i know im gonna sound like an asshole for this but I feel like i didnt have a gay “awakening” i feel like it was more like i put in effort to explore my sexuality. it was more like breaking out of a cage.
i always identified as bisexual, but i never, actually functionally was. like occasionally i’d reblog some cute pic of a girl and be like “oh my god i want her to crush me lmao!!” but it was so performative and as far as IRL stuff went, i would almost exclusively date men and look at men because it was what i knew. (thats a whole other story lol)
eventually i came to some kind of conclusion that i wanted to examine my attraction to women and the more i actively processed those feelings and made room for them, the more i realized my attraction to men had never been genuine.
like, now it comes naturally to me, now i find no problem being attracted to women and not being attracted to men. it’s not even a question anymore, but for awhile it was really about doing some soul searching and making room for feelings that i, and the rest of the world, wanted to push out.
society doesn’t want women to like other women. there are many ways the media, and other people, will try to trick you into thinking that you couldn’t. even for bisexual women, in our sexist society, the way women’s bisexuality is framed oftentimes STILL favors men. (but thats an aside)
so. i think it benefits every woman to consider a life without men, regardless of sexuality. i think it benefits every woman to analyze their attraction to men. i would rather hundreds of women examine their sexuality and conclude theyre actually straight (or whatever) than just one lesbian staying in denial of herself, feeling like there’s no one else like her, that she’ll be alone forever. cause i been there, and it fucking sucks.
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