We Have Now

hobbit moonlighting in healthcare

[maviyenot]

[jay-christine91]

I was afraid to be female

Being female already put me at a disadvantage

Back then I didn’t understand

it also made me a

target

For cruel words wanting me to mold perfectly

For people to tell me how to live in my body

For disgusting hands and unwanted actions

I was afraid to be female

Because it meant they felt entitled to me

To take without asking

To keep me beneath them

But what a fire it fueled instead

[jay-christine91]

I am living between the lines of present

I was born with legs that stretched forward

And my heart pulls me out to sea

Because this homegrown soil feels dried thin

I’m fading away from this lackluster warmth

Losing the room to thrive inside

The longer I stay the more I thirst

For a life I didn’t want to think was impossible

And I’m reaching for what light is left

[akimbod]

Maowmaow

[jay-christine91]

I missed you today. I missed you so much that the tears flowed like a waterfall. The sobs I muffled into the pillows because I didn’t want to be heard. The ache that takes over. Part of me feels like I don’t have a right to feel it. I made the choice to cut the ties. So many don’t understand and I’m exhausted explaining my reasoning. And if I tell them I miss you, it just makes it worse. “How can you miss them if they hurt you?” Or “It must not have been that bad if you still want them around.”

But it was bad and I’m forever changed due to it. Yet it doesn’t take away the fact I miss you. I just wish you would have loved me the same way I loved you. I wish I would have been your priority. But the truth is, some parents don’t want their children.

[jay-christine91]

I feel like I’m letting everyone down. All I ache for is stability

[cataphorics]

nobody better be posting about the met gala without mentioning the giant pro-palestine demonstration going on outside

[cozyclarkent]

[olyoil2-deactivated20250812]

People are like “it’s so beautiful no clouds at all” it could use a little clouds if I had to be honest.

[holoprisms]

it literally could use a little clouds if i had to be honest

[eyesup-orion-deactivated2024090]

new episode today hehe..

[inkeyjay]

Falin, Oil on paper and digital

[escuerzoresucitado]

[fogmoo]

[mooreaux]

Likes me a man that can cook

🥰 yet another Senshi because I’m enamored w that dwarf

[toothwormfactory]

[radio-silents]

drowsy in dungeon

[jay-christine91]

Everything’s loud today. I can’t seem to find work no matter what I do. It’s getting harder and harder to afford things. I’m eating less and less food. I’m so tired everyday. People are getting upset with me because I don’t want to hangout and do things but I feel like the financial burdened friend that can’t even afford a coffee. I feel like an embarrassment to my family. It’s loud today.

[jay-christine91]

“I wish I was stronger”

A thought I have so often. Today was really rough with my daughter. The separation anxiety and panic she has with school has gotten so bad that now we’re pulling her into school screaming. It’s taking a toll on me. I’m using my outlets to get it out and unload and handle but it still hurts. I know I’m not a bad mom, but I feel inadequate that I can’t help her feel better. We’ve tried multiple outlets between us and the school but to no avail. I cried so much once I was home that I threw up.

I just want things to be okay. This added to everything else, I’m trying to carry it, but I won’t deny how heavy it is.

But something has to give, yeah?