Let me preface this by saying I’m not glamorizing anything but self love. So it’s been a year since one of the worst feelings I have ever felt. 2018 was a tough year and I had so much riding on it not being that way. I lost my grandmother, and then in turn I let down a lot of friends and then myself and my family. This time last October I started planning my suicide. Ironically I also started planning a show with two fantastic artists that I let down. I couldn’t bring myself to paint much less showcase adjacent to others. My show in January will be a slight homage to those I let down. Back to the crux of the story. I was planning on ending everything in November 2018. I picked the building I would jump from, and through work I had access to the roof anytime I needed it. I was in the midst of picking the day when I realized that this wasn’t right. I promised I would never think those thoughts. I always held those who did succumb to those urges cowards. It can happen to anyone. Those closest to me didn’t even know until I finally asked for help and decided to see a psychiatrist about my thoughts. I was days away and I got help because I asked. 2019 has been a hell of a year and I am supremely grateful for the opportunities I had been given. I showed a lot of work, sold pieces to people who cherish them, and set up a new show for 2020. All because I said something. Love yourself even if you feel you can’t anymore. You are powerful and can overcome any obstacles. 2019 Purkey is here because he got help. Bring on 2020. . . . . . . . . . . #positivevibes #selfcare #endthestigmaofmentalhealth #anxiety #mentalhealthsupport #mentalhealthadvocate #mentalhealthisimportant #depressionsupport #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthrecovery #selfcarethreads #suicideprevention #selflove #endthestigma #anxietyrelief #quotes #mentalhealth #mentalhealthblogger #mentalillness #mentalhealthawareness #endthestigmaofmentalillness #threads #selfcaretips #depression #inspiration #loveyourselffirst (at Owings Mills, Maryland) https://www.instagram.com/p/B4LJ7PFnplk/?igshid=13a4sbd6mg2aa











