jill

| she/they | bisexual | 20 |

[jills-valentine]

hi tumblr i forgot to show off my tattoo here

astarion's scars and the dagger he kills his abuser with

a sign for me to remember that im stronger than i think and that i can fight off my trauma too

the best gift i could've given myself truly

[xanfeursel]

just discovered something really good

[margonite-seer]

This might be one of the most heartbreaking Astarion moments in the entire game.

If you play Dark Urge, eventually, in late Act 3, Tav gets to try to get rid of the urges for good, or, embrace them further. There is a possible outcome where neither of these happen: instead, Tav becomes an outcast cursed to be a murder beast forever, never to be able to get rid of the hunger.

Non-Ascended Astarion's reaction to it is... well... My heart broke in a million pieces, let's say. Because of Neil's amazing acting, as usual, I felt like listening to the conversation is a must. That's why I had to attach the video, too.

But these specific small moments are breaking me more than others.

The subtle but visible drop of his shoulders. He feels so sad and defeated for Tav.

...And this line? Definitely the most tragically poetic/romantic I've ever heard him.

He is so sure he will never love again after Tav, let alone find someone like them.

This has all but confirmed my personal headcanon that unless something tragic happens, Tav and Astarion will stay together for hundreds of years. EDIT:

It's actually so much worse in the ending of the game...

I finished the game on this save path (I'll never consider it canon for my lovely boys and I deleted it after I finished recording all dialogue paths) and the Urges overwhelm Tav the minute the tadpole is gone, but only after Astarion runs to hide from the sun.

Tav has to either stab themselves to death immediately (right in front of other companions) to not become a mindless murderer. If they take merely a moment to plan their future, whatever it is, they get possessed by Bhaal right at the docks. Red glowy eyes, "Orin's" dagger spawning in their hand out of nowhere, all sanity and will gone. And them walking into the city with the dagger in hand is how the game ends.

Tav and Astarion never get their last day together. Astarion running away from the sun is the last time they see each other. No last goodbye, no last celebration, not even an hour of victory bliss and peace.

In the video above, Astarion sounds like he hopes to have at least a few months with Tav, maybe. At least a few days of enjoying the complete freedom together.

In the end, he never got any time with them.

[jills-valentine]

i am in so much pain right now

[zalrin]

Another Astarion edit! Can you blame me?

[hell-alka]

Please knock 🙏

[brick-brooke]

[jills-valentine]

im fucking crying at the gale one

[sparklingthedas]

Astarion lectures of disappointment >>>

[theharlotofferelden]

Genuinely loved the experience of being at camp for the first time and seeing all the companions with their tits out like they’re all gonna go clubbin or some shit

Then there’s Gale

Who’s just. So utterly swagless that his clothes smell like dusty old books. My man doesn’t give a fuck about the drip he’s getting his ass ready for bed

[jills-valentine]

The Pale Elf

ship: fem!Tav x Astarion

tw: smut towards the end

a/n: hello darlings, i jumped into the baldur's gate world and absolutely fell for that evil pale elf and couldn't resist the urge of writing a one shot with him, i hope it's not as bad as i think it is. hope you enjoy<3

summary: you look over Baldur's Gate, wondering what will come next, thinking what you're going to do after all of it is over...

The hum of the cool wind washes over you, as you watch Baldur’s Gate from afar. After all the exhausting travels and growing problems, there you are, looking over your final destination. The Elder Brain hiding somewhere where your eyes cannot reach, yet. The thought of all of this being over still cannot get to you, you don’t quite believe you’re so near to getting rid of the growing tadpole in your brain. Another wash of wind hits your body, this time even colder. Shivers go down your spine, as you wrap your arms around to try and keep at least some warmth.

Suddenly you feel a hand on your lower back.

There he is.

“Are you alright, darling?” Astarion asks with worry in his eyes.

“Yeah, I’m fine, just a little cold.” You reply.

“Well then, good that the finest and hottest vampire walking on this planet just came to your side. Isn’t it?” He smirks, stepping closer to you.

You giggle lightly.

“Subtle and humble. Just like always.” You smile. “But yes, I do appreciate your glorious presence, my love.”

You wrap your arms around his waist, laying your head on his chest. Closing your eyes, you feel his arms embracing you.

“I’ve needed this.” You admitted.

“I know darling. That’s why I came. I felt something was wrong. Do you wish to talk about it?” He asks softly.

“I just cannot comprehend that all of this is going to be over soon. I know the tadpoles aren’t any good, but I cannot quite imagine what life is going to be after we get rid of it. I just can’t handle the thought of travelling without you or the rest, it breaks my heart…”

“I do understand your worries, love. But no one ever said we cannot travel with each other after all this is over. Darling, believe me when I say, I’m not leaving your side at any given moment. You’re not getting rid of me, doll.” His gaze piercing through you.

You get chills from those words. He notices that and smirks again. You feel his hands sliding down your back, stopping at your bum. He looks deeply into your eyes, while giving it a slight squeeze.

A whimper escapes your lips.You quickly hide your face in his chest.

He laughs.

“That was adorable, darling.” He grabs your chin, guiding your gaze onto him. “You truly make me feel things I’ve never thought in 200 years, I would be able to feel. I fear you’re a good influence on me.” He grins.

“And what is that, I’m making you feel Astarion?”

He caresses your cheek.

“Happiness, safety, appreciation and I think…” He stops, a bit unsure about what words are about to come out of his lips. “I think, love.”

Your pupils widen.

“Love? Really? Are you sure?” You can’t quite believe he said that word.

“Listen, darling. I’ve already told you, you’ve ruined my entire plan. I wanted to seduce you, have sex and move on, but from that moment on, you’ve been nothing less but the kindest and most loving person ever, and my plan failed. How could I not fall for you? Impossible.” He exclaims. “I’ve been thinking about this for quite a long time… And yes, I’m sure. Without joking or lying now. All seriousness doll… I love you.”

You feel like the world around you just stopped. You look at Astarion in awe, tears falling down your cheeks. He really said it, and he really sounded sincere, true, honest.

“Oh no… You’re crying? I shouldn’t have said that, should I? Did I hurt you?” He worries.

“No, Astarion… These are tears of happiness, ‘cause you sounded real when you said that. Like you really meant it. And you can’t imagine how much I’m gonna cherish the moment of you saying it. Never believed I’d hear it.” You smile through tears. “I love you too, Astarion. I truly do.”

You pull him into a kiss. Wrapping your arms around his neck tightly, so he can be as close to you as possible.

The kiss is passionate, filled with lust and a hint of longing.

“You’re immaculate, love, such perfection.” He gasps.

You try to guide him down to your neck. He resists.

“Not now darling… Find me after everyone’s asleep, same place. Like always. ‘Cause you will, won’t you?” He pulls you by the collar. You nod. “Good doll.”

—

You wander into the forest, trying to remember the exact route to your place. However, Astarion decided to find you first by suddenly grabbing you from the back.

“By the Hells! You want me to die?” You exclaim. Your heart rushing from the sudden “surprise” of your lover.

He laughs loudly.

“You should’ve seen your face! Oh my, my stomach is starting to hurt.” A wide smile on his gorgeous face.

You can’t resist and smile with him.

“Excuse me, darling. But that was hilarious. Truly.” His mood quickly changes. “But we haven’t come here for laughs, have we, love?”

You smirk at him.

You start to unbutton your shirt while stepping back.

“Catch me if you can, spawn.” You giggle and throw your shirt at his face.

You run in a random direction, making your lover catch you.

“Oh you’ve made a mistake now, love…” He whispers as he runs after you.

It’s like a predator hunting its prey.

You swiftly look back, and you stop abruptly, looking in every direction, as Astarion is nowhere to be seen.

“Shit.” You exhale.

“Got caught, doll.” He whispers in your ear, his hands sliding onto your breasts. “Never run away from me again, understood?”

You nod, feeling your heart in your throat.

His fingertips going in circles on your nipples, driving you crazy. The heat between your legs getting more intense by the moment.

You moan.

“I know you love my touch darling. Make all of Baldur’s Gate hear you.” He says as his hand slides down into your pants. “Don’t hold it in, no need to.”

You never even wanted to hold it in, as the pleasure from his hands working magic on your clit, make you almost scream his name out.

But he stops.

You turn to face him. He’s all naked, his body glimmering in the moonlight, as it was carved by the gods themselves.

He looks you up and down, stopping at the last piece of clothing remaining on you. You get the message and quickly get rid of it.

He steps forward.

He kisses you gently, biting on your lip.

“I wanna taste you so badly, love…” He whispers.

“Do it, Astarion. I’m all yours and only yours.”

You feel a sudden wave of stinging pain on your neck.

He drinks you, as if you were the finest wine, tasting each droplet of your blood.

Your neck is starting to go numb. You grab onto his back, digging your nails in from the, not so pleasant, sensation.

He pulls away, licking off your blood from his lips.

“You’re a gift that keeps on giving. I want you to know that I do not take your gifts for granted. I cherish them all, my love.”

He swiftly picks you up and leans against a tree, to get stability.

“Now I will return the pleasure you just gave me.” He says as he sticks his dick into you.

You moan.

You take it in inch by inch.

Your hips collide as you take Astarion fully.

“Good gods, doll… You’re amazing.” He moans.

He isn’t wasting any of your precious time and starts thrusting back and forth at a quick pace.

Both of you calling out each other’s names in ecstasy. Both in complete bliss.

You feel a familiar shiver at the top of your spine, climax slowly caving in.

“Astarion…” You whimper. “I love you.”

You feel your orgasm washing over you.

“Doll…” His thrusts getting sloppy. “I love agh-” You feel him finishing inside. His body leaning onto yours. “You too…” He whispers out.

You embrace each other, enjoying the mutual moment of euphoria.

“Shall we lay down for a minute?” You suggest.

Astarion nods. He pulls out of you and sets you lightly on the ground.

You both lay down onto the grass. You swiftly lay your head onto your lover’s chest and he wraps his arm around you.

For a moment, you both stay silent, taking the moment in.

“Are you alright my love?” He looks down on you.

“I couldn’t be more alright in my life.”

You lean in to kiss his soft lips, enjoying each other’s presence, trying not to think about the things coming the next day.

[cheekylittlepupp]

Whoever was responsible for the kiss scene at Larian...

the way his hand slowly moves up....

[jills-valentine]

I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT V PUTTING UP JOHNNY'S HAIR IN PIGTAILS AT THE TOP OF HIS HEAD

i will cry please..

[boredth]

Hey

[boredth]

We’ll figure something out.

[riverpheonixs]

“Not if I see you first”

Stand by Me (1986) / John Wick: Chapter 2 (2017)

[holdtightposts]

You don’t say?

[lezevil]

[txrgaryenss]