Be Brave.

Jess, University student. / A place where I can vent, work out what my issues are with food, and conquer that big scary 'ED' word. / //TW for ED, general stress and probably lots of read more's///

[jess-keepsdreamingbig]

Fall Questions!

1:What is your favourite 'ber' month? (Sept-Oct-Nov-Dec)

2:What is your favourite autumn leaf?

3:What did you dress as for Halloween last year?

4:What is your favourite fall food?

5:Do you have any fall traditions?

6:Do you have any Halloween traditions?

7:What music do you like to listen to during fall?

8:What is your favourite fall outfit?

9:Favourite spooky movie?

10:S'mores or pumpkin pie?

11:Hot chocolate or warm apple cider?

12:Do you like Pumpkin Spice Lattes? ;)

13:What is your favourite day of the year?

14:What would your familiar be, if you had one?

15:What is your favourite part about fall blogging?

16:What is the story behind your URL?

17:What is the best thing about your town during fall?

18:What is your favourite fall food?

19:Tea or coffee?

20:Halloween or Christmas?

21:Cats or bats?

22:Do you enjoy carving jack-o-lanterns?

23:What is your favourite fall colour?

24:Why did you start your fall blog?

25:Do you have a 'main blog'?

26:Spooky or sweet?

27:Trick or treat?

28:Do you enjoy visiting graveyards?

29:What is your favourite fall memory?

30:What was your best fall ever?

31:Gloves or mittens?

32:Do you enjoy ice skating?

33:If you could spend fall anywhere, where would you choose?

34:What's your dream Halloween outfit?

35:Be honest... are you already stocking up for fall?

36:Do you enjoy the other seasons?

37:How do you plan to spend this Halloween?

38:In ONE sentence... WHY do you love fall so much?

39:What is your favourite fall makeup look?

40:What is your favourite fall candle scent?

41:Do you enjoy Christmas?

42:What is your favourite store during fall?

43:Do you enjoy cold weather?

44:What is your least favourite thing about fall?

45:What is your favourite Halloween candy?

46:What is one thing you'd love to try during fall, but haven't yet?

47:What do your friends and family think of your fall obsession?

48:Be honest... are you already planning your fall-themed wedding? ;)

49:Do you have fall/Halloween boards on Pinterest? Link them!

50:Do you enjoy rain?

[jess-keepsdreamingbig]

And so packing for the return to university begins!

[jess-keepsdreamingbig]

I go back to university next Saturday

I’m just online shopping for my food. 

My selection is always healthy because I’m a big lover of fruit and vegetables, but it’s difficult to try and avoid opening a new tab for every different brand of bread to see which has the lowest number.

Pick what you fancy, Jess, pick what you fancy!

[luridite]

🌞 pls don’t delete the caption 🌞

reasons why eating regularly is so important

reasons to eat at least 3 meals a day

the secret to dieting is just eating better

9 reasons diets don’t work

7 ways to snack smarter

eating through ed recovery

contact a professional to help you through your recovery. they’re here to help you and guide you, as well as to be a confidant.

contact a professional before making any changes to a diet set by a doctor/nutritionist. restricting or changing your diet too soon can cause complications.

consult with them about how much and what you should be eating

remember that recovery is a process and it won’t become easy overnight

remember that you are not alone and food isn’t the enemy

remember that food is here to fuel you and keep you alive/healthy

neda recovery page

breakfast

5 reasons to eat breakfast

15 healthy ingredients to add to your breakfast

34 healthy breakfasts for busy mornings

vegan breakfasts

29 delicious vegan breakfasts

19 vegan breakfast recipes

vegetarian breakfasts

vegetarian breakfast and brunch ideas

34 quick and easy veggie packed breakfasts

breakfast

pescetarian breakfasts

pescatarian breakfasts from feastie

pescatarian breakfast

gluten free breakfasts

44 easy gf recipes for breakfast

51 healthy gf recipes

lunch

reasons to take that lunch break

livestrong: why is lunch so important?

22 healthy lunch ideas

cheap healthy lunch ideas for work (or school)

vegan lunches

32 vegan lunches you can take with you

15 vegan lunch ideas

vegetarian lunches

16 recipes that pack well for lunch (some vegan + gluten free)

25 best vegetarian recipes

41 easy vegetarian dishes

pescatarian lunches

pescatarian  cookbook

pesceterian kitchen

gluten free breakfasts

40 days of gf lunches

100 gf lunch ideas (for school)

dinner

healthy weeknight dinners

7 days of super healthy dinners

vegan dinners

20 easy vegan dinners

easy, healthy, vegan recipes

vegetarian dinners

80 vegetarian meals even meat eaters would love

20 minute healthy vegetarian recipes

pescatarian dinners

pescetarian dinner recipes

gluten free dinners

15 easy gf dinners

healthy gf dinner ideas

[npianon]

@ every single frickin anon you guys never eat and it scares me

[jess-keepsdreamingbig]

3 day Berlin adventure meal one- a cheese omelette sandwich and a brownie the size of my head

[peachisty]

famous artists ask

picasso: would you rather sleep on the moon with a stardust dress or on a tiny flower with a sunflower dress? van gogh: where is your go-to positive place when you’re feeling down/sad and what do you usually do? warhol: what is something that you possess that you’ll never give away/sell despite how much the cost? da vinci: describe your dream wedding. monet: where will you take your significant other in a date? kahlo: what is a pro-tip/lesson that you learned from your past? michelangelo: do you show your teeth when you smile? do you squint your eyes? matisse: how do you express your love to your friends/family/significant other? kandinsky: would you rather be a silky angel or a lacy princess… or a princess angel? degas: in a garden full of all sorts of flowers, which one will you pick? klee: in a library full of books, which five will you never get sick of rereading? klimt: how many languages do you speak? what is/are it/they? seurat: if you can wear only one color with different shades for the rest of your life, which one is it, and why? vermeer: which of your qualities make you a dream girl? harring: what is your all-time favorite band, movie, and painting? munch: what is your medium in art? is that medium your first love? renoir: is you heart occupied right now? describe him/her/them. gauguin: what is one thing that reminds you of childhood? manet: describe your ultimate summer get-away! botticelli: what is that one moment in your life that makes you feel proud? cézanne: what is your favorite christmas cookie?

[music-speaksx]

[jess-keepsdreamingbig]

A garbled thought about haircuts and Eating Disorders

My hair used to be thick, untameable, and impossible to pin back without a collection of hairbands. It was a mess, and cutting it short at eleven had only made it stick out more. From around five minutes after that hair cut all the way up to present day, I’ve longed for longer, thinner hair. The preference for curls over straight has flickered back and forth as trends come and go, but I’ve always desperately willed my hair to grow faster, to lose some of it’s weight (a year into an eating disorder, my hair is falling out. Be careful what you wish for). My hair’s remained stubborn, growing at a snail’s pace. I’m not sure if it’s a combination of restriction, genes, or just poor bad luck, but my hair hasn’t grown an inch in almost six months. My time restricting has damaged my hair a huge amount. My arms are always covered in strands like a sheered cat, and any life has long left it- the ends like straw. Realistically, the best thing for my hair would be to give in and give it for a cut- and in order to remove the dead hair, it would have to be a substantial cut.  

The issue is, this would involve letting go.

The best thing to do to make sure that my hair continues to grow strong and healthy would be to get it cut, but in doing so, I’d need to accept that I’m never going to have the long model hair that I’ve wanted, or the hair that my friends have. I’d need to accept that perhaps I will need to spend the rest of my life taking half an hour to tie it away from my face. I’d need to accept that the hair I always strived for was unattainable, and I’d need to start accepting- and loving- what I had if I ever wanted to have healthy hair, rather than risk permanently damaging it for an unattainable dream.

It’s really, really easy to quasi-recover. It’s easy to make step towards making yourself healthy, whilst still clinging to your disorder in the hopes of attaining the ideal and goals that you’ve built up for yourself. Yes, my intake has certainly improved since I first decided to take steps to recovery, but I’m still consciously making choices that are fuelling my ED, in a last ditch desperation to lose some weight, to tone x and y, to look how I’ve always dreamed of looking. It’s easy- and human- to register what would be the healthiest choice to make for your body, and dismiss this choice in favour of a path that ‘might work in your favour if you keep at it long enough, maybe, perhaps, you can only hope’.

Sometimes, the most difficult and necessary step, is allowing yourself to take hold of those unattainable body dreams. To register that they were there, and then to embrace everything that you are, everything that’s you, and to accept that you’ll never meet that unattainable dream. And more importantly, you shouldn’t! It’s only now that my hair is falling out that I’ve really begun to see how good I had it before. Accept that with every step you try and take towards forcing your body to become something that it should never be, you’re losing a little part of yourself every day. Let the unhealthy unattainable go, and turn back to a beautifully healthy you.

My hair cut is booked for Tuesday. What’s your next step?

[jess-keepsdreamingbig]

A garbled thought about haircuts and Eating Disorders

My hair used to be thick, untameable, and impossible to pin back without a collection of hairbands. It was a mess, and cutting it short at eleven had only made it stick out more. From around five minutes after that hair cut all the way up to present day, I’ve longed for longer, thinner hair. The preference for curls over straight has flickered back and forth as trends come and go, but I’ve always desperately willed my hair to grow faster, to lose some of it’s weight (a year into an eating disorder, my hair is falling out. Be careful what you wish for). My hair’s remained stubborn, growing at a snail’s pace. I’m not sure if it’s a combination of restriction, genes, or just poor bad luck, but my hair hasn’t grown an inch in almost six months. My time restricting has damaged my hair a huge amount. My arms are always covered in strands like a sheered cat, and any life has long left it- the ends like straw. Realistically, the best thing for my hair would be to give in and give it for a cut- and in order to remove the dead hair, it would have to be a substantial cut.  

The issue is, this would involve letting go.

The best thing to do to make sure that my hair continues to grow strong and healthy would be to get it cut, but in doing so, I’d need to accept that I’m never going to have the long model hair that I’ve wanted, or the hair that my friends have. I’d need to accept that perhaps I will need to spend the rest of my life taking half an hour to tie it away from my face. I’d need to accept that the hair I always strived for was unattainable, and I’d need to start accepting- and loving- what I had if I ever wanted to have healthy hair, rather than risk permanently damaging it for an unattainable dream.

It’s really, really easy to quasi-recover. It’s easy to make step towards making yourself healthy, whilst still clinging to your disorder in the hopes of attaining the ideal and goals that you’ve built up for yourself. Yes, my intake has certainly improved since I first decided to take steps to recovery, but I’m still consciously making choices that are fuelling my ED, in a last ditch desperation to lose some weight, to tone x and y, to look how I’ve always dreamed of looking. It’s easy- and human- to register what would be the healthiest choice to make for your body, and dismiss this choice in favour of a path that ‘might work in your favour if you keep at it long enough, maybe, perhaps, you can only hope’.

Sometimes, the most difficult and necessary step, is allowing yourself to take hold of those unattainable body dreams. To register that they were there, and then to embrace everything that you are, everything that’s you, and to accept that you’ll never meet that unattainable dream. And more importantly, you shouldn’t! It’s only now that my hair is falling out that I’ve really begun to see how good I had it before. Accept that with every step you try and take towards forcing your body to become something that it should never be, you’re losing a little part of yourself every day. Let the unhealthy unattainable go, and turn back to a beautifully healthy you.

My hair cut is booked for Tuesday. What’s your next step?

[shimmering-fairy-lights]

Progress is not made in my comfort zone.

[jess-keepsdreamingbig]

me watching the Olympics: oh wow, that was impressive!

announcer: ANOTHER DISASTROUS MISTAKE!

[yummyinmytumbly]

Corn Fritters with Cheddar and Scallions

[versaillesadness]

[jess-keepsdreamingbig]

Is anyone else having an issue that whenever they go on tumblr on desktop, it starts playing some sort of trailer? I can only hear the audio, and no matter how much I scroll I can’t seem to find a video- anyone finding the same?

[spannabelle]

Binges make no fucking sense

It’s like, ‘probably shouldn’t eat that’

*eats everything, including the fridge*

[dearbody]

“i can’t eat that, i don’t want to get fat”

“ok since i ate a little i might as well eat all of it. if i’m gonna be fat, i might as well be really fat”

[xsmileyblues96]

Yup

[jess-keepsdreamingbig]

Got back from my two week tour of Italy two weeks ago, and completely forgot to post. It was a fun two weeks full of challenges, and I'm back and hopefully ready to continue pushing towards recovery

[intensefoodcravings]

Carrot Cake Scones with Coconut Cream Cheese Frosting | Broma Bakery