the mind of

almost as easy as 1 2 3.

[joburt]

I’d never thought I’d be the one to call

I’ve always had my way of holding back, yes

I’ve always had my way of turning off

I never thought my heart could be so reckless

Nothing here but ego

After this message, where do we go?

If only I could switch and turn it off

But I can’t find a way to make it slow down

You look at me and I can’t take it

Slow down

Your walls are proving hard to break in and out

I can’t tell if you’re in or out

Wish you would think out loud

I don’t know what’s allowed

Say can you feel me now

I can’t wait around, baby, not me

Better tell me now if you want me

Better tell me now if you want me

Tired of feeling down got my own needs

Own needs

I’d rather have us but I’d choose me

You been on my mind, can’t get no sleep

Running out of time

Baby, call me

[joburt]

[joburt]

I've felt alone, I am my own company, I've felt boring, I am amazing. I've felt pain, I am love. I've been lost, I have a purpose. I've felt worthless, I am worthy. I've been frustrated, I have focus. All that is uncomfortable all has a solution to absolute answers. Don't go backwards

[quotemadness]

“Surround yourself with people who see your value, and remind you of it.”

— Unknown

[liberatingreality]

“Why settle to exist as anything less than an absolute force of nature?”

— Paul John Moscatello

[aspiritualwarrior]

“Patience is not sitting and waiting, it is foreseeing. It is looking at the thorn and seeing the rose, looking at the night and seeing the day. Lovers are patient and know that the moon needs time to become full.”

— Shams Tabrizi

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“Don’t let your loyalty become slavery. If they don’t appreciate what you bring to the table, let them eat alone.”

— Unknown

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“How do you know someone is for you? They bring a peace you haven’t found anywhere. They support your efforts. They water your growth.”

— Malaride Jean-claude

[joburt]

I think I have a problem being too committed to someone while it hurts.

[joburt]

You and I are catastrophic

Your love cost me my sanity

I hate seeing you cry and knowing it's my fault.

I hate that I act like I don't care about you.

I know there's a lot to work through.

I question what would it take?

How much hurt must I endure?

Your love isn't something I can enjoy.

It's your world. It wasn't ours to begin

Your ego is easily bruised by my truth.

Then I get the beating.

I'm not here to be nice when you want it.

I'm here to be me.

It's nice to turn to a wishful world but I must stay true.

I've been so lost in your world and I fight to have mine too. Why isn't there coexisting.

I can't be here.

Through our bond we've swapped places.

I was feeling love from the world from the start

While you were down.

Your darkness brought me down

My light brought you up.

and you're feeling love from the world.

I've expended my light for someone who can't return it back.

I have to rebuild myself. So much suffering.

My heart can take so much damage, but I'm at the brink of leaving knowing I can't be there for someone all the time who doesn't even think twice about my efforts and compulsively think it's ok with me. I can leave or I can live in my head. I've fallen in an abyss.

I question myself if I was a rebound.

Often my heart feels hollow. Could really talk to someone.

[liberatingreality]

“The most intelligent men, like the strongest, find their happiness where others would find only disaster; in the labyrinth, in being hard with themselves and with others, in effort; their delight is in self-mastery; this becomes second nature, an instinct. They regard a difficult task as a privilege; it is to them a recreation to play with burdens that would crush all others.”

— Friedrich Nietzsche

[joburt]

Sometimes you just need to sing to a good song so loudly that the pain goes away.

[liberatingreality]

“Don’t bend; don’t water it down; don’t try to make it logical; don’t edit your own soul according to the fashion. Rather, follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly.”

— Franz Kafka

[liberatingreality]

“You must allow yourself to outgrow and depart from certain eras of your life with a gentle sort of ruthlessness.”

— Katy Maxwell, Girl of The Earth

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“You must love in such a way that the person you love feels free.”

— Thich Nhat Hanh

[neckkiss]

MILK AND HONEY pt.3

[just-shower-thoughts]

Being an “army brat” gives you the horrible super power of being okay with losing friends every couple of years.