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i will never understand why you felt the need to bleed for everyone else, but i will never stop being grateful that you did. i only ask that next time you decide to lay yourself down for anyone else, you give me warning

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partyboybilius​:

Bilius laughed when Jasper groaned. Imagine how he felt. “Nah, don’t worry mate. I could deal with those alone. I just needed your help with all the big stuff and we managed to transport all of them. It’s just the little things remaining.” Not to mention the stuff that he had already given away. Bilius was incredibly grateful for Jasper’s help and he didn’t want to abuse his generosity at all. “I definitely owe you a favor.”

“Oh Merlin, I don’t even know. I try not to ask customers things that I don’t want to know. Even if I’m near enough to eavesdrop, usually I just block it out. Is that just me?” You wouldn’t want your client to suspect that you were eavesdropping now, would you? “Really now?” Hearing that Jasper didn’t really have crazy stories to tell surprised him. “Maybe I was just unlucky that day…” Bilius did have the worst of luck. He tried having his tea leaves read once by someone who was supposedly talented in divination, thinking that it was just all for fun. What he got instead were warnings about ill fates and a black dog. He laughed at it then but now? Maybe Bilius’ life was cursed.

“i’m glad we got all the major stuff, then.  at least you can apparate a few bags and boxes at a time.”  his head lolled over to the side, giving a shit-eating grin to bilius.  “totally safe to do that several times in a day, right?  can’t see how it could possibly go wrong.”  for a moment, his mind went back to apparition lessons in hogwarts.  how much could you take with you?  as much as you could carry?  or was there a weight limit.  “ah, don’t worry about it.  i’m sure it’ll all even out someday, if it hasn’t already.”

jasper considered what bilius had to say.  he didn’t know if it was just him, but it certainly wasn’t jasper.  while he never really planned to obtain information, he definitely didn’t shy away from it when he heard it.  maybe he was nosy.  maybe it was a defense mechanism.  he tried not to think on it too much.  “good on you.  i tend to ask too many questions and get myself in trouble.  i just like to know the customer, is all.”  that was certainly one way of putting it.  “i try not to spend too much time in the crowds if i’m not performing.”  jasper’s gaze fell to his glass on the table.  “you know, it‘s weird, sometimes.  seeing people i used to know.  hell, it’s probably weirder for them, but still.”

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diisgustednoiise​:

rabastan allowed a sigh of relief to escape from his lips, as he quickly scrambled to his feet, tightly gripping the bar in order to avoid falling flat on his face. “thank you,” he croaked, gently chewing on the inside of his lip as he followed his friend outside. when he had mentioned somewhere more private, he had anticipated going to a back room or an unoccupied suite, not the alley. but, seeing has he was the one who begged jasper to talk to him, he figured he didn’t have much room to argue. he only hoped no one would stumble across them. caught off guard by the other’s actions, rabastan allowed a nervous laugh to escape from his lips as he slowly raised in hands in the air. “can you back up?” he asked, his voice cracking as he slowly lowered his arms, his shoulders immediately slumping forward. “how did you do it?” he asked, softly, his words barely above a whisper as his gaze fell to the ground in front of him. then, taking a deep breath, he slowly lifted his gaze to meet the other’s eyes. “how did you leave it all behind?” he asked again, pausing briefly, realizing it sounded as if he were asking jasper his mental state, not how he’d actually done it. “like, what steps did you take?” he finally added, allowing another sigh to escape his lips as he maintained eye contact with his friend.

the way rabastan had been holding onto the bar, and then jasper, for dear life had not gone past the cauldron employee in his grasp.  “you’re a fucking mess,”  he mumbled, giving rab a once-over.  a shitshow was more like it, but jasper was willing to be a little diplomatic.  which was more than the schmuck before him deserved.  he took a single step back, still crowding the other closely enough that he could swing — or grab him if he started to go down, which looked a little more likely at this point.  the last thing he wanted was to clean up blood, anyway.  “fine.”  jasper stared for a moment when rabastan finally spit it out.  and then he furrowed his eyebrows.  which turned into a laugh.  “you’re fucking kidding, right?”  then again, swinging seemed a lot more tempting now.  jasper shook his head, unable to process what the idiot in front of him was asking.  “you’ve got some fucking nerve, lestrange.  some fucking audacity.”  he paced back and forth a couple steps, returning to face rabastan head on, finger back on his chest.  “maybe if you hadn’t left me in the dust, you could’ve seen how i did it.”  and then jasper stepped back again.  “get fucked,”  he said, turning to go.

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bvllatrix​:

“Wow, Jasper! That is quite commendable, for the likes of you,” said Bellatrix, her voice dripping in feigned enthusiasm. She let her gaze linger on him, longer than was most likely comfortable. Bellatrix didn’t feel uncomfortable in social situations, though, had been raised to be polite, to handle anything that was thrown at her. These days, she mostly did the throwing, though. “Your parents must be so proud.” She then paused, her expression turning rather sullen. “Oh. My bad. I could tell them, next time I see them, about your great career?”

he didn’t respond, initially, opting instead to simply take a long drag of the cigarette.  he knew more was coming, he wasn’t going to waste his breath until she’d gotten where she intended to go.  she wouldn’t be the first uptight pureblood socialite to make comments about his status, and she wouldn’t be the last.  if nothing else, at least her insults were creative.  it kept things interesting.  “oh, that hardly seems necessary.”  jasper didn’t fear his parents finding out because they already knew.  if not the specifics, they at least knew he was making a living for himself.  it had been years since they’d spoken, but that was part of their arrangement.  they needn’t be involved in his life, and likewise with theirs.  all parties would keep quiet to avoid scandal.  it suited him just fine.  the only sign that was even slightly ruffled by her statement was the setting of his jaw.  “i doubt they’ll care, really.  but i appreciate your concern, ms. lestrange.”

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ambrxsse​:

where: a fancy restaurant who: Ambrose Kennedy and Jasper Montague ( @jmontague​ )

After Jasper so graciously toured him around Diagon Alley, Ambrose just knew that he needed to see the other man again. Luckily, he already knew where the other man worked. Ambrose mentally scheduled another visit to the Leaky Cauldron a week after their chance meeting. He didn’t want it to be too soon. That just might send Jasper the wrong type of message. Besides, he didn’t want to seem like a desperate old man.

It turned out that Jasper surprised him a second time. Ambrose bumped into him while he was working but this time, they weren’t at The Leaky Cauldron. They were at Merlin Rogue where Jasper was showing off his body to anyone in the club with eyes and Ambrose was sitting in his booth, utterly captivated by the other man’s performance. When Ambrose gave his tip, he made sure that he gave a large sum - a shame that most Brits don’t tip really - and that Jasper saw him do it.

Since then on, he just knew he had to have Jasper. For that man, he was willing to be patient. So the next day, he asked him for dinner. Just so they could talk. The older wizard made sure that Jasper understood that he wasn’t going to ask anything for return. At least not yet. One dinner turned into two until finally, Ambrose was taking him to fancy restaurants for dinner after every week.

That night, they were both at a restaurant which Ambrose has never been in before.“You can order whatever you want,” he encouraged him, even if by then, Jasper should already know that Ambrose would be willing to buy anything he chose from the menu. “Tell me about your week,” he said. “I’d love to know how you are.”

he was still trying to figure out what to make of ambrose kennedy.  the man was incredibly handsome, there was no denying that.  and he had a maturity about him that was rare amongst the men jasper usually found himself with.  not that he was old, not at all, just a little more experienced and worldly than the blokes he served at the leaky cauldron or the gentlemen who he entertained at the club.  

and this was taking some getting used to.  before ambrose started wining and dining him, jasper hadn’t been anywhere fancy like this since he was a teenager, still living with his parents and under their thumbs.  he’d nearly been out of high society for as long as he’d been a part of it.  it’d only be a couple more years before that was the case.  merlin.  recognizing the sound of the other’s voice, he glanced up from the menu.  “you know, you don’t have to do this.”  the same dance.  jasper insisted that ambrose not pay for him, even though he knew the man would regardless.  it was the polite thing to do, right?  “oh, my week hasn’t been too interesting.  the same as every week, really.”  every week was different, but in the same way, every week was the same.  new faces in and out of both jobs, slinging drinks and showing off his body to a hundred faceless patrons.  “it all runs together.  what about you?”

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partyboybilius​:

“This isn’t even everything…” Bilius lamented. Moving from a flat that was meant for two people to one that was significantly smaller, he had to give up a couple of things from his flat with Ethan. It was hard for Bilius to sell, but it was a lot harder for him to stay in a place that was just too big for him to live in alone. “Thanks again, mate. It would have taken me ages if I had to do this alone.”

“Yeah… Well… I had to stop right away. Because, you know, they were fighting. Emma hasn’t seen them just yet so I had to step in and see what I could do. I said ‘All right lads, let’s calm down’ but of course, I get ignored. A punch gets thrown. Someone hits the ground. I get out of there stat. At first I thought, someone felt a little jealous. Turns out, it was something else entirely Pretty sure both of them were into something seedy.” Bilius reached for the other cold glass of juice and immediately downed it until it was empty. 

“Anyway, you should have been there mate. Although something tells me you’ve seen crazier things.” Despite being younger, Jasper has been in Merlin Rogue longer.Bilius had no doubt that the younger male has his fair share of stories to tell.

jasper groaned at that.  bilius hadn’t asked yet for help with the rest — he didn’t even know if he would — but of course, he planned to help his coworker.  friend, perhaps, was a better word?  he supposed you could only hang out so many times outside of work before you crossed over into friend territory.  “of course.  i do not envy you, either.”  at least he wouldn’t have to help unpack.

he nodded while bilius spoke, shutting his eyes just to rest for a second but still listening to the story.  of course, they’d both seen plenty of wild shit in their time at the club.  but contrary to popular belief, those events were few and far between.  “no shit.  what kinda shady business do you think they were getting into?”  it was no shock that merlin rouge would be a place for those sort of dealings, but it was still a little surprising to actually hear it.  “honestly, i think i’m usually onstage whenever stuff goes down.  or backstage.  i guess i’m lucky i’ve never been in the thick of it.”

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dolohovant​:

“I know,” he said confidently. If the other was going to admit it, he wouldn’t deny it either. “Have you ever gotten so wasted on the job you couldn’t continue?” he asked. He was genuinely curious. He laughed at the man’s attempt at Russian. “Needs some work,” he critiqued. “Children turn into sad, old drunks,” he commented. The argument wasn’t sound at all, but maybe that wasn’t what he was looking for. Sometimes all he needed was to get another word in. “Something like that,” he said. “Though I wouldn’t think too far into it considering we both just took two shots of vodka together.” He grinned. “Wouldn’t want to get the wrong idea.”

“no, because i’m a professional, for one.”  jasper crossed his arms, almost indignant.  almost, because he was still smirking at dolohov.  “and second, i’m not a pansy, and i can hold my liquor.”  he simply waved off the other’s absolutely correct insult about his russian.  worth a shot.  “not all children turn into sad, old drunks.  but all sad, old drunks started off as children.  there’s a metaphor somewhere in there.”  he allowed himself to get lost in thought for a second until antonin spoke up again.  “why not?”  his eyes flicked down to the man’s lips as he spoke.  “i don’t know what wrong idea you could possibly be talking about.”

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miastravers​:

“A fair point,” she mused, tapping a finger to her chin.  “it’d be sort of an anti-hero moment, wouldn’t it?  Coffee might make up for it, very true.  Or something stronger.  If you’re offering I’m not going to say no.”  She stood up slowly, brushing off her slacks.  Maybe sitting on the ground in light color slacks was a bad idea, but it had been a nice spot for awhile.  

She couldn’t stop herself from snorting when he said what was on the inside was even more impressive.  She doubted it.  “And you’re so humble,” she praised.  “Maybe I should buy you a drink instead.”  She paused.  “Either way, we’ve said the word drink enough times in this sentence that I now require one, whether we’re doing a bit or not.  Come on.”

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“i’m no literary expert, but i’m not entirely sure that refusing a civilian’s offer to thank you for your service is exactly an anti-hero moment.  it just kinda feels like a jerk move, to be honest.”  he gave her a smirk as she relented.  he nearly offered to buy her lunch at the cauldron, before he remembered that he was free for the next couple days.  what a beautiful reminder.  “i’m glad you gave in to my charm.  how about we buy each other a drink?  fair is fair.  we both get to drink and we ruin society’s expectations of us.  it’s perfect.”  with a jerk of the head for direction, jasper started leading her to a pub that didn’t have leaky or cauldron in the name.  “sounds good to me.”

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freyasavery​:

She was bored.

Work used to give her a sort of thrill.  It felt so bad to steal memories – despite the fact that it was government sanctioned badness.  But what used to be thrilling had become monotonous.  And what had once been exciting was now something she felt the need to escape from.

And so, she took a personal day, hoping a day away from the office was exactly what she needed.

She hovered around the edges of Diagon Alley – tucked away in the shadows and unbothered by whether she ran into a muggle or a witch or wizard.  She stood in the alleyway, clutching one of Princess’s collars in her right hand, just waiting for someone to get close enough.

When she finally felt another’s presence she turned, forcing her eyes to well up with tears.  “Excuse me,” she didn’t look up, playing at distraught pet owner.  Her cat was safe at home, but no one else needed to know that.  “I’m sorry, but if it isn’t too much trouble do you think you could help me look for my cat?”

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jasper was on his way back from a lunch delivery — madam malkin’s, a turkey club every thursday, like clockwork, and the only thing that would change was the compliment she would give his appearance each week  — when he heard a voice.  if he didn’t know any better, it almost sounded like a little girl, but he knew the kids were finally back in hogwarts.  so he was surprised when the girl turned out to be freya avery.  someone he knew from hogwarts, but had managed to avoid her outside of passing interactions since then.  until now.  whoops.  “uh.”  jasper glanced at the leaky cauldron, but he knew it wasn’t as busy now that summer was over.  tom would probably be more disappointed for not helping someone, right?  “yeah, sure.  where’d you lose . . . her?”  he asked, glancing down at the rather girly collar in her hand.

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your opinion on rude customers + 20

"personally, they can get fucked.  professionally, i don’t particularly care as long as they still tip.  but come on.  don’t be a prick.”

20. Name someone who’s failed you. What did they do wrong? How do you feel about them now?

"do my parents count?  they definitely count.  they spent the first eleven years of my life telling me that i was the best at everything, i could do no wrong, and were then absolutely shocked when i got to hogwarts and found out that wasn’t the case.  i could do nothing right in their eyes, at that point.  then they tried to sign me up for a war i couldn’t give two shits about.  i wish i could say i don’t feel any particular way about them, but that’d be a lie.  a part of me still wants their approval, but i know i’ll never get it.  not without doing something i’d regret.”

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your opinion regarding having sex for pay

“i’ve never been one to propose it, but if it’s offered, i consider it.  i’ve only done it once or twice, though.  shitting where you eat, and all that.  usually, i just let them take me back to their place after my shift.  feels less like i’m doing something wrong that way, anyway.”

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13. Name a time you failed something and disappointed many people and/or embarrassed yourself.

“hm, let’s see.  this could be a long list.  when i got to hogwarts and found out i wasn’t very skilled with magic, when i barely scraped by on my owls, when my parents expected me to become a death eater, when i blundered my big quidditch match . . . need i go on?”

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Your opinion on Noah’s arms

“i’m sure they’re fine.  they seem big.  i think noah stays in shape, he seems like a fairly muscular man.”

“i want him to choke me out.”

mentioned: @noah-ollxvander

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What’s personality trait you hate in one of your close friends.

“emma’s really pessimistic.  i mean, i get it, but.  live a little.”

Talk about one of your worst memories involving someone you hate.

“when rabastan and i were screwing around — you know, as horny teens will do — we were in the lestrange manor and rodolphus walked in on us.  mortifying, terrifying, humiliating, my life flashed before my eyes.  he was shockingly okay with it.  they can both choke now, though.”

What’s one of your most prized possessions that got destroyed or taken away?

“i managed to get pretty much all of my stuff into my trunk before i ran away from home, so i don’t know if any of my prized possessions didn’t make it.  i guess i kinda miss my siblings, though?  sometimes, every once in a while.”

mentioned: @diisgustednoiise, @rodolphos, @elvanity

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15. What’s one of your worst childhood memories?

“uh, probably at the beginning of hogwarts.  my parents always told me i could do anything, i thought i was super talented, but i kinda sucked at magic.  that was really hard.  i thought there was something wrong with me for a long time.”