Ps: This is kinda inspired by the song You Should Be Here by Kehlani & the ending is inspired by the movie 6 Years aka my fave.
Everyday, almost as if it were a routine, youâd wake up to Justin squeezing and kissing you from beneath the covers. Heâd always squeal âgood-morningsâ and âwake upsâ repeatedly since heâd usually have most energy at sunrise. Heâd always peck kisses on your tummy, knowing that you were ticklish and giving your entire body goosebumps. Youâd break out in giggles every time and heâd love it. A somewhat warming feeling would come out of it, feeling as if you were the most beautiful and prettiest girl in the world waking up with him until something echoed a lack of life.
Every morning recently, Justin would for sure still wake up with you. In fact, right by your side, muscular arms wrapped around your petite frame, muffled snores pulsating against your neck. They wouldnât really be considered much of a snore though, more of a heavy breathing. But something didnât seem the same. You both could gossip for hours like best friends throughout the whole morning- unless you had to be somewhere of course, but even that, heâd beg for you to stay in bed. There was almost silence now, which you tried your best to ignore. But sure, you guys would catch up about each otherâs day but heâd never be focused and his mind would be set somewhere else, almost like he wasnât there.
Rolling your body to one side, you groaned as you peaked through the blinds, nothing but clouds blanketing the sky. No beams of sunlight, which was rare. Recently, the weather had been roasting you. You pushed the white covers from your body, trembling at the cold air surfacing your delicate skin before climbing out of bed. Justin wasnât laid between the sheets, begging â5 more minutes babeâ, you werenât expecting it though. He had been out late with the boys, whether it was at the studio or to party or drink.
Grabbing a robe and wrapping it around your body, away from the cold, you made your way downstairs.
âHey-Good morning,â You greeted, a refreshed smile on your face as you approached Justin. You rose your eyebrows, finding him slouched over the kitchen table whilst eating leftover pizza you had foiled up from last night.
Turning his head, a cold look appeared on Justinâs face, you could see his tired and red eyes almost begging for attention. You shook your head down and ignored, it was probably nothing but late night recording sessions. Justin was fully determined to finish this album and you wouldnât blame him. The work he used to show you was incredible. You walked to the fridge, grabbing a clear glass and pouring fresh orange juice into it, no longer in Justinâs gaze.
âHi,â He muttered lowly beneath his breath, hazel eyes meeting yours as he turned his head again, finding you stood behind him, one hand softly kneading his shoulder. Heâd be surprised at how much it helps with stress. ây/n, stop.â He spoke bluntly.
âIs everything okay? How come you werenât home until so late?â You questioned, glancing at Justin and admiring his features as you did. I mean, he was just so beautiful and fetching and youâd fall in love with him even more every day.Â
âYeah.. It was good and I just got caught up in the studio, it was nothing.â He sighed with a shrug as his back rested against the chair, you hands still sat on his broad shoulders.
âWell are you up for grabbing some dinner later?â You asked, intertwining your fingers with his blonde hair, twisting it around your fingers- something youâd do out of boredom. âI booked a place but we can resch-âÂ
âNo itâs fine, we can go tonight.â He showed a smile before biting into another slice of Margherita pizza. Honestly, you were still somewhat surprised that Justin agreed to a date night, which is so bad but it just barely happens. Unless that includes the squad coming over to chill, which soon turns into continuous movie watching or continuously playing video games all night long. Literally⊠All night long.
By 8 Oâclock, neither of you were waiting on each other and had arrived at the restaurant booked. You felt Justinâs large hand press gently against your back, through the satin dress as you both entered, dim lights reflecting your face a tanned orange colour. Regardless, the place looked good and extravagant. There was a massive fire place close to the front entrance with huge sofas and a grand piano, which Justin would normally beg to play like a child.
Watching as he pulled out your seat, you tucked a strand of hair behind your ear before sitting down. âThanks,â You bit your bottom lip, him tucking your chair in after, yet to show his puppy smile again. His eyes focused more on the ground as he took the seat across from you, clearing his throat. Once seated, there were no words spoken for moments but you would both meet each otherâs gaze every now and then.
âSo, howâs everything going, tour-wise?â You asked, cracking the seconds of discomforting silence. You rested one hand on the wooden surface of the table whilst the other poured two glasses of water- Justin would probably order a different drink later though. He always did. You knew him too well.
âYeah itâs fine,â He responded nodding, not an expressive tone in his voice making you sigh again. You thought this whole dinner, meal- date would change things or at least bring you guys closer together than youâve been lately.
Swallowing a lump in your throat, you glanced across to Justin, his eyes were yet to look at you but still looked heavy. You felt bad, maybe he was just overworking himself but that never stopped him before from being affectionate and loving. You both ate in silence, occasionally turning heads as another couple would burst out with laughter, you both looking back at each other and quietly ignoring. Everyoneâs conversations but yours filled the room. Justin chewed on his food, blonde hair swinging almost halfway across his sweet face.
Adjusting your seat, you humped to the edge, leaning over the wooden table. âAre you okay? Whatâs going on?â You cleared the silence, but he was still in another world. He chewed his lips together, making them look stick thin as he looked at the freshly cut flowers, centre table.
ââŠJustin.â You repeated, scratching two of your nails together, chipping at the grey colour. You were planning to get them manicured and fixed last week but something important in the week came up so it was cancelled. You didnât really mind though, it was nothing major.
âMhmm,â He hummed, snapping out of his daydream as his eyes grew slightly bigger, shaping a wide oval.
âSo, whatâs going on?â You began, repeating yourself another time, before sipping on some water to moisten your throat. You hated to admit but pieces of you had the sick feeling to your stomach that his love for you had changed over the last month. Nothing was the same. Or maybe you were just drifting apart. Either way, you couldnât fight it anymore or tell yourself it was okay, or that itâll blow over by next week because clearly it wont. Because clearly, you were to in love.
âCome on, youâre pushing me to a side,â You muttered, swinging your head low, strands of curled hair dropping to your face.
ây/n,â Justin let out a sigh as he brushed his large hand across the back of his neck. You gathered he did that when he was nervous, it was just something youâd catch on to. Gulping on the glass of water, he placed his silver fork down, resting it on the china plate.
âIf youâre not going to say much then I will,â You huffed, your two almost sweating hands gripping around the edge of your seat, nervous. âI just feel like slowly, I donât know, weâre growing apart.â You stated, Justin immediately raising his eyebrows and looking up from his hands, wrinkles forming on his forehead.Â
Justin had no indication of anything until you said those words. You waited for response, your eyes wandering back around the room, noticing the smallest details like the tiny painted art work pinned to the walls. âI-I donât understand,â He spoke in an undertone.
You looked down and exhaled, âHonestly, me neither. But this, all of a sudden, doesnât seem right.âÂ
Placing your hand on top of Justinâs, resting them both on the table, you fought to look at him in the eye again. âYou canât do that Justin. You canât push me to a side like that, to suddenly pay attention to me once I tell you itâs not working.â You continued, saying the words youâd never thought youâd say.
âBut I love you, I-I wouldnât have done any of this if I didnât love you.â He began to stutter on his words, running hand after hand through his hair- another thing heâd do out of nerves. âWe can work this out..â
âThen look at me in the eyeâŠâ You started, your heart pulsating through your chest as you looked right at Justin now; something youâd regret later when tears are running down your face.âAnd tell me that youâre in love with me, that youâre truly in love with me and that you want to spend the rest of your life with me.â
Expecting an immediate response, you rested your chin in the palm of your hand, watching as Justin chewed his bottom lip, tears threatening to spill from his waterline. He scanned your eyes, struggling to look right into them as he usually would. His lips quivered but no words came out, just as if he couldnât say anything.Â
âIâm sorry.â He cried with a shaky breath, looking beneath his lashes, saying something which you refused to believe at first thought.
âOkay, Iâm gonna go-â You held a weak guard against your tears. You both were already getting weird looks as it was, let alone if the both of you began to cry. Grabbing your black coat from behind the seat, you stood up and walked away, heels clicking against the wooden surfaced floor.