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Good Morning Vibes.🌞➰

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"You can't sit with us" 👀

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E.T. 👽

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Moments like this with my girls. 💚💙❤️ #studyout

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Someday someone won't be afraid of how much you love. They won't stay on the shore; they'll meet you in the depths. You weren't made for shallow waters, your heart is an ocean.🌞#goodmorning

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Hurricane

When you see a hurricane, what do you feel? You feel so amazed to be looking at such a beautiful catastrophe yet you can’t help the feeling of being scared, scared to be sucked in the swirling world of that catastrophe. But you can’t help it, you try to grab for something to prevent from getting sucked in, but the next thing you know you’re already inside that hurricane. Feeling the adrenaline and fast swirling of the wind around you, leaving you breathless. At the same time it breaks your bones, scratches your skin, makes you scream, it just kills you slowly from the inside. As the hurricane leaves, during your last few seconds of your life, there you’ll see the catastrophe that the hurricane has left behind, trailing a blaze of hopelessness, destroyed dreams, and a murder cases, that includes you dead on the floor.

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Hope

It’s so painful watching the man you love be with another girl. You’re not the one making him happy, you don’t get to see him smile, you won’t get to touch him the way she can, you won’t get to hug him from behind, you won’t get to go out with him, you won’t get to kiss him, you won’t get to hold his hands in public, you won’t get to laugh with him, you won’t get to argue with him, you just can’t do anything with him anymore. Because he left you. Just like that, he left you and made it sure to never return. I bet you’re living with regrets, wish you could just turn back time and make it right. But there’s no such thing. All you can do is make the most out of it. Accept what has life to offer and give it your best. In my case, I’m doing my best to move on. It’s not easy, but what can I do right? He doesn’t want me anymore. He has found someone new, someone who can make him happy, something I failed to do. I wish, I still had the strength to fight for him, but it’s just all gone. I’m just passive as a volcano waiting to be non-existent as the world changes. But something small lights up in me, the whispers of hope and the soft touches of chances. How something so little refuses to give up. Someone at the back of my head keeps on whispering that he’s coming back and you were meant for each other, pathetic I know. But no matter how hard I tried to kill it, it always comes back. It somewhere in there flickering never turning off, no matter how I kill it with water. It’s just there constant, never changing. But then I think again, maybe this is part of moving on. The first stage, maybe I’m still in denial. Maybe I still cannot accept that he left me because it was all too sudden. That I was always blinded by my ego, always too ahead of myself but in truth I was always lost. As lost as I was, I was willing to wait. And it scares me how hard for me to accept this and let you go. I don’t want to live with regrets, that’s for sure. Feelings that I have been suppressing, pretending all the time, putting a mask on in front of the world to see, but what they don’t know is that behind that mask who pretends to be okay is a girl who just wants her man back.

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August 27, 2015

Dear Gordon,

I’m going Home today. Last night was weird, I wanted to fight for you with all the right reasons. But when I woke up today, I was doubting myself. Knowing pain was at the other end of the road. Afraid of rejection. I could be still in the denial stage or something, I don’t know. I had plans for you today but stopped midway and settled for a letter I wrote last night and a gift. That’s why it said I was going to fight for you because it’s what I felt last night. But now, I’m not so sure. We ate in an eat all you can Japanese restaurant today, at least that made me happy today. Nothing much happened today aside from that. But there was one thing I won’t forget about today. My dad said something when we were on the boat. It was something like this “if you are in so much pain right now, you can just take the medicine, all you had to do was reach out.” But I was never the kind of person to take medicines, I love to bare the pain and embrace it somehow, until you get use to it and be something that is part of you. But somehow I want to reach out for the medicine. But at 7:42 PM I got a text message from you saying “Jeorge im sorry. But we are over this….Im sorry but please let me go” another rejection. I just keep on getting rejections one after the other. It was getting very painful. I wanted to reply but settled for the silence because sometimes silence is the answer because people aren’t ready to hear your thoughts. Maybe your reason of entering my life is finished. That your main purpose was to teach me a lesson that I won’t be making the same mistakes for the love of my life to come. Because if you were really meant for me you should have stayed and fought. People come and go but there’s that one person who stays even if everything is going down to shit. They both fix the problem and become stronger after. I’ll fight for you, but if you don’t see it that I’m standing by your side because you’re only focusing on my mistakes and bad side then you’re not worth it to me anymore. All I can remember is that I fell asleep with thoughts of being with you.

Sincerely yours, The girl who still loves you.

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And so she surrendered herself to God.

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Unsent Letters: August 27, 2015

Dear Gordon,

I’m going Home today. Last night was weird, I wanted to fight for you with all the right reasons. But when I woke up today, I was doubting myself. Knowing pain was at the other end of the road. Afraid of rejection. I could be still in the denial stage or something, I don’t know. I had plans for you today but stopped midway and settled for a letter I wrote last night and a gift. That’s why it said I was going to fight for you because it’s what I felt last night. But now, I’m not so sure. We ate in an eat all you can Japanese restaurant today, at least that made me happy today. Nothing much happened today aside from that. But there was one thing I won’t forget about today. My dad said something when we were on the boat. It was something like this “if you are in so much pain right now, you can just take the medicine, all you had to do was reach out.” But I was never the kind of person to take medicines, I love to bare the pain and embrace it somehow, until you get use to it and be something that is part of you. But somehow I want to reach out for the medicine. But at 7:42 PM I got a text message from you saying “Jeorge im sorry. But we are over this….Im sorry but please let me go” another rejection. I just keep on getting rejections one after the other. It was getting very painful. I wanted to reply but settled for the silence because sometimes silence is the answer because people aren’t ready to hear your thoughts. Maybe your reason of entering my life is finished. That your main purpose was to teach me a lesson that I won’t be making the same mistakes for the love of my life to come. Because if you were really meant for me you should have stayed and fought. People come and go but there’s that one person who stays even if everything is going down to shit. They both fix the problem and become stronger after. I’ll fight for you, but if you don’t see it that I’m standing by your side because you’re only focusing on my mistakes and bad side then you’re not worth it to me anymore. All I can remember is that I fell asleep with thoughts of being with you.

Sincerely yours, The girl who still loves you.

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Unsent Letters: August 27, 2015

Dear Gordon,

I’m going Home today. Last night was weird, I wanted to fight for you with all the right reasons. But when I woke up today, I was doubting myself. Knowing pain was at the other end of the road. Afraid of rejection. I could be still in the denial stage or something, I don’t know. I had plans for you today but stopped midway and settled for a letter I wrote last night and a gift. That’s why it said I was going to fight for you because it’s what I felt last night. But now, I’m not so sure. We ate in an eat all you can Japanese restaurant today, at least that made me happy today. Nothing much happened today aside from that. But there was one thing I won’t forget about today. My dad said something when we were on the boat. It was something like this “if you are in so much pain right now, you can just take the medicine, all you had to do was reach out.” But I was never the kind of person to take medicines, I love to bare the pain and embrace it somehow, until you get use to it and be something that is part of you. But somehow I want to reach out for the medicine. But at 7:42 PM I got a text message from you saying “Jeorge im sorry. But we are over this….Im sorry but please let me go” another rejection. I just keep on getting rejections one after the other. It was getting very painful. I wanted to reply but settled for the silence because sometimes silence is the answer because people aren’t ready to hear your thoughts. Maybe your reason of entering my life is finished. That your main purpose was to teach me a lesson that I won’t be making the same mistakes for the love of my life to come. Because if you were really meant for me you should have stayed and fought. People come and go but there’s that one person who stays even if everything is going down to shit. They both fix the problem and become stronger after. I’ll fight for you, but if you don’t see it that I’m standing by your side because you’re only focusing on my mistakes and bad side then you’re not worth it to me anymore. All I can remember is that I fell asleep with thoughts of being with you.

Sincerely yours, The girl who still loves you.

[jeorgeperi]

Hurricane

When you see a hurricane, what do you feel? You feel so amazed to be looking at such a beautiful catastrophe yet you can’t help the feeling of being scared, scared to be sucked in the swirling world of that catastrophe. But you can’t help it, you try to grab for something to prevent from getting sucked in, but the next thing you know you’re already inside that hurricane. Feeling the adrenaline and fast swirling of the wind around you, leaving you breathless. At the same time it breaks your bones, scratches your skin, makes you scream, it just kills you slowly from the inside. As the hurricane leaves, during your last few seconds of your life, there you’ll see the catastrophe that the hurricane has left behind, trailing a blaze of hopelessness, destroyed dreams, and a murder cases, that includes you dead on the floor.

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Missing my not so little baby sis.❤️ #sheoutgrewme

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Slaying this morning.😏🌞

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Social fishball.😂 (at Ulli's Streets of Asia)