words that don't come out

could be on drugs

[janinesthoughts]

I burn my bread which becomes black toast my lungs are black too but it's my heart that burns the most

Can't cook up love

[janinesthoughts]

life is a roller coaster filled with screams and cries, but if a roller coaster is one of my biggest fears, does that mean I’m afraid of life?

Could be 

[janinesthoughts]

the drugs may have my mind messed up, but I’m sure that I am still in love with your touch, your smell, oh your voice as well your face and smile, I could see from miles, but you and me, and everything together just makes my life a whole lot better.

You, you, you

[janinesthoughts]

there was once a young girl with skin so pale; soul so pure. her acne was something she could never cure. deep down she knew that she was more mature and had seen bad in the world; something others couldn’t endure. the people talked, and spread rumors through the school like addicts craving more, but that’s what they thought she was; just a girl who did lots of drugs. they thought her life was set in stone, that she would stay a low-life with no family or home. how would it feel to be her?

Very alone

[janinesthoughts]

this is my writing blog♡

[janinesthoughts]

As I walked out my front door and onto the cold cement sidewalk, I looked up at the sky with the realization that I am only one; I am only a small living thing out of the entire universe. Though my thoughts widened, the sidewalk stayed narrow. I continued my walk to the end of the block, with a chill breeze just warm enough for me to inhale deeply and exhale all stress ahead of me. As I came to a halt, I let my ears relax and listen to the chirping birds in the seemingly dead tree above. at this moment, I felt a unison of humanity. The tree, the birds, and myself will all come to an end one day, but our lives were ahead of us. We have what seems like plenty of time, as the seasons change and our lives fly by. In the end, it’s all just history, and our lives are only what we make it up to be.

Listen to the birds every once in a while

[janinesthoughts]

drug use is much different than drug abuse. happiness and highs may get people through their sorrow lives but it’s not necessary in the minds of the wise they know their limits they hit it and quit it they enjoy it for the ride changing things up and opening their mind they know when it’s time to come back down and when they’re off the high they don’t need to frown they ignore the temptations while others are giving up their entire lives with no hesitations.

You are not limitless

[janinesthoughts]

Do you write these yourself?

yes yes

[janinesthoughts]

what’s so special about a white powder? drugs are unpredictable but you do it for the power and strength you get from trying something new something you thought was so cool but drugs are overrated people just get faded to wake up the next day with lows and regrets so don’t fret if you feel alone and unwelcome live your life trying things that seldom highs could never bring

Don't waste your time

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high school is a period of time where every little act feels like the end of the world

Don't worry about it

[janinesthoughts]

i could tear my heart out and cry but looking at your face makes me feel so alive my heart starts racing as i picture you tracing the veins on my arms up to my heart kiss me, don’t leave come stay high with me i want you and your comforting voice i want us to sit where we have no choice but to look eye to eye i can feel my glossy eyes glisten i was looking at an angel too good to be mine i wish i meant something to you but i know this feeling would stay on mute

Angel on earth

[janinesthoughts]

my friendships may never last i treat them like a sheet of glass and i tap it until it shatters but i don’t do it on purpose i simply know those people don’t matter its the friends that stay to walk you home in the cold, pouring rain so you know you’re not alone its a simple conversation that can be deep in thoughts but you know those talks are the ones that count and you know these are the people you don’t want to be anywhere without.

Choosing wisely

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my head is pounding my thoughts are drowning i need to turn my life around i just want my feet off the ground feeling so cold and frail i couldn’t be more low i hate being all alone not even you can change this feeling i wish i had some meaning to your life but off you go soon you will grow no need for my hand you reach for the clouds getting lifted on your own your high is so rare nothing but happiness i can compare so much reason to your life i’m like a piece of ice i'll melt off this planet like global warming from my organs and out to my rough skin at least ill stop hurting all the girls say you’re addictive you are my drug but our love is depicted through the eyes of only one

One-sided love

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insanity is not a choice, though everyone has that voice in the back of their mind. what it repeats is time and time again waiting for you and your most vulnerable hour. for the day you let out a cry, you take that steaming hot shower, and you open your mind. here is the voice. from then on there’s a point; a switch in your head that goes on at night and teases you while you lie in your seemingly uncomfortable bed. now where’s the way back to your stable self? this voice isn’t your mind, it’s not a cry for help it’s your entry to hell it’s not here to say hi it’s here to wake you up from the vivid nightmare you had last night but don’t think it’s over because it’s staying for life.

Evil in my mind