It’s seriously been so long since I’ve made the time to write anything on here, but it’s just me and you tonight and I’m sitting here thinking about this past year and the fact that it’s just gone by oh, so quickly. You’re in my arms nursing at the present moment. I feel like I’m holding on to this just as long as I can because it’s one small way I can keep you attached to me and one small way we can still have some uninterrupted you and me time. You’re not quite ready to give it up completely. You’ve been just doing it in the mornings and before bed but if we have to skip the morning ones if I’ve been gone or we’ve had to run out the door you have been ok with it. Ive been a little sad about that as I can’t really use the excuse “she’s just not quite ready to give that up.” I’ve enjoyed being able to nurse all of you but with each one it seems I enjoy it just a little more as I realize the moments are so fleeting and I want to keep you little as long as possible. You’ve been more attached to me than anyone and I can’t say I haven’t loved it. You have stayed a “baby” much longer than most. You didn’t start crawling until about 2 months ago (11 mo) and walking still seems a ways off. So many people look at me like “there must be something wrong with her”(my mom being one of those) but you just have decided to do things on your own time and I have no fear that you’ll get it...you just aren’t in a hurry. I like that about you. I hope you stay that way. Life is crazy and everyone is always hustling about (often myself included) like everything is the most important thing. I hope you are content in the ordinary, quietness of every day moments that you don’t try to rush them but can rest in them and savor them. Well, I didn’t really have in grandeur thoughts to share but I just wanted to remember this sweet moment as I rock you to sleep and make sure you know just how much you’re loved and how much I have adored this last year with you.