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Beach Day part 1

“Got everything?” he asked me as he gave me an odd look. He must have thought I looked funny because I was carrying a beach towel in one arm, my sunscreen in my one hand, my purse in the other, and a beach chair on my other arm.

“Yup!” I said happily.

“Let me help you with that,” he said as he grabbed the beach chair freeing up my arm. The weight came off of my shoulders and I instantly sighed a breath of relief.

He smiled as he locked his car with a press of a button. We had two blocks to walk, which wasn’t too bad seeing as summer was in full swing and it was very difficult to get parking anywhere.

We walked in silence from the car to the beach. There was so much just running through my head. This was going to be the first time I’d ever let him see me mostly naked. I wasn’t worried about my body so much. I must be attractive if I had guys lined up wanting to date me. Though I liked to show off, it felt odd. I wonder what he would have thought of me.

We finally got to the beach and started walking on the hot sand.

“Where are we going?” I asked through the pain shooting up my feet.

“Umm… over there,” he pointed to the open spot where we could lay.

I practically ran to the spot so my feet wouldn’t be touching needles. I laid out my towel as he caught up to me.

“Too hot for you?” he asked with a smirk.

“Did you not feel how hot that is?”

“I don’t think about it actually. I thought it would have felt like your normal body temperature since you love the heat and turn into an ice cube when it gets less than fifty degrees out.”

I smiled at him and joking said, “Right, so you just burn up on a normal day since you’re always so hot. I’m surprised you haven’t melted today yet.”

“Let’s see how well you do when you touch the water,” he said as he started taking off his shirt.

I couldn’t help but watch him as I awkwardly stared at him. I knew that he had muscles, but nothing like that. He was pretty fairly built, mainly in the upper body. Seeing him topless made my heart jump. I caught myself staring at him like an idiot and started stripping myself. He picked up the sunscreen I brought with me and put it on him. Though I wasn’t paying attention to him much then, I noticed his blue eyes would flitter from the sunscreen to watching me. I bit my lip and tried to hide my smile.

“Could you put sunscreen on my back?” he asked.

“Only if you do mine,” I said as I grabbed the bottle and put the oily substance on his back. I took my time rubbing in the lotion, feeling his soft skin on my hands. Then I turned around as he put the lotion on me. He also took his time, but gave me a short massage. It felt good to loosen up and not be as tense.

“Race you to the water!” he yelled as he got a head start.

“That’s not fair!” I screamed after him. I didn’t have the long legs like he did and I wasn’t much of a quick runner.

The instant my feet touched the water it felt cool. I screamed as a quickly backed out of the water.

“Come on! It’s not that cold!” he yelled as his body was soaked.

“Yes it is! I’m freezing!”

“You barely touched the water!”

“That’s enough for me!” I said as only my feet remained in the water.

He walked back towards me as his body dripped from the salty water. He swooped me up and easily carried me.

“Jason! What are you doing?” I said as I struggled to break free.

He started getting deeper and deeper into the ocean. “What? Can’t handle the cold?” he said with a cocky voice.

“No!” I yelled as he waded in the water that was already at his bare chest. I wrapped my legs around him, my face inches from his. Shrieking as the water reached my legs, I begged him not to drop me.

“Or what?” he asked.

“Or… I don’t know!” I said as I felt rushed.

“I’ll work out a deal with you,” he said as he stopped and stood in the water that was up to his waist, and up to my pelvis.

“What is it?”

“Kiss me and I won’t drop you,” he said.

“And if I don’t?”

There was a pause then he let go of me. I tightened my grip on him, clinging onto his body.

“I don’t know how long you can stay like that for, especially if I’m going in deeper, and with the waves…”

“You are evil,” I said.

“I know,” he said as his blue eyes lit up. I kissed him hard at first, but then I temporarily got lost into the kiss. I gripped him tighter not so he wouldn’t drop me, but because I wanted to be closer to him. I kissed him not just because I had to play his game, but because I wanted to. He positioned his hands at my waist. His cold, wet hands moved from my waist to my head and ended with his hands touching my cheeks. We suddenly stopped kissing as a wave pushed up against his back and he lost his balance. We ended up both dropped in the cool water.

I screamed as I got up and we both laughed.

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They say when you've found the one, you just know. You will get a feeling inside of you. That you will not want anyone else, And you feel whole. I just know. I have this gut feeling inside of me. I don't want anybody else. I feel as if this is it, That he gives me everything I could ever need or want. I know he feels the same. And that's just it. We're open with each other. Im not afraid to tell him how I feel, Or what I think. We're both on the same page. We both agree, It feels natural being with each other. The instant trust we have. The love for each other is unquestionable. Never doubtful, Never hurting. Sure I'm jumping ahead of myself. It's too soon to say things of these sorts. But why should I hide how I truely feel? If the feelings are mutual, There's no reason to keep it a secret. I love him, And there's no doubt that he doesn't love me.

A Romantic Evening

Scott had just finished paying for our lovely dinner and told me he had plans for us. Plans? I got up and was curious as to where we could possibly be going. I was in a red, sexy, short dress. He didn't tell me to bring a spare change of clothes. He was also dressed up in a nice pair of pants and a dress shirt. What was the occasion?

We started driving away from the beautiful restuarant when he grabbed my hand and squeezed it.

"I love you Alliosn," he said.

Scott and I have been together for quite awhile now, and I still loved hearing those words, especially my name.

"I love you too," I said with a smile on my face, bluishing.

We eventually reached our destination, a beach. Why the beach? He opened the car door for me and closed it.

"I didn't bring a change of clothes," I said.

"A little sand won't hurt would it?"

"No,"

I took off my heels and walked onto the beach. The sand was still warm from earlier that day, just a tad bit cooler. It felt so nice to dig my feet into the sand. He took off his dressy shoes too and we started going for our walk. It was slightly breezy, but not a chilly breeze. Summer was almost in full swing. The moon was out. It shone bright and sparkled on the ocean.

I spotted little sand pipers on the beach running from the waves.

"Let's chase them!" I said as I started to run after them. Scott joined me as we shooed the cute littlwe birds away. I laughed out of breath from running. Scott picked me up and kept running.

"Scott! What are you doing? Ah!" I laughed.

He ran up to the lifeguard stand and put me down.

"Here, climb up," he said.

I climbed up on the stand and sat down. He sat down next to me.

"Isn't it beautiful?" I said as I stared out at the ocean. The waves kept crashing and receeding making for a peaceful atmosphere.

"And the stars!" I said as I looked up. The stars were shining and twinkling. With no cloud in the sky, the stars were completely visible.

He kept his eyes on me instead. "I see something more beautiful," he said.

I looked down to see him faintloy smiling at me. I blushed again and grabbed his hand.

"So do I."

His blue eyes were fixed on mine until he kissed me. It felt so nice, soft, romantic, and yet with a hint of passion.

"So what's all this for?" I asked.

"What do you mean?"

"It's not my birthday, or our anniversary. Why are you doing all of this?"

"I've always wanted to do this. Have a nice little romantic evening, going out to a nice place to eat, hang out at our favorite spot."

I half believed it. Why so suddenly? Part of me thought it was something else but I waved it off my mind. If it didn't happen I'd be so upset. So I didn't even go there. I just let myself enjoy the moment and let nit go where it wanted to.

We finally hopped off of the stand and started walking back. He stopped walking when we reached the pavillion and looked deeply into my eyes. His hand touched my cheek as he moved a piece of hair out of my face and kept his hand on my face.

"Thank you," he said.

"For what?" I asked in a trance.

"Being in my life. I don't know what I'[d honestly do without you."

"Me either."

He bent in and kissed me softly. Both of his hands then were on my face as he pulled away.

"I want you to continue being in my life. I don't want you to ever leave," he said.

"I won't."

He paused, grabbed my hand, and went down on his one knee.

"Promise?" he asked.

He pulled out the most beautiful ring I have ever seen. It was gold with a red diamond heart surrounded by two white diamonds.

"Marry me?" he asked.

I had a lump in my throatl. I couldn't find the words. I just started crying and nodded. When I could I said speak again, I said yes. I brought him back up to me and kissed him passionately, still with tears in my eyes. He picked me up and carried me to the car.

"So that's what your plan was?" I asked sniffling

"I still got one more surprise."

"Another one?"

He nodded. We drove a couple of blocks down and entered into a hotel.

"I got us a room for the night."

"What? Why?"

"I wanted to make things more special."

"I didn't even bring anything."

"Already taken care of."

I sat there confused. "What?"

"I told your parents. They packed for you." "Do they know that.."

"I asked you to marry me? Yes."

"Oh Scott!" I hugged him tight and kissed his cheek.

"You will be the best husband ever."

We walked inside the beautiful place. It was huge and full of furniture. I was still in shock and was trying to absorb everything.

Scott got our key and we took an elevator to our floor, the fourth floor. When he opened the door, my eyes went wide. The room was spacious with a flat screen TV, a closet, a large kitchen with a fridge, a big brass bed, and a sliding glass door that had a view of the ocean.

Scott came over and nuzzled me on the neck as he put his arms around my waist.

"Thank you for everything," I said.

"You're welcome. Come to bed my fiance." He kissed my cheek.

"Yes my soon to be husband."

We walked over to the bed, turned off the lights and undressed each other and got lost into the night.

I know once summer comes Things won't be so easy. I want summer to come. Just to feel the warmth. And yet I dread the summer. Our schedules will be crammed. I'd be lucky if I get to see you. And to be honest, I'm going to struggle with it Every single day for months at a time. But if there's one thing you're teaching me, It's trying to change my outlook on things. Yes, I will hurt. Yes, I will struggle. But in the end I have to ask myself, Is it worth it? The answer? Yes, of course it's worth it. I have to stop thinking in the present, And live in the future. We're going to work so hard, For our future. So maybe we can do something with our lives. So maybe we can go to college and get a car. So maybe we can do things for ourselves, Like get a place or go somewhere together. I just need distractions. Distract myself from you. Not be depressed for months. I need busy work. Who said anything was easy? I have to work for what I want. Will I move on? No. I have everything I need here. I don't want to leave for something temporary. I just need to get over my fears. And I know with your help, I can do anything.

You're different than everyone else. You open my eyes and help me see everything from another angle. I am quite throughly convinced that this could work. I just love the way you look at me with those blue eyes. I start to blush and look away smiling. Then when you don't notice, or I think you don't, I just stare at you thinking about you. Across the room from you, wishing you would be next to me, holding me. I can't wait to see you tonight. As it is every night. I will feel more at ease with you next to me. And one day, maybe I won't have to worry about not being able to see you, for I will be seeing you every night when you walk in our door. One day soon.

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He grabbed my hand and held it. I smiled and looked up at him. His blue eyes were fixed on mine. Blushing, I tried to read what his eyes were saying. His eyes were telling me that he longed for me, That he truly loved me. Though a man may lie to you, If you read his eyes, They will always tell the truth. "you look beautiful,"his soft voice said without a flinch. His eyes still never left mine. Still smiling, i looked away. "thanks," I said. His other free hand grabbed my chin, To force me to look at him. "i must leave my love. I will miss you as always." My smile turned into a frown I didn't want him to leave. "I'll miss you," I said. He put his hand on my cheek, And with his thumb, Gently stroked my face. "I'll be back for you." with his other hand, he and his fingers through my long blonde hair. I leaned my body up to his. Very lightly, He kissed me. Then he broke away for a moment to look at my face, Which was filed with sadness. He kissed me again, Only this time with passion. A kiss that will never be forgotten. After some time, We broke off the kiss. He stood up from the couch we sat on, And held me tight to him. "until next time mi amore," he whispered in my ear. "be careful," I said as I kissed him. "as always." He grabbed my hands and staring in my eyes said, "i love you." I melted in my spot. He kissed me once more and walked out the door. In his eyes, I read love and passion forever.

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My amazing best friend

I am not a patient person and I'm laying in bed waiting for you. Waiting for your return. All I want to do is be with you. It feels weird without you around. I know I fell for you too hard, too fast. I understand time apart is supposed to make things better. I get that I should split up my time with you so not seeing you can at least be bearable. But I naturally want to see you all of the time. I don't like the feeling of being away from you for too long. Why do I have to have separation anxiety? This time around I'm hoping, praying that this will last. That's all I ever wanted. I just want to be cradled in your arms right now, I miss you so much.

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And Then There Was You

Everyone said the same things,

promised their love for me.

And one by one,

they left me.

Until there was you.

You promise your love for me,

but this time stayed by my side.

And to this day,

you continue to stay with me.

It seems so easy just to fall for you.

No more asking myself why.

Why do you want to be with me?

Why would you ever pick a girl like me?

It feels so natural being with you,

so I stopped questioning myself.

Everyone can see how much you care for me.

I am greatful for the things you've done for me,

and continue to do to this day.

I love how you show me the respect and love I deserve.

Who would have known it would be you?

We went to school together,

We've known each other for years.

And here I am,

with you.

Who knew?

I thought I'd never want to love again.

I didn't want a relationship.

I just wanted to be single,

and never get hurt again.

And then,

there was you.

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The police now believe that another person (a man) is involved, and this was somewhat planned. They believe she has a burn phone. Natalie's mother is requesting that Nat's friends center themselves and THINK about anything she might have said or anything she might have been excited about in regard to a boy in the past. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE keep this young girl and her family in your prayers during this extremely difficult time.

I find it easy to fall in love with you. In my previous relationship I kept asking myself why he even wanted to be with me. But I don't ask myself that with you. You're a free spirit which makes me feel at ease. I can trust you even though it is very difficult to trust anyone in my point in life. I love how you support my decisions and are always there for me. And as soon as I leave you miss me and want to hold me again. I will admit it did take me awhile to find my feelings for you. I had never thought of you in that way until I noticed you felt more. I'm glad I chose you in the end. No more bull shit, no more heart ache, no more lying and being used. I'm so glad I have you and am glad I am with you now.

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