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Satisfaction?

Listening to Marina and The Diamonds got me thinking. I felt like a throwback this morning so Are You Satisfied was theee song.

I came into a conclusion that... Having everything could mean nothing if you are never satisfied.

You might think.. DUH. People aren’t satisfied with things that doesn’t have anything special to them.

But I need to appreciate these “nothings” because a lot of people nowadays literally, I mean LITERALLY have nothing. I complain about not having friends when I have like way too many people who think and care about me.

I have so many clothes. But I want more. I probably could dress up the whole entire campus with my clothes (not really, but yah get me?).

I worry a lot about things. But honestly, there are others out there who have it worst or just is insufficient with things.

So basically why am I writing this? Because.. I feel like this world ought to learn to appreciate the small things in life. Not everyone in this world has what you have.

#marina and the diamonds #are you satisfied

The day I joined a pageant:

I don’t want to consider myself a pageant girl or whatever. It really is not my thing. But it was a very good experience. I got to see how pageant girls were really like.

I feel like it’s all about putting on a show and just impressing everyone with what you can do or the name of your dress. Stuff like that. And I feel like that’s my life anyway. No need a crown to pretend to be who you ALREADY are.

I won miss Charming. But honestly, a pageant is life. Don’t win a title. You simply ought to be one.

You don’t need to prove anything to anyone because you ought to be yourself.

Though I am really thankful for all the support I got. I really appreciate that.

I performed and sang like as if I was in a broadway show: the Wicked. to be exact. I sang Popular. And.. I’m really shy when it comes to being myself while singing. But you know what. The pageant taught me to just be who you are because only YOU know who YOU really are.

So if I messed up in the song, nobody would judge me because I rocked my song the way I could.

I’m only talking out of confidence. But it’s always best to be confident with yourself in order to be happier and more sure of yourself :)

That’s all I have to say for now :)

#FCG #pageant

Kind of obsessed with this song and I wish I did a video like this in Tokyo. Such a great idea! Well...

TIME FOR PART 3! TOKYO HERE I COME AGAIN (hoping)

#invader invader #tokyo #kyary pamyu pamyu

Cold Hard B*tch

So I have been talking with my sister and venting to her about how I wanted to change myself. I love myself and my personality but there are somethings that need to change.

If I want to be serious with myself then I better act serious. I have ambitions and dreams that shouldn’t be blocked by useless obstacles.

So I told her.. I am going to be a cold-hearted bitch. It’s not exactly like what it sounds. But...

I am tired of being stepped on and feeling tied down on something when I don’t have any point or reason to be. I am too nice and I act like everything will be fine even if it’s OBVIOUSLY not.

Just to be frank, every experience in 2015 was a learning experience. Now let’s show what I learned.

I am not responsible for people’s lives and I shouldn’t act like they affect me. So I’ll put my foot down before anything begins. “It’s not my problem so I am going to decline my aid with your current situation (because you just want me to care and help you when in return it will mean nothing).

I mean I am NOT THAT heartless. There are some people in my life who will get my special attention and care. But some people.. just love to keep me guessing. And love to ignore my hand. Or ignore me in general.

I used to think “oh... that person will change. Or oh.. that person just needs more time to figure things out. Or maybe that’s why he’s like that so don’t act now, Jeriza.”

NO. NO NO. NO.

I’m going to just close the door because I don’t have any time to waste. I don’t want to believe that something will happen while waiting and hoping and respecting their attempt.

I’m going to be a cold hard bitch and pretend that nothing matters. Your efforts don’t matter to me. Because to me, everyone is the same. Everyone has a story. And Everyone is equal. So you ought to treat me like that.

I don’t want to get into complete detail with my experiences. But if you were one of those people in my life, then you ought to now that I am done.

No more BS. No more waiting. No more hoping. I am going to say that your effort means nothing because I am not cheering you on. It’s your problem and not mine. It’s your obstacle, I won’t help you cheat. It’s your final word and say if you want something out of me. Because I don’t want to be silly believing things.

I’m going to be more stuck up with people. But my friends are my friends. MY REAL friends... What are real friends? I don’t even know to be honest. But I am going to be very choosy with who I spend my time with this year.

I’m going to focus on myself and only myself.

I’m not going to venture into someone’s life until I am satisfied with mine.

I am pretty satisfied but.. I have a lot of goals that are incomplete (personal goals).

So if you need me, tell me straightly. Don’t assume I will help you. ASK or JUST Do it ALL YOURSELF.

Sorry this post might sound bitchy, but at least I am progressing ;)

What 2015 has taught me.

I learned a lot this past year. I changed a lot too mentally.

I learned that I need to know my self-worth. I am worth more than I believe and I like to put myself down or shy away from growing. Because my self-confidence is quite low... People THINK I am very confident with myself. I like that they think that way. But it’s merely because I am pretty outspoken, bold, and positive.

I learned that I should never make decisions too quick. I always make decisions without thinking about the consequences. I don’t regret anything though. Because I believe that life is full of learning experiences. I want to be able to have history and have something to look back on in order to become a greater person. How can I say no if I never tried? So.. I can actually think things thoroughly now. I made a lot of mistakes but a lot of them are stories that has made me a stronger person.

I learned that I should be more strict on myself. I think I say yes too easily when in return it will affect me GREATLY. I need to take more time into things before jumping through. I joined a pageant and went on a free vacation during exam week. How crazy am I? CRAZY. I am too nice and say yes to whatever opportunity that came. I didn’t realize that there will be other opportunities for me and the one that is opened now is probably meant for someone else or is merely not the right time to enter.

BUT NO REGRETS.

I also learned to be a stronger spokesperson. I used to be shy and not able to tell a person how I felt or if something is simply wrong. I do it and I do it with strength. This could be from me helping a customer or from me acknowledging a potentially worthy person. I speak with not only words but with confidence. Sometimes when I talk, I cry. I try my best to not let my feelings come over my words. I am sensitive... but most of the time you got to put that away.

I learned that you should never focus on your worries. Focus on just getting things done. A LOT of people complain or exert their feelings when something tragic happens. I learned to shutup and just do the right things. Complete the mission without complaining or without worrying. This could be from a presentation I did not prepare for or having a troubling situation at work. Just keep in mind that worrying is a waste of time. Don’t over think or over do things because in the end, you will be at the finish-line.

I learned that everyone needs a friend. I met a lot of cool people this year. I made a lot of friendships. I feel like I am a lot of besties to certain people and I LIKE THAT. I feel quite special. Sometimes you have to adapt to a person and see what he or she likes. They admire you reaching out to them and spending time with them. I am very caring and I am always generous. But not everyone has a friend to turn to. That’s when I open my arms because I believe that everyone should have a person in his or her life. It’s to keep you sane, socially and comfortably. *I went to Japan because of a new friendship, I got on TV because of a new friendship *I learned what I want in life because of a new friendship.

I learned how important quality is over quantity. I went on several trips this year (I believe 3, usually just one per year). And I always think of what to buy on vacation. I learned to buy things I want (quality over quantity). I may have not gotten a full luggage of stuff but I did get total satisfaction. I can splurge but they were happy splurges. Working in retail has also taught me this lesson. Some people buy bags that are like $100 and never use them. “It’s still sitting in my closet.” Gosh... Why waste your money if you won’t use it. I mean if you eventually use it, GREAT. But you have tons of other purchases that are piling into your closet.

I learned that money is quality time. Let me expand on that... I went into this cafe and took a good hour talking to the barista. I was really enjoying his company and his genuine service. In fact, he sneaked me a free mug that he was not able to sell. Since the cafe was connected to a store.. I felt a little obligated to buy something. SO I bought a $90 men’s t-shirt. WOW. I didn’t feel completely awful about the price or whatever because I believe that everything purchased should be memorable and paying that price for the shirt did its job. I know that’s crazy to say but I didn’t mind paying that at all. It was a purchase that nobody could feel unless they have a story to reflect back on.

#personal #2015 #reflection

Dear Annina, Thank you for making my winter break start off so fun! You are so interesting and I'm glad I met you. I hope you enjoyed Guam while it lasted and I hope Chuuk will continue to treat you well. You have such a cool life. I admire your humbleness and adventurous life. This isn't au revoir because I'm definitely going to make my way to Europe before I settle down with life. Til then, Xoxo.

Sugar Less French Toast!

I enjoy making French toast time to time and this time I did it differently.

I had several ingredients that I thought of combining together (ingredients I rarely I use that is).

What I used:

10 Slices of White Bread

2 whole eggs

1/4 Cup of 2% fat milk

1/3 Cup of Whipping Topping Creme

1 1/2 Tbsp Coconut Oil ( to grill )

4 packets of Sweet N Low

2 Teaspoons of Flax Seed

Bananas (optional)

Whip Cream (optional)

1. Mix the eggs, whipping topping creme, milk, flax seed, and sweet n low into a bowl.

2. Heat a pan in low-medium.

3. Dallop coconut oil and spread onto the pan.

4. Soak each slice for about 30 seconds each, flipping them around the batter.

5. Simultaneously soak and grill your bread!

6. Add whipped cream and bananas if you wish!

7. Enjoy with hot coffee <3

I’m really happy with how they turned out so I hope you give it a try too. They are guilt-free and delicious!

#french toast #recipe #flax seed #coconut oil

Miss Universe

Who cares who won? I mean I believe they are all winners. They all won within their country. But yeah I think that was pretty messed up that Steve read wrong.

But to be honest I think he did that on purpose. Just to kind of put his name back out on the media and to make things more interesting.

I don’t get how you could misread that.

Even if he did not plan to announce the wrong winner, he did allow social media to go crazy. TONS of memes everywhere.

We ought to respect Miss Columbia. She still won. And she probably got tons of attention because of what happened. She’s probably the first runner up who has ever gained so much attention in all of Miss Universe pageants.

Steve. You work for Family Feud. You should be able to read answers quite well. It’s your job. It’s not something new... So I don’t get why you got that wrong. But I guess everyone makes “mistakes”. This is a BIG one.

#miss universe

Thank you, Professors.

And I thought I’d be dead by now. But no, my professors have been pretty lenient these past two days. Perhaps it’s because they just want to be stress-free like moi.

I am just really glad that I don’t have to deal with a sh*tload of work right now. Especially since I have other things to deal with right now: Fcg, work, gym, etc.

Aiiiii. Even listing those gave me a little stressful sigh, but knowing me.. I just say “hey. you got this”

I think that’s the best positive thing I’m doing right now: “You got this!”

Til then,

xoxo.

Circles

I feel like I keep on going back to the same route: circles. I don’t like this rotation. I just want to escape it! But.. I don’t know how. Sigh. I feel like I’m always being screwed over and that my niceness covers everything up.

Sometimes I wish I had someone special in my life. Someone very special to me that I can always turn back to. I want to able to share my happiness and time with someone who truly deserves it. And alas, I can never find someone.

I know I am so busy with life but I don’t want to be left alone in solitude. Sometimes having a person in your mind could get you going. I want that! BUT I want to get this straight: I’m not a rebound or trophy number 2. I should be FIRST Place.

Anyway! I feel like giving up on guys at this point. Not saying I’m looking for women but I feel like giving up in general. I feel like not trying to accept any more dates or talk to someone new. Perhaps I should just focus on myself and the people who are currently in my life. Because I prefer not putting so much effort into something that will turn into nothing.

So my answer is no no no.

Sorry no.

No.

Hi Jeriza... NO.

Jeriza are you fr- NO.

Haha, I’m just kidding. But hopefully these circles stop soon. I am tired of it. I don’t deserve these circles. I’m getting quite dizzy.

#rant #vent #life

Change of Blog

I changed my layout and everything. I really am busy with life and all the links on my navigation bar are not so necessary... BUT please feel free to read my blog and how my life is doing regardless of these changes. I am still keeping in touch with you guys but just not the same way.

Thank you all so berry mucho.

Adventures with Jacob Blas To TOKYO!

Thank you so much, Jacob and Mr. Blas, for giving me one of the best weekends ever. I would have never imagined going to Japan for the weekend “just because”. I loved it and I am so glad I got back to experience Nihon as a mini vacation rather than a business trip. I am DEFINITELY coming back for sure. I might as well come here every year “just because”.

So glad to have gotten spend some QT as well! I’m very happy to have gotten to know you better this year or else these things would have never happened. This is probably the best way to top off the end of the year regardless of the sh*tload of work we have to do back on Guam. Sometimes you just have to say YOLO and actually Nike (Get it?).

Highlights:

-The Weather as a Guamanian, we don’t ever experience cool weather, so I had the chance to dress in sweaters and coats like a normal person. Yes, like a normal person. Sometimes I dress crazy on island. I think fashion hits me too much that I try to follow trends in the wrong place.

-The Food I didn’t eat A LOT (thank god because I need to stop eating so much, people love me too much and feed me a refrigerator). But I really enjoyed eating differently than the way I do on Guam. I love Japanese food. I didn’t have the chance to even eat Japanese cuisine on my first trip. So this was definitely delightful.

-Jacob! Ay, there muh gangsta. You are a highlight. I’m very glad I got to spend time with you! Since when does someone ever go on a trip with a friend and do all the things they love together! AWEmazing. TRULY appreciative over how much of a gentleman you are as well. AAAAND You can never enjoy a vacation without any shared memories with someone. Sank you.

-Fashion Japan has some really interesting fashion. I admire how bold people are and how they are so confident in what they are wearing. That’s what I want to be like. So I found it very inspiring as I walked along Harajuku and Aoyama. I think I want to study Japanese fashion and expertise in that field someday. It’s all VERY interesting.

-Endless walking I love walking. Although my legs were completely sore from walking ALL DAY (literally), I really loved that adventure. I think we walked over 25 miles throughout the weekend. That’s A LOT of walking... I love to walk around in solitude at most times. But this was definitely something more alarming and more exciting because of how industrialized Tokyo is. Yay!

Til next time, Japan!

Sincerely, Japanese Jeriza.

#Tokyo #Japan

Remember how I said I flew to Japan for business purposes? Well this is why. I shot a commercial!

It’s my first paid gig where I do something I love: traveling and eating free. Mmm yes.

It was my first time in Japan and we stayed for 3 days. I had a really awesome opportunity to travel and get paid for that. That was AMAZING. I don’t even think of this commercial as a credit card promotion. I felt that this commercial is just a documentary of my life!

Cheesy I know. But it’s true. So glad I got the opportunity. So please support and share!

#first hawaiian bank #japan #commercial

Japan II: Clutches

O I just got back from Japan last night. I really did myself well with shopping and experiencing the city life. I love Japan: the people, the styles, the busy streets, the food, everything. Just everything is so wonderful about the country.

I found a new obsession with clutches and bought myself a Moschino <3 I ALWAYS wanted a Moschino bag so I scored on this bodybag.

I love gold. The color is my favorite. I love embossed styles.. SO yes this makes me pretty dang happy too. Although I’m not the biggest fan of flashy brands and monogrammed prints.. This one is an exception. It is a clutch. I don’t mind carrying clutches that resemble the brand ESPECIALLY since this is Love Moschino. ANNNNND it’s embossed. I prefer embossed over prints any day.

I also scored on a Japanese brand called Samantha Thavasa. I just got a wallet. But it’s no ordinary wallet! It’s maleficent!!!

If you pay close attention to the details.. You can see the castle, the dragon, and the whole storyline (basically). I love the red lipstick in the middle. It resembles a bit of sexiness to me and it’s also somewhat ME because I am huge fan of red lips. So, of course the outside of the wallet is what sparked my interest.

But once I opened it, I was even more excited to see the printed pockets of Sleeping Beauty (Maleficent specifically) and the amount of card slots it could carry. It’s beautiful, organized, and the leather is FUHREAL.

I can’t wait to pursue more into fashion and to travel back to Japan. Kind of scared of the result of me shopping like a freak but it’s all G. I am very happy.

#japan #samantha thavasa #moschino #love moschino #harajuku #maleficent #gold

Pardon my Hauls but I am pretty dang happy with my quickest shopping. I got myself a @samantha.thavasa wallet inspired by #maleficent and finally bought an #YvesSaintLaurent lipstick. (Like Coz every girl needs a YSL lipstick). I think I did myself well for Christmas 😊 (almost)

#maleficent #yvessaintlaurent

5 ways I smile during the worst situations

It’s really hard to keep myself happy during tragic times or things that bother me. I cannot promise you that you will be EXTREMELY ecstatic after these steps but it helps me feel less bothered and stay strong.

1. Breathe in Breath out.

DO NOT think too much about what just happened. Your fire is just going to burn up into your system. Just breathe, relax, and look for a solution. Take your time with yourself. Sometimes solitude is better than having people surround you. Sometimes people to talk to is the most comforting. Whatever keeps you most relaxed, do it.

2. Move on.

It might be hard and difficult to leave something unsolved or something that you do not want to let go of. But try to think of the two sides of the story. My grandmother just passed away recently, I can’t move on, neither can my family. But I was able to by thinking that my grandmother is no longer suffering on a day-to-day basis. She is happy and safe now. Be happy about it.

3. Keep yourself busy.

Sometimes keeping myself busy distracts me from my personal problems or emotions. Keep your mind on something that requires a lot of focusing and a lot of attention like a video game or a puzzle. Only do this if you enjoy it. If it will frustrate you.. then you will obviously be annoyed and not smiling.

4. Remind yourself of the good things that happened today.

There’s always ONE good thing that happens in a day. There has to be. Whether it be eating your favorite food, having someone compliment you, or even having the time to workout. It is something you should pay attention to because one bad thing should not determine the whole day.

5. Help others.

Sometimes helping others makes me realize that I am not the only one who has it bad. It helps me get on someone’s level and try to solve a problem. It makes me feel like I am not alone and that I am actually doing something to make someone else happy. Seeing others happy makes me happy ESPECIALLY if I was involved in that process.

#smile #tips #blog

Paris

I may have never been there or experienced the wonderful city of love. But I do have my thoughts and prayers for you.

To all my Parisian friends, stay strong and be safe.

#paris

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