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sunnydefazzio‌:

“it affects everyone differently,” she said, exhaling the smoke. “what am i, ya mutha’?” the new yorker’s accent slipped. “start small, you’ll choke if you take too much. it’s not like a cigarette,” she said, holding the joint out to him. 

''i’m always happy so i’ll probably be happier then.’’ he takes the joint from her but stays still, looking at it as if it’s something he has never seen before.’’choke? what if i get sad? or even worse, what if i literally choke and die? god, everyone would call me a loser if i died smoking weed for the first time.’’

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sunny let out an annoyed growl as her phone rang for what seemed to be the millionth time today. taking a quick hit from the joint in her hand and exhaling, she put her phone to her ear. “thank you for calling lost souls mortuary where you stab ‘em we slab ‘em, you kill ‘em we grill ‘em, how can i help you today?” she asked in a sickly sweet voice, then pulled the phone away from her ear with a small laugh. “that gets them every single time,” she said, taking another drag from her joint. 

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''that actually sounded awfully depressed.’’ jay said as he watched his best friend took another drag. ‘’i thought that stuff supposed to make you happier than usual or at least just happy.’’ maybe he is totally wrong, he wouldn’t know since he never tried smoking weed before. ‘’can i try it?’’ he’s not sure if it’s a good idea but he thought trying would not hurt. he’s old enough to try it anyway.’’can i?’’

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strcwbcrrywine‌:’

“just because i’m smaller than you doesn’t mean you need to bring it up!” haeju pouts almost instantly, crossing his arms over his chest as his bottom lip juts out for extra dramatic effect.  "that sounds pretty damn kinky to me, jay. remind me again why we’ve never fooled around?“ haeju teases, sticking his tongue out at the other in a light and playful manner. "though i do tend to cling to people when i cuddle them…” he continues, flopping his body-weight onto jay as a small bit of laughter falls from his lips. “i don’t dress better than you, that’s bullshit. you dress better than me, i just like to show off.” the silver-haired male points out, gesturing towards his semi-fancy shirt that he chose to wear even though it was just the two of them. “you’re not sorry you little shit! there’s only room enough for one brat in this apartment, and it’s me!” haeju giggles, dramatically throwing his arms across jay’s body before a small scoff passes through his lips. “i’m teasing and you know that. there’s a thousand and one designers, all of which have our names written all over them.” he states, wiggling his brows at the other. “honestly? that’s all i do too. or i go with what i think would suit me best. guess it’s luck.” there’s a certain nonchalance to haeju’s tone as he speaks, though that’s quick to fade as the other starts his attack on haeju’s cheeks. “hey, hey!! cut it out!!!” he giggles, grabbing jay’s wrists as he attempts to get the other to stop squishing his cheeks. “they might be cute, but they don’t need to be squished!”

''i need to bring it up, because that’s what i do. annoy people to death but  i get away with it.’’ jay mimics the other, pouting before bursting into laughter.’’probably because we both love being a bottom. i mean if we met earlier, i would definitely try to get into your pants because i didn’t know i was a bottom back then!’’ he really can’t remember the exact moment he realized he was a bottom. jay wraps his arms around haeju’s tiny waist, squeezing him playfully.’’as if that would stop me. what if i cling to you as well?’’ jay squeezes him even tighter than before. ‘’i was going to ask you what’s with that shirt but i should have guessed.’’ his hands start to play with the hem of other’s shirt.’’i’m only a brat when i have to be one or when someone wants me to be a brat. you are a brat all the damn time, like even when you are sleeping. being a brat is in your blood! but i really am sorry so i might show up on your door with new stuff that’s not even on the stores yet! because that how much i love you.’’ he ignores haeju’s attempts to stop him, giggling at how cute he looks.’’they don’t? you probably want me to bite them, don’t you? or should i pinch them?’’ his fingers pinches haeju’s cheeks softly. ‘’or you can tell me all the things you’ve been up to and i let you go. too bad i don’t have any exciting news for you because my life had been boring as hell.’’

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sunnydefazzio‌:

“of course not, but you don’t have to,” she said. “but i mean, if you insist, then you already know my favorite way of sharing is food, so you should call in to the jip joint down the street and order burgers cause i haven’t eaten in two hours,” she said. “you know how to hack a bank and make my credit card ‘paid off’ with an unlimited balance? cause i’ve been researching into that and can’t figure it out, i almost got caught.” sunny nodded with a small hum. “mhm. i don’t wanna see her. my ass would be crying like a little bitch. we can go to mom and pop’s house after. hang out in the tree house.”

''i can do that. but how about matching clothes? like can i get an extra one of whatever i buy when i go shopping? please say yes!’’ jay takes out his phone to order them three burgers, because he can never settle down for one.’’i mean i don’t know how to do that at the moment, but i’ll figure it out. or find someone who can do it.’’ jay said. ‘’tree house? isn’t that where — you know... oh you wanna get dirty after the funeral? because i know it’s been a long time...’’

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sunnydefazzio‌:

“hey, i am sunshine fucking de fazzio, i don’t need hand outs, pretty boy,” she said, poking him in the chest. “and besides that, i make my own money aside from my trust fund. haven’t touched that bitch for anything except school, and now that i’m graduated and officially a business owner… i’m not gonna need to touch it cause i make enough money with a little help of my trusty hacker skills because i hack the payroll.” sunny ran her hand through her hair, wrapping a few unruly curls around her finger to shape them back up. “they’re going to announce when they’re about to open the casket and let people exit to the burial site who don’t want to see her. i wanna remember her the way she was, not laying in a coffin.”

''is it wrong that i want to share everything i have with my best friend?’’ jay asks.’’ right. i sometimes forget that you have your own business while i’m still a student.’’ jay catches her fingers and starts to play with them softly. ‘’well, i can help you with hacking since it’s practically what i’m majoring in. ‘’  he wiggles his eyebrows suggestively. ‘’oh thank god! we both can leave when they are about to open it.  we’ll be there for each other, just like we always have.’’

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strcwbcrrywine‌:

“fair point, one i can’t argue because you know i have a tendency to over-pack too.” he teases lightly, another giggle falling from his lips as jay joins him on the couch. “you act as if either of us would honestly say no to that, or to you.” he says, gently tapping jay’s nose with the tip of his finger, grin pulling on his features as he speaks. it’s easy to be around jay, especially since they did have as much in common as they did. “fashion was my first true love, jay. of course i love it as much as you do. i’d say more, but i’m not trying to get into that kind of arguement with you.” the silver-haired male continues to tease, giving jae a wink as he nudges the other with his elbow lightly. “chanel suits you far better than it would me, you’re not wrong about that. but nothing would suit you even better.” there’s a slight smirk and playfulness in haeju’s tone as he speaks, brow wiggling at the other. “you already ordered stuff?? without me?! i’m heartbroken, really!” haeju says, clutching at his heart in an overly-dramatic fashion. “this is the ultimate betrayal, jay. i can’t believe you.” the male continues, the dramatics never halting. “it better not, i’ll hunt you down and force you to go with me even if you’ve bought the entire store out already!!” he giggles lightly, rolling his eyes as he leans his head against jay’s shoulder. “your secret is safe with me, as long as you keep mine: no one is as cool as i am.”

'' we are the same person, except you are smaller than me.’’ he says with a playful grin  ‘’i know you wouldn’t. i’m like really suitable for cuddling. you can suffocate me and i wouldn’t make any sound!’’ sleeping on the bed with the people who loved the most wouldn’t be a problem, even if they really suffocated him.’’ i would let you win,silly. you dress better than me anyway.’’ just when he’s about to pat haeju on the back, he hears that someone is dropping the bags inside before they close the door and leave. now that everything is settled, he can pay attention to haeju more without worrying about anything. ‘’i’m sorry! i ━ order stuff everyday without checking! i didn’t even know about their new summer line until i ordered some stuff.’’ jay plays with haeju’s hair for a brief moment before leaning his own head on top of his. ’’ if it's gonna make you feel better i’ll admit that you are a pro when it comes to fashion. i usually don’t know anything, i just get whatever looks pretty.’’ without waiting for haeju to reply, jay attacks his cheek and squishes his cheeks with a smile on his face. ‘’yes, small haeju is the coolest person i’ve ever met. just look at him looking like a gucci model and cutest cheeks.’’

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sunnydefazzio‌:

“yeah i know, but if i don’t work then i don’t have backup money if my black card ever gets termed,” she said. sunny shrugged and leaned against the counter. “no. everyone loved her. i cried like a bitch when i found out she died. the priesthood is gonna escort her hearse to the cemetery. the bronx and manhattan chapters are gonna be there in porkchop and hippie’s honor.”

“my parents give me enough money every month to buy a new car or two. we can always split! i don’t spend that much anyway! i only need 50k or 100k for shopping and that's it!’’ he leans over the table,taking his phone to check how much money he has left for this month.’’ of course i’ll come with you! just don’t make me look at her, otherwise i’ll be crying for the next 6 months.’’

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strcwbcrrywine‌:

haeju can’t stop the giggle that falls from his lips as the other gives him a hug, quick to return it by wrapping his arms around jay. “six more? and here i thought i was bad at over-packing.” he teases, gently patting jay’s cheek with the palm of his hand before a grin is painting it’s way onto his features. “it wouldn’t be a bad thing, no. but you’d either have to sleep on the couch or share a bed with me — or hunny. that’s up to you.” there’s a wink that follows his words, a small nod of his head. “and you know i love how you throw sleepovers, wouldn’t keep having them with you if i didn’t.” the silver-haired male replies, flopping himself down onto the couch as he watches the other start to open one of his bags. “i didn’t expect anything less, jay… i spent literally the entire day rearranging my closet by brands just for this purpose as well!” he chuckles, brows raising lightly as the other starts going through the brands he’d brought with him. “one day we’ll get you to love gucci as much as i do.” there’s an over-dramatic sigh that falls from haeju’s lips as he speaks, though his features show the other he’s merely teasing. “we need to go shopping soon, balenciaga dropped their new summer line and i’m sure a bunch of other places did too.” he continues, running his hand through his hair before patting the spot next to him as an invitation for jay to join him. “lies and slander. i’ll always love you and just how extra you are, no matter what you have up those expensive sleeves of yours.”

'' it’s not over-packing if it’s necessary.’’ jay opens each bag one by one to make sure he got everything before jumping next to haeju on the couch. ‘’ how about we all sleep together in a giant bed? i’ll sleep in the middle,of course. i want cuddles from both of you.’’ he claps his hands unconsciously, excitement bubbling up inside his chest. ‘‘i always wanted a friend who loves fashion as much as i do. i’m lucky to have you in my life, now we can shop every week.’‘ sleepovers are his favorite thing and when it’s with people he loves, it’s even better.’‘ well, you look way better in gucci than i do so, i’ll stick with chanel.’‘ he’s not sure if the outfit haeju had worn to new year party was from gucci or not but he looked absolutely amazing in it. ‘‘don’t get mad when i tell you that i already pre-ordered is that what it is called? anyway, i pre-ordered some stuff a while ago.’’ A slight pout appeared on his face but he quickly replaced it with a smile.’’ but it ain’t gonna stop us from going on a shopping date!’’ he sends him a flying kiss. ‘’ i love it when you love my extra personality. also don’t tell anyone but you are the only one who can keep up with me! people usually get tired after 2 minutes.’’

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strcwbcrrywine‌:

haeju had been straighting up his room when he heard the kick to the door that jay had placed to the wood, alerting the silver-haired male of the other’s presence as he finishes up placing a few new decorative pieces on his bookshelf. “i’m in here!!” he calls to the other, turning on his heel to make a bee-line towards the living room. that’s when he hears the thuds of the other dropping the backpacks onto the ground. “good lord, jay.” haeju teases lightly as he finally enters the living room, eyes falling to the bags that were already on the ground. “that’s fine with me, figured that’s what we’d do anyways!” he grins, brow raising as he listens to jay. “more? how many? it’s like you packed enough to move in. or stay for a month long.” the male teases lightly, going over to the door to prop it open. “it’s okay, i still love you i guess.”

hearing haeju’s voice, jay kicks the bags immediately to run and give him a hug. ‘’only 6 more, i promise.’’ it’s not his fault that he cannot stop himself, he loves sleepovers, especially planning them. ‘’you make it sound like me moving in is a bad thing. lucky you, i have a surprise for you in these bags. you know i throw a better sleepover party than blair waldorf!’’ he kneels down to open the big black bag. ‘’ i thought we might give each other makeovers ‘cause it’s like a tradition, i decided to separate the clothes by my favorite brands!’’ while he struggles with the bag, his eyes check the door every minute to see if the other bags arrived or not. ‘’5 bags for clothes. valentino, chanel, balmain, moschino and the last bag has just other brands in it.’’ poor haeju, those 6 more bags are just for clothes and he has no idea that also 3 more bags of skin care products are on their way. ‘’ i think you won’t love me in like 3 minutes...’’

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@strcwbcrrywine

by the time jay reached to haeju’s apartment, his arms had started to hurt. calling someone for help would be better but he has to learn to do things by himself. he kicks the door softly, hoping that it’s not locked. ‘’yes!’’ he drags the two red handbags behind him while trying to balance himself because the other two backpacks on his arms are already falling. ‘’ where are you? i’m dying!’’ he shouts. ‘’ i thought it would be better to have the sleepover here since your place is bigger.’’ with a sigh of relief, he drops the backpacks on the floor when he finally reaches the living room. ‘’ show yourself already! i have more bags coming.’’

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adansulaiman‌:

‘you’ve got odd taste in friends,’ adan replies with puzzlement. after a long time recalling the mention of thief, he rolls his eyes. ‘that bloke on the first floor isn’t it? ken something or other? people mix me up with him more times than i’d like to mention,’ he continues, but offers a kind smile and hands over the wallet. ‘you walk entirely too quickly by the way. either you’re a track star or i’m older physically than i thought.’

''that’s what everyone says.’’ he smiles at the memory of how he met kenzo quickly before giving the other man a smile.‘’ kenzo! yes, it’s him! well you two definitely look alike but you don’t smell like him at all. not that you smell bad, though!’’ he takes the wallet, bowing a little before putting it in his pocket. ‘’ i try to walk quickly, so it looks like i’m busy. you are definitely not old, you look amazing!’’

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luckypenelope‌:

“You’re only allowed on special occasions?” Penny repeated, confused by what he was saying. She looked over one shoulder, then the other, and said, “Forgive me, but I only see us two in here. Is your mom hiding under the couch or something? Did she bug the whole building with cameras so she could keep an eye on you?” The sarcasm was practically oozing out of her, but it’s not like she could help it. What this young man was telling her was purely ridiculous, in her humble opinion. “Sounds like your mom is the type to pick out your outfits every morning and cuts the crusts off your sandwiches. Even when you’re thirty-five and married.”

''yeah like when i have to attend family meetings. i’m allowed to drink with my mom or sometimes by myself if it’s important like i don’t know, valentine’s day?’’  jay knows most people, no, everyone finds it ridiculous when he explains the real reason why he doesn’t drink. but he made a promise to his mother that he would never drink alcohol without her permission. ‘’ no, of course not! but i did! i mean i did bug my whole apartment, just in case. i would bug the whole building if they let me...’’ 16 years old jay would be embarrassed but the present jay is kind of proud of himself for listening to his mother.‘’ i wish she could pick my outfit every morning but she’s far away from me. she has a good sense of fashion so i wouldn’t mind. is that bad?’’

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sunnydefazzio‌:

“hey, i’ve been holding it all day okay? sue me. actually sue my job,” she said, opening the bathroom door. “yeah but like… if i also didn’t tell you, you’d still be upset that you didn’t know. her funeral is friday. you wanna go?”

'' i'm not judging!’’ he giggles. ‘’you know you don’t have to work,right? i can pay you all you want and you don’t even have to do anything!’’ his smile fades in a second with the mention of the funeral. ‘’ babe... okay but won’t it be weird if i cry even more than her own family? you know me, i don’t handle death really well...’’

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“This movie is forcing me to drink,” Penny noted before taking a rather large gulp of her wine. The cable in her room went out, and out of boredom, she carried a bottle of wine and a couple glasses down to Mulberry’s TV room where she could relax after a long day of classes. It was unfortunate that the only movie available was complete trash. “The director has the male gaze integrated into almost every frame. Like, I’m pretty sure I’ve seen this woman bite her lip like ten times in the past five minutes. And if I see a slow-motion pan up her body one more time, I’m gonna scream.” Penny was never usually this talkative, but with three glasses of wine in her system, her opinions were dying to be heard. Alcohol also made her more generous, apparently, as she picked up the bottle on the coffee table and asked the person next to her, “Do you want some? It costs like… $500, but I’ve had store-brand grape juice that’s tasted better, to be honest.”

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TV room might not be the best place to study but his own apartment was too quiet that he couldn't bring himself to focus on the paper in front of him. going to the cafe down the street was out of option because he always ended up chatting with others so the only place left was TV room. his eyes land on the girl sitting on the couch, sipping on her wine. ‘’this paper is forcing me to drink.’’ he drops himself next to her, not too close because he doesn’t want to make her uncomfortable. ‘’slow-motion is the worst to be honest. it’s fine sometimes but when it’s every 2 seconds it gets boring quickly.’’ he says, taking out his computer. ‘’oh, i think i’ll pass. i don’t drink alcohol, i promised my mom. i mean i do but i’m only allowed to drink it if there is a special occasion like the new year's party or if it’s a school event. thank you, though.’’

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adansulaiman‌:

@jayvxr — ! º

god, adan was out of shape; with every flat-footed step he took running toward the man who’d just left the cafe, he felt himself more and more out of breath than before. whether it had been the cold winter weather attacking his lungs, just being out of practice in sprinting or a little of both, he needed to make sure he caught up to him. ‘oy,’ he called out, finally relenting in his pursuit, hands grabbing his knees harshly as he began to catch his breath. ‘you left your wallet at the counter. far be it from me to tell you where to put your money but I figured on your own person was best.’

jay wasn’t expecting to find someone out of breath when he turns around. ‘’huh?’’ his eyes focuses on his shiny pink wallet in the other’s hand and it all feels too familiar. ‘’no! you should have stolen it! now, quick! act like you stole it and i caught you.’’ after all, that’s how he met one of his favorite people, right? ‘’uhm, sorry. it’s just that people who stole my wallet turn out to be my friend afterward. you look like you could be my friend too.’’

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kihcn‌:

It isn’t Jay’s intent to make Hunny feel guilty, but nonetheless with the way his brain works, he feels a spike of it inside of him mixed with a very distinct anxiety when he says what he does. Is he not doing enough for the people he cares about? Is he being selfish? Should he stop talking? He doesn’t know, but he certainly doesn’t feel good about anything right now. “Oh.” He breathes it out, pausing for thought, but only briefly. “I guess I’m hidden behind clouds?” He tries that on, attempting to lighten the mood just a bit, but he’s pretty sure it falls short of playful. His tone doesn’t carry it well enough. “I think I’m just a bit homesick. It’s not um — really that big of a deal, but I feel…more at home. With you.” Which is why he’d shown up here. He hadn’t meant to make Jay feel bad, or be a burden.

''it is a big deal,hunny.’’  jay is quite taken aback by what he said. hunny feeling like at home when he’s with him, yeah it makes sense but jay knows it means a lot. he feels exactly the same but still, hearing those words from hunny brings a smile to his face. ’oh, you do? me too but it’s not about me.you can always come to me when you feel homesick you know. you can always come to me about anything.’’ jay wants to be there for him without making him feel like he’s being a burden. if only jay was good at this, everything would a lot easier.  ‘’ i know i’m not the best when it comes to comforting people but i’ll try my best especially if it’s you.’’  it’s not about him though, it’s not about how he’s not good at it or anything else, it’s about how hunny feels. ‘’i lo— care about you. uhm,a lot.’’  

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sunnydefazzio‌:

“uh no, i think i can pee on my own, been doing it since yanno… in utero,” she said. “oh hey, remember pastor margie from faith temple? the bartlett family’s leading lady?” she asked. “she passed away a few days ago.”

''you sure? you are awfully slow for someone who’s been doing it since in utero.’’ jay says. ‘’ sunny,no. why would you tell me that? you know i can’t deal with dying people. i don’t know how to act or what to say now.’’