Who are you really?
Summary: you grew up next to the Todoroki's, also having growing feeling towards their eldest son. what happens when you lose him to a tragic accident, and many years later infiltrate the league of villains and meet a villain who reminds you a lot of your first love.
Warning- Smut, Burning, Biting, betrayal, character death. not proof read.
you ran down the road to the massive gate that stood at the end of the street. you looked through the gate to see the three children kicking a ball around.
"Hey!" you yelled waving your hand through the gate. you were a few years younger than Touya at the time. "What are you doing here?" Touya said picking up the ball, and walking over.
"My parents went out, and I thought I heard you guys playing." you said still reaching towards him. "and if I don't want to play with you." he said hitting your hand away. "we both know that ain't true."
he pouted his lips out in a childish way, and opened the gate for you. you walked through seeing fuyugi, Natsuo, and their caregiver all standing or laid down in the yard from exhaustion.
once they looked up, and saw you they jumped to their feet. you played all afternoon. you ended up laying on the ground looking at the clouds until you were called home.
a few nights later you spent the night at the Todoroki's because your family had to go out of town for the night. you watched movies with the three of them until you couldn't keep your eyes open any longer. you woke up a few hours later with the light off, and rain noises on the tv. you smiled. you loved sleeping to rain noises, and he knew that.
you laid there trying to go to sleep, after 30 minutes of unsuccessful sleeping you went out to the garden and sat on the porch. you stared at the moon thinking about a lot of things until you heard footstep behind you.
you looked up to see the eldest son with tears in his eyes. "Touya? what's wrong?" he wiped his eyes face. "nothing." he said, going to walk past you.
"sit with me." you said holding your hand out. he turned to look at you. "please?" you said quietly. he looked at your hand to the floor then back to your hand. "okay." he said taking a seat looking up to the moon.
"you aren't okay." you said laying your head on his shoulder. "and you don't have to tell me what's wrong, but we will get through it, whatever it is." you said looking up at the moon too.
you sat in silence for awhile. "I will be a hero one day. you understand that right?" you looked over at him processing his words. "of course, and ill be by your side to heal you." you said holding up your hand to show your bright blue healing quirk. "against any villain, ill heal you." you said smiling at him. he held up his hand next to yours igniting his blue flames. "and we match." you chuckled out. you smiled at him until he jerked, his quirk burning him little bit. you calmly put your hand on his healing his burn.
he stared at you for a minute. "thank you, Y/N." he said looking up at the moon. little did you know that this would be the last night you would see Touya for a long time.
you woke up the next night to a bright red shadow coming through your window. you looked out the see Sekoto peak was engulfed in flames. no. you thought. no him.
you stood next to your family at Touyas funeral a few days later. you couldn't believe that he was gone. how could this have happened. you looked over at endeavor who looked almost stoic. you monster. you thought.
many years passed after that day, you had graduated from UA and became a hero at Endeavors agency. you parents insisted that it would open many doorways for you. it was also an offer that came pretty fast because of the fact that Endeavor knew of your knowledge of what happened to Touya. he didn't want that getting out.
what an easier way to keep tabs on you if you work at his very own agency. after a few years that changed at one Todoroki family dinner.
you sat there eating your miso soup, laughing at something Natsuo said. when the door to the dining rooms almost flew off the rails. "what could be so funny?" Endeavor said in the door way. you looked over at Shoto and the others.
Fuyumi made him a bowl and sat it in front of his chair. "how was your day dad." she said with a forced smile, trying to cover for you. he grumbled and began eating. you tried to avoid eye contact as much as possible.
"what did you do today sis." Natsuo asked fuyumi. "oh, well since it has been 7 years since Touyas passing me and Y/N went to his grave, and laid out some fresh flowers and cleaned I-"
Endeavor slammed his bowl down. "that's where you were?" he yelled. "you called in to work to go to a grave." you finally looked him in the eyes. "his grave." you said calmly. "not just any grave. your sons grave."
he stood up towering over you. "you think I don't care." he said menacingly. "I didn't say that. I just said it wasn't just an everyday thing. I went to help-" "and what about the help in the city. do those people not need your help? what is someone would have died because you hadn't been there?" he said. "what like you?" you said it in spite. you wanted to hurt him. he was the reason for Touyas death and you knew it. everyone at this table knew it.
"you killed him." you said to make sure he understood what you were saying. "I know it, they know it. you are no hero-" you didn't get to finish before you felt the blow to your face.
you hit the floor, feeling the blood roll down your chin. you sat up with help from Shoto. you looked up at Endeavor. "you will leave this house, and never return." he turned throwing the soup against the wall making everyone jump.
he pulled the door open. "you will find a new job effective immediately." he said slamming the door behind him. you burst in to tears. Fuyumi grabbed a napkin wiping your lip for you.
that was a few years ago, you now stood in the Hero Commisions office with Hawks. the new hero you worked with. you had worked under Hawks for a few years now. he took you in after you were fired from Endeavors agency. he never asked why, and you were grateful for that.
"we need you to infiltrate the league of villains." you took a step back. "both of us?" you asked in disbelief. "yes, it will be more convincing if it is a hero and sidekick duo. you would have rebeled together." you looked over at Hawks who was staring at them taking in this information.
he then bowed to them. "your wish is our command." he said. you looked at him for a second before following your bosses lead. you knew if he thought you both could do it you would.
you walked out following him. you got out on to the street. "you will follow me. you will not leave my sight. this is no longer a game, I don't know why they want you to go with me. it doesn't make sense, but you will go in with me, and you will leave with me." he said
he didn't let you help him get in touch with the league of villains. he said he would bring you in later. he needed to build repore with them first.
it was many weeks before you were brought to the compound. you stood in a dark room in front of this long table. "this is her?" a man with blueish hair. "yep." Hawks said hitting your back lightly. "she is a great healer that's for sure. a great asset to the league, and a hero hater." you heard him keep talking but you hadn't been listening.
you could feel every pair of eyes on you. little did you know there was a set of eyes that were taking you in completely.
once the meeting was over you were allowed to stay there so they could keep eyes on you. you would heal villains as they came in to show your loyalty. Hawks was always a breath away. until one day he couldn't be.
Hawks leaned over whispering in your ear. "I'm leaving. it's a very short mission, but I learned something. I have to get this information to Endeavor, but if I take you too it will set off alarms to them. I know I promised not to leave yo-" "it's okay. I promise." you said. "how will you get it to him you are being watched like a Hawk." you chuckled at your own pun. you rolled his eyes, still right next to your ear.
"a book of course." he said opening his coat to show 4 more. "wow. you sure love your books." he flicked your forehead straightening up. "stay safe. just go to your room. lock it." he said poking your forehead again.
"I understand." "repeat it." he said a dead stare, all the joking done. "I will go upstairs, and lock my door." "thank you." he said turning and walking away.
you turned heading up the stairs not noticing the eyes locked on to you. you felt as if you were being followed, but it was a big compound they could be going anywhere.
"you and the bird, huh?" you heard behind you turning to look at the villain they called Dabi. "huh?" you said looking away from him. you didn't like to look him in the eyes. you had learned he looked to much like him. you couldn't admit it, but he reminded you so much of your first love that it hurt to talk to him. "Hawks and you. you are together."
"oh, no we aren't. he is a great friend, and someone who hold the same ideals as me." you said with a smile. "but I must get going."
you turned and began walking again. you expected him to follow you but he didn't. later that night you stood at one of the big windows of the compound looking up at the moon, doing the one thing Hawks told you not to do.
you sat in quiet until you heard foot steps coming from behind you. you turned to see Dabi again. "you always find me." you said chuckling. "you are always were you are not supposed to be." he responded.
you still wouldn't look at him in the eyes. you looked up at the moon thinking back on many good times. now that he was standing here leaning on the same window sill looking at the moon your head was circling with thoughts of Touya. who would he be now.
he would be an amazing hero that was for sure. he wouldn't be like you hiding out in some league of villains compound like some traitor. you just felt stuck, and sad. your thoughts were interrupted but the man across from you.
"you don't like to look at me. am I that bad to look at?" he joked making you jump little bit. you looked at him for a minute, really taking in his features. "no, and that's the problem." you said sadly.
"you just remind me of someone." you muttered out lowly. "its nothing." you turned wanting to get away from this conversation.
"he must have meant a lot to you." he said making you turn back around. you looked in to his eyes. taking in the blue hue.
"yes, he did." you said walking back to your room.
it had been a few days, and Hawks was back, but they kept him very busy. they had something coming up that they didn't want to tell you about. Hawks said to stay vigilant. you trusted him.
You were sat in your room reading your book, trying to pass time. a lamp on in the dim room so you could see. when you heard a knock. you opened the door to see none other than Dabi.
"you lock yourself in here a lot." he stated pushing his way in. you looked at him with a disbelieving look. "you could ask to come in." you said stomping your foot.
"i'm a criminal, what do you expect." he said sitting on your bed, hands behind his head. "its boring in here." "you've been in here two seconds." you scoffed. "and its already boring so its got to be maddening." he said.
you sat down on the bed next to him. "why are you here again." you said opening your book up again. "to see what you were doing, and to ask you some questions." he said not looking away from the ceiling.
"okay, shoot." you said continuing to read, not really listening to him.
"you have been a hero for how long?" "7-8 years, I think." you shrugged.
"how long with Hawks." "like 3-4 or something like that." you said flipping your page.
"who did you work for before that?" "Endeavor." you stated, you felt his head jerk over to you, but you didn't give it to much thought.
"you worked for him?" "yeah, the number 2 hero." you whispered out. "until I was fired." you finished.
"is that why you hate the heroes?" "the firing. no, not even close." you chuckled a humorless laugh.
"then why?" he muttered out. "he hit me one day. it burned a little bit of my face, and busted my lip. I was fired in the same minute." he sat up completely.
"Endeavor hit you." he said. you looked over at him to see rage in his eyes. no that can't be right. "yeah. it was a nasty display, but I did say some crazy things to him. none of it was untrue, but it made it to where I can't see his family anymore, and that has taken a big toll on me." you said shrugging and going back to reading.
"we all have things we live with." you mumbled out. your book was ripped out of your hand and thrown across the room.
"look at me." he said. you turned your head towards him keeping your eyes on his chest. every time you met his eyes the pain struck through your chest at the thought of who Touya would be.
you felt two finger on your chin forcing your eyes up. "look. at. me." you looked in to his eyes. seeing the swirling of blue. he looked at you with the same emotions in his eyes.
"you are back with me now. you have nothing to fear from him ever again." he said never letting go.
"you don't even know me." you whispered out. "I know you better than you might think." he said. you felt your face heat up. your eyes flicked down to his lips before he let go of your chin, standing up and picking up your book tossing it over to you. "read me something while I find us something to watch." he said grabbing the tv remote.
"you don't have TV in your room." you said trying to push him off the bed. "You may have better TV." you rolled your eyes before laying down. "fine." you said as you began to read.
you don't know when you passed out, but here you were a few hours later, in the dark. you opened your eyes. the blankets had been pulled over you, and your book was now on your night stand the page dogeared to mark your place.
you could hear rain noises lulling you back to sleep. you closed your eyes letting it take you under. until you jerked up.
rain noises.
why rain noises? did he put this on the TV? it doesn't matter its a stupid coincidence. you laid back down, but now you couldn't sleep.
blue eyes.
blue flames
rain noises.
his presence alone felt like Touya. no. no more of this. you threw the covers off, swinging your door open. you knew where his room was, and so you b-lined straight for it.
you knocked lightly, aand when you didn't get a response you decided he just walked in to your room so you would do the same to him. you opened the door closing it softly. you knew he was here you could hear his light snores.
he was a ruthless killer, but here he was just a man. you looked around at the little things he had around in his room. his coat was hanging on a chair, and his boots were on the floor next the it.
you looked around seeing not much showing he had a family or anyone else important. you walked over to the man you were going to get answers out of. Hawks will just have to kill you tomorrow, if you don't die tonight.
you walked to the edge of the bed reaching out to touch him, but right before you hand could touch him you felt a hand grab you and flip you on to the bed. you were now being held down on his bed with him on top of you. his hair was tickling your forehead, and his breathe fanned over your face.
"sneaking in. not very heroic." he said his nose touching yours.
"you asked me questions, now I want to ask you questions." you said holding his gaze. you weren't afraid of looking at him anymore.
"oh yeah. well lets hear them." he said not moving an inch.
"why did you join the league of villains?" "the same as you."
"that's very vague." you said to him. "I'm a vague guy." he said with a small smirk.
"how did you get your scars?" his face dropped. "that's a bit sudden don't you think?" "answer it."
he looked at you for a second. "I got burned." he said.
"by who, or what?" you asked. "I'll tell you if you answer one more question for me." he said.
you huffed, before slowly nodding. you needed answers, and you needed the faster than he was willing to provide them. "who do I remind you of? what is his name?" you looked away from him. "ah. look at me." he said making you look back at him.
"If I tell you, you will answer my questions?" you asked him. "yes."
you looked deep in to his eyes. "his name was Touya. he was my best friend, and I-" you got choked up, but held eye contact with him. he seen the lookin your eyes and knew. he slowly released your hands,a nd leaned back.
"no." he said beginning to shake his head. "no. you loved him." he said looking at you like he wouldn't never thought of that.
your eyes filled with tears, and as they began to fall you felt it. the searing hot kiss from Dabi. he had leaned down so fast taking your mouth in his.
you could feel the heat beginning to radiate off of him, but you eagerly returned to kiss. as awful as it sounded he reminded you of Touya, and you may never get another chance to have this alone time with Dabi. Hawks would have your head in the morning so you figured it was now or never.
you felt him thread his fingers in your hair, and pulling you closer. you ran you fingers in his hair making him moan. you could feel every last bit of restraint leaving his body.
"tell me to stop. I could hurt you. please tell me to stop." he was almost whining for your help. you brought your legs up around his waist. "please. please don't stop." you breathed in to his mouth.
"you can't say that." he was using everything he had to pull away in between kisses.
"tell me you want this." you whispered to him, looking up in to his eyes. "I only want you. I've only ever wanted you." he said crashing his mouth against yours. his hands were all over you. you felt his burning touch down your sides and your legs pulling your legs up to be tighter around him.
he grinned down in to you making you moan. you pulled at his pants, hoping he will get the hint. he reaches down and pulls at them until the come off. you begin to reach for your shirt, but dabs was too impatient.
he took your shirt in his hands, you smelt the smoke before you seen it. he burnt your clothes off of your body, but left you unscathed.
you didn't even get the process how hot that actually was, before he was grinding against you again. you felt him push against your entrance. you grabbed on to his hair and shoulder as he pushed in to you.
"you can handle it, I know you can." he whispered as he kept pushing in to you. when he bottomed out he sat there for a second.
he groaned in to your ear. "you fell so good." he whined out.
you felt his breath on your neck as he kissed down your neck.
he slowly began to drive in to you. he started slow, letting you adjust to his size until you could feel him not being able to hold back anymore. "please go faster." and that's all he need from you.
he fucked you so hard you could hear the headboard hitting the wall. you could feel yourself getting closer. he pulled your legs up closer to your chest hitting that perfect spot. you screamed out as that coil finally snapped.
you held on to his shoulders while you came around him. you could hear him getting breathier, and more erratic. "if you keep yelling like that everyone is going to know that a villain fucked you this good." he said.
you couldn't help but continue to pull him closer as you rode out your high. "if you keep squeezing me like that I'm gonn-" he bit in to your shoulder as you felt him release deep inside of you. you moaned with him at the feeling of his teeth and cum. his hands heated up feeling like they were branding you.
he continued to drill himself to you. you came again while he continued to ride out his high. using you for his pleasure.
you felt like jelly when he finally pulled out of you. laying next to you. you laid there in each others arms as your drifted off to sleep.
he laid there and stared at you as you slept. you are exactly as he remembered. you were everything he knew he needed, and now that you were here you would never leave him again. he needed someone to look at him. to see him for who he is, and you did.
he fell asleep feeling like Touya, not Dabi.
you woke up the next morning to a note and some clothes on the bed. the note stated he had a meeting that morning. you dressed in his clothes before sneaking out of his room. you hoped you didn't run in to anyone on the way, especially not- you turned to corner and ran in to someone.
you looked up to see crimson wings. "fuck" you whispered.
"where were you?" he said grabbing your arm. "I checked your room, and you weren't there." he finally glanced at your clothes his eyes widening.
"no." he chuckled. "you're joking right?" you looked at him with a hopeless look.
"I don't know what happened." you whispered, but you knew he heard you.
he growled. "go to your room. shower, change, and meet me at my room. I will think of something." he said through gritted teeth.
you rushed off to your room, feeling so guilt, but you also wouldn't change anything.
you stripped out of your-Dabi's clothes, and jumped in the shower. you let the water run over you. you stared at the water as it rinsed you. black?
why was the water black? you looked at your body to find the source. your hands. your hands were black.
why were they so black? it was rinsing off very easily. what did I touch?
you thought about the night all over again. my hands were in his hair.
his hair is black, but its natural right? what other color could it be?
you heard a knock on your door. you knew who it was so you jumped out and got dressed really fast. pulling the door open you seen the winged man.
he came in slamming the door and locking it."I have an idea. it could work, but you have to be okay with pretending to be dead."
Part #2?
