October usually means so much to me and indicates the change in seasons. I think of the usual things such as horror movies, over abundant sweet treats to be shared/enjoyed, and dressing up as your favorite figure. Today will mark the second year of not being able to celebrate Halloween in its entirety. It was a bit odd to me not seeing children walk down the busy streets in their costumes, while accompanied by their proud parent. Although I didn’t actually see this in person, since my wife is a nursery teacher, her kids had all gone trick or treating. She did mention to me that she saw the results of their evening candy loot journey the next day due to their hyper active behavior to get the class in order…
What I’ve discovered in my venture in the world of social media, there have been trends of art related topics that a community would accomplish together of all skill levels just to take part in a movement. One of them is “Inktober“. I’ve seen this for a few years actually but never actually got around to finishing it. Why? Lazyness, plain and simple. Last year, I’ve only posted one because I was too focused on being “perfect”. It’s 2017, and reflecting over the years, my main issue was starting a project only to never finish it. As an artist, I would have great ideas, note them down, sketch about 20% of the idea, then frustrate myself because I would feel like something is off. The thought of “Well, I pictured it better in my imagination, but in actuality, it isn’t that great“. This mentality actually killed my progress to develop. It’s like going to the gym for the first day and expecting to see dramatic results, then giving up.
In the same way, creating a specific idea into life will take some work, and often times, I’m quite critical of myself. There are many projects that I wish to create that I still haven’t accomplished yet, but I made a conscious decision to go back to the basics first. I needed to fall in love with drawing again. I had evaluate, even investigate and ask myself:
Did I reject my love for creating art?
Do I have time to do this anymore?
Do I have it in me to do this again?
Since coming to Dubai, I had to ask myself that many times. It was a passion that kept burning in me, sadly, I set it aside due to lack of confidence in myself. Since starting my job, its a 9 to 5 job and the commute going home is about 2 hours. By the time I get home, I’m tired and I want to shut my mind off with anything else other than challenging myself to be creative.
“Poison” Legends say that the king of Abotinia cared a great deal for his people, even if it meant giving up his own life to save them. The sword he wielded was called “TOMADOR De VIDA”, aka ‘LIFE Taker’. Whoever uses the sword will have emense power, at the expense of the user’s life. The sword has claimed the lives of several legions….
Come September, I wanted to prepare For this Inktober that I’ve been so fond of, but this year was going to be different. Getting back into the groove of drawing consistently was my gym for creativity. The beauty of it was that I can take my creative gym anywhere I wanted to. My lunch breaks are the times to put down lead and ink onto paper. Everyday, I started making efforts to practice and fill up my creative bank with inspirations from my childhood. Much like in real life, to get more out something, I had to be invested.
Sure, I watch cartoons, movies, and read comics, but what am I doing with all those creations? To me, they should be used to fuel my own creations. Realizing lunch time at work wasn’t enough to draw, I had to be proactive if I wanted to finish this project, but where can I find more time…? Well… I’ve always complained about how long my bus ride to work were, especially going home… (Queue lightbulb) That’s it! Since the ride is smooth on the highway, I can use those 3 hours (1 hour going to work, 2 hours coming back due to heavy traffic) everyday to draw something! Since its just a sketch, the lines do not have to be perfect, the refinement can come later during lunch time.
Although I haven’t finished Inktober completely, and its already November, I’m still determined to accomplish it. This has taught me to stop making excuses and to make more art instead. Much like my marriage, this is a passion I have to fight for everyday. It sure as heck won’t be perfect, but it’s awesome to be filling up my sketchbook again.
“Shy”. Eva when my parents first took in this amazing creature. I really miss her.
Shout out to Apurv (Ah-pu-roov)! I created a sketch session on Reddit, and although several people said they were going, one showed up. Getting to know him is awesome. He’s from India, moved to Pasadena, California to pursue his Masters in computer science, graduated, then came back. Great guy all around and incredibly enthusiastic about getting back into his passion as well. Looking forward to our 3 week meeting!
Inktober 2017 October usually means so much to me and indicates the change in seasons. I think of the usual things such as horror movies, over abundant sweet treats to be shared/enjoyed, and dressing up as your favorite figure.