watch as his lips curved upwards into that damn smirk.
“go on then,” he hummed, adjusting slightly in his seat, getting comfortable as his head tilted back ever so slightly. “use me to get off.” he sounded so casual, your cheeks heating up as you suddenly wished you’d accepted that last round of shots half an hour ago.
but you didn’t need any more motivation when his hands tightened on your waist and dragged your hips for you ━ your jaw going slack from the sudden pressure.
his lips twitched upwards cockily once more, watching as it sprung you into action; your hips following his movements and rutting against his thigh, chasing the feeling you knew only he could give you.
the drivers hands folded behind his head now, watching intently as your bottom lip ran between your teeth, eyes flickering up and down your frame.
“atta girl,” he praised through a soft hum, and you had to bite down harshly on the inside of your cheek to refrain from moaning.
he looked fucking incredible; and you were missing the feeling of his hands on you, hips working faster as if it’d motivate him to touch you again.
he had you read, he always did. he knew what you wanted; could tell by the way your eyes were pleading with his. how you were fighting back a pout and whine. your grip on his shirt had tightened, practically tugging at the material.
lando could be cruel, but he was in no mood to deny himself tonight - he’d give you something; hand moving to cup your jaw, thumb pressing against your soft lips.
you didn’t miss a beat, allowing the digit to enter your mouth without any hesitation; lando watching the way your eyes almost glistened in submission as he pressed down on your tongue.
you didn’t miss the way his breath hitched, grunting slightly at the mere sight of you ━ your hips still grinding against him desperately as you treated his thumb as if it was his cock.
he was almost in disbelief, how he had you like this for him, where really anyone could see if they were to walk up the stairs. it was ridiculous actually, and stupid; both of you being incredibly idiotic, but too lust driven to care.
he wasn’t oblivious to the fact you made him think irrationally.
“fucking look at you,” he muttered under his breath, head tilting in slight awe; but there was a teasing tone underneath. “so pretty like this, so needy hm?” he was speaking so sweet it was sickening considering he was looking at you with a taunting grin.
you whined, unable to shut yourself up this time, surprised you’d kept quiet so long. your thighs twitched a few times, still desperately chasing your high like he’d told you too.
it was building, your stomach was tightening and you could feel the way your hips were beginning to move erratically. as could he.
“come on baby,” he encouraged ━ sliding his thumb out of your mouth, selfishly wanting to hear you despite your best efforts to stay quiet. “cum for me yeah, all for me,” lando edged you on; strategic as he tensed his leg and jolted it upwards once then twice.
it was all you needed, your second orgasm of the night hitting you as you shook in his lap.
“oh fuck,” you moaned through gritted teeth, loud enough for him to hear but quiet enough for the music to drown you out; your body folding over to hide your head in his neck, muffling any other sounds to escape you.
“there you go,” he soothed, hand sliding down your back delicately, his other brushing the hair off your face as he pressed a kiss to your shoulder. “good girl, so fucking good,”
even if your slightly dazed state the affection had your chest tightening, still not used to the soft moments he always found time for between orgasms.
you took a few moments to compose yourself, lifting your head sheepishly as your eyes met his once more.
“your pants are gonna be ruined,” you mumbled, pouting up at him in slight embarrassment ━ watching as he chuckled and rolled his eyes.
“last thing i care about right now,” the driver smirked, adjusting the strap of your dress that had fallen down your arm ━ eyes lingering on your chest for a brief moment as he did so.
“should i call the car?” he asked you, lips pressing a kiss to your neck now, delicate this time, purely because he knew if he got too handsy now he’d not be able to stop himself.
you nodded, no need to think about the prospect of going home with him ━ you shouldn’t be surprised at this point, you couldn’t resist him. it was a fact.
the pair of you got outside relatively smoothly, in better shape than most of the crowd who were still here. you let him drag you to the exit as he simply waved and dismissed anyone who tried to speak to him, large hand enveloping yours.
the car was waiting, a bouncer opening the door for the pair of you as you slid into the backseat, not phased by the fact the sun was now rising.
the privacy shield separating the backseat from the front was all lando needed to see before he was on you again.
rushed and messy once more, you hadn’t even got your seatbelt on ━ hands cupping his cheeks as he leaned over you, closeness a need as your lips moved against his perfectly.
your chest was practically pressed to his, but still his hand found your back, attempting to pull you closer, earning a muffled giggle as you threw one of your legs over his.
“need you so bad,” lando grumbled against your skin as his lips shifted to your jaw, then down your neck, your head falling back invitingly as you grinned.
his lips moved to your cleavage now, kissing at the skin of your breasts ━ and he was about to tug your dress down until you sat up straight and pushed him back towards his seat.
your hands found the zipper of his pants before he could get a word out, the brit relaxing into his seat, in no way going to protest.
lando watched through hooded eyes as you made quick work of freeing his cock, which was painfully hard at this point.
he hissed as your hand wrapped around him, jacking him off once, twice, three times ━ smearing the precum across his tip and down his length.
his head threw back from the initial relief, and he couldn’t stop the moan that escaped him when he felt your soft lips wrap around him.
he glanced down at you quickly, watching as you leant over into his lap, head bobbing up and down now as he gathered your hair into his hand and out of your way.
“fuck, just like that baby,” lando grunted as his hips bucked upwards, hitting the back of your throat momentarily, which made you gag but you didn’t miss a beat in your movements.
your hand gripped his thigh for stability, tongue swirling around him expertly, keen to get him off as his eyes rolled back from a feeling he could only describe as ecstasy.
he could’ve cum there and then, no shame either; but monaco was a small place and the car came to a halt much sooner than he’d liked.
you reluctantly slid off him, wiping your mouth oh so innocently as you did so ━ cheeks flushed and eyes watery, lando fiddling with his pants to try get his hard on back in his boxers.
you giggled slightly, climbing out the car ━ him not too far behind.
lando was sure to thank the driver, emptying his wallet of its cash to provide a tip ━ unsure what the man would’ve heard, but frankly he didn’t care. not when you were in his sights.
the elevator ride up to his apartment mirrored the first moments in the car, your body pressed between his and the wall of the elevator, lips in sync, make out interrupted by the ding of the doors opening.
you were kicking your heels off before he even got the door to his place open, discarding them the moment you stepped inside, before lando was using you to shut the door; not so gentle as he pushed you against the surface.
“nuh uh,” you stopped him as he leant in to kiss you once more; your hands pressing against his chest. “want to make you feel good,” you spoke softly, hands returning to the zipper of his pants to free his cock once more.
his eyes squinted in thought, keen to be inside of you; watching you squirm and hear you scream his name was all he could bloody think about.
you recognised that look. “please,” you added desperately, hands tugging the straps of your dress down, your tits spilling out, which had his eyes shamelessly flickering downwards.
lando couldn’t say no to you, not when you asked so nicely. he simply stepped back, giving you space to sink to your knees as your hand wrapped around his cock once again.
you licked up the base to the tip, eyes fixated above you, watching him as he did so; noticing the way his adam’s apple bobbed from the single action.
“tease me baby and i’ll happily play with your pretty cunt till your crying,” lando grunted out as his hand found its rightful place in your hair, a not so delicate tug for good measure.
you moaned at the action, confirming what you both knew was that you got the reaction you wanted; thighs squeezing together at the ‘threat’ but taking him in your mouth fully regardless. quick to mumble a ‘so impatient’ before hand.
lando’s actions were identical to before, except his head fell forward this time as his free hand grasped the door in front of him ━ your name falling from his lips in a groan.
it only motivated you, the grunts and small sounds he made; so keen to draw more out of him, to hear him praise you like he always does.
his sounds mixed with your own, gagging around his length ━ no matter how many times you found yourself in this spot he would always be too big, but it didn’t stop nor effect your efforts.
and it only turned him on more, refraining from squeezing his eyes shut to watch as your eyes watered once more.
“always gagging for it,” lando spoke cockily, a moan escaping him momentarily before he could continue his taunting. “bit of a slut for me no?” he chuckled lowly through gritted teeth; and he couldn’t stop the grin for forming as you moaned around him.
his head fell back now, a breath of content falling from his lips as he shut his eyes momentarily. “too good to me, fuck,” he grunted, hips thrusting forward momentarily ━ and you let him, anything to get him off sooner.
he knew he was close, but he couldn’t push the need to be inside of you. and while he thought he was out of self restraint for the night, he surprised himself in being able to pull you off of him, using the grip on your hair.
“gotta get inside you love,” he explained himself as if it wasn’t obvious, helping you to your feet as you refrained from huffing, wiping your mouth and chin of the saliva that had gathered.
you didn’t need him to lead you to his room, grateful it was the first door on the right otherwise you probably would’ve both ended up on the floor, not that it’d be the first time.
you properly unzipped your dress and stepped out of it, discarding it on his floor before sitting back on his bed ━ lando following suit, shirt discarded before he was stepping out of his pants and boxers.
you crawled back on the bed as he moved to hover over you, pushing you down to lay on your back before his lips were on yours once more.
kissing him never got old, your hands tangling in his curls as he used his knee to spread your legs apart.
you had no warning before he slid inside of you, easily doing so due to how wet you were, but the stretch was always a shock; jaw dropping as you moaned into his mouth, a sharp tug on his hair.
“fuck, always wrap round me so fucking well,” lando cursed, bottoming out and giving you a moment to adjust ━ well aware you’d be tender from the quickie earlier on in the night.
“lando, please━ fuck,” you whimpered, hands moving to grip at his back, back arching as he began to move; thrusting in and out. he wasn’t slow, but you knew he was holding back.
your eyes watched his intently, his scanning your features and admiring the way your face contorted in pleasure.
“lan, please,” you repeated, whimpering as you spread your legs a little more; keen to feel all of him.
“what? need more hm?” lando asked, the chained necklace dangling from his chest and brushing against your chin with every thrust. “needy little thing,” he grinned, and you could only whine as your eyes fluttered shut momentarily.
his hand shifted to your thigh, grabbing one of your legs and moving it upwards, pushing your knee towards your chest. the new angle allowing him to hit deeper, and suddenly his thrusts were harsher and quicker.
your eyes rolled back instantly, a squeal like moan escaping you before you could even try suppress it, nails dragging down his back as he pounded into you.
“yes, fuck, yes,” you practically chanted as he lando fucked you, hard. the way your eyes rolled back and jaw went slack only had him motivated, eager to draw out every possible sound from you.
he was relentless, you still couldn’t get used to the stamina, how there was never a break in the pace or harshness of his thrusts. no moment to breathe or try compose yourself, choked out moans almost straining your throat from how often he slammed into you.
“look at me baby,” lando demanded, wanting your pretty eyes focused on him ━ he wasn’t surprised you didn’t listen however, well, you didn’t really make sense of his words. a habit you seemed to have formed.
it wasn’t like you could help it, the way your brain seems to shut off the moment he hits that spot inside of you.
his hand around your throat was enough, eyes fluttering open and he squeezed softly; whimpering as you continued to moan and pant, met with his smirk.
“fucked dumb already,” lando grinned, almost boasting as he kept his hand around your throat; not applying much pressure but the feeling of it there alone had your hips spasming momentarily. “so easy for me baby, could have you like this all the time,”
you moaned at his words, hearing him loud and clear this time, nodding pathetically; you’d agree with anything he says right now,
“my pretty girl,” he was always quick with the praise after his harsh words, the contrast always welcome as your hands shifted from his back to his biceps. “all mine,” he reiterated.
the possessive tone he found would have you falling into wishful thinking if you possessed the ability to think straight, but thankfully you couldn’t; not when your vision was starting to be replaced with stars as he continued to fuck you relentlessly.
his lips caught yours in another kiss, tongues clashing as you moaned into each others mouths ━ his turn to falter as your walls clenched around him, a string of curses being grunted against your lips.
you didn’t need to tell him you were close, no, he knew your body to well; he pushed your leg further back, as if it was possible, you in no place to recognise any slight discomfort when all you could feel was him inside of you, stretching you out.
you felt the difference in angle again however, eyes rolling back once more as you came hard and fast, his name falling from your lips as you did so.
“good girl baby, cum for me,” lando encouraged; continuing to thrust into you as you rode out your high, back arching and pushing into him.
your walls clenched around him once more, and he came almost immediately; releasing inside of you with a loud groan, your sounds intertwining and melting into one another.
your nails were sure to have left marks along his back, body going limp beneath him as his head dropped to your chest briefly, catching his breath as he too came down from his high.
he wasn’t done though, despite it almost being 7 in the morning, he wasn’t sure if it was the adrenaline, the alcohol or you; but sleep was the last thing on his mind and his best guess was because of the latter.
he was moving again before you could fully recover, the sensitivity causing you to whimper immediately, his thrusts only slow now as he pressed a kiss to your cheek.
“know you’ve got one more in you,” he mumbled, and you wouldn’t ever disagree; nodding quickly as he gradually picked up the pace.
before he got into a rhythm however he slid out, sitting back on his knees and you simply looked at him, awaiting his next move.
he manhandled you onto your stomach easily, as if you were nothing; tugging your hips up and you followed naturally, back arching as your ass propped in the air, his hands grasping and squeezing the soft flesh before sliding back inside of you.
the change in angle once again had you moaning out loudly, hands gripping the sheets beneath you as lando found the pace he’d previously possessed.
your whole body jolted with every thrust, face gradually pushing into the covers, moans muffled as your back arched further.
he didn’t like not hearing you though, obsessed with the way you’d moan and borderline scream his name; so he flew into action, grabbing your hair and tugging so your head was lifted; a loud moan escaping you on cue.
“so fucking good, take me so well,” lando grunted his praise ━ hips slamming into yours.
you couldn’t form words, only replying in little whines and whimpers, choked out moans as your body became overstimulated.
lando knew your limits though, knew how far he could push you. his hand snaking around your waist to find your clit, and rubbing circles on your sensitive bud had your body shaking immediately.
“fuck━ lando, oh my god,” you’d practically cried out, unable to do anything but take all he was giving you, hand in your hair still keeping you in place as he pounded your cunt.
“take it love, know you can,” he grunted; fingers quickening up ━ and he was obsessed with the way your thighs spasmed, your walls clenched around him and your hand reached back to try grip his wrist.
you came again, unable to give warning as your eyes watered from the mere overstimulation.
“there you go, good girl, so so good, could watch you come undone my cock every day,” lando talked you though it, hips still moving relentlessly as he let go of your hair, your front half falling back into the mattress ━ both hands gripping your hips now as he chased his own high.
you whimpered as he fucked you through your high, and when he came inside you again you swear it all became a blur, trying to recover from your back to back orgasms.
lando slid out of you and rolled off of you after he caught his breath; which was much quicker than you. his hand delicately pushing some of your hair back had your head tilting to face him however, a lazy smile grazing your features.
“you’re incredible,” lando mumbled, admiring you quietly; and if you weren’t exhausted you would’ve laughed at him.
“shut up.” you mumbled, eyes fluttering shut, legs still shaking as lando rolled his eyes ━ a stupid smile on his face none the less.
“no running out of me yeah?” lando hummed, arm moving to wrap around your frame, easily pulling you into his chest. and you should’ve been alarmed, gone into self preservation mode and pushed away.
but you couldn’t, simply accepting his embrace that you’d always crave, head finding a spot on his toned chest.
“don’t think i could if i tried,” you laughed, not sure your legs would hold your weight if you tried to stand. let alone walk.
“yeah good, that was the whole point,” lando chuckled playfully, fingers dancing up and down the side of your arm, eyes fixated on you below him.
you laughed softly, knowing this conversation needed to be addressed properly. that come morning, or well maybe early afternoon in this case, when you wake up, you’ll be met with that sinking feeling again. the one where you’ll feel the need to flea, to escape him and the domesticated side you so badly wanted to yourself.
but you’d settle for this for now, just like lando would settle for you believing this was the most he could offer. for now.
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a/n: did u miss me and my shitty endings 🤭🤭🤭
soz for disappearing and soz if this is rusty asf it just came to me and it’s 3:30am but i needed to get it done 🤭🤭🤭
unedited like usual oops


