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OLIVIA RODRIGO drop dead (2026)

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peak girlhood

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BUT KISS ME AND I MIGHT DROP DEAD!

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and i feel like i might throw up—left hook, right punch to the gut—you’re so, so pretty, boy, i’m paranoid i made you up

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ONE NIGHT I WAS BORED IN BED AND STALKED YOU ON THE INTERNET IT'S FEMININE INTUITION CAUSE I ALWAYS HAD A VISION OF US STANDING LIKE THIS ALL PRESSED UP IN THE BATHROOM LINE YOU LOOKING LIKE AN ANGEL ON THE WALLS OF VERSAILLES THE MOST ALIVE I'VE EVER BEEN BUT KISS ME AND I MIGHT DROP DEAD

Olivia Rodrigo's "Drop Dead"

has sparked creativity in me again. The visual concept and theme are magnificent.

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i think very highly of myself; not out of ego, but because of growth. i know exactly what it took for me to become me.

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you will not feel stuck forever. you’re actually slowly but steadily moving forward in ways you don’t always notice.

Pondering of the depths

So there I was listening to "Oceans (slowed+reverb)" and was in my feels near tears about the famous bridge

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders Let me walk upon the waters Wherever You would call me Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander And my faith will be made stronger In the presence of my Saviour

This didn't hit me in a surface level religious way between the Divine and self. But it hit me that here I am, sad on this earth for desiring a love that transcends the 3D. I guess , in a gnostic way, I want someone to love me so deeply that they must go to the depths of hell to name their demons, so I may learn to study them as well, and love their shadow self as much as their light. And in that process, may they meet the Divine light we all possess (the God within us), and the purest of unconditional love... and that's where they'll find me. That's how far I want someone to go to find me and love me. I've seen more religious versions of what I'm saying such as "you have to seek God in order to love me". And while I have struggled with this becuase my brain was visualizing a person who actively goes to church, follows the Bible, etc...

Today it hit me differently. Because I would love to find the ones who see my soul, surrender to me, I surrender to them.. but they are willing to look within to find their own Divine light and their demons.. learn to name them.. tell me about them.. let me love them too. Will you love my own? Will you confront the ways you aren't meeting your highest self and actively work on being the best version of yourself? Will you let that be the domino effect to your highest good?

#deep thoughts #soul connection #love letters

This hit me like a bag of bricks

You’re not asking: “How do I get what I want?” You’re asking:

What psychological position do I need to step into do to make this outcome inevitable?

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Mary Oliver, from "Mindful" in Devotions

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#love letters #deep thoughts

Ariana Grande - "POV"

I was talking to my Mali J about how part of my journey of neuroplasticitiy, was creating playlists that solely made me feel empowered, like a lovergirl, etc. "POV" has been in heavy rotation lately because it's such a lover girl song before that became a trendy word in recent years. But the first and most important love is the relationship we have with ourselves. As I work on my intuition, I can feel certain songs were just made with LOVE, about LOVE. And this song is definitely one of them. I resonate with not just wanting to everything that makes me beautiful to be loved. For my soul to be loved and seen from the outside.. But my soul craves for everything that makes me ugly to be just as loved just as gently, and as passionately.

who am I when I'm not preforming. The version of me that is constantly tired because she shows up hard in her public life, that she crashes when finally in the comfort of her own walls.

the internalized emotions I struggle to express until it's too late

how I sound when I'm stuttering because I can't turn thoughts into a sentence

who understands and loves the silence and solitude I crave because I'm in deep thought

I realize that I have come far with loving my shadow side just as deeply as my shining light.

I've met myself in the depths of my own hell to learn the names of my demons. And in that process, my arms stretched closer to the heavens. What did Carl Jung say?

“No tree, it is said, can grow to heaven unless its roots reach down to hell.”

#love letters #deep thoughts

Selfies to log my cortisol levels, inflammation, and moon face.

There’s been a lot of work on nervous system deregulation and part of that journey has been to learn to stop overworking myself in various environments! And also taking a look at my lifestyle / diet to ensure I’m eliminating foods that flare up inflammation.

#chamorro #self improvement #chronic illness #hormonalhealth