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He settles comfortably against Arya, even though it’d only been a little over twenty-four hours since the last time they shared a bed together, it somehow felt like weeks. Resting his head on his shoulder, he lets his eyelids drift close for a moment, the urge to sleep again suddenly tugging at him, but the soft kiss Arya brushes against his knuckles draws him back into the land of the living.
And a pang of guilt hits him at Arya’s own admission, because he was the last one here that needed to apologize about not protecting the other. That had been his job, after all, not Arya’s, and he failed it twice already between Clint’s and then Vic’s unwanted entrance into his apartment. But that felt like ancient history now, after everything that had happened that night and that morning even.
“You know I’m a big tough Guardian, right?” He huffs a laugh, before turning his head to plant a kiss against his shoulder. “And I walked into that Tower yesterday knowing that there were still numerous unknowns about all of this. It’s not your fault what happened, it’s not even Hyde’s fault- even though I wish his aim sucked a little more. I made the choice to go in, and I’m sure I’ll have to make another choice sometime down the road that puts me in danger again. But that’ll be my choice.”
“Believe it or not, I didn’t just choose this gig for the pension and the chance of getting my own action figure,” he adds with a weak smile, before glancing back up to him, taking his hand in his as he does. “I do this despite the risks involved, because I want to help people. And even though I don’t see myself staying a Guardian for much longer, there’ll still be risks in whatever I do- but none of that will be your fault, or your burden to take on.”
The weight of Darren next to him is a comforting thing –– it has been, every single time, every moment that they’ve been allowed to settle next to each other. It’s an addictive kind of warmth, a simple contact that makes Arya feel fervent in his devotion, hungry for more. He wants every second with Darren, as many as he can get, for as long as Darren will let him have it. And he can tell that the contact is helping Darren drift into comfort too, can tell that he’s ready to fall asleep. But the words came out anyway, the admission of his own insecurity, his own guilt about everything that happened in the Tower.
He really does wish he had been faster. He wishes he had known more, done more research. He wishes he had psychic powers so he could have prepared everyone for every eventuality, so that no one would have gotten hurt, and no one would have had to live through any of the trauma that he faced. Part of him almost feels bad for bringing it up at all, when Darren has been through so much, when Darren must be mentally and physically exhausted by everything.
But Darren, wonderful Darren, beautiful Darren... He laughs, and it’s one of the most beautiful sounds he’s ever heard. Like fireworks in his chest. It’s just a small huff of a thing, but combined with the kiss her presses against Arya’s shoulders, it’s enough to set him on fire with that still growing devotion he always feels.
“My big tough Guardian.” He says, voice whisper quiet. Darren is in real danger, he thinks, of being Arya’s hero. He’s comforted by the words, as Darren says them. The fact that he doesn’t blame anyone, even Hyde, means a lot to Jetstream. He nods his head, as he listens, a delicate movement. He squeezes Darren’s hand in turn, glad for the contact, glad for something to hold on to. “Okay. I know. I know we’ll always be kind of in danger. We’re the risk taking types, after all.” He agrees, because its important to acknowledge the words. He shifts so that Darren can rest more surely against him, too. “And I support you taking all the risks that you feel like you need to. But I’m gonna keep worrying about you. Just a little. It’s not a burden.”
He leans in, presses a kiss against his forehead. “It’s like, my job, as your... boyfriend? Like it’s my job to stay here with you and hold your hand all night, if you want. Every night.”
















