Cafe Life #9: Hastings Special
‘I became a ghost in the machine, filling several nearly invisible roles’ – scott crow, 2005
The walk from St Leonards to Hastings and back is getting quicker. On New Years Eve it was pretty populated but without excitement. It feels like being in a stop off point before passing into another realm as this one ends. Much of the two towns are still open, except the antique dealers or specialist art shops. There are less boarded-up shops around here than in most seaside towns. It feels less burnt out than most seaside towns.
We are just around the corner from the lovely B&B we stayed in the first time we came down here; sadly fully booked this time around.
Green House Cafe; Hastings
The interior has a lovely set of green and white tiles. The tables and chairs mostly match, in a sort of Art Deco style, but with a more Middle Eastern feel. No tea here though, it’s lunch time. Halloumi burger with roasted peppers and lentil soup. Both are very tasty. There is a decent amount of middle eastern fare around these parts, makes me feel at home.
We sit awaiting the end of a truly terrible year.
Over the road is a smoke shop where two old geezers sit smoking cigars at outside tables. They are no doubt drinking in the atmosphere of the cobbled street, or just wasting their time pretending to be big shots. Witnessing two middle aged wasters sitting around doing nothing in a cafe is jarring; what losers.
We moved over the street to get a chai latte and a piece of cake. I cannot remember the name of the cafe, but it was staffed by nice old ladies and was full of fake old fashioned warmth but I didn’t care this time (obviously I remembered the name later). The toilet was down the steep staircase, next to a food storage area. Inside the toilet there were pictures of Elvis Presley all over the walls, plus a shelf of cookery books.
There were many families in these two cafes. Sitting with their children, grown up and young, sharing the wonderful Twixmas period in their security and comfort. No one seems to be suffering from the breakdown of the country.
Two old ladies sit next to us; one is discussing her grandson and his wife, who is American (‘not a Trump one’). She talks about how he has found someone ‘aspirational’ like him. I fucking deeply hate the aspirational, who use that word because they do not have the balls to admit to being selfish and greedy, or that they do not care what and who they destroy in the process of getting whatever they want. ‘I am a self-serving psychopath’ would be a more honest way for them to describe themselves.
I suppose I am jealous because I have no aspiration, right? Sure, I have no aspiration; except to change the world, make it led by the concerns of people and not the greed of the wealthy; to provide a place for great culture to once again exist. To make sure everybody has food and shelter. But what’s aspirational about that? Fucking idiots. I want to grind broken glass into the gaping wound that this vile society has become; make them feel an inch of the pain they inflict on others. The rhubarb and custard cake is really tasty.
This is a family run place and the food looks great. Middle eastern fare again, I would guess the family are Turkish. The menus hang over the counter, fixed on to old piping, which is a neat look. A very good menu and not too expensive, comparatively. There is some Latin music playing quietly in the background; although it is such an insult to describe any good music as background. Wish I had come here last night, although I did get a good wrap at I Love Falafel next door.
There is a birthday happening. The two kids of the family (kids to me, early 20s probably) must be twins, as an older lady from another shop around here comes in to give them both birthday presents. It is nice to see how much she and the family connect. It brings a great warmth to the place. The kids clearly like her very much and the parents/owners are very happy to see her. She’s a bit too keen that the parents see the presents. She is struggling to breath a bit, says she always does in the cold. England in January; bad luck lady.
This is the most human I have felt since we got here. Daydream has the biggest tea mugs so far, huge white porcelain that contains the powerful drink that powers my impotent writing. The local paper says Hastings council have a plan to end rough sleeping. I should keep tabs on it. If only I could write characters.
Time to leave. It’s cold and NYE is a waste of time, so we retire early to our room. I night of reading, plus writing an appeal relating to the Palestine Action hunger strikers. It will probably be pointless, but doing nothing is not an option. People are willing to die for justice, while I wander around the seaside lacking a purpose. I hate being from this country. Everything is the same.
NY Day can be pretty good but this year it’s a downer. This country’s slide into self-made oblivion; another year gone; nothing good on the horizon; more hot weather; more scheming cunts in political power.
Our hotel breakfast is nothing special. The hotel is fine, but has the thinnest walls and floors I have ever experienced. People upstairs can have a normal conversation and it echos through our room like they are in the bathroom. Not entirely their fault, although you could take your shoes off mate. NYE of course meant people making even more noise, as if it were acceptable. The fireworks went off at midnight then around twenty minutes later the neighbours rolled in, yakking in their phoney geezer accents and clomping on the floor. The virus of New Years Eve got me again after all these years. I had a process to prevent this, but somehow have allowed it to happen again. You cannot avoid the festivities, so find something to do in as quiet a place as possible until it all passes. Thought I had this down after so many years, but once again the compulsion of stupid strikes again and I sit up in bed unable to sleep while wankers pretend to have the best night ever in my ear drums.
Breakfast time is always a laugh in these places as people wander in and you try and match the body with the disturbing voice from the night before. Everyone seems much calmer now. Good for them. Let’s put this away and get out there, there is New Years Day walking to do.
Dark Circles; St Leonards
I have no idea how much a tea is here because we didn’t have any and I didn’t look. If the ridiculous prices of the vinyl are anything to go by, it would be stupid money for an average brew. We go in to look at the records, in the way you go to a museum to see something that you will never own. This is how I engage with most record shops these days, vintage shops too. This is the place to remind yourself of things passed, or how they have been updated and just how much we can be ripped off for the resale of old shit.
Dark Circles on NYD is only really worth mentioning because as we came in they were playing A Love Supreme, which is a fucking awesome record to begin the new year with. I flick through the unaffordable booty with a renewed sense of life having purpose. I must resolve to fight harder this year, in all ways.
There is a complete disconnection between myself and the world when it comes to vinyl, in that I cannot underline enough the fact that only in an alternate reality would I ever pay £35 for one album. It is literally – Literally – not going to happen that for one item of recorded music, I pay that much. Even if I were rich, that is beyond acceptable in my mind. How many second hand CDs could I buy for that money? Heresy I know, but I prefer CDs. They take less care. Record players have endless problems with stylist or drive belts; while vinyl itself is a dust magnet. Caring for it is really not worth the effort. Paying out these sums for something you have to care of like a baby is mental.
There was a Boris live record on Third Man that I probably could have bought in hindsight, as it was not too expensive. I have not listened to that band in too long.
I am writing up these notes around a week later, with A Love Supreme playing while I do. It strikes me how blurry my memory already is of New Years Day, like it was months ago. I am confused about which cafes we went to on 1st January, or was it the 2nd? This disconnection from daily life may be a factor of the modern world, with its sped-up motion coupled with redundant activity and sameness that grinds the mind. Or maybe I am breaking down. My mind is so fractured that I cannot learn anything. I wish I could include more history in these writings, more about the areas, but this does not retain within my mind.
The air is carrying the tiredness today. The light barely able to register.
This shop is all about second hand (and very beautiful) stereo equipment and hot drinks, including a very interesting array of coffees. They have imported coffee from Ethiopia among other places, plus the usual classic teas. As a non0coffee drinker, I am informed this is good, strong stuff; all power to your pallet.
Again this place has lovely big mugs that make the tea warm in figurative ways as much as physical. Again the records are overpriced, both new and used, but the ambiance is nice, if rather dark. Chairs and tables are a little like the ones from school, with wooden discomfort that brings back memories you fought to suppress. The fellas running it seem chill.
Breakfast Zone; St Leonards
Second breakfast has turned into early lunch. We are chewing at the fringes of this time out by now, as we wait for our train that sadly has a fixed departure time. This place is busy and bustling, more Mediterranean fare, along with your chips and beans, apple pie. This is your great gastro-mix. This is the future.
All I can think about is state repression, killing protestors for daring to stand up and fight back. Nothing is new but everything is so naked now; raw, exposed, not even bothering with excuses. I yearn for the death of the American Empire, the downfall of Israel, the liberation of all people.
I am tiring of cafe life.
We really have nothing to do now until the train comes, so spending more fucking money drinking the overpriced tea and staring out a window of this chichi and pretentious little eatery. How worthless. Do I even deserve life? Then again, do you?
There are worse ways to seek time out, it is just a pity more time out seems to be required all the time these days. I wonder if a long-term solution can ever be reached; or do we just grind our wheels until they break?
As we leave this last cafe and head to get our bags, I pull my coat around me. We have a long winter ahead. Replenishment will be necessary, so take it where you can. I will be as involved in action as I can manage, but otherwise it is the comfort of reading anti-fascist books, listening to the winter albums (a wide range, from Street Hassle and Wounded Rhymes to A Love Supreme) and lots of exercise. I need to break this, for myself and my wider role in the world. I must embrace that responsibility.
On reflection, the New Year was particularly pathetic this year; it disappeared quicker than Christmas. Starting the writing up my notes on 4th January, three days before seems genuinely like months ago. I have avoided work for long enough now; if you are not ‘recharged’ by this point, give up.