hi! welcome to my blog loves, please make sure to read this before requesting so we don’t run into any problems <3 my inbox is always open if there is any kind of problem, so don’t be afraid to ask anything
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What I will not write;
♡nsfw. content, as I am a minor and will feel uncomfortable writing said things. I will write some spicy things but don’t make me take it too far I'll be weirded out. Some fics may imply nsfw scenarios, but once again I will not write them out.
♡ none of that neko neko shit, fuck out my face with that. yall scared me too much with that, I'm traumatized. I'll delete the request on site.
♡ I will write things about sensitive topics, but please don’t send me a request like ‘overhaul kills your entire family and makes you his slave, but since he fed you, you forever love him’ like girl no, I'll try to make it semi-realistic. at least let the reader hate him first and overhaul gain his rights back.
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What I will write;
♡ head canons
♡drabbles
♡scenerios
♡oneshots
♡songfics
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General Rules;
♡I will always leave my inbox open for questions or asks, no matter how many I get.
♡If you do request, please let me know if you want it gn or from a females perspective.
♡4 characters max for head canons please!!
♡ I write fluff and angst
♡when requesting please try to be specific and not to vague, I want the fic to be perfect for you! I don’t want to get the wrong idea or do it wrong.
♡i do do character x character so just let me know. i won’t do minor x adult so keep that in mind.
♡i will for now do emergency request, but if i feel like it’s too much of a burden i won’t anymore.
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Fandoms I will write for;
♡ bnha
♡ haikyuu
♡tower of god
♡bsd
♡ assassination classroom
♡ black butler
♡demon slayer
♡ aot
♡fruits basket
♡ hxh
♡noragami
♡akame ga kill
and many more! honestly if you recommend me an anime you want me to write for, i’ll definitely watch it and add it on the list. If there’s an anime you don’t see on the list, all you gotta do is ask about it.
I may have already seen it but just didn’t add it.
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Pls Remember;
♡ I am a college student so you’ll have to keep that in mind when requesting.
♡ i’ll do my best to answer requests when i get them, but sometimes my brain gets all ‘KOnaosksozj’ and i end up not writing as fast as I want
♡if you feel like i didn’t get your request, or its taking too long you can always tell me! i swear i’m a chill person and won’t get angry
♡i’ll try not to spend too much time on a request and get it out in under a week, but if it takes longer or i get busy then i apologize!!
♡i have the right to refuse request that make me uncomfortable
Synopsis; You had watched day by day, as the love of your life fell for someone who wasn’t you. It hurt a lot. Deciding that you should take matters into your own hands, you begin to take action and take what you thought was rightfully yours. No one else could have him, Dabi was yours, and only yours and you didn’t like sharing.
Warnings; Death lmfao, mentions of alcohol and overuse. A bit of taking advantage of Dabi if you squint and a reader willing to do anything to get her crush.
Word Count; 3092
A/N; This idea came to me when I was heading to bed after watching the series ‘How to get away with murder’ and while the two of them aren’t that similar, it caused me to think of this. I typed this up and didn’t finish till around 5 am, so enjoy my little typos and vibe with me.
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Everything seemed perfect, and when you say ‘perfect’, you meant it.
Maybe it was the light drizzle of rain that soaked into both of your clothes, mixed in with the natural glow of the moon and stars made for a perfect scene. The sketchy buildings behind you, and the constant honk from a car passing by only added to the moment.
Maybe it was how his rough hands held your body so softly, despite being the same hands of a killer. Maybe it was how he held you close, one hand resting on your cheek as his fiery blue eyes stared into yours. The love and passion that were displayed in his orbs had you standing there frozen. His breath was fanning your face, eyes peering into yours with no fears and no regrets. The hand on your cheek moved slowly, almost hypnotizing, as the other hand that rested on your hip pulled you closer to his warm body.
Now a small smile rested on his features, showing you that he was more than some smirking bastard that you usually saw. You stared at the many staples on his face, and the purple marks under his eyes, and honestly, it had only made him hotter in this moment.
The rain had now started to seep into your clothes making you shiver from not only that, but how close the other male was. And he would only get closer, closer and closer until his lips only brushed against yours in a taunting way. You were both hungry for each other, that much could be said, but the build up was starting to drive you crazy.
And finally, after his blue eyes stared into yours for so long, asking permission, well more like begging for you to let him continue, you nodded and he finally closed the gap between you two.
HONKKK
The loud honk and the sound of tires screeching snaps you out of your daze, making you finally come to your senses. Your eyes trail to the two cars that almost hit each other due to the rain affecting their sight. The two cars yell, before continuing their journey on the street, speeding away without actually fighting.
Rolling your eyes, you finally remembered what you were doing. Your eyes gaze across the street, where you see Dabi, and no, he wasn’t with you and about to kiss you like your earlier thoughts.
Instead he was leaning in to kiss some other girl, a girl who wasn’t you, and a girl who didn’t deserve him.
You have to avert your eyes when you hear her giggle, and even though the rain was pretty loud, it still didn’t cover up the disgusting noises of their lips smacking together. It disgusted you, almost making you call it a night and go home, but you stayed, knowing you’d only sit home wondering what happened if you left.
You watch as they make out, his hands exploring her body and her leaning more into him. After a long time of watching, they finally pull away, smiling at each other as they let each other go.
“Goodnight Dabi, hopefully I can see you tomorrow” You hear her pathetic voice say, and you watch as he nods, giving her a light smack on her ass. After a while of exchanging more words, the female walks up to her apartment, leaving Dabi alone.
You duck down in your car when you see him cross the street, cursing quietly as you hoped he wouldn’t notice you or your car. Stalking wasn’t really your thing, but if it meant keeping an eye on the guy you loved, then you’d learn real quick.
“Fuck her, she doesn’t deserve him” You spit out, sitting back up in your seat when Dabi turned into a nearby alley, vanishing quickly. Turning your car on, you turned to look at her apartment once more before shaking your head and speeding off.
He was yours first, and now some other bitch has stolen him away from you with a few flirty looks and the promise of a future. It irritated you that you, his best friend, had been thrown to the side once a new girl was brought into the picture.
In the end, you had only wished it was you who he was kissing in the rain, but sadly it was some other girl instead.
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“That will be 34.72 Ma’am”
You nodded at the old man, giving him a small smile as you took out your wallet, pulling out two twenties. Handing it to him, you mumble for him to keep the change before taking your grocery bag and exiting the store.
After what you had seen last night, you had believed it would be good for you to go out and get some groceries for your apartment. As eating out every night was starting to ruin your funds, and you knew you couldn’t afford to be homeless now.
The sun was bright today, and the chatter amongst all the people walking on the sidewalk put you in a better mood. A way better mood than yesterday. Watching as the noisy children ran down the sidewalk with their toys in hand and smiles on their faces made your own face light up.
Swinging your grocery bag, your eyes looked around your surroundings, enjoying the nice day that you seemed to be having.
Feeling your pocket vibrate, you pull out your phone and answer it without checking the caller ID, the ringtone alone has already told you who it was. “What’s up Dabi, did you need anything or-”
You stop walking as you listen to his heavy breathing, which very much concerns you. “Y/n…” The pause after your name had you freaking out, making you assume the worst had happened. “I need you to come to my apartment” With those words, you heard the click of the phone call ending.
It took a moment for that to sink in, and when it did you immediately broke out into a run, straight to Dabi’s apartment. It didn’t matter if you looked stupid, or the many people who you bumped into or knocked over. All that mattered was your best friend needed you, and you’d be damned if you took your sweet time to make it there.
You made it to his apartment in under ten minutes, which if you had to say, was the quickest you had ever ran in your life. Stopping outside, you bend over as you pant, trying to catch your breath after all that sprinting.
Walking up the stairs of the rundown building, you cringe when you see a literal rat scurry across the wooden floors. Disgusted, you hurry your way up the stairs, actually terrified you’d fall through.
Making it to his door, you go to knock before seeing the door had already been open. Taking a deep breath, you push open the door and prepare for the worst.
Upon opening the door, you are immediately hit with the strong smell of vodka and cigarettes. The combination of the two together was enough to make you gag, but you held it in as you walked in, closing the door behind you.
“Dabi….” You trail off as your eyes finally land on him. He was only in a white tank top and some black joggers, an outfit that would have been very sexy if you didn’t notice the distraught look on his face. He was slightly bent over his counter, a glass of what you assumed was vodka in his hand.
When he turned to look at you, you noticed his red, puffy tired eyes. Now you knew something was up. Walking closer to him, you dropped your grocery bag on the floor and joined him next to the counter.
“What happened Dabi?” You ask softly, eyes searching his face before meeting his blue eyes. He had only stared back at you quietly, and after a few more seconds he sighed and downed the drink in his hands. You noticed that afterwards his shoulders sagged.
“She’s dead y/n” He whispers, eyes staring at his empty glass. Gripping the table tightly, Dabi shakes as his rage starts to build up. “She’s dead and it’s all my fault” The soft, scared tone he had earlier, vanished quickly and turned into an anger filled tone.
You watch as he turns his whole body to you, his anger filled eyes staring down at you, and for a second, such a look being aimed at you had made you uncomfortable. The way his blue eyes seemed to have blue flames in them now, or how the room had gotten 10x hotter added to that growing uncomfortableness.
“Just calm down, tell me what happened” You state, not liking how things were turning out. You didn’t even know what was happening, so sitting here without the slightest clue had only made you worry more. “You aren’t at fault for anything, just-”
Your body freezes when you hear the shatter of glass, your eyes widening as you watch Dabi’s body shake in anger. “Calm down you say?’’ He repeats your words with a much harsher tone, as narrowed as he turned to face you, chest rising and falling in anger.
The way his eyes burned into yours had you shifting back and forth on your feet. You had just watched him throw that same glass he was drinking out of earlier at the wall in front of him. It shattered into a bunch of pieces.
“It’s all my fucking fault for even getting close to her’’ He rants, now pacing the tiny apartment. “I knew even talking to her was a big risk but FUCK” He slammed his hand against the counter, going quiet as he retreated back into his mind.
You take small steps in his direction, acting as if you were approaching a wounded puppy, which in a sense you were. “Dabi, don’t you dare blame yourself for this. Whoever killed her is to blame, putting this all on you isn’t right”
“Shut up, shut up, shut up” He continues to mumble, “ you have no idea what you're talking about, since last I knew, you were still single and lonely.” He didn’t look at you while he spoke, “So that means you wouldn’t clearly understand what I was going through” He snapped at you, hands still gripping the countertop.
You take a deep breath, you knew he was just saying these things because he was hurting, but that didn’t mean it hurt any less. But this wasn’t about you. Dabi needed you in this moment, so no amount of harsh words would make you leave when you knew he needed someone right now.
“I know you're hurting” You start off, taking confident steps towards him until you stand right in front of him. “And, if it makes you feel better to take it out on me, then go ahead. If that means yelling, throwing things or even calling me names”
Dabi slowly turns his body towards you, looking down into your sincere eyes. “You can do all of that, but I’ll still be here for you, because I am your best friend. It would be pointless if even me, someone you are really close with, can’t help you out during a crisis” You finish off.
You notice how his mood changes again, and his shoulders sag once more. “I’m here for you” You whisper as you close the gap between the two of you, your arms wrapping around his body as you pull him into a comforting hug.
“ I was just starting to like her y/n, I thought that maybe she and I could work” His arms wrap around you in a tight hug, placing his head in the crook of her neck. You feel the tears before you hear them, and it honestly breaks your heart.
The two of you slowly drop to the ground, holding onto each other like your life depends on it. You hold him tightly as he cries, rubbing his back soothingly. You relished in the fact that you were holding Dabi, a small smile coming onto your face. You made sure he couldn’t see it, though.
It was bad, you knew that, but just being able to hold him in your arms was enough to make you happy. Being close enough to breath in his scent, which mostly smelled like burnt cigarettes and heavy cologne, but that didn’t matter to you. It still smelled nice either way.
After a few more minutes of holding each other, Dabi finally pulls away and wipes his tears, a small smile on his face. “ Y/n, have I ever told you, you're my best friend and I’d be hopeless without you?”
While it was a compliment, it had only hurt you in the end. You didn’t want to just be some best friend, you wanted to be more than that. Someone he could love and cherish, but you knew that maybe that wouldn’t happen. “I’m always here for you Dabi, through thick and thin”
He tugs at your wrist lightly, helping you up as he leads the two of you back to the counter. “We both need some drinks after that” He gestures to the glass that still lay shattered on the floor. “It’s the best vodka I could steal” He mumbles as he grabs two new glasses for the both of them to use.
Pouring the two of them some of the vodka, the both of you pick up your glasses, clinking them together just because. Taking a deep breath, you drink the shot, the burning feeling it left afterwards made you shake your head in disgust. Yet Dabi had looked unaffected by it.
“To be honest y/n, I was just trying to find someone to love in all this chaos” Dabi states with a sigh, his hand gripping his glass lightly. He turns to look at you and chuckles, “But that didn’t seem to work out” He says sadly.
Maybe it was the vodka in your system, or maybe you were just tired of tiptoeing around him about your feelings. “I think you’ve been looking in the wrong places for someone to love, hell maybe the person right in front of you already does”
The silence that followed after your statement had made you nervous, and instead of looking at him, your gaze shifted to the floor. Alcohol sure does give you a hell of a confidence boost.
“Y/n...Did you mean that?” Dabi asks, his eyes staring at you for confirmation. When he noticed you wouldn’t even look at him, he finally understood.
You had liked him this entire time.
As his brain worked to put the pieces together, he found himself taking steps towards you. His head was screaming that maybe, just maybe that this was too soon. His mind was telling him that this was wrong, that he had just found out a girl he had liked had been murdered. But, again,the alcohol in his system was making his heart feel some things at her confession.
His heart and head battle it out, wondering what the best decision was.
In the end, he found himself cornering you, placing both of his hands on the counter in front of you, cadging you in. “Didn’t know alcohol made you this bold y/n” He whispers, studying your face.
He had wondered why it had taken him so long to figure out that you were beautiful, always there for him and putting up with his bullshit. You were the only one who truly knew him and he looked over the simple fact that maybe you were a good match for him.
You had frozen in front of him, not expecting him to get this close to you. It makes your face feel hot and the hairs on your body stand up. “Well, guess that's a good think huh?” You say back, your eyes staring into his fiery blue ones.
Your long time crush was now standing in front of you, possibly going to act out on his feelings and you felt nothing but happiness. You had been eying him since you had walked in his apartment.
Like how his black joggers fit nicely on his legs, and now his white tank top was tight against his chest, leaving little room for you to imagine. His toned arms free and currently flexing on the counter next to you had you practically drooling.
His face was close to yours, which gave you the excuse to stare at him even more. His black hair was messy, pointing in almost every direction. A small teasing smirk was on his face, his eyes looking you up and down. Not to mention that the staples and purple parts of his body had only made him sexier.
He was the hottest man you knew, and he was hovering over you.
“Is.. Is this okay?’’ Dabi asks, gazing into your eyes as he asks for permission, leaning in just enough that your lips brushed together, but still not what the both of you wanted. “Tell me now if you want me to stop”
You think about his question, and while there wasn’t anything to think about, your mind goes back to yesterday night. The night the girl he liked was killed.
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“Please.. I’ll do anything! I’ll never speak to him again.. Please” The scared voice of the female in front of you did nothing but piss you even more. Her shaking figure though, had made you happy.
Swinging the bat in your hand you shake your head, it was too late for things like that.
“He’s mine, and I’ll be sure to kill anyone who tries to come between us. And that's a promise” You say, swinging the bat full force at her.
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You nod, “Duh, wouldn’t have it another way” You say lowly, before your hand comes up to his cheek and pulls him into a kiss, one that you have been waiting forever for.
He presses his body against you, his hands going to your thighs as he hoists you up onto the counter. He had wanted to be even closer to you, so he settled his way between your legs and deepened the kiss.
You wrapped your arms around his neck, pulling him impossibly closer. His lips were rough, but against your soft ones they were a perfect combination. You had waited so long, for just one kiss.
Pairings; Dabi, Shigaraki and Kurogiri x GN Reader (separate)
Synopsis; A lot of people tend to only see the bad and rough sides of villains, but what about their soft sides? The sides they keep reserved for their s/o and people they trust? What happens after a long day of villainous work? What do they do once the doors are closed and it’s only them and their s/o alone.
Warnings; Fluff, soft mentions of rough pasts and hurt.
Word Count; 904
A/N; I’ll be honest, I just needed some soft villains right now and decided to write them. It made me feel better writing this as angsty love songs played in the background. Hopefully someone else enjoys this, and I am always open to criticism and help. I didn’t really go through and edit this a lot, so there may be a few mistakes.
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Shigaraki
➸ One look at Shigaraki and one might say ‘’This man wouldn’t treat his s/o good.’’ Well they couldn’t be more wrong. Just because he’s a villain has nothing to do with it and his crusty lips don’t either. Shigaraki would be an amazing s/o, and not just because he’s strong minded and knows what he wants, it’s because he’d treat his s/o like they were his whole world.
➸Since he’s been neglected due to love and abandonment issues he’d latch onto the first person who even said they slightly liked him. He’s like a lost puppy who just wants love and affection, which he deserves.
➸While he’ll never admit it, he's a very lovey dovey and wants to give and receive affection all the time. He wants hugs, cuddles and kisses all the time. If you don’t give it to him, he’ll start pouting and possibly get annoyed until you give him what he wants.
➸ His favorite thing to do with you is have you in his lap as you play a game, he’ll get all excited and explain everything to you while showing you everything. If you already know, just shut up and let him have his moment.
➸ While Shigaraki can be hard to approach for most people, he enjoys when you have no problem strutting up to him and starting a conversation. It makes him feel less lonely and unbearable. Just seeing your eyes light up as you spot him makes his day, and he couldn’t ask for anyone better.
➸ His second favorite thing to do with you is to simply cuddle. He likes to be the little spoon since he feels the most loved in the position. It feels nice to be held and protected while he sleeps. He’s mush in your hands.
➸ His kisses can range to soft pecks to full blown make out sessions, so that really depends on what kind of mood he’s in. He enjoys either, just your lips pressed against his is better than any drug out there.
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Dabi
➸ Dabi is one cocky motherfucker, and you learned that way before even deciding to date him, yet that cockiness struck something in you. While dating Mr. Cocky, you learned just how.. Insecure he was.
➸Dabi was a wandering child when it came to love, one who put up multiple walls to protect him from the harshness of the world he knew. There are times where he needs reassurance that you won’t be just another person who’ll leave him again. He is cocky, but he’s also madly in love with you and scared to lose you.
➸His job is really stressful at times and many people tend to forget that being a villain isn’t just some walk in the park. Sometimes he’ll come home gloomy and tired and you just know what you need to do. He’ll simply climb into bed, and you’ll open your arms for him without a second thought. He’ll lay right on your stomach as you run your hands through his hair, washing all his worries away with a few strokes.
➸Your presence alone is enough to soothe him. While he knows he can act like an asshole, or be a bit too rough to you amidst his love for you, he also likes being soft with you. Like laying on the couch and watching tv, you know the normal things.
➸He likes the 3am chats with you, where he spills his heart to you in the moment and hopes you won’t ever look at him differently. He looks at you like you're the only person in the world, and he holds you that way too.
➸He lives for the soft kisses and soft caresses, and while he’s usually rough, in these moments he appreciates going slow and appreciating the moment between you two.
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Kurogiri
➸This man is already a mother and father for the LOV, so he already has that nature to fix things and makes sure things go to plan. He’s always cleaning up Shigaraki’s mess and keeping everyone from killing each other. Yet has anyone ever been the one to cook for him? Make sure he’s okay? Ensure that he isn’t stressing out to the max.
➸That’s where you come in. Coming to you always makes him feel loved and cherished, never feeling like he has to run the extra mile to be with you. He appreciates when you cook for him, bonus points if it's a surprise. It’s enough to make him pause and genuinely smile. It doesn’t matter if you burned it, or if it tasted terrible, it’s the thought that counts.
➸He likes just laying with you, preferably being the little spoon as he tells you all about his day and the crazy things that happened. This doesn’t happen too often, but sometimes he needs to be taken care of as well. So joint showers or doing foot masks are helpful.
➸Kurogiri likes you. He is the type to use someone for the benefit of Shigaraki succeeding, but you aren’t like that. You are one of the only people beside Shigaraki that he truly likes and cares for. He worries for your wellbeing all the time, and constantly checks in to make sure you are okay.
➸This man is soft pretty much all the time around you, as you literally melt his cold heart. You just accepting who he is is enough for him to forever stay.
Can I request a hq one shot for Tsukishima? Maybe where the reader confesses to him that she likes him, but then downplay it and walk off, because she thought it'd be pointless to tell him/he wouldn't like her the same, but in reality he does like her :> tyy 💕🧡💞
Fandom; Haikyuu!!
Pairing; Tsukishima Kei X Female Reader
Synopsis; You were tired of running in circles, tired of not knowing if your best friend had liked you back or not, or if you were a fool with a one sided crush. Deciding to get it over with once and for all, you pull Tsukishima to the side and confess your silly crush to him hoping that in the end you gain a boyfriend and not a broken heart.
Warning; Fluff, well as fluffy as a Tsukishima fic can be
Word count; 2155
A/N; I have been feeling low for some time, and actually saw this request and my heart leaped. I hope you enjoy this maddi!! Hope i did this salty hoe some justice :))
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You had to do this.
You were tired of sneaking glances at him in class, face heating up every time you were caught or the teacher called you out about it. You were tired of sitting with him at lunch and pretending like your heart didn’t hurt every time he called you his ‘friend.’ It was tiresome, and if you had to deal with being unintentionally friendzoned again, you would rip out all of your hair and move to some farmtown to live out the rest of your days hiding from society.
His constant teasing was starting to leave a huge impact on you, and instead of getting snarky like you usually got with him, you ended up going silent whenever he playfully insulted you. Now taking his playful insults more personally than ever.
You had to do this. The fear of not knowing if he liked you back or if the side glances and extra touchie gestures were nothing but him getting more comfortable with you. Being kept in the dark had only made it more frustrating. You needed to confess and see what happened after that. No matter what happened, he was still your best friend first right?
Wrong.
While you were trying to give yourself that lovely pep talk, you had finally noticed that your palms were sweating. Rubbing them together created a grimmy feeling that made your stomach turn and rumble. The sudden confidence you had earlier had vanished, and now your hands gripped the end of your skirt, shaking lightly as they fiddled with the flimsy material.
You had now stopped in your strut towards the blonde haired male, watching as he messed with his headphones, probably going to put them on and start heading home as usual. Were you going to stand here in fear, never to confess and watch as the boy you’ve liked for so long slip out of your grasp because you were too nervous and too scared to admit you had some silly crush on him?
Taking a step forward, your words died in your throat as you felt a sudden chill. Panic clawed at your throat, making you momentarily freeze. The sudden thought of being rejected flooded your mind, and now just the thought of that made it hard to breathe.
He was your best friend, yes, but who's to say he wouldn’t suddenly start ignoring you because you had made it weird between the two of them? Would you be the one to ruin such a good friendship the two of you had just because you ended up catching feelings.
While you kept tearing yourself down, making it seem like there wasn’t any hope, a small flicker of hopefulness filled your heart. The ‘what if’ he did like you backs filled your mind, drowning out the raging negativeness that seemed to overflow your brain.
What was the point in all these ‘what if’s?’ Why not just figure it out and then go from there, in the end, admitting your feelings to someone wasn’t a crime, and sure as hell shouldn’t end a good friendship the two of you had built if it was a genuine one.
“Tsukishima!’’ You call out, breath catching in your throat as you watched him whip his head in your direction, a scowl already sitting on his face. Walking towards him, you gripped your bag tightly in your hands, making confident steps towards the tall male.
Looking down upon you, Tsukishima didn’t look too impressed to see you standing in front of him. Or maybe he did? You could never tell because he either had a scowl on his face or a teasing grin, and both you didn’t like in the slightest.
“What is it y/n, if you couldn’t tell, I was trying to leave this hellhole and go home for some peace and quiet” He says bluntly, golden eyes staring you down as the height difference between you two became more apparent than ever. His tone was the usual annoying one, the one where it made it feel like you were bothering him.
Gripping your bag tighter, you open your mouth to say something but instead end up closing it with nothing coming out. The panic was still there yes, but standing in front of him right had made it more real now that it was really happening. Shifting back and forth on your feet, you looked everywhere but his eyes now, knowing you wouldn’t be able to tell him when his unwavering gaze was on you.
That was your first mistake, showing him such a panicky side of you would only make him more interested in what you had to say, and that was a known fact. Now instead of looking at you with disinterest, he now had a shit eating grin on his face. His whole demeanor changed in a second, taking your moment of weakness lightly and in his favor. He was now interested. It was easy to see.
His hand now rested on his hip and he leaned in closer to you, wanting you to spit out whatever you had to say to him. He had even stopped messing with his headphones. His attention was now all on you, and you didn’t like it.
“Come on cupcake, by now I could have been halfway home”
His words were playful and provoking. You knew it was too late to go back, he already knew something was up, and giving him some lame excuse or telling him nevermind would surely make him angry.
Taking a deep breath, you looked up and met his golden eyes once more, trying not to get sucked into the beauty of them. He was always handsome when he grinned at you, since it was so different from the scowl he gave everyone else.
“Any Day now, I believe I’ve aged a few years standing here like a fool”
“I LIKE YOU OKAY”
You blurt out, his previous statement making you just spit it out. It had felt good to finally say it, but it also made you cringe when you realized you yelled. What made it worse was when you noticed that a few students had stopped their chatter and walking, stopping to look at you who had created a scene.
Rubbing the back of your neck, you continue your previous statement. ‘’I like you, way more than friends. You are very annoying and half the time punching you seems like the greatest idea in the world. Despite your often teasing, I’ve come to like your annoying, weird, dino loving ass and keeping it to myself has been tough. I just want to let you know how I feel, in the hopes that you like-”
You had paused in your mini rant when your eyes met his again, searching his face for any changes. You had been able to catch the flicker of shock that had crossed his features, but it had changed to his usual shit eating grin again. That grin had made you nervous once more, making your heart close up and your words die in your throat.
‘’You know what” You take a step back, letting your eyes fall to the ground in shame. “April fools, bet I got you huh” Your voice didn’t match your words, and instead of your usual upbeat voice, it was replaced with a sad tone, a tone on the verge of tears. “I’m a good prankster I know”
The silence that you were met with only fueled your now aching heart. ‘’I gotta go’’ You say, turning around and walking away before you not only embarrassed yourself more, like crying in front of a guy who would definitely make fun of you for it.
You felt a hand grab your wrist, and before you could shake it off, you were turned around abruptly, head almost falling off your neck at the sudden force. Stumbling towards the male who had pulled you back, your teary eyes met Tsukishima’s once more. A silent ‘what’ being communicated through your expression.
You watched as he leaned in, so close you felt your face burn painfully now that you could feel his soft breath on you. One of his hands came up and was placed on your cheek, softly caressing the soft flesh. His eyes were filled with an emotion you had never seen before on him, and that took your breath away.
The sunlight had perfectly hit his features, making his golden blonde hair look gorgeous in this lighting. The light breeze helped in his favor, blowing it in the wind to add an extra effect to this moment. His large hand caressing your cheek had made you flustered, along with the look he was giving you. How he had to slightly bend to reach your height added some magic to it.
“You idiot, I had thought I was being perfectly clear with the hints I was dropping. Don’t be scared y/n, I’ve liked you for a while too, and while I may be very annoying, you probably didn’t notice that I ONLY act that way with you.’’ He paused, gazing into your eyes for a few more seconds. “y/n, you can stop being so nervous now” One hand now rested at your hip, holding you in place.
Was this some sort of dream? Her crush just admitted he liked her back and was also acting all cute instead of douche. The new unknown side he was showing you had made your heart race, and for a while you couldn’t even think of something to say. Instead your mind was filled with happiness. He wasn’t that much of a jerk after all.
The way he stared at you like you were the only girl here made you feel special. The way he was publicly grabbing you without being ashamed of what someone else seeing had also made your heart flutter. Maybe Tsukishima could be that hot guy who showed his true feelings to someone he liked, someone who deserved his attention.
“Ow” Your hands fly up to your forehead, your body stepping back and ripping yourself from his embrace. While you had thought the two of you were having a moment, he had decided that your lovey dovey time was over and flicked your forehead with a bit of too much force.
Laughing, his shit eating grin was back. “Idiot, acting all nervous and stuff like I was going to reject someone like you’’ It had sounded like an insult, but listening in closer you heard the compliment amidst it.
Opening and closing your mouth, you watched as he rolled his eyes at you. “Let's not stand here any longer, we should get walking. And maybe, just maybe we can stop and get some snacks” He says, using your shock to slip his big hand into your tiny one. He didn’t give you a chance to notice, instead tugging you so you would start walking.
And god, if you had pointed it out he would have surely blushed at being caught trying to be smooth.
In the end, you hadn’t cared enough to point it out. Instead, you silently agreed to his previous statement. The toll of being stressed out and worried had finally worn off, happiness filling your insides. You had claimed yourself a salty french fry, YOUR salty french fry. Nothing felt better than this.
Tsukishima walked, hand in hand with you in silence. The silence wasn’t uncomfortable, it was a mutual silence that felt good. The two of them needing the time to comprehend everything that happened in such a small amount of time.
Since your eyes were averted, he finally dropped his shit eating grin, a real genuine smile replacing it instead. It might sound weird, but he wasn’t just some cocky bastard who had no feelings. He was a human being who had crushes as well.
And as he watched your big grin as your eyes stared off ahead had made him feel butterflies in his stomach. He had liked you for some time, but he himself wasn’t brave enough to say something and opted to drop crazy hints instead. While that didn’t work, he still got himself a girlfriend in the end.
Watching you be happy about being with someone like him amazed him. How you lightly swayed their intertwined hands was making him feel some kind of way, a feeling he wasn’t used to. You were the prettiest girl in the world to him, and just the thought of someone like you liking him back made him feel good.
He had liked you so much, and now that he was able to act on his feelings, he would be sure to give you hell.
He was, after all, Tsukishima Kei, the saltiest human to exist.
Synopsis: Late nights and long mornings, quarantine has made it hard for y/n to see anyone, more or less their boyfriend hawks. Feeling bad for leaving his s/o alone in their empty home, hawks plans a date night for the both of them to relax and enjoy the little time they have together.
Warnings: A bit of angst at the start, but after that bone rotting fluff.
Word Count: 4,778
A/N: This lovely fic is apart of quarantine fluff collab that the discord server crackhead sanctuary put together. Thank you Sof @myherowritings who hosted this, and I can’t wait to read everyones fics!! Also this lovely banner was made by @sanurrwrites and I’m very thankful!!!
Synopsis; Kurogiri running his daily errands late night, bumps into someone who changes his life for the better. Wanting to express his feelings somehow and in a cute way, he gets you flowers with beautiful meanings behind them.
Warning; Fluff and angst. It’s me, of course there is angst.
Word Count; 4,283
A/N; This is a bnharam sfw server collaboration! My first one actually. The theme for this was flowers, and you can read everyone else's here. I can’t wait to read everyones fic, and a big thanks to Jojo for making the masterlist. Also sorry for any mistakes, my dumbass was proof reading at 2am 😭✋🏾
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‘’Sorry for being late, Shigaraki was having some issues today’’ The male speaks, a small smile on his face as he stares down at you. ‘’It’s hard to be on time when I’m babysitting a whole group of adults’’ He says with a chuckle, his hands trembling as he held the flowers in his hand.
Taking a deep breath, he put on a smile. ‘’I don’t know why this is so scary? I guess I’ve never really had to confess to anyone, as loving someone would be an extra task that I didn’t need’’ His yellow eyes close slowly as he thinks about his life so far.
‘’Bear with me though, I promise I won’t waste all your time’’ Kurogiri says with a chuckle, shuffling on his feet, his eyes watching you very closely.
‘’The thing is, For once in my life I felt seen. I always felt like a background character working behind the scenes that no one really cared for’’ He stares at you the entire time while he’s talking, not wanting to break contact. ‘’While I usually only saw people as tools to help further push Shigaraki’s success, I saw you as something more’’
He was very glad to have the purple shadow covering his face right about now, because his face felt hot and red. Was this what it felt like to confess? Why was he nervous?
‘’Y/N, The moment you caught my eye, I knew you were going to be a handful, but never did I expect you to sneak into my heart’’
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‘’Thank you! Have a good night’’ You call out as you walk out the door, waving to the old man behind the cash register. Walking outside, your eyes were met with the pitch black sky, not even a star in sight. ‘’It got dark really fast’’ You mumble gripping the two bags to your side.
Although the darkness was unsettling, you continued your journey through the quiet streets of Japan. Humming a tune, you swung the bags back and forth as you walked, legs already wishing they could stop.
‘’Meow.. Meow’’
The soft melody of a cat had a smile forming on your face. ‘’A kitty!’’ Noticing that it was just around the corner, you sped up to an almost jogging pace and turned the corner quickly, your eyes searching for said cat.
While you thought you’d be met with a cute cat, instead you bumped into an actual human being. ‘’Ah! So sorry Sir’’ The apology slips out before you even look up, already feeling terrible. ‘’I just heard a cat, and maybe I shouldn’t have been running--’’
The male in front of you puts a hand up and shakes his head, ‘’It’s fine don’t worry, no one is hurt’’ Finally gazing up at the male talking, you noticed he was.. A purple shadow? In a suit?
Giving a small smile you rub your neck sheepishly, ‘’Maybe chasing after a cat this hour wasn’t the best decision’’ You say with a grin, trying to clear the awkward tension you had caused.
‘’Luckily you are okay, yet this is a dangerous place to be venturing about during this time’’ His yellow eyes gaze into yours, and for a split second you are curious as to who is behind the shadow.
Shrugging you give him a grin and thumbs up, ‘’I’m a grown up, I’ll beat anyone up who tries me’’ You say with happy determination, showing him a few playful punches to the air. ‘’Anyone who tries me is trying the wrong one’’
The male blinks, looks you up and down and then frowns. ‘’You are right’’ He said at first, which made you grin again, ‘’If they are a mannequin doll, you have a very good chance with those punches’’ and que your grin dropping.
‘’If you are SO worried about my wellbeing, then maybe you should walk me home’’ You say as half a joke, crossing your arms as you stare down the male, to which he laughs at you.
‘’And now you’re inviting me, a stranger to walk you home? You truly are something else’’ He keeps laughing, not even knowing how to process your words. How dumb were you? ‘’If it makes you feel better, I’ll walk you halfway’’ He turns on his heels, rolling his eyes.
You swing your bag in glee as you walk behind him a small smile on your face, ‘’It’s way better to walk home with company, and you seem nice so what;s wrong with a bit of faith’’
He looks over his shoulder and his expression deadpans, ‘’You are making me worried with your naive thinking, in the future don’t trust some random stranger. There are lots of villains lurking around here, and you might get caught up in it.
You stop walking and take in his words. He was right, but anyone could be a villain. From the man who works at the gas station with a happy smile, to the girl who sells newspapers.
Him noticing that you stopped sighed, ‘’Come on, I already said I would walk you home, don’t linger behind so much’’ He smiled when he heard your footsteps running at him to catch up.
‘’I’m Kurogiri by the way’’
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‘’If anything, I think people who pour in the milk first and then the cereal are crazy’’ You state, your legs kicking back and forth as you sit on the park bench. ‘’People like that scare me, and I’ll run away’’
The person next to you laughs as he shakes his head, ‘’I guess I can agree, but Shi- Toma doesn’t agree with that. He says putting in the milk first is the only way to do it’’
‘’Kurogiri, I say this with much love,, but please get new friends. I’m scared for your wellbeing’’ You say honestly, shaking your head.
The two of you start laughing, both agreeing that this ‘Toma’ friend of his was a little weird. Sooner or later the laughing died out and a calming silence took over. Not that it was bad, You didn’t feel the need to fill the silence.
‘’Maybe, I should start heading home soon’’ You say softly, your eyes gazing out, eyes staring at the empty playground. ‘’Bet we look like creeps hanging out at 2 am’’ You say with a smile as you stand up.
Kurogiri nods, ‘’Sorry about that again, I work so much that my only free time is when the sun drops’’ He says with a sigh, his eyes looking up at the pretty dark star filled sky. ‘’It’s weird to think, that we became friends over you being stupid’’
‘’HEY!’’ You say walking towards him and poking his chest, ‘’If anything, you were the one who was so concerned’’ Crossing your arms you turn away from him, while making a sassy noise.
You hear a small chuckle before you feel soft hands turning you around, ‘’Thanks for meeting me again today Y/N, truly thought you’d stop showing up after the third time we met up here’’ Facing him again you give him a smile, ‘’Of course Kurogiri, We’re friends and I wasn't lying when I said you were interesting.’’
You were about to leave, but your eyes caught the purple smoke that was always around his face. ‘’Do you have a face behind there, or is the smoke your feature?’’ You ask
Kurogiri nods, ‘’I do have a face behind here, I guess you can call it some sort of mask’’ He says, alreadying knowing what you were going to ask next.
‘’Can I see?’’ You step closer, trying to peer into the purple mist, trying to catch a glimpse of something.
Kurogiri shakes his head, ‘’I’d rather not if that’s okay. If that makes you uneasy--’’
‘’Oh okay that's fine’’ You shrug as you smile, ‘’No need to give me a reason. I’ll take the no without an explanation. It’s not like I need to see your face or I won’t be your friend, it's only a face.’’ You think out loud, ‘’It’s your personality that matters, I was only curious’’
Kurogiri stares at you for a hot minute, before shaking his head. ‘’You are a weird one’’ He starts walking forward, ‘’Come on, it’s really late and you should be in bed’’
‘’Just promise me we can still hang out.. Don’t vanish or anything, not when I’ve already made a friendship bracelet’’ You jokingly say, taking pride in when he started to chuckle.
‘’I’d be very bored without a very wild and entertaining person like you’’
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You walk slowly down the sidewalk, your gaze down as you enter the park. You were never good with hiding emotions, so anyone could read your vibe from a mile away.
‘’Y/N??’’ You hear his familiar voice, but you don’t look up to meet his gaze. ‘’I almost thought you weren’t going to com-’’ He pauses seeing the state you are in, and he’s already up and approaching you. ‘’What happened? Are you okay? Hurt anywhere?’’
You simply shake your head as you stare down at your feet. ‘’Kurogiri, I know I’m stupid, but I’m not that stupid’ You finally meet his gaze, tears slipping down your cheeks as you walk past him and sit down on the bench.
Kurogiri follows behind silently, and he could already guess what this conversation would be about. A conversation, he dreaded since becoming a bit closer to you. From the multiple times the two of you hung out here, he always waited until you would figure out the truth.
‘’So you’re a villain..’’ You finally say, fingers gripping your legs as you keep your gaze low. ‘’Saw you on the news, with Toma- Or Shigaraki and a few others. They say you guys are one of the biggest threats to this city--’’
Kurogiri sighs, ‘’We don’t have to go through the hard part of you explaining you don’t want to be associated with me, I understand and prepared for this outcome’’ He states in a monotone voice.
‘’Shut up! I wasn’t done’’ You snap as you finally meet his gaze once more, eyes narrowing as tears still freely slipped down your cheeks. ‘’I never ever said I’d leave, so shut up about that’’ You whisper, shoulders sagging.
‘’I don’t agree with the thought of harming others, if they are good or bad but..’’ You trail off, ‘’They called you a villain.. But what really is a villain’’ Your eyes gaze innocently into his golden yellow ones.
‘’A villain is someone who goes against the ideals set by a hero. In everyone's eyes, the hero is always right and the villain is always wrong. But I’ve been thinking… Is the hero always right? Is the world we live in right now how it should be? Is what the heroes are fighting for something that I stand behind?’’ You rant as your hands fly around the place as you explain.
‘’I think,, no one is born a villain, and throwing around the title is a waste,, I’d like to think everyone is good but I know that isn’t true’’ You trail off, ‘’What I’m trying to say is, villains usually have a reason why they fight, why they keep pushing when everyone is against them’’
Kurogiri stares at you, mouth hanging slightly open as his brain tries to process your words.
‘’Kurogiri… What's your reason you keep fighting? What's your motivation that makes you want to go against the heros? I think your a good person, so there must be something that drives you?’’ You ask, curiosity swarming in your eyes.
‘’I want to know why, and then we can go from there.. If you are some brute who just wants to see the world burn just because then maybe we shouldn’t bring our friendship any farther, but if there is a reason… I’m willing to listen’’ You finally end your rant, now giving him the stage to speak, to explain and to open up his mind to you.
Kurogiri opens his mouth to speak, but in all honesty he didn’t even know what to say. Usually when someone says villain, everyone is running the other direction. Quick to think that what they are doing isn’t for a reason, that they are just terrible people in the end.
No one ever.. Takes a second to even listen in the first place.. Which usually leads to far worse situations.
Who were you? And were you just naive and too trusting,, or were you more. He wouldn’t deny that somewhere down in his heart, he felt it flutter.
‘’I guess it's time to be honest with you, and everything started when--’’
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Several weeks after Kurogiri’s confession to you about what he actually did as a job, things continued normally like nothing ever happened. Yet now instead of the two of you meeting late at night in a park, you often spent your time in a rundown bar with other people.
Or villains if you were to be honest.
They scared you at first, no need to lie. They had some powerful quirks and scary faces, so obviously you almost peed your pants when you saw them. But when you let it slip that you didn’t like the hero agencies and how things were run, you were engaged in a very deep, meaningful conversation about it with Shigaraki.
You gained more points when you said you didn’t really like All Might.
Within the several days you spent at their hideout, you felt more comfortable there then anywhere else. With these thoughts in mind, you came to the conclusion that the world was fucked up, and everyone in this hideout, had been treated wrong by the people who said they’d help out.
‘’Y/N?’’
You slip out of your trance when you hear your name, eyes looking around and meeting the very familiar yellow ones. ‘’Oh sorry! Just thinking about some things’’ You say with a smile.
During the weeks that went by, your relationship with Kurogiri changed drastically. While you were still friends, you felt as if he opened up more. That he was actually speaking to you and letting you in.. you felt like you truly knew him.
There was never a time where the two of you butted heads. He was always so mature and honest about things that it left no room to argue unless playfully.
While your heart hurt knowing that they were hurting people with their plans, you never really spoke about it much. And you noticed how the others didn’t really bring it up around you..
Other than Dabi.. He said he was going to burn some fellow to ashes and sprinkle them on their families yard for fertilizer. You laughed taking it as a joke, but soon realized he was serious when he came back with a bag of ashes.
Shaking those thoughts out of your head, you push yourself off the counter and yawn a bit.
‘’I see you're getting tired, I’ll get some dinner started and get you in bed as soon as possible’’ Kurogiri says behind the counter, setting down the glass he was drying off.
You hum, ‘’I was actually wondering.. If I could cook instead?’’ You take the silence as a big ass no, but continue going anyways. ‘’I’ve been here for a while, But I’ve noticed how you’re always taking care of everyone without expecting anything back. You cook, clean and babysit grown adults who cause trouble 24/7’’
You ignore the shouts of protest at your last statements.
‘’What I’m trying to say is.. Who takes care of you? I know you're a grown man and can do it yourself, but I believe you deserve a little break. So I’ll make dinner, and you’ll sit down and relax for a bit’’ You say hopping over the counter and pushing him out.
You hear a chuckle, ‘’So what, he’s your bitch now?’’ You turn and see the purple scarred male and shake your head. ‘’I don’t see you making your own meals or cleaning up, so shut up Mr. Wannabe Bad Boy.’’
You turn your gaze back to the male you were talking to originally, ignoring the protest of Dabi. ‘’I just want to help out, to care for you a bit. You’ve always been so kind to me without expecting me to give you anything in return,, so let me cook this one meal in appreciation. Let me show you I care’’
The small smile on his face gave you the answer you needed, and when he finally sat down at the bar you jumped in glee. Dabi and Shigaraki along with Toga also sat at the bar, watching to see what you’d do.
‘’I hope she can cook, I’m not up to eating mush just because Kurogiri has a crush’’ Dabi states as he lays his head on the counter top.
You shake your head at his comment, ‘’Oh Twice! Do you mind playing that song you were humming earlier? I really liked it and music sounds nice while cooking’’ You say looking towards the male, happy to see his face light up.
A few hours later, after everyone had eaten and settled down either on the couch or bar stools, you stood up slowly and yawned. ‘’I think I should be getting home, It’s really late and I have some work to do’’
Kurogiri who was sitting next to you stands up as well, ‘’Sorry, time seemed to go by so quick, I forgot how late it was’’ He apologizes, grabbing your coat and things, and leading you to the door.
‘’Thanks for the food, even though Kurogiri cooks better than you’’
‘’Yeah thanks’’
‘’Come back and cook again! Maybe we can have a girls night!’’
‘’Your cooking was great-- It fucking sucked you gordan ramsey rip off’’
You wave at all of them, giving them a smile. Glad they were semi kind to you every time you were here. You gasp, ‘’Actually I have something to give you!’’ You say excited as you bounce a bit.
Digging your hand in your pocket, you pull out a small item. ‘’I got you something! I hope it isn’t weird or anything but’’ You show the item, and it is a small blue pin with a flower on it. ‘’It’s a honeysuckle pin! I notice how you only wear these suits, so i thought a pin would be the best suit.. You’’ You laugh a bit at your own pun.
Kurogiri smiles at you, watching as you step closer, ‘’Thank you Y/N.’’ He says, letting you pin it on him. ‘’Was there a reason it’s honeysuckle?’’ He asked, wondering why the random flower, yet you were weird enough to see something cute and buy it.
‘’Well’’ You feel your face heat up, ‘’The meaning behind honeysuckle is.. Well bonds of love’’ You meet his gaze, ‘’Not that’’ You fumble over your words. ‘’I really like you, not as a friend but as something more. The love can be too soon or go too far, but I do love you. Maybe not as a partner yet, but I love you as a friend and want to push that farther.’’ You hear the entire room go quiet, and you lightly curse remembering that there were still people in here.
Kurogiri wraps his arms around you, and lightly pulls you into his chest. ‘’I’m glad we feel the same Y/N’’ he whispers into your ear, ‘’I’ll cherish this gift, and hope one day, probably very soon, We love each other more than friends’’ He runs his fingers down the spine of your back.
He was glad that you were confident as well, as he did want to say something about their friendship moving farther. He was more grateful that you weren’t moving too fast, that you were going with life as it came to you. A free soul who had no problem stating what they want.
‘’Oh yeah, Happy May!’’ You continue, your eyes meeting the ones in the back, a plan already forming to give them something else as well. ‘’I’ll have a gift for you guys as well tomorrow , So be here or. I’ll probably cry’’
A few laughs come from the couch, and they didn’t doubt that you, out of all people would start crying over something like that. They hadn’t known you for too long, but they could tell what kind of person you were.
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‘’Thanks again for the present Y/N, I didn’t tell you before, but I was smiling for hours after you went home’’ Kurogiri said honestly, ‘’It was one of the first gifts I’ve received.’’
You didn’t say anything to his words, instead remaining quiet and letting him finish.
Kurogiri smiles, ‘’I remember you mentioning May, and looked into it some more. May day huh?’’ He grins, now knowing why the sudden gift of a flower pin. Of course he would participate, even if that meant the guys back at the bar called him names.
He reaches inside his portal and pulls out a bundle of different flowers. ‘’I may have gone overboard, but I wanted to actually put some thought into this’’
The yellow twining vines or shrubs, were known as honeysuckle.
‘’These mean Bonds Of Love, these are the ones you gave me just yesterday.’’
The light purple small flowers were Heliotropes.
‘’These mean Eternal Love and Devotion, since I never want to be without you. I don’t mean to be weird or anything, but I do see a future with me and you together for a long time’’
The pink and really big flowers were known as Hibiscus.
‘’These mean delicate beauty. Y/N, you are something out of this world. The beauty you hold is outside, yes, but also on the inside’’
The last ones in his hand were a light purple mixed in with different shades of blue, and were called Forget-Me-Nots.
‘’Well, I guess you can guess why I got these. Y/N, these mean true love memories, and do not forget me.’’
Kurogiri smiled, ‘’I never want to forget you, and I hope you will never forget me either. I feel like you've snuck your way into my heart, and it would be a shame to forget all the wonderful memories you’ve given me. I’ve always been so happy spending my time with you, and never once did I regret it’’
His heart warmed when he saw your smile, making his heart flutter.
Well, he could only imagine you’d be smiling. Bending down, he places the flowers he made on the pile of dirt in front of him. He glanced up at the headstone, his hand lightly caressing the side of it. ‘’I’m sorry I dragged you into my mess Love, and I’m sorry I couldn’t save you.’’
He stood up, hands trembling as he tried not to think about it too much. You wouldn’t want him to be this way, so for your sake he was holding it together. But wasn’t this funny? Him a villain, wanting to save someone, someone who he didn’t want to use as a tool for success.
You were someone he was willing to be a hero for. Anything you wanted he would have given you without a second thought. He wanted to save you, he truly did.
He turned around, all the memories of you flowing into his brain. Your laugh, that always made him laugh as well. Your smile that made him fall in love with you all over again. Then your pure heart. Even when you found out he was a villain, you still kept your heart open to him. Something he would never forget.
Stopping in his walk, he turned to look over his shoulder, yellow eyes gazing at the headstone. ‘’I love you y/n’’ He says softly, before stepping into the portal, and letting you rest peacefully.
When he stepped back into the bar, tears flowing down his cheeks, he slowly passed the four members who were standing all around the bar.
‘’Wait, Kurogiri, did you figure out who did this?’’ The soft voice of Toga said, her blonde hair covering her eyes as she tried not to cry for him as well.
Kurogiri just pulled a piece of paper out of his pocket, placing it into her hands and walking away. ‘’I don’t care what you do, just do them some justice’’
Dabi slipping on his coat rolls his eyes, ‘’Don’t have to tell us twice, I’ll beat the shit out of all of them, myself Kurogiri. ‘’ He mumbled putting on his shoes before making eye contact with Twice.
Twice and Toga kept silent, rolling their shoulders back. They didn’t have anything to say, but they sure as hell had some pent up anger to let out. Some punks had taken the love of Kurogiri, and a friend the two of them made.
‘’Lets go’’ Shigaraki states, opening the front door and narrowing his eyes. Looking back at Kurogiri, he saw the tears still flowing, yet no expression on his face. He didn’t understand the feeling all too well, but his heart hurt knowing the person who was helping him out so much, was so heartbroken.
He’d kill them all. He’d kill them all for hurting his friend. He’d make sure to avenge y/n, the only person who wasn’t a villain, who he could talk to without wanting to kill them 24/7. They were a good person.
Toga, Twice, Dabi and Shigaraki was about to go fuck some people up.
This is a sfw choose-your-own collaboration by the bnharem discord server!
April showers bring forth May flowers. Because of our previous sfw collab, flowers have taken root from the shed tears. Flowers adorn any story with different meanings or as decorations. Choose a character and let’s see what blossoms from your choice!
Amajiki Tamaki — @katsukisprincess
Asui Tsuyu — @antigenius
Atsuhiro Sako (Mr. Compress) — @emlovewrites
Awase Yosetsu — @lady-bakuhoe
Bakugou Katsuki — @lesbian-peanut-writer
Bubaigawara Jin (Twice) — @kirishibi
Chisaki Kai (Overhaul) — @add-a-teaspoon-of-heroism
Synopsis: Late nights and long mornings, quarantine has made it hard for y/n to see anyone, more or less their boyfriend hawks. Feeling bad for leaving his s/o alone in their empty home, hawks plans a date night for the both of them to relax and enjoy the little time they have together.
Warnings: A bit of angst at the start, but after that bone rotting fluff.
Word Count: 4,778
A/N: This lovely fic is apart of quarantine fluff collab that the discord server crackhead sanctuary put together. Thank you Sof @myherowritings who hosted this, and I can't wait to read everyones fics!! Also this lovely banner was made by @sanurrwrites and I'm very thankful!!!
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It hit us unexpectedly.
The drastic change in how we did everything was overwhelming, and many of us didn’t really think it would be such a big deal at first. It was a silly virus that would be cured within weeks, nothing to really worry about. So everyone continued about their normal lives, happy that the virus wasn’t in their country, happy it wasn’t them. It simply wasn’t our problem right?
Wrong.
Everything flipped and turned upside down when the unknown and mysterious virus finally hit Japan. While earlier we thought it wasn’t our problem, what are we supposed to say now that it's at our front door? Affecting our neighbors, our friends, our students and our heroes who protect society. No one really cares until it's your problem.
The first death the virus caused made everyone realize just how serious this was. This wasn’t some joke, people's lives were actually in danger and things needed to be done to protect the citizens from a virus that was on a killing spree.
That meant no more social gatherings.
Someone might ask- Well that doesn’t sound too bad? What's wrong with not having to see people?
It was a problem to you, and many others.
Laying in bed day after day, letting the loneliness set in and the worry skyrocket about the current situation. You had taken the simple act of seeing someone in person for granted, and realized just how texting and calling wasn’t the same. You missed going out with friends and doing random things that made you happy. You missed going to the ice cream parlor down the street that would sell you ice cream and soothe all your sad and depressive feelings. What you missed the most was your boyfriend.
The sudden thought of him already made your eyes water and your heart clench. ‘’I miss you Keigo’’ You whispered to the darkness, pulling your warm blanket closer to your body for comfort. The bed that was made for two, suddenly felt way bigger than it needed to be without your boyfriend. ‘’I’m just being selfish, he’s keeping us protected’’
Keigo or Hawks as most society knows him, had been quite busy since the virus broke out in Japan. You’d think villains themselves would stay inside once they heard a virus could kill them, but it was quite the opposite. With no one outside to stop them from their wrongdoings, it was easier for them to commit their daily crimes. So that meant heroes never really got the break they thought they’d get.
While they risked their life everyday to protect citizens, the risk factor was now doubled because of the virus. Heros would continue to go out and protect homes, stores and people who needed it, not letting the virus keep them from doing their job.
It made you happy to know that your boyfriend was doing his job, and probably saving many lives with his patrols. It just hurt that you couldn’t really see him anymore. He was gone before you woke up, and back away after you’ve closed your eyes. You had tried multiple times to keep yourself awake, but never seemed to make it.
You missed his laughter, the way he grinned after getting on your nerves and the stupidly cute smile that would make your heart flutter. You missed his bear hugs and his butterfly kisses all over your face. You missed everything about him down to his annoying antics and crazy eating habits. You had taken it all for granted and now all you had was yourself and the little notes he would leave behind.
‘’I love you Keigo, goodnight baby, stay safe’’ You whispered to the darkness, hoping your words would get to him. Closing your eyes, you snuggled into your body pillow and fell asleep within minutes.
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A couple hours later, the front door of your home creaked open. A blonde male entered quietly, or what he thought was quiet. His posture was slouched, and the eye bags under his eyes gave a clear giveaway that he was tired. ‘’Shit’’ He glanced at the clock and saw it was around 3 am, meaning you had fallen asleep some time ago. His red wings felt heavier than usual, and the thought of sleeping by the front door so he wouldn’t have to climb the stars to the bedroom, was seeming like a good idea.
Keigo shook that idea out of his head, if anything, he wanted to see you, even if you were already sleeping. He felt filthy, so maybe a shower before he got into bed. Even though he was sprayed with every cleaning spray known to man before coming back to your shared apartment, he still took extra precaution when coming home to you. Constantly checking his temperature, and wearing a mask and goggles to keep you protected. You were his little dole, he’d never get over the regret if he passed a virus on to you.
Slugging upstairs, he yelled in fright when he felt himself falling forward towards the steps. At first he didn’t even fight it, trying to save himself from marks on his face from steps seemed like too much work. However, his wings spread out as much as they could, leaving the males face hovering over the steps he was just about to kiss. ‘’Oh’’ He mumbled, the simple thought to use his wings had flown out of his head. God he was so tired. Standing back up, he carefully treaded up the stairs, trying to be more quiet now that he was getting closer to the bedroom.
Opening the bedroom door as quiet as he could, his yellow eyes found your body first. Walking closer he stared down at your sleeping form, a small smile appearing under his mask. ‘’Hi baby, I’m home’’ he said softly, before he frowned. He noticed the tear lines on your face and his heart suddenly felt heavy. Just the thought of you crying without him here to comfort you was truly heartbreaking. You weren’t the only one who missed their partner, since he was surely feeling the same loneliness as you.
He teared his eyes off of you finally, walking away and into your shared bathroom. Shutting the door behind him, he turned on the light and let gaze find the mirror. His rough appearance made him cringe. His golden blonde hair was matted down poking in every direction, eye bags were prominent and his gorgeous smile was covered by this stupid white mask. Reaching up, he ripped the mask off his face, cringing at the red lines he saw of having to wear it so often. All of this sucked. Yet if it meant keeping you and others safe, he would wear this mask for eternity.
About an hour later, he’d showered and dressed in the clothes he’d be sleeping in. All today's grime and cleaning products washed off his skin leaving it spotless. As he stood in front of the mirror, brushing his teeth half heartedly, the thought of you crying earlier was still fresh in his mind. While you wouldn’t tell him you were lonely and wanted more, he knew better. He had been with you for some years now, he knew you inside out. He knew that whilst he had it hard, you were equally suffering.
Within the first two weeks of Covid 19, your student Bakugou Katsuki had caught the virus and was hospitalized due to it. You had cried for 4 days straight, and nothing he said made you feel any better. Being a U.A teacher meant you had worried even more for your students, who were still kids and had places to go.
Keigo felt terrible that he was putting extra stress on you since he still had to do his duties, and that everything wasn’t easy on you just because you were home and hopefully safe.
‘’I’ll make it up, we’ll both have some fun soon’’ He said to himself in the mirror, before spitting out the nasty toothpaste and rinsing his mouth out with some cold water. Finally finishing up, he turned the bathroom light off and trudged towards the bed. Climbing in lazily, he wiggled under the comforter you were hogging to yourself. As his head hit the pillow, he had to keep himself from falling asleep on the spot. The soft fluffy pillow almost sent him to heaven. Scooting closer to you, he wrapped his arms around your body and pulled you closer to him, his head resting in the crook of your neck. Your hair didn’t even bother him, if anything the smell of your shampoo calmed him.
‘’I love you y/n, goodnight dove, I’m home and safe’’ Keigo whispered to you before finally letting his eyes slip close, knowing in a few hours he’d be gone again. Yet getting to hold you before he went to sleep always made his mornings and days easier.
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Sometime before the sun came up, you had felt the bed move, and the warm arms that were keeping you secure left again. You wouldn’t lie, the disappointment you felt hit harder than anything. And when you heard the bedroom lightly shut behind Keigo, you simply wrapped your arms around yourself, hoping to mimic the arms of your lover. Yet his arms and presence were unique, so of course you couldn’t replace his embrace.
You don’t remember falling back asleep, so it confused you when you suddenly felt the bright rays of sun on your face. ‘’Oh, Good morning I guess’’ You mumbled as you sat up, trying to rub the sleepiness out of your eyes. Shielding your eyes from the sunlight with your right hand, you looked around for the one thing that always made your morning.
‘’There it is!’’ You say happily as you roll out of bed and towards the dresser that was next to the bathroom. On Top of the wooden dresser was a handwritten note covered in chicken stickers, and a red rose next to it. Grinning you grabbed both items and jumped back into bed, excited to see what the dumb bird had wrote for today.
Ever since the pandemic started, and since Keigo had been having long shifts, he’d always left letters for you to read in the morning, and a different coloured rose everyday. It made him leaving easier, and the fact that he spent time writing and putting his feelings into them always sparked joy.
Carefully opening the note, you were met with Keigo’s chicken scratch handwriting. You loved him, but one day you were going to give him writing lessons. You shook your head in amusement, ignoring the bad handwriting, you began reading.
‘Good Morning Chickadee,
I hope you had a good sleep baby, I came home late again but as soon as I had the chance you were in my arms. You cuddled up to me instantly, what if I was some intruder? I guess even in your sleep you recognize me and my godliness.
Anyways, I apologize for once more coming home late beautiful. Work has been a bit stressful, but I believe we’ve put a dent on the villains plans. Only small time villains are really causing trouble, and were handling it pretty well. I think sooner or later we won’t need so much patrolling anymore. Hopefully soon, I wanna spend time with my lil nugget.
Oh! I have some news.
Someway or another, I will get off early today and spend some very much needed time between the two of us.
Not to be too sappy in this letter, but, I really miss you y/n. Way more than words can describe. It’s lonely patrolling instead of being home with you and having fun, and honestly just the thought of coming home to you at night is the only way I’m getting through my days at work.
I miss you and the weird laughter you let out at my god awful jokes, I miss you and the way your eyes sparkle when you look at something you like, I miss you and the way you love me unconditionally even when i’m being a weird asshole.
I love you y/n, and I’ll see you tonight dove.
-The best boyfriend ever
ps. You mumbled my name in your sleep.. Having some good dreams huh ;)’
‘’I hate him so much’’ You say while grinning and holding the note towards your chest, your heart beating like crazy. It was weird he still had this affect on you despite dating for a few years, but you hoped this feeling never went away. Neatly folding the note back to how it was, you crawled to the edge of the bed and pulled out a container that was hidden under the bed. Popping the lid off, you placed the note from today alongside the other notes you’ve received over the weeks.
‘’I love you Keigo’’ You whisper lovingly before closing the box once more, sliding the box back under your bed. Picking up the rose you abandoned, you smiled at it. The red rose was beautiful, and it seemed your lover had taken the time to cut the thorns off it.
Shaking your head with a smile, you stood up and walked out the bedroom, your feet padding against the cold ground. ‘’God it’s freezing” You mumble out loud shivering physically, before heading into the kitchen. Opening the window above the sink, you see a cast of 7 different colored roses from this week alone. ‘’Here's your new home’’ You say softly to the red rose before placing it in the vase next to the others.
Leaning against the sink, your gaze wandered to the window or more specifically what's outside the window. The beautiful flowers that were blooming outside made your mood feel lighter, and hearing the kids laughter who was next door made your heart clench in joy.
You couldn’t wait to start a family with the love of your life.
Now that you were up, you would start your daily routine of going with the flow and seeing where the day would take you. Hoping that Keigo would keep his promise in the note and come home early so you could shower him with much needed affection
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Sighing, you turned off the tv with the remote, eyes getting tired of staring at the same screen for hours. Looking over at the clock, you read it was currently 8pm. While your boyfriend said he’d be home tonight, it was starting to get late and you were questioning if he’d actually show.
Not that it’s his fault or anything, you knew his job could get stressful. Yet that wouldn’t stop the disappointment that started to set in, which was a very valid feeling.
Standing up you begin to head towards the bathroom, planning to simply take a bath before getting comfy in your bed and reading, a hobby you picked up after quarantine.
‘’HONEY I’M HOME’’
A voice shouts after forcefully kicking down the door, startling you and making you flinch. None other then Takami fucking Keigo was standing at the door, wings tucked neatly behind his back, huge grin on his face and two grocery bags in both hands.
‘’Keigo, you scared me’’ You say with an angry look before everything set in. ‘’Wait.. Keigo..’’ The light bulb in your head turned on and before your brain could process it anymore, you were flying across the room and jumping into your lovers arm.
Keigo let out a grunt at the sudden attack, but smiled at your innocent gesture. He placed the bags down and wrapped his arms around your body, spinning you around as he bear hugged you. ‘’I’ve missed you too’’ He says, kissing the top of your head. ‘’I told you’d I’d be home tonight, I hope you didn’t lose hope’’ He says as he grins down at your sheepish expression.
‘’No worries though’’ He comments before picking back up the backs he previously dropped. ‘’So, I have a whole plan in mind for tonight, which I am very excited for’’ He says before kicking the door shut and walking into the kitchen. He places the bags on the counter, ‘’So just sit back and relax and I’ll make this a date night you’ll never forget.’’
You tilt your head in curiosity, now wanting to know what this bird brain had planned, but you couldn’t help but get excited along with him. It had been a while since the two of you properly hung out with each other. ‘’So Mister ‘’I have everything planned out already’ what's on the agenda right now?
‘’Well Chickadee, we are gonna make dinner together’’ Keigo says with a bright smile, but cringe when he see’s your deadpanned expression. ‘’Don’t look at me like that dove, I promise it isn’t what you think it is’’
You saw through his desperate attempt to lie. ‘’Kiego did you plan on making chicken again’’ You say while staring him down, and when you see his head hang in shame you laugh. Stepping closer to the male you lift his head back up and press a quick kiss against his lips. ‘’It’s okay, I don’t mind having chicken for the seventh time in the row. Your cooking is actually pretty good’ You comment before stepping away, tying up your hair so you could help as well.
‘’WOO!’’ Keigo winked as he gave you finger guns, ‘’Chicken never gets old babe, thought you knew this’’ When you responded by throwing said bag of chicken at him he screeched before catching it and laughing.
You pull out your phone and play your favourite playlist, so the two of you could bop while cooking. ‘’Oh we can make cookies as dessert! It’s the one thing I can actually bake’’ You say sheepishly, sticking out your tongue when your lover nods in agreement.
With that, the two of you jammed quietly as you began the preparation of dinner.
While you were pouring the cups of flour into the big mixing bowl, you suddenly got the idea to terrorize the male who was singing quietly behind you. Scooping some in your hands, you turn around and innocently call out his name. You wait until the perfect moment. Which is when he turns around fast, a small smile on his face as he quirks his brow. He immediately see’s what you're about to do, but it's too late anyways.
You blow the white powder in your hand right at him, watching as he closes his eyes and screams. ‘’Y/N!! IT'S ON NOW’’
And while you thought this was a good idea at first, when you saw Keigo open his eyes and reveal the determination within them, you mentally cursed. And from there started the flour war, with the two of you giggling while throwing flour at each other.
It ended when you were running to throw some flour at him, but ended up instead eating shit and busting your ass on the wooden floor. Keigo, who was concerned, couldn’t help but start laughing as he helped you off, dusting the flour out of your hair. ‘’Oh gosh, we’ve made a mess of the kitchen’’
Looking around he was right, everywhere you looked there was flour, and now the two of you regretted ever touching the damn powder.
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After some cleaning, and a mini dance session to a couple of songs, the food was finally ready and the two of you sat at the table eating together.
‘’Yeah there was this big spider and I was so scared, I yelled for you and then realized I’d have to get rid of it myself’’ You spoke between bites, your eyes lighting up as you continued telling the story of how a huge spider made its way inside your home.
Kiego just stared at you silently, his mind not even processing your words anymore. You were so cute when you started to ramble, he honestly missed the way you would get so into your stories. Sometimes he didn’t think you were real, you were too perfect. But he was glad you were his, because at the end of the day, he was wholeheartedly yours and he was glad you shared the sentiment.
You two continued to chat as you ate, nothing too important just random chatter to fill the silence. The two of you had so much to tell each other that you didn’t even know much time had passed. Two hours had passed by in the blink of the eye, and you didn’t notice until you glanced at the clock behind you. ‘’Wow it’s getting late’’ You comment, putting the dry dish where it was supposed to go, stepping away from the sink.
Keigo nods, ‘’Time sure does pass when you’re having fun’’ He says with a soft smile, before taking your hand in his, ‘’Come on, I have one more activity I wanna do before sleeping’’ He said as he picked up the last bag that was still sitting on the counter.
You nod, trying to get a peek inside the bag only to be met with him pulling it closer to his body. Letting out a pout, you followed as he pulled you upstairs, nearly sliping as your socks slid across the wooden stairs. ‘’Jeez, the stairs are trying to kill me’’ You complain, glad when the two of you reach the bedroom.
Kiego then whips around, ‘’You should go clean up, you know to get the flour out of your hair’’ He says nervously, and while you wanted to ask why he suddenly started acting weird, a voice inside your head told you just to listen. You simply nodded and gave him a grin, ‘’Okay I will, better not run away while I do’’ You say before going inside the bathroom, shutting the door behind you.
Keigo lets out a deep breath, his eyes drifting to the bag in his hand. ‘’Don’t fail me now’’ he whispered to himself as encouragement.
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Finally done with washing your hair, and getting the flour out of random places you stared at the door in front of you. It was obvious he was doing something out there since you heard his hard footsteps running all around the place. Yet you wanted to give him all the time he needed, and the fact that he was trying to surprise you was cute.
Suddenly, you hear music start to play, making your brows furrow. It sounded like that one song..
‘’Dove you can come out now,,’’ You heard the slight panic in his voice, which made you nervous too. Pushing those feelings aside, you open the door and slowly peak out.
‘What would I do without your smart mouth?
Drawing me in, and you kicking me out
You've got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down
What's going on in that beautiful mind
I'm on your magical mystery ride
And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright’
You stand in shock as the lyrics start to reach your ears, which was the song the two of you danced to when he first confessed his love to you. The next thing that almost brought you to tears was the sight in front of you.
Standing in the dim moonlight, your lover was standing proud and tall in the balcony, a nervous smile on his face. Leading up to him were red and pink rose petals, some thrown on the bed as well.
‘’Keigo’’ You whisper as you start walking in his direction, not even caring that the petals stuck to your feet as you walked.
‘My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind’
You finally reach your lover, who in fact still has some flour in his hair. Yet that didn’t matter, because all you could see was his beautiful face, the way his blonde locks flowed in the wind, and how his golden eyes sparkled with an emotion you knew all too well.
Love.
‘’Hi my love, I wanted to end the night really special’’ Keigo whispers as his hands find their way to your waist, pulling you in as your arms wrapped around his neck.
’Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you’
The two of you start to sway to the song, your eyes staring into his honey coloured ones. You were caught in a trance, a trance you didn’t really mind at all.
You loved this man more than anything and anyone you knew. Even when he was being a weirdo or saying unfunny jokes, you always found him entertaining. You loved him and all his imperfections. Arguments never tend to last long between you guys as of the unconditional love you had for one another.
As the song started to come to an end, you laid your head on his shoulder, embracing this moment and engraving it in your mind. Tonight was simply perfect, and while the two of you didn’t do much, you still had a blast with your boyfriend.
’I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh oh’
You pulled your head off his shoulder when he started to sing the final lines of the song, a genuine smile on his face. ‘’Kei-’’ As the song turns off, he suddenly lets go of your waist and bends down onto one knee, his hand reaching inside his pocket.
‘’ Ah, so here I go’’ The male says as a blush covering his face and running up to his ears. You stand there shocked, your hands coming up to cover your mouth.
‘’Quarantine has been pretty rough haha, but it has taught me a lesson. The world is a scary place, and when this virus pops out of nowhere, I’ve noticed that anything can happen. It’s scary to think that villains aren’t are only problems, but some killer disease could sweep over and take away our happy lives’’
Keigo takes a deep breath, before putting on a nervous smile.
‘’These last few days that I’ve been apart from you made me realize that I never, NEVER, want to be away from you again. I realized that I want to spend all my time that I have left here with you. Y/N, I love you so much’’ He laughs, ‘’I’ve been nothing but happy with you, and you bring out the best in me, and without you I wouldn’t have found myself. I never thought I’d find love, If anything, I just thought I was made to be a hero and nothing more. But I’ve figured out that I can be a hero and also love you.’’
‘’You are my pride and joy, my dove, my chickadee, my beautiful lover...What I’m trying to say is, I love your last name, But I’d prefer if you’d take mine’’
You giggle at his words, tears slipping down your face. You were speechless, and honestly couldn’t even compel yourself to say anything.
‘’Y/N L/N, will you make me the happiest bird every and marry me?’’
You can’t help the shit eating grin on your face as you stare down at your lover, your best friend and the best thing that has ever happened to you. ‘’Keigo’’ You say as more tears fall down your face, your voice shaking as your brain processes everything that just happened. ‘’Yes duh! Who would say no to you’’ You yell, your bottom lip trembling as he stands up and slips the gorgeous diamond ring onto your finger, kissing the ring after he placed it.
‘’I love you’’ The two of you whisper at the same time, both of you gazing into each other's eyes. The both of you were crying, and it made it more special to see him showing so much emotion.
Keigo leaned in slowly, ‘’I’ve loved you for many years Y/N, and I’ll continue to love you until my dying days’’ He says softly before pressing his lips against yours, one hand holding your cheek and the other bringing your waist closer to him.
And with that, moonlight shined on the newly engaged couple, who still had their whole life ahead of them.
Brief Summery: Keigo sits down with his therapist John to figure out what's wrong with him and why he is the way he is. He tells him the story of how he fell in love and then how it caught flames
Parings: Dabi x Hawks
Warning: Angst, mention of violence, cursing, a lot of crying, and a whole lot of feels. Light fluff as well.
Word count: 4,005
A/N: Honestly, I’ve been feeling really sad all of a sudden and then this idea came to mind. So I wrote and finished this around 12 am bawling to sad songs telling myself it’s okay. Hawks x Dabi is a wonderful ship, but me being me wanted to write angst because I could. This is only my second fic, and I know there will be mistakes. I accept criticism and I hope everyone enjoys. I have to start from somewhere, but I'll reach the top soon don’t worry.
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‘’Wait? Are you here for relationship advice?’’ The black haired male asked, his head tilting to the side as he tried to grasp the meaning behind the words he just heard. Shifting in his seat slightly, he placed his notebook down in his lap and gave a soft smile to prompt the other male to continue speaking.
Hawk’s golden eyes were looking everywhere BUT the therapist in front of him. ‘’Yes… Well no.. you see’’ With a frustrated sigh, Hawk closed his mouth and slumped back in his seat. ‘’It’s a really long story John’’
John hummed in understanding, ‘’Why don’t we just start from the beginning? I’ll listen to anything you tell me, no matter how long it is, and then i’ll help you from there. Does that sound like a plan?’’
With a grin, Hawks shifted in his seat to get comfortable. ‘’Grab some snacks, this is a long tale.’’ Waiting until he got comfortable, Hawk’s took a deep breath.
‘’It all started when….’’
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‘’ So i’m going to be some cool double agent like in the movies’’
Gran Torino shook his head, ‘’Hawk’s, this mission will be dangerous. You will need to keep up a strong facade, or this will all go down the drain.’’ The short male was leaning against a wall, his shoulders sagging with tiredness. The league of villains were really putting a strain on him.
‘’Yeah, yeah, I understand.’’ Hawk nodded, giving said male the side eye. ‘’I’ll be a hero and a villian. Oh how the tables have turned’’ He laughed at his own joke, laughing even harder when Gran Torino only stared at him with a blank face.
Pushing himself off the wall, Torino began to walk away. ‘’We’re counting on you Hawk’s….. Be careful’’
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When Hawk’s paused in his story, John was quick to interrupt. ‘’Are you allowed to be telling me these things?’’ He questioned, leaning in like he was getting the greatest tea ever. Which was.
‘’Yes, the mission is already over… so that doesn’t matter anymore’’ Hawk said softly, ‘’and don’t we have confidentiality, so it doesn’t really matter if I tell you. You can’t tell anyone anyways’’ Hawk waved his hands in the air, letting out a soft breath.
John nodded, ‘’Okay continue, you had a mission to become a double agent.’’
Hawk’s looked down at his lap, a soft smile spreading across his face. ‘’And then that’s when I met the love of my life. We knew it wouldn’t work out, but we continued anyways.’’ He laughed at himself, how stupid could he be.
‘’We started off as really good friends..’’
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‘’Don’t speak another word to me you canibal’’ The blue eyed male put his hands up in warning fire erupting from his fingertips. The grin on his face however, showed that he didn’t actually mean any harm
Placing his hand on his chest, Hawks fake gasped and wiped away a stray tear. ‘’Chicken is good! At least I don’t look like a burnt piece of toast!’’ Hawks responded back, sticking out his tongue.
And for the next 10 minutes, Dabi chased around Hawk’s threatening to end his whole career. But it was such playful banter, that Hawk’s didn’t even mind being there. If laughs were going to be shared, then he would enjoy this experience until it was over.
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The slap echoed throughout the tiny enclosed room, causing Hawk’s to step back in shock. Taking back his now bruised hand, he scoffed. ‘’I can guess what you’re going to say now. You don’t need anyone to worry about you? That you are just fine’’
‘’Fuck off, I don’t need you or anyone pretending that they care.’’ Dabi rolled his eyes, turning his back to the winged man. ‘’Take that somewhere else, far away from me’’ His hand grabbed the doorknob, ready to leave and not turn back.
Instantly, Hawk grabbed Dabi’s arm, yanking him away from the door. ‘’Don’t do that.’’ He gripped his arm tightly, his golden eyes narrowed. ‘’Don’t pretend you’re in this alone.’’ Stop. What are you doing? He’s the enemy.. Just let him go, you don’t need to prove anything to him. Stop….
‘’We can’t do that shit here dove, if anything I'll let you get away with calling me names, or even hitting me. But we don’t hide our feelings and push people away’’ Hawk stared at the tiled floor, his eyes closed tightly. ‘’We’re friends right? Well friends have each others backs, through thick and thin’’
Dabi stood still, his back still turned to Hawk’s. ‘’Don’t get sappy on me chicken little’’ he mumbled softly looking over his shoulder with a small grin, a stray tear falling down his cheek. ‘’Just know, once we become friends, we can never go back. I’d kill you instead of letting you go’’
‘’Yeah sure burnt toast’’ Hawk said, his golden eyes looking up to meet Dabi’s blue ones. ‘’Friends to the end huh? You can’t take that back now, no matter how annoying I get’’ Hawk’s then let go of said males arm, taking a step back to give him a little space.
Dabi scoffed, ‘’I’m already annoyed’’ He turned back to the door and sighed, ‘’come on, lets go get some drinks chicken little’’
-
Bang.
Bang.
Bang.
‘’What the fuck do you-’’ Dabi didn’t even give the male the chance to greet him, instead he pushed through the door and walked in like he owned the place. When his eyes caught sight of the couch, he immediately sat down, placing his feet on the table in front of it. Turning his head a bit, he caught Hawk’s shocked eyes. ‘’Don’t just stand there dummy, get your guest some food. I’m starving. I was thinking maybe some Thai’’
Hawk’s stood by the door blinking like an idiot. ‘’You… you are something else’’ Shutting the door, he walked across his home. ‘’You’re just coming here to eat all my food fatass’’ He plopped himself right next to Dabi, grabbing the remote off the table while also pushing said males feet off the table.
‘’Nevermind, you should order some Soba’’
Hawk’s shook his head with a grin, ‘’is this what I signed up for when I said I’d be your best friend?’’ He slipped his phone out his pocket, ready to call the nearest place that maybe sold Soba.
‘’You’re a hero, you probably make bank. So I'm going to make your pockets hurt while it lasts,’’ Dabi comments, rolling his eyes as he snatched the remote out of Hawk’s hand.
—
John hummed, nodding his head when Hawk’s stopped talking. ‘’Ah, so I can see how things can go wrong’’ The male had several thoughts on how this whole thing could have ended, and most of them ended in either heartbreak and despair, or Hawk’s getting into deep trouble with his agency.
‘’That isn’t the part where everything goes wrong’’ Hawk explains, ‘’I was fine with being his friend, it was kinda comforting in a real way. I still knew he was… a villain’’’ He spoke the last line softly, gripping the chair tightly in his grasp. ‘’Everything went wrong because of me. I was the one that compromised the whole mission…’’
It was his fault and he knew it. He couldn’t place the blame on anyone but himself, and he’d take this guilt and the blame to the grave with him. If he had just continued the mission as planned, things would be fine.
‘’Anyways, things were fine as friends. But I was stupid, I wanted more then that. I wanted him… as a lover’’
—
It was a nice night, several clouds were in the sky, and multiple clouds just chilling in the background.
‘’Sometimes, I come up here and I’ll throw rocks down and watch as it hits someone below’’ The familiar voice of Dabi was carried by the wind, softly reaching Hawk’s unsuspecting ears. They both stared down at the humans who were just walking down below, not minding the two villains who stood above them on top of a building.
Hawk’s only turned to look at the scarred man, mouth hanging open as he tried to stop himself from laughing. ‘’Oh my god Dabi! You really give no fucks huh?’’ Hawk’s had to admit, that was a little funny, although that did mean people got hurt in the end. Unsuspecting victims for someone else's pleasure.
‘’Hey Keigo’’ said male turned and looked towards Dabi, a look of confusion on his face. Dabi had never called him by his real name, and he didn’t even remember telling him it. It confused him, but he felt his heart flutter when he said his name. A weird reaction, and he couldn’t explain it.
Dabi turned to face Hawks, and for the first time, Hawks felt like he was truly looking at him. Dabi was a nice looking man, and no one could tell him otherwise. He was a tall lean male with black messy hair that slightly resembled spikes. He had purple scarred skin that covered huge parts of his body, and even his face as well. He also had staples and piercings randomly covering his body that made him look tough and...hot?
Noticing that he was staring, and that Dabi had gone quiet, he looked up to meet the males eyes. Dabi’s eyes burned a bright intense baby blue, that stared deep into Hawk’s soul. Such eye contact almost made him step back, it being too much for him. It wasn’t helping that Dabi’s features were being illuminated by the moon's bright light. Or how the wind blew slightly, causing Dabi’s hair to sway back and forth.
‘’I’m just going to be honest about this, since I’m not one to just play the guessing game’’ Dabi took slow strides towards the winged man, his eyes never leaving his. ‘’Do you like me? Not as friends, but more like romantically?’’ When he finished his statement, he was chest to chest with Hawks, his blue eyes staring down into his eyes.
Hawk’s froze. He felt as if his words were caught in his throat, that he didn’t know how to answer, or if he should. What snapped him out of it was that he could feel how fast Dabi’s heart was also going. That he actually meant what he was saying. ‘’I-’’
Was he allowed to feel this way towards a villian? Was he allowed to like a villain? This could compromise the mission. He was a hero and Dabi was a villain. It would only end in tears and heartbreak, with Dabi in jail and Hawk crying over someone he used to know. Was he willing to take the risk and actually like Dabi? Were his feelings even valid?
In this mist of his panic, a sudden thought hit him. He’s never liked someone like this, never...vibed with another human being like this. Hawk’s in no way was ever fake around him, and Dabi accepted him as him. All the annoying and ugly parts of him, and even the kinder and softer sides of him. He had never regretted hanging out with him, and never hated the male.
Deciding to act before he changed his mind, Hawks lifted his head up slightly, meeting the eyes of Dabi’s once more. Heart pounding in his chest, he leaned in slowly, still giving Dabi the chance to step away if he wanted to.
Then slowly, their lips met. It would be cliche to say that Hawk’s felt sparks within his body, but that was the truth. He brought his hands up to Dabi’s chest, lightly gripping his shirt as the two kissed.
Pulling away, Dabi grinned like he won the lottery. ‘’You can’t go back now chicken little, i’ll kill anyone who tries to get in our way.’’
—
Hawk’s smiled at the memory, his hand softly clenching his chest. ‘’I fell in love with a villian. How cliche of me huh’’ He said softly as he shivered. ‘’I guess you can tell how things went wrong’’
‘’Is this what you need advice on?’’ John asked, picking up his notebook again, thinking this was the end. Which would be way simpler to fix and talk about then what he was expecting. Said male probably broke up with him once he became a hero, that much seemed apparent.
But he was wrong.
Hawks grinned, ‘’No that isn’t the end doc’’ That statement wouldn’t have moved John so much if he didn’t see the tears that slipped down the winged man's cheeks. Hawk’s was crying with the biggest smile on his face. It almost scared John, but he had seen the worst.
‘’Everything went wrong that day… I knew we couldn’t be together forever, but I didn’t expect it to come so soon’’
—
Silence.
That’s all that followed after Dabi’s words, and honestly, Hawks didn't even know if he had it in him to utter anything. He just stood there frozen, trying to see if this was some cruel joke, or maybe a nightmare. It had to be, because the words Dabi spoke were words he never wanted to hear.
‘’You wanna go all quiet now huh?’’ Dabi’s kind eyes were now gone, and all that could be seen was hate. A look Hawks wasn’t used to seeing… a look he had never gotten from his lover. It had shocked him so much he took several steps back, keeping his hands up and shaking him.
Dabi scoffed, ‘’silence huh? Guess that confirms it’’ He then started laughing, but not the joking around kind of laugh. His laugh held a dark aura to it, and he didn’t seem like he was joking. ‘’You aren’t even gonna argue with me? Tell me that i’m wrong, that i’m just stupid! Like i didn’t just spend all my love and effort on some hero plotting to take me down?’’The scarred male sneered, his body shaking with rage.
‘’What's wrong with you? All those nights meant something then? All those times you said you’d stick by my side? The ‘I love you’s’? Fuck, you are a sick bastard, you know that right?’’ Dabi bawled his hands together, his chest rising and falling at such a fast rate.
‘’How could you lead me on like that? I thought… I thought what we had was real Keigo.’’ When he uttered his name, it was spoken as a broken whisper. Dabi’s eyes were casted towards the concrete, not even meeting his eyes anymore.
Hawks, still frozen in place, decided to open his mouth, to somehow fix the mistake he got himself into. ‘’Dabi.. I still love you-’’ yet his words only seemed to anger the male anymore, and he would have done better keeping his mouth shut.
Dabi began laughing, his right hand coming up to grab the place above his heart. ‘’You still speak of love?’’ He yelled out, his laughing turning into small sobs. ‘’How dare you… HOW DARE YOU EVEN’’ he stopped himself mid sentence, clutching his heart as if it was in pain.
‘’I can’t believe I let you inside. I’ve learned a very valuable lesson today, thank you. But don’t you dare think you will walk away from this alive after making a fool out of me’’ Dabi sneered, the tears still streaming down his face at an alarming rate.
‘’You’ll regret this. I won’t kill you, but i’ll make sure you forever rememver to never fuck with me again.’’
Hawks could only stand there, the tears that ran down his cheeks did no justice to how he was feeling. He didn’t even have enough time to react, as all he saw with his golden orbs was blue flames.
--
‘’Hawks come on, open your eyes hun’’
Hawk’s golden eyes opened to the sound of his name, and he was suddenly hit with a blinding light, and multiple sounds hitting his ears. Coughing, he sat up fast and tried looking around at his surroundings. A hospital room? When did he?..
‘’Hey, how are you feeling?’’
Turning his head, his eyes met a nurse in bright yellow scrubs. Instead of answering her he looked down towards the bed, his eyes looking at his foot which was casted up, probably broken. Moving his hands, he realized that one wrist was broken, and the other just had a slight dull pain to it. It seemed like he didn’t take too much damage, and he was okay with that.
‘’What happened-’’ A sharp pain from two parts in his back caused Hawks to stop speaking, and he instead doubled over in pain and groaned. As he gripped his thighs, he finally noticed. Sitting up quickly, he looked over his shoulders and tried to flex his wings… instead he was met with nothing.
Nothing was there.
‘’Hawks, please calm down, I can see how this can be scary’’
Hawks went silent as everything started to rush back in his mind. Glancing back once more to assure he wasn’t just being crazy, his eyes went wide. The next actions happened slowly, painfully slow. He felt the build up of his scream, the rush of the tears and even the start of his body start to shake.
He had never felt so empty
—
John, in all of his time being a therapist had one rule. To not respond badly towards any stories told by his patients, to always keep his cool. But when Hawks finished his story, John stared at him in horror. His eyes then flicked towards where Hawks said wings would be. And they were indeed gone. What he didn’t understand though, was why Hawks was so calm while telling this.
‘’Aw doc, don’t look at me like that’’ Hawks said, waving his hand,his head hanging low as he frowned. ‘’There was always a risk with doing my job.’’
‘’What I don’t understand is’’ John paused and regained his posture, he couldn’t let what he heard affect him. ‘’Earlier you said you were here for relationship advice? Are you still with this person?’’ He tried to not let his voice convey the emotions he was feeling. ‘’What are you really here for?’’
And for the first time, John watched as Hawks broke down in front of him. It was a weird sight to see such a happy male… bawling his eyes out like a baby.
Hawks could no longer hold it together, and his body started to shake as he sobbed. ‘’I want you to tell me’’ He paused, choking out a sob as his fingers gripped where his heart would be. ‘’Tell me why I still love him’’
John’s eyes went wide, and for a moment he questioned his sanity. Maybe a good mental hospital would do for this male.
‘’TELL ME WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME’’
‘’TELL ME WHY I STILL LOVE HIM’’
‘’TELL ME WHY.. TELL ME WHY I HATE HIM SO MUCH BUT LOVE HIM AT THE SAME TIME’’
—
Hawks lightly held the scarred flesh in his hand, his golden eyes tenderly looking into his lovers. ‘’I love you so much dove, and you don’t need to hide your feelings from me.’’ He said softly, kissing the males nose.
‘’I love you so much, I love all of you.’’
He then proceeded to kiss his forehead, and then his cheeks, and then his nose again. ‘’You are the hottest man I've ever met, literally. Your opinions and fears of me leaving you for someone hotter is impossible. How could I leave you for another you if you're the only you that exists'’ He stared tenderly in Dabi’s eyes, ‘’I’ll always love you ok? Now no more of this hate, it’s time to love yourself.’’
Dabi couldn’t even utter any words, he was just frozen in Hawks arms. He had never felt so much love in his life, and he didn’t know if he wanted to run or succumb to the feeling.
‘’We’re in this together? I’ll never stop loving you’’
--
‘AHH DABI I’M SORRY I SWEAR! TOGA PLEASE HELP ME’’ Hawks screamed as he jumped over the couch, and then hid his body behind Toga’s small one. ‘’Tell him to go away, he’s trying to hurt me’’
Toga looked at Hawks and then the anger that seeped out of Dabi’s eyes. ‘’What did you.. What did you do?’’
Before Hawks could answer ‘’Nothing’’ Dabi opened his mouth and spilled everything that had happened. ‘’He ate my fucking food. We might be dating but that was MY food. I even wrote my name on it’’ He yelled, blue flames erupting from his left hand.
Hawks stuck out his tongue, ‘’Aw, is the baby throwing a fit because I ate his food? Maybe it's time for a nap huh?’’ His comment was met with a pillow soaring at his face. He didn’t even have time to avoid it, and ended up falling on his ass. ‘’Ouch’’
‘’Oh you wanna talk all big now huh chicken little. We’ll see who's crying uncle by the end of this’’ Dabi said with a grin as he loomed over Hawks body with a pillow.
--
‘’Dabi… you won’t leave me right?’’
Dabi scoffed, and was ready to tell Hawks to shut up and get out his face, but upon seeing his face he paused. He saw how Hawk's eyes held some type of hurt that he could understand. Like the love that was given to him would be taken away like everything else.
Sighing, Dabi took long strides towards Hawks, and grabbed his hips as he pulled him flush against his body. ‘’Listen babe, I promise I won't leave you okay? We’re in this together. I’d kill anyone for you. Now does that sound like I’d ever let you leave me? I’d rather eat shit and die then ever lose you’’ This was the most sincere the male had ever been, since it did come from his heart.
‘’I love you Keigo, and nothing can change that’’
—
Hawks had now transferred to the floor, his head hung low as he barely finished telling his part of the story. There was now a wet spot on the carpet from his constant crying. ‘’I-’’ he choked on his words as he began crying again, clutching his chest once more.
He knew loving Dabi would go wrong. Stories like there's never ended the way they wanted. It always ended in heartbreak, but he was willing to enjoy the ride while it lasted.
Glancing up at John, he clutched his heart even tighter. ‘’Please.. Tell me what's wrong with me’’ He sobbed out, his body rocking back and forth as he himself tried answering his own question.
‘’I can never forgive him for what he's taken away from me’’ The dull ache in his back reminded him everyday of the beautiful red wings that used to be there, the wings he loved and hated. He could never fly again, he could never just escape. Instead he felt trapped. Trapped with nowhere to go. He was free falling and he had just hit the ground.
John took a deep breath, ‘’What you're asking is normal. You went through a traumatic experience with someone you truly cared about’’ He picked up the tissue box next to him, ‘’Your feelings are valid, and don-’’
‘’YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND’’ Hawks screamed, his arms now wrapped around his body as if to calm him down. His breathing was fast, and if he continued he’d probably pass out before he even finished talking. Going silent for a second, he calmed himself down. His sobs turned to soft hiccups, and the pain in his chest dulled slightly. He was now ready to talk.
‘’I don’t know what's wrong with me’’ He said in a much calmer voice, tears hitting his skin. ‘’Even though he hurt me… took the best feature I had away from me.. My only escape..’’ He paused his talking, looking up to stare at John with the biggest smile on his face.
‘’I would do it all over again.. If that meant I could be with him for a little while longer’’
Brief Summery: Bakugo has never been good with showing his emotions and tended to keep them bottled up. After a few comments from his classmates he spirals out of control trying to figure out what is wrong with him, and if his recent kidnapping has made him weaker.
A/N; I feel like in the show, It didn't show enough of Bakugo’s mental scaring from being kidnapped. It was kinda brushed too the side, and I feel like he was bottling up some emotions during that time. anywho, this is just me making him soft and really diving deep with what happened to him. I also wrote this while bopping to sad bops and didn't really read over this? I accept criticism so comment below what you think. It’s also my first time writing so it obviously won’t be amazing, but I'm trying my best and have to start from somewhere. Enjoy!
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’’SAY ONE MORE THING YOU GREEN HAIRED LOSER AND I’LL BLOW YOUR ASS INTO TOMORROW’’
The booming voice of Bakugo wasn’t anything new, and no one really paid much attention to it at this point. He always seemed to be yelling at someone about something, or boosting about how powerful he is then everyone.
‘’Why do you think they're fighting about this time?’’ Iida asked with a sigh, his eyes never leaving the tv screen. He and four others sat comfortably on the couch, enjoying a new reality tv show that had just premiered.
With a yawn, Uraraka stretched a little, wiggling her feet to get some circulation to flow. ‘’I don’t know, but it’s good to know he’s being normal after everything that has happened’’ Shifting into a comfortable position, she laid her head against Tsuyu’s shoulder.
Peering over the couch, the green haired female watched as Bakugo yelled some more in Deku’s face, the poor boy had practically turned white from fear. Turning back around, Tsuyu shrugged her shoulders, ‘’ It’s good he’s back to normal, but if he does keep acting like this, more villains and maybe civilians will think he’s a villain like the league of villains did. Ribbit. You would think he’d at least get kinder after being kidnapped’’
Mineta nodded, ‘’He’s acting like a hot shot but got kidnapped by the league of villains, you would think he’d understand that he’s weak. He’d rather pray on people weaker then him so he believes he’s strong.’’
‘’He has been meaner than usual’’ Uraraka added, before putting her hands up and waving them rapidly. ‘’Not that it’s my business’’’
Silence followed after those comments, causing the group on the couch to slowly turn around and meet the heated gaze of Bakugo. ‘’Ribbit, we hit a nerve’’ Tsuyu stated, tilting her head as she inspected the scene.
‘’Tch’’ Letting go of Deku’s shirt, he placed his hands in his sweatpants pockets and pushed passed the shaking leaf, making sure to bump his shoulder against Deku’s body. ‘’Fuck off’’ He mumbled, walking down the hallway, probably back to his dorm room.
The silence continued long after Bakugo left, no one daring to speak. One brave soldier did open his mouth, but his words did nothing to ease the tension in the air. ‘’Not cool dude, that’s probably a sensitive topic at the moment and your making it worse.’’ His red hair seemed to match his face, since said red head was doing his best to hold his own anger in.
‘’He has some problems with not being friendly, but he’s going through a lot.He’s not back to normal, if anything he’s picking fights to get his frustration out. Just think about it from his perspective. Bakugo is a male who doesn’t like to lose, to not seem weak or not in the loop. He probably felt helpless when he was kidnapped, and he might be cocky about it but no one can walk out that situation without any mental scars.I’m not saying his behavior is excused, but he’s going through something and as his classmates we should be there for him instead of tearing him down anymore. Or did I just assume that we’d all be there for each other?’’
Kirishima stood from the couch after finishing his rant, ‘’He does have an attitude, but picking at him like this won’t do anything. He’s going to be a great hero and he’s still just a teenager. He’ll learn to control his attitude, and I’ll be there every step of the way’’ Turning on his heels, he began his journey in the direction Bakugo ran off in.
Slowly, Kaminari rose from the couch ‘’Kirishima’s right, it’s obvious that his recent anger is being taken out on us, but Bakugo has never safely coped with anything. So we’re here to lead him down the right path for him to heal, because we're friends’’ Taking a deep breath, he followed after Kirishima.
‘’Come on Mina and Sero, we’ve gotta go comfort our friend’’
The two who had been standing in the kitchen, followed wordlessly after Denki, sparing a glance back at the people who sat on the couch.
—
Slamming his door closed, Bakugo stalked across his room, going straight towards an empty wall.He then proceeded too punch the wall with enough force to put a hole in it, pieces of the it crumbled onto the floor. ‘’Fucking assholes’’ he seethed, starting to pace the room.
One question flowed through his mind.
Was he weak? Was he.. was he chasing after a dream that wouldn’t come true?
‘’You hag, hit me again and I’ll kill you!’’ Bakugo shouted, his body shaking as he aimed his anger towards his mother.
Without a beat passing, he was hit hard against the head, ‘’Oh hush, if you hadn’t been so damn weak, you never would have gotten caught and caused all that trouble’’ His mother yelled, not knowing the impact of her words
Stopping in front of his mirror, he gripped the sides of the dresser. ‘’All I did was cause trouble by getting myself caught, all I did was make even more people suffer.. my weakness..’’
Looking up into the mirror, Bakugo watched as a tear rolled down his cheek, making him clench the dresser even more. Now he was crying, showing his weakness even more. ‘’FUCK’’ He screamed, pulling his fist back, he slammed it against the mirror. He hated what he was seeing.
He’d never been so weak in his life. Crying? Pitying himself? How stupid of him. What had he become? Why wasn’t he holding it together?
Glancing back up at the mirror, he saw through the cracked pieces of the mirror.. All might. Not normal all might though, his small, weak and bloody form.
Everyone was holding their breath, waiting for something to be said.. for someone to break the silence.
‘’Next… Next it’s your turn’’
Bakugo watched as many people cheered, but looking towards Deku, he noticed the tears. Glancing back at the screen, he stared at the bloody and small All might.
‘It’s your fault.. you're the one who ended all might.. all because you were weak enough to get caught’’
Grabbing his head, he shook it violently. ‘’GET OUT OF MY HEAD’’ Backing up, he tripped over his feet, causing him to hit the ground ass first.
‘’I didn’t end all might, it wasn’t my fault! It wasn’t my fault’’ More tears streamed down his face, his body shaking with pure emotion. Closing his eyes he rocked back and forth trying to get the negative thoughts out of his head.
His head hung low, his gaze on the ground as he breathed in deeply. ‘’Why did I end up having to chase after the back of someone who was always behind me. Why did a small fry like you get strong and become acknowledged by All Might? Why was it I..’’
He stuttered over his sentence, before finally looking up to meet Deku’s gaze. ‘’Why was I the one who ended All Might?’’ His body shook, ‘’If I had been stronger, and if I hadn’t been kidnapped by villains then this would have never happened’’
‘’I don’t know what to do!’’ He yelled, his eyes wide and frantic as the scene of All Might pointing at the screen continued to play in his head.
‘’It’s my fault…My weakness…I’m weak.. I ended all might because of my weakness.. I’’ Bakugo clutched his chest in pain, a silent cry coming from his mouth.
Everything was happening at such a fast pace, that Bakugo could barely register what was happening. First the room started spinning, causing the male to shake and close his eyes. Then the pain hit him. There was something pressing against his throat, making it hard for him to even breathe, let alone say anything.
His mind was on a roll, and was buzzing with new negative thoughts.
‘It’s because of you all might had to retire’’
‘’It’s because your weak’’
‘’You’ll never be a good enough hero, no one will forgive you’’
‘’You’ll only become a villain with that attitude of yours, no one will like you’’
The thoughts continued, and as they did Bakugo panicked even more. He didn’t even know what was going on, all he knew was he couldn’t breath and everything was blurry.
‘’BAKUGO!’’
He had heard the yell of Kirishima through the buzzing in his ears, and even saw through blurred vision saw four people bend in front of him. When he blinked, he noticed that arms were now around him, hugging him tightly.
‘’Hey, it’s okay.. Bakugo I need you to breathe for me okay? Everything is okay’’
He couldn’t make out who was saying it, but he opened his mouth to say something, but nothing seemed to come out.
‘’You don’t have to say anything, just breathe for me’’
With that comment, he closed his mouth and his eyes. And focused on the arms hugging his body tightly, the protection he felt from them soothed a deep pain within him. And instead of fighting against it, warm tears continued to flow down his cheeks.
‘’It's ok to cry love, it’s ok to show your emotions’’ The soft voice of Mina filled his ears, and he felt his right hand be picked up and squeezed.
Next, his left hand was picked up by another warm hand. ‘’You went through a lot, it's ok to feel how you're feeling. Your feelings are valid’’ Kaminari whispered, heart breaking slightly.
Sero who was behind Bakugo, lightly rubbed his back. ‘’We’re here for you man’’
Kirishima who pulled away from the hug and sat directly in front of Bakugo, clenched his fist in anger. Not at Bakugo, but at himself for letting him go through this alone. Grabbing Bakugou’s face in his hands, red eyes met red eyes.
‘’We love you Bakugo, and we're your friends. What Mineta and the others said out there was bullshit. Katsuki Bakugo, you are so damn strong. Way stronger than me, manlier than I could ever be. You were kidnapped for god's sake, that doesn’t make you weak. We’re only kids, you aren’t expected to take out 10 villains by yourself. You did good. You know why?’’
Kirishima himself had tears falling down his cheeks, ‘’It’s because you came back to us alive. We were so scared. All we want is for you to be better. So yell at us, hit us or even cry on our shoulders- we’ll be here for you. You aren’t weak in our eyes, you are strong. And you’ll be a strong hero, so don’t let one bad situation keep you from becoming the number one hero’’
Bakugo’s eyes went wide, the tears streaming down his face at an even faster rate. He had forgotten one big thing.. he forgot about the people he had in his corner.
He wasn’t alone..
He never was, as he had these idiots by his side.
‘’Don’t go getting all sappy on me Kiri, shit grosses me out’’
—
‘’Wait Bakugo!’’
Hearing his name called, the blonde turned around, his eyes meeting Iida’s, Uraraka, Deku and Tsuyu. ‘’What is it that you want losers’’ He said lowly, not really wanting to talk to them.
‘’We..’’ Uraraka started tugging at the end of her skirt. Stepping forward, Tsuyu began to speak. ‘’We’re sorry for what we said the other day. We weren’t taking in consideration your feelings, and made the situation worse. We wanted you to know that we're here for you’’ She stated, playing with her hands. ‘’Do you forgive us’’
Bakugo’s red eyes met all four of their gazes, before he shrugged his shoulders. ‘’Forgiven and forgotten’’ He said, turning on his heels and starting to walk away.
‘’And guys’’ He mumbled, turning his head over his shoulder, ‘’I’m sorry for taking my anger out on you’’ He said, before he continued to walk down the hall, leaving the four wide eyed and mouths hanging.
He didn’t blame them for what they said, and instead tried to reflect back on what happened. In order to heal, he needed to forgive and change.
After all,
He was going to become the #1 hero no matter what. No villain or classmate was going to change his dream.
He wasn’t weak.
He couldn't always be strong either.
Instead, he was just human. A human with emotions, and a human who wasn’t always perfect.
He was Bakugo Katsuki, a hero in training trying to become the best hero society could ask for.
