*｡lost & found*ﾟ

going through a divorce and I want to post my poetry about it

[jazminteasposts]

"Butch as a Weapon"

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I wanted Butch as in

Healthy masculinity & Teddy Bear Mommy

I wanted Butch as in

Fingers that know my softest parts that dig through my Magnolia Roots.

I never knew Butch as in

Deceptive & Shifting

Snake dens

I never knew Butch as in

American Colonialism & Rotten Cavity Sugar Daddy.

Until After You.

Oct. 18 2025

[jazminteasposts]

Oooooh man today has been a strong day for me. I'm in the process of ending my relationship with my wife over weed/smoking.

It's been a year of control, toxic manipulation, lying, and growth. I feel like I finally turned a page today. I finally found my strength and I'm able to stand up for myself through actions and not just words anymore. Fuck. Yes.

A year of making me feel guilty for something she has been known about me for years. Making me feel shame for things innate to my free will. Her attempts to control me aren't working anymore and I finally am finding my peace as I work on my exit.

Does anyone have any spaces online to connect with others going through divorce? I'm only 26 but I want to celebrate this process with others and I especially want to find community over something so complicated </3

[jazminteasposts]

Smoke keeps the bird spirits away.

I should have known it would be today—Auspicious day after all.

Silent weary magpie eyes,

prying curious, aware.

¿Is there any difference?

A conversation with the universe.

Cannot be stopped or avoided.

Some force of this world is calling to me by a name that feels like Home.

I wish I had the Sights to see who is Calling me.

Embracing can be Selfish.

Welcome back home once again.

I'm glad you were not lost at the mercy of the Winds,

Stork sisters & brothers.

Careful that this new reality does not blind you in the Smoke & cause a riptide of Lunar proportions.

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20.01.26

Written by me.