Prove Me Wrong
Prove me Wrong
 Since the beginning of the school year I have really doubted God. I doubted that He could bring more than a couple new faces to The Vine during our Kick off night. I doubted that he would bring freshman girls into my small group. I doubted that I would find a Godly woman for me to confide in and speak truth into my life. I doubted that He would provide a job for me that would allow me to do what I love and still feel like I had time for church and school and friends. I doubted that He would ever help me get over my self-doubt and anxieties.
 But God has ALWAYS proved me wrong.
 I love saying that! God has been showing me how GREAT and POWERFUL and AMAZING and GRACIOUS and UNDERSTANDING and BEAUTIFUL He is EVERYDAY! Every doubt that I had against God has been blown away. The first night of The Vine we had over 250-300 students show up. The first night of small groups we had 15 girls. I met this amazing Godly wife and mother that I am able to meet with. I found a nannying job that allows me to spend time with kids and still have time for church and friends! I have never felt so on fire for God or more in love with who He is than I have in these past few weeks of being back in Springfield.
 I think I started to worry my parents because 2-3 nights a week around 10:30-11 I would call them on my way home crying. They would of course try and ask me what was wrong and try to understand what I was saying but when I eventually got the words out all I could say was âGod keeps proving me wrong!â (They were happy tears not sad tears, which probably made my parents feel better once they figured that part out).Â
My parents have and always will be my support system. They knew all of these doubts and insecurities I have had (because parents know everything even when we donât voice them out loud. HOW?!) And instead of just reassuring me with their own words of wisdom, they always pointed me to scripture. They would ask me if I was praying about the situation and would tell me different verses that related to my fears. They also let me learn this lesson on my own. They let me fully and completely rely on God and see Him and ONLY Him work in my life and change my doubt and fear into truth and strength.
 My siblings have also been an amazing support system for me. They constantly remind me of Godâs love. They remind me of how many people I have praying for me on a daily basis. I find so much encouragement from that. On the days that I am suffering, my sister reminds me that Jesus knows exactly how I feelâŚ.because Jesus suffered. He really did die on the cross and suffer that humiliation and suffer Godâs wrath. He did that so that I can find hope. No matter how I feel, Jesus can relate. He became a human that dealt with temptation and pain and suffering so that this could be possible. I can lean on Him when I am weak and He will be strong for me. His love is all consuming and eternal.
 For the past few weeks one of the speakers for our college ministry has challenged us to read Psalm 119 and memorize at least one verse and meditate on it throughout the week.
 I love Psalm 119:29 âPut false ways far from me and graciously teach me your lawâ. I view this as a plea to God, asking Him to renew our hearts and minds and not dwell on the things of this world that will fade away. But rather dwell in who He is and His word.
 I also love verse 31 âI cling to your testimonies, O Lord; let me not be put to shameâ.
 Brad connected this verse with 2 Samuel 23:10 âHe rose and struck down the Philistines until his had was weary, and his hand clung to the sword. And the Lord brought about a great victory that day.â
  Brad said that they clung to their swords because it was their only defense and they were fighting for their lives. If they had let go of their swords, they would have died. We, as believers, need to cling to Gods word like it is our sword. It will be the only way we can win this fight against the world telling us they God wonât pull through or Godâs Will isnât going to bring you joy and happiness. The picture that this scripture paints in my mind is astonishing to me. CLING to the Bible like you are at war with the world and it is your only defense.
 I want to cling to God with everything in me and never let go. As my favorite speaker Jared Herd says âI want Him to completely wreck my life for His kingdomâ. Take everything and do what He wants with it. This road is going to be tough and there will be times when I am exhausted and donât want to give everything to God and want to cling to the things of this world and take control, but I am counting on every single person in my life to hold me accountable to this. We canât follow Jesus on our own. The Bible calls us to have fellowship and community and accountability. I would like to challenge you to make sure that I am staying focused on God and His path for my life. So who wants to join me on this journey to completely wreck our lives for Jesus?