Broken

Rae Skye Jones. 17 year old. Junior at Bennigton High School. “So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be.”

[clea-clemmons-blog]

I’d love a road trip..I need to get my head off some stuff..Getting out of this place might be good for me..Summer school? Rae- Boo.

[jonesrae]

Yeah I think it might be good for all of us. I would like to graduate on time okay? Sue me. 

[clea-clemmons-blog]

Well there are hundreds of kids who will disagree with you. Summer is going to be great, Rae.

[jonesrae]

Well Jordan and I were talking about a roadtrip. That might make it worth it? And I suppose I'll have time to catch up on my school work. I imagine I'll actually have to take summer school because I'm a bit behind. 

[jonesrae]

I don't really want a summer break. My last six years was summer break.

[coleman-jordan-deactivated20150]

My mom forced my Dad and I to go to church today.

[coleman-jordan-deactivated20150]

  I don’t know I wasn’t paying that close attention.  He’s not famous and he’s not my boyfriend so why should I care?

[jonesrae]

I guess that's true. Speaking of your boyfriend where has he been? Is he alright?

[kane-asghar]

I don’t think so either. It’s only a month until the end of the school year. It went fast. I don’t know if I’m happy or sad about it.

[jonesrae]

I think you should be happy! It's almost time for you to start on bigger and better things. Of course it'll be bittersweet, but I will be looking forward to hearing about your college adventures. 

[coleman-jordan-deactivated20150]

My mom forced my Dad and I to go to church today.

[coleman-jordan-deactivated20150]

Not really.  And his dad was preaching about abstinence today which only made it better.

[jonesrae]

They still preach abstinence? I doubt even the preachers son is abstaining. On a completely separate note was he cute?

[coleman-jordan-deactivated20150]

My mom forced my Dad and I to go to church today.

[coleman-jordan-deactivated20150]

Really boring.  I spent the majority of it trying to get the preacher’s kid turned on and counting how many times he blushed.  The final count was 18.

[jonesrae]

Poor kid. I imagine it didn't take much to get him turned on did it?

[coleman-jordan-deactivated20150]

My mom forced my Dad and I to go to church today.

I think this is the first time in years Dad and I have actually agreed on not wanting to do something.

[jonesrae]

How was it? I've never been to a proper church. 

[kane-asghar]

One more month of school, I think I can do this. It would be nice if the teachers actually tried to keep me motivated.

[jonesrae]

I don't think they are all that motivated at this point.

[blaise-whitakerold]

So...

[blaise-whitakerold]

I’m not doing anyone any favors, especially not for someone that isn’t ‘really’ a friend.

[jonesrae]

Fine we are friends then. You might actually enjoy this. You see I need some adventure in my life and you seem like the best person for the job. I really just want to get away from all the drama that seems to be surrounding me. I don't want to do anything illegal, just something fun. I want to unwind a little. 

[blaise-whitakerold]

So...

[blaise-whitakerold]

Gee, way to notice I was gone.

[jonesrae]

I noticed. I just didn't know how long you've been gone. I have a million other things I'm trying to keep track off. I didn't think we were really friends anyway. 

I do have a favor to ask of you however if you're up to it. You seem like the best man for the job.

[coleman-jordan-deactivated20150]

Please don’t call me that.  It’s weird when anyone who isn’t River calls me that.  

You better not.  If you hurt Amy, I really don’t know what I’ll do.

[jonesrae]

Well I am Rivers twin. I hear him say it so I guess it's just habit. I don't know I like nicknames. 

I won't hurt her. I'm not going to hurt anyone.

[coleman-jordan-deactivated20150]

It sucks.  I know.  Better than you think.

But you just suck it up and get on with your life.  You don’t drag everyone down with you because all that does is make everyone hate you.

[jonesrae]

Alright Jordy I'll try. I'll figure all this out alright? I won't hurt anyone.

[blaise-whitakerold]

So...

I guess I should probably show up to school at some point

[jonesrae]

How long have you not been attending? 

[coleman-jordan-deactivated20150]

Will you quit with that?  You belong somewhere and I’m kind of tired of you always whining about your life.  Yeah shit happens.  But you’re not the only person who has had stuff happen to them, so stop acting like it.

[jonesrae]

I never said I was the only one Jordan. I'm starting to think I don't though. I mean if you look at the facts I just don't see myself fitting anywhere. And I'm having everyone telling me that the one place I feel comfortable in I need to leave. How do you think that feels? 

[jonesrae]

Text---> Kane

Kane: I'm not mad. Just be careful, and not just for yourself either.

Kane: There was a lot of shit that happened to Ames that Robbie was there for.

Rae: I am not the type of person that would hurt other people if I can help it. I care about Amy and I know I missed a lot. I really don't know anyone anymore actually, but that doesn't lessen my concern for my friends and Amy was my best friend before I left. I would never do anything to hurt her. I'm already hurt Kane and it's just a silly crush. I don't know Robbie all that well. He just knows something that no one else does and he alone understands what I'm going through. You have no idea how much that means to me. I don't want to get in the way of my friends romance though and I won't. Honestly I couldn't do anything with him if I wanted to. It's all much more complicated then people think.

[coleman-jordan-deactivated20150]

Well you definitely don’t belong in Robbie’s house either.

[jonesrae]

I don't belong anywhere.