Although I realize even starting a sentence with "as clique as it sounds" is a clique in itself, I still must do so. I've been understanding and experimenting with my "sexuality" so much in the last year. Which is almost funny to say as a woman who predominantly dates other women. As if I've already "experimented" from the norm of heterosexual sexuality. But honestly, I feel equally as judged to come out as anything other than a lesbian now than I did coming out as a lesbian at 19. It's an odd conjunction of judgement that continues to construe my true understanding of self. I suppose it may be a never ending journey, but I have decided as of late that I cannot be gay. Or lesbian. Or whatever the term may be. I enjoy having sex with men, and women. I'm not gay, I'm not a lesbian, I'm not straight. Does it honestly matter who I am? Will anyone read this and care of a mundane attempt of self-identity? I doubt it. All I can say today is, I'm changing. I feel like I am always changing, and am getting the chance to embrace change more. I love questioning knowledge and creating a broader understanding.
