being alive.

Jesse St. James submissive. | 22 years young. | single Somebody crowd me with love.Somebody force me to care.

[jessestsub]

dom-bastiansmythe​:

The cold didn’t do it for you, St. James?

Hardly. I think I’ve told you, but I’m a Los Angelos native. The cold has never done it for me. The only place I’d deem it tolerable is New York City, because at least that place can compensate for what it lacks in comfort.

[jessestsub]

God, it feels good to be back in Lima.

...is a sentence I never, ever thought I’d say, but after camping out in a damn tundra, virtually any place warmer is going to glow in comparison. I could use a night out on the town at some point this week. If anyone wants the pleasure of escorting me, consider the opportunity up for grabs.

[jessestsub]

finnhudsonxp​:

Oh right, It’s mandatory. I just forgot. I think my brain doesn’t hold onto things I don’t find super important. Does that make sense? Are you currently doing ballett? I heard the type of dance helps with football, but I don’t see how it would. You really wanna be on broadway, huh? It’s like your NFL. I am looking forward to seeing next to you.

That makes perfect sense. I’m a bit of a selective listener, myself - and there’s rarely anything that matters enough to me to retain, so my brain is wildly open for all the creativity an artist such as myself requires. Not giving a shit really is a beautiful thing sometimes. I am, yes. Well, I was until I came to this school. I think there might be a club or something where I can keep refining the craft but I haven’t gotten around to looking into it. Ballet probably helps football players with things like balance, endurance and coordination; all valuable things I’d expect such an intensely physical sport would require, right? I still need to give you dance-lessons, so perhaps we could incorporate some ballet into those lessons; it’ll help you in sports and in general, I’d think.

Yes, Broadway is the initial goal. Afterwards I’ll foray into film and television, but my true love is the stage. It always has been.

[jessestsub]

thesmythethatswitches​:

This will teach me to check the agenda before such trips as I am not sure I even knew there was a ballet on tonight. I shall be there, with my girl in tow. Maybe we could sit next too you in case we lose track of what is going on?

Well, one doesn’t normally talk during a performance, so I don’t know if sitting next to me would do you any good, but you’re welcome to, anyway. 

[jessestsub]

finnhudsonxp​:

There’s a ballet tonight? That’s cool. I think it’s awesome that you like it. Which sort of dancing is your favorite to perform? Have a nice time at the show. I would go, but I am pretty sure I’d fall asleep. 

I could be wrong, but I think the ballet is mandatory, Sir. I would think so, anyway - considering that the institute probably already purchased all of our tickets. Just sit next to me. I’ll keep you awake. I have a preference for ballet, actually. I’ve been on pointe since an impressively young age, and I’ve continued honing my craft well into adulthood. Ballet is an excellent skill to have when one wishes to grace a Broadway stage one day.

[jessestsub]

While I’m hardly thrilled about being whisked off to somewhere that’s even colder than Lima, which is a feat I’ve been near-convinced was impossible, I must say that I’m looking forward to the ballet tonight. As a trained dancer, myself, I’ve been yearning to reintroduce myself to that art-form for quite a while now, and there’s no better way to do that than to attend a showing. I just hope my peers can appreciate the culture they’re about to be treated to.

[dom-bastiansmythe]

Text: I can't believe you got me an entire bookshelf for Christmas... You do realize how cramped the submissive dorms are, right? Or do we need to fuck in mine so that you get the idea? ;) {Jesse)

Text: I believe the correct answer is ‘thank you, Sir”. That would had been enough. Hey, we still have than pending, don’t we?

[jessestsub]

dom-bastiansmythe​:

Text: I would never be as arrogant to consider I cam mold you into anything, St. James. And this is me, King Arrogant. Plus, I think we both know there’s little anyone can make you do when you don’t want it.

Text: Stop whining. It’s not sexy.

Text: I think you make a fair point. I mean, it would be the polite thing to do. Thank you, thank you. I’ll be here all week. And don’t forget to tip your friendly waiter.

Text: I have a boyfriend now. As for who, that’s for me to know, and for you to it being none of your business, is that understood?

Text: Now, scene or not?

Text: Well, I’m happy to hear how obvious that is. I’ve made a point to make sure anyone paying attention realizes that much....but they’ll still try to mold me, and when I don’t fold like they want, I’ll get punished for it. Really, it’s such a beautiful, oh-so-fair system we have, isn’t it?

Text: A boyfriend? Well. I...wasn’t expecting that. Is he going to take issue with you fucking my perfect ass and throat under the guise of a scene?

[jessestsub]

hunterclaringtonswitch​:

I was discharged from the army due to injuries sustained, so one piece is debatable and I have PTSD, so…a number was done.

...Well, I suppose there’s no positive spin to be found here, huh? I’m sorry to hear all of that. For what it’s worth, you look great, considering all you’ve gone through.

[jessestsub]

betterthanyoufabray​:

What’s that phrase? Nothing in life is worth it if you don’t earn it? I’m sure it’ll apply in your case. If only that you’re so confident that I’ll adore whatever fun little prize I find under it all. 

Mostly to get the seal of approval of this place, you’d be shocked how many people value this school when it comes to putting out worthy dominants and submissives.  It’s like Yale only more horny in some circles. And those circles I’m trying to run in. Thus…here I am.  This place has a reputation and reputation is important. Oh, don’t worry, St James. I’ll pull out my A game and leave you aching for another round. No worries on that. 

It would be a shame for someone to steal you away from laying around in your underwear with me for a weekend. I’ll be sure to put the orders in.  I also need a date to this NYE party, if you’re at all interested in a midnight kiss. 

I was thinking something along those lines, mmhmm. I wouldn’t mind finding something worth earning, as well - I haven’t yet, here or otherwise, but hey? Maybe you’ll be the first to break my long-winded streak of disappointment.

That was my understanding, as well. Why they’d bring the most prestigious school to a cow town like this one in the middle of nowhere is absolutely beyond me, but my fathers wouldn’t let me settle for anything less than the best...and the ‘best’ still went and made me a God damn submissive, so what does that tell you? Mmm, I could always use a session that leaves me aching.v Those are tough to find. Consider me looking forward to it, Sir.

It really would be - and it has been. I look fantastic in my underwear. I should be permitted to lounge around in it day in and day out. It’d be doing the public a general service, actually. Are you really so sure that you want to spend such an important holiday with someone you’ve barely met? At least let me suck your cock first, and then decide if you still want me as a date. (You absolutely will, but this is me at least attempting a little humility.)

[jessestsub]

betterthanyoufabray​:

Why do I feel like this is going to be more effort than simply playing twenty questions- granted, I’m now determined to learn all those ticks and desires- which might have been your plan all along which is well played on your part.  Well- you can have your own feelings on the system and I can admire that- if only because I certainly do benefit from it.  I can’t imagine many dominants enjoyed the time you were more angry at the world in general. 

Pretty much. And I do intend to go quite far with such head start in life. I even interned for a few congress-people before my arrival here.  Well now, a certain beautiful man at my feet would certainly align with my evenual goals.  He says before I leave him well fucked and regretting ever doubting me. 

How’s this weekend? I could put in orders. 

Any effort on your part will prove to be more than worth the exertion, I can assure you of that much, Sir. I’m a tough nut to crack, as it were - but I’ve yet to meet someone who didn’t adore what they find once they get through my admittedly tough shell. 

Well, well, you’ve certainly made some head-way in the world up until now. What’s brought you to Lima, Ohio of all places? Talk is cheap, Sir - the more you talk up your ability to fuck me senseless, the more I doubt that you actually can...so you better be prepared to pull out every last stop, and I’ll do the same.

That works for me...and yes, please make it an order. Certain Dominants around here like to issue random, wide-spread orders to do menial chores, and they tend to be quite the weekend-ruiners.

[jessestsub]

betterthanyoufabray​:

It would be oh so easy for me. Which is why I asked.  Oh? I suppose it’ll be an interesting time trying to work it out for myself then. Right. Sorry, didn’t mean to brag. I was just observing such a thing. 

It’s how I was raised. Old money requires such politeness.  Fairly sure the last thing I’d be is buttoned up if I was fucking your throat, St James. Or admiring that head between my legs. It would be quite the sight. 

Exactly. I’d hate to rob you of such a long-winded, entertaining process that is the one of figuring out all my various ticks and desires. You’re fine. It is what it is. I’ve more-or-less moved on from being angry at the people the benefit from this fucked up system to being angry at the system, itself. It seems healthier and less detrimental to potential relationships.

Mmm, and the plot thickens. So, you’re a rich boy with an oyster of a world to with what you want. My, to be in your shoes right now...but since that can’t happen, I could certainly settle for being at your feet. Well, that remains to be seen, doesn’t it? I’m a man that values action above words, so why don’t you pencil in some time to make good on all of that, hmm?

[jessestsub]

betterthanyoufabray​:

I just understand that it’s not the greatest situation when it goes against whatever your expectations were but you’re welcome, I suppose.  Well now, a combination of the two just makes you double the intimidating, doesn’t it? Well now I’m just curious what sort of reward you think would be worthy of such effort. Pretty much- I enjoy a decent power rush a little too much to be submitting 24/7 all the time but it does happen from time to time. I certainly got lucky with my magic mark- opens up a whole world of possibilities for me. 

Perhaps you should give me one sometime, just to prove how talented you are at such a thing. 

It certainly does. I think it would be entirely too easy for you if I just let out all the sort of things I would consider a reward for being...well, me. You’ll have to test the waters yourself and find out, I’m afraid.  Well, luck you with your ability to choose your fate and all that. Really, I’m thrilled for you.

My, aren’t you gentlemanly? Even when asking for something so...not. I hope yo won’t be this buttoned-up when you’ve got my head between your legs, Sir.

[jessestsub]

ken-campbell​:

That’s quite fair, though I do hope you remember that every other performer out there also must find a claim prior to their thirtieth birthdays as well. You’re hardly alone in that. I suggest you focus on earning points as the opportunities present themselves, so that when you do find that Dominant who sees you for who you are, you’re as close to graduation as possible.

I’ve tried to think about that, but then I just get bitter thinking of all the Dominant, aspiring-actors who will, no matter how long they take to graduate, always have the occupational advantage thanks to a little mark on their wrist. It’s aggravating to say the least, but I think I’ve beaten that topic well enough into the ground with you, already. ...That is good advice concerning my school work, though. I’ll admit my motivation to do anything at all has been lacking as of late.

[jessestsub]

hunterclaringtonswitch​:

Improvised Explosive Device.  Loads of them are still buried in former war zones.  My transport rolled over it and…it went off.  That’s why I’m here instead of still serving in the Army.

Jesus. That sounds terrifying... I suppose we’re lucky you’re here and in one piece, huh? Physically, anyway. I’m sure something like that would have done a number on your mental state.

[jessestsub]

betterthanyoufabray​:

I see. That must have been…a sharp change for you- I’m sorry the system didn’t work in the way you wanted. So you intimidate people? With your talent or your beauty? Which is it? Well it’s nice to know we’re on the right food with each other.  Heaven forbid I make a bad impression. I give compliments when they’re earned, your was just also a very obvious fact. So…a two for one deal, I suppose.  It’s a preference as much as just how the dice generally falls on my…relationships. I’m not against bottoming or submitting, it just requires…different moment. I  suppose.  Ah, well, that’s something.  It’s nice to know you’d be a little more obedient with me than someone who wasn’t willing to help you out. 

Heh. Shockingly you’re right. I do adore blow-jobs and other sexual favours. Provided you’re good at them. I’m certainly willing to help if you do end up in such a state. 

It can’t be helped, but I appreciate the condolences, nonetheless. Can it not be both talent and beauty? Because in my case, I’d like to think it certainly is a lethal combination of the two. I’m not typically in the business of exerting myself for praise, but I could be persuaded to put forth some effort if the reward has enough potential. I can understand that. Certain circumstances and certain people rile up different urges - but you know what you like on a general basis and that’s probably could, considering how spoiled for choice you are with that versatile mark of yours.

Aah, yes. Shocking, indeed. I’m talented at everything I’ve attempted thus far in life, Sir - so blow-jobs certainly fall well under that umbrella. 

[jessestsub]

betterthanyoufabray​:

You got me there, even if you could argue someone might be into topping for a lot more reasons than just how good someone’s ass is. You expected the dominant mark then? That must have been quite the disappointment. I try to keep me being wrong to a rare,  once in a blue moon event.  You’re welcome, just calling it like I see it. With a jawline and a smirk like yours,  anyone would say the same, I’m sure.  I’m a dominant-leaning switch, for the record.  And what might I get if I did keep your pretty self out of the dungeons? 

‘Disappointment’ barely skims the surface. Try life-altering or world-ending instead...but don’t worry, I’ll spare you the spiel about how my life was ruined overnight. No one really cares to hear it, I’ve found - and as a trained vocalist, I don’t like to waste my breath. Oh, you’re correct - everyone does say the same, unless they’re too intimidated to do so. I won’t deny that your forwardness and willingness to dish out a well-phrased compliment is a very attractive one. Having my ego bolstered only makes me want to return the favor, so we’re starting off on the right foot, handsome. Consider that bit about your mark-preference noted. I’d go as far as to say that you’d get a great deal more obedience and willingness to serve from me than I give to anyone else who isn’t so apt to help me out of a pickle or two. Granted, my preferred form of servitude usually and almost exclusively presents itself in the form of blow-jobs and other sexual favors but somehow I doubt that would be much of an issue for you.

[jessestsub]

betterthanyoufabray​:

Heh. I’m a lot of things but yes, an ass-man is one of them.  When I top, anyway. It was an observation, not a complaint. And it’s an obvious fact you’re attractive.  So no, I suppose I can’t blame you for your confidence- since apparently your ass has no flaws. Oh? So you’re not someone who jumps at every chance to move up in the ranks then? Though, a pretty thing like you shouldn’t be subjected to the dungeons. It would be a waste. 

I’d think you’d sort of have to be an ass-man in order to top at all, wouldn’t you? It’d be difficult to stay hard if you’re not into what you’re fucking. I jump at the chance to move up in the ranks that I care about. Evidently, my education here, now that I’ve been stuck with the submissive mark, isn’t among the things I find myself passionate about. You’re not wrong, there. Although, I suppose I should thank you for the compliment, no matter how deserving it is - so, thank you. You’re welcome to use your mark to keep my pretty-self out of the dungeons whenever you’d like...assuming you’re not a submissive, of course.