a toy’s kinky diary

I wanna be a free use slut again.

My bladder is so weak. I would come home from work more often than not and I'd start to leak. I can’t hold it much longer. I'd be holding my crotch, barely able to get into the house. Sometimes I'd try and continue hold as I walked the dog. But that, sometimes, was too much to handle. So, I'd just waddle to the bathroom with a wet patch in my underwear.

Hey Jos!

Love your Blog and love your introduction post.. it's the best filmed out one I've seen in a long time.

I have a specifying question before I can send you a real ask:

Are there any terms you would or wouldn't want people to use in regards to your body parts?

Hey! Thanks so much! I’m glad you read liked it. To answer your question. I haven't really put a lot of thought to answer that. I guess that's why I haven't updated that section of the intro post. I tend not to be bothered by terms like cunt, ass, etc. I hope that answers your question.

btw I love your blog. You have some really hot stuff on there. Sorry for the late response.

I'm of a mood

I wanna be dumb and braindead from overstimulation. My brain has dripped out of my pussy. I’m whining and shaking. I’m exhausted. Cum won’t stop spilling from my sore holes.

But I wouldn’t have changed a thing.

Y’know if it ever happens.

I'm fantasizing about being a pain slut for a mean domme.

Oh you like diapers too ? I wanna try one... maybe we can get changed next to each other, we're almost like twins anyway, and it's okay if we caress each other during it, mommy likes seeing the affection we have for each other. When she'll be done I'll hump your hips to be sure that your diaper is extra well adjusted (and maybe to feel the nice tingles) 🐧

Actually no, I’m not into diapers. (I can’t remember my wording from before. Sorry.) It’s cool you want to try them. I think they’re interesting (in theory 😂). I’d be sure to give you lots of soft touches. The more affection we show, the better. Maybe I’d comment on how soft you are so mommy pays attention to us. (I’m here for the nice tingles. I’d make sure to give you lots!)

I saw this post on TikTok a while ago about how there’s a ligament(?) that attaches from the inside of your belly button to your bladder. It’s leftover from when you were growing in your mother‘s womb. Not everybody has it, though.

I bring it up because every time my bladder gets extremely full, achingly full, I feel a pull against my belly button, which leads me to think I have one. Whenever I get super full, and manage to hold it for a while, and then I finally get to pee, my belly button hurts.

Does anyone else experience this?

Sometimes, before I go to bed, I come up with a little story to help me fall asleep. When I first started doing this I was in middle school and these stories were always cute fairytale-like stories. But as an adult, these little stories are much dirtier.

It doesn't help that I've read a lot of smut.

About Me

You can call me Jos. I'm in my mid-20s and I’m from the east coast in the US.

I'm an enby so please use they/them pronouns. Other pronouns are sometimes ok, but ask just in case. I'm pansexual but I also will use queer and sapphic.

I'm currently single but I'm not really looking. I'm into kink and BDSM. I'd say my role is a sub-leaning switch. I would also consider myself a bit of a little (ie part of CGl) and a masochist. And, if I’m being completely honest, I much prefer being a submissive.

I'm a creative at heart. I love writing and drawing. I'm into fashion and design--it's a huge passion of mine. Since I enjoy writing, I like to write my own stories when the inspiration strikes.

I need to have an accident by 1pm, which is four hours from now. Because after that Im too busy to hold. Can you help me today?

I'd be happy to!

For starters, make sure you have plenty of water/beverages handy.

How full are you this far?

I accidentally got all comfy in bed before peeing and normally I’d say fuck it and go to bed but I’ve been with friends for hours without peeing so it’s pretty bad tbh

Oh my god. Your poor bladder. It must be straining so full, so tight. You’re so cozy, I wouldn’t blame you for drifting off to sleep… or even wetting the bed.

I'm fantasizing about being a pain slut for a mean domme.