How I'm feeling.

Joshua Belliardo - 20 years old - Musician - Subscribe to my Youtube channel @ http://www.youtube.com/JoshuaBmusic - Follow me and I'll follow you back!

[joshuabelliardo]

We were supposed to be matching cats! Now shes a vampire and I lost my man-card. #Shelookscoolerthanme #HappyHalloween

[joshuabelliardo]

Taking my little sister trick or treating haha. Here's me in cat form. HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

[joshuabelliardo]

Close your eyes, let go and get lost in the music. www.JoshuauBMusic.com Photo: @olivianemec #TeamJoshuaB #SingerSongwriter #Musician #Acoustic #Independent #PNW #SecondhandSerenade (at The Pin)

[joshuabelliardo]

If you have any photos or videos of my performance at the #SecondhandSerenade show, make sure to upload them and tag me. Also use #TeamJoshuaB! Support the movement <3 www.Joshuaubmusic.com Photo: @olivianemec #SingerSongwriter #Musician #Acoustic #Independent #PNW

[joshuabelliardo]

I'm just getting started. www.JoshuauBMusic.com Photo credit: @olivianemec #TeamJoshuaB #SecondhandSerenade #RonnieWinter #independent #PNW #SingerSongwriter

[joshuabelliardo]

A night to remember, that's for sure! www.JoshuaBMusic.com Photo Credit: @olivianemec #TeamJoshuaB #SecondhandSerenade #RonnieWinter

[joshuabelliardo]

A night to remember, that's for sure! Thank you for the love and support. Www.JoshuaBmusic.com Photo credit: @olivianemec #TeamJoshuaB #SecondhandSerenade #RonnieWinter

[joshuabelliardo]

I am so excited to share this new song and video with you all. I can't decide if other instrumentation should be added though.

[joshuabelliardo]

New song and music video coming soon! #StudioGrind #NewMusic #ComingSoon #TeamJoshuaB #MusicVideo #GangGang #hashtag ##

[joshuabelliardo]

I've been screaming for help since I was 18.

[joshuabelliardo]

#Throwback to my performance at the wonderfull #SFCC! Thanks again for having me, it was a blast performing on your beautiful campus. I hope to come back soon <3

[joshuabelliardo]

Here's a little clip from my #performance last night! This #verse is HEAVILY inspired by my first musical inspiration #Twista. At the early age of 10-12 I heard Twista's #fastflow/#fastrap verse in "let's go". I believe if it wasn't for learning to rap like Twista (Which would later push me to write my own #lyrics and #songs), I wouldn't have developed into the #musician I am today. #singersongwriter style music included. So thank you Twista, you recently came through my city (#Spokane) but I had a show and was unable to attend yours. I hope to meet you one day or perhaps even be granted the honor of doing music with you. You are an #inspiration and a musical/lyrical #genius!

[joshuabelliardo]

I just.. Well.. Let's just say I am very thankful I don't look like young Jack Black from Tenacious D anymore. #glowup #puberty #thankyou #feelingcute #TeamJoshuaB #Joshuabmusic #JackBlack #tenaciousd

[joshuabelliardo]

Thank you for an unforgettable night, I've got so much love for all of you! Shout out to kmajor and SoMo! Thank you all for taking photos, and picking up a copy of my EP! If you post a photo of us, tag me in it :) I hope to see your beautiful faces at future shows <3 #BreatheEasy #TeamJoshuaB

[joshuabelliardo]

I feel myself spiraling. I can't seem to stop it. I'm overwhelmed with anxiety and sadness. A N X I E T Y A 7 letter word that fully controls my life and happiness, it is the reason I cannot allow myself to love, it is the reason I cannot breathe the same way I used to. The self sabotaging mechanisms within my brain work effortlessly to destroy me. Like clockwork, once a change occurs, my brain is ready to tell me I'm not allowed to accept that I may be feeling happy. Because of this, I can't let the one person I'm getting close to fully in, I cannot accept things as they are and just "be". Because of this, I am okay with the thought of no longer breathing.

[expressions-of-nature]

[mufasacunt-deactivated20180516]

Punch me in the face so I can feel something other than this shit