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|Zero || he/she/they| Ask box is always open! Just to be clear, do not talk to me about fall out boy or I will block you. I'm not joking. Icon by bloody-icons

[we-are-killjoys]

MCR’s last concert

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[killjoyhistory]

Mikey Way

Ad for the Squier Mikey Way Signature Mustang Bass. From 2012.

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[lqmychem]

party poison

[happilyappled-archive]

Gerard dancing for Renata <3

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Rocksound

My Chemical Romance in Rocksound, December 2010.

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Behind the Scenes

Behind-the-scenes photography by Claire Vogel.

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[jcsusofsuburbia]

Hey there fren. I know it seems hard right now, and I can't promise that anything will get better because I don't know, but I can promise that I'll be here. I'll be this tumblr anon and I want you to know that I hear you, I'm listening. I don't know about you, but having someone just acknowledge me did great things for my mental state. So I wanted to (try to) do the same for someone else.

Thank u anon, this means a lot to me

[awsugar]

[jcsusofsuburbia]

My perception of time is so fucked up I can’t remember how long I was gone? Or if I even was? I know I neglected this blog for a while up until about a week or so, but I’m not sure if it was noticeable? Regardless if anyone noticed or cared or wondered what happened or not, I wanted to clear my conscience and say that I just got a shit ton worse.

I used to be really depressed a while back (maybe last fall? Or the one before that?) and I cut myself every day. It was like a little nightly routine, listen to some music, cut my legs from the hip to the knee, take a shower, go to bed. It felt normal and safe and perfectly fine and I know it wasn’t but it made everything feel right so I accepted it. When spring came and the weather got warmer I realized I had to stop because people would notice the cuts when I wore shorts. I quit completely, and I’m shocked no one saw the scars.

It’s been a long time since I’ve cut but for a while now I’ve been contemplating doing it again. I really have no way to cope otherwise and life is getting harder. I pretty much lost all my friends because they got bored of me and left,my family is starting to struggle financially and there’s a possibility that we’ll need to move to another town, I’ve had no luck whatsoever with my art for the longest time, I’m not in school bc it’s summer so my life has no structure, and I feel likeminded just drifting through time, wasting every day by doing nothing. I feel like I’m really missing out on everything that other people my age are getting to do because my parents are strict and I have no friends and I’m too afraid of everything to try and change that.

Basically, my depression is worse and I want to die and that overwhelming fear and self hatred is what made me stop caring about this blog for a little while and if I disappear again now you know the reason why.

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[jcsusofsuburbia]

Hey I need a fandom den mother. Hoping you can help. Anywho i wanted to know what the zero means on your profile. Is it bc of gerards song zero? Or?

It’s my name!

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[tothekilljoys]

Beauty with a green background