I haven't felt engaged in 12 years

𝒊𝒕'𝒔 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒄𝒐𝒏𝒏𝒆𝒄𝒕𝒆𝒅, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒃𝒆𝒂𝒖𝒕𝒊𝒇𝒖𝒍

[jessidlux]

I feel so untouched and I want you so much That I just can't resist you It's not enough to say that I miss you I feel so untouched right now, need you so much somehow I can't forget you Goin' crazy from the moment I met you I've been drawing and editing video and just working so damn hard. Soon I'll be doing a product review, too. Whatever >:) https://www.instagram.com/p/CefmiYPOmnok-2ad7flrW4rsMQDbh-7Dxl2FhE0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[jessidlux]

#stoat #stanct https://www.instagram.com/p/CeflrdpO97dWA4UMRexKCGZw8PNrvyOdPyEdUo0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[jessidlux]

I have had severe depression for two weeks https://www.instagram.com/p/Cd42gh-OAk40Sp4UWhwxPyA5N9RZ-YBZyovksk0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[jessidlux]

Binnie May #Patreon #Sketch #Fulfillment ! https://www.instagram.com/p/Cd401N6uD3xCTzxVCXTBiN6ZaljvFgcjdiVGgk0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[jessidlux]

A snapshot of me. #me #selfportrait #drawning https://www.instagram.com/p/Cd40kXlOAtRC41ARAeKuRbyTVyH6GnrSOXgCWo0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[jessidlux]

Do #gifs still work on Instagram? I'm back https://www.instagram.com/p/Cd4zfuUO5FJlubeKUqEjel3X99qPP2gatg8Bqw0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[jessidlux]

At least I don't have to worry about them getting gross in the basement anymore. I don't feel like riding yet but I gotta!!!! https://www.instagram.com/p/CTSAVNIHMAVO53FeTJ8Z972Cc6rbtQ5QxkkCd40/?utm_medium=tumblr

[jessidlux]

I just am out here doing the thing. And godspeed to you. https://www.instagram.com/p/CTQxKrcHe_rF355RJ3pEvwrpMDafpVVZhFCX1E0/?utm_medium=tumblr

[jessidlux]

#sebikeslife ;) https://www.instagram.com/p/CPjNl_6H9_eCI5MBBAqLqiC-czM8xil8lxW7900/?utm_medium=tumblr

[jessidlux]

Straight up fucking whatever, man https://www.instagram.com/p/CPTsT4cHHjfNdKOvEozu8Sq85QzahQfmbEBiXY0/?utm_medium=tumblr

[jessidlux]

[jessidlux]

Just to be clear, this is a black shade. Don't buy this if you don't want your hair to be black because you're a fucking idiot if you think it won't come out straight up black, thanks I have black hair now it's not what I wanted I'm fine just, know this https://www.instagram.com/p/CMXUoKRn68Ej223DoT618sgBZUViRr16Wg2Xv40/?igshid=ajfmchyty0dx

[jessidlux]

The real adult thing is accepting that life isn't fair and a lot of us really do just hold society together by suffering meaninglessly and being grindingly poor forever and letting your life kick you in the face to worsening degrees because you are poor and you can only survive as a severely mentally ill person by distorting yourself and harming yourself into performances that service others. Forever. At least eventually most stuff will tell you "I'm going to exploit any vulnerability you provide me" https://www.instagram.com/p/CL8lMlGn3L8snf1W8f7GwPiszB29oGzGjV0_Tg0/?igshid=1h74iuezc9ll2

[jessidlux]

Thanks fucking Milwaukee Febuary Snow bullshit so much for me being able to make up the day I missed this weekend and having any financial traction until who knows when fucking awesome !!!! Yesssssssssssssss so awesome https://www.instagram.com/p/CLVvULcHCr8INCJ1njZQFSvzBmNgpchT3JFdPE0/?igshid=1bmpfcedsg9vg

[jessidlux]

And you want to come back without so much as an apology https://www.instagram.com/p/CLOYz44no2AKFF3ZShGxFGuwcE4Ox5bLCtA9Gw0/?igshid=daoftskqt7x0

[jessidlux]

[wintermutaldeactivated5062024-d]

walking to class when it’s -13 degrees F out be like *eyelashes and strands of hair freeze together like im pulling a sled of supplies about to die of scurvy in ‘the terror’*

[wintermutaldeactivated5062024-d]

walking to class when it’s -29 degrees F outside be like *headphones start to squeak and glitch and I start to panic like im piloting an airplane over the Arctic in the 1950s and the instruments are failing*