You're so Damn Beautiful

25Vampire/Witch Son of Matt & Rebekah Brother of four

[jessedonovan]

nxtyourwitch:

“Are you sure?” she asked, “Because we can just take it out to the woods, light it on fire, put the ashes in the river. Nobody has to know except you and me… I just don’t want to risk Uncle Matt finding out it was really me.”

Jesse looked to his cousin before looking back to the body. “You do know that if my mom or my dad find out about this, I would literally have my head ripped off and be in the dog house for months... yet your way does sound more fun...” Jesse admitted as he crouched to examine the body. “did anyone know where he was going or seen you with him?” Jesse asked curiously. Having a father in the police did help him. 

[jessedonovan]

jaggervanchure:

“Jess…” He finally managed to whispered looking away, “You know you shouldn’t.”

Jesse looked to the male and nodded his head slowly at the males words. “I know... I shouldn’t...you shouldn’t...” Jesse admitted with a swallow as he thought of the man calling him Jess.

[jessedonovan]

jaggervanchure:

Jagger felt frozen as he stood there, eye to eye with Jesse, super close as he swallowed hard.

Jesse’s head was telling him to do somethings but his body was froze - as if commanded by his heart to stay. He waited for the male to make a move, as the Donovan watched. He couldn’t bare to take his eyes away from the other’s and slowly licked over his lips. 

[jessedonovan]

averageavery:

Brennan exhaled as he closed his eyes to meditate. He opened his eyes and glared at the Donovan. “Yeah, like I really wanted to fling that guy and draw attention to myself,” Brennan grumbled.

Feeling the glare from the other’s eyes, Jesse frowned himself before replying with a sharp tongue after the Avery's words. “Well you did a pretty good job at that. didn’t you...so next time maybe, punch the douche instead..” Jesse insisted with a growl. 

[averageavery]

Brennan was overwhelmed with all the senses he was going on. “Shut up, shut up,” He murmured, rubbing his temples. “I said shut up!” He exclaimed, accidentally flinging the person into the wall.

[jessedonovan]

Jesse had stumbled upon Brennan as he flew someone through the wall. He frowned a little as he walked towards the male with his arms across his chest. Jesse knew how stressful it was and sometimes how easy it was to lose control of the magic. “Did you really need to do that?” Jesse asked curiously. 

[thelovejournals]

I won’t glorify or romanticize heartbreak, for me it was a kind of death and I was forced to keep living.

Warsan Shire (via wnq-writers)

@jaggervanchure

[jessedonovan]

jaggervanchure:

Jagger felt lost for a moment, like he couldn’t find his way back home now. “Juniper and your guy.. whatever his name is will kill us.” He whispered shaking his head.

Jesse listened to Jagger and nodded his head slightly at the males words about the others killing them. He licked over his lips and soon found himself toe to toe with Jagger looking to his eyes as if he was lost in them - that he could stay in them forever. He couldn’t control himself. It was as if the time since he split up with Jagger hadn’t happened and he felt like that teenager that first met Jagger in the bar and wanted to do anything he could with him. 

[jessedonovan]

nxtyourwitch:

“You think I planned for things to happen this way?” she complained, “Can you just, maybe, help me get rid of the body? I really don’t want a healthy dose of guilt from anyone but my aunts and uncles today.”

Jesse shook his head a little before clasping eyes on the body before laughing a little and remembering his first few kills. Looking up, he nodded his head reluctantly. “I know a place... but... It might be easier to get it to my dad and I can say I found it... there have been some attacks so it wouldn’t be to unusual...” Jesse clarified to her. 

[jessedonovan]

jaggervanchure:

Standing there he pressed his lips together, looking down a second before back up, “I don’t know if it’s okay for you to be drinking my blood..” He spoke softly scratching the back of his neck.

As Jagger looked up and spoke, Jesse stood in the gap as his eyes met with the other’s and there was silence for a moment. It wasn’t an awkward silence more of a silence where they knew words were not needed. “I don’t either... and yet you just make me want to lose control that little bit like I used to...”

[jessedonovan]

jaggervanchure:

Pressing his lips together, he looked down for a second, “Of course I love you, but that doesn’t change that we’re both taken men… I came here for answered.”

Jesse watched the male and frowned a little. “Well you have answers and you are still here... and I’m getting hungry so I’m gonna have someone meeting me here in a moment to feed from...unless you want to offer..” Jesse let slip before biting on his lip. The words were coming out without intention and he didn’t want to cheat on Sawyer, but Jagger just made him lose that little bit of control. 

[jaggervanchure]

jessedonovan:

“I needed to be…on my own to sort myself out… I couldn’t be around you… I wanted to so bad..god..but I wanted to keep you safe… “ Jesse said with his eyes wavering from Jagger’s for a moment. Bringing them back up, the gap between them closed for a moment. “I’m sorry… and I’m sorry I didn’t stay with you… I didn’t even see most of my family… I was angry…upset…hurt… and I just…it wasn’t because I didn’t love you completely…” Jesse pointed out. 

Jagger just listened as he stood there. Never moving an inch, even when Jesse moved closer toward him. “I felt like my world was breaking when you left.. There isn’t anything left to do here now Jesse though.. It was almost better not knowing than knowing you still love me because I can’t let myself love you still. Not now..”

[jessedonovan]

Jesse looked to Jagger and nodded. "I get that but...you said yourself you love me still...and...God I shouldn't even be here... I'm with Sawyer... but...God...you get in my head Jagger and...I can't help that I love you...and you met me...so...what do you have to say...there must be a reason you came back here"

[thelovejournals]

What is there to say? You know how much I have loved you.

Zelda Fitzgerald, Letter to F. Scott Fitzgerald, February 1935 (via thelovejournals)

@jaggervanchure

[jessedonovan]

jaggervanchure:

“You didn’t even give me a choice… I was already a vampire, I could have helped you through it.” He shook his head feeling a pit in his stomach. “I don’t want to hear about your love for Sawyer. I really don’t want to hear you say you love another guy.” He shook his head, eyes glued to him. “You would have been more safe with me if you stayed with me.. Now? Now it’s all too late.”

“I needed to be...on my own to sort myself out... I couldn’t be around you... I wanted to so bad..god..but I wanted to keep you safe... “ Jesse said with his eyes wavering from Jagger’s for a moment. Bringing them back up, the gap between them closed for a moment. “I’m sorry... and I’m sorry I didn’t stay with you... I didn’t even see most of my family... I was angry...upset...hurt... and I just...it wasn’t because I didn’t love you completely...” Jesse pointed out. 

[jessedonovan]

jaggervanchure:

Standing there just looking to Jesse, it was hard to listen and hear what he was saying, even after all this time. “No.. you never told me why. You just broke it off and left. Never returned a call, text, nothing. I thought about you everyday for a year.. A year Jess and I couldn’t just wait around anymore. Then I hear you were with someone new? Talk about stabbing me not once but twice.. What was it? Huh?”

Jesse watched the male and frowned. “I didn’t end things with you because I didn’t love you or want to be with you... I ended our relationship because I wanted the best for you... I loved you so much that I wanted you okay...and I was in transition, I wanted you to be safe...and I couldn’t promise that you were going to be safe with me...from me...I didn’t want to be the one that hurt you..” Jesse admitted finally. “ I left you... because I loved you...and I love Sawyer... I love him so much... but I..well you know..” he admitted as their eyes met. 

[jaggervanchure]

Jagger pressed his lips together, throwing his phone at his wall after various texts were sent with Jesse. He wasn’t sure if he should go to the barn but he pulled his shirt over his head and vamped over toward it. Opening the door standing there. “What the hell…” @jessedonovan

[jessedonovan]

Jesse sat with his back against the outer wall as he saw the male enter and stood up swiftly before sighing.”I don’t know...I have no fricking idea Jagger... I was... I didn’t think of you...at all... and then I saw you in that bar and... you were everywhere and I couldn’t stop thinking about you...” Jesse admitted. “You never even knew why I finished with you...” 

[jessedonovan]

jaggervanchure:

Jagger: *read message + replies 30 minutes later*

Jagger: Fuck Jesse!!

Jagger: You have a boyfriend! I have a girlfriend now I just got with you can’t… fucking hell… why. why must I still love you too.

Jesse: I know...It’s stupid of me but I...

Jesse: I’m at the barn...

[jessedonovan]

sawyerfck:

Hearing the moan, Jesse grinned to himself and let his tongue slide from his entrance to his balls before suckling one of them in his mouth and brought a free hand around to stroke Sawyer’s growing member. Licking over the balls, Jesse grinned before biting into the sensitive skin around the balls slightly. Jesse gripped onto the males thigh and dug his short nails into it with his warm saliva running over the males hole before he pushed his tongue into the hole. Jesse allowed his eyes to close before pulling away and inserting three fingers at once into the male, before working up to start pushing his fist into the male. This was something new to Jesse to try with Sawyer. “This is going to hurt...and I’m gonna like it..” Jesse admitted slowly easing his fist inside the male.