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ooc: EXCUSE YOU MEAN GIRLS WASN'T OUT IN 1995
Name five people you love.
Amelia, mom, and dad.
And I guess maybe some of my old friends from school?
Are you a virgin?
I don't see how that's any of your business!
Boys and Toys || Jeffrey & Aiden
As the boy spoke, the journalist’s body switched instantly from fight-or-flight mode to well-that-was-embarrassing mode as he walked down the stairs and reached for his Gameboy. He must have looked ridiculous to the kid, a grown man scrambling for a children’s toy. Aiden brushed his fingers against the screen, as if scrubbing off any potential damages to the device. His eyes scanned over the toy. Good, it’s not broken.
“Sorry, I wasn’t-“ Aiden started with flushed cheeks as he tried to explain away his behaviour, but was immediately cut off by the boy’s question. He noticed the slight hint of jealousy in the other’s eyes, and suddenly felt the urge to kick himself for being so inconsiderate. Aiden replied with a smile. “Well, not a whole lot, just Donkey Kong, Mario and the new one, Sonic the Hedgehog.” he explained proudly, at the risk of sounding like a complete geek. But he was sure that the boy wouldn’t mind.
“Jeff, right? You came with your sister?” Aiden already knew the answer to that, as there weren’t many teenage guests at the Regan Manor, but for the sake of conversation, he asked anyway. He then raised his eyebrow at the boy as he held out the Gameboy towards Jeffrey. “Wanna give it a spin?” he asked, attempting to be ‘cool’ as he turned on the device and casually handed it to the younger male. “Come on, sit.” he gestured as he sat on the stair case. It was wide enough for people to pass through even with both of the sitting down. “I heard that they’re going to have them in colour in a few years. How cool is that?” he chimed, not even trying to hide his excitement.
Donkey Kong and Mario he knew. In fact, he'd played Mario for ages and ages back home, or gathered around with friends to watch as someone attempted to break their high score, or beat the game. The social aspect had been almost as fun as the game itself.
He nodded at the mention of Amelia, but was distracted by Aiden's next comment before he could answer verbally. Did he want to give it a spin? Of course he did! He followed Aiden and sat beside him on the staircase, taking the Gameboy carefully in his hands. The cartridge was already in, and Aiden had already turned it on, so as he watched the screen lit up to reveal Sonic the Hedgehog. "I haven't played this one yet!" he blurted, probably sounding far too excited about being able to play with the Gameboy. But he hadn't been able to sit around with video games in ages.
Jeffrey tore his gaze away from the Gameboy to look over at Aiden as he finished speaking. "Really? Color?" he said, echoing Aiden's excitement. It was a relief to hear that in Aiden's voice, and suddenly Jeffrey didn't feel as bad about his most likely obvious excitement and jealousy of the device and the games. He probably could've guessed that Aiden loved this sort of thing based on the fact that he was wandering around the mansion carrying a Gameboy, and the way he'd scrambled desperately to pick it up from the ground when it had fallen, but still. "That would be awesome," he agreed, pressing 'new game' as he spoke. Then, as he waited for the screen to load once more: "What's your favorite game?"
Fertilizer || Jeff and Leo
It was amusing, to watch Jeffrey stammer and blush his way through that. Well, maybe it was also a little mean, but Leo didn’t care, didn’t feel bad. Maybe it was a little weird, and very, very creepy for a grown man to discuss masturbation with a teenager, but Leo had heard of weird things. He hadn’t touched the boy, had no interest in touching the boy, so he didn’t see why it made a damned difference either way. What the fuck else was he supposed to talk about? Leo didn’t really give a fuck about what sort of things the kid was interested in, if he had a girlfriend, that sort of thing, and it was still far too early to bring up what Leo was going to train Jeff to help him with. Jeff wasn’t quite ready yet, but he’d be ready soon.
“I never said they were similar. People just both use them to relax.” Leo had to fight to keep the disdain out of his voice. if Jeff were stupid, he wouldn’t be much use to him now, would he? But perhaps he’d give the boy another chance to redeem himself. “My mom, she was pretty strict. Sins of the flesh and all that, you know?” He shook his head and started to cover the last of Mariah with other shit from the compost bin. They were almost done. Soon, nobody would ever know what he did.
"Right, of course," he said, admitting silently that it had probably been stupid to assume that Leo had meant the two were similar. The topic had just been so unexpected, and he'd been completely unsure how to react, which was dumb. They weren't talking about anything truly shocking. For a moment, he almost thought he heard something else buried in Leo's voice, besides the benignly friendly tone he was used to, but it was gone before Jeffrey could fully panic over it. It was probably just his own paranoia bleeding through and distorting his perception.
He focused on the project for a moment, listening to Leo. Leo's mom, the alcoholic, apparently strict about things like that too. He frowned. "That sucks," Jeffrey added, unhelpfully. Was he supposed to comfort Leo? Or just comment? Or...what? He was terrible at this. "But hey, you're out of the house now!" he added, trying to keep it positive and light, watching as Leo dumped the rest of the compost into the bin, and stirred it in with the rest. There, done. Good, he was eager to get away from the reeking pile, and back into the fresh air.
Boys and Toys || Jeffrey & Aiden
Okay, so that was close.
Aiden wiped away what seemed to be a trickling drop of sweat from his forehead as he rushed up the never-ending staircase. Nice try, uptight cop lady, but no matter how many questions Officer Donut King asked, he would never have found anything that would tie Aiden to whatever that happened during the dinner party, and it was probably due to the fact that it had absolutely nothing to do with him at all! If anything, Rebecca had sent the detective on a wild goose chase, throwing him off with Aiden as a potential suspect. Aiden hope that there would be bad blood between the cop and Rebecca because of that.
And all those questions about the old lady, Mariah. Why would they be asking him about her familiarity with the Regan Manor? They probably thought that he and Mariah where in on it together. But why wouldn’t they just asked the old lady herself? They tried to be subtle about it, stepping away as the #2 muttered his report to #1, but the subtext hadn’t escaped Aiden. Something was up. Was Mariah missing? Did she escape? That would make a whole lot of sense, and explain a few th-
CLUNK!
Aiden was so deep in his train of thought that he didn’t notice slip out of his pockets, falling down the stairs before it was too late. CRAP. The tape recorder! The journalist instinctively turned around, his eyes widened in panic as he caught a glimpse of shadow from around the corner. Someone was coming this way, and saw the device that fell down the stairs. It it was Greg or freakin’ Rebecca, he was done for. “Hey! Don’t worry about it! I’ll pick it up!” he yelled as he stumbled down the stairs, only to realise halfway down that it was his Gameboy instead. Aiden felt the left pocket of his jacket. The recorder was still safely concealed inside. He let out a sigh of relief as he returned to a normal pace, his heart still beating hard against his chest.
By now, he was familiar enough with the manor that he could travel through it on autopilot, letting his mind wander while his feet guided him back to his room. Jeffrey couldn't tell whether that was a good thing or not. He'd never intended to get this comfortable with the manor, but on the other hand, it wasn't a bad thing to get to know the place. But he had to keep reminding himself that it was just a temporary place to live, not a home. Amelia's absence from his life at the moment helped bring that fact into sharp awareness, at least. The only benefit to their fight, and one that was completely not worth it.
Hearing something clatter on the floor, Jeffrey automatically glanced over, curious to see what had caused the noise and startled him out of his thoughts. His eyes fell on a Gameboy, and he nearly leaned over to pick it up, before someone called down the stairs to stop him. Jeffrey looked up, seeing one of the other guests come racing down the stairs towards him, only to abruptly slow down to a regular pace shortly after he came into view. Jeffrey smiled, waved slightly. He'd seen the other man around the manor, although they hadn't really talked in depth or at length. “Don't worry, I'm not gonna steal it,” he said, reacting to the way the other man had been so intent on getting his Gameboy back.
He was more than a little jealous, to be quite honest. There had been no time to bring anything fun or for pleasure while packing to leave their aunt's house. He'd barely been able to grab the bare necessities, meaning his life had been utilitarian for ages. “What games do you have?” he asked, nodding towards the device, unable to resist asking.
Fertilizer || Jeff and Leo
If Jeff asked one more damn question, Leo was going to kill him, or at least kill him once he was no longer useful. That had been the plan all along, at least, but Leo wouldn’t mind hurrying the whole thing up. It took all of Leo’s control to not whip around and bash the boy’s head out with a shovel then and there. When Leo did kill Jeff, how would he do it? Fertilizer would only work once, maybe twice, and Leo did like to be somewhat creative. He’d done acid, dumping bodies in lakes, rivers, quarries, and now grinding them into fertilizer. Maybe he could bake the brat and feed him to his own sister. Now that was an idea, and how fun would that be?
And now Leo needed a good excuse for the roses. “My dad used to plant roses, when I was younger. Sometimes he’d let me help. When he vanished, my mother ripped them out. She always thought they were ugly.” Leo sighed and looked down at his feet, shifting from unemotional to sad in a matter of seconds. Sad was easy to do. Talk slower, look at your feet, be quiet, shrink yourself down, look as unthreatening as possible. “Roses remind me of him. I thought I’d plant them in his honor. If we ever find him, he’d like them, and if we don’t, well, then it’s a nice memorial.”
Leo waited for Jeff to catch up to him. That was a stupid answer. “Most people masturbate, but I thought it would be inappropriate for me to jerk off in front of you. It tends to be frowned upon. So gardening is the next best thing.” He grabbed the bag and dumped Mariah in the compost pile.
Jeffrey listened quietly, eager to hear any and all information he could about Leo. He couldn't stop his mouth from pulling into a quiet frown at the world 'memorial' though. He knew Leo was just being rational- admitting that the missing people might not be missing at all, that they might be dead, was just the sane, normal thing to do. That was how most people reacted to situations like this. That was how people were supposed to react to situations like this. Still, he wasn't fond of even entertaining the idea as a possibility, if he could help it. That lead to getting discouraged, and there wasn't room for that right now.
The second half of Leo's response was on an entirely different wavelength than the first, and Jeffrey couldn’t help but let out a choked, awkward laugh in surprise. Masturbation wasn't exactly something that people brought up on a daily basis. It tended to be something no one mentioned at all, in fact, although it wasn't like Jeffrey didn't know it existed (hell, he was a teenage boy, he had needs). It just wasn't what he'd expected Leo to bring up right after a touching speech about his dad. Probably trying to lighten the mood.
“Yeah, thanks for that, between the two I'd much rather see you garden,” Jeffrey said, attempting to avoid acting like an awkward kid at Leo's joke. “Although I can't say I'd ever thought of masturbating and gardening as similar before.”
Fertilizer || Jeff and Leo
Much to Leo’s disgust, the boy did not seemed to be very interested in using the rest of the fertilizer. Well, god fucking dammit. There was still over a half Mariah they needed to use, and odds were the gardener would catch on to ground up bitch in his soil, and that wouldn’t do. Leo had barely interacted with the man, but he didn’t seem dense enough to notice something so obviously wrong. Jeff was going to catch on sooner or later, to something vaguely suspicious, if Leo insisted on using all the stuff. A rose garden could realistically only get so big. Perhaps it was time to change tack.
“You know what, Jeff? I’m thinking that this is actually a pretty good amount of space for planting a rose garden. I mean, we wouldn’t want a situation where the roses take over, would we?” Actually, that would be a very interesting idea, letting the roses run rampant, so if anyone tried to flee the manor, when it was Lionel’s turn to play, they would be caught, with nowhere to go, torn and bleeding if they tried to escape. Pity that the gardener was probably much too fond of his little kingdom to ever let anything destroy it. Maybe he would have to be next to follow Mariah. And what would Leo do with his body? Throw it in the lake? Strip the flesh off, cook it, and feed it to the guests, while hiding the bones in the wall? All of those ideas would be so much fun.
Leo stood up and looked around, checking to make sure they were still alone. Good. They were. “In fact, I’m pretty sure I saw a compost pile somewhere. How about we go dump the rest of the fertilizer in it?”
Jeffrey nodded. "Okay, sure, sounds good," he said, readily agreeing with the change of plans. He wiped his hands clean on his knees, registering somewhere in the back of his mind that that was gross and unsanitary. It did the job though, and he'd rather have dirt on his pants than on his hands. Something else that would've bothered his mom to no end, if she'd been around to comment on his behavior. Of course, if she had been around, she might've been more concerned with the fact that her children had stabbed her brother-in-law. That wasn't really the point though.
Jeffrey scanned the garden for the compost heap. It was probably going to reek more than the small bag that Leo had been carrying. "So, why roses?" he asked, curious. "Are you a gardener or something?" It was small talk, and an obvious attempt at it. But as long as he was spending time with Leo, he wanted to get to know the other man better, and Leo had been willing to share before. Jeffrey didn't get the feeling that Leo was dismissing him because of his age, like so many people did, and that made him want to talk to him even more.
Not to mention, having a conversation that didn't pertain to the disappearances was nice. They were the main concern of everyone in the manor, and rightfully so, but that didn't mean he minded taking a break from discussing them. "I mean, no offense, but I don't think that's what most people do when they want to relax."
Fertilizer || Jeff and Leo
Jeffrey was a good little worker bee, so willing to obey orders and work hard without question, so eager for some praise. Oh, this was going to be remarkably easy, Leo realized with glee. Why hadn’t he ever found an emotionally fucked-up young man to help him before? That would have made so many things easier. Someone to drive the truck, or to do some laundry, someone who was still young and naive enough to not know the difference between dirt, blood, and paint stains, someone who wouldn’t go tattling to adults, someone who needed saving. Yes, that’s what Leo was doing. He was saving Jeff from a mundane, boring life, giving him the chance to be extraordinary. That made everything alright, if Leo were the sort of man inclined to rationalizing his ideas.
Leo looked over at the small hole Jeff was digging. “That looks great, Jeff. Did you use all the fertilizer? I was thinking of planting roses over a large area. You know, to make the grounds more beautiful, and in case on patch of soil isn’t good.” Always the contingency plan, always the excuse.
He knelt back down next to jeff, and started to turn the soil himself, slowly, to keep Jeffrey encouraged. Yes, Leo would do some work, but Jeff would have to do the majority of it. That way, if, when, anything went wrong, if, when, Leo was caught, he would be able to blame Jeff and get away. “Let me help you.” Leo smiled and grabbed a handful of Mariah, grinding it into the dirt. the faster they got rid of her body, the better.
Jeffrey knew it was stupid to feel proud of the fact that he could, apparently, dig a hole in the dirt, fill it with fertilizer, and mix it all together. It really wasn't that big of an accomplishment, especially not when you considered the fact that Leo was the one who was directing the entire thing anyway. But, still, it was nice to do a simple task and get it right, as opposed what he'd been doing lately, namely tackling a huge task, and messing it up. And Leo's affirmation of that made him want to keep helping, despite his initial disgust at the smell. It really wasn't bad once you breathed through you mouth. He could get used to it.
“There's still a lot of fertilizer left,” he said, in answer to Leo's question, nodding towards the bag. He wanted to deal with it as little as possible, and he was completely fine with Leo being in charge of the fertilizer, especially since Leo apparently had no qualms reaching into the smelly bag and scooping up handfuls of the stuff.
“How big of an area are you thinking?” he asked, looking at the garden around them, trying to decide how much of the fertilizer he should use for each area. Taking it in, he guessed it could use some roses. He had no idea how often people came out to the garden, but a few extra flowers couldn't hurt anything. Jeffrey continued digging, slowly widening the area he was working on to follow suit with Leo's idea.
Fertilizer || Jeff and Leo
Leo nodded absently and looked at a shovel. He wasn’t going to actually do any work, not if he could help it, and poor, sweet Jeff was so eager to please, so willing to be helpful, so in need of some nurturing and love and encouragement, that it would probably be quite easy to pass all the work onto him. “Nasty, I know. But apparently it works wonders, and it’s more natural or something equally ridiculous.” Leo shook his head, as if disgusted by the smell. The smell was nothing. Jeff would have to learn that. If Leo got his way, the kid would be smelling far worse things in the future. “Try breathing through your mouth. It helps a little.”
So maybe it was a little weird, to enlist a teenage boy to help him plant roses. Weirder things happened at the Regan manor, Leo told himself. Nobody, least of all Jeff, had anything to suspect. And they were in a rather sad and muddy patch of garden, the sort of thing that would really benefit from some fresh flowers. Really, if anything happened, Leo should be getting some praise. Getting rid of a body without a trace and beautifying the manor. Two birds with one stones. And hopefully one of the women would see the roses, ask who planted them, and Leo would get the glory and with it… He closed his eyes. God, it really had been too long. There had been Rebecca, but they hadn’t even gotten close to finishing, not with that idiot, Greg and his little whore, Jace, barging in on them. Perhaps next to go would be Greg. Maybe he could become an apple tree.
Leo handed the trowel over to Jeff. “I think we should start by turning the soil. And then we should maybe put down the fertilizer and mix in some. To make everything nice and, uh, fertilized.” Leo didn’t know one thing about gardening, but he was counting on Jeff knowing even less. Anyway, it didn’t matter how ell the roses came up, just as long as Mariah was gone.
He nodded, accepting the trowel. Turning the soil, okay. Was that sort of like mixing it? Basically just digging in the ground and turning over shovelfuls of dirt until it was ready for seeds? He decided to go with that. Besides, Leo seemed to know what he was doing, he'd tell him if he was doing it wrong. But the fact was that Jeffrey wanted to avoid that. It was just a simple task. It was gardening, not rocket science. He could at least do this without messing up, right?
He dug the small shovel into the ground and pulled upwards, disturbing the dirt, and bringing some of it to the surface. After a few moments of that, he pulled away, looking to Leo for confirmation before reaching over and tentatively glancing into the bag beside the Leo. The stench was even worse when you were closer to it, and he automatically wrinkled up his nose again. Recalling Leo's advice, he went against his natural instincts, and opened his mouth somewhat to try breathing through it instead of his nose. Hm. That did help, actually. Good to know.
Taking extra care not to touch any of the actual manure in the bag, Jeffrey scooped some out with the trowel, and added it to the pile of soil in front of him. Eager to bury the gross substance, he mixed it in with the dirt, turning and pressing on the ground in front of him until it was what he assumed was well mixed. Finally, he looked back over at Leo. “Okay. Done. Now what do we do?”
Ugh.
Oh, wow, I’m sorry, I didn’t know I needed permission from a kid to hit on a legal adult. I’ll be sure to ask next time. Do I have to set up a playdate, too?
Very funny.
You can make fun of me all you want, but that doesn't change the fact that you're just some creep hitting on Amelia, and I'm going to speak up about it.
Ugh.
I end up drinking (coffee) and going over my notes a lot. I don’t… think that’ll help you too much.
Wait… so, are there actually things to do around here? Huh, I just sleep. And drink.
Wow, don't you sound like an upstanding citizen.
Sleeping, drinking, hitting on people's sisters.
Fertilizer || Jeff and Leo
Leo looked up, as if overjoyed to see the younger man. He saw the way Jeff’s nose instinctively wrinkled up, and he didn’t exactly blame him. The fertilizer mix was ripe, and Leo was shocked the kid hadn’t vomited. The smell didn’t bother Leo much. He was used to dead bodies, and much, much worse. Still, he wrinkled his nose slightly, mostly to stop any suspicions Jeffrey might have. “Hey. Good to see you, Jeff.” Good and friendly, that was the trick. Just two guests, running into each other in the garden, maybe about to plant some roses together. Nothing suspicious in that, right? Not like Leo had the ground-up remains of Mariah Thompson in his bag of dirt and fertilizer, right?
He dropped the bag on the ground next to him and sighed, as if the bag was heavier than he could bear to carry. The weight wasn’t bad, nothing unmanageable, nothing compared to some of the bodies he’d thrown into rivers or down wells, or left in landfills, features all but melted from acid or fire. “Sorry about the smell. According to the gardener, Jack, I think his name is, horse manure makes an excellent fertilizer.” Leo forced a laugh. “I wouldn’t believe him, but he’s done a pretty good job with the flowers, you know.”
Slowly, Leo dropped to his knees. The ground was slightly squishy, and he couldn’t help but make a face. these were nice jeans, not getting rid of dead body jeans. At least it was mud, and not blood. Blood was a bitch to get out of clothing, and apparently the stupid police dogs could still find it. With a sigh, he opened his bag of fertilizer, and focused on not breathing too deeply. “I’m planting some roses. Want to help?”
“Nice to see you too!” Jeffrey said. Then, “ugh, horse poop? Really?” That explained the smell then. Gross. “Aren't there any other fertilizers out there?” he said, half joking, half serious. Whatever, it was Leo's decision if he wanted to wander around with that. Jeffrey had no idea how he'd managed to carry it all the way out to the garden without being disgusted, but maybe Leo was used to it. A frequent gardener or something. To be honest, he didn't know much about the man, other than the fact that he was missing a father, he was at odds with his siblings, and he'd been abused. And while that was quite a lot, it didn't mention anything about hobbies.
“Roses?” he repeated. Then with a shrug, he continued. “Sure, I'll help.” Jeffrey settled down on the grass next to Leo, feeling the slightly squishy and damp ground soak through his clothes to dampen his knees. There'd probably be grass stains on them later, especially if he stayed like this for too long. Mom would've pitched a fit, he thought, the memory somehow both happy and painful at the same time. While she wasn't a neat freak, she'd never been happy when Jeffrey wandered home with mud all over his clothes for one reason or another. He had that problem more than Amelia. She was content to read during her free time. He'd always been much more curious, and prone to running around trying to figure things out. Impulsive and curious- a bad combination, up until this chapter of his life.
He'd never actually gardened before, but how hard could it be? Dig a hole in the ground, throw some seeds in, cover it in...uh, horse manure, and then fill the hole back up. As far as Jeffrey was concerned, Leo could be in charge of the manure. This was his project, after all. Jeffrey wanted to help, but he didn't really want to touch whatever was giving off that rancid smell. “How can I help?”
Fertilizer || Jeff and Leo
The night before, when Leo realized that he had a dead body on his hands, a small dead body, one that he could lift easily and hide without much trouble, but a dead body none the less, a dead body that, in a few days would bloat and start to stink up the place, he decided he couldn’t just leave Mariah in the wall, in the passage she had popped out of and he had hidden her in. Someone, one of the detectives most likely, was bound to notice the stink, or the disappearance, or something, and while they might not put two and two together to get four it was still too risky. Anyway, Leo, or Lionel, or whatever he called himself when he went into this mode, the mode he tried to shut off when in polite society, had his methods, and they included leaving no trace of the body.
There was an old fashioned meat grinder in the kitchen. He had encountered it a few times, when he had gone in to make coffee or steal food, and it had always fascinated, the handle, how easy it would be to pulverize something, or someone, in it. very Sweeney Todd, to be sure. So, the night before, at two in the morning, when everyone was asleep, and he knew they were asleep, as he crept, ghost-like, from room to room, peaking in around the door, so careful not to make a sound, after he neatly trimmed limb from torso and took out her organs, heart, kidneys, liver, stomach, like she was just an animal he had killed and was going to eat, he carried her dismembered body downstairs and into the kitchen, wrapped in garbage bags.
The grinder, old as it looked, ran smoothly, and the whole process took no more than an our, quietly and quickly grinding her up, looking around every so often to make sure nobody was approaching. Some bits, the skull mostly, took longer to grind into the fine mash he was seeking, but in the end, there was no more Mariah and enough pink goo to make patties and feed the entire manor. Now there was an idea, feeding the poisoner to the poisoned, and such an easy way to make sure Mariah was never, ever found. No, but Leo didn’t want to eat her, and it would be suspicious if he didn’t.
Fertilizer was easy enough to make, he decided, as he broke into that gardener’s, Jack, was that his name, shed. Idiot didn’t even have a proper lock on it. Jiggle the knob a little and the door popped right open. What a fool. There were several open bags of soil and manure, and it was easy enough for Leo to make his own bag, mix Mariah in. He was careful to put compost, which stank of rot and death, in with the mixture, and when he flicked on the light, nobody would now the difference, except for maybe the stupid gardner. Fuck. Leo would have to use his fertilizer, and soon.
So, the next day, when he set himself up in the far corner of the garden, one that hadn’t been used in a very long time, careful to avoid the gardener on the way, a packet of blood red rose seeds jammed into his back pocket, the bag of his mixture and Mariah over his shoulder, and he saw Jeff approaching, he couldn’t help but raise a hand and wave at the boy.
The area seemed empty, and Jeffrey found himself wandering further and further back into garden, until he'd left behind the usual spots and meandered into a little used corner of the garden. He'd been here once before, on his first day at the manor, when he'd walked through nearly every inch of the manor in order to get used to it, still stuck with the naive hope that clues would be hiding in every corner, under the floorboards, in the dust. The garden hadn't really interested him at the time, striking him as a lonely and fairly useless place, and he'd moved on. It still wasn't very interesting to him, truth be told.
Yes, it was a beautiful garden, and the sun was finally peeking out through the clouds, but he wasn't really interested in landscaping. Unless there was a dead body, or a map, or some other imperative clue buried in the dirt, the garden was just ornamentation, and wouldn't help anyone. And, given the fact that the manor had a gardener who he'd seen working on the yard every day, he assumed that had there been anything along those lines in the ground, they would've been found long ago.
With the manor so full, it was less lonely now, and as he rounded a corner he saw someone else had already beat him to this part of the garden. Leo stood in the garden, a bag thrown over his shoulder. When he waved at him, Jeffrey raised his own hand in return, before walking over to the older man. Why not? It wasn't like he was getting anything done by wandering through the yard, might as well socialize. The closer he got, the more apparent it became that whatever was in Leo's bag smelled fairly horrible, and Jeff wrinkled up his nose as he approached. What on Earth did he have in there? Rotten leftovers from the dinner? In the garden? Oh, maybe he was composting or something. Gross.
Once he'd reached Leo, Jeffrey greeted him with a quick, small smile. It wasn't the most ecstatic, and that was probably obvious, but it was the most genuine he could muster up at the moment. "Hey," he said. "What are you doing?" he added, curiosity getting the best of him.
Starry Night || Jeff & Jace
Jace stayed quiet for a few moments and sat down on the roof again, leaving the breaking of things to Jeff, he needed it. When he’d think she wasn’t going to talk about it, she finally spoke, “Siblings fight. It’s what happens. But you wanna know something? She isn’t going anywhere. At least, not without you.”
She stretched out her toes and then tossed the boy a smile, “I don’t think I’ve ever met someone who cared more about her little brother than your sister does.” she said as she thought back to how the older Gordon interacted with the younger one, “I’m sure sometimes it doesn’t feel that way but the grizzly protective thing she has going? Yeah, it’s all because she’s trying to look out for you. Now whether that’s what happens or not, that’s a different subject.” she picked back up her bottle of ginger ale and took a sip, “One thing I do know is that no matter how many fights we get into with the people we’re with… none of us are leaving this manor.” She looked at him, this was also something she knew first hand, “The answers are here. Just need to find them.”
She gave him a calm look, no sympathy, no condescending or interrogative manner. She asked him simply, as if tossing him a life saver that he had the choice to grab on to in the middle of drowning in the emotional sea he was in, “What did you guys fight about?”
She isn’t going anywhere. At least, not without you. Maybe that was true, but that was one of the major causes of their fight, wasn't it? She wanted them to leave, and he didn't. Jeffrey couldn't stifle the fear that he'd somehow convinced her to leave the manor without him. He'd certainly made a good try of it, ranting about how he wasn't going to give up like her, and how he'd find their mom and dad with or without her. It had been less than a day of trying that 'without her' option, and he hated it.
He hesitated, attempting to decide how much he wanted to tell Jace. But she'd been so helpful so far, both by introducing him to the strangely helpful method of coping that was destroying things, and by offering advice and comfort. What was the harm in telling her why he and Amelia had fought? Even if she told her detective boyfriend it wasn't like he was giving away any incriminating information.
"I know the answers are here, and most of us aren't gonna leave unless we find them," he mumbled. "But she's done looking." He rubbed the back of his neck with one hand, almost self soothingly, before speaking again. "She thinks that mom and dad are gone for good, and that looking for them's a waste of time. That's what we fought about. I don't want to stop looking." Jeffrey couldn't stop looking. What was there for him, if he wasn't searching for them? He wasn't going to school, he'd run away from his legal guardians, he'd fallen out of contact with every person in his old life. The hunt for clues was all consuming, but if that was the way it needed to be, then that was the way it needed to be. "I know she's just looking out for me. But, I can't imagine leaving here right now."
Fertilizer || Jeff and Leo
Talking to Jace the night before had definitely helped, but when Jeff finally closed his eyes to try and sleep that night, he had a nightmare. His subconscious was apparently still terrified that Amelia was going to leave the manor for greener pastures, and Jeffrey woke the next morning exhausted, feeling as if he hadn't slept at all. Maybe Jace was right, and Amelia wasn't planning on leaving any time soon. On the other hand, maybe she was completely wrong, and Amelia had crept out of the manor while he slept. During their fight, he'd certainly made it seem like he wouldn't mind if she left. Every time he replayed the fight he couldn't stop focusing on Amelia angrily telling him to grow up. Part of him wanted to show that he could grow up by figuring this all out on his own, without Amelia's help. Part of him wanted to go knock on her door and try that entire conversation again.
No matter what he did, he'd have to fully wake up and prepare for the day. Even if the task of getting up and facing the day seemed ridiculously monumental. Jeffrey dragged himself up, promising himself that today, no matter what, he'd come to a decision about Amelia and how to handle their fight. But he needed a few more hours to think it through. Maybe he should get some fresh air? Wasn't that what people did when they wanted to clear their heads? Maybe he'd just been in the stuffy manor for too long. For something that had seemed so large when they'd first arrived, it now seemed too small. It was full of cops, and poisoners, and too many mysteries. After dressing, he locked his door behind him, walked through the manor, and out into the garden.
The chilly morning air hit him almost immediately, and he considered going back for a jacket. But the sun was already up in the air, and it would probably warm up as the morning went on. Besides, given the mood he was in, if he went back to his room now he might just crawl back into bed again and refuse to come out for days. Unfortunately, the air outside of the house, while fresh, did nothing to calm his thoughts. Jeffrey almost laughed at himself for being silly enough to think that it would be any help to wander around in a garden. That would've been far too simple.
Starry Night || Jeff & Jace
Jace didn’t seem the least bit worried that they’d get in trouble and she was an adult and she sincerely doubted anyone wanted to challenge her in the mood she was in. She seemed calm, of course, but that didn’t mean her mind wasn’t working things out at a fast rate. Sometimes she wished she could quiet it. It was part of the reason being a cop had appealed to her so much, not the saving people, not the justice, not the catching of the bad guys… but the partner. The fact you’d have someone there that had your back. So you could turn your mind off and trust that the problem solving wouldn’t go away, it’d just get transferred. One train of thought that two people traveled on.
She smiled when Jeff looked shocked but ended up joining her in her act of vandalism. She was glad to see him participating and getting to break free from the restrictions everyone placed on him. Don’t bother anyone. Act invisible. Be invisible. Do nothing. Say nothing. You are nothing. No one understood what it was like to have your whole world pulled out from under you. And sometimes, all you needed to do was get a little mad. You just needed to be heard. And even if you weren’t heard, you just needed to scream HEY! I’m here.
She threw another brick too and with a grin whizzed it at another planter as well, giving a small laugh at the satisfying SMASH! that resulted. She picked up another chunk of brick but just watched Jeff throw his, “You know, they tell you anger is this horrible thing.. but sometimes…” she looked at him, “It’s what gets things done. It’s not good to have all the time but you got a right to be mad. To be hurt. To how you feel.” she gestured to him with the chunk of the brick, “Don’t let anyone ever take that from you.” was she talking about him or about the grant boy or about herself… even she didn’t know anymore but she told him something she wished someone had told her. Whether it was true or not, it was something the boy needed to hear.
He really should feel bad about tossing the second brick off the roof, and hearing it crash land at the bottom. Actually, he should've felt bad about the first one. Someone poor guy was going to have to clean up after them, and couldn't something like this get him kicked out of the manor and- he stopped, actively attempting to make his brain shut up. It wasn't an easy task. But what Jace was saying struck a chord in Jeffrey, and that helped. Maybe this wasn't a productive use of his anger, but it was better than letting it fester.
And it had been festering. Not just since the fight with Amelia, or since arriving at the manor- he'd been carrying it around with him since his parents disappeared. Anger at the cops for being useless. Anger at the world for trying to make it better, but being so useless at it. Anger at his aunt for being a drunk. Anger at his uncle for hitting them, and for what he'd tried to do with Amelia. Until their last day in that house, he'd had to keep silent, ignore the rage and hurt and betrayal building up in him. You didn't get to stand up for yourself in a house like that. He wished he would've stood up for Amelia though. In the end, she'd had to rescue both of them, as usual.
He nodded as Jace spoke. Maybe if he'd had some way to deal with all that anger, he wouldn't have snapped at Amelia and she wouldn't have decided he and their parents were beyond saving. "I got in a fight with Amelia," he blurted, not entirely sure why he was choosing Jace, a near stranger, to tell. Maybe because he was still slightly smiling from the perverse pleasure of breaking things, or maybe because the advice she was giving him was someone he wanted badly to hear. Maybe because he obviously couldn't talk to Amelia about it, the way he was used. to doing. "I'm afraid she's gonna leave the manor," he said, as casually as possible. If he sounded like it wasn't a big deal, then if she didn't want to talk to him about it she could back out. He bent down to pick up another chunk of brick, pointedly making no eye contact with Jace.