the love of my teen years. Hyori Lee
So... Once again I find myself back here. Going through another phase of bettering myself. I do admit this journey of life is definitely a rollercoaster. I think I've done all the superficial things that I am telling myself I needed done so I can declutter my life. I literally have upgraded my room with all the gadgets I can AFFORD for now. Still working on this diet but I think this time it's going to be good. So...
Since my last post several things have happened. I've lost friends that I would have never thought I would. While cleaning I got a chance to reminisce the friends that I use to have. I turned 35... HOLY SMOKES! I bit the bullet and so many years I told myself not to friendzone the next girl I liked but just straight went for it. It didn't work out btw. But it's the best I have felt about myself in terms of my love life. So...
After reading some old birthday cards filled with empty promises of being friends for life. I realized that my younger self wasn't as genuine as most people believe me to be. I do believe the current version of myself is definitely an upgrade. A culmination of life long experience traversing the social ring. Were my intentions as genuine before? Was there some benefit or self-interest involved? Of course. I am human. But with the humility I discovered in my old self comes a newer humbled, experienced version of me. So...
Get ready world. I am no longer striving to be a new version of myself. But just a better version of myself. Instead of talking about the past as if I was trying to die and reincarnate into this new person. I have just been slowly working at becoming a better person. So... I'll see you again soon blog. I hope the next time I come back it'll start with great news. But I do only come back here to dump my deepest and darkest thoughts.