this is not the end.

fire walk with me.

[jeanix]

independent private & selective rp blog for jean grey of marvel comics. based on 100% vibes and a complete cherry-pick of canon. read rules before interacting. interactions for this blog are strictly plot driven! affiliated with @psychiq. written by billy / seth / joe. (25. mexican. he + they)

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[74nd0m]

oh but you're so full of surprises ! so full of secrets !

independent private & selective rp blog for an original mutant character rex "random" guy. written by billy. based on vibes mostly. read rules before interacting.

[harringtontm]

★ — @jeanix continued from (x) ;

THE PERFECT GIRL just keeps walking back into his dingy little video rental store. her return becomes more improbable every time, yet jean comes back. even though steve knows there's better shops around. he really doesn't know what's bringing her back ; doesn't want to be delusional thinking a girl like her would ever notice him, so far out of his league she may as well be playing a different sport altogether.

but she comes straight up to him, smile like a supernova, & something about her makes steve brave despite himself. brave enough to ask. & jean doesn't grimace, doesn't say no. she laughs, & steve suddenly knows he'd do some real stupid shit if it meant he could hear that sound again.

❝ i admit, i may have done it just a few times before. ❞ steve's voice goes low, conspiratorial, elbows on the countertop & head inclined like he's sharing some big secret. ❝ i used to babysit, kinda a lot. & tickets for groups of six kids can get pretty expensive. so. i got real good at sneaking. ❞

[jeanix]

babysitter. of course. jean knows some stuff about that. having a haggle of kids, well...less kids more just. younger than her. but in her line of work that tends to be a chasm of a divide. she wonders then if there's anything wrong with this man. if there is she doesn't want to find out.

she tries not to pry, keep her powers in tow, but she's distracted. can hear him thinking, how much she likes her for her. despite. not knowing, this other side of her. she flushes, cheeks a warm rosy, eyes looking away. "okay then. what movie do you wanna see? anything on that you think i'd like?" voice soft as she slides the movies closer to him on the counter, arms crossed and resting on them. he's handsome, soft in a boyish way. can't seem to take her eyes off him.

"you know the movies i like by now." jean mentions offhandedly. lingers with it. eyes fluttering, and maybe it's a set up. it's seeing how much attention he might be paying.

[jeanix]

i will get back to people sometime tomorrowwwwwwwwww

[jeanix]

you didn't wake me up. (scott)

jean grey is in bed, the orange in the sky tinting everything it reaches. she's been tracing idle shapes, on the covers, on the pillows. green eyes softly locked on scott's face. she smiles, reflected off ruby shades. "you were having the nicest dream. why would i wake you up then?" she doesn't pry, she just keeps him safe. he already deals with so much, carrying the weight of the world. he deserves nice, even in dreams. jean feels compelled to.

"-besides we don't have to be anywhere else but here right now." her finger curls and uncurls in his hair. teasing, but close to the feeling of being absolutely enamoured. "so." as if it's obvious, as if jean would choose anything else but this moment.

[jeanix]

"Want to try sneaking into the movie theater?"

it's the third week in a row that jean grey has found herself in this particular video rental, aptly names video rental. she's smart, she offered to return any tapes anyone back at the mansion had laying around. this is sort of her little time away from it all. running to something, running from something. making her way into the city. taking the bus, people watching. it is sometimes exhausting. cities are loud, and now the thoughts are white noise. but they are in the end noise.

she feels silly, maybe even like a stalker. like god. get a hobby, instead. she finds herself here. opening the door with her bag in hand. a bunch of movies she did not see. save for one. a week ago, like clockwork. at the desk now as steve seems to take in all the movies as a return. the question takes her by surprise.

jean grey. perfect girl, always one step ahead of danger. she wouldn't dare, she's too square. but this seems. it's different, alluring in a way that makes her giddy. green eyes shine, then she sort of chuckles. "i didn't know you were such a bad influence, steve." it's harmless, she isn't upset. she's thrilled. "-i've never snuck into a movie theather before." jean isn't rejecting him. she's testing him, trying her best not to take a peak into what he's thinking. what he's feeling.

"you do that often?" with other girls. she means to ask. it doesn't get there, she just leans into the counter. cheek resting on her hand.

[jeanix]

okay well, the only way i could see myself adapting more of jean's deaths is if they somehow take less and less time for her to come back...is she immortal? can she not die anymore? i think there is a way for this to be compelling and also absolutely destroy her from the inside out mentally yes yes

[jeanix]

you want to run away together, or just run away? /+ logan

jean really appreciates the sincerity. the honesty. logan just sometimes seems to read into her. and he's not a mind reader last she checked. she does her best to block his head out. feels like a guy who quite prefers his privacy. and jean just needs to listen. her arms crossed, standing at the edge of the mansion's property. she feels like a little kid, every time without fail. she hates the feeling.

"would you run away with me?" the question remains, settles somewhere between her heart and her ribs. jean grey remains the same old girl with stupid fantasies. forever searching for a little bit of peace, a little bit of normalcy. "-what would the team do without you?" she smiles something shy. the same could be said about her. she isn't selfish, and she shares the vision. but it feels. off. weird. to be stuck in a cycle, to be stuck in her own head. something begging to be led out. she wouldn't admit this to anyone. not even scott.

[jeanix]

also i want more jean in people's mindspace threads, what does that look like for your muse? if they are closed off how do the guard from intruders, any memories they are constantly reliving?

[jeanix]

i think i really like writing the mundane aspects of jean's existence, it's not something i always enjoy but i think with someone as powerful as jean...she sort of deserves a bit of a break

[jeanix]

so Jean is bisexual at most, there is a part of her that represses this along with everything that puts her in a situation where she’s stepping out of line

[jeanix]

also important to note that Jean felt liberated once she hosted the phoenix force, she could just let go of having to try to suppress her powers but also herself

[jeanix]

something something there being no human understandable reason for the phoenix to have caused that star to go super nova, like Jean not being to articulate the why because the cosmic entity had its own incomprehensible reasons as to why it did that and in turn Jean not being able to explain or justify it

[jeanix]

I think the assumption of who Jean is naturally comes from being kids whenever the people she and the people she bonded with met each other there’s a lot of empathy of course between one another but I think Jean gets put on a certain pedestal that affects her once she does return, before that she felt the need to meet peoples standards and it’s not even like because of the people that put her there but because of her nature she doesn’t want to disappoint and she doesn’t want to fail because failure means danger in the end it didn’t really matter for her to be so fixated on this, the phoenix made her mad with power and that is something tough to reconcile with

[jeanix]

here’s the thing, Jean struggles with the perception of herself I think intrinsically it’s something telepaths might feel, but I think there’s a point where she’s trying to keep control of her powers and a lid on it where it turns into this assumption that She’s Bad and it comes from it being unnatural to try and suppress all her powers

[saydontgo]

BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER S05E19 Tough Love

[jeanix]

hi who wants to plot