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very very very private identity blog of narcissus. if you breach the privacy of this blog, consider yourself never again my friend.

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updated system list

please note that glitz does not go by that name any more, call him quail

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;) ;) ;) so why is it a surprise thye love merc so much lmao ;) ;) ;)

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I Really Detest ___ For Acting Like Zuko Is A Massive Abuser While Coveting A Literal Fucking Sexual Predator And Horrible Emotional Manipulator

but i'm not really surprised when they forgive their own emotional manipulation and write it away as mental illness constantly ;) ;) ;)

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jesus christ some of my headmates are being really cruel lately and i keep thinking it's me (jude) but i think jason and eren are just active because i don't usually think "i fucking hate you and i hope you burn in hell" about people 

..............usually

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i also have twogami ts'd LMAO... dream: they all ts jojo or daiya

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i block all three of their urls but i bet everyone in the world blocks mine (does the worm)

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fronting a lot today which is fine but also stressful, peko has been fronting often too, but glitz is silent which is scary for us. he's typically the loudest of everyone. he was hit pretty hard with the reality we were being abused haha. - e

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today:

why do you button things?

so i can fold them

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not a lot of ppl have been active enough to front or post but jojo was like soooo happy when we were in times square just ridiculously giddy and excited esp about The Future

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we don't have a god in our system but our mental illness operates in the sense where certain members are considered above earthly dominance and godlike and also we believe we come from a godlike realm, ok, i'm disgusting and fake, bye

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the fact that there's a transboy on my dash boosting his top surgery fundraiser and literally implying that you're not a trans ally if you don't consider donating to him and no one fucking cares and yet when rosa asks for money to literally fucking survive she gets nothing but grief is a perfect picture of transmisogyny lol fuck the queer community

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i feel really foolish talking about my mental illness lately and i think it's bc i've been watching #serial killer shows because now i keep doubting myself and/or wondering if i'm going to become a murderer. Ableism

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i feel really ridiculous for it but i keep getting scared to go to sleep or log off bc i keep thinking my computer won't start up every morning... like i can always go on the desktop and fix it if it does but... scared

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jojo is fun to be around but reckless and airheaded and sometimes a danger to herself mostly... jotaro is the least amicable

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buccellati will just lie to you for 90% of the conversation 

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i would say peko and sonia are my most obvious "shifts" in personality/demeanor for irl stuff but doppio and narancia and jason and daiya are my most dangerous to be around, m............... lovi isn't very fun to talk to either

daiya is alright but sometimes a hassle in public but then glitz can be tooooooooooooooooooo