i felt hope

jasper whitlock hale. 22/173. enhanced vampire. district one. ❝ i could feel everything they felt. ❞

[kolmikalson]

Kol felt like making a sarcastic remark in response, it wasn’t often that people requested his help, especially fellow vampires. But he knew better than to irritate this male right now, it would only lead to a scene that Kol had no time to clean up. Finnick was still in the hospital, so he planned to have this over and done with as quickly as possible. “Well well well. I’ll help you, but you owe me a favour.” Not that there was anything this man could do for him, that he couldn’t do himself. He needed witches, not unstable watered down versions of his own species. He just wanted to make it clear that his favours were hard to come by — never for free.

Kol grabbed the man by his collar, not attempting to be gentle. That would get neither of them anywhere. With an exasperated sigh, he began to move, his strength apparent and effortless. It was always best after a meal, even if he had feasted from a blood bag. “We’ll take you to the outskirts of town. Perhaps then you can gain some composure.”

[jasperrhale]

Jasper nodded stiffly at the deal, figuring he had no other choice, unable to stop his gaze from returning to the crimson. His family didn’t know where he was, and he couldn’t count on Alice getting a vision right then. Honestly, he hoped she didn’t, despite preferring her assistance to this man’s. Jasper was embarrassed. He knew his family understood his struggle, that he was still fairly new to this, but it still filled him with shame. It was pathetic that he couldn’t move a muscle just because someone else had consumed a fresh blood bag somewhere near him. He squeezed his eyes shut, willing his muscles to relax, taking his mind elsewhere as he waited for the Original to advance. Composure was certainly what he wanted. But the second he felt manhandled, Jasper’s instincts took over, eyes snapping open, dark and enraged.

He snarled, trying to reach for the arms that ensnared him, attempting to detangle himself so that he could find the source of the blood. His mind cried out, fighting with himself as much as he fought with Kol, willing himself to remain calm. But Kol’s strength made him feel naturally defensive, and protective, the vampire fearful of being overpowered. The more Jasper struggled, the closer Kol came, the more the smell entered his conscious stream. He had to find it, he had to have it. There was a trail, one that could lead him to more, a place where it was stockpiled. Locking in on the scent, Jasper slammed an elbow into the other vampire’s gut, trying anything to loosen the grip.

[kolmikalson]

Kol found himself irritated by the staring, until he recognised that expression. As someone who struggled with bloodlust himself, a great deal so, he actually felt rather sympathetic. Wiping his chin with his sleeve, Kol made sure not to step any closer, not wanting to set the fellow vampire off further. “You look it yourself, mate. Might want to snack on something.”

[jasperrhale]

Jasper’s darkened eyes followed the other vampire’s movements closely, watching him wipe the blood away, watching his hand fall to his side. It helped a little, not seeing it so stark against his skin — but the smell hadn’t faded at all. 

Jasper tended to eat at least every two days, a rare act for their family. But being in such close proximity to humans wasn’t easy for him, and Carlisle had worked with the Hamptons to make exceptions, hoping to make the transition a little easier. It had been working out okay so far, but he was due to eat tomorrow, and being confronted with wet human blood while he was out alone had done him no favours.

“Yes. That would be best.” He replied quietly, his throat burning, wondering how he was going to get out of the neighbourhood without doing anything he’d regret. “I have to leave here.” And yet, he remained rooted to the spot, gaze unwavering from the crimson streaks. There was no way he could get to his family like this. “I need your help.” He had no idea who this man was, but considering he’d just eaten, he had to be strong, and if Jasper was to move anywhere, he needed strong.

[kolmikalson]

“I’m well aware I’m wearing my meal down my chin, but you can save your judgement, it was from a bag and I was famished. Supplies have been low and I’ve been too busy these past few weeks to go and find an innocent bunny.”

[jasperrhale]

Coming to a sudden stop, Jasper stared at the other vampire, an overbearing wave of hunger and an intense burning desire to taste human blood freezing him in his place. His eyes only grew darker when Kol explained himself, now regretting the decision to venture out alone. It wasn’t like he was going to attack the Original — but he’d caught the bag’s scent now, and there’d be no stopping him from finding the source. Not without intervention, at least. Only years of self-discipline, loyalty to his family, and sensing the blood wasn’t fresh kept him rooted in place. Although, the longer he stared at Kol, at the crimson staining his skin, the quicker those thoughts were swallowed up by ideas much more inhumane.

“Famished,” he repeated slowly, feeling as if a clamp had been tightened around his throat. Still unable to tear his gaze away, Jasper gave him a strange look, no longer trusting himself to breathe. “I see.”

[stackhousesookie]

JACKSON RATHBONE & ASHLEY GREENE JASPER HALE & ALICE CULLEN | TWILIGHT (2008)

[pansyparkinsvn]

The guy obviously had gifts or abilities he wasn’t admitting to outright, but believing him to be genuine, Pansy let down her defences. For now. “Fine. But why?” Perhaps he was a father himself. “You get nothing from it.”

“… How do you? Feel it?” If he’d honestly helped James, she was thankful, despite the weirdness regarding the situation. She’d do anything to protect her nephew, she’d promised herself that, so his happiness was ultimately her priority. “He’ll be calmer soon, when I get him home to his dad.”

[jasperrhale]

“On the contrary, ma’am,” he reiterated, feeling patient. Relaxing the child had given him the confidence to be. “Like I said, if I help him feel better, it helps me feel better. Plus, nobody likes hearin’ a child cry, do they?"

It was typical that someone unfamiliar with him would have questions about his abilities, so he obliged them. Their family had always been reserved, never wanting to draw attention. But considering their new neighbours, it was becoming obvious that unique abilities weren’t actually so far in between. Despite his boost in confidence however, he still kept his distance. “I suppose you’d describe it as an ability. Pathokinesis. I can sense a feeling, and change it, if I so wish. Not always this easy,” he added, gesturing towards James. Nodding, Jasper remained still, not wishing to keep them. “Understood, ma'am. I wish him the best, then. He’s certainly got a good set of lungs. — If you'll oblige me, just a moment longer?" Jasper paused, studying the child again now that he'd eased off. Breaking their empathic connection had allowed Jasper to tune in to his other senses, and there was a scent there he could not deny. "This child is a wolf? Or a budding one."

[pansyparkinsvn]

At his smirk, Pansy immediately retaliated with a judgemental expression, her eyebrows raised. She didn’t find anything about the situation funny, especially since she was confused. If he wasn’t a mind reader, he had to be something. She wasn’t sure how she felt about a stranger knowing so much about James, except that it made her protective. “You just felt it? Can you feel me about to hit you?” She wouldn’t, not in front of a child, but the temptation was there. “He loves that blanket. It’s probably… all the noise. The dark, the banging -- all the moving around.” She paused. “Not that it concerns you.”

[jasperrhale]

“No,” he answered seriously again, despite the mildly amused look still on his face. “But I can sense your irritation and confusion, and your desire to protect. I promise, ma’am, hittin’ me won’t be necessary. Or worthwhile. I was just tryin’ to help.”

“That sounds like a possibility,” Jasper nodded, considering the new information. At her added comment, he glanced down at the stroller, taking much relief in the toddler’s calmness. “My business, perhaps not. But it does concern me. I don’t like feelin’ his distress, if that makes sense.”

[pansyparkinsvn]

"Excuse me?" Pansy had already felt defensive upon the man's approach, but that only furthered at his response, leading her to position herself between James and the stranger. She may no longer have access to her magic, but she'd since learned to fight without it, and she wouldn't be shy of throwing a punch if she felt James' safety was threatened. “How would you know that? You better not have just read his mind.” She was thankful the toddler had calmed down somehow, but she couldn’t see any connection between that and this guy. He looked… uncomfortable, too, so Pansy narrowed her eyes, unsure of how he’d respond.

[jasperrhale]

He was well aware the woman was being serious, but Jasper couldn’t help but find her accusation amusing, finding the irony in it, a corner of his mouth lifting to form a smirk. He already felt miles calmer since the child had settled down. “No, ma’am, I did not. That is not a talent of mine.”

Unmoving from where he stood, Jasper glanced down at the toddler again, considering what information he’d interpreted from him. Smirk slipping, his usual uncomfortable expression returned as he thought. “It’s just a feelin’ I got. Some feelin’’s that came from him. He’s havin’ night terrors, correct? I don’t get a visual, but all that fear is comin’ from somethin’ dark. That blanket might be the issue right now,” he pointed at the material covering the stroller, still not moving any closer.

[rosaliehvle]

Rosalie nodded at his confirmation. “You know where I am if you need reminding.” Despite often disagreeing with her family, mainly Edward, that didn’t deter her from going to any length to protect or reassure them. She hated this life of immortality, but she couldn’t take it out on those who cared for her. After all, they were all she had left, now. They were the closest thing she could get to what she’d always wanted. Emmett especially. She may not be able to conceive, but at least her heart was satisfied with the perfect husband.

“Anytime,” and she meant that. It was nice to feel understood, when it appeared as if the rest of her siblings were against her. Everyone was so positive about Alexandria, and yet she couldn’t find a single drop of comfort in this place. At least Jasper got that, he had his concerns, too. Perhaps they were always destined to play twins, even if they weren’t biologically positioned. “Not yet. You’d be better off asking Emmett, he seems ecstatic.”

[jasperrhale]

“I don’t know what I’d do without you, Rose,” he stated quite frankly, trying to focus on taking small breaths. Nothing that could catch a strong scent. The pair had always knowingly understood each other, and it wasn’t because Jasper could read her emotions. It somehow ran deeper than that. Their support for one another was unwavering, and their dynamic was harmonious, even though they’d experienced and desired very different things. Perhaps that was what made them a perfect duo.

He nodded. “I was afraid you’d say that. If you’re not convinced, I can’t be. But I 'spose I don’t know if I’d feel comfortable anywhere. That is my curse.” Nowhere with living beings in close proximity, anyway, but that wasn’t always a realistic and helpful choice for their coven. Sometimes, they just had to learn, to move, to adapt, especially if they wanted to function within current society. Jasper understood it, and desired it, but still struggled. Alice also oozed positivity — her and Emmett had that in common. It was funny how Jasper and Rose had quite literally found their forever in their opposites. He smirked. “You know, put together, him and Alice are very convincin’. Question is, do we let them change our minds?”

[pansyparkinsvn]

“Shh, James. It’s alright. It was just a bad dream, okay? It wasn’t real. Nobody’s gonna’ hurt you. Your angel is watching over you, remember?” James had started crying hysterically in his stroller during the walk home, so Pansy stopped for a moment to comfort him. It wasn’t long before she became aware of someone standing behind her, so she was quick to turn around, instantly feeling protective. “Can I help you?”

[jasperrhale]

Jasper had no intention of stopping to chat, but the toddler’s cries hurt his ears and struck fear in his heart, and if lending a hand would give him peace of mind, then he would do so. Not to mention, Rosalie and Alice would’ve wanted him to.

Standing a safe distance away, he stared at the upset child, working fast to calm him down, so much so that the child all but fell asleep. Blinking away, he met the woman’s gaze instead. “I believe I just helped you, ma’am. Perhaps you should try givin’ him some more light. I don’t think he’s a fan of the dark.”

[rosaliehvle]

“Alright.” Rosalie closed the space between them, a gentle hand resting on the top of Jasper’s arm, trying to keep his attention on her whilst they discussed his hunger. The last thing they needed was a vampire accident, considering they were planning to stay here now. It wouldn’t make for the best first impression. “You won’t be ruining anything, remember that. It wasn’t our choice to move here.” Rosalie had actively fought against it, despite Emmett’s enthusiasm. She much preferred it back home.

“Of course I will. Pack an overnight back and we’ll head out in the morning.” She was beginning to feel that familiar hollow craving herself, so the trip would be beneficial for both of them.

[jasperrhale]

The touch made him feel grounded, and Jasper turned his focus to her emotions instead, trusting in her confidence and concern, and taking some relief from that. Hesitantly, he nodded. He’d also been reserved about the idea of moving, but had been far less vocal about it than Rosalie. That had mainly been for Alice’s sake though. He hadn’t wanted to upset or deter her, especially since she’d felt so positive about this place. But he also hadn’t wanted to voice his reservations, to admit he was struggling and knew he always would be, because for some reason, his family believed in him, even if he didn’t. “I’ll try to remember.”

Of course, Rose knew of his hesitations, even though he’d barely voiced them. That was just how they were. Despite his feelings, a corner of his mouth turned up at her reply, allowing himself to exhale. “Thank you. I appreciate it.” Wanting a distraction to hold him over until tomorrow, he tried for conversation. “Have you found anythin’ to like about this place yet?”

[rosaliehvle]

Rosalie may be cold, but never towards her family, and especially not during times where they needed her help. Her gaze softened as she glanced over at her brother, understanding but not relating to his struggles, given her clean record when it came to human blood intake. “Jasper, are you alright? We can move further out of the city if it’s too much, I’ll talk with Esme.” Although not technically twins, Rosalie did feel a bond with him that resembled it, more often than not.

[jasperrhale]

“I’m.. not sure,” he answered honestly, voice quiet. He didn’t feel alright, but he hadn’t done anything wrong yet either, so it couldn’t be all bad. At least, that’s what Alice had encouraged him to think. “I don’t wanna’ ruin this for you all. I won’t ruin this,” he corrected himself. “I’ve just gotta’… keep my thoughts elsewhere. Away from all that blood. And the hunger.”

The thought darkened his eyes, but he pulled himself away fast, finally breaking his stare to glance over at his sister. Jasper cleared his throat, ashamed. “'Spose I should get outta’ town for a few days. It seems I need a hunt. Will you come with me, Rose?” He didn’t want to take away her opportunity to settle in, but he didn’t trust himself to be alone like this, and he couldn’t let Alice see him lose control again. He didn’t want to fail her.

[izaaclahey]

Isaac tugged uncomfortably at his jeans, that familiar downside of being a werewolf showing in full effect. “You should just… wish me a Happy Birthday and go.”

[jasperrhale]

The werewolf’s repulsive stench was already unbearable enough without the added hormones. It was a confusing, unbearable load — repulsion mixed with strong desire. Jasper was an incredibly polite person though, so he did his best to stay put, to wish the stranger well, but it was an understandable struggle. Still, he found the situation amusing, recognising the signs of a heat. He’d always found the event curious and humorous. “Sounds like a deal. I wouldn’t want to stand in the way of your… celebrations.”

[rosaliehvle]

Rosalie had, of course, followed her family here, but she was far from happy about it, and already found herself missing home. Staying in one place made her feel more human. “How many werewolves are here, exactly? All I can smell is dog.”

[jasperrhale]

Staring out at the houses without blinking, Jasper swallowed hard, still not trusting himself to inhale. According to Carlisle, moving here had been the safest move for their family, and while Jasper believed him, it clearly wasn’t the safest move for everybody else. He’d been doing his absolute best to avoid thinking about it, but Rosalie’s words brought it all rushing back. “All I can smell is blood.”

[evan-buck]

ROSWELL, NEW MEXICO 4x01 Steal My Sunshine

[ohmovie]

JASPER HALE in TWILIGHT (2008) dir. Catherine Hardwicke

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[stackhousesookie]

FELIX AND VENETIA + their star matching tattoo

‟Felix's tattoo mirrors his sister’s but is proportionally bigger than hers. It’s derived from the single star which features in the family crest. It symbolizes the special connection to each other.” - Siân Miller, hair and makeup designer for Saltburn