Self - Love: Narcissism

[joshuaandrew1999]

Sa Siyudad ng Baguio

I’m hurt.

I’m alone.

I’m depressed.

I cry myself to sleep.

And I hate myself all because of you.

But I hope you’re doing okay because

I LOVE YOU.

“Sometimes you need to sacrifice the things you love for greater things.”

Sinabi ko sa sarili ko na hindi ako iibig sa’yo dahil alam ko ang standards ko: no affection sa classmates, friends, and even workmates. Ayokong magkaroon nang nararamdaman sa mga taong malapit sa akin dahil ayokong maging awkward ang atmosphere sa pagitan namin.

Una pa lang, nararamdaman ko na ito pero pinipigilan ko dahil alam kong iyon ang tama. Hindi ko iniintindi ang sinasabi nang nararamdaman ko bagkus ay ang aking isip ang mas gumagana kumpara sa puso.

Pero kinain ko ang sinabi ko nang ikaw ay lilisan na. Ikaw ay babalik na sa lugar na iyong kinalakhan. Nang dahil sa impormasyong iyon, nakaramdam ako nang kakaiba na hindi ko pa naman naramdaman simula nang ako ay isilang. PAG-IBIG. Pag-ibig sa ibang tao. Sa maling tao. Sa iyo na alam ko na sa huli ako ang talo kaya hindi ako sumugal.

Pero niloloko ko ang sarili ko kaya sa huli, umamin ako. Inamin ko ang nararamdaman ko sayo nang ikaw ay bumalik na sa lugar na iyong kinalakhan at umaasang magkikita pa tayo katulad nang sinabi mo - Sa Siyudad ng Baguio.

Reference:

http://www.traveltheworldfans.com/what-things-to-do-in-baguio-city-when-travel-to-philippines/

[joshuaandrew1999]

Too Much Flirting is a Disorder

“Hindi ka friendly, malandi ka lang talaga.”

Madalas ay mayroong personality sa isang tao na kinaiinisan natin: mayabang, maarte, madaldal, at ang madalas *ehem* malandi.

Admitted na ang kalandian ay accepted depende sa sitwayon. Either the two person involved are both looking for someone to flirt with o di kaya naman ang purpose talaga ng existence ay ang makipaglandian. Pero kapag ang flirty attitude ay hindi na nagsuit sa sitwasyon to the point na irrational at destructive na ito ay mag-ingat ka na!

Histrionic personality disorder - characterized by constant attention-seeking, emotional overreaction, and suggestibility. A person with this condition tends to over-dramatize situations, which may impair relationships and lead to depression.

According to statistics, 3/4 ng population nang may ganitong disorder ay kababaihan kaya madalas babae ang third party.

“Husay lumandi. Professional! Subsob sa training? Hampasin ng trophy!”

Paano natin malalaman na ang tao ay may ganitong disorder?

Kadalasan sa mga ganitong tao ay yung mga extraverted or jolly dahil mayroon silang kakayahang maging center of attraction. They can manipulate people through their words.

They can divert topics from one another.

Kadalasan kapag nag-oopen ka ng topic about others at pinupuri mo ang iba, isisingit nila ng sarili nila with the line "Ako din ganyan" blah blah just to be the center of attraction.

They're too liberated at madaling ma-bad influence.

They're not afraid to show their skin for the sake of attention. It's part of their flinging strategy.

Clingy. Madalas magpakita ng motibo. Skin to skin touches na hindi naman necessary.

These people ay like transformers. Sila yung mga inosente pero kapag nakakita ng lalaki, nagiging slut.

Treatment? Maari mo naman tulungan ang taong mayroon nito, yun ay kung willing din syang magpatulong. So, the first thing to do, is tell 'em in a good manner and then offer your help.

"Eh kaso nakakainis talaga sila eh!"

Yes. Nakakainis talaga sila. Pero wag natin isagad ang kainisan hanggang sa buto. Intindihin din natin sila. Instead of fighting and hating them, help them.

Men and women may both possess this kind of disorder, mahirap lang ma-observe sa kalalakihan dahil nga nature na din nila ang pagiging frlirt. Mahirap tukuyin kung sino ang may disorder at kung sino ang nanadya lang, pero isa lang ang sigurado ako, lahat ay nagloloko. Yah yah yah. HAHAHAHAHAHA! CIAO!

(c) Mad Alice

Reference:

https://alabamaclinics.net/2017/12/16/histrionic-personality-disorder/

[joshuaandrew1999]

ENJOY LIFE. TAKE CONTROL. MAKEUP YOUR MIND!

“Don’t let people pull you into their storms. Pull them into your peace.” – Anonymous

Like the majority of the American population, I have lived in a cloud of ignorance about the HIV and AIDS crisis. I have never known anyone close to me that has been infected with either of the two viruses. So when the option to research something to do with sexuality arouse, I felt this would definitely further my education about a lethal killer that is roaming this earth.

HIV stands for Human Immunodeficiency Virus, whereas AIDS stands for Acquired Immunodeficiency Syndrome. When someone has contracted the HIV virus in almost all cases, it produces the AIDS virus. Apparently, there has been a controversy that HIV really isn’t the cause of the AIDS virus, but careful research has proved without a doubt that it is the cause. Socially the production of the viruses has caused a lot of hate, prejudice, racism, and above all homophobia.

The HIV and AIDS viruses are technically more complex than what I explained. Now that I talked about what it does to the body is it’s very important to understand how it is transmitted from person to person. It has been documented that the HIV virus is transmitted by the direct transfer of bodily fluids. Those fluids could be either blood or sexually transmitted fluid. Since the virus can stay undetected in a carrier’s body, it is often transmitted to others without knowledge. Those infected with the HIV virus and have acquired AIDS are more likely to transmit the disease compared to those without AIDS. This does not mean that the virus will not be transmitted at all.

There are three possible outcomes with the testing technology that is available now: positive conformation that HIV antibodies are present throughout the body; positive conformation that the HIV antibodies are not present throughout the body; the uncertain result that HIV antibodies are present in the body.

Reference:

https://www.thestar.com.my/news/nation/2017/12/01/debunking-myths-about-hivaids/

[joshuaandrew1999]

About the Blogger

Name: Jessie M. Gunabe

Age: 19 years old

Email: [email protected]

Major: Mathematics

It's easy to confuse sympathetic and empathetic. When you sympathize, you feel for the other person. When you empathize, you actually see the other person’s perspective from their own shoes without passing judgment. Jessie is an empathetic person. When someone tells him that their heart is broken, he might put his hand over his heart and his eyes might well up. This response will probably make the other person feel a little better and builds a connection. His empathy will help him bond with others.

Creative people are what some scientists call "wise children." This means that they are deeply intelligent but also very open-minded about things. Jessie is one of those creative people, so he approaches the things that excite him with energy and enthusiasm. He doesn't mind breaking rules and coloring outside the lines, literally and figuratively. He can make connections between things that others might not notice.

He is both "idea"-people and "people"-people, he sees everyone and everything as part of a cosmic whole. He wants to both help and to be liked and admired by other people, on both an individual and a humanitarian level. This is rarely a problem for him to be an extrovert person, as he is outgoing and warm, and genuinely like people.

He has a great deal of zany charm, which can ingratiate him to more stodgy types in spite of his unconventionality. He often has strong, if sometimes surprising, values and viewpoints. He tends to try to use his social skills and contacts to persuade others gently (though enthusiastically) of the rightness of his views; this sometimes results in him neglecting his nearest and dearest while caught up his efforts to change the world.

References:

https://www.pinterest.com.au/pin/306244843393099398/

https://www.pinterest.com/DgeoGuerin/enfp-thats-me/

[joshuaandrew1999]

PATAY NA PATAY SA PATAY

“Ang malamig mong katawan ang nagpapaliyab ng apoy sa aking pagkatao.”

Mahilig akong magbasa ng mga nobela from Wattpad particularly iyong mga stories na weird ang concepts at may mysteries because I find them very interesting. May isang kwento rito na kung saan may isang character na may mataas na sexual pleasure sa patay. May pagkakataon na papatay siya para masatisfy ang sexual urges niya. Dahil rito, naging curious ako about this matter.

Necrophilia - A sexual attraction or sexual act involving corpses. 

Ang necrophilia ba ay isang disorder? Oo, masasabing disorder ito kapag recurring at intense ang sexual interest sa patay. However, hindi lahat ng necrophiliac ay tumotorjak ng patay dahil mayroon lang sa kanila na ma-aarouse lang kapag nakakita ng patay without touching the corpes.

Ngunit ang pinakamapanganib sa kanila ay mga tinatawag na Homicidal Necrphiliacs. Sila iyong mga pumapatay ng tao tapos itutu-toot nila iyong mga napatay nila. Kakatakot! Regular Necrophiliacs naman ang pinakacommon na necrophiliac na gustong-gusto mag toot sa patay. Nag iinit ang katawang lupa nila kapag may nakita silang kaaya-ayang patay sa harapan nila. May mga necrophiliacs naman na sa patay lang natuturn-on. Hindi talaga sila nag-aarouse sa buhay. Exclusive for deads lang sila - Exclusive Necrophiliacs. 

Hindi naman na lingid sa ating kaalaman ang mga ganitong cases. Kaya kung may mahal ka sa buhay na pumanaw na, mas mabuti kung naroon ka sa oras na i-embalasamo ito. Malay mo, torjakin yan. Hahaha! 😅😂

PS. Necrophiliac din ako. Patay na patay sa kanya tapos patay na siya, patay na patay sa iba. 💔

(c) Shady

[joshuaandrew1999]

Behind Their Baby Faces

"Did you ever wonder why there are people who look like 10 years younger than their age?"

Baby faces. Innocent smiles.

Are you familiar with a movie, Orphan? Esther, the main cast is one of the best example of having a baby face. Sa movie, Esther is a 33-year old woman who look like a 9-year old girl. Imagine kung gaano sya ka-baby face.

“Is her condition possible in real life?”

The answer is YES. Hindi nya na kailangang gumamit ng sandamakmak na pampabata, magpaturok ng gamot para mawala ang wrinkles at gumamit ng iba’t ibang sabon dahil sapat na ang pagakaroon niya ng tinatawag na HYPOPITUITARISM

“What is Hypopituitarism?”

Isang kondisyon kung saan isa o higit pa sa mga hormones na napoproduce ng ating patuitary gland ay kulang o hindi sapat.

Ang epekto ng hypopituitarism ay depende sa kung anong hormone ang kulang sa taong meron nito. Sa selection na ito, ang epekto ng hypopituitarism ay ang pagkakaroon ng mas batang itsura kumpara sa edad.

Kakulangan sa Luteneizing Hormone (LH) at Follicle-Stimulating Hormone (FSH) ang syang dahilan kung bakit si Esther sa Orphan ay mukhang bata. Magkaiba ang epekto nito sa babae at lalaki. Sa lalaki, maaring hindi sila tubuan ng mga pubic hair sa iba't ibang bahagi ng katawan, habang sa babae naman, maari silang dumanas ng irregular menstrual cycle, delayed puberty kung saan mabagal ang pagdevelop ng breast, balakang at maging ang facial features na sanhi ng pagiging mukhang bata kumpara sa edad nila and worst is INFERTILITY o kawalan ng kakayahan na magka-anak.

"Why infertility?!"

Well, dahil nga late bloomer ang katawan, ang bahagi ng katawan nito for reproduction ay hindi pa fully developed causing them to become sterile.

So, kung sa tingin mo ay biyaya ang pagkakaron ng baby face, sad to say but it is a curse.

Maari ring maging kakambal ng Hypopituitarism ang iba't ibang mental disorder depende pa din sa hormone na may depekto sa supply. Kaya kung sa tingin mo nasa sa iyo na ang lahat ng sintomas, then better be aware. Alam naman nating lahat na masaya ang magmukang bata kumpara sa totoo nating edad pero sino nga naman ang mag aakalang may katumbas pala itong mga depekto sa ating katawan?

Ang Hypopituitarism ay isa sa mga pinaka rare na kondisyon na maaring magkaroon ang isang tao. Kaya't kung sa tingin mo ay meron ka neto, ikaw na ang humusga, are you lucky for possessing a baby face or nah? Ciao!

(c) Mad Alice

[joshuaandrew1999]

Habang ako ay nagbo-browse sa YouTube ng mga paborito kong kanta, napahinto ako nang makita ko ang isang advertisement ng Nescafe (Well, hindi ko ini-endorse yan ah!). It’s just that, may tanong sa ad na iyon ang nagpaisip sakin ng malalim: Para kanino ka bumabangon?

A very simple, yet meaningful question dahil kung iisipin mong maigi, parang ang hirap sumagot objectively. Madalas kasi, we are actually doing things according to our daily routine. Pagkagising sa umaga, kakain, maliligo, aalis ng bahay, papasok sa school, duduty sa trabaho and whatsoever. Pag uwi, same routine: maliligo, kakain, self-time, matutulog. Tapos bukas ulit. Diba nakakapagod?

Kaya bigla akong napaisip: Para kanino kaya ako bumabangon? Para kanino ako nagigising kada umaga? Para kanino ko ibibigay ang sakripisyo sa paggawa ng mga bagay na pareho araw-araw? Para kanino ako nabubuhay?

Pinanood ko yung advertisement. Ito yung sinabi:

“Minsan designer, minsan accountant. Noong isang araw nga doctor pero madalas, manager... dahil isa lang naman ang pangarap ko — ang matupad ang kanilang mga pangarap. Marami kaming mga nanay ang ganadong bumangon para sa pamilya. Ikaw, para kanino ka bumabangon?”

Then I tried to ask the same question sa kaibigan kong kasama kong gumawa ng blog ngayon. It’s her reply:

“Bumabangon ako para sa pamilya ko, para sa mga taong masaya nang dahil sakin at para sa taong nagmamahal sakin. Syempre, God has given me this life and He has his reason kung bakit binibigyan Niya ako ng pagkakataon na gumising muli.”   — Buninay, Student

Time to answer my own question or should I say, the question form the ad. I am JoshuaAndrew1999. I am a working student for almost a year. Papasok ako sa school nang 7AM until 6PM and afterwards, I will fulfill my duties and responsibilities as a service crew sa isang sikat na fast food restaurant until closing ng store, 12AM. Hence, I need to have enough strength and power para mapilit ko ang sarili ko na bumangon sa umaga. And I need to find reasons para gawin yon, and here they are:

Bumabangon ako para sa pamilya ko. Para sa mga plano kong umunlad pagdating ng araw. Ang pamilya ko ang naging inspirasyon ko to be a better person everyday. Ayaw kong mabigo sila sa mga pangarap nila para sa akin.

Ako ay bumabangon para sa mga taong nagmamahal sa akin, para sa mga kaibigan ko sa school at sa work. For those special persons who sees me beyond my mistakes and failures. I am inspired beyond words and I look forward in living everyday to the fullest because of them.

Thus, every move I make is dedicated to them and every failure I take is a lesson learned. Ang mga ito ang pinaghuhugotan ko ng lakas sa mga nagdaang taon, at sinisikap kong mapabuti ito.

Ikaw? Para kanino ka bumabangon?

(c) Nescafe

[joshuaandrew1999]

Self - Love: Narcissism

“Lakas mang-asar, kapag siya naman ang inasar, pikon naman.”

May kilala ka bang tao na walang ibang ginawa kundi bantayan ang iba at hanapan ng mali? Iyong inggit na inggit kapag nakikita niyang umaangat ang iba at ang tingin sa sarili ay siya lang magaling, maganda at may bilang? Full effort sa paninira at panlalait sa iba? Syempre wala diba? Bakit? Kasi ikaw mismo iyan. Oo, ikaw! Ikaw ay may Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD) at ang social media ang ginawa mong feeling mo tagahanga mo. Well, para sayo tong artikulong to.

Ano nga ba ang NARCISSISTIC PERSONALITY DISORDER?

According sa Wikipedia (alam ko ang sasabihin mo, “Unreliable naman yang source na yan eh.” Tss!),  Narcissistic personality disorder (NPD) is a personality disorder in which there is a long-term pattern of abnormal behavior characterized by exaggerated feelings of self-importance, an excessive need for admiration, and a lack of understanding of others’ feelings.

Ito ay isang ABNORMAL BEHAVIOR kung saan feeling mo na superior ka or mas magaling sa iba para maging dahilan para puro negative ang nakikita o sinasabi mo about sa iba. Kasi nga, you’re seeing yourself as excellent, powerful, and very important.

Ang mga taong may NPD ay makikitaan mo din ng exaggeration in terms of importance, arrogant behaviors and attitudes, and disregarding the feelings of others or lack of empathy. Masama rin ang loob nila kapag nakikita nilang umaangat or may nakakapansin ng pagiging magaling ng iba kasi they wanted to be treated as superiors regardless of their achievements and actual status. But mind you, sila yong may mga fragile ego, an inability to tolerate criticism kapag sila na ang pinuna and as a defense mechanism they tend to belittle others in order to validate their own superiority.

Since fragile nga ang ego nila so they are hypersensitive na kapag nakatangap sila ng counter criticism, magagalit sila at doon ka na makakatanggap ng mga panlalait mula sa kanila. They may keep their selves compose pero galit na yang mga yan and they will always seek revenge (So, kapag nareport itong post na’to. Hmmmm. Hahahaha) . Furthermore, denial din yang mga yan, sasabihin nila na hindi sila affected. Thus, they will mask that with rage and defiance.

Unfortunately, mahirap ma-treat yung mga taong may ganitong disorder dahil sa social media especially sa facebook. Ang facebook ang kanilang nagiging imaginary kingdom. Doon nila ipinangangalandakan kung gaano sila kagagaling, katatalino, at katataas. Kapag may nagcomment nang negative, makikipagdebate na or worst, magyayaya pa nang suntukan.

Maraming ganyan sa atin diba? Actually sila ang tunay na cancer sa lipunan. Feeling nila sila lang magaling at mataas where in fact, sa facebook lang mataas ang ihi, in reality wala din, baka nga palamunin lang ng mga magulang. *slow clap

Sabi nga nila, “Ang problema sa babae, dapat di iniinda. Yah, yah, yah!” HAHAHAHA! Bye. - JoshuaAndrew1999

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