The Jaynie Side Of Life

This is me. This is my life. These are my thoughts, my early morning coffee and late night bourbon. These are my feelings laid out in writing for you.

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01/25/2018

love;

it’s a lovely thing.

so lovely, in fact, that it can heal you and break you all at once.

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01/23/2018

you know you always hope that these things come easy because that’s what you see in movies, but that’s not how it works. dude, life sucks, but if you only focus on the bad, that’s all you’ll see. so we distract ourselves with books, movies, tv, and art to make up for the fact that we aren’t happy. i’m guilty of this, but i also know that i’m not searching for something you can only find in movies. i’m searching for real life. i’m searching for hard work. i don’t want it to be easy. i want someone i will choose despite hardships in hardship, and someone who will choose me back because there is no other option. giving isn’t in our vocabulary. i would rather have someone i care about and want to fight for and with at the top of my lungs than someone i can sleep without. i’m not ready to settle. i don’t want happily ever after. i’m too young for that. i don’t want someone i have to search for. i don’t want someone i have to think about or doubt. i don’t have time for that. i want someone to fight for, someone i know without a doubt that i need to hold on to, someone who wants me as much as i what them.