[jirainene]

“is this a good feeling? or is it no good after all?”

mentally ill nene fictionkin. you can call me nene or melody ♪ she/it.

i'll probably mainly post vents here. i also may rb fashion here, but i'm more into yami kawaii than dark girly,, forgive me for being a fake jirai i still blow up like a landmine /silly

i have adhd and autism (diagnosed) and suspect that i have bpd and npd. basically i act like a crazy person because i am, in fact, a crazy person. im also a minor.

im also lowkey a catkin but thats more to cope than anything. also im a non-sharing yumejoshi but i wont say of who unless you ask privately ill just block you sorry

[jirainene]

if you missed me oh so much while i was gone (unlikely) and would like to follow me on to my next life (blog) here it is -> @nyanene

i made a new blog because being on jiraiblr was slowly (well, maybe quickly) killing me and i legit could not take my whole dash being full of vents it was making my mental health so bad. sorry! if youre prjr and you follow new blog ill follow you again (probably)

[jirainene]

if you missed me oh so much while i was gone (unlikely) and would like to follow me on to my next life (blog) here it is -> @nyanene

i made a new blog because being on jiraiblr was slowly (well, maybe quickly) killing me and i legit could not take my whole dash being full of vents it was making my mental health so bad. sorry! if youre prjr and you follow new blog ill follow you again (probably)

[jirainene]

if you missed me oh so much while i was gone (unlikely) and would like to follow me on to my next life (blog) here it is -> @nyanene

i made a new blog because being on jiraiblr was slowly (well, maybe quickly) killing me and i legit could not take my whole dash being full of vents it was making my mental health so bad. sorry! if youre prjr and you follow new blog ill follow you again (probably)

[jirainene]

if you missed me oh so much while i was gone (unlikely) and would like to follow me on to my next life (blog) here it is -> @nyanene

i made a new blog because being on jiraiblr was slowly (well, maybe quickly) killing me and i legit could not take my whole dash being full of vents it was making my mental health so bad. sorry! if youre prjr and you follow new blog ill follow you again (probably)

[jirainene]

im arospec in the way that i dont really have romantic attraction — just attachment to people based on their own attachment to me — but im desperate enough for deep connection that i'd probably date whoever asked me as long as theyre not a guy (<- lesbian) and give me lots of attention

[jirainene]

sorry for password locking and trying to leave. i feel like shit again so im back despite my personal reasons for leaving in the first place. will either password lock again in the morning if i feel better or i'll feel bad still and maybe be back. it depends on my mood

[jirainene]

rsd goes crazy one message has me feeling lowkey suicidal

[jirainene]

im fucked up and evil and the worst thing on this planet im sorry

[jirainene]

turn reblogs back on for that post, COWARD

i wont do it just because you were rude to me. smh smh

i turned them off because the post wasn't meant to breach containment anyways and mdni blogs were interacting with it (i am very much a minor) so

[jirainene]

venting is only annoying when i do it btw. everybody else is innocent and free of sin

[jirainene]

can i make you a playlist:3

yea go ahead!! ^.^

[jirainene]

i have 33 tags blocked all for the same exact subject guys please get universal tags i am TIRED

[jirainene]

two different AP teachers have sent me messages (by way of email and giving my teacher a note to give to me) telling me to pretty please take their classes because i had high psat scores. just wait until they find out im lazy and only do work if im in class. i legit never study or do my hw

[jirainene]

last post before bed i hate it when my brain makes me hate someone who is all things considered at least alright because i just turn fucking evil. ill see them post like "oh i should just deactivate" and im like Yea you should lol. but i dont REALLY mean it because i know that they dont deserve to be upset and people i know dont deserve to be upset by their absence

this is all /nbh btw i just had to get it out

[jirainene]

this crash is only slightly less bad than when i was convinced my friend was mispronouncing a character's name and then we looked it up and they were right and i had a whole breakdown about it

[jirainene]

i hate being helped in fields i am more of the expert in by someone who usually comes to ME for advice. shut up you dont know anything. go my scarab