[joallana]

Why did you have to pry?

#notfair

[joallana]

You seem busy all the time.

"Hey, haven't heard from you in a while. Sorry I got worked up in, well work. How're you though?" I texted some guy I was actually interested in. Then he tells me "you're a pretty cool girl but you seem like you're busy all the time and honestly I'm not a huge fan of texting back and forth. And realistically you stopped texting me too." I just gave up and said you're right. I am busy. I was so willing to open myself to dating and meeting new guys, what's the point? It's true. I am busy. I work two jobs that require most of my time. Why did I think I was ready and had time to explore my options. No ones gonna want to put in time and effort if I can't give them either in return. Maybe I should draw back my inquisition and return to the natural state of lonesomeness.

[joallana]

I just deleted 99% of my tumblr. So much stupid shit on it. Not like its gonna be different. Idk why I still have this.

I found a post dated in November 2010 that said "Reblog if you don't smoke." HA. 

[joallana]

Let us step into the night and pursue that flighty temptress, adventure.

[joallana]

I'm bored of your love, I'm bored of your face, I'm bored of your random all over the place attitude, I'm bored of you. #irrelevant or #subliminal

[joallana]

The last red envelope my gramma ever gave me. Happy Chinese New Years! 🐍🎉🎏🎊 #rip 👵❤

[joallana]

First week of school was chaotic. Hence, the melancholiness. 😶 #collegemakesmebroke #imnevergonnagetusedtothis

[staypozitive]

[joallana]

Cant see the rest of the shirt, but I made this. :)

Wet and wild Matte Lipstick.

Earrings and glasses are a thrift store find. 

[thecrazyfilipinaaa]

[joallana]

That awkward moment when the last person you'd hear from practically calls you that night.

I was in the car, listening to music then the next thing you hear, my phone rings. "I know, so random, but someone walks to talk to you" O.o; I didnt know how to prepare myself within those couple seconds I had left. It was kinda stupid. But idk. He was drunk off his ass so he'd talk about whatevs. Two things came to mind after I just hung up. One, Im actually on his mind. Somewhere in there Im in it. Lol. Or two, he was drunk and he somehoe thought of me and his friends made the call and pressured him to talk to me. I like number two better. I told them to call back but they never did. Thats good. I suppose. ahaha.

[noteverythingiswhatitseems-]

I hate that feeling when you randomly feel depressed. There is no warning, no apparent reason. It just happens. You feel empty, and you feel hopeless. And you just feel tired. As if you never want to move again. Then when someone asks you what's wrong, you can't say because there is nothing that comes to mind. Then you start thinking of what it could be, and you realize just how much is wrong. You know that feeling? Yeah, it sucks.

[artpixie]

[joallana]

This was exactly how I felt. I felt like I was in a one way relationship the love wasnt returned back to me. Like he just dissapeared from my grasp. I didnt know what and how it happened, but it happened. Now hes coming back on Monday fron deployment and Im scared whats going to happen. In all honestly, my feelings for him have changed. But who knows where this road will take me.