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21 | minors dni blogging casually and getting worse submit requests to my ask!

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When life gets so bad you start tumblr page again

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Angel spo board please

tada!

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another request, @darlingstatuette here you are! based it off my experience, a little bit more messy party girl senior year.

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purple cybercore on request. so much fun. experimented with hue shifting and it feels very cohesive. i am (almost) professionally a curator, so this is sort of like that. i love putting images together!!!

submit requests to my ama so i can tag u easier

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wow i love making mood boards. if any of you have requests of colors/vibes/specific spo in the middle, pls pls pls submit to my ask. i need inspiration let me cook.

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another one. cleaning out my apartment today, i took down everything on the walls and now its so sad and lonely in here. i think i kicked up a bunch of dust too because my eyes hurt like crazy. tomorrow i am going to buy spackle and paint to fix my walls, but for today i should probably narrow down my book selections a bit more, i simply cannot move 15 books internationally, maybe 7 at most. i have not been doing well with anything, moving is evil.

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well yes another collage. collage before work keeps the doctor away??

drank far too much last night, hungover waiting for 9:49 to roll around and i can move from bed to couch to "work" for 6 hours. i will miss this job. i feel like im in a pre-honeymoon/planning phase at the moment where i can't actually give it my all because i am about to move out but i am preparing my pysche to really commit once i'm in my own place, halfway across the globe from everyone i know. the last time i did that i lost 20lbs in a month, so really can't wait to get over there. my apartment feels stagnant and i just need to get on with everything.

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swear i lost 10 lbs after eating too much protein+fiber boosted pasta. never making that mistake again because i paid for it in stomach cramps and being up at 2am but i feel good now

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collageing my vision. feeling super productive about today, even though i certainly ate too much i am on the right path. i cleaned my room, did my laundry, sorted clothes to pack (including a too small turtleneck sweater i got from my skinniest ex friend for measurement purposes) and to get rid of before my transatlantic move, threw out a bunch of shit from my desk, read 80 pages of my book, and did a quick workout in there too. only one month until i'm officially halfway across the world by myself, and i can throw myself back into this. balance will be necessary, i have to do well in grad school, but i'm working on developing a strict diet, easier to do when no one is breathing over my shoulder.

for tonight, i will be smoking weed, doing a luxurious skincare routine, and hopping in bed nice and early to watch a movie. work tomorrow at 10, all week. i'm getting worried about my imminent move but if worst comes to worst, i know whats important and the rest can get trashed.

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vape died. want/need a new one but its too much money. thinking about investing in a juul but thats real delinquency

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new go to snack of reduced fat cool whip. even if u eat the whole container (which i dont bc its so filling) its only ~500cal. yum yum yum.

anyways. getting high as fuck and doing skincare to make myself feel better. vape almost dead and i need to quit who knows if thats happening. new go to work lunch is a jimmy johns unwich #2 w/ onions and light mayo, ~300cals. ate too much today but it was a salad (400cal), maybe 200cals of rf cool whip and some tjs pork dumplings (270cal). i just need to stop for the day. i have a cherry diet coke on deck in case i get cravings. my boobs look smaller. if i stay strict i might not be skinny for my trip but ill feel skinnier.

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feeling like shit. going to LA this week but look/feel fat as fuck. nothing ever happens ive been through so many accounts and so many "relapses". i miss when i lost 25lbs in 1.5 months bc i was in a foreign country living by myself. gained it all back because im a loser. my move for grad school is going to be no phone, no food, no life other than school and this.

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got termed again im gonna freak out

prev acc was fallingfailing, ig im not going to post anything about stats or food logs or weight updates. just a blog. a normal blog here!