Poems

Just an account of the count

[jayflmng]

Give me longevity of companionship. An affair with love that would tangle me up like twine run wild. A love hot and burning.. like blacktop in the middle of southern summer. A love that would decimate the battle of attrition that has been fought for so long. A love so pure that even cotton would be jealous at the shade. A deepening connection as if an endless spiral staircase leading down into the sweet nothings of the never-never. A union complete and everlasting as the tides, constantly ebbing; and flowing. A love as profound as is sweet; nectar to the honeybee freely given by the honeysuckle. Where no shackles or chains would bind and deprive, but rather full of overgrown vines tangled amidst the jungle, running unhindered through the vast utopia of uninhibited lands.

[jayflmng]

Scattered pages

Between comedy and tragedy,

I launch haphazardly,

Headfirst into my own malady,

Bereft of the rights,

Laser-beam focused sights,

As my days turn to nights,

Slowly sinking into dissonant discord,

Tangled notes among the chord,

What is a price one really can afford,

Sanity between the manic notes,

Preposterous sounds with silenced votes,

Layers of deception like fresh paint in coats,

So maybe we should; or shouldn’t?

Maybe it could be; but maybe couldn’t,

There is no will in what we wouldn’t.

[jayflmng]

I SURRENDER

I surrender if I’m to become just another stranger,

Betwixt the subtleties and the unspoken danger,

That crumbling bridge built of naught but anger.

Spiteful words and spitfire erratic thoughts,

Minds stuck on earth while our souls become astronauts,

Slowly yet surely hyper-essence breaks down to naught,

Still we persevere without gambling emotion,

Stuck on a feeling but deprived of the notion,

Thinking that happiness comes from a sip of the potion,

Still new to the growth of these buds of hope,

Lost amid stardust we blindly grope,

Hoping to catch that star in with which we can cope,

Traveling this journey and finding the answers,

As elusive and dexterous as those midnight dancers,

Whilst our spirits roam free like the jungle’s panthers.

[jayflmng]

Stargazing Lioness

My stargazing lioness; with eyes of jewels,

A mind made of energy; she gives me my fuel,

A heart made of nature; growing ever so swift,

To think I was once almost a broken hearted fool,

She lifts me high upon the back of her wings,

Whenever she speaks my heart slowly sings,

She knows not the true extent of her beauty,

But this is just one of the many, many things,

That draws me in close to her natural beauty,

Hoping and dreaming of the things to be,

With eyes of golden fire I’m pierced by her gaze,

All at once I know I am to be hers truly.

[jayflmng]

Festering feelings whilst I try and implore,

This septic situation I wish not to explore,

Feelings catatonic; purely morbid,

Following the urge like a fish drawn to shore,

Driven mad by the illustrious illusions,

Land; not the dwelling of constant confusions,

Slowly becoming aware of the nostalgia,

My mind and my heart in constant collusion.

[jayflmng]

Divine Intervention

You look at me; while I look at you,

Our souls are locked; nothing we can do,

I’m trapped in hell; you’re trapped in ice,

But there is nothing I can do.

I breathe you in; while you breathe me out,

I still the waters; you silently thrash about,

I’m living in the present; you’re stuck in the past,

But there is nothing I can doubt.

Our paths were intersecting; now they diverge,

I was the circuitry; whilst you were the surge,

I begged and pleaded; you sat in uncertainty,

But there’s nothing I can urge.

Drowning in the water; you silently held my hand,

I drew out the waypoints; you made your plan,

Moving as a knight, while you moved like a bishop,

But there’s nothing I can understand.

[jayflmng]

I felt embarrassed, even ashamed,

What did you do then but set me aflame,

You were supposed to be my comfort, my quenching rain,

But you treated me as if I was just a childish game...

I opened up to you and exposed my soft underside,

You broke down my mental barriers as I just let thunder ride,

We talk on the phone for hours at a time,

Drinking it in slowly without realizing it was formaldehyde,

This betrayal of trust; this breach of my confidence,

Did you truly believe it would come without consequence?

I was your sword and you were supposedly my shield,

Until you left me on that bridge with my constant angst.

[jayflmng]

Seemingly like magic,

These thoughts always tragic,

Thinking back to the time,

When I really thought I had it.

Demons come clawing their way up,

Unto they reside on top,

Slipping into the mental cracks,

Flowing over like hot syrup,

Drowning in the duality,

Pressed to face reality,

I pound out imperfections,

Trying to temper my mentality,

But still they crawl the mind's expanse,

As if piercing with a white hot lance,

In desperation I try,

To give myself another chance.

[jayflmng]

Slowly we meander down the decisions we make,

If be a nightmare pray my soul doth it take,

Slowly I stumble once I'm even in the slightest awake,

Just never let me cover my silent mistakes,

The bridges we burn and the ties that we absolutely break,

Looking at the light - wouldn't that be great?

Smoothly we transition from our struggles to our fate,

So surreptitiously do we strive if only to be great,

Wishing upon wishes as if by some silent angel's kisses,

Problems start to pile and so do all our dishes,

The shooter in the dark, but who is it that misses,

These carnal souls remain ever so very vicious.

[jayflmng]

Sleeping by my myself tonight,

Lover surrounded by arms open wide,

No way to stay the midnight blues,

No embrace within which to go and hide,

A will to succeed and a drive to build,

Realizing a moment to be fulfilled,

Temperatures rise and a shield is tempered,

A duo of breaths and a life is willed,

Coordinated feelings and a shining grace,

With which to battle for a better place,

A sixth sense that senses those sensing,

But never could it be overwritten or replaced.

[jayflmng]

Locked behind doors with no keys,

Shackled by chains no way to release,

Hidden amongst the crease,

Silently watching from the west to the east,

Intentions hidden with no way to exhume,

Push my heart on pause no button to resume,

Locked in the scent of past perfumes,

With no way available to pursue em,

Lungs are bound in a room devoid of O²,

Same room where it began anew,

Mind never aligned - always askew,

Parallel vision with a perpendicular view,

Paralyzed legs with no ability to move,

Stuck in a rut never finding the groove,

The portion of track so smooth,

As if there is was never something to prove.

[jayflmng]

Feeling like this depression,

Has caused a mental recession,

Pure hypervention,

My mind just stuck in detention,

No idea of those intentions,

Fuck it sent my heart to collections,

Never again to mention,

Or bring about in recollection,

Aching pains that just creep,

Never subjected; even to sleep,

In dreams I weep,

At what I've sown and what I reap,

Walking in the skin of a sheep,

A wolf hides away down deep,

Shhh- not a peep,

Just sit in silence hidden among the heap.

[jayflmng]

Society's Propriety,

Fueled by their piety,

Sitting in plain sight,

For every eye to see,

Leaving behind,

Everything to be mine,

We're all too unstable,

Not of one mind,

We sit breaking bread,

With those that are led,

Then sit and wonder,

Why our soul hasn't been fed,

Metamorph your views,

Even when everything's askew,

Maybe then we can,

Only begin to renew,

Everything that has withered,

These tears now delivered,

Forgiving and living,

Even with a soul that's splintered.

[jayflmng]

This Withering sensation,

Along with acute misinformation,

We slowly sink below,

Content with our contempt of agitation,

Too sick of the resignation,

Aware of the slick explanation,

Writhing in the grass,

Compliant to the cause with no expectations,

Too many quote declaration,

Amidst this feudal fraternization,

Wearer of two or more masks,

Coerced in crude ways of capitalization,

True in becoming the sheep,

Already the wolves watch us sleep,

We lightly sleep so we hear the creak,

Cunning will coincide as we feel the creep.

[jayflmng]

Swiftly traversing paths unknown,

Tribute to the foothold I've slowly grown,

Penny for your thoughts a dime for feelings,

A quarter for the negative never shown,

But there is no fear for the tally here,

Within hope we subconsciously rally fear,

Dreaming of a time where all is right,

All it takes is to just grab my hand Sally dear,

Feel my soul's rot but my brain undead,

Cannot seem to quiet the voices in my head,

Vigilant is the villain that hold wary against hero,

Depth and darkness lay joyously in my bed,

Written inside the abyss these words do scorch,

A powder keg of black waiting if only for a torch,

Why do we live for which purpose do we serve?

These thoughts I wonder on the back of my porch.

[jayflmng]

-United States of Terror-

Slippin into depression,

A mental recession,

Looking left and right,

But still see no intervention,

Body of hypertension,

Existential recollection,

The soul flies high,

But the meat's stuck in detention,

What is there to gain,

The gift or the grain,

Finding all is naught,

But seems we're stuck on this train,

Meant to fight again,

Neighbors can't hear my pain,

What the fuck is wrong with-,

No just let me refrain,

Choose to stand together,

No matter the weather,

Seems we lost the willpower,

To gain a whimsical endeavor,

Will this end ever,

My mind stuck in the ether,

Can we come together,

To reconnect the tether?

[jayflmng]

At first I thought t'was I who set the fires,

Then I realized the imminent truth,

Since the beginning I was already burning,

Now having to live with that undeniable proof,

Matching energies and finding flaws,

Where outcome does not equal effort,

Right then I should've jumped ship,

Maybe then I'd have been less hurt,

Before all the emotional attachments,

The tsunami sized waves left in the wake,

Dreading the aftermath as it was,

Blundering in the dark at my own mistake.